Chapter 132

I took a deep breath and then stretched out my hand. This position was to let Leng Bingshuang hand over the inspection report to my hand. Leng Bingshuang looked at me with the inspection report, bit her lower lip, and had a fierce struggle on her face. After thinking for a long time, she put the inspection report behind her, closed her eyes and shook her head violently, and her hair was thrown up.

Seeing this scene, I got up from the chair and came to Leng Bingshuang, and stretched out my hand again, but Leng Bingshuang looked at me with a hint of begging in her eyes.

But seeing Leng Bingshuang's expression further aroused my curiosity about the inspection report.

Finally, I could only reach out and walk around Leng Bingshuang's back. My arm slid across Leng Bingshuang's slender waist. I touched the file bag. I grabbed the file bag and pulled it a few times. Finally, Leng Bingshuang finally gave up. I took a deep breath, untied the rope of the file bag, took out the inspection report. The moment I took out the inspection report, I closed my eyes like a conditioned reflex, and felt a little scared in my heart. Finally, I forced myself to open my eyes and look at the inspection report.

After seeing the results, my expression was very calm. Then I took out a lighter to ignite the inspection report. The report burned in my hands, but I didn't feel much hot. The room, which was originally full of books, was filled with thick smoke, adding some flaws to this room.

What did you decide to do?

Leng Bingshuang saw my calm appearance and was very worried. If I was a little excited, she might feel more at ease, but I was surprisingly calm.

You've known the answer for a long time, have you?

Leng Bingshuang didn't even go to see the test report and asked me the question, which means she had known the answer a long time ago. Perhaps in the past, she had got Sijian's DNA and I for examination. In fact, I was very calm on the surface, but I had already stirred up huge waves in my heart. Really, I was very confused and helpless at this time. The test report said that Sijian and I were indeed related to blood and were directly related... If I had been in the past, I would definitely be very excited because I had a future. This is my biggest regret. I thought I could not realize this wish today, but now I actually have my own son, but... Yes... Yes...

Leng Bingshuang dared not look at me, and looked very entangled with his head down

If he wasn't... how could I let him go so easily? I also sent him to study? Everything is because of you... Xu Jian, you should be calm at this time and not be impulsive...

Leng Bingshuang said at the end, raised her head, with a hint of begging in her eyes, as if she was persuading me to insist on handing over Sijian to her and sending her abroad. She could understand the difficulties in my heart.

Am I a useless person? Why...

I returned to the chair and rubbed my temples with my hands

I still couldn't believe it at this time, but I believed in the authenticity and authority of the report

I asked the doctor that your condition should have been obtained before and after marriage. You were not like this before... In fact, you still have hope of healing. I will find you the best doctor to treat you, and you can have other children...

Leng Bingshuang's face was hopeful, and her tone was full of dissuasion to me, but she was afraid that she would anger me, who was in a state of unstable mood.

Call Sijian in...

I waved my hand and interrupted Leng Bingshuang's words. Since I already knew the answer, I should talk to Sijian in a different way.

Leng Bingshuang looked at me, and finally she could only sigh and walk out of the room. Her back looked very lonely, but at this time she no longer cared about this.

After a while, Sijian walked into the room. At this moment, there was a hint of nervousness on his face. He just found the answer in Fengjun's diary, but he was not sure about all this. After all, no one dared to 100% guarantee such a thing, and could only believe in the scientific examination results.

Why did that African father abuse your mother and you? You can continue to talk about it...

I looked at Si Jiandao and didn't tell him the answer. Maybe my question had already told him the answer in disguise.

Sijian wanted to speak but stopped hearing my answer, but he calmed down. He might care about my decision at this time. He didn't know what he thought about alone when he was in the living room, and he no longer had the arrogant and domineering moment.

In my mother's diary, he said that when I was just born, the pervert already knew something. He thought my mother cheated and gave him a cuckold, so he changed completely from that time on. According to the diary, in fact, before I was born, he was still very good to my mother, but my birth changed everything. Since then, he rarely looked at me, drunkenly outside all day and looked for women outside. He began to be harmonious with his mother and did not go too far. But in the end, his personality became more and more extreme, and his attitude towards his mother gradually changed. His mother did not explain anything to him, did not admit or deny, and silently endured his abuse. From what I can remember, he was beaten by him, and no one was willing to play with me outside, or even scolded me for being... Translated into Chinese, it is similar to the beast. For this reason, he and my mother moved more than once, but because I don’t look like an African child at all, people know that I am not his biological son when I was eight or nine years old. I don’t know how many times our family moved or how many places we changed. But as I grew up in Africa, my skin was tanned and my physical characteristics were adapted to the African environment, so my appearance and appearance also changed. At that time, there were fewer rumors, but his hatred for my mother and me did not decrease at all. My mother was always strong and just endured his abuse. My mother said in her diary that this was what she owed him, and she was paying off her debts... In fact, before the child was born, the mother did not expect that the child would be...

Si Jian said this, his expression also changed with his tone. He had a deep affection for Feng Jun. Whenever he talked about Feng Jun, the sadness in his eyes was not pretended.

Knowing the result, I re-examined Sijian's appearance. His skin was very dark and strong. He did have the characteristics of black Africans. Perhaps because of his long-term living in Africa, as well as the lifestyle and diet of Africans, he looked much stronger than me. After all, he was a combination of Fengjun and I, so I could fully understand it. However, it is said that my son inherited the genes of his father, but Si's strong figure, height, and strong... It is indeed not like me. Perhaps it is the difference in the living environment between us father and son when we were young. My father passed away early and I became independent very early. I was hungry and full, and I couldn't keep up with the nutrition, so I was relatively thin and my body had not developed completely. If it weren't for the appraisal report, I would never believe Sijian was my son

Actually, before I opened the inspection report, I had a mentality of suspicion of the report and Leng Bingshuang. If the results of the report showed that Sijian was not my son, then I might suspect that Leng Bingshuang had tampered with the appraisal report. I would take Sijian to the Public Security Bureau for an appraisal again. After all, Leng Bingshuang didn't want me to know the result in his heart. But now, Leng Bingshuang did not make a fake, and the result was exactly what she wanted the most, but she did not intend to hide it from me, which reduced my grudge against her a lot.

Every time he beat me, my mother would try her best to protect me and let the beatings be transferred from me to her. Later, my mother tried every means to send me back to China and let my grandparents take care of me, but... from that time on, I thoroughly understood the human feelings in this society. My grandparents actually regarded me as a burden. If it weren't for the financial support from my mother to remit money, I didn't know if I would become a wandering child. I told my grandparents more than once about what my mother had experienced now, but they didn't care too much about my mother's safety. All they care about was how much my mother sent them every month... Haha

After saying this, Sijian smiled bitterly with tears in his eyes. I have already verified the words he said in Fengjun's parents. His parents are indeed very snobbish and money is the first. I forced Fengjun away from me to marry into Africa for money? Now I have obtained it, but I don't care about Fengjun's living conditions. The water splashed by the married daughter is the most realistic problem they have verified. After all, there is an eldest son at home, and the two old people don't care about the issue of retirement. Perhaps this is the only value Fengjun has to them.

It can be said that my mother is my only support. Only she makes me feel warm, but she left and left the world forever. When I learned about her death, I seemed very calm. However, on countless nights, I was in a remote corner of school or under the quilt at home, I would cry secretly. I have sworn since I was a child that when I grow up, I must take revenge. I must make the pervert who abused me and my mother pay the due price, but unfortunately he also died in the war, which is a bargain. Every time I think of him abused my mother, I wish I could eat his meat and drink his blood...

Si Jian gritted his teeth as he said the last few words, and a ray of light appeared in his eyes, which was a sign of hatred to the extreme.

You hate me, right?

Seeing Sijian like this, I felt helpless and worried, and at the same time I felt a little less grudge against Sijian

Sijian has experienced so much since childhood, and there must be psychological shadows in his heart, which has caused his personality to be distorted, pessimistic and extremely dark. It can be said that he has a serious mental illness, but is all this the reason for Feng Jun's black husband? Speaking of which, all the reasons seem to be in me, although I didn't know all of this in advance

Yes, I hate... When I first saw your name, when I was beaten by that pervert, when my mother was abused by him, when I was scolded by others as a traitor... I knew your name and also the culprit... You gave my mother the fate of abuse, and you also caused everything I endured when I was a child. It can be said that my mother and I have today, and you are the root cause. Since you can make my mother pregnant with me, why don't you take the responsibility you should have? So the moment I saw you, I decided that I couldn't take revenge on that pervert, so I will take revenge on you,?? I want you to bear the price you should have, and you will repay the sins I have suffered with your pain...

After listening to my words, Sijian rushed to me suddenly, looking at me with hatred and firmness in his eyes

At this time, I couldn't look at Sijian. I closed my eyes. Maybe I was really guilty at this time. I don't know what kind of eyes I should use to look at Sijian.

I can explain to Sijian that I didn't know all this in advance, but how could the hatred in his heart be so easy to eliminate? Should he hate me? It should, after all, I can imagine all the pain he suffered by Feng Jun. I regretted it so much. Why didn't I pay attention to Feng Jun's life after marriage? I was escaping at the beginning, I didn't know everything about Feng Jun. After all, everything has become a thing of the past. If I was curious, muster up the courage to secretly go to Africa to inquire about Feng Jun's news, then I will definitely hear these rumors and I may rescue Feng Jun from the sea of ​​fire and fire.

You hurt me, I don't blame you. I do owe you and Feng Jun, but what about Ke Xin? She is innocent and she has also been hurt. You must know that she treats you like a biological son. I believe that her love for you is no less than Feng Jun's love for you...

I opened my eyes and looked at Sijian. At this time, I wanted to cry, but I couldn't find a reason to cry.

Yes, but it's like a war. Not only soldiers from both sides died in war, but also many innocent civilians...

Hearing my words, a trace of tenderness and debt flashed in Sijian's eyes, and his feelings for Kexin were also complicated.

At the beginning, the moment I saw..., I was indeed disgusted with her. I felt that she had snatched her father who should belong to me and my mother. She was a vixen in my eyes. At that time, I thought about destroying your relationship and choosing to make you and her pay the price they deserve...

When Sijian talked about Kexin again, he paused suddenly. He didn't know what to call Kexin at this time. A hint of pain appeared in his expression. It could be seen that he still wanted to call Kexin's mother, but he didn't call him.

But in the end, I found that I really saw the shadow of my mother in her. She gave me warmth and love, which made me feel family affection again, and even love. Maybe my heart was a little distorted, but I really cared about her. At that time, I was even more repulsive to you. Why do you, an irresponsible man, let two such gentle and virtuous women be infatuated with you? This is not what a person like you deserve...

Sijian looked at my face with a hint of alert in his eyes. He had already developed a distorted relationship with Ke Xin. I remember that I had read similar articles and reports before.

A child like Sijian who lived unhappy when he was a child was distorted in his heart, especially when his father was not good to him. Only his mother was good to him would easily make him feel like an ideology. Whenever he talked about Fengjun, Sijian's eyes would show a trace of longing and love. Most of them were longing and love for his mother, but there was always a trace of unknown feelings mixed in this. Perhaps he had a little more feelings for Fengjun and Oedipus complex... At this time, my heart became even more entangled. This was a mess, which was suddenly pressed on me, and suddenly came to my son, a third party who destroyed his marriage, a man who had a cuckold, a pervert with psychological distortion, but I couldn't ignore him. What should I do? Should I continue to hand over Sijian to Leng Bingshuang to fend for himself? With the guilt towards Fengjun in my heart, I couldn't make up my mind for a moment...