I watched Wenwen's birth, her growth, all the beauty and sorrow of her life.
When she looked at the world with curiosity, I was with her.
When she was sad and painful, I was with her.
For countless days, we held hands and ran in the alleyway, exploring every corner of the small world.
Now, we are exploring each other's body and soul more, and we must bring new life to this world together...
It is such a rebellious thing that brother and sister have children. I can’t imagine what would happen if my parents knew about it.
All I knew in those few days, all I could do was to stay with Wenwen, comfort her, and let him know that I would always be by her side and never leave until the eternal moment.
Another week later, her period has not come, and she is more sure of the fact that she is pregnant.
My mood gradually became calm. After all, things happened to this point, and no matter how much worries were, it would be useless. The child was destined to take it away.
I kept calling my friends to ask if anyone I knew or seniors who had brought my girlfriend to take the child and wanted to ask them to introduce a clinic that was good at serving and was willing to keep it confidential. Whenever they suspected that it was my girlfriend who was pregnant, I could only lie to them that it was my friend.
After all, I asked about a small clinic in Taipei City and planned to take Wenwen to take her child off immediately after her parents left. Wenwen knew it and was reluctant to wait for that day.
Sure enough, not long after, because my parents took care of the Southeast Asian factories, they took a plane back about ten days after the Chinese New Year, and only came back to Taiwan for about two weeks in total.
Before my parents were holding a pile of luggage, my mother was holding Wenwen and me, asking me brother and sister to help each other take care of each other, but I could only remain silent after all...
When the whole family returned to empty again, only Wenwen and me, it really made me feel an indescribable sense of liberation, just like a restricted heart that finally gained freedom again.
That night, when I was about to go to bed, I couldn't sleep, but I kept thinking that I would take Wenwen to get the child in a few days, and there were many questions.
Suddenly, my door was quietly opened, and under the soft light of the night light, I saw Wenwen walking in.
I looked at her and she looked at me, and they didn't say anything, and there was no need to say anything, just looking at each other was enough.
Wenwen closed the door with her backhand and walked towards me. I also pulled the quilt open and let her lie beside me.
She reached out and hugged me tightly in the quilt, like a couple, lying in my arms and in my arms.
For a long time, we didn't speak, we just let our thoughts settle and time pass.
The purpose of language and discourse is to allow humans to communicate; but there are more things in the world that cannot be resorted to everything in words and exist beyond words.
As long as I can hug her tightly and feel the warmth of her soft body, it will be all I expect in my life.
Smelling the gentle fragrance that naturally drifted away on her body, I gradually became confused and lost in the deepest part of my emotions.
Human beings are born to desire freedom and should not be restrained, nor should they be restrained forever.
There are too many norms in this society, and each one is a shackle, but it can lock the body but cannot lock the hot heart.
There is nothing in the purest love world, no taboos, only regrets and mistakes, which is also the most irreparable original sin in the world.
No one likes such loss, but life is often like this. We can only look back and search for the brilliance that cannot be restored, like a vague phantom.
At least, I still have Wenwen by my side. I haven’t lost her yet. I can still hug her like this. This is all the happiness in my life, even if it may be short-lived...
Wenwen is my sister. I know that I love her because feelings will never deceive myself and will only be ignored, but I am unwilling to let go, because the efforts of feelings will be accompanied by pain and sacrifice, and retreating will only leave deeper regrets for myself.
Do I regret it?
I will never regret it because this is the path I choose, no matter what I have to give, because it has indeed existed, experienced, shined in my life, and that is enough...
Looking into her eyes, I began to kiss her hairline and her forehead.
...Do you want it again...?
I didn't answer in words, nor did I need it, but just continued to kiss behind her ears, her neck, her shoulders, and her arms.
Brother, will the baby be like?
The baby won't be like that, don't worry...
Sighingly in her ear, I moved my hand to my sister's plump breasts and felt all her softness and seductiveness.
My penis started to rush blood uncontrollably and began to get an erection.
Wenwen must have felt it in my arms, but he didn't say anything.
Inside the quilt, I asked Wenwen to lie flat beside me, and took her T-Shirt upwards until her shoulders, and then I pushed her away again and made her naked.
I stroked, held and rubbed my palms against my chest, felt her steady heartbeat, and felt everything in her heart, regular, stable, and constantly told endless emotions.
At that time, I took off her underwear and took off my own. How longing for her, I want her, and being one with her again.
Moved to her, as usual, she had been in an ordinary position several times, her legs spread left and right, leaned her inner knees on my arms, and put her hands on my waist.
At this moment, I suddenly remembered the night more than four months ago. The night when Wenwen finally agreed to love me. We were also in this place, in this posture, completing the first time that both of us were willing to do.
At that time, Wenwen had extremely nervous and shy face, and she was uneasy and fearful about the girl for the first time.
I pressed her, I looked for her, and then I slowly entered her, listening to the surprised screams made by my own sister who felt her body being entered, feeling the tension and stiffness of her body, feeling the tightness and wetness deeper into her vagina, this is our first time...
At this moment, my glans pressed into her vagina and fell slightly, but unlike that first night, there was no anxiety and tension of the girl's first night on her face, only a faint tenderness and inadvertent worry.
Wenwen... Brother is going in...
When my feet slowly pushed my body against the bed, the two blocks close to the front were pushed away from each other. After entering, I felt so wet and warm. With the natural push and squirming of breasts, I had entered the most hidden place in my sister's body.
And she was lying down and just breathing softly as I inserted it.
I entered my sister's vagina again, motionless, just letting my penis feel all the warm caresses from the vagina.
Because of my posture, I pressed her down and looked at her eyes at a very close distance.
elder brother……
She quietly spoke up and called me.
Um?Will it hurt?
Will we go to hell in the future...?
I suddenly heard her say this to me calmly, which made my heart hurt.
Once upon a time, I made her experience the same pain and fear as me.
Won't!!Wenwen, you will never go to hell!!
How do you know?
Because I want you and me like this, I am the only one who can...
It's Ah... Because I wanted Wenwen and me from the beginning, so no matter how enthusiastic hell fire is, I am willing to bear it for her.
But the kid in my belly must...
He is our child, we don’t want him, he will understand and will not hate us.
Regardless of whether Wenwen is only 14 years old or not, I know that she will eventually worry about the child, just like the mother who is worried about the child.
And this will surely become the eternal guilt in my heart...
I felt guilty and didn't want to look at Wenwen, but just lowered my head and closed my eyes, as if I hoped that my sin would disappear, and slowly began to thrust into her gentle body.
The love of this day, until the end of ejaculation, was nothing to say, but more of guilt and regret.
This is not the regret of "If I had known this, why should I have been in the past?", but the feeling of fatigue that I knew Wenwen was worried that something would happen sooner or later, but I couldn't stop her from avoiding it.
Perhaps like us, guilt cannot be avoided...
Without the protection of the condom, I didn't think much about it. I just kept stuttering along the way, feeling the sexual stimulation brought by all this action.
I quickly reached orgasm and cummed in my sister's vagina again.
When the ejaculation was over, I quietly left her body and sat on the edge of the bed.
I didn't feel as satisfied as before, but I felt more empty.
Wenwen should be able to understand all the feelings in my heart, because today I am indeed different from before, and I believe she is the same.
Wenwen didn't say anything, but just took out the toilet paper from the bedside table, temporarily blocking the mat outside the vaginal opening to prevent semen from dripping from the bed and floor, and then went into the bathroom with my company to start cleaning.
We didn't say anything, and we returned to the room, lay on the bed, hugging each other in our arms, and then we returned to peace again.
Perhaps there are too many indescribable mistakes in all this.
Perhaps all of this was wrong since Wenwen and I came to this world.
Maybe all of this was wrong since I fell in love with Wenwen.
Maybe all of this is wrong from my desire to have sex with Wenwen.
Perhaps no one is wrong with all this, what is wrong is the unchangeable fate, and what is wrong is the society that cannot tolerate blood siblings' love...
Except for the children I shouldn't have, Wenwen and I did not hurt anyone, but we had to bear so many worries, crimes and pain.
This is not a fair society. If there are victims, perhaps we are the biggest victims under the group norms.
Thinking about the future of Wenwen and I, my never-to-be forgiven love, and thinking that we must end an innocent life that has just brought the world with one hand. I can't fall asleep for a long time and can't say a word.
Finally, I finally fell asleep slightly.
In the hazy dream, I felt unusual movements, and soon I felt that the warmth in my arms no longer existed, so my mind gradually floated back to this world from the unconscious dark sea.
When I opened my eyes, I remembered everything tonight again and found that the bed beside me was empty, and my lover who was supposed to exude warmth in my arms was not by my side.
In the quiet night, I heard footsteps and soft sobbing, so I stood up to look for Wenwen's figure.
She sat in the living room, she removed tears on her face, and felt even more panic and confused.
At that moment, what I saw was not her, but myself struggling in pain when I was about to sneak into her room nearly a year ago and started the night attack.
People often say that you will go to hell after doing bad things, but maybe you don’t have to wait until the punishment of the world comes after death, because the pain of living in this way is torment the fire, the burning eternal purgatory...
Wenwen will never suffer less pain and torture than me, because she is a mother and she must choose to kill the child in her body.
So when she saw me walking to her side, she stood up and hugged me tightly: Brother... The baby is going to die... We must take him off... We want to kill him... I am so scared... I am so scared when I think about it...
Wenwen, who was holding me tightly, just said this while crying...
When she looked at the world with curiosity, I was with her.
When she was sad and painful, I was with her.
For countless days, we held hands and ran in the alleyway, exploring every corner of the small world.
Now, we are exploring each other's body and soul more, and we must bring new life to this world together...
It is such a rebellious thing that brother and sister have children. I can’t imagine what would happen if my parents knew about it.
All I knew in those few days, all I could do was to stay with Wenwen, comfort her, and let him know that I would always be by her side and never leave until the eternal moment.
Another week later, her period has not come, and she is more sure of the fact that she is pregnant.
My mood gradually became calm. After all, things happened to this point, and no matter how much worries were, it would be useless. The child was destined to take it away.
I kept calling my friends to ask if anyone I knew or seniors who had brought my girlfriend to take the child and wanted to ask them to introduce a clinic that was good at serving and was willing to keep it confidential. Whenever they suspected that it was my girlfriend who was pregnant, I could only lie to them that it was my friend.
After all, I asked about a small clinic in Taipei City and planned to take Wenwen to take her child off immediately after her parents left. Wenwen knew it and was reluctant to wait for that day.
Sure enough, not long after, because my parents took care of the Southeast Asian factories, they took a plane back about ten days after the Chinese New Year, and only came back to Taiwan for about two weeks in total.
Before my parents were holding a pile of luggage, my mother was holding Wenwen and me, asking me brother and sister to help each other take care of each other, but I could only remain silent after all...
When the whole family returned to empty again, only Wenwen and me, it really made me feel an indescribable sense of liberation, just like a restricted heart that finally gained freedom again.
That night, when I was about to go to bed, I couldn't sleep, but I kept thinking that I would take Wenwen to get the child in a few days, and there were many questions.
Suddenly, my door was quietly opened, and under the soft light of the night light, I saw Wenwen walking in.
I looked at her and she looked at me, and they didn't say anything, and there was no need to say anything, just looking at each other was enough.
Wenwen closed the door with her backhand and walked towards me. I also pulled the quilt open and let her lie beside me.
She reached out and hugged me tightly in the quilt, like a couple, lying in my arms and in my arms.
For a long time, we didn't speak, we just let our thoughts settle and time pass.
The purpose of language and discourse is to allow humans to communicate; but there are more things in the world that cannot be resorted to everything in words and exist beyond words.
As long as I can hug her tightly and feel the warmth of her soft body, it will be all I expect in my life.
Smelling the gentle fragrance that naturally drifted away on her body, I gradually became confused and lost in the deepest part of my emotions.
Human beings are born to desire freedom and should not be restrained, nor should they be restrained forever.
There are too many norms in this society, and each one is a shackle, but it can lock the body but cannot lock the hot heart.
There is nothing in the purest love world, no taboos, only regrets and mistakes, which is also the most irreparable original sin in the world.
No one likes such loss, but life is often like this. We can only look back and search for the brilliance that cannot be restored, like a vague phantom.
At least, I still have Wenwen by my side. I haven’t lost her yet. I can still hug her like this. This is all the happiness in my life, even if it may be short-lived...
Wenwen is my sister. I know that I love her because feelings will never deceive myself and will only be ignored, but I am unwilling to let go, because the efforts of feelings will be accompanied by pain and sacrifice, and retreating will only leave deeper regrets for myself.
Do I regret it?
I will never regret it because this is the path I choose, no matter what I have to give, because it has indeed existed, experienced, shined in my life, and that is enough...
Looking into her eyes, I began to kiss her hairline and her forehead.
...Do you want it again...?
I didn't answer in words, nor did I need it, but just continued to kiss behind her ears, her neck, her shoulders, and her arms.
Brother, will the baby be like?
The baby won't be like that, don't worry...
Sighingly in her ear, I moved my hand to my sister's plump breasts and felt all her softness and seductiveness.
My penis started to rush blood uncontrollably and began to get an erection.
Wenwen must have felt it in my arms, but he didn't say anything.
Inside the quilt, I asked Wenwen to lie flat beside me, and took her T-Shirt upwards until her shoulders, and then I pushed her away again and made her naked.
I stroked, held and rubbed my palms against my chest, felt her steady heartbeat, and felt everything in her heart, regular, stable, and constantly told endless emotions.
At that time, I took off her underwear and took off my own. How longing for her, I want her, and being one with her again.
Moved to her, as usual, she had been in an ordinary position several times, her legs spread left and right, leaned her inner knees on my arms, and put her hands on my waist.
At this moment, I suddenly remembered the night more than four months ago. The night when Wenwen finally agreed to love me. We were also in this place, in this posture, completing the first time that both of us were willing to do.
At that time, Wenwen had extremely nervous and shy face, and she was uneasy and fearful about the girl for the first time.
I pressed her, I looked for her, and then I slowly entered her, listening to the surprised screams made by my own sister who felt her body being entered, feeling the tension and stiffness of her body, feeling the tightness and wetness deeper into her vagina, this is our first time...
At this moment, my glans pressed into her vagina and fell slightly, but unlike that first night, there was no anxiety and tension of the girl's first night on her face, only a faint tenderness and inadvertent worry.
Wenwen... Brother is going in...
When my feet slowly pushed my body against the bed, the two blocks close to the front were pushed away from each other. After entering, I felt so wet and warm. With the natural push and squirming of breasts, I had entered the most hidden place in my sister's body.
And she was lying down and just breathing softly as I inserted it.
I entered my sister's vagina again, motionless, just letting my penis feel all the warm caresses from the vagina.
Because of my posture, I pressed her down and looked at her eyes at a very close distance.
elder brother……
She quietly spoke up and called me.
Um?Will it hurt?
Will we go to hell in the future...?
I suddenly heard her say this to me calmly, which made my heart hurt.
Once upon a time, I made her experience the same pain and fear as me.
Won't!!Wenwen, you will never go to hell!!
How do you know?
Because I want you and me like this, I am the only one who can...
It's Ah... Because I wanted Wenwen and me from the beginning, so no matter how enthusiastic hell fire is, I am willing to bear it for her.
But the kid in my belly must...
He is our child, we don’t want him, he will understand and will not hate us.
Regardless of whether Wenwen is only 14 years old or not, I know that she will eventually worry about the child, just like the mother who is worried about the child.
And this will surely become the eternal guilt in my heart...
I felt guilty and didn't want to look at Wenwen, but just lowered my head and closed my eyes, as if I hoped that my sin would disappear, and slowly began to thrust into her gentle body.
The love of this day, until the end of ejaculation, was nothing to say, but more of guilt and regret.
This is not the regret of "If I had known this, why should I have been in the past?", but the feeling of fatigue that I knew Wenwen was worried that something would happen sooner or later, but I couldn't stop her from avoiding it.
Perhaps like us, guilt cannot be avoided...
Without the protection of the condom, I didn't think much about it. I just kept stuttering along the way, feeling the sexual stimulation brought by all this action.
I quickly reached orgasm and cummed in my sister's vagina again.
When the ejaculation was over, I quietly left her body and sat on the edge of the bed.
I didn't feel as satisfied as before, but I felt more empty.
Wenwen should be able to understand all the feelings in my heart, because today I am indeed different from before, and I believe she is the same.
Wenwen didn't say anything, but just took out the toilet paper from the bedside table, temporarily blocking the mat outside the vaginal opening to prevent semen from dripping from the bed and floor, and then went into the bathroom with my company to start cleaning.
We didn't say anything, and we returned to the room, lay on the bed, hugging each other in our arms, and then we returned to peace again.
Perhaps there are too many indescribable mistakes in all this.
Perhaps all of this was wrong since Wenwen and I came to this world.
Maybe all of this was wrong since I fell in love with Wenwen.
Maybe all of this is wrong from my desire to have sex with Wenwen.
Perhaps no one is wrong with all this, what is wrong is the unchangeable fate, and what is wrong is the society that cannot tolerate blood siblings' love...
Except for the children I shouldn't have, Wenwen and I did not hurt anyone, but we had to bear so many worries, crimes and pain.
This is not a fair society. If there are victims, perhaps we are the biggest victims under the group norms.
Thinking about the future of Wenwen and I, my never-to-be forgiven love, and thinking that we must end an innocent life that has just brought the world with one hand. I can't fall asleep for a long time and can't say a word.
Finally, I finally fell asleep slightly.
In the hazy dream, I felt unusual movements, and soon I felt that the warmth in my arms no longer existed, so my mind gradually floated back to this world from the unconscious dark sea.
When I opened my eyes, I remembered everything tonight again and found that the bed beside me was empty, and my lover who was supposed to exude warmth in my arms was not by my side.
In the quiet night, I heard footsteps and soft sobbing, so I stood up to look for Wenwen's figure.
She sat in the living room, she removed tears on her face, and felt even more panic and confused.
At that moment, what I saw was not her, but myself struggling in pain when I was about to sneak into her room nearly a year ago and started the night attack.
People often say that you will go to hell after doing bad things, but maybe you don’t have to wait until the punishment of the world comes after death, because the pain of living in this way is torment the fire, the burning eternal purgatory...
Wenwen will never suffer less pain and torture than me, because she is a mother and she must choose to kill the child in her body.
So when she saw me walking to her side, she stood up and hugged me tightly: Brother... The baby is going to die... We must take him off... We want to kill him... I am so scared... I am so scared when I think about it...
Wenwen, who was holding me tightly, just said this while crying...