When I heard this bad news, I, who had always claimed to be strong, suddenly felt dizzy and fell to the ground and fainted from the stable.
When I woke up, I grabbed Teng Xiangling's hand like crazy and begged him to tell me that this was him joking with me, not true.I thought that at that moment I lost my usual calmness, and I really hoped that this was just a nightmare.I don't believe that a life that is smiling all day long, versatile and passionate about life will wither and wither so quickly.During the National Day holiday, the intimate scene of us holding our arms in Zhangjiajie is still vivid in my mind, as if yesterday, why did he leave without saying a word to me? This is really abrupt.
Zhongli Xin cried and hugged me and said: Yuxin, you have to be strong. The squad leader has left us. He has really left us forever. How can we curse him?
Teng Xiangling just stood aside with tears in her eyes and didn't say anything. I knew it was absolutely impossible for them to be joking with me.My eyes darkened again and fainted.
I cried bitterly when I woke up again.All the classmates and teachers who came to hear the news shed tears. Everyone tried to comfort me, but I still couldn't accept it.The first lover in my life, the first love came and walked away in a hurry, and ended in this most regrettable way. Can it not make me feel sad?
Although we have only confirmed that we are in love for a while, four years of classmates have long been deeply rooted in my love.My proud heart was captured by this man with dark skin, low-tall and simple appearance.I don't care about his appearance and height. I only appreciate his kindness, his ambition, his talent, his passion and patriotism, and his understanding. I dare not hope to find someone who knows me and understands me.
Teng Xiangling told me the past of the squad leader's sacrifice in tears: Half a month ago, when the squad leader and several soldiers were carrying communication equipment for outdoor directional tests, they suddenly encountered an avalanche.They hid under the snow in time to avoid danger, but the soldiers of the new army, carrying expensive equipment, were still hit by the rolling snowballs, and were about to fall into the deep valley of the cliff.The squad leader rushed over without hesitation, trying to hold the soldier, but was swallowed by the snow that continued to roll down, and he and the soldier fell down.The soldiers beside them could only watch all this happen, and they couldn't even react.
Later, the troops sent nearly one company of troops and searched with the search and rescue dog for 4 days before they were in the snow-dumping squad leader and the body of the soldier. At that time, the squad leader's hand was still holding the soldier's hand tightly, and he couldn't even open it.
The squad leader left us forever, without a last word. His body was cremated locally, and his family returned to their hometown, Ninghai County, Zhejiang Province with their ashes and relics.Teng Xiangling was at another radar station at that time. When he learned the bad news, he rushed over and helped the squad leader's family to pack up the belongings, he found a notebook.He looked roughly and found that it was the diary written to me by the squad leader, because there was a sketch of me hand-painted by the squad leader on the title page of the diary, and the content of the diary was full of his longing for me.Teng Xiangling asked the class monitor's family for this notebook, accompanied the class monitor's family to Ninghai County, Zhejiang Province, and buried the ashes of the class monitor. Then he rushed back to school to see me with the notebook.
I opened my notebook crying and saw my sketch.I remember that the squad leader had never sketched me in person, so it should have been drawn by him based on his memory of me. The content of the diary later also confirmed this point, which shows how deep he is in love with me.
I remember that in my diary on October 10, the class monitor made a affectionate confession.He blamed himself for being unable to control his lust and made such a request to me, forcing me to come up with this bad plan to satisfy him.He blamed himself on the train back to the army, so after he returned to the army, he immediately took out his notebook and recorded his remorse on the road.He swore in that page of diary that he would never force me to see me next time he would not force me, even if I agreed to him.He wants to keep my virginity on the night we get married in the future, and to make me worthy of the white wedding dress I wear.
When I saw this, my tears had wet the page of the diary and blurred his handwriting.My heart felt like a knife was shattered, and I was about to die of regret.I have never enjoyed the real happiness between men and women, and I just let go of my hands early at a young age.He should have enjoyed it, but it was because of my stubbornness and conservatism that he did not get what he wanted.Although he confessed to his behavior towards me in his diary, I hated my own paranoia even more. I felt that I had let down the squad leader’s infatuation with me too much.
He and I could not foresee that we would be separated from one's life and death. If we could foresee, I would definitely offer him my body and virginity without hesitation, so that this person who loves me and the person I love would leave no regrets.Unfortunately, this is all if, not reality.I was so sad that I couldn't sleep or eat for several days. I lost a lot of weight and it took me nearly half a year to recover.
Because I was still a student at that time, and I had to grit my teeth and persist in completing my studies, I clearly remember what the four of us said when we were drinking together.I want to study hard and strive to achieve excellent results when I graduate.After the military internship expires, we must strive to be awarded the deputy battalion level of the captain who was wished by the squad leader to comfort his spirit in heaven.
At that time, I was just focusing on my studies, regardless of the rest, and I seemed to be trying my best.When Zhonglixin and my female classmates in the dormitory saw that I was a little worried, they kindly helped me introduce my partner, trying to divert my grief and attention, but I let them down.Because when I walk with other men, I always recall the squad leader’s grinding and affection, and my heart cannot accept other men.I was sad to find that I no longer love anyone, and the death of the squad leader will be the regret and pain caused by my heart.
After graduating from graduate school, I faced many choices, but I chose Taizhou City, Zhejiang Province, which is adjacent to the class leader's hometown.In early June 2005, I became an intern officer at a radar station of a certain Air Force.During my half-year internship, I won the third-class merit once, and after the expiration of the period in early December, I was awarded the deputy battalion level of the captain.I finally breathed a sigh of relief because I really did it all.
In the next three years, I won the second-class merit once and the third-class merit twice for my outstanding work performance. In August last year, I was awarded the Major’s correct battalion level in advance, but it was normal to upgrade to another level after 4 years.
My parents far away in the north were worried that it was inconvenient for me to live in another place. They often urged me to find a partner to get married after being assigned to the local area, so as to get rid of the pain of losing the squad leader as soon as possible.It just so happened that there were enthusiastic people in the army to help me meet my husband who was a teacher at Shaoxing Arts and Science College in early July.
I was still in my internship at that time, and I was devoted to my work, just thinking about making achievements and having no intention of falling in love.But the introducer is our leader’s lover, I can’t refute this face.As soon as I met, I found that my husband was very gentle and upright and delicate like a southern man.But he is not tall, only 17 meters tall, as tall as me, and 2 cm lower than the squad leader.I reluctantly agreed to deal with him because of the introduction, but I thought it was impossible for me to have him.
When I woke up, I grabbed Teng Xiangling's hand like crazy and begged him to tell me that this was him joking with me, not true.I thought that at that moment I lost my usual calmness, and I really hoped that this was just a nightmare.I don't believe that a life that is smiling all day long, versatile and passionate about life will wither and wither so quickly.During the National Day holiday, the intimate scene of us holding our arms in Zhangjiajie is still vivid in my mind, as if yesterday, why did he leave without saying a word to me? This is really abrupt.
Zhongli Xin cried and hugged me and said: Yuxin, you have to be strong. The squad leader has left us. He has really left us forever. How can we curse him?
Teng Xiangling just stood aside with tears in her eyes and didn't say anything. I knew it was absolutely impossible for them to be joking with me.My eyes darkened again and fainted.
I cried bitterly when I woke up again.All the classmates and teachers who came to hear the news shed tears. Everyone tried to comfort me, but I still couldn't accept it.The first lover in my life, the first love came and walked away in a hurry, and ended in this most regrettable way. Can it not make me feel sad?
Although we have only confirmed that we are in love for a while, four years of classmates have long been deeply rooted in my love.My proud heart was captured by this man with dark skin, low-tall and simple appearance.I don't care about his appearance and height. I only appreciate his kindness, his ambition, his talent, his passion and patriotism, and his understanding. I dare not hope to find someone who knows me and understands me.
Teng Xiangling told me the past of the squad leader's sacrifice in tears: Half a month ago, when the squad leader and several soldiers were carrying communication equipment for outdoor directional tests, they suddenly encountered an avalanche.They hid under the snow in time to avoid danger, but the soldiers of the new army, carrying expensive equipment, were still hit by the rolling snowballs, and were about to fall into the deep valley of the cliff.The squad leader rushed over without hesitation, trying to hold the soldier, but was swallowed by the snow that continued to roll down, and he and the soldier fell down.The soldiers beside them could only watch all this happen, and they couldn't even react.
Later, the troops sent nearly one company of troops and searched with the search and rescue dog for 4 days before they were in the snow-dumping squad leader and the body of the soldier. At that time, the squad leader's hand was still holding the soldier's hand tightly, and he couldn't even open it.
The squad leader left us forever, without a last word. His body was cremated locally, and his family returned to their hometown, Ninghai County, Zhejiang Province with their ashes and relics.Teng Xiangling was at another radar station at that time. When he learned the bad news, he rushed over and helped the squad leader's family to pack up the belongings, he found a notebook.He looked roughly and found that it was the diary written to me by the squad leader, because there was a sketch of me hand-painted by the squad leader on the title page of the diary, and the content of the diary was full of his longing for me.Teng Xiangling asked the class monitor's family for this notebook, accompanied the class monitor's family to Ninghai County, Zhejiang Province, and buried the ashes of the class monitor. Then he rushed back to school to see me with the notebook.
I opened my notebook crying and saw my sketch.I remember that the squad leader had never sketched me in person, so it should have been drawn by him based on his memory of me. The content of the diary later also confirmed this point, which shows how deep he is in love with me.
I remember that in my diary on October 10, the class monitor made a affectionate confession.He blamed himself for being unable to control his lust and made such a request to me, forcing me to come up with this bad plan to satisfy him.He blamed himself on the train back to the army, so after he returned to the army, he immediately took out his notebook and recorded his remorse on the road.He swore in that page of diary that he would never force me to see me next time he would not force me, even if I agreed to him.He wants to keep my virginity on the night we get married in the future, and to make me worthy of the white wedding dress I wear.
When I saw this, my tears had wet the page of the diary and blurred his handwriting.My heart felt like a knife was shattered, and I was about to die of regret.I have never enjoyed the real happiness between men and women, and I just let go of my hands early at a young age.He should have enjoyed it, but it was because of my stubbornness and conservatism that he did not get what he wanted.Although he confessed to his behavior towards me in his diary, I hated my own paranoia even more. I felt that I had let down the squad leader’s infatuation with me too much.
He and I could not foresee that we would be separated from one's life and death. If we could foresee, I would definitely offer him my body and virginity without hesitation, so that this person who loves me and the person I love would leave no regrets.Unfortunately, this is all if, not reality.I was so sad that I couldn't sleep or eat for several days. I lost a lot of weight and it took me nearly half a year to recover.
Because I was still a student at that time, and I had to grit my teeth and persist in completing my studies, I clearly remember what the four of us said when we were drinking together.I want to study hard and strive to achieve excellent results when I graduate.After the military internship expires, we must strive to be awarded the deputy battalion level of the captain who was wished by the squad leader to comfort his spirit in heaven.
At that time, I was just focusing on my studies, regardless of the rest, and I seemed to be trying my best.When Zhonglixin and my female classmates in the dormitory saw that I was a little worried, they kindly helped me introduce my partner, trying to divert my grief and attention, but I let them down.Because when I walk with other men, I always recall the squad leader’s grinding and affection, and my heart cannot accept other men.I was sad to find that I no longer love anyone, and the death of the squad leader will be the regret and pain caused by my heart.
After graduating from graduate school, I faced many choices, but I chose Taizhou City, Zhejiang Province, which is adjacent to the class leader's hometown.In early June 2005, I became an intern officer at a radar station of a certain Air Force.During my half-year internship, I won the third-class merit once, and after the expiration of the period in early December, I was awarded the deputy battalion level of the captain.I finally breathed a sigh of relief because I really did it all.
In the next three years, I won the second-class merit once and the third-class merit twice for my outstanding work performance. In August last year, I was awarded the Major’s correct battalion level in advance, but it was normal to upgrade to another level after 4 years.
My parents far away in the north were worried that it was inconvenient for me to live in another place. They often urged me to find a partner to get married after being assigned to the local area, so as to get rid of the pain of losing the squad leader as soon as possible.It just so happened that there were enthusiastic people in the army to help me meet my husband who was a teacher at Shaoxing Arts and Science College in early July.
I was still in my internship at that time, and I was devoted to my work, just thinking about making achievements and having no intention of falling in love.But the introducer is our leader’s lover, I can’t refute this face.As soon as I met, I found that my husband was very gentle and upright and delicate like a southern man.But he is not tall, only 17 meters tall, as tall as me, and 2 cm lower than the squad leader.I reluctantly agreed to deal with him because of the introduction, but I thought it was impossible for me to have him.
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