Chapter 2

That Spring Festival, I bought a lot of gifts for my family. In a sense, this was what Lin Lan taught me. Although the reunion of my family has diluted some depression, I still became a little taciturn.

My parents knew that I was separated from Lin Lan. I don’t know if it was Xiaoya or Li Yàn who told my sister, and my sister told them

I believe that those who shouldn't say will definitely not tell my sister. Even if I say it, my sister will definitely not say it.

So, when my mother said with a little regret, hey!

Why did a good girl separate? I could only smile silently and tell her that her son was not good. My mother stared at me and said, "You know how to work and work, and you don't know how to make girls happy at all. Is our family short of your money? I've heard that my mother went to Guangzhou to buy a house and give birth to a grandson for your mother, and then she would have nothing to do?"

I smiled bitterly, my dad looked at me, patted my shoulder and said, "Don't listen to your mom's nonsense, work hard, our family will rely on you in the future. A man is a real man, no matter how afraid he can't find a good wife, you will be unable to find a good wife.

Dad, I just want to live a simple life now. Don’t put too much pressure on me, okay? I lowered my head and said, not daring to look at my dad’s eyes.

What are you talking about?

My dad suddenly increased his tone and said, "I'm only 20 or 30 years old and I want to live a plain life. Are you still a young man? Your dad went to the countryside, and had blood and bullets on the battlefield. Have you ever experienced this? I went fishing and fishing today. I have nothing to do. Do you think this is a calm heart and naturally cool? Don't go to the young and go to the sea of ​​fire, even if you go to the world, you think you are born before you enter the world. Do you think you are a living Buddha? My dullness is caused by sweating and blood. Your dullness is laziness, fear, and a cowardly woman who can't keep it and won't chase it? Do you still need your parents to help you?

My dad's words were all stuck in my heart, I was speechless, but I didn't even have the courage in the end. I felt that there was a barrier in my heart. Even if my dad pushed me through the first one, there were higher hurdles behind me that I couldn't climb over.

I went to Xiaoya's house and saw that Xiaoya bought a new house for her parents. It had been renovated. It was not luxurious but beautiful. Her parents were very satisfied with finally having their own home in the city. When talking about that future son-in-law, his tone was no longer so harsh.

Xiaoya did not go home for the New Year, she said Lu San would take him to his house for the New Year

I remember Xiaoya in the distance. She should have arrived at Lu San’s house now. She took a photo of me a few days ago. In the photo, Xiaoya was holding Lu San with a happy look on her face.

I wonder where she lived in Lu San, and would she be shy to see her future parents-in-law?

I took a lot of photos at Xiaoya's house. When her parents heard that I wanted to show it to Xiaoya, they happily took me everywhere. The curtains were so beautiful and the balcony was so spacious. They also praised Lu San. Finally, they took a group photo together.

I sent the photo to Xiaoya, but she didn't answer me for a long time. This girl must be busy serving her future family in Lu San's family. She has always been gentle and polite. I thought about it, but I didn't take it seriously.

On New Year's Eve, gorgeous fireworks bloomed in the night sky. I took many more photos and sent them to her, but she still didn't reply to me.

I thought to myself, this girl may be happy in the Lu San family and she is so happy that she can't bear to leave.

When the New Year bell rang, I received a message from Lin Lan. This was the first time I received her message since she was separated. She said she had received my words and knew that I was doing well, and she was very pleased.

She will keep her promise and wish me a happy new year.

I was a little excited, but it lasted for a short time. I was unable to resist the arrangement of fate and could only bless each other and live a good life. The best ending is

The news from Lin Lan was not too late to stir up ripples in my heart, but another thing had already stirred up huge waves in the lake that had just calmed down like a strong wind.

On the night of the first day of the New Year, I received a call from Xiaoya. I thought to myself that this girl finally remembered to wish me a happy New Year. She happily answered the call.

Brother, I'm sorry, do you have time to come to Beijing? Xiaoya said anxiously on the phone

Go to Beijing? Aren’t you celebrating the New Year at Lu Sanjia? What should I do at this time? I asked curiously

I didn't go to his house, we broke up... The other end was sobbing and sobbing.

Break up? Why, aren't you pregnant? Xiaoya's crying made me anxious

The child has been aborted...I am in the hospital now...Don't tell my parents... Xiaoya's crying louder

This bastard! I cursed in my heart, don’t run around, I’ll come over immediately!

I bought a plane ticket overnight, and then told my parents that the company had an urgent matter to go on a business trip in Beijing. Seeing their actions of preparing my luggage for me despite their reluctance, I suddenly felt a little guilty in my heart

But I don't have much time to feel guilty, I was so anxious that I wanted to fly to Beijing immediately

My sister drove me to the airport. When she got off the bus, she looked at me and said: You have grown up. You should think about what you have. Don’t use impulse to hurt others and yourself.

I nodded, and before I could think about her meaning, I hurried into the airport gate

The plane was passing through the clouds, and I looked at the city getting closer and closer, and my heart became heavier

Beijing, Beijing, this city that made Lin Lan dreams cut off, behind its bright and prosperous life, is there dark and desolate city waiting for me to face?

I met Xiaoya in the hospital. The hospital is the place I hate the most. The pale walls and cold equipment. I don’t know how many miserable separations have happened. It also left me with such a painful memory. Now, there is another woman I feel sorry for lying here, pale and weakly opening another tragedy.

Xiaoya was lying on the hospital bed, her face turned yellow and bloodless, her eyes were empty and she could not see any hope.

Seeing me, she struggled to get up, and I quickly went over to support her, and she got into my arms like a thin kitten

It's okay, it's okay, am I here? I comforted her, remembered the familiar memory, and felt extremely uncomfortable. Why do the women I love have to endure such pain?

A doctor came over, took out a notebook, and said in an expressionless tone: You are her boyfriend, sign here and you can be discharged from the hospital tomorrow.

Don't you have to take a few more days to observe? What if something happens? I'm a little surprised

She hasn't been three months old, and she said coldly, without much trouble.

My mother once told me that you must give birth when you are pregnant. Miscarriage is as harmful to women as a childbirth, but in the eyes of doctors, there are only standards, the standards written in textbooks coldly

I knew that the harm was a lot, why didn’t he treat her better at that time? Didn’t she behave like this now by your men?

The doctor said a little angry, and then pointed to the other side. The beds in the hospital have been tight recently. Look at how many women are queuing over there, it is all caused by you irresponsible men.

He is me... Xiaoya was about to defend herself, but I interrupted her. Looking at the seats there, looking at the anxious faces of those women, I felt a little sad and didn't want to argue.

Men want to be happy, women want money. Isn’t that the case in this society? Who cares about how sacred the love in your heart is?

I walked out of the hospital with Xiaoya on my back and stopped a car with Xiaoya home regardless of other people's strange eyes.

The car was turning around in the city, slowly leaving the city area, and came to a remote alley, which made me suddenly think of Hu Lili again

After getting off the car, I looked at the low house and asked in surprise: Lu San will take you to live in such a place?

We want to save more money, Xiaoya's voice is weak

Open the door, the room was in a mess, the stools fell on the ground in a mess, the clothes were thrown, and the red money was torn into pieces.

What is this? How can I tear all the money like this? I asked in surprise

This is your sister's body selling fee. Xiaoya smiled bitterly and said tremblingly.

This word hurt my nerves. I put her on the bed and said a little angry: What happened? Why is it so ugly?

Xiaoya sighed, sorted out her emotions, and told me all the things she had happened in a low voice

Xiaoya has been to Beijing with Lu San for more than a year. Her life is quite peaceful and her work is relatively smooth. Lu San is also a hardworking man in the company, and his salary is getting higher and higher.

Feelings always become dull with time. As the passion slowly fades away, more realistic problems emerge, and the most important problem is marriage.

Xiaoya's parents have always opposed her being with Lu San because Lu San's family is indeed poor and they are unwilling to marry her only daughter like this.

The Lu San family finally found such a capable son, and they didn't like Xiaoya's parents' somewhat snobbish eyes.

Xiaoya has been working hard to restore such an embarrassing scene, not only to comfort her family, but also to make the Lu San family satisfied with her.

What about Lu San, what is his attitude? I asked

Of course he is standing on his parents' side

Xiaoya smiled bitterly. I always thought marriage was a matter for two families, so I have been working hard to communicate with my parents. I don’t know how many times I have quarreled on the phone, because I have always trusted Lu San. I think he is a reliable man. I don’t want to lose this relationship because of my parents.

With Xiaoya's efforts, her parents finally gradually loosened, but Lu San was still unwilling to face her parents, and just said that she would talk about marriage after she got everything done.

Xiaoya did not complain about Lu San. She worked hard, jumped twice, ran from the west to the east to work, and took the bus for two hours a day just for the job with a little more salary.

Finally, I had enough money to buy a house at home

Xiaoya's parents no longer objected, and only asked Lu San to sit at home when he had time to talk about marriage.

Even if he didn't bring any gifts or money to my house, I still helped him speak. Sometimes I doubted why a man didn't even have this basic politeness, but at that time I trusted him and always stood on his side.

Xiaoya said

Lu San finally went home to meet them. Although he was empty-handed, Xiaoya's parents finally put down their previous attitude. They gave him a red envelope just like entertaining a future son-in-law.

On the other hand, Lu San never took Xiaoya home until she broke up. Xiaoya never met Lu San's parents.

From promising to take her home on May Day to Dragon Boat Festival, Mid-Autumn Festival, and National Day, every time I was busy working overtime, I couldn't make it.

Last time I promised to take Xiaoya back during the Chinese New Year, but as time got closer, Lu San kept dragging it, and he was not even ready to buy the ticket to go back.

This made Xiaoya very puzzled

At that time, Xiaoya was already pregnant. She originally planned to surprise him after following Lu San home during the Chinese New Year, but finally couldn't help but tell him

It is also because of the news that Xiaoya is pregnant that a tragedy finally happened

Brother, do men regard sex as particularly important? Xiaoya asked

Sex is important to both men and women, the key depends on how you look at it. I said

I asked the doctor and went online to check it out. It is best not to have sex in the first three months of pregnancy, as it is easy to have miscarriage

Xiaoya said with a wry smile, I thought he would understand me, at least he would understand the baby in his belly, that was also his Ah, and I remember that he was not so interested in this before, but after I rejected him twice, he was very angry, and he often didn't reply all night. I thought he was going to work overtime, or at most he was angry with me, and I often used other methods to help him solve his needs... Xiaoya even said this

At that time, you told me the story of Lin Lan. Actually, I admire her very much. I definitely can't do such a difficult thing. Actually, I really want to comfort you or help you find her back... Xiaoya said softly

It's okay, those are gone, I said

But Lu San never thought about it for me like this. I just wanted him to understand me for the sake of the baby. Later I realized that everything was destined. Xiaoya sighed and said

Just to not meet his needs, he cheated? I guessed the ending keenly

Xiaoya nodded and shook her head again

Brother, I am really stupid. When he said that when he had sex with other women, I was like you thought, thinking that I could not meet his needs. At that time, I thought that if this was the case, I would forgive him. Many people say that men are lower body animals. I think not to pursue it for the sake of the baby...

What kind of man is a lower body animal? That's not what I said to the person I love. I frowned

Later the woman called me and said that I snatched her boyfriend away. She also said that I wanted to force him to get married with such a despicable method. At that time, I realized that they had been together for more than half a year... Xiaoya's tone was filled with a hint of sadness and anger

After the woman left, I called him and asked him to come back to say it clearly. As a result, I miscalculated my status in his heart. He was just silent at first, but later he also spoke to the woman, saying that I had bought all the money for my family and was not even prepared for the money for marriage... Xiaoya said in pain.

You bought a house for your parents, and Lu San gave him a lot of money, so he was angry? I'm a little confused.

No, it was all my own money, he didn't pay a penny!

Xiaoya said angrily, he always kept his salary himself, and even the rent was exchanged in turn. The house he rented was old and small, and I never complained about him.

Can this fucking rent be exchanged? I got angry

I have known him for five years. I have been with him. I have been doing laundry, cooking and housework. I spent a lot of money on buying a house for my family, but I never asked him for a penny. I thought he, as my man, should support me, but I didn't expect that I had quarreled too many times over this. After saying that I always put the pressure of marriage on him, the woman appeared, I begged him to think about it for the sake of the child. I didn't want the relationship that I had been persisting for so many years to end, and I was pregnant. Later, he actually brought the woman back. The woman said that I used such a despicable method to dominate the man and refused to let go...

I really can't listen anymore, you have to be a little bit of backbone. Why don't you stay there if others humiliate you like this?

I gave up and prepared to leave. They didn't let me go. They made the house messy and said that if I liked it, I would live here. They left. Xiaoya said

I looked at the messy scene in the room and the torn banknotes on the ground and said, "Silly, don't tear the money, it's not easy for you to make money yourself."

Do you think I will sell anything for money?

Xiaoya screamed, this was thrown to me by the woman, saying how many times Lu San and I slept with me together, and calculated it to me by market price. The first time I was considered a little more expensive, so I acted as a sleeping lady. Haha, my youth is too valuable, tens of thousands of Ah...

Xiaoya seems weak, but in fact she is very strong in her bones. I can imagine that she takes the money and then tear it to pieces. I clenched my fists and asked angrily, where is the dog man and woman living now?

Xiaoya struggled to hold my hand and said with tears in her eyes: Brother, let him go! I have already aborted the child. I don’t want to see him again, nor do I want to have any relationship with him anymore. Just pretend that this person has never existed, and don’t think about those things anymore, okay?

I looked at Xiaoya. For more than a year, Xiaoya is now thin and haggard, with a pale face and messy hair. Where is the young and lively woman she used to be?

My heart hurt like a needle, I sighed, and then hugged her tightly

Xiaoya shivered in my arms, like a grass in the wind

Let's go, leave this ghost place, I said