Chapter 146

Two years later... Time flies so fast. Two years have passed in a blink of an eye. Many things have happened in the past two years, especially Kexin and me. After two years of cracks, we finally recovered. Our relationship has recovered as before, and Kexin and I have temporarily forgotten that unhappy time. People say that time is a holy medicine for healing, and this sentence is true at all.

In the past two years, my relationship with Leng Bingshuang has always been lukewarm. It was me who took the initiative to keep a distance from her. The accident with her that night was also the only bond in my heart. I always felt that I owe Leng Bingshuang and I owe her too much.

During the past two years, Leng Bingshuang has been looking for someone to help me with treatment, and my health has improved. However, because I am unwilling to give up my job to recuperate, the treatment progress has slowed down. However, two years later, the doctor said that my sperm survival rate has increased and basically met the standard of conception. As long as I am lucky enough, I can have my own child.

The happiest thing about this situation is Ke Xin, because she has always wanted to have a child who belongs to both of us. Her wishes are much more urgent than me. As for Sijian's identity, I have never disclosed it to her. I plan to hide this secret as long as I can.

Because I know Sijian's identity and already have a biological son, it is not very urgent to have a child, but Kexin is different. Without Sijian around me, I tried the sweetness of being a mother. She hopes for the stars and the moon.

After the key eases, Ke Xin forced me to pay public food almost every day, but, although the survival rate of sperm has increased, the work pressure is too high, perhaps because of Leng Biaoshuang's emotional entanglement, or perhaps the shadow relationship in my heart, is not harmonious with Ke Xin's life. Even if you have a relationship, you can't hold on for long, and you often feel weak in the middle.

Although Kexin didn't say anything, she was always worried about me and kept asking me to tell the doctor, but this kind of thing was hard to say. I didn't let Leng Bingshuang know about it, so Kexin and I knew about it.

Not long ago, I went to a doctor myself. After the doctor's examination, my physical indicators were normal. The reason why I felt weak in the middle or had a discord in my sexual life was due to psychological factors. As for the reason, the doctor did not ask in detail. If there is no physical problem, then it is psychologically

Although I don’t want to admit it in my heart, I believe in the doctor’s level, but what is the reason for me? I don’t know. But every time I live with Kexin, I will think of the scenes that happened to Kexin and Sijian, and imagine that Sijian used to be as intimate as me, especially when I think of Sijian and Sijian, I feel particularly strange and awkward in my heart. After thinking about these, I will be weak and lose all my sexual interests.

Although I haven't told Kexin, Kexin may have noticed it. After all, even though I was unable to have children in the past, my sex life was still relatively normal, although I couldn't compare to Sijian.

In normal times, my thoughts can avoid scenes, but when I see Kexin's familiar body, especially when I hear Kexin's moans, I am so familiar. In the surveillance video, the scenes I saw in the living room that night... Although Kexin was a little dissatisfied with desire, she treated me even more and did not dislike me at all.

I haven't removed that surveillance device because I'm not sure if it still works. Occasionally I will review some surveillance videos. Sometimes when Kexin is alone, I see Kexin masturbating with her fingers many times.

This is the first time I saw Kexin masturbating

In the past, although I was not unable to have children, my sexual life with Kexin was still harmonious. Perhaps it was developed by Sijian that her physical needs reached a new level, so Kexin is not satisfied at all now, and she masturbates herself just looking at the plum blossoms to quench her thirst

Here, I have to mention Sijian. In the past two years, Sijian has lost all the news, and has not even come back during the Chinese New Year. He has not contacted us on his own initiative, as if he has disappeared from the world. Generally, I can only get some news from Leng Bingshuang. According to Leng Bingshuang, Sijian's governance has been completely over. Now he is studying abroad and receiving higher education, and has made up for all the things that have been missing. As for when Sijian will come back and whether he will come back, I have not asked about all this, but just got the news of his safety from Leng Bingshuang, and I feel at ease.

I still feel that Si Jian has not changed in the past two years. My feelings for him are still complicated. I hope he will come back, but when I see him, I will think of the scenes before.

But I hope he will make a name for himself. After all, he is my biological son. I don’t force him. If he doesn’t want to come back, I will go and see him when I find time. If he is willing to come back, I will also accept him again. Everything depends on himself.

Husband, what do you want to eat tonight?

Looking at me recalling the memories outside the window in the office, I suddenly received a call from Kexin. Kexin said sweetly on the call, "Only when I lose it, I know how to cherish it." Although Kexin and I once had huge cracks, after healing, our relationship became deeper. Now we have more family affection than love, which is the ultimate and sublimation of love.

Anyway... as long as you make it, I'm willing to eat it...

I smiled and said to Kexin gently, I treated Kexin like this in the past. When we returned to the past, we never mentioned Sijian, as if it was a taboo name.

Alas... I always ask you this. It’s so boring. Should I go out to eat tonight?

Ke Xin seemed disappointing there, but at the end, she couldn't help but feel a little interested.

Why did you want to go out to eat?

I was a little confused at this moment

Because we have been together for a long time, a long time, a long time... we haven't gone out to have dinner alone...

Ke Xin said mischievously there

It's Ah... It's been a long time since we went out to have dinner alone... Okay... It's easy to book a place, just tell me afterwards...

After hearing Kexin's words, my eyes looked out the window, and a trace of confusion flashed. It seemed that the last time I went to have a candlelight dinner with Kexin alone was two or three years ago. Since we met Sijian, we have not had this opportunity.

OK, let me know later...

Kexin seemed very happy after hearing this, but her happy tone seemed to be a little touched. Perhaps she also knew how rare it was for us to date alone.

Two hours later, Kexin and I sat in the Western restaurant, looking at each other, everything was floating clouds, and plainness was the truth.

Kexin is still the same Kexin, so her body is no longer clean, but this is just a concept. Kexin's body is still the same as before. Even though Sijian has left a mark, the mark has long been cleaned and disappeared, mainly to overcome this psychological difficulty.

At the dining table, we put down everything and only enjoyed the tranquility. We were so happy to cut a piece of steak and fed it into my mouth, and I also cut a piece of steak and fed it into Kexin's mouth. The crowd next to us often came to see the ignorant eyes. The old couple is still so loving, but they don't know how entangled our relationship is.

Sijian's room is still our forbidden area. Before we had no choice, we usually don't go to that room. Everything there has not changed. It seems to be preserved and waiting for something, and Ke Xin is the same. Maybe she doesn't want to touch that memory anymore.

A Western meal ended in tranquility. When we were back home, we didn’t drive or take a taxi. Ke Xin took my arm and walked all the way with me. We didn’t speak along the way, we were all looking at the familiar street scene and enjoying the tranquility of the night.

It was half an hour away, and we walked for more than an hour. When we walked downstairs at home, neither of us felt tired. It was already past 11 o'clock in the evening. We had been eating this Western meal for a long time and seemed unwilling to leave the environment early.

When we walked up the stairs, we couldn't help but stop because we saw a person at the door of our house.

And the man was sitting on the stairs at this time. Perhaps he was too tired. He held his knees with his hands and buried his face in his knees. The temperature was very low at night, and he seemed very cold. There was a suitcase and a schoolbag beside him. The man seemed to be asleep and snoring evenly...