I was in my early thirties when I had sex with my first affair boyfriend Li Tong.
I originally thought that with a lover, I would be relieved of emotional and physical depression and would no longer need to masturbate.
But unexpectedly, I found that after I had sex with my boyfriend, my sexual desire became stronger and more and more unsatisfied. As a result, the number of masturbation not only did not decrease, but also increased a lot.
I tried to explain to myself: Because my boyfriend is a married man, it is impossible to date me every day, so I met him, not only did the total number of times, but the waiting time was too long between meetings every two times; so that I always felt mentally in the disappointment of overly eager hope and often wanting but not getting
In addition, because I rely too much on Li Tong, I have to talk to him at least once a day to feel at ease.
So we made an appointment: He went to work from home every morning, and after he left the door, he called me; I heard what he said, I love you, and then got up
This way, I'll have a smoother day
But sometimes he didn't have time and didn't call him on the road. I would be afraid that something would happen on his way to work, so I waited nervously. When he arrived at the company, he called me by phone in the hall, making me complain that he had broken the appointment and made me worry.
When Li Tong heard my complaints, he was so tolerant and apologized patiently, and was not with me. After I was moved to ask him to go to work, he also said that I still love you!
Just hung up
And I believe more in the fact that we love each other!
I explained to myself: It is precisely because we love each other that my desire for him will become deeper and stronger and stronger
It is reflected in the body, that is, the need for sex and sensory stimulation, which often makes me feel uncomfortable.
Especially, at that time, I didn't go out to work, and I was bored at home every day, watching the daytime soap operas and replayed old movies on TV; I often felt the sexual desire that I had inexplicably developed, like snowballs rolling down, wildfires burning irresistible...
So, although I already had a boyfriend, he was not around when I needed it; this caused me to masturbate more and more frequently...............
Zhu Guanqiu described the plot of my masturbation at that time in episode 25 of Xiaoqing's Story, and even I blushed after reading it myself.
But those descriptions mainly talk about me masturbating with tools. Before that, I had already masturbated with my hands; and, I didn't know whether it was intentional or unintentional, completely ignored the psychological and thoughtful situations at that time.
Therefore, not only did I not want to repeat the plot of how Zhu Guanqiu wrote about how I used tools to slander myself, but I also felt that it was necessary to use my own hands to write a more elegant way of masturbation during that period. This is to be clearer with my feelings in my heart and body: As mentioned earlier, my masturbation behavior is becoming more and more intense, and the psychological factors are closely related to my affair with Li Tong, and it is indeed because I did not get regular comfort from him.
Of course, the reason is naturally the fact that I have almost no sex life with my husband in my marriage!
However, since I have decided not to talk about my husband more, I will only talk about the so-called love, about lust!
I remember that at that time, because I thought Li Tong too much, and the one I thought the most was to have sex with him.
So, whenever I want to masturbate, I will tell myself as if I talk to him: Let’s have sex! I want you again, baby!... Let me give you the greatest happiness!
After saying that, I would rush into the bathroom, take off my underwear in a hurry, and masturbate with my hands!
Sometimes, after calling Li Tong on the bed, I still refused to get up and wanted to sleep again.
So, he jumped out of bed and locked the bedroom door so that the housekeeper would not suddenly break in. Then he turned on the TV and returned to the bed. While he was half asleep and half awake, he imagined the scene of Li Tong having sex in full swing.
At the beginning, I would touch my body outside the clothes, as if Li Tong's hand was stroking me
My eyes were closed, and I could imagine that he exhaled a hot breath, spraying it on my neck and ears, making me unable to help but itch all over my body, but my heart was numb; I couldn't help laughing, but I felt that if I endured this sensory stimulation, my sexual desire would be more likely to be stirred up.
So, I twisted my body as if I was snuggling in his arms; and my strong arms were wrapped around him, his concave and convex chest and abdominal muscles
I can feel my nipples being hard and need to be caressed; and my whole body also needs to be hugged tightly
I seemed to hear him attaching to my ears and saying to me that he misses me so much, that he wants to make love with me every day; I also heard his gradually excited humming and roaring from his throat
Speaking of which, it's very strange
In my imagination of being intimate with a man, what usually makes me most react is not whether he looks handsome or not, his body, or his body is not strong, or even whether his sexual organs are big or not, or whether they look good or not, whether they are good-looking or not.
On the contrary, it is the inexplicable quality that is expressed in his eyes and movements, and the words he said, which is the passion that can touch me the most and make me feel excited indescribably
As if intoxicated, I was devoted to his enthusiasm
And what he did target my body was a kind of impulse that only belonged to men, with wildness; it immediately infected my body strongly.
I teased my sensuality even more intensely, and the empty part in my body couldn't help but need to be stuffed and filled!
I opened my mouth to greet his hot lips, letting his wet tongue penetrate into my mouth
I took my fingers and imagined that it was his tongue, sucking hard with emotion; my other hand grabbed my small breasts, rubbed them enthusiastically like his hand, and even pinched the two hard and protruding nipples with my fingernails, pinching them to make it painful; I couldn't help but moan!
Among the tons of tons, my knees and legs that I had been clamping were rubbing against each other, making the parts of my legs feel wet; it made me seem eagerly waiting, hoping that he would open my legs and let him touch my private parts
The instinct of female animals makes my legs open, but as a woman's instinct, I still want to clamp my legs shyly and not to open them on the initiative.
The body, which was struggling in contradiction, kept wriggling up and down on the bed, twisting left and right; the knees were about to split and then merged, and even the flesh on the thighs couldn't help but trembled.
Well~Um!...oh~Woo! I couldn't help it! Although I was holding a stick-shaped kiss in my mouth, I hummed
I know men like to hear the sounds I make
I could imagine that his swollen penis was erected hard; it was as if he had already taken it into his mouth and was sucking the man's cock
He was comfortably held by me and let out a wave of low roar, which stimulated my sexual desire, making me finally unable to help but open my legs, and immediately reached my hand to my tender lip that was moist, like a flower petal, and was touched on my tender fleshy lips that were as thick as a flower.
The fingers wet with the juice slid into the flesh between the labia, began to rub it, rub it up and down
At this time, wisps of romantic music came from the TV, and the moans of men and women during love, forming a unclear, hazy picture of body intertwining and affection and desire communicating; urging me to join in and enjoy the indescribable joy.
I said to me as if I heard a man's order: Open it, open it for me!
Even though I don’t know who he is, I can’t see his appearance clearly; but I feel that his sexual impulse against me can no longer be suppressed, and his desire to occupy me has long conquered my heart!
I can't violate it, nor can I resist him. I can only follow and obey the order, and split my legs apart.
When his male symbol entered my body as a conqueror, I burst out with a strong reaction with excitement, and immediately raised my butt to greet it
Yes!
I always need and always know that the person I am most likely to be moved by is that I can dominate my big man in bed and direct my!
I don't have to worry about anything, because he can take responsibility and control everything, including making me happy and enjoy the joy of making love with all my heart
Ah～!Yes,Yes!……Ohhhhh!……Yes!……
I shouted out Yes who obeyed him countless times, and I felt that I had given myself completely to him and let him love him, and I would be extremely happy to deal with me anyway.
As long as I listen to him and do what he wants, he will love me more and want me more
So, I tried to hear what he said to me. Although I couldn't hear anything in my body's sprint and the impulse in my heart, I seemed to understand what he meant, know what he wanted, and also know that he loved me very much and loved me very much.
This almost dreamy feeling made my body boil quickly
Like crazy, I responded to his love for me; let him rush around me and vent my feelings.
And I don't even have to endure, nor do I need to pussy, and I quickly fell into the torrent of orgasm
MMMMmmmmmm……!Yes,……Yes!……
After the orgasm of masturbation, I slowly opened my eyes, as if I was feeling when I woke up. It was really hard to describe.
The only thing I know is what I really hope for in my heart, the ideal man is not Li Tong, but a...
Men Not Found in the Real World
But I still believe that Li Tong and I are in love...
I originally thought that with a lover, I would be relieved of emotional and physical depression and would no longer need to masturbate.
But unexpectedly, I found that after I had sex with my boyfriend, my sexual desire became stronger and more and more unsatisfied. As a result, the number of masturbation not only did not decrease, but also increased a lot.
I tried to explain to myself: Because my boyfriend is a married man, it is impossible to date me every day, so I met him, not only did the total number of times, but the waiting time was too long between meetings every two times; so that I always felt mentally in the disappointment of overly eager hope and often wanting but not getting
In addition, because I rely too much on Li Tong, I have to talk to him at least once a day to feel at ease.
So we made an appointment: He went to work from home every morning, and after he left the door, he called me; I heard what he said, I love you, and then got up
This way, I'll have a smoother day
But sometimes he didn't have time and didn't call him on the road. I would be afraid that something would happen on his way to work, so I waited nervously. When he arrived at the company, he called me by phone in the hall, making me complain that he had broken the appointment and made me worry.
When Li Tong heard my complaints, he was so tolerant and apologized patiently, and was not with me. After I was moved to ask him to go to work, he also said that I still love you!
Just hung up
And I believe more in the fact that we love each other!
I explained to myself: It is precisely because we love each other that my desire for him will become deeper and stronger and stronger
It is reflected in the body, that is, the need for sex and sensory stimulation, which often makes me feel uncomfortable.
Especially, at that time, I didn't go out to work, and I was bored at home every day, watching the daytime soap operas and replayed old movies on TV; I often felt the sexual desire that I had inexplicably developed, like snowballs rolling down, wildfires burning irresistible...
So, although I already had a boyfriend, he was not around when I needed it; this caused me to masturbate more and more frequently...............
Zhu Guanqiu described the plot of my masturbation at that time in episode 25 of Xiaoqing's Story, and even I blushed after reading it myself.
But those descriptions mainly talk about me masturbating with tools. Before that, I had already masturbated with my hands; and, I didn't know whether it was intentional or unintentional, completely ignored the psychological and thoughtful situations at that time.
Therefore, not only did I not want to repeat the plot of how Zhu Guanqiu wrote about how I used tools to slander myself, but I also felt that it was necessary to use my own hands to write a more elegant way of masturbation during that period. This is to be clearer with my feelings in my heart and body: As mentioned earlier, my masturbation behavior is becoming more and more intense, and the psychological factors are closely related to my affair with Li Tong, and it is indeed because I did not get regular comfort from him.
Of course, the reason is naturally the fact that I have almost no sex life with my husband in my marriage!
However, since I have decided not to talk about my husband more, I will only talk about the so-called love, about lust!
I remember that at that time, because I thought Li Tong too much, and the one I thought the most was to have sex with him.
So, whenever I want to masturbate, I will tell myself as if I talk to him: Let’s have sex! I want you again, baby!... Let me give you the greatest happiness!
After saying that, I would rush into the bathroom, take off my underwear in a hurry, and masturbate with my hands!
Sometimes, after calling Li Tong on the bed, I still refused to get up and wanted to sleep again.
So, he jumped out of bed and locked the bedroom door so that the housekeeper would not suddenly break in. Then he turned on the TV and returned to the bed. While he was half asleep and half awake, he imagined the scene of Li Tong having sex in full swing.
At the beginning, I would touch my body outside the clothes, as if Li Tong's hand was stroking me
My eyes were closed, and I could imagine that he exhaled a hot breath, spraying it on my neck and ears, making me unable to help but itch all over my body, but my heart was numb; I couldn't help laughing, but I felt that if I endured this sensory stimulation, my sexual desire would be more likely to be stirred up.
So, I twisted my body as if I was snuggling in his arms; and my strong arms were wrapped around him, his concave and convex chest and abdominal muscles
I can feel my nipples being hard and need to be caressed; and my whole body also needs to be hugged tightly
I seemed to hear him attaching to my ears and saying to me that he misses me so much, that he wants to make love with me every day; I also heard his gradually excited humming and roaring from his throat
Speaking of which, it's very strange
In my imagination of being intimate with a man, what usually makes me most react is not whether he looks handsome or not, his body, or his body is not strong, or even whether his sexual organs are big or not, or whether they look good or not, whether they are good-looking or not.
On the contrary, it is the inexplicable quality that is expressed in his eyes and movements, and the words he said, which is the passion that can touch me the most and make me feel excited indescribably
As if intoxicated, I was devoted to his enthusiasm
And what he did target my body was a kind of impulse that only belonged to men, with wildness; it immediately infected my body strongly.
I teased my sensuality even more intensely, and the empty part in my body couldn't help but need to be stuffed and filled!
I opened my mouth to greet his hot lips, letting his wet tongue penetrate into my mouth
I took my fingers and imagined that it was his tongue, sucking hard with emotion; my other hand grabbed my small breasts, rubbed them enthusiastically like his hand, and even pinched the two hard and protruding nipples with my fingernails, pinching them to make it painful; I couldn't help but moan!
Among the tons of tons, my knees and legs that I had been clamping were rubbing against each other, making the parts of my legs feel wet; it made me seem eagerly waiting, hoping that he would open my legs and let him touch my private parts
The instinct of female animals makes my legs open, but as a woman's instinct, I still want to clamp my legs shyly and not to open them on the initiative.
The body, which was struggling in contradiction, kept wriggling up and down on the bed, twisting left and right; the knees were about to split and then merged, and even the flesh on the thighs couldn't help but trembled.
Well~Um!...oh~Woo! I couldn't help it! Although I was holding a stick-shaped kiss in my mouth, I hummed
I know men like to hear the sounds I make
I could imagine that his swollen penis was erected hard; it was as if he had already taken it into his mouth and was sucking the man's cock
He was comfortably held by me and let out a wave of low roar, which stimulated my sexual desire, making me finally unable to help but open my legs, and immediately reached my hand to my tender lip that was moist, like a flower petal, and was touched on my tender fleshy lips that were as thick as a flower.
The fingers wet with the juice slid into the flesh between the labia, began to rub it, rub it up and down
At this time, wisps of romantic music came from the TV, and the moans of men and women during love, forming a unclear, hazy picture of body intertwining and affection and desire communicating; urging me to join in and enjoy the indescribable joy.
I said to me as if I heard a man's order: Open it, open it for me!
Even though I don’t know who he is, I can’t see his appearance clearly; but I feel that his sexual impulse against me can no longer be suppressed, and his desire to occupy me has long conquered my heart!
I can't violate it, nor can I resist him. I can only follow and obey the order, and split my legs apart.
When his male symbol entered my body as a conqueror, I burst out with a strong reaction with excitement, and immediately raised my butt to greet it
Yes!
I always need and always know that the person I am most likely to be moved by is that I can dominate my big man in bed and direct my!
I don't have to worry about anything, because he can take responsibility and control everything, including making me happy and enjoy the joy of making love with all my heart
Ah～!Yes,Yes!……Ohhhhh!……Yes!……
I shouted out Yes who obeyed him countless times, and I felt that I had given myself completely to him and let him love him, and I would be extremely happy to deal with me anyway.
As long as I listen to him and do what he wants, he will love me more and want me more
So, I tried to hear what he said to me. Although I couldn't hear anything in my body's sprint and the impulse in my heart, I seemed to understand what he meant, know what he wanted, and also know that he loved me very much and loved me very much.
This almost dreamy feeling made my body boil quickly
Like crazy, I responded to his love for me; let him rush around me and vent my feelings.
And I don't even have to endure, nor do I need to pussy, and I quickly fell into the torrent of orgasm
MMMMmmmmmm……!Yes,……Yes!……
After the orgasm of masturbation, I slowly opened my eyes, as if I was feeling when I woke up. It was really hard to describe.
The only thing I know is what I really hope for in my heart, the ideal man is not Li Tong, but a...
Men Not Found in the Real World
But I still believe that Li Tong and I are in love...
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