Chapter 14 Confession

Why did you pay attention to him later?Why did you start going to bed?

I began to ask her the key point, did I really have to cross-examine what specific plots I would stop?

I don't know, I don't even know what it means to ask her about this.

Na sighed and continued: I was really angry when I came out of the dormitory that day. He didn't respect me. I really thought at that time that I wouldn't pay attention to him again.

well……

She sighed again and continued: On New Year's Day, he kept sending me text messages and calls. I didn't answer at first, but I was afraid that you would be unhappy when you heard so many text messages and calls when you were at home, so I answered them secretly. As a result, he cried very hard that time, saying that he was sorry for me, saying that he regretted what he did to me, and saying that he wanted to find a place where no one was going to commit suicide.

I'm about to laugh, it's so funny, you can't tell the difference between such an obvious lie?

You are 12 years older than him, and you will be tortured by a little child to give up your thoughts?

But I suddenly asked myself that Na's lack of social experience is really related to me, a husband. I gave her too much help and care, so that she never really touched the darkness of this society from home to school to marriage. She is too simple.

I was also very surprised that Xie Fei's performance was able to deceive someone who was so much bigger than him.

Then what?

I asked.

She said slowly: After answering the phone, I was worried that he really couldn't think of it, so I drove to see him. I don't remember New Year's Day. I didn't have a holiday at all, so I asked: What day is that?

On January 2nd, I thought about it for a long time and was really unimpressed, so I signaled her to continue.

We talked a lot that day, and he talked a lot about him. I just think he is very pity...

Can pity?

I interrupted her again.

She thought for a while and said: He is a single child like me. His mother raised him. He always wanted to achieve some results to honor his mother. In 2009, his mother was laid off, so he had to come out to find a job to share the pressure of his mother. However, he only had high school education. Not only did he find a job, he was tired, but he also bullied him all day long, so he went to Beijing to defect to his father. As a result, his father was not good to him, and he was almost alone outside.

Na's speech began to fluently, although her voice was still very small, but she seemed determined not to hide it from me anymore and opened her heart to tell a story about what happened between them.

I actually began to calm down. It’s not that her story attracted me a lot. But now I really want to know why Na took this step. If she really cared about me and this family as she said, how could she do such a destruction of this family?

I am almost the same as his family, but I was lucky enough to meet you. Without making any efforts, I could enjoy things that ordinary people could not enjoy.

I was still a little proud when she said these words. After all, she did not deny my efforts over the years.

But Xie Fei was different. He was very hard and everything went smoothly. Then he met me and fell in love with me, but was frustrated. I knew at that time that I could not like him. I had a family and children, and I was so older than him, so I enlightened him and wanted to persuade him to live happily and confidently.

I interrupted with a wry smile: Are you enlightening me?I see why it’s someone who is enlightening you.

She also smiled bitterly and continued to say: That day was the first time I lied to you.

I frowned and thought for a long time, not remembering what she said that day.

She saw my suspicious look and said: I said that day that my colleague and I went shopping, but in fact I just went to see him.

I had a little impression of it, but she came back that day and she often went shopping, so I didn't take it seriously.

I said: It seemed like you were not too late that day, why did you lie?

Her shoulders twitched, and a hint of embarrassment suddenly appeared on her face.

I immediately realized what else happened that day besides the conversation, so I gritted my teeth and asked her: Why do you want to lie?

Her mouth moved several times, and finally muttered softly: We were just formally kissing that day. It was my turn to twitch.

Are you taking the initiative?

I was thinking that if Xie Fei still forced her, there would be no subsequent story.

She hesitated for a moment and nodded and said in a low voice: Actually, he is here to kiss me, I...

Or in that dormitory?

She nodded and said softly: I never thought about getting along alone at that time.They all started looking for separate places later.

You just sympathize with him and kiss him?

She shook her head, thought for a moment, and nodded again.

I asked strangely: What does it mean?Is that right?

She moved her mouth reluctantly, and finally said: I don’t know, but I just felt that it was dizzy when he kissed me. This feeling hasn’t been there for a long time.

This is how she described her feeling for the first time I kissed her.

My heart was pinched with hard iron gloves again, and then punched a few mercilessly.

So you two got fucked?

My imagination immediately rose up, and I believe that in front of Na, no man could just stop at this level of kissing.

She gave me a blank look and was about to speak, but I continued: That's your first time, right?

She immediately shook her head and said seriously: No, I really didn't see my face full of doubts. She continued: Actually, he did have this idea that day, but I didn't let it go.

I guessed at least half of it, which is Xie Fei's idea.

I shook my head and asked: Such a good opportunity, would Xie Fei let go so easily?

Na looked up at the roof, pursed her lips, and said as if she had made a lot of determination: Anyway, I have told you so much, so I will confess to you.

She paused and said: I had touched my body that day, but I was still rational at that time. I had already started to feel guilty by touching me. I would never let him succeed further.

Is this also called being rational?

I was speechless and mindless: Whole body?

She shook her head and gestured with her hand to her plump and round breasts, and I got it.

I sighed and said, "You Ah, you are so confused." She nodded thoughtfully and didn't say anything.

When did you start to lose your mind?

I asked, shaking my hard neck.

She didn't say anything for a long time, her head lowered so much that she almost touched the bed.

I don't want to put too much pressure on me, so I waited quietly for her to think about what to say.

Finally she spoke again.

Later I kept hiding from him because I was afraid. I knew that from that day on, he and I were no longer a pure teacher-student relationship, but when I saw him appear in front of me, I couldn't help but think of his kiss. The feeling I really couldn't get it away from my mind.

I shook my head helplessly. This feeling was very strange. A husband was very calm when he listened to his beloved wife talking about his feelings when he was kissing another man. Am I really a bit perverted?

Na's frankness made me feel very shocked. She was originally not good at expressing her ideas. It was difficult to talk to her about some things between men and women before, and she became completely afraid to face it.

Alas, I think I should not tell you what’s going on next. She suddenly stopped telling her, with a hint of embarrassment and timidity on her face.

well……

I sighed, looked at her, then looked out the window and said: Tell me, it's early.

I've guessed what's going on below, but I still want her to say it.

Before the holiday, although I always told myself not to like him or not to think about him, as soon as he spoke, I didn’t know what it was and didn’t reject him.

What did you not refuse?

I didn't understand.

He always thought I would go a little late and chat with him. Na's expression was very unnatural when she said this.

I smiled, although it must have looked ugly.

I continued her words: Chat?

She paused for a while before saying: You can guess, but we definitely didn't start having sex at that time.

I was stimulated again when she used the word "Making Love".

Didn't really do it?That's about the same thing, my tone is a bit frivolous.

She sighed and nodded.

I suddenly felt a bad premonition, suddenly sat up, stared straight into her eyes and asked: What's the matter?

She looked extremely reluctant, and she hesitated for a long time before she squeezed out a few words: I said that as long as I don’t move, I can use my mouth.

I suddenly laughed a few times on my back, and then fell heavily on the bed.

Gao Linna, you are so good Ah I gritted my teeth and jumped out this sentence fiercely.

Do we continue to talk?

She asked softly.

My eyes were dull and I looked at the ceiling. What can I do not continue?

Isn't that just a matter?

After so many years of marriage, didn’t she say she hates using her mouth when she was with me?

Say it, I can stand it, I answered her weakly.

well……

She has sighed countless times. If you still want to listen, I will tell you. I lay on my back, waved my hand, and said: Don’t do this, just talk about January 27th. When she heard what I said, her body trembled obviously, and even the words she said were trembling: How did you know?Are you investigating me?

I was not in the mood to explain too much to her, I just wanted her to confess everything to me without reservation.