Chapter 2 Sleeping Together

I deeply realized that when I have immoral thoughts about my mother, the happiness of breaking through the taboo is just a moment, just like a torrent. No matter how surging it is, it will never escape the destiny of shattering in the end.

When the short-lived happiness dissipates, the surging pain will completely cover my heart, making me feel like I fell into the devil's way and sink into the sea of ​​suffering

I felt pain I had never had before

Since what happened that morning, I have no energy in class, and this is no longer the same as before.

Now I am listless every day and almost become a walking corpse, and I am unwilling to communicate with anyone.

I know I can't let others understand what I think at this moment, otherwise the situation will be worse

I couldn't help but imagine that I might be forced to be sent to quarantine for treatment as a mental patient

Actually, I was thinking too seriously, but I was still young at this time. Although I learned some physiological knowledge in class and knew that boys would have nocturnal emissions when they reached a certain age, I laughed at the class and didn’t take it to heart at all. However, the textbooks at that time did not teach me what to do when I dreamed of my mother and had nocturnal emissions. Ah?

Would you please ask my physiology teacher for this matter?

This is obviously impossible, so I can only suffer ignorantly

In fact, my mother had long realized something was wrong with me, but because I deliberately avoided contact and communication with her, she could only watch but could not understand my situation.

I wouldn't think about the root of the problem I'm facing

There have been new changes at home these days, and my mother suddenly stopped going to work

My sister told me that she had quit her original job

When I heard this news, I was very surprised

My mother is a half-successful lady, but this does not mean that her career is not successful enough, but that she is successful at the same time, and she is also very considerate in her family. So half of her glory is covered up by her success as a housewife, but in fact she is a successful lady with a career

In the end, I learned through my sister that my mother wanted to invest in a beauty salon.

She said, my mother gave up her career in order to take care of us, but now we are growing up, so she should have her own career.

My sister said, of course, my mother has paid too much for us in the past, so we must support her this time

How to support it?

I don't think so, that's what an adult business is. Why do you always like to meddle in other people's business? You are still young to be a housekeeper, and you have not grown all your hair. When you get married, you will care as much as you like.

I think maybe it was because I just developed an Oedipus complex, so I subconsciously hope that my mother will develop into a family-oriented woman.

As I expected, my above words immediately aroused my sister's thunder and anger, but I have my own way of dealing with it, that is, let her be angry and I will deal with it calmly

Time passes quietly as usual, and I masturbate more and more frequently, and the fantasy object of each masturbation is my biological mother. Now every part of her body has been fantasized by me for countless times. Afterwards, I always feel ashamed of myself and guilt fills my heart. In addition, I heard from my sister that my mother is about to change her career, so I began to try to change this bad habit that makes me feel ashamed.

Since I choose the best time and the best occasion every time I masturbate, and after the end, I clean the scene very carefully and carefully, so no one at home knows that I have become infected with this habit.

Therefore, the weakness and fatigue caused by masturbation on my body was mistakenly thought by my mother because I studied too hard.

What I want to explain in particular is that I am currently in the second semester of junior high school. After this summer, I will be promoted to the third grade of junior high school and face the first major high school entrance examination in my life. So before the mother Oedipus incident, I was very diligent and hardworking. This does not require my mother to urge me. I have such consciousness, and this is basically my mother's credit. She has started to cultivate the habit of diligence and learning from me and my sister since I was very young.

My mother hasn't started to open her beauty salon yet. Maybe she wants to take a few more days off, but because of my intentional distancing of her, she has no mood of leisure at all. It can be seen that she feels very uncomfortable.

In my opinion, if you want to downplay your inappropriate thoughts about your mother, you mainly rely on your willpower. First, try to quit masturbation.

But this attempt was soon declared a failure. I found that when facing the temptation of sexual pleasure, my self-defeating willpower seemed so vulnerable. I was not able to quit just by secretly making a swearing swear.

So I thought I should gradually reduce the number of masturbation first and achieve the goal step by step. However, after a week of continuous progress, except for the first two days, the number of times was indeed reduced, and later I could no longer control it, and finally returned to my original state, and all efforts were in vain.

In the last few weeks of this semester, I was completely troubled by this matter. When it came to the final exam, I walked into the examination room in a bad mood, and then walked out of the examination room in a bad mood. In this way, I ended my second year of junior high school with the worst results in these years.

Finally, it was summer vacation. After my mother knew about my grades, she was very angry and joined hands with her sister to judge me.

Please tell me honestly! What's going on? I think you worked hard some time ago, how did you get such a score?

Mom shouted at me in anger

I think even if you beat me to death, I won’t tell you honestly, so I feel guilty and say, there will always be times when I fail. I work very hard, and you have seen it. Maybe my intelligence has declined, but this is no wonder. Maybe I should take medicine to increase my intelligence.

quibble!

That's just a quibble

My sister was watching coldly, but I could feel from her expression that she seemed to be guessing something. Maybe it was impossible to guess correctly, but there was absolutely nothing good. A cunning light was emitting in her eyes.

Sure enough, after my mother scolded me, she suddenly said coldly, "Mom, my brother seems to be in a thrill. He must have fallen in love with a girl, but he was unable to catch it. He was trapped by love, so he delayed his studies and his grades dropped so outrageously.

Ah!

I almost jumped up. How could you speak like this? Without any evidence...

The sister giggled and said to her mother, "Mom, look, I guessed it?"

Ajie! Is that true?

Mom obviously believed most of the time, and her face, which had just been softer, suddenly became stern again.

At this moment, I think it would be impossible to ignore it completely. I have to give a reasonable reason, but the most important thing is not to let my mother know that I am fantasizing about her. This is definitely more serious than delaying study because of pursuing girls. However, in this way, I didn’t know how to say it, so I wanted to avoid it. In the end, I said impatiently, Mom, I don’t like any girls, but... Oh! What do you want me to say! I won’t say it! I really can’t tell you such a thing! I’m so annoying! Don’t cause trouble for me anymore! I’m going to die!

As I was talking, even I became so popular that I was so incoherent

Seeing me as crazy, my mother's attitude suddenly became soft

She gently stroked my head and said, "It seems that something troublesome has indeed happened to you, which has delayed your studies. Well, mom won't force you anymore, don't be too anxious, things will always be solved."

I was very helpful to my mother's comfort, my heart was beating very fast, and there was no doubt that my evil thoughts came again. However, this time I no longer had to worry about my penis being erect to my mother, because since that day, I changed into very tight underwear, which could greatly make the restless thing hard and not push it out to my mother. I think this method was definitely not my first, I just learned it without a teacher.

I just hugged my mother. This is what I dreamed of. My heart was soon filled with my mother's two soft fragrant breasts. I really want to put the iron-like thing underneath and make it so hard that it is so strong that it is so hard that it is so strong that I dare not kill Ah

This is a sign of a lustful heart but no courage

I could only hold my mother's body tightly and fantasize about her unscrupulously inside.

Mother

I couldn't help but shout, my voice contained a kind of fatigue

Only then did I truly realize that fantasy is tired, and fantasizing about my mother is equivalent to the exhaustion of fatigue.

My mother's heart turned into tenderness and love like spring water, nourishing all parts of my body

That night, I went to bed very early and didn't masturbate before going to bed as usual. It was strange. After I hugged my mother and fantasized, I seemed to be full. When I returned to the room, I had no sexual impulse again.

This is great, I think I can finally have a pure night

But not long after my thought came out, my mother suddenly came to my room

She was not wearing shoes, and was naked with a pair of beautiful jade feet. When the light in front of my bed was on, I realized that she was coming in, which scared me and awakened the desire deep in my heart.

I saw her wearing a loose suspender nightgown with no underwear inside, which could be seen from the two protruding points on her chest.

At this time, her long hair was tied up, very carefully and beautiful, just like the black hair style of an ancient woman, showing the laziness and beauty of a woman

What made my sexual desire soar most was that she was wearing a low-cut nightgown, allowing me to see her stunning breast hook

It was simply a deep abyss. I knew it but still jumped into it without hesitation

My heart almost jumped out

My mother suddenly entered my room, what did she want to do?

Fortunately, I wasn't so confused that I thought my mother came in to take the initiative to have incest and sex with me

She would never have such thoughts, and she hasn't noticed that her son has such thoughts yet

This is great, I have the opportunity to take advantage of it

Sure enough, my mother's smile still has the kindness and tenderness unique to being a mother

Are you asleep?

Mom said gently, gently stroked my forehead with one hand

Then, she naturally took the bed generously, pulled the quilt, slept with me, and covered the same quilt with me.

Uh... haven't fallen asleep yet

I said guiltily

Let's sleep with my mother tonight. We, mother and son, have not slept together for a long time

Of course I don’t have any reason to disagree. I dreamed of it, but it is impossible to have some sexual relationship. But what else can I feel dissatisfied with being able to sleep with my mother whom I have been thinking about day and night?

So I hugged my mother and greedily sucked her soul-stirring fragrance

I'm not afraid of anything happening if I get harder down there

Safety measures are always done

I suddenly wanted to touch my mother's hair, but it was tied up and couldn't do it for a while. Without thinking about it, I blurted out and made my debut. Mom, I want to play with your hair...

As soon as I said that, my face became hot and my heart hung straight to my throat.

Fortunately, my mother didn't seem to think about the inside of me. She did not hesitate at all and agreed generously to my request, saying, I'll put it down.

Then she gently took away my arms, sat up, and pulled off her hairpin. As a black and shiny hair scattered on my mother's shoulders, a quiet fragrance came to her face.

Then my mother fell asleep again in my bed, held me actively, and let my hand go around behind her

I touched my mother's soft hair as I wished

The inner sexual desire swells rapidly

Ajie, why are you reluctant to say your heart to your mother now?

Mom gently stroked my back and said

I couldn't help but stop my movements and put my hand on my mother's shoulders. Then I found that my mother's eyes were looking at me with tenderness, and a bitter smile appeared on her lips.

I didn't know how to answer her questions for a moment, and I didn't dare to touch her hot eyes.

I avoided silently

In a moment, my mother's sad sigh came to her ears, it was because of my relationship with your father.

I thought about it and suddenly felt that this was a reasonable explanation, so I had the intention of stepping down, pretending to be guessed, "Mom, what's going on?"

My mother suddenly looked straight into my eyes. Her eyes were obviously very soft, but it made me feel that she seemed to see through my heart.

In fact, of course she can't see through my heart. I think no one in the world except myself has this ability

Ajie, this is our adult business, don’t think too much, okay? You just need to know that no matter what will happen to your mother and your father in the future, your mother always loves you, and your sister, you siblings, and your mother will not let go. You are all the lifeblood of your mother!

As soon as the words were finished, two lines of hot tears came out of my mother's eye sockets.

I was shocked and my mother actually cried. Since I was born in this world, I have never seen my mother cry, but now I actually cried!

I suddenly felt at a loss and wanted to get up and call my sister, but my mother seemed to see through my thoughts, grabbed me and sobbed, "I didn't expect my mother to cry too?" Why can't my mother cry? You treat my mother like this, and my mother is very sad!

Mom, it’s all my fault, I’m disobedient, I…I’ll never again...

I almost burst into tears, but I know I can't cry now

I think my mother really cares about me too much. She feels that she may lose me and will not live with her in the future, so she is so sad that she cries. I really shouldn't have lie to her. I regret it so much now!

Mom, I won't leave you

I'm determined

Then why do you want to alienate your mother? Isn’t it because your mother is too strict with you?

Absolutely not, mom, I swear, absolutely not, I love mom very much, I can't bear to leave mom

As I was talking, I suddenly carried my mother into my arms. I was definitely out of love. It was rare that this time I was really pure. Mom, please believe me

Mom sighed, as if she was not used to being held in my arms, so she broke free and said, "Okay, Mom believes in you, then why are you unwilling to get close to your mother or say your heart to your mother during this period? You are always upset with your mother!

I……

I didn't dare to tell the truth, and I quit for a while before making up a lie, saying, "It's because mom, you are too domineering. You only have to sleep for seven hours. You have to specify how much time you have to finish eating. You have to take a walk twice a day. I think I can be considered half an adult, I want to have more freedom, but I really don't hate mom Ah. I still like to live with mom very much. I just hope mom won't care about me so tightly in the future.

My mother thought about it, maybe she thought of the scene when our mother and son had a conflict that day. It was because I got up too late for no reason and she didn't allow me to have breakfast, so she finally started to get angry, so she believed me.

OK, mom promises you that you will be given the right freedom in the future

My mother quickly regained her vigour and gently pinched my face with one hand and began to re-formulate my activities rules. What my mother said was appropriate freedom. Have you heard it clearly? The time to get up is not that early, but it cannot exceed 7:30. If you feel bored, you can't go for a walk, but you can't eat for a long time, this has nothing to change...

When she announced it, the time was already a little humiliating. I couldn't get up after 7:30 tomorrow, but I didn't want to protest. I even hoped that she would continue to talk. As she said, I hugged her and stroked her soft hair casually, so I felt comfortable in my heart.

After she finally finished speaking, I instantly felt hot and kissed her forehead boldly. Before she could react, she said, Mom, I love you

Fortunately, I did it very naturally, so my mother naturally thought that my love was pure and my son’s love for her mother, so she smiled and kissed me gently.

I was like eating honey, sweet in my heart, and I felt that the place where my mother kissed me seemed to emit a warm fragrance.

Maybe I was too excited at this time, and I suddenly did something restless: I brought my mother's hair to her chest, and my black and soft hair was spread on her two plump breasts, which made me feel rippling.

Fortunately, this move still did not seem to be beyond my mother's tolerance, so she just smiled contentedly and looked at me without blinking.

OK, stop playing, go to bed quickly, it won't be past seven-thirty tomorrow

She said gentlely

Mom kisses me again and I will go to bed

I'm cheating

Mom didn't refuse, so she came over and kissed me gently on my face, then said good night, then turned off the lights and closed her eyes