Chapter 101 Re-bathing in the river of love

I am ruthless, but my husband is interested in me.No matter how cold and unhappy I am to him, he always deals with me patiently and enthusiastically.

After a few times of contact, he took the initiative to ask me why I was so cold to him, because I was not satisfied with him?

I couldn't bear to say decisive words to hurt him. He was innocent and just said that he felt that he was not worthy of him and had no confidence.But he said straightforwardly that it must be because I had some knots in love in the past that hindered the development of our relationship. He hoped that I could tell him the past relationship openly.

Since he said that, I confessed to him my relationship with the squad leader and the death of the squad leader, of course I kept silent about my affairs with the squad leader.

I thought he would let go after hearing this and no longer bother me, but he said seriously: Yuxin, you will never forget your old love, which means you are a love-in-law woman.I believe that if your deceased lover is alive, you will definitely be a very happy couple.But the dead are like this, and you cannot always live in the shadow of losing your lover.I think if there is a spirit under the spring, I definitely don’t want to see you like this.You should live happily and bravely accept a new relationship again. This is the free and confident style of a contemporary female soldier. Your squad leader will also bless you in the underworld.

My husband was originally a teacher and graduated from graduate school. He was very eloquent, and I was moved by his words.I think although the squad leader left me, he would not want me to be ashamed of love and marriage.Of course, I won’t be so sloppy. No matter how sad I am, no matter how sad I am, sooner or later I will take the path that a woman should take to fall in love, get married, get pregnant, raise children, and even if I run out of my youthful appearance, I will get the silver threads in my old age. Isn’t this the case in life?

I remember it was on August 20, the day of July 16, and that day was also Saturday. My husband suddenly drove to Taizhou and appeared in front of me with a large bouquet of white lilies and chrysanthemums in his hand.I didn't understand what he was going to do, and he didn't say much, so he drove me straight to Ninghai County. It just so happened that I didn't have a shift that day.We went to the Martyrs Cemetery in Ninghai County. He took me to the squad leader's tomb for memorial service, as if he was familiar with the road.In fact, this is also the second time I have been to the squad leader’s grave to pay homage.

Afterwards, my husband told me that he came to this familiar terrain a few days in advance and found the squad leader's cemetery.He made such arrangements to make me abandon my heart and respect for the squad leader.After I knew the truth, I burst into tears with gratitude.

I decided to forget the past and face my husband's pursuit again.As our contacts increased, and he worked hard to travel between the two places regardless of the distance between them, and his pursuit of me with relentless pursuit, I gradually discovered many shining points in him.In addition, my husband's character is good, so I gradually developed a good impression of him. In the end, he gradually melted my heart that was already cold and dusty for love in his unique way.

I often have to be on duty in the army. We rarely have time to communicate with each other like ordinary people. We only have the opportunity to meet again on Saturday or Sunday. We usually rely on phone calls and QQ to contact each other.At that time, I suspected that falling in love in this way would have a result, but it turned out to be very effective.After my internship ended, he took the initiative to propose to me.

At that time, I might have wanted to get rid of the shadow of the death of the squad leader, or I was afraid of the loneliness of being alone in a foreign land, and I really wanted to find a reliable home.I feel that my husband's conditions are pretty good. He is four years older than me. He is gentle and considerate, and has a fair and upright appearance. He has no idea about his character, so he hesitated and agreed to him.Although my parents already knew that I was in contact with him, they still found out afterwards that I agreed to his proposal and felt a little surprised, but they did not blame me because they believed in their daughter's mind and judgment.

The old couple rushed over from the north and saw my husband Zhang Ze. They were basically satisfied with him, but they had a little complaint about his height.But my parents respected my decision, and the two elderly people met and agreed to get a marriage certificate at the end of the month to hold a wedding ceremony next year.One day before the end of December, we received the marriage certificate and accepted the blessings of the elderly.

Actually, this is a helpless move.After all, the military discipline of the army is strict, my contact area is narrow, and it is difficult to communicate with each other. Moreover, the death of the squad leader gave me an intuitive understanding of the dangers of military personnel's employment.I am already a soldier, so I don’t want to find another soldier as my partner. I just want to be at peace in my family life, so that I can have no worries and develop my personal career with all my heart.

We held a wedding on February 18, 2006. Our wedding room was a fund-raising housing for my husband in Shaoxing.On the third day after marriage, I returned to the army to be on duty.Although my husband is a little unhappy, he is a reasonable person and has always supported my work and has no complaints about me.On the wedding night, I handed my virginity to my husband, which made my husband very excited. Therefore, he was very relieved of a beautiful wife like me, and of course he was more at ease with my identity as a soldier.

Due to the nature of work, I have to turn off my phone during duty and I need to disable various ways of contacting the outside world, such as QQ, and others cannot contact me during my duty.I can only use Sunday to go home and reunite with my husband, and I usually live in the military officer dormitory.

Originally, according to my mother-in-law's advice, I wanted us to have children as soon as possible.But I think it will take some time for the couple to get together. I don’t want to be dragged down by the child too early and affect my personal future, so I didn’t agree to their request.

After marriage, although my husband was very satisfied with me and I was also very satisfied with my husband's family, there was indeed something unsatisfactory, that is, the discord in the lives of husband and wife.We were originally together for too many people, and the couple had few opportunities to be intimate, but our husband was not very eager for that aspect because he was thin.I admit that I am a woman with strong desires. Not only do I have a strong desire for career advancement, but I also have a very high desire for couples' lives. I think this is probably complementary.

After marriage, we are probably quite new to that aspect. The couple's life is still acceptable. We can guarantee twice a week, and each time is only 7 or 8 minutes.At that time, I only had contact with my husband, because there was no comparison, and I thought that normal couples had sex like this.

But in less than half a year, my husband showed signs of fatigue, and he was indeed weak.Because I am a woman, I cannot express my thoughts on that aspect too much to my husband, so I can only remind him with some hint, but he seems to be not very understanding of it.

Before Ma Xiaoxu and I cheated, I barely did it once every time I went home, and sometimes it was left alone, which made me feel hungry and full in that aspect.Although I had some complaints about this, I had no other thoughts at that time.