When applying for a volunteer after the college entrance examination, Jin Shize was disguised by Lu Ying. He pestered her and wanted to apply to the same university as her. The scores of the two were quite similar, so they would definitely be admitted together. As a result, Lu Ying showed him his volunteer form, Q University Computer Department
This really shocked him
To be honest, for him, the Q-major computer department was his dream, but if he couldn't be with Lu Ying, he could not study in the Q-major computer department.
Unexpectedly, Lu Ying, who was studying literature, had this ambition, but this immediately fulfilled his two wishes, so he happily filled in the QQ.
But when the admission result came down, he realized that Lu Ying had actually held a B-U Psychology undergraduate and doctoral degree program.
The most important thing is that it is very difficult to apply for a bachelor's and master's degree program in University B, and she applied quietly!
The moment Jin Shize learned that he was cheated, he beat the wall and wailed for a long time
He said that according to normal circumstances, Lu Ying should not tell him the application so easily, but Lu Ying really told him
So the two of them went to two different universities by chance to study. Although they were in the same place, that place was quite large, and the distance between the two schools was almost as good as that of the provinces...
Fortunately, Lu Jue also signed up for the Q University Computer Department with him, and it was not a loss to have Lu Jue accompany him. When he went to pester Lu Ying to fill out his application form, Lu Jue also strongly supported him. He also wanted to take the opportunity to apply for a school with Lu Ying, but he didn't expect...
Alas, by chance, the words "Brother and Brother Infernal Affairs" are well reflected in them
In the fourth year of college, Jin Shize ran to Lu Ying's school as soon as he was on vacation, but he couldn't see Lu Ying every time. She either followed the professor to see a case or was temporarily assigned some research topics.
In short, I just don't have time to meet, and I'm just going to hit Jin Shize's enthusiasm.
Fortunately, in the year of graduation from senior year, the future military doctor Shu Yan decided to get married before joining the army, so that Jin Shize would have the chance to meet Lu Ying.
He even asked Shu Yan and Wen Erya to arrange his intimate interaction with Lu Ying. He and Lu Ying were the best man and the other were the bridesmaids, and Lu Jue and Jin Shichun were also the same.
However, every interaction was either Lu Jue or Jin Shichun was disconnected. After all, the two of them acted quite innocently, and it was impossible to curse them.
……
After the ceremony, Lu Ying and Jin Shichun accompanied Wen Erya to change toast clothes. On the way, Lu Ying called and signaled to go and answer the phone. Wen Erya made a good decision, and she left the locker room.
Hello, Professor Yuan, is there anything wrong? It was her master's supervisor who called me.
Xiao Lu Ah, I heard that you have returned to Hucheng. If you have time, can you go to Huake to get a psychological case? Yuan Shuwen said
Yes, I don’t know which trick the professor wants? Lu Ying asked
There are only one case of the study of addiction cessation experiments. You will know it when you mention Lao Cao. Yuan Shuwen said
OK, do you have any other needs besides this? Lu Ying asked
No more, please trouble you, Xiao Lu Yuan Shu said politely
You're welcome, professor, I will return to Pingcheng as soon as possible. Lu Yingdao
OK, then I saw you again. After saying that, Yuan Shuwen hung up the phone
After hanging up the phone, Lu Ying was about to return to the locker room, but someone grabbed her wrist from behind. She could still feel the hand of the person pulling her wrist tremble. She subconsciously turned around and looked back.
It's Lu Jue
Something is wrong? Her voice is cold
Want to talk to you. After that, Lu Jue pulled her toward the end of the corridor
Is there anything I can't say in the corridor? Lu Ying struggled a few times, but he didn't break free from Lu Jue's shackles, and he was still taken into the debris room at the end of the corridor.
As soon as he entered the door, Lu Jue locked the door with his backhand, which made Lu Ying feel alert in an instant.
Isn't there anything to say? Why are you locking the door? Lu Ying pried open the hand that Lu Jue was holding his wrist and took a few steps back unconsciously
Lu Jue looked at her and was a little afraid of her appearance, and a trace of pain flashed in his eyes. If you haven't seen her for four years, you are still afraid of me.
Lu Ying took another step back, his eyes full of alertness. Say whatever you want to say, I don't have time to relate to you
Lu Jue smiled bitterly, "You haven't been home for four years to hide from me, and even disappeared from Jin Shize. Do you really hate me so much?"
Hate you? Lu Ying smiled, I can't say that I hate you, it's all my fault. Moreover, my major is really busy, so there is no such thing as hiding from anyone
Is that true? Lu Jue approached a few steps, then have you forgiven me?
What are you forgiven? Forgive you for rape me?
Lu Ying smiled again, I said, it was my own fault, it was my mental abnormality, it was my unreasonable thoughts about you, you may not believe it, during the Chinese New Year of high school, I molested you while you were not awake from a high fever. It was because I was wrong first, so I did not forgive or forgive. If I had to say it, it was also me who teased you first, and you don’t need to be upset about it. I admit that I used to be... I like you, but I won’t be able to do so in the future. On the contrary, I hope you don’t care too much about the past, otherwise my conscience will be difficult...
Before Lu Ying finished speaking, Lu Jue kissed her lips, which were talking endlessly. Lu Ying subconsciously shrank, then reached out and pushed Lu Jue away vigorously.
What are you doing?
She sternly said, "Do you just want to punish me so much?" I said, "I was wrong to seduce you at the beginning, why? It's not enough to rape you once, and you plan to rape you again, or how many times?" Do you think this will relieve you of the guilt of being seduced by your own sister to be incest?"
I tell you from the perspective of a future psychologist that you cannot relieve your guilt like this. Every time you increase your guilt, you will get a little more. After all, no matter how you do it, you will not change the result of being seduced by your own sister to incest. So you'd better forget this from now on, stay away from me, just pretend that you never know me, and never have been my sister, and maybe you will be a little better in the rest of your life!
Lu Ying's emotional stability analysis
Lu Jue bullied her forward again, pushing her to the bottom of the wall and trapped her in his arms. Who said I felt guilty about incest? I just felt guilty for hurting you back then. I don’t feel guilty about incest. Besides, if you say seduce, it would be better to say that I seduce you first. Every dream you have is real, do you know?
After hearing his words, Lu Ying's pupils magnified for a moment. What are you talking about?
I'm not talking nonsense
Lu Jue raised his hand and stroked her cheek with his fingers and said: Once you drank fruit wine and had a broken slice. Didn’t you feel red and swollen and uncomfortable when you woke up? Have you not found your underwear changed several times after you woke up? Once I left a kiss mark on you, and you said you might have been bitten by a mosquito or not?
Lu Jue said as he raised his hand to cover her right breast
Lu Ying couldn't help but tremble for a moment, and subconsciously pushed Lu Jue's hand away. Lu Jue didn't force it, but continued, "Do you know?" When I was in junior high school, I had a dream because of you, and I went to throw the CD that time. I went home very late because I thought of you and couldn't help but rub a hair in the corridor. You don't think that every time I rub your breasts, I was in no desire. Before you seduced me, I wanted to have you completely, so do you really think that incest would make me feel guilty?
Lu Ying couldn't stop fighting a cold war when she listened to what he said. She had not noticed these things, but she had deliberately ignored them again and again. Even before Lu Jue said this, she always thought that everything was caused by her. This incident itself was wrong. It was her mental abnormality, it was her pervert, and it was her who forced him into a dead end.
So she went to study psychology, and she wanted to cure herself, but she forgot that the doctor would not cure herself. Even though she had been studying psychology for four years, she still couldn't get rid of this pathological love, so she hid, avoided, and forced herself to do her studies. She didn't want this pathological admiration to affect him who was already very hard to live, but in the end...
It's too late
Lu Jue, do you know what you are talking about now? Lu Ying asked in a trembling voice
I know, I'm a little sick here, but I'm very awake here. Lu Jue pointed to his heart and his head.
Then you should know that these are wrong
Lu Ying took a deep breath, I hope we can be calm and calm, from now on, be a normal person, study love normally, get married and have children, and treat the past as a dream, and when you wake up, you will all pass.
Haha, when a dream? When you wake up, it’s all over?
Lu Jue suddenly laughed, then he closed his smile and kissed Lu Ying's neck, but this matter is not something I can do, sister
When Lu Ying heard this, he made up his mind and said: If you can't get through, you have to live. I already have a boyfriend. In short, I will start a new life. What happened before is not important to me.
Boyfriend? Lu Jue giggled, are you talking about Qi Mingyu?
How do you know? Lu Ying was surprised
Because I will secretly observe you whenever I have time. Sister Lu Jue's tone suddenly changed, and his voice became even more muted and hoarse
Are you monitoring me? Lu Ying asked
It's not considered surveillance, it's just that when I miss you, I go to B to see you secretly
Lu Jue sighed, but every time I go, I can see you and that Qi Mingyu. To be honest, every time I see him, I feel very sad.
Do you know how sad? Lu Jue grabbed Lu Ying's hand and covered his chest. It was here, and it hurt like being grabbed by someone with his hands. Every capillary trembled in pain.
But then it won't happen, because I found that he would not do anything except sending you flowers and taking you to see the cold and unanimous corpses.
Lu Jue becomes more and more excited as he speaks, and he doesn't even dare to hold your hand
Hahahaha... Lu Jue suddenly pressed Lu Ying's hand against the wall, then raised his knee and pushed her legs. How could such a person be your boyfriend?
You... Lu Ying struggles, let me go!
You said, he didn't dare to hold your hand, how could he be your boyfriend, have sex with you, and have children with you? Lu Jue was crazy, you said Ah!
Smack
Lu Ying raised the hand that was not bound by him and slapped him hard.
You are crazy! Lu Ying's eyes are red and she said
It's Ah, I'm crazy! When I see you with another man, I want to kill him. When I hear you say you want to fall in love with someone else, I want to lock you up and take you for yourself all my life. Isn't this crazy!!!
Lu Jue roared
After hearing his words, Lu Ying suddenly bit his lower lip and shed tears silently
What? It scared you?
Lu Jue grabbed her with both wrists and pressed them against the wall with one hand, and wiped her tears with the fingers of the other hand. Lu Ying turned her head and refused to let him touch her. Then he pinched her chin and forced her to look at him.
Or are you afraid that I will really kill Qi Mingyu? Lu Jue's chin hit her neck and took a deep breath. It was still the fragrance of orange flowers.
Even though she no longer uses shower gel about the fragrance of orange blossoms, her body still has the fragrance of orange blossoms that cannot be washed away no matter how hard she is. She didn't know that this fragrance of flowers was the exclusive mark left for her by Lu Jue when he had sex with her.
I can also give you the flowers he gives you, or even give you more than him. Remember what I said, I will make a lot of money, and spend them all for you. Buy whatever you want.
He said as he bit Lu Ying’s neck hard, but why are you just disobedient? He insisted on collecting the flowers bought by Qi Mingyu, huh?
He bit her skin into her neck, and she felt a little bit of pain. Lu Ying instantly remembered the wound he bit her whole body in the villa last time. Although it has been completely healed now and no scars are left, because of his current attack, she actually felt that her whole body began to hurt, and even the private parts of her lower body were hurting.
I really want to leave a tooth mark on your shoulder. Do you still remember the second time you did it in the villa. The bite you bit on my shoulder? It has scars and looks pretty pretty. Do you want to try it?
Lu Jue pulled off her skirt collar, licked her shoulder, and bite one, so that no other man would miss you
Lu Jue Lu Ying suddenly spoke
Hum? Lu Jue, who was about to fall into his teeth, suddenly stopped moving
Have you ever thought about going over to see a psychologist? Lu Ying asked
After seeing Ah Lu Jue's Adam's apple surging
Then he must be a quack doctor. Lu Ying suddenly mocked him.
What does it mean? Lu Jue asked subconsciously
Healing you into a pervert who likes your sister, is it still a medical doctor? Lu Ying said while taking the opportunity to lift her knee and push Lu Jue's crotch.
Lu Jue was distracted and was not prepared. He groaned in pain in an instant, and let go of Lu Ying who was clamped.
Lu Ying took advantage of the pain that he didn't care about himself, pulled up his skirt collar and ran out the door.
As a result, he found that Kim Se-ze was standing at the door, looking surprised. She didn't say anything, but just bypassed Kim Se-ze and ran away.
When Lu Jue chased after him with sweat, he was punched by Jin Shize in front of him, and he directly threw himself towards the door frame. Lu Jue reacted quickly, and raised his hand to grab Jin Shize's collar and said angrily: What the hell is wrong with you?
I should be asking you what the hell is wrong with you, right?
Jin Shize's face was full of anger, and the veins on his forehead were bulging. She was your sister, and you could do it to her...!
Jin Shize couldn't say it, so he simply punched Lu Jue on the cheek.
Lu Jue let go of the hand that grabbed his collar, raised his arm, blocked his fist directly, and then punched him in the face, directly hitting him to the ground. Who told you that she is my sister! I am now Lu Shilang's seed, and I have no blood or social relationship with her. I will do whatever I want!!
After saying that, he punched Jin Shize in the cheek again
I tell you, Lu Ying, I am sure to get it. Whoever stops me will kill me. After that, I raised my legs and chased Lu Ying away.
Jin Shize's cheeks were red and swollen, sitting on the ground blankly, repeating what Lu Ying said in his mind, "It's a pervert who likes his sister, is it possible or is it that the Ming Dynasty doctor succeeded?
Then I repeated what Lu Jue said in my mind, I am now Lu Shilang's seed, and I have no blood or social relationship with her, so I can do whatever I want!
Why is this so messy?!
His mind seemed to be taken away by someone, and it hurt and messy. He had always thought that Lu Jue was the illegitimate son of Qin Shuli and Lu Qingye. Later, although he left with Qin Shuli, he always thought that Lu Jue wanted to leave with his mother more.
But he didn't expect that Lu Jue would... be his current stepfather's biological son???
After all, Lu Jue still likes Lu Ying, is he still determined to win?
Should he believe it?
He suddenly felt like a fool, jumping around like a clown, but what he thought was completely different from what he knew. His worldview seemed to be subverted, and it was in chaos, all of them were in chaos!
He obviously just wanted to chat with Lu Ying! Why did he become like this?
……
Lu Ying ran out of the hotel and got into the car before she had time to send a message to Wen Erya. She was going to go to Huake Psychology, and after getting the information, she went back to Pingcheng directly. She didn't want to stay in Hucheng for a moment.
‘The school has something to do temporarily, so you have to take a step first and meet in Pingcheng after your honeymoon’
Wen Erya replied after a while, 'Ah, you're so sudden. Fortunately, I've finished the ceremony, otherwise I'd still have a bridesmaid running halfway through. Alas, OK, OK, when Pingcheng meets, you have to have a few drinks to apologize.'
‘Affect the order! Mrs. Shu’
‘Shy jpg’
When he arrived at Dongfeng Road, Lu Ying was familiar with the road and went to Huake Psychology. Because the psychologist here was once a professor at B University, he would occasionally exchange some case information with his tutor. She often helped to run this matter, so she is quite familiar with this.
Is Professor Cao here? Lu Ying asked at the door
Oh, Lu Yatou is here, you still call me a professor
Cao Hua ran down from the second floor. He has lost a little weight in the past few years, but his belly is still as he walks.
Tell me, what case information does Old Yuan want? Cao Hua smiled and waved his hand to signal Lu Ying to enter the door and sit on the sofa to chat
Lu Ying walked in and covered up the negative emotions just now very well. He smiled and said, "You are really predictable." Our Professor Yuan wants the case of the addiction quit experiment in your hands.
When Cao Hua heard this, the smile on his face gradually disappeared, and his flesh shook three times. Ah, is it true? He really wants Ah
Is there anything inconvenient for Professor Cao? Lu Ying asked
Not so, that's right, this case is quite special, well... how to say, you know the patients of this case.
Cao Huan hesitated for a moment, but still said that he had proposed to help Lu Jue pretend to be good and help him restore his relationship with Lu Ying as soon as possible. However, due to the college entrance examination, Lu Jue's thoughts were delayed. He was afraid that he would completely affect Lu Ying's study.
But after they officially went to college, the plan was almost completely ruined. Because Lu Ying had not returned to Hucheng for a long time, Cao Hua sent the medical records about Lu Jue's treatment that he had sent to the Lu family one after another were not seen by Lu Ying, so he used the opportunity to inform the real condition and resolve the misunderstanding between the two parties to be completely cut off.
Although it was a coincidence that Yuan Shuwen had contact with Lu Ying, he found that Lu Ying actually had a deep psychological disorder.
In recent years, he always reminded her intentionally or unintentionally, hoping that she could heal her psychological scars and get out of her misunderstandings, but the effect was not satisfactory
After all, he can't say directly, I know what happened between you and Lu Jue, this thing is like this and that, you have to overcome it.
Although women's mentality is more psychologically resilient than men, he cannot suddenly expose her scars before Lu Ying took the initiative to send a help signal.
So even though he had contact in recent years, he never took the initiative to help Lu Ying solve his psychological problems
Perhaps this time, it is a good opportunity to help both parties reconcile
In fact, from his perspective, unmoral things are not shameful, but for people who have received education since childhood and have traditional moral concepts, this is sinful and unacceptable.
Because most people are bound by a moral system
Of course this is not wrong, after all, this allows the entire society to function normally
But he believes that as long as both parties are voluntarily and without any coercion, any emotion should be accepted
Without hurting anyone, whether it is homosexual, transgender, or cross-species love, it is understandable and exists, including paradoxical love
Because human beings are complex, feelings are even more complex, and hereditary sexual attraction has always been a topic that many scientists are studying. Objective existence means a certain rationality. Therefore, he is neutral in this matter, neither supports nor opposes it. If no harm is involved, he can even send blessings.
After Cao Hua told Lu Ying about the treatment of Lu Jue over the years, as well as the causes of Lu Jue's illness, Lu Ying was shocked.
You mean that he was undergoing an addiction quit experiment back then, and the body of addiction quit is me, so he rejected my approach. When approaching, he would create a destructive mentality and hurt me. In recent years, in order to make himself better, he has been doing electric shock therapy, repeating the pain of the past and producing so-called antibodies, reversing the purpose of addiction quit, and reshaping his always-off belief, and his belief is to love me and love me?
Based on his own understanding, Lu Ying summarized the meaning of Cao Hua's expression.
Cao Hua nodded, Well, you can understand this way, but the pain he suffered is far more than you said. For specific purposes, you can read the case report
Lu Ying tightened the report in her hand, but she didn't open it for a long time. At this time, she couldn't tell what it felt. Her heartbeats a little fast, her breathing is a little difficult, and her mind is confused.
Of course, my purpose is not to persuade you. The harm he hurt you back then was real. Regardless of forgiveness or not, you only need to follow your original intention. However, if you have been psychologically troubled for a long time, you still have to be officially admitted to treatment. After all, the doctor does not treat yourself.
Cao Huadao
OK, thank you Professor Cao for your advice. I will think carefully. I am still in a hurry to go back to Pingcheng, so I won’t bother you now. I will come to see you when I have time.
Lu Ying came back to her senses for a long time. She didn't know what kind of result she wanted, so she could only escape.
Child, I only say one thing in the end. Escape can only solve temporary problems, but over time, the root problem will be difficult to solve for a lifetime. Let's go, let's think about it carefully when you go back.
After saying that, Cao Hua got up and sent Lu Ying out of the door
……
When Lu Jue chased him out of the hotel, Lu Ying had long disappeared
Since then, after another four years, Lu Jue has not been able to find Lu Ying
Even though he knew that Lu Ying was in B, and even if he had software to monitor her on his phone, she was capable and made him lose every time.
Later, he could only live through software and watch her movements, or she occasionally used her mobile phone to see her face that was dreaming about by herself through self-starting cameras.
He regretted telling her that he was following her and peeping her. In fact, he was quite busy starting a business with Jin Shize while going to school. He didn't often go to see him secretly. Most of the time, he arranged for Haozi's people to stare at her near B University to protect her
In fact, he was not as morbid as he said. Those words were just a momentary anger, trying to scare her. Moreover, he was really angry when he saw her and Qi Mingyu getting very close.
But his main purpose is to protect her. He is afraid that Liu Xueqing, who has disappeared for several years, will suddenly appear and hurt Lu Ying. Liu Xueqing is like an invisible bomb to him. She has to be guarded against
But he never thought of telling Lu Ying that he was afraid of her or worried. He just wanted her to spend her 8 years of undergraduate, master and doctoral student career peacefully, but he didn't expect that he would still be screwed up by him.
Now he scared her himself, let her hide her completely, and became a person who was active in the dark
It's a bit ridiculous, he doesn't know what this is
In fact, he is also very tired. From the inside out, from the thoughts to the body, he struggles hard every day, and has to add uninterrupted electric shock treatment, although this makes him good and bad.
And he knew that even if he stopped for only one day, he would not struggle, try, and disconnect, then he would definitely break immediately and would not be able to survive.
He felt that he was on the verge of dying every day, so in order to numb himself, he went from an undergraduate to a master's degree, started a business and started an APP to establish a formal remote monitoring company, and he always tried his best to keep himself busy until he didn't have time to think about it.
However, when it was late at night, he would still feel uncomfortable. He wanted to ask Lu Ying for help countless times, and wanted Lu Ying to help him, but...
His antidote was scared to disappear by him
It's so ironic
This really shocked him
To be honest, for him, the Q-major computer department was his dream, but if he couldn't be with Lu Ying, he could not study in the Q-major computer department.
Unexpectedly, Lu Ying, who was studying literature, had this ambition, but this immediately fulfilled his two wishes, so he happily filled in the QQ.
But when the admission result came down, he realized that Lu Ying had actually held a B-U Psychology undergraduate and doctoral degree program.
The most important thing is that it is very difficult to apply for a bachelor's and master's degree program in University B, and she applied quietly!
The moment Jin Shize learned that he was cheated, he beat the wall and wailed for a long time
He said that according to normal circumstances, Lu Ying should not tell him the application so easily, but Lu Ying really told him
So the two of them went to two different universities by chance to study. Although they were in the same place, that place was quite large, and the distance between the two schools was almost as good as that of the provinces...
Fortunately, Lu Jue also signed up for the Q University Computer Department with him, and it was not a loss to have Lu Jue accompany him. When he went to pester Lu Ying to fill out his application form, Lu Jue also strongly supported him. He also wanted to take the opportunity to apply for a school with Lu Ying, but he didn't expect...
Alas, by chance, the words "Brother and Brother Infernal Affairs" are well reflected in them
In the fourth year of college, Jin Shize ran to Lu Ying's school as soon as he was on vacation, but he couldn't see Lu Ying every time. She either followed the professor to see a case or was temporarily assigned some research topics.
In short, I just don't have time to meet, and I'm just going to hit Jin Shize's enthusiasm.
Fortunately, in the year of graduation from senior year, the future military doctor Shu Yan decided to get married before joining the army, so that Jin Shize would have the chance to meet Lu Ying.
He even asked Shu Yan and Wen Erya to arrange his intimate interaction with Lu Ying. He and Lu Ying were the best man and the other were the bridesmaids, and Lu Jue and Jin Shichun were also the same.
However, every interaction was either Lu Jue or Jin Shichun was disconnected. After all, the two of them acted quite innocently, and it was impossible to curse them.
……
After the ceremony, Lu Ying and Jin Shichun accompanied Wen Erya to change toast clothes. On the way, Lu Ying called and signaled to go and answer the phone. Wen Erya made a good decision, and she left the locker room.
Hello, Professor Yuan, is there anything wrong? It was her master's supervisor who called me.
Xiao Lu Ah, I heard that you have returned to Hucheng. If you have time, can you go to Huake to get a psychological case? Yuan Shuwen said
Yes, I don’t know which trick the professor wants? Lu Ying asked
There are only one case of the study of addiction cessation experiments. You will know it when you mention Lao Cao. Yuan Shuwen said
OK, do you have any other needs besides this? Lu Ying asked
No more, please trouble you, Xiao Lu Yuan Shu said politely
You're welcome, professor, I will return to Pingcheng as soon as possible. Lu Yingdao
OK, then I saw you again. After saying that, Yuan Shuwen hung up the phone
After hanging up the phone, Lu Ying was about to return to the locker room, but someone grabbed her wrist from behind. She could still feel the hand of the person pulling her wrist tremble. She subconsciously turned around and looked back.
It's Lu Jue
Something is wrong? Her voice is cold
Want to talk to you. After that, Lu Jue pulled her toward the end of the corridor
Is there anything I can't say in the corridor? Lu Ying struggled a few times, but he didn't break free from Lu Jue's shackles, and he was still taken into the debris room at the end of the corridor.
As soon as he entered the door, Lu Jue locked the door with his backhand, which made Lu Ying feel alert in an instant.
Isn't there anything to say? Why are you locking the door? Lu Ying pried open the hand that Lu Jue was holding his wrist and took a few steps back unconsciously
Lu Jue looked at her and was a little afraid of her appearance, and a trace of pain flashed in his eyes. If you haven't seen her for four years, you are still afraid of me.
Lu Ying took another step back, his eyes full of alertness. Say whatever you want to say, I don't have time to relate to you
Lu Jue smiled bitterly, "You haven't been home for four years to hide from me, and even disappeared from Jin Shize. Do you really hate me so much?"
Hate you? Lu Ying smiled, I can't say that I hate you, it's all my fault. Moreover, my major is really busy, so there is no such thing as hiding from anyone
Is that true? Lu Jue approached a few steps, then have you forgiven me?
What are you forgiven? Forgive you for rape me?
Lu Ying smiled again, I said, it was my own fault, it was my mental abnormality, it was my unreasonable thoughts about you, you may not believe it, during the Chinese New Year of high school, I molested you while you were not awake from a high fever. It was because I was wrong first, so I did not forgive or forgive. If I had to say it, it was also me who teased you first, and you don’t need to be upset about it. I admit that I used to be... I like you, but I won’t be able to do so in the future. On the contrary, I hope you don’t care too much about the past, otherwise my conscience will be difficult...
Before Lu Ying finished speaking, Lu Jue kissed her lips, which were talking endlessly. Lu Ying subconsciously shrank, then reached out and pushed Lu Jue away vigorously.
What are you doing?
She sternly said, "Do you just want to punish me so much?" I said, "I was wrong to seduce you at the beginning, why? It's not enough to rape you once, and you plan to rape you again, or how many times?" Do you think this will relieve you of the guilt of being seduced by your own sister to be incest?"
I tell you from the perspective of a future psychologist that you cannot relieve your guilt like this. Every time you increase your guilt, you will get a little more. After all, no matter how you do it, you will not change the result of being seduced by your own sister to incest. So you'd better forget this from now on, stay away from me, just pretend that you never know me, and never have been my sister, and maybe you will be a little better in the rest of your life!
Lu Ying's emotional stability analysis
Lu Jue bullied her forward again, pushing her to the bottom of the wall and trapped her in his arms. Who said I felt guilty about incest? I just felt guilty for hurting you back then. I don’t feel guilty about incest. Besides, if you say seduce, it would be better to say that I seduce you first. Every dream you have is real, do you know?
After hearing his words, Lu Ying's pupils magnified for a moment. What are you talking about?
I'm not talking nonsense
Lu Jue raised his hand and stroked her cheek with his fingers and said: Once you drank fruit wine and had a broken slice. Didn’t you feel red and swollen and uncomfortable when you woke up? Have you not found your underwear changed several times after you woke up? Once I left a kiss mark on you, and you said you might have been bitten by a mosquito or not?
Lu Jue said as he raised his hand to cover her right breast
Lu Ying couldn't help but tremble for a moment, and subconsciously pushed Lu Jue's hand away. Lu Jue didn't force it, but continued, "Do you know?" When I was in junior high school, I had a dream because of you, and I went to throw the CD that time. I went home very late because I thought of you and couldn't help but rub a hair in the corridor. You don't think that every time I rub your breasts, I was in no desire. Before you seduced me, I wanted to have you completely, so do you really think that incest would make me feel guilty?
Lu Ying couldn't stop fighting a cold war when she listened to what he said. She had not noticed these things, but she had deliberately ignored them again and again. Even before Lu Jue said this, she always thought that everything was caused by her. This incident itself was wrong. It was her mental abnormality, it was her pervert, and it was her who forced him into a dead end.
So she went to study psychology, and she wanted to cure herself, but she forgot that the doctor would not cure herself. Even though she had been studying psychology for four years, she still couldn't get rid of this pathological love, so she hid, avoided, and forced herself to do her studies. She didn't want this pathological admiration to affect him who was already very hard to live, but in the end...
It's too late
Lu Jue, do you know what you are talking about now? Lu Ying asked in a trembling voice
I know, I'm a little sick here, but I'm very awake here. Lu Jue pointed to his heart and his head.
Then you should know that these are wrong
Lu Ying took a deep breath, I hope we can be calm and calm, from now on, be a normal person, study love normally, get married and have children, and treat the past as a dream, and when you wake up, you will all pass.
Haha, when a dream? When you wake up, it’s all over?
Lu Jue suddenly laughed, then he closed his smile and kissed Lu Ying's neck, but this matter is not something I can do, sister
When Lu Ying heard this, he made up his mind and said: If you can't get through, you have to live. I already have a boyfriend. In short, I will start a new life. What happened before is not important to me.
Boyfriend? Lu Jue giggled, are you talking about Qi Mingyu?
How do you know? Lu Ying was surprised
Because I will secretly observe you whenever I have time. Sister Lu Jue's tone suddenly changed, and his voice became even more muted and hoarse
Are you monitoring me? Lu Ying asked
It's not considered surveillance, it's just that when I miss you, I go to B to see you secretly
Lu Jue sighed, but every time I go, I can see you and that Qi Mingyu. To be honest, every time I see him, I feel very sad.
Do you know how sad? Lu Jue grabbed Lu Ying's hand and covered his chest. It was here, and it hurt like being grabbed by someone with his hands. Every capillary trembled in pain.
But then it won't happen, because I found that he would not do anything except sending you flowers and taking you to see the cold and unanimous corpses.
Lu Jue becomes more and more excited as he speaks, and he doesn't even dare to hold your hand
Hahahaha... Lu Jue suddenly pressed Lu Ying's hand against the wall, then raised his knee and pushed her legs. How could such a person be your boyfriend?
You... Lu Ying struggles, let me go!
You said, he didn't dare to hold your hand, how could he be your boyfriend, have sex with you, and have children with you? Lu Jue was crazy, you said Ah!
Smack
Lu Ying raised the hand that was not bound by him and slapped him hard.
You are crazy! Lu Ying's eyes are red and she said
It's Ah, I'm crazy! When I see you with another man, I want to kill him. When I hear you say you want to fall in love with someone else, I want to lock you up and take you for yourself all my life. Isn't this crazy!!!
Lu Jue roared
After hearing his words, Lu Ying suddenly bit his lower lip and shed tears silently
What? It scared you?
Lu Jue grabbed her with both wrists and pressed them against the wall with one hand, and wiped her tears with the fingers of the other hand. Lu Ying turned her head and refused to let him touch her. Then he pinched her chin and forced her to look at him.
Or are you afraid that I will really kill Qi Mingyu? Lu Jue's chin hit her neck and took a deep breath. It was still the fragrance of orange flowers.
Even though she no longer uses shower gel about the fragrance of orange blossoms, her body still has the fragrance of orange blossoms that cannot be washed away no matter how hard she is. She didn't know that this fragrance of flowers was the exclusive mark left for her by Lu Jue when he had sex with her.
I can also give you the flowers he gives you, or even give you more than him. Remember what I said, I will make a lot of money, and spend them all for you. Buy whatever you want.
He said as he bit Lu Ying’s neck hard, but why are you just disobedient? He insisted on collecting the flowers bought by Qi Mingyu, huh?
He bit her skin into her neck, and she felt a little bit of pain. Lu Ying instantly remembered the wound he bit her whole body in the villa last time. Although it has been completely healed now and no scars are left, because of his current attack, she actually felt that her whole body began to hurt, and even the private parts of her lower body were hurting.
I really want to leave a tooth mark on your shoulder. Do you still remember the second time you did it in the villa. The bite you bit on my shoulder? It has scars and looks pretty pretty. Do you want to try it?
Lu Jue pulled off her skirt collar, licked her shoulder, and bite one, so that no other man would miss you
Lu Jue Lu Ying suddenly spoke
Hum? Lu Jue, who was about to fall into his teeth, suddenly stopped moving
Have you ever thought about going over to see a psychologist? Lu Ying asked
After seeing Ah Lu Jue's Adam's apple surging
Then he must be a quack doctor. Lu Ying suddenly mocked him.
What does it mean? Lu Jue asked subconsciously
Healing you into a pervert who likes your sister, is it still a medical doctor? Lu Ying said while taking the opportunity to lift her knee and push Lu Jue's crotch.
Lu Jue was distracted and was not prepared. He groaned in pain in an instant, and let go of Lu Ying who was clamped.
Lu Ying took advantage of the pain that he didn't care about himself, pulled up his skirt collar and ran out the door.
As a result, he found that Kim Se-ze was standing at the door, looking surprised. She didn't say anything, but just bypassed Kim Se-ze and ran away.
When Lu Jue chased after him with sweat, he was punched by Jin Shize in front of him, and he directly threw himself towards the door frame. Lu Jue reacted quickly, and raised his hand to grab Jin Shize's collar and said angrily: What the hell is wrong with you?
I should be asking you what the hell is wrong with you, right?
Jin Shize's face was full of anger, and the veins on his forehead were bulging. She was your sister, and you could do it to her...!
Jin Shize couldn't say it, so he simply punched Lu Jue on the cheek.
Lu Jue let go of the hand that grabbed his collar, raised his arm, blocked his fist directly, and then punched him in the face, directly hitting him to the ground. Who told you that she is my sister! I am now Lu Shilang's seed, and I have no blood or social relationship with her. I will do whatever I want!!
After saying that, he punched Jin Shize in the cheek again
I tell you, Lu Ying, I am sure to get it. Whoever stops me will kill me. After that, I raised my legs and chased Lu Ying away.
Jin Shize's cheeks were red and swollen, sitting on the ground blankly, repeating what Lu Ying said in his mind, "It's a pervert who likes his sister, is it possible or is it that the Ming Dynasty doctor succeeded?
Then I repeated what Lu Jue said in my mind, I am now Lu Shilang's seed, and I have no blood or social relationship with her, so I can do whatever I want!
Why is this so messy?!
His mind seemed to be taken away by someone, and it hurt and messy. He had always thought that Lu Jue was the illegitimate son of Qin Shuli and Lu Qingye. Later, although he left with Qin Shuli, he always thought that Lu Jue wanted to leave with his mother more.
But he didn't expect that Lu Jue would... be his current stepfather's biological son???
After all, Lu Jue still likes Lu Ying, is he still determined to win?
Should he believe it?
He suddenly felt like a fool, jumping around like a clown, but what he thought was completely different from what he knew. His worldview seemed to be subverted, and it was in chaos, all of them were in chaos!
He obviously just wanted to chat with Lu Ying! Why did he become like this?
……
Lu Ying ran out of the hotel and got into the car before she had time to send a message to Wen Erya. She was going to go to Huake Psychology, and after getting the information, she went back to Pingcheng directly. She didn't want to stay in Hucheng for a moment.
‘The school has something to do temporarily, so you have to take a step first and meet in Pingcheng after your honeymoon’
Wen Erya replied after a while, 'Ah, you're so sudden. Fortunately, I've finished the ceremony, otherwise I'd still have a bridesmaid running halfway through. Alas, OK, OK, when Pingcheng meets, you have to have a few drinks to apologize.'
‘Affect the order! Mrs. Shu’
‘Shy jpg’
When he arrived at Dongfeng Road, Lu Ying was familiar with the road and went to Huake Psychology. Because the psychologist here was once a professor at B University, he would occasionally exchange some case information with his tutor. She often helped to run this matter, so she is quite familiar with this.
Is Professor Cao here? Lu Ying asked at the door
Oh, Lu Yatou is here, you still call me a professor
Cao Hua ran down from the second floor. He has lost a little weight in the past few years, but his belly is still as he walks.
Tell me, what case information does Old Yuan want? Cao Hua smiled and waved his hand to signal Lu Ying to enter the door and sit on the sofa to chat
Lu Ying walked in and covered up the negative emotions just now very well. He smiled and said, "You are really predictable." Our Professor Yuan wants the case of the addiction quit experiment in your hands.
When Cao Hua heard this, the smile on his face gradually disappeared, and his flesh shook three times. Ah, is it true? He really wants Ah
Is there anything inconvenient for Professor Cao? Lu Ying asked
Not so, that's right, this case is quite special, well... how to say, you know the patients of this case.
Cao Huan hesitated for a moment, but still said that he had proposed to help Lu Jue pretend to be good and help him restore his relationship with Lu Ying as soon as possible. However, due to the college entrance examination, Lu Jue's thoughts were delayed. He was afraid that he would completely affect Lu Ying's study.
But after they officially went to college, the plan was almost completely ruined. Because Lu Ying had not returned to Hucheng for a long time, Cao Hua sent the medical records about Lu Jue's treatment that he had sent to the Lu family one after another were not seen by Lu Ying, so he used the opportunity to inform the real condition and resolve the misunderstanding between the two parties to be completely cut off.
Although it was a coincidence that Yuan Shuwen had contact with Lu Ying, he found that Lu Ying actually had a deep psychological disorder.
In recent years, he always reminded her intentionally or unintentionally, hoping that she could heal her psychological scars and get out of her misunderstandings, but the effect was not satisfactory
After all, he can't say directly, I know what happened between you and Lu Jue, this thing is like this and that, you have to overcome it.
Although women's mentality is more psychologically resilient than men, he cannot suddenly expose her scars before Lu Ying took the initiative to send a help signal.
So even though he had contact in recent years, he never took the initiative to help Lu Ying solve his psychological problems
Perhaps this time, it is a good opportunity to help both parties reconcile
In fact, from his perspective, unmoral things are not shameful, but for people who have received education since childhood and have traditional moral concepts, this is sinful and unacceptable.
Because most people are bound by a moral system
Of course this is not wrong, after all, this allows the entire society to function normally
But he believes that as long as both parties are voluntarily and without any coercion, any emotion should be accepted
Without hurting anyone, whether it is homosexual, transgender, or cross-species love, it is understandable and exists, including paradoxical love
Because human beings are complex, feelings are even more complex, and hereditary sexual attraction has always been a topic that many scientists are studying. Objective existence means a certain rationality. Therefore, he is neutral in this matter, neither supports nor opposes it. If no harm is involved, he can even send blessings.
After Cao Hua told Lu Ying about the treatment of Lu Jue over the years, as well as the causes of Lu Jue's illness, Lu Ying was shocked.
You mean that he was undergoing an addiction quit experiment back then, and the body of addiction quit is me, so he rejected my approach. When approaching, he would create a destructive mentality and hurt me. In recent years, in order to make himself better, he has been doing electric shock therapy, repeating the pain of the past and producing so-called antibodies, reversing the purpose of addiction quit, and reshaping his always-off belief, and his belief is to love me and love me?
Based on his own understanding, Lu Ying summarized the meaning of Cao Hua's expression.
Cao Hua nodded, Well, you can understand this way, but the pain he suffered is far more than you said. For specific purposes, you can read the case report
Lu Ying tightened the report in her hand, but she didn't open it for a long time. At this time, she couldn't tell what it felt. Her heartbeats a little fast, her breathing is a little difficult, and her mind is confused.
Of course, my purpose is not to persuade you. The harm he hurt you back then was real. Regardless of forgiveness or not, you only need to follow your original intention. However, if you have been psychologically troubled for a long time, you still have to be officially admitted to treatment. After all, the doctor does not treat yourself.
Cao Huadao
OK, thank you Professor Cao for your advice. I will think carefully. I am still in a hurry to go back to Pingcheng, so I won’t bother you now. I will come to see you when I have time.
Lu Ying came back to her senses for a long time. She didn't know what kind of result she wanted, so she could only escape.
Child, I only say one thing in the end. Escape can only solve temporary problems, but over time, the root problem will be difficult to solve for a lifetime. Let's go, let's think about it carefully when you go back.
After saying that, Cao Hua got up and sent Lu Ying out of the door
……
When Lu Jue chased him out of the hotel, Lu Ying had long disappeared
Since then, after another four years, Lu Jue has not been able to find Lu Ying
Even though he knew that Lu Ying was in B, and even if he had software to monitor her on his phone, she was capable and made him lose every time.
Later, he could only live through software and watch her movements, or she occasionally used her mobile phone to see her face that was dreaming about by herself through self-starting cameras.
He regretted telling her that he was following her and peeping her. In fact, he was quite busy starting a business with Jin Shize while going to school. He didn't often go to see him secretly. Most of the time, he arranged for Haozi's people to stare at her near B University to protect her
In fact, he was not as morbid as he said. Those words were just a momentary anger, trying to scare her. Moreover, he was really angry when he saw her and Qi Mingyu getting very close.
But his main purpose is to protect her. He is afraid that Liu Xueqing, who has disappeared for several years, will suddenly appear and hurt Lu Ying. Liu Xueqing is like an invisible bomb to him. She has to be guarded against
But he never thought of telling Lu Ying that he was afraid of her or worried. He just wanted her to spend her 8 years of undergraduate, master and doctoral student career peacefully, but he didn't expect that he would still be screwed up by him.
Now he scared her himself, let her hide her completely, and became a person who was active in the dark
It's a bit ridiculous, he doesn't know what this is
In fact, he is also very tired. From the inside out, from the thoughts to the body, he struggles hard every day, and has to add uninterrupted electric shock treatment, although this makes him good and bad.
And he knew that even if he stopped for only one day, he would not struggle, try, and disconnect, then he would definitely break immediately and would not be able to survive.
He felt that he was on the verge of dying every day, so in order to numb himself, he went from an undergraduate to a master's degree, started a business and started an APP to establish a formal remote monitoring company, and he always tried his best to keep himself busy until he didn't have time to think about it.
However, when it was late at night, he would still feel uncomfortable. He wanted to ask Lu Ying for help countless times, and wanted Lu Ying to help him, but...
His antidote was scared to disappear by him
It's so ironic
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