Chapter 30

After taking care of Wenwen that day, I never expected that she would slowly start talking to me, approaching me, and even come to me on his own initiative.

I didn't know that she had a psychological change at that time, and I didn't ask her, because I knew that there was no need to ask...

Wenwen doesn't really hate me, she just can't accept that I would do such a thing to her.

But because of this, I can't forgive myself even more...

Perhaps it was because of my natural desire for sex, or perhaps no one could resist the desire. When Wenwen leaned back to me, the desire that had been suppressed by regret in my heart slowly emerged in my heart.

Anyone with experience in sex knows that other ways of sexual desire can no longer be satisfied except for sex.

At that time, I longed for Wenwen's body again, and her wet and warm vagina... At the beginning, I could tell myself that I must never hurt her again.

But as the days pass by, the cracks between us gradually heal, and the desire in my heart becomes deeper.

Several times, I stood behind her inadvertently, and smelled the scent that drifted, which made me feel a desire to hold her tightly.

I really want to hug her, just like that night, my hands touched her curves, held her breasts, and felt all the pulses of her life.

Several times, when Wenwen was taking a shower, I couldn't help but wander outside the bathroom door, and I would have the desire to open the door.

I really want to go back to my childhood, use the excuse of taking a bath to explore her body, observe her vagina and share the secrets of each other's bodies.

Several times, I had to tighten my desires and kept shouting to the heaven: "Why must we be brothers and sisters?" Why do we have such a blood relationship that has been abandoned? 'This is really a pain that outsiders cannot experience. It is long and endless, tormenting me every day.

Several times, I would thank the heaven again for this, so that Wenwen and I were brothers and sisters, and we could meet in this world and live under the same roof every day.

Otherwise, I will always have to endure loneliness, to endure the days when she is not beautiful, and even lose her in my life, just like a day when passers-by will never meet again...

Sometimes, she would come to my room to borrow a computer.

I always lie on my bed covered with a quilt and pretend to rest or sleep. I secretly look at Wenwen's body and recall that night, and masturbate with my hands, hoping to get the satisfaction of my desires in my heart.

But such satisfaction is always rare and empty.

At that time, I knew that it was only a matter of time before I fell into the desire of hell again...

I can't remember what day it was?

All I know is that I finally succumbed to desire and whispered to the laundry balcony behind the bathroom while she was taking a shower.

I was very nervous at that time. After all, if Wenwen discovered it, maybe she would not forgive me again this time.

I even know that I shouldn't do this anymore, but I just can't bear it, just like before, always driven by desire.

I carefully looked at the bathroom windows that were not completely closed, leaving one-third of the space, and occasionally the heat would drift out.

I know that as long as I am careful enough, I can still see Wenwen's naked body through the window, everything that is uncovered with her body.

But if I do this, no matter whether she discovers it or not, such behavior is hurting Wenwen...

After struggling for a while, I finally leaned over my head irresistible.

Unexpectedly, this will change my life forever...

At first, I was surprised that I didn't see anything, just as the bathroom was empty, only the sound of water flowing out.

Then I raised my feet and saw her unclothed sitting on the edge of the bathtub with her back facing me, and lowered forward to wash her hair.

Wenwen didn't notice that I was peeking at her, and I could only look at the curve of her back.

In the nervous and scared mood, I actually felt a sense of happiness, stability and satisfaction.

In less than half a minute, because I was not afraid of the peace of mind that Wenwen discovered for the time being, my little brother began to react, longing for more stimulation and pleasure.

I took out my penis from the edge of my shorts and held it in my hand to start masturbating.

Secretly looking at Wenwen's back, I fantasized about all the passing of that night and all the feelings of her body.

It is indeed incomparable to the vaginal feeling, and there is no way to fully satisfy it, but I had no choice at that time, and I could only use it to express the desire in my heart.

In my mind, I have always imagined all kinds of hers, shy, open, orgasm, passionate, and stepping into the climax of having sex with me.

But all this is a sad fantasy after all...

I finally reached my climax and sprayed my semen towards the wall, as if I was inserting it into Wenwen's vagina.

After ejaculation, the emptiness and pain of desire are caused by the ejaculation...

At that time, looking at the semen on the wall, I began to blame myself for not doing such a thing.

But I just blame myself like this every time. How many times can I really stop these behaviors?

Just then, Wenwen washed her hair and stood up. Unlike before, she sat with her back to me, and if I looked at it again, it would only increase her chances of being discovered by her, so I quickly turned around and wanted to go silently to get the toilet paper back to wipe the semen on the wall before going back to the room.

Unexpectedly, I didn't notice the small broom at my feet and kicked it hard, and fell to the ground to make a loud noise.

I was shocked at that time. When I saw Wenwen, I immediately turned my head and looked over. Then I squatted down reflexively.

At that time, I didn't know if she saw me?

I hope she didn't see it.

But after all, it was just hope... Then I could only try not to make any sound and rushed towards my room.

In my room, I listened very carefully to all the sounds coming from the bathroom.

In addition to worrying about being seen by Wenwen, I have always been thinking about the semen on the wall.

But now I can't do anything, I can only hope that the already dark balcony would not be seen.

Wenwen opened the bathroom door a few minutes later and walked out, and then I heard her walk towards the balcony behind.

My heart was beating violently at that time, and I hope she would just take a look and leave.

Later, she really left in less than ten seconds and walked past my room and towards the living room.

I took a breath and felt a little relieved, but I didn't expect her to walk back from the living room.

I thought she was going back to my room, but she didn't expect that she would walk to my room, then open my door and walk in.

At that time, she opened my door and I knew that things were in terrible. It was like being hit by lightning. I instantly burst into two ears and couldn't react.

Wenwen was wearing the extra-long T-Shirt and stood in my room. Her hair was still wet and not blown dry. She asked me expressionlessly: You just peeked, right?I saw your face.

At that time, I had no idea how to respond to her, so I could only accept my fate, let alone respond to her.

After a few seconds, Wenwen should have been sure that I didn’t plan to answer, so she took the initiative to speak: Brother... Why do you do this?

When she asked me, I suddenly felt that she was not very angry, but instead made me feel that she really couldn't understand my behavior, so I asked me like this.

And I don't know what else I can say?

I can't say anything at all, so I can only keep silent...

Later, Wenwen said nothing and turned around and walked out.

I was alone in the room at that time, and I felt mixed emotions again.

For the sake of desire, I hurt Wenwen and invaded her body again.

No wonder the older generation often says that the most terrifying thing in the world is the endless desires of people.

At that time, I had a feeling that I should follow her and have a good talk with Wenwen to let her know all my thoughts.

I have always longed for Wenwen to understand my feelings, my pain, and my love for her.

But I don’t know what would happen if I really told her that I loved breasts, so I was also very scared, always afraid, afraid that if I told her, I would lose her forever.

And this is what I cannot accept the most. I cannot lose her since I found out that I fell in love with her.

But I also know that if I refuse to face my feelings, I will definitely destroy myself because of this and there is no way to save it.

So, I also walked out with Wenwen...

When I walked past her room, I saw that it was dark and they were not closed, so she must be in the living room.

But the TV in the living room was not turned on, and the speaker was not turned on, everything was so dead and silent...

At that moment, I was really confused that she was going out or still staying in the living room?

But because I thought of not hearing the sound of the door opening and closing, she must be in the living room.

I walked into the living room, and Wenwen was indeed sitting on the sofa.

She looked at me as if she knew I would follow her.

I looked at her, she looked at me, and we didn't say anything at that time.

Later, Wenwen broke the silence and asked me: Why do you keep doing this?

Facing her inquiry again, I didn't know whether to answer her or not, and even wanted to escape.

But I finally told her: ┅┅Wenwen, do you still remember the games we often played when we were young?

After listening, she simply nodded to me and said that she still remembers it.

After a while, I spoke again: Brother, I was very curious about sex at that time, so I was like that...

She didn't say anything, but she was still listening quietly.

But her reaction made me start to retreat again, and I want to find an excuse for myself.

My brother knows it’s strange to say this... but because of me... I can’t control it...

Wenwen looked at me without saying a word, as if she knew that this was an excuse I always would say.

Looking at her expression, I could no longer bear the conflict in my heart at that time.

Later, I told myself that I could not escape, otherwise I would hurt Wenwen again like that night, and I would lose her forever.

┅┅Wenwen, I love breasts┅┅ Because my brother really loves breasts┅┅

When I finally told Wenwen about my feelings for her, at that moment, I was like putting down the big stone in my heart, the secret that had been hidden for a long time, and was able to be liberated.

I will never forget Wenwen's expression at that time.

I could see that, she was a little surprised and didn't know how to respond to me.

But I don't need her response, because I know that things have come to this point and I can only leave her.

Sorry, Wenwen... my brother would tell his parents that he would leave this house. After I graduated from school this year, I would move out to live alone. Maybe I would be in the army soon. Then my milk will go to my grandmother's house. My grandmother will take care of her...

At that time, I really had this kind of awareness, because in addition to my own life, I would also destroy Lian Wenwen's life, and this is definitely not what I hope to see.

If it is painful, I would rather suffer by myself than see my beloved woman and my sister ruined their whole life because of my relationship.

Then, I turned around and left the living room and walked towards the corridor...

I first walked to the balcony behind to clean up the semen on the wall, then went back to my room and closed the door.

That night, after that moment of confession, my heart was extremely calm.

At that time, I didn't pay attention to Wenwen's voice in the living room, but I felt that my heart, which had been chaotic for several years, finally calmed down.

I was lying on my own bed, really thinking that I might feel lonely and painful in the future, but as long as Wenwen can walk towards the normal life path she should take, no matter what kind of pain and loneliness I am willing to bear it alone.

After all, Wenwen is still just a little girl in the third grade of junior high school. She is not big or small, but she is still a little adult after all.

I can't just destroy her life. She still has her own life, there will be a man who loves her, a child of her own, and a happy family of her own... And such a life belongs to her...

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but shed tears.

Maybe my heart finally calmed down, but I felt a strong sense of injustice and loss.

Why did I fall in love with my sister?

Why can’t brothers and sisters be together?

That night, I covered my face with a quilt and cried bitterly. I never had such pain and loss anymore, hoping to find a way out for my pain.

But I also know that I will never find it, and I also know that this is something I will never change the facts...