Chapter 1

Lin Lan left me like this

I never looked for her again. Li Yàn later found me. She looked at me with a sad face, sighed long, and said nothing in the end

When I told Xiaoya about Lin Lan's story, the other end was silent for a long time. I remembered that she was pregnant, and then smiled bitterly and said, "I'm sorry, don't be influenced by me, you must live a happy and happy life."

Brother, what are you saying? Do I care about every bit of your feelings? It seems that I have no feelings for you. Xiaoya said a little angry

Thank you, I said

Do I want me to go to her and talk to her well, and maybe I can help you get her back? Xiaoya said

I rejected Xiaoya's kindness. If I wanted to save it, I would have gone to find her long ago

But I can't do it, just like Lao He said, I am a man after all, and I want to live up to the top. Some things are lost and I can never come back. I can only move forward silently, just like Wang Jie's song, going in the clouds and coming in the wind, carrying a whole body of dust, my heart is hurt, my love is cold, and my tears are dry

I put all my energy into my work, I know that this is the best way to heal my wounds, and I also know that time is the greatest therapist

I numb myself with my work. I can make a thirty-page planning plan in one night because I stayed asleep and was like a robot

I often spend all night to modify their homework from beginning to end. The next day I saw their horrified expression, but I felt numb.

My team, led by a crazy man like me, has completed all projects perfectly

I have become the best person in the company. My salary is as rapid as my beard, but I no longer feel as excited as before.

Only Lao He, every time he gives out the bonus, he will tell me meaningfully, brother, since you have come out, don’t get stuck in it.

I know what Lao He means, my diligence is more like a fall in another sense

Just like being addicted to the Internet, being addicted to games, being addicted to gambling, being addicted to work is also another kind of addiction. He obviously doesn't want to see me like this. He said that a person's life is wonderful, and he must learn to release himself in order to enjoy every essence of life.

So Lao He often asks me to go out and relax, watch football games, play golf, row...

Just like the upper class, I have come into contact with many things I have never been exposed to. I also try to accept these things, relax myself, and get rid of those shadows.

And when I am alone, I am still tired of going out and tired of crowded places

Every day when I go home, I always have a hint of expectation in my heart, looking forward to the familiar figure running out of the kitchen and saying to me, husband, you are back

Or when you are at home, you will always hear the sound of the key opening, just like every time Lin Lan comes home

Every time I drive on the road, I always chase after me and take a look at the same car as Lin Lan. In fact, I clearly see different license plates, but I can't control myself and want to keep up.

Later I learned that there was a shadow of Lin Lan everywhere in this city. I wanted to escape, but I longed to see her.

Every time I meet Li Yàn, I really want to ask her, but in the end I will control myself from asking anything related to Lin Lan. Li Yàn also understands my mood and never takes the initiative to talk about Lin Lan's whereabouts.

At the end of the year, Li Yàn gave birth to a daughter, and I gave her a very thick red envelope. Li Yàn shook her daughter's pink little hand and said, "Look, Godfather is here to send you red envelopes, thank you godfather quickly."

I asked curiously, Who is that godmother? I regretted it as soon as I said it. Li Yàn looked at me with a smile. Before I could speak, I already understood

Is she doing well? I finally couldn't help asking

Yes, that's OK. Li Yàn said

If there is anything, you must help her and tell her. I promised her and I will live a good life and let her keep her promise. I said

Li Yàn nodded and said, I will