Chapter 1

My name is Xu Jian. I am 35 years old. I am a TV reporter. Because I am down-to-earth and willing to work hard, I have a wealth of wealth now. In the years I have been a reporter, I can say that I have been dead for many times. For example, I have secretly photographed black coal mines and black brick kilns, and I have also been to the deep mountains and forests and have been uninhibited. If I want to say the most dangerous time, I will still film the random cutting and logging of Fuyuan Forest Farm. The location of the secret photography was in the deep mountains and forests, and there was no one in the desert for more than 100 miles.In the end, I was discovered by the stolen traitors. I had to run a hundred miles away in the deep mountains and forests alone. I was almost caught by the stolen traitors. If I were caught, I would not be known to me. I walked in the forest for three days and three nights, lost, lost water, lost food, lost, and was lucky to be rescued by an old man who picked mushrooms and pine nuts. Looking back now, I was still afraid, but my salary and bonus were naturally quite large, so I could say that I was desperately earned.

There is always reward for hard work. I now have a wealthy family and a beautiful wife. Her name is Zhang Kexin. She is gentle and gentle. She is 28 years old this year. She is as good as her name, appearance, temperament and personality. She can penetrate into the hearts of every man. Compared with me, her work is much better. She is a Chinese teacher in a junior high school. She is a part-time psychological counseling school. Although her salary is much worse than me, she is also considered a white-collar worker. She is 168 tall and has a slim figure. Because she often has a good figure, she looks very popular and not coquettish. She walks and moves so gentle.

What attracted the most to my wife was her 32E big breasts, very plump, but she did not reach the point of being scary, and was still very proportional to her figure. Her overall image was a bit like the Japanese actress Miyu Kasaka who walked on the road and always attracted the attention of others. Most of her eyes were gathered on her breasts, because she was a teacher and role model, so she was dressed more conservatively. However, even so, my wife was favored by many adolescent boys at school. She secretly wrote love letters to her wife anonymously, and many adolescent children didn't know that the sky was high and the earth was thick every time her wife came back.Tell me, we couldn't help laughing. Nowadays, the child... my wife is more conservative. We met during a simple interview. At that time, I was responsible for making a record of teenagers. It was based on the school where my wife was. So we met naturally, got to know each other, fell in love. Finally, I was 7 years older than my wife when we got married. However, we had a common language. My conditions were not bad at that time. We had been married step by step from close friends. When we got married, my wife had just graduated from college and taught at that school. She was only 23 years old. At that time, I was already in my thirties.

Because my wife is conservative, even though she had a few love affair in college, she was limited to kissing and holding hands. The virgin body remained until our wedding night. Even during our relationship, she would not be with me at the latest at 9:30 or more than 9:30. The phone number of her parents, who are now my father-in-law and mother-in-law, would call my wife and urge her to go home quickly. With such family education and discipline, I can enjoy my wife's first time. This is something I deserve to brag about and be proud of.

What surprised me was that my wife was a woman who made countless men dream of, commonly known as the lady under the bed and the slut on the bed. I was her first man, but she was not my first woman. On the wedding night, I inserted her and broke her body. She cried under me. Seeing the red spots on the blanket on the sheets, I could only repay her with deep kisses and strong sex. She didn't expect that the first night would beAfterwards, my wife was very relaxed. She was willing to try any moves I said, oral sex, or dog sex, and she was willing to cooperate with me. However, my wife's sex posture began to be very awkward. Finally, under my gradual training, she began to become more and more proficient, allowing me to enjoy the gentleness. After all, she was so obedient in the bed, and basically asked her to do whatever she did, but her moan was more conservative, and she never moaned exaggeratedly. We never swear when we had sex.

The only regret is that we still have no children so far, so we went to the hospital for examination. The final result was that my wife Kexin had no problems. The problem occurred to me. The examination result said that my sperm survival rate was too low and it was not enough to make a woman pregnant. Since then, my wife and I have been seeking medical treatment everywhere, including Western medicine, Chinese medicine, Tibetan medicine, and even rural local prescriptions. We have basically tried everything we can try, but there was no improvement at all. This is the only thing that makes me regret it.

Paper can't keep the fire, and the things that I can't have children are gradually known. Family, relatives, friends, colleagues, at that time, I became almost everyone's topic of discussion. Although most people were comforting, there were still a very small number of people who secretly laughed and despised me behind the scenes. Fortunately, I comforted me, accompanied me, helped me through psychological difficulties, and cheered me up again. My wife did not dislike me, never left me, and did not change me at all. This is what makes me most gratified and the biggest motivation for my life.

Since then, I have been working hard. Since I am a physically useless person, I must not be a useless person in my work and career. This is also the reason why I work so hard and hard.

Kexin once told me that secretly going to artificial insemination can block other people's leisurely mouths. Who can know that this child is not mine? But it reminded me that when I went to the hospital, I spent a huge amount of money to take out a semen from an unknown man from the sperm bank, and injected it into Kexin's uterus, which made her pregnant with a strange man's child. Thinking of these, I felt a bump in my heart, just as disgusting as eating a fly, so I would rather bear the pressure than let Kexin go to the hospital for artificial insemination to give birth to others.

As for borrowing those illusory things, I can't accept it even more. I don't even allow regular fertilization in the hospital, let alone borrowing it? So until now, we have no children, and we have even made the worst plan to be a DINK family.

Since I often travel on business trips, most of the time my wife goes out alone at home, and I can't help laughing at her colleagues. I'm not worried about a beautiful wife who is left alone at home? I will smile and leave these jokes. I believe my wife, let's not talk about my understanding of her personality, and my professional sensitivity. As a senior journalist and often serves as a reporter who secretly visited, my observation, on-the-spot response, and subjective judgment are no less weak than those criminal police and private detectives. I am also proficient in various surveillance and secret photography techniques, so all of this is completely within my control.

I am not afraid of others' jokes when I tell you. During the period after I learned that I was sick, I might have suffered a psychological injury, which made me a little suspicious. I have really monitored and monitored my wife for a while, including monitoring her mobile phone, surveillance cameras at home, etc., but my wife has never had any abnormalities. Although many men chased her and teased her, she always refused firmly, and sometimes she became emotional with those men. Gradually, I felt relieved about my wife.

But there is another regret, perhaps it is a psychological problem. After learning that I was sick, every time I had sex with my wife, looking at the thick semen flowing out of my wife's vagina, I would have a voice in my heart and say: Are these semen still considered semen? It looks like semen, and there is not much sperm in it. It is a waste sperm that cannot make a woman pregnant. It is just a sign of it.

I was tortured by this shadow and contradiction in my heart, and now my sexual function has decreased significantly. Sometimes I was premature ejaculation, sometimes I was weak in the middle, and I also went to the hospital for treatment. As a result, a male doctor told me that I was psychological impotence and premature ejaculation, not physiological, and could only rely on psychological adjustment. There was no medicine to treat it. During that time, my life seemed to have reached a low point. You must know that when I first got married, I had sex with Kexin for 5 times at most, but Kexin made her back sore and she didn't get out of bed the next day. As a result, now... I can only...By working hard to numb myself and adjust my heart, my wife has been trying to help me in bed and used all the ways to help me. The result is still not very obvious. For countless nights, I saw Kexin secretly masturbating to satisfy myself, but Kexin showed no signs or psychology of cheating. This is also the most gratifying thing about me, and the most sorry thing about Kexin. What I unexpected is that because of illness, it inadvertently caused changes in my personality and psychology. These were also what I discovered later. Of course, these are all later stories.

Everything seems to be going on like this, until one time I volunteered to be a war correspondent in a war-torn country in Africa. This special interview and shooting, this special journey, made a complete change in my life and family life...