Sister Li is back, I jumped up and opened the door for her. When I opened the door, I was still naked and didn't wear anything.
Sister Li brought back a lot of things, but I was afraid that I wouldn't be used to eating Guangdong food. I bought some northern fried dough sticks and soy milk.
Close the door, we eat and watch TV
This day happened to be Saturday, and we don’t have to go to work on Saturdays and Sundays. The company is pretty good. Compared to most Guangzhou people who have to work half a day on Saturdays, I’m also happy.
Sister Li said: What do you want to do after dinner?
I said gently in her ear: Fuck you
Sister Li smiled and hit me. I found that any woman is very fatal when she acts coquettishly. I thought that Sister Li, who is thirty years old, would not act like this in her younger daughter, but she didn't expect that she would still be the same as her younger daughter.
She said: Let's save some money, we will have opportunities in the future
There will always be a show today
I said: You can arrange it
What I thought was to go back to bed early. I have been with Sister Li for more than ten hours last night. I was also afraid of going shopping with women, so I always felt that it was too wordy.
I said: I'd better go back. I want to sleep for a while. I'm too tired.
Sister Li said: Then you can sleep here and at most accompany you
I said: No, I can only feel safe when I sleep in my own bed, and I can't sleep anywhere else.
I'm telling the truth. To be honest, I'm a little bit of a bed choice. I really can't sleep well elsewhere. I was with Sister Li last night and had sex more than sleep. Besides, I was really tired after doing it, so I would fall asleep
Sister Li took me back to her dormitory in a car, but I didn’t invite her to come up and sit. Sister Li asked me: Don’t you want me to go up and sit?
I smiled: Next time, the room is too messy, I'm really embarrassed to let you sit down
I stood by the roadside and watched Sister Li reverse car, driving away gradually, then I went up and opened my room and slept in the bed. I thought of everything that happened yesterday, everything was like a dream, and it happened like this. Oh, my virginity ended like this, I didn't expect this would be the case.
I turned on the light, and my books were still on the table,
My thoughts are a little bit unreal. Although I have thought about it countless times, I found that I am not an open-minded person when it really happened.
After I went to work on Monday, I found that another colleague came to the company. She was also very beautiful, and she seemed to be the kind of girl I tasted, she looked pure.
But my body has a kind of tall and strong, plump breasts and hips that are raised high. Wow, I feel sexually urged when I look at her.
I suppressed my emotions. At this time, I saw the boss walking in from outside with a gloomy expression. I was shocked.
It won't be so soon the boss will know about me
Thinking of this, I felt so sad. This is a dangerous game, I can't afford to play Ah
Fortunately, I don't know what happened to the boss, but it must have nothing to do with me. I watched him enter his office with a gloomy face.
The new beautiful colleague is Ning Ling. In a few days, I have found out about her QQ number. Because they are all colleagues, they also have jobs to communicate on QQ.
Every day we communicate on QQ, gradually I found that I had fallen in love with her. I think it will take me a long time to succeed.
But Sister Li will contact me. Sometimes she calls me to come over.
If the boss is on a business trip, it will be the day when we have sex together, but I have never been to Sister Li's house before
When I wrote this, I suddenly felt an emptiness that I had never seen before. The things I had experienced before hurt my heart so deeply. What did I do?
And now I still write down those things. Is it really necessary?
It turns out that I always thought I was a young man with ideals, but now I fell into this in this strange city. Is this the life I want?
The ideal that I thought I could never win and could achieve was now far away
I often remembered that night when I was with Sister Li, and her plump body, did I fascinate or disgust?
I understand, I fell in love with Ning Ling, it is because of love that makes me feel ashamed.
In the deepest part of my consciousness, I am such a person, so real and so honest
Am I really honest?
I still remember my Chinese teacher said in middle school class: If you want to write good works, you must be honest and open your heart completely
When I was a teenager, I thought I could really open my heart completely, but the more things I went through, I realized that it took courage to truly open a person's heart completely.
Sister Li gradually knew that I fell in love with Ning Ling, but she did not object. After all, I also have my life, and some things she cannot bring to me. Ning Ling and I are about the same age after all, so we can face the future life together.
It's just that I don't know Ah, life is opening its unexpected side to me in its unique way
One night I went out for dinner with Ning Ling, and I invited her because I told her on QQ that I like her very much and hoped that she would give me a chance.
I can even love her for the rest of my life, and even have some more numb words. After all, I would be embarrassed if I said something to someone, but I confessed my love so calmly against the computer screen
Ning Ling promised to come out to have dinner with me in the evening
Ning Ling chose a Zhen Kung Fu restaurant with her understanding way
Fortunately, the things here are not expensive and clean
We sat in a position by the window. Outside the window was crowded with people coming and going. Evening was approaching, and we could even see the lights lights were getting light up bit by bit
I looked at Ning Ling's beautiful and clean face, and I thought, if I could be with Ning Ling, I would experience the so-called love. Ning Ling asked me: Fan Lei, when did you start to like me?
I said: From the first time I saw you, I started to like you
But there was no joy on Ning Ling's face. We didn't look like we were in love. Ning Ling's calm expression made my heart sink. I thought that asking her out means she had accepted me.
Later I realized how Ning Ling felt at that moment. At that time, she had just broken up with her boyfriend. The man said he loved her at first, and Ning Ling was still studying in a university in Guangzhou and was a senior student. They met online. After half a year of knowing each other, Ning Ling handed herself over to her.
Even that Hubei man proposed to her
Ning Ling is from Guangdong, and her family also opposes Ning Ling marrying a man outside of Guangdong.
And Ning Ling was still young at that time, so there was no need to marry herself in such a hurry.
Soon the man hit another woman, and the woman was introduced by the man's sister.
One day, Ning Ling went to find him and ran into them together. She knocked on the door for a long time before it opened. Ning Ling knew what they were doing together. Her tears couldn't help falling, but the man did not comfort her and turned back to coax his new girlfriend.
More than a year of love affair ended like this in this way
I thought everything was over, but Ning Ling realized that she was pregnant with his child. On the phone, Ning Ling said to him: I can marry you, I am now pregnant with your child
The man said: What do you want to do? We are over. Don't do anything else, okay?
When Ning Ling told me all this, we were lying on her bed. On that night, she handed herself over to me. She was so sloppy and even a little angry.
After doing it, Ning Ling told me all this
I was stunned for a moment, as if someone had hit me hard on the head
Is reality really that cruel?
Behind everyone there is such a heavy story that is not told to others
For a moment I even wanted to tell her about myself and Sister Li, but I still held back. I am a man, I am a man who wants to accomplish great things, so I can't even keep my mouth shut.
I sat naked on the head of Ning Ling's bed, and Ning Ling was also exposed. She said: Fan Lei, do you still love me now?
What else can I say? I can't say anything. I admit that I'm not a too feudal and conservative man, but I still like that kind of pure girl. Although I can't be that pure myself, I still can't stand it if I really accept her like this.
I am sure I love her Ah. Now I understand, I understand why Ning Ling always has a depressed expression. Is there really such an unhappy woman?
Ning Ling is clearly a newly graduated girl Ah
I understand why Ning Ling always has a cold expression. She is not pretending to be cool or cool. She is obviously hurt by love.
Love really hurts people, but it hurts a person to this point
I said: Ning Ling, is your boyfriend from Hubei?
Ning Ling said: Yes, you are from Hubei, aren’t you?
I said: Yes, but how could Hubei people have a scum like him?
I was really angry. Ning Ling said: Actually, in my eyes, he has always been good. I didn't expect that we would break up so quickly. He would be with others so quickly. I used to say that I wouldn't marry her, but it was just a joke. I didn't expect that he would find another girl so soon.
I held Ning Ling in my arms. Although my heart hurts, it was clearly because I loved Ning Ling too deeply for a while and still couldn't accept such a reality.
Wu Yan, what else can I do besides having sex at this time? At the beginning, I thought I had found true love. This is a great irony for me.
I put Ning Ling down on the bed again, entered her body hard, fucked her
Thinking of the fact that I thought she was a virgin just now, the feeling of pity disappeared all of a sudden, I thought of this person's body being slept like me by another man, maybe Ning Ling was still enjoying the experience brought by orgasm?
When I think of the situation where my loved one has sex with others, I feel a tingling pain in my heart
I think maybe it's because I love her so much
Why can a person be open to someone he doesn't love, but can't be so free and easy to be someone he really loves? I thought I was an open-minded person, but I didn't expect that things would still be unlucky when things were about to come.
Ning Ling spread her body on the bed. Her body is beautiful, and she does have an intoxicating fascination.
I kissed her breasts and stroked her lower part. She was already wet and began to moan happily. I had a vicious thought: Are you screaming like this under that man?
Thinking of this, I feel even more disgusted and disgusted. I admit that I am not a noble man, I can't be noble.
Ning Ling asked me if I could accompany her to the hospital for surgery to get rid of the child. My heart hurts so much, and it was not something I did. Why should I accompany you to have sex?
But I didn't say it, I said OK, if you need to call me, I will accompany you
After a night, Ning Ling obviously regarded me as a trustworthy person, but in fact I was not trustworthy.
The next day, my mood was so bad. When I thought of Ning Ling, the only person I fell in love with was already pregnant with someone else's child. It's so fucking hell
I even doubt whether God is making a joke with me. I finally fell in love with someone, and I also tried my best to get it, but I didn't expect it to be a kind of person.
I called Sister Li, and this was the first time I called Sister Li on my own initiative. I said: Sister Li, I am Fan Lei
Sister Li was obviously a little surprised. She used to call me on the initiative, and she said on the other end of the phone: Xiao Fan Ah, what's the matter?
I said: Sister Li, I miss you
I felt so sad when I said that, how could I miss her? But at this moment, I miss Sister Li so much. Thinking of her body, what I want is the happiness her body brings me.
Sister Li said: Where are you? I'll come to see you
I am staying in my dormitory. It was Sunday and I didn't have to go to work. The room was empty, I was the only one, lonely and deserted
Half an hour later, Sister Li came. I opened the door and held Sister Li in my arms. At that moment, I almost cried, but it seemed like nothing happened.
I closed the door, and only Sister Li and I were left in the room. Although it was daytime, the lights were still on because the light in the room was dim.
We didn't say anything, so I pushed Sister Li to the edge of the bed and said: What are you doing? I didn't have time to take a sip of water?
This is the first time Sister Li has arrived at my place where I live. I don’t care about that much. I peeled off Sister Li’s clothes in a few seconds. Sister Li was lying naked on the bed. I took off myself and had no foreplay. I suddenly entered her body
Sister Li may feel that I am a little different from usual. Sister Li asked me: What's wrong, Xiao Fan, what's the stimulation?
I said: No, Sister Li, don't ask anything
The kind of compromise deep in my heart is really impossible to tell anyone. I can only be relieved by fighting with Sister Li’s physical strength. Sister Li is indeed not talking and concentrating on having sex with me. She hugged me tightly in her arms. I rubbed her breasts and her butt. This plump and plump woman, I need you, I can only experience that kind of happiness from you.
I thought of the details that I was with Ning Ling the night before. The details were so real. Now I am even better than Ning Ling, but why do I look at Ning Ling with a vicious idea?
If Ning Ling is really wrong, she just misunderstood her, she was blind and gave herself to a man who was irresponsible to her. But as for me, I clearly knew but still had to make mistakes. What qualifications do I have to look down on Ning Ling?
Sister Li no longer asks me. At this point, I still like a mature woman like Sister Li very much. I told her not to ask her, but I wouldn't ask her anymore. She didn't show strong curiosity like a little girl, because she knew that if I wanted to say, I would definitely tell her if I didn't want to say that even if she asked, maybe I would lie.
Is it because Sister Li knows men too much or something
I wonder if Sister Li asked about Mr. Zeng when she was with Mr. Zeng?
There are three other women in our company who are Mr. Zeng’s secret lovers?
Does Sister Li know these things?
I think she may not know
But Sister Li has never asked me, even though she is so close to me.
If Sister Li really asked me about these things, would I say it?
Maybe, maybe it will only make me embarrassed because she knows I won't say it
It seems that only after marriage and men can a woman truly grow and mature. How can a little girl understand these?
After the intense exercise, I held Sister Li in my arms. I forced myself to smile and pretended to be happy, as if I enjoyed these moments with her.
I kept talking, and she responded to me, talking a lot like a little girl
Actually, I kept thinking about Ning Ling, what was Ning Ling doing at this time?
Can she think about my current situation?
Can she think of a man she met again, a man she thought was a good man, actually such a guy?
Deep in my heart, I hate Ning Ling, yes, it is indeed hatred. If there is no love, there might not be hatred, but it is because I love her so much that I realize that I hate her so much now
You little bitch, you started handing over yourself to others in college. How old were you at that time?
Can't you just be so helpless?
I went to enjoy sex so early but I am abandoned now. When you decided to hand over yourself, you opened your eyes and looked at Ah clearly?
It really makes me speechless
Even if you really have these things, don't tell me Ah. You know that I love you, but you reveal the truth, let me see the cruel side of reality, let me see the ugly things under your pure appearance, if so, I would rather not know these
I just want you to be as pure and sexy as I saw at first sight. I just want you to be a simple little girl. I just want you to be the pure goddess in my mind. I want you to belong to me, I just want you to belong to me.
But you told me everything, don't you think this is too cruel to me?
Maybe this is a woman, this is the vivid lesson Ning Ling taught me. She told me the truth about women in this way. When you fall in love, you may be destined to be this pain.
In the afternoon, Sister Li said she was leaving, but I didn’t say anything. Just leave. I said: Sister Li, why don’t I invite you out for a meal?
Sister Li was in a good mood, and she said: OK, then don’t sleep there, and go out for a walk when you have time, as if you don’t have many friends in Guangzhou?
I said: Where are the friends from, they all work, they work hard for life, and they have the leisure to interact with each other.
Thinking of these things, my heart hurts, maybe my life is destined to be like this. I work hard every day for a little pitiful salary, but I can only live in the bottom of society forever. Life reminds me again and again in her unique way, ideals, dreams, things that are empty and impossible to achieve.
Those scholars are so angry that they can only be discarded as bullshit things
I invited Sister Li to a fast food restaurant and had a fast food of five yuan per serving. Sister Li didn't dislike it at all.
Sister Li's car was parked outside, but she sat here for five yuan fast food. Because I invited her, I could save it like this.
I said: Thank you Sister Li, Sister Li
Sister Li said: Thank you, you invite me to dinner, I should be Ah
I didn't say anything, because all Sister Li's words seemed redundant at this moment. Sister Li knew everything, and there was no need to say anything
Now when I think about the situation we were having dinner in a fast food restaurant, I honestly am so impressed by the situation at that time. I admit that I have some inferiority complex. It is indeed a very hurtful thing for a man to have no money. Even if he invites someone to have a meal, he can only eat fast food of five yuan. Isn’t this shameful thing?
Men all need face
Ning Ling still works in the company every day, and she can't tell anything unusual about our relationship on her daily life. We are like two very ordinary colleagues, saying ordinary words. Sometimes I even joke with others, but I don't even talk to Ning Ling.
Of course this is in the office, but on the other side of life, we slept in the same bed at night. Since that time, I have often gone to her place, and sometimes she will come to my dormitory.
It's also very strange. Sister Li rarely sends text messages or calls, so Ning Ling has never known that Sister Li and I have such things, and of course the boss doesn't know that in this matter, Sister Li and I are as experienced and mature as two adults.
I hugged Ning Ling and fell asleep at night. The stinging feeling became weaker day by day. I thought I could forget it. Maybe if I love someone, don’t care about her past. After all, I didn’t know Ning Ling at that time. If I forgive me, I should forgive Ning Ling Ah.
I thought about what Ning Ling would think if she knew what Sister Li and I would think. Maybe I should have broken up with Sister Li. I don’t want to live like this anymore.
But in fact, what I thought about is just a matter of real implementation, but there are so many excuses. Do I have no obsession with Sister Li’s body?
On Sunday, Ning Ling asked me to accompany her to have surgery, which means that the abortion had been agreed on a long time ago, and I couldn't refuse. I blamed me for this. I was a very soft person. If someone else really asked me for anything, I was very reluctant, but I couldn't refuse.
And for so long I found that Ning Ling is really pitiful. She is so real to love, and she is so simple. She really doesn't know how to face this thing alone.
So I'll go with her
We went to Guangzhou Army General Hospital. This day could have been very dull, but I didn't expect that something would happen if it was better.
I still remember Ning Caishen said: Life is the novel Ah
When writing novels, there is no need to make up any more. Life repeatedly tells us that life is a novel in its unexpected way.
Ning Ling came out of the inside that day, her face was pale and she looked sick.
Actually, I don't need to say that I know about such a surgery.
Generally speaking, taking medicine and acupuncture is not clean, only chassis. What is chassis?
The doctor puts cold forceps into the vagina and scrapes the embryos left and right in the uterus.
This is enough to make people feel goose bumps, let alone experience it in person
Just then I saw Ning Ling's face change. I followed her eyes and saw a thin man, not tall, with such a cumbersome face.
The man approached, and I saw clearly what cold medicine he was holding
I asked Ning Ling what's wrong
Ning Ling said: Liu Mingjun
I suddenly understood everything. This is Liu Mingjun, Ning Ling's boyfriend, the man who made Ning Ling suffer such pain now, but now left Ning Ling aside and ignored him.
I just don't understand how a cumbersome man like Liu Mingjun can make Ning Ling love him so much and live for him.
The man said: Ning Ling, fast enough, I found another new person so soon
As soon as I saw his face, I wanted to beat him. Unexpectedly, since this thief dared to come up, he still sarcastically said, isn't this asking for death? I went up and asked him: Who are you talking about?
The man smiled and said: Brother, Ning Ling is my second-hand product. Thank you for recycling it for me.
I felt that the compromises I suffered completely exploded. I have never seen such a shameless man. If someone told me, I might not believe it. Now I have experienced it myself and realized that there are such shameless people in the world.
I flew up and kicked him in the chest, and he fell to the ground.
He got up, I rushed up and slammed again, my fist fell on his face, and blood came out from her nose.
Ning Ling came up and grabbed me, Ning Ling shouted: Stop hitting me again
I turned around and looked at Ning Ling's eyes, and I said coldly: What? Are you heartbroken?
The man rushed up and punched me in the face while I was unprepared, and then ran away. Isn’t this asking for death?
You can still run past me. I am not a 100-meter 11-second three seconds. I rushed up quickly and kicked him on the back. He fell to the ground again. I didn't hesitate to step on him with my feet.
There were many onlookers coming around immediately. I said loudly: This person is a bag snatcher. I just snatched my bag
Some people rushed up and beat him up
The situation in Guangzhou is somewhat different from other places. There are bags everywhere. As you walk on the street, you don’t pay attention to your phone or bag has been snatched.
One of the three people who have lived in Guangzhou must be robbed
So people have an indescribable anger towards those who grab bags. When they hear that they catch a person who grabs bags, they will expose their resentment on him.
I pulled Ning Ling away and pulled Ning Ling away from the crowd Ning Ling said: People are still beating him
I said: He deserves to be beaten to death
Ning Ling also turned around and looked at Liu Mingjun who was beaten. I waved my hand and a taxi was parked in front of me. I pulled Ning Ling into the car and left quickly
Ning Ling has already asked for leave, her body needs to recover, and miscarriage is not a trivial matter for women. After returning that day, Ning Ling asked several times if this would destroy Liu Mingjun. It seems that she is quite concerned about Liu Mingjun. I was a little strange. I used to think that Liu Mingjun was at least a handsome man or richer, but Ning Ling denied my guess about him being rich. He is just an ordinary small employee, only more than one thousand yuan a month, and his education is not high.
It seems that Ning Ling doesn't need to explain to me whether he is handsome or not. I have seen his real person, it's really a bit bad.
But I can see Ning Ling's concern for him. Sometimes you have to admit that those who look bad can indeed get the initial love of girls.
Look at Ning Ling, a girl who was still studying in college gave him the first night
(Ning Ling was still in school at that time, so of course she has already come out to work now), the woman's thoughts are really hard to guess.
Liu Mingjun called Ning Ling again and asked Ning Ling to tell me to be careful not to let him touch him, otherwise I will die. To be honest, I have never been afraid of anything even though I grew up so old. Of course, I was not afraid this time. I just thought Liu Mingjun was a little funny. What's the point of saying these ruthless words? I can't beat them.
I laughed when I heard Ning Ling telling these words. I looked at Ning Ling and said: Ning Ling, are you afraid that I will beat him again? If you really hurt, you won’t feel heartbroken?
Ning Ling pretended to be angry and ignored me. I could see her pretended anger. In fact, when she heard Liu Mingjun speak on the phone with confidence, she was indeed relieved. She knew that Liu Mingjun was fine, and her worries for several days suddenly relaxed. She thought I didn't see it. How could I not see it for me?
But for a long time, I have found that I can treat this matter normally, and it's even more common
I used to be a man who was in trouble. It seems that I have experienced it.
During that time, I went to Ning Ling to accompany her when I had time. Because of her health, in fact, even if I slept in her, I couldn't do anything. For her situation, the doctor said this. I had to rest for at least one month and not have sex.
Sometimes when sleeping in Ning Ling, her body is quite tempting to me. We both sleep together naked. I said that it was almost naked because Ning Ling was still wearing a small pair of briefs. I stroked her breasts. She saw that my body was also in a state of masturbation. She stroked my penis with her hands. I was already feeling very uncomfortable. It seemed that my body was about to explode like a volcano. This was really devastating.
Ning Ling also saw the suppressed pain of me. While I kissed her, her passion also came up, but her body did not allow her to take more extreme actions, and I dare not take too much risk.
I think I am still a responsible man. I can't let her be hurt any more. Ning Ling has suffered too much.
I am just a hungry person, but now I have a sumptuous dinner, but I tell you if it's okay, but I can't eat it, is it too devastating for people?
During that period, I would often call Sister Li and then erupt with a volcanic passion on her body
Sister Li is also as old as a wolf and tiger. I asked Sister Li, is Mr. Zeng okay now?
Of course I mean in this regard, Sister Li said that there hasn't been once a month
I don't think so. Mr. Zeng looks tall and tall, must be very strong in this regard. Later, I saw in a medical book that a man's tall figure has little to do with this matter. Besides, Mr. Zeng has been married to Sister Li for many years, and he is somewhat aesthetically exhausted.
That is, I have too much energy to vent
Life just passes in a simple way, just like the flowing water of a small river, flowing quietly, as if it is seen for thousands of years.
Every day, I go to Ning Ling's place in the evening, and go to Sister Li from time to time. No one knows what happened. Ning Ling doesn't know, and Mr. Zeng doesn't know either.
Mr. Zeng smiled at me every time, very sincerely
Sometimes when I look at him, I feel ashamed and guilty. I know that what I do in this matter is indeed a bit unauthorized, but every time Sister Li calls me, I can't help but miss her body. More importantly, I miss the joyful experience that her body brings me.
But in fact, life can never be a stagnant pool. There have been many changes under the calm life on the surface.
First, our three-issues of newspapers have now been changed to only once a week, and sales cannot be increased. Several department heads in charge of sales and distribution have been hyped up by the boss.
Next, meetings were held again and again, and new opinions were constantly put forward. The boss wanted to make a newspaper a weekly magazine. Later, he said he wanted to make a magazine, specializing in DM magazines in the high-end market.
A few weeks later, the boss proposed to start a book market and publish books specifically. The boss was recently negotiating a clothing factory and wanted to build a clothing brand.
His various ideas are very good, but there has been no movement at the most critical stage of implementation.
People in the company are already in a state of mind, and people are constantly asking for leave. In fact, everyone knows that these people who ask for leave are going to interview and find jobs.
During that period, I was also thinking about this problem. It seems that the company is about to collapse, so I should look for a job quickly.
I sent a few cover letters online, and several notified me to go for an interview. Two times I also took leave to interview, but the companies I asked me to go to were all small companies with different appearances, and I couldn't see where the future was.
I think even if I want to jump, I have to make some progress. Let's jump to a company with a high income.
The one-month vacation ended, and Ning Ling also returned to the company to go to work. When we were together, we would also talk about the current situation of the company.
It has been a long time since I contacted Sister Li again. I don’t know what I’m busy with recently.
I think she is probably busy thinking about the company's future with Mr. Zeng. No matter what, she is a couple. It is impossible to see Mr. Zeng fall down like this.
The lovers Zeng, who used to regard themselves as the boss's wife, also left the company one by one. Mr. Zeng may not have thought that Mr. Zeng would be able to share the hardships with him, and at least he would leave the company the last one. However, when lovers who had once lie on Mr. Zeng's bed humming and humming applied to him one by one, we could see that Mr. Zeng's indescribable loss
It's Ah, people always go to the last step and know what the truth is
Have you ever thought that he had been in vain for thirty or forty years, and he had not even understood the most basic world and human relationships. What kind of company boss is impossible?
When I was eating in Ning Ling's house and saying these words to Ning Ling, Ning Ling just listened and didn't say anything. Recently, no one felt good. It was difficult to find a job in this city, but now I have to join the job hunting army. Fortunately, Ning Ling and I are young people who have just graduated, so we have prepared for this.
My idea is that instead of staying half-dead, it is better to find a better company. I didn't have the courage to quit before, but now I'm forcing me to get to this point
When I was fine, I stayed in Ning Ling's house, turned on the computer and went online one by one on the website, mainly on the job search website. We registered almost every job search recruitment website.
But the longer our initial confidence was eroded little by little, and in the end we were left with a pitiful little bit, we comforted each other
The employment market is not as beautiful as we imagined. We had expected this a long time ago, but we didn't expect it to be worse than we thought. It seems that the two companies that asked me to go to work at the beginning were pretty good, but since I had missed it, let's forget it
Sometimes Ning Ling and I were lying on the bed, Ning Ling's body had already recovered, and I basically recognized being with her. The initial resistance and resentment was closed. What else can I say? It was forced by life.
We rarely have sex together, looking at each other's faces, looking up at the ceiling, thinking about the ideals of those teenagers, how long ago they were,
It was time for the 15th to pay the salary last month. In the past, whenever this time the boss would come to the company on time.
But three days have passed, and Sister Li has not appeared in the company. When everyone is together, they will talk about salary issues. Those resigned people are also brought to the Prophet on the 15th to get their salary, but when they come, the Prophet will have to wait a few more days.
This panic state has been maintained
No one is still at work, but in fact there is really no job to do. Every day when you come to the company, you also chat online, wander around various forums, and send cover letters to those job search websites.
That morning, people went to work as usual. When we sat in the office on the 12th floor, turned on the computer boredly, and didn't know what to do.
Time passed by minute by minute. At this time, Xiaofu came over and she came out of her office. She was Mr. Zeng’s assistant, because she was not beautiful and had not been touched by Mr. Zeng.
She said: Mr. Zeng just called, the company was on holiday for one month, and now it will be released. Everyone can leave the office. I want to lock the door.
There are a lot of discussion in the office, and the long-standing rumors have finally been confirmed. The company is on a long holiday, haha, did it be dumped?
Then Xiaofu asked us to tell her account that the salary would be fully accounted for.
Although it was a bit sudden, everyone still left without any help. I thought about calling Sister Li, but the phone was turned off, and the boss's cell phone was turned off. The colleagues were asking each other about the news, and all kinds of statements were heard. Some said that the boss was publishing other pornographic books elsewhere, but was found out and wanted to arrest him. He was hiding everywhere.
It is also said that the tabloid we published contains Mark Six content, and the country cracked down on this, and the boss has been arrested.
Suddenly it seemed like the world had evaporated, Sister Li disappeared. I recalled the time when I was with Sister Li, we spent countless nights outside, but never at Sister Li's house. To be precise, I don't know where Sister Li lives.
My story with Sister Li is like a spring dream, floating in the wind all of a sudden, as if it had never happened. Sometimes I would think about it, I even doubt whether it had happened.
The days of looking for a job are disheartening. I go out for an interview every day, fail again and again, and the job with high salaries seems to be out of my way, and the one with low salaries is really unwilling to accept it.
Ning Ling has no good temper, she seems to have recovered from her last love affair. Sometimes I would joke about her and Liu Mingjun, and she wouldn't be angry.
But there is still an unspeakable knot in my heart,
I think maybe I love Ning Ling too much, so I feel uncomfortable thinking about Ning Ling's thing that once aborted a child for someone else.
Ning Ling said I don’t love anyone, the person I love the most is myself
Sometimes I think about it, maybe Ning Ling is right, the person I love the most is myself
Gradually we started to quarrel and ignored each other's other's side. We all thought the other would compromise.
Gradually I felt tired, as if I was not in love, but in pain. Sometimes I would ask myself if I really no longer love Ning Ling, or I have never loved her.
But I found that when I left her, I missed her so deeply. Not only did I miss her body, but she was completely her. I didn't understand whether this was love, but at that time I really didn't understand whether it was love. I was only surrounded by hatred and jealousy. I thought that if I left Ning Ling, I would have a better life and would not be so tired and tired.
I don't understand what Ning Ling is thinking. Maybe she is as tired as me. Many times we are together but don't say a word. During that period, we often were together because we didn't have a job and had more free time. We had sex together and quarreled together. Often, we quarreled first and then had sex. Sometimes we quarreled and cried, or she had already cried, and we hugged each other and had sex again.
When I am alone, I will think of the things we are together. I find that alone can grow up so quickly. It seems that it has only been half a year since I came to Guangzhou. But I found that many years have passed. I seem to be old and have experienced too many things.
What is Sister Li doing now and where is she?
Will she think of me, the time she was with me
I haven't remembered her again for a long time
Once Ning Ling and I started to make a fuss over a small matter, but in fact, things are too small to be smaller.
I haven't gone to Ning Ling's place for several days, busy looking for jobs, running around. When I remembered it, it was Sunday, and we were not together for about five or six days. I could have gone to her place, but I was too lazy to move around for many days. I wanted to call Ning Ling to come here by myself.
She will occasionally come here during this period. I sent her a message to ask her to come.
Ning Ling actually understands that it’s just sex, there’s nothing else. Sometimes she will say: It seems that we are together, there’s nothing else.
I smiled: You still say such sarcastic words after enjoying it haha
Then Ning Ling pretended to be angry and wanted to come and grab me. Ning Ling always liked to pull my arms into pieces, purple and purple.
Sometimes I was angry and took out my arm and showed it to her: Look at the good things you did, what did your man look like
Ning Ling didn't expect that the black green on my arms would be really piece by piece, and she would touch me with heartache. Actually, I wasn't really angry. I just wore short-sleeved clothes more often in Guangzhou. People saw the black green on my arms, but they were always not good-looking.
I asked Ning Ling to come over. Ning Ling replied to the text message and said she didn't want to come over. She was so tired.
Ning Ling may also be like me who traveled around to find a job every day. I can also experience her fatigue, but that evening my body was full of desire, and I really wanted to hug Ning Ling and sleep on the same bed.
I said in my mobile phone text message: Ning Ling, come here, I really miss you
Ning Ling said: You miss my body, you never thought about me at all, but you just treat me as a tool for you to vent your desires.
I was very angry and couldn't communicate with this woman. I missed your body and I was also like you. What does it mean to miss your body but I never thought of you. It's unreasonable.
It would be great if Sister Li was there, I wouldn't have to look for Ning Ling. Just call me and Sister Li would definitely drive over and go out for dinner and check in a room.
Sister Li is a thirty-year-old woman's body, but the mother of a three-year-old son is sexy and charming
It's just a pity that Ah, now he can't contact Sister Li. Now he calls Ning Ling over and she actually put on airs with me, as if she is Joan of Arc.
Just pretend with me, and I still shout whenever I do it
I said: Even if I beg you, come here, come here and talk again
But Ning Ling is really stubborn this time. In fact, Ning Ling is so stubborn. I always thought that she had such a stubborn temper and was a bit strange. I never thought of changing her, but I didn't expect that this time I really rarely make me angry.
Ning Ling still didn't come that night. When I sent her another text message the next day, she said something was going to be with her friends, and I didn't say much.
Well, since it's so ruthless, I don't want to say anything, nor do I think about what kind of friends Ning Ling is going out with, and what's wrong
Maybe Ning Ling is like this. She forgot to hurt her wounds after healing
I didn't send a message to Ning Ling for a week. In fact, Ning Ling sent a message on the third day. That day was just evening. I watched a movie in the cinema. When I came out, it was already brightly lit outside. It was already night. My phone rang. I took a look and it was Ning Ling's message. She said: Haven't you been asleep yet?
I was in the car back at that time, and there were very few people in the car. I sat in my seat and felt a little lonely. I remembered that Ning Ling didn't know what she was doing at this moment. I thought maybe it was really time to end. I looked at the message on my phone. I thought if Ning Ling sent another message over, I would reply to her and we would make up.
I looked at the phone, and I thought the phone would ring again, but the phone never rang again. My hope was dashed. Maybe all this was God's will. Is it destined to end like this?
I feel lost
Pick up your phone and play with it repeatedly, but in fact, I have always loved you Ah Ning Ling
I saw the phone number stored on my phone and Sister Li's number. I pulled it out and didn't know if Sister Li would contact me again, but there was only one voice on the phone: The number you pulled out has expired
I got out of the car and walked alone on the way back. There were very few pedestrians on the road. When I passed by a hair salon, I saw those dressed women, all of whom were fat and looked very sturdy. If they touched, they would definitely feel good.
I know I won’t go in. At most, I think about it in my heart, think about the situations when I was with Sister Li, and think about the situations when I was with Ning Ling. Everything seemed like yesterday. Maybe it all ended like this. Sister Li, Ning Ling and the others were not mine. Is it over like this?
A week passed really long. I thought I could let go, at least let go of Ning Ling. I thought I would no longer love her Ah, forget it, it would be no big deal.
But I still couldn't help but miss Ah. I think of her every night and the days I spent with Ning Ling.
During countless sleepless nights, I told myself that I must go to Ning Ling. I can't wait like this anymore. I can't live without Ning Ling.
If you wait like this, you may really lose Ning Ling's
Every night I want to go find her tomorrow, but during the day I have a pitiful self-esteem that makes me unable to take that step. I think I don't want to look for her anymore, we're done
Sister Li brought back a lot of things, but I was afraid that I wouldn't be used to eating Guangdong food. I bought some northern fried dough sticks and soy milk.
Close the door, we eat and watch TV
This day happened to be Saturday, and we don’t have to go to work on Saturdays and Sundays. The company is pretty good. Compared to most Guangzhou people who have to work half a day on Saturdays, I’m also happy.
Sister Li said: What do you want to do after dinner?
I said gently in her ear: Fuck you
Sister Li smiled and hit me. I found that any woman is very fatal when she acts coquettishly. I thought that Sister Li, who is thirty years old, would not act like this in her younger daughter, but she didn't expect that she would still be the same as her younger daughter.
She said: Let's save some money, we will have opportunities in the future
There will always be a show today
I said: You can arrange it
What I thought was to go back to bed early. I have been with Sister Li for more than ten hours last night. I was also afraid of going shopping with women, so I always felt that it was too wordy.
I said: I'd better go back. I want to sleep for a while. I'm too tired.
Sister Li said: Then you can sleep here and at most accompany you
I said: No, I can only feel safe when I sleep in my own bed, and I can't sleep anywhere else.
I'm telling the truth. To be honest, I'm a little bit of a bed choice. I really can't sleep well elsewhere. I was with Sister Li last night and had sex more than sleep. Besides, I was really tired after doing it, so I would fall asleep
Sister Li took me back to her dormitory in a car, but I didn’t invite her to come up and sit. Sister Li asked me: Don’t you want me to go up and sit?
I smiled: Next time, the room is too messy, I'm really embarrassed to let you sit down
I stood by the roadside and watched Sister Li reverse car, driving away gradually, then I went up and opened my room and slept in the bed. I thought of everything that happened yesterday, everything was like a dream, and it happened like this. Oh, my virginity ended like this, I didn't expect this would be the case.
I turned on the light, and my books were still on the table,
My thoughts are a little bit unreal. Although I have thought about it countless times, I found that I am not an open-minded person when it really happened.
After I went to work on Monday, I found that another colleague came to the company. She was also very beautiful, and she seemed to be the kind of girl I tasted, she looked pure.
But my body has a kind of tall and strong, plump breasts and hips that are raised high. Wow, I feel sexually urged when I look at her.
I suppressed my emotions. At this time, I saw the boss walking in from outside with a gloomy expression. I was shocked.
It won't be so soon the boss will know about me
Thinking of this, I felt so sad. This is a dangerous game, I can't afford to play Ah
Fortunately, I don't know what happened to the boss, but it must have nothing to do with me. I watched him enter his office with a gloomy face.
The new beautiful colleague is Ning Ling. In a few days, I have found out about her QQ number. Because they are all colleagues, they also have jobs to communicate on QQ.
Every day we communicate on QQ, gradually I found that I had fallen in love with her. I think it will take me a long time to succeed.
But Sister Li will contact me. Sometimes she calls me to come over.
If the boss is on a business trip, it will be the day when we have sex together, but I have never been to Sister Li's house before
When I wrote this, I suddenly felt an emptiness that I had never seen before. The things I had experienced before hurt my heart so deeply. What did I do?
And now I still write down those things. Is it really necessary?
It turns out that I always thought I was a young man with ideals, but now I fell into this in this strange city. Is this the life I want?
The ideal that I thought I could never win and could achieve was now far away
I often remembered that night when I was with Sister Li, and her plump body, did I fascinate or disgust?
I understand, I fell in love with Ning Ling, it is because of love that makes me feel ashamed.
In the deepest part of my consciousness, I am such a person, so real and so honest
Am I really honest?
I still remember my Chinese teacher said in middle school class: If you want to write good works, you must be honest and open your heart completely
When I was a teenager, I thought I could really open my heart completely, but the more things I went through, I realized that it took courage to truly open a person's heart completely.
Sister Li gradually knew that I fell in love with Ning Ling, but she did not object. After all, I also have my life, and some things she cannot bring to me. Ning Ling and I are about the same age after all, so we can face the future life together.
It's just that I don't know Ah, life is opening its unexpected side to me in its unique way
One night I went out for dinner with Ning Ling, and I invited her because I told her on QQ that I like her very much and hoped that she would give me a chance.
I can even love her for the rest of my life, and even have some more numb words. After all, I would be embarrassed if I said something to someone, but I confessed my love so calmly against the computer screen
Ning Ling promised to come out to have dinner with me in the evening
Ning Ling chose a Zhen Kung Fu restaurant with her understanding way
Fortunately, the things here are not expensive and clean
We sat in a position by the window. Outside the window was crowded with people coming and going. Evening was approaching, and we could even see the lights lights were getting light up bit by bit
I looked at Ning Ling's beautiful and clean face, and I thought, if I could be with Ning Ling, I would experience the so-called love. Ning Ling asked me: Fan Lei, when did you start to like me?
I said: From the first time I saw you, I started to like you
But there was no joy on Ning Ling's face. We didn't look like we were in love. Ning Ling's calm expression made my heart sink. I thought that asking her out means she had accepted me.
Later I realized how Ning Ling felt at that moment. At that time, she had just broken up with her boyfriend. The man said he loved her at first, and Ning Ling was still studying in a university in Guangzhou and was a senior student. They met online. After half a year of knowing each other, Ning Ling handed herself over to her.
Even that Hubei man proposed to her
Ning Ling is from Guangdong, and her family also opposes Ning Ling marrying a man outside of Guangdong.
And Ning Ling was still young at that time, so there was no need to marry herself in such a hurry.
Soon the man hit another woman, and the woman was introduced by the man's sister.
One day, Ning Ling went to find him and ran into them together. She knocked on the door for a long time before it opened. Ning Ling knew what they were doing together. Her tears couldn't help falling, but the man did not comfort her and turned back to coax his new girlfriend.
More than a year of love affair ended like this in this way
I thought everything was over, but Ning Ling realized that she was pregnant with his child. On the phone, Ning Ling said to him: I can marry you, I am now pregnant with your child
The man said: What do you want to do? We are over. Don't do anything else, okay?
When Ning Ling told me all this, we were lying on her bed. On that night, she handed herself over to me. She was so sloppy and even a little angry.
After doing it, Ning Ling told me all this
I was stunned for a moment, as if someone had hit me hard on the head
Is reality really that cruel?
Behind everyone there is such a heavy story that is not told to others
For a moment I even wanted to tell her about myself and Sister Li, but I still held back. I am a man, I am a man who wants to accomplish great things, so I can't even keep my mouth shut.
I sat naked on the head of Ning Ling's bed, and Ning Ling was also exposed. She said: Fan Lei, do you still love me now?
What else can I say? I can't say anything. I admit that I'm not a too feudal and conservative man, but I still like that kind of pure girl. Although I can't be that pure myself, I still can't stand it if I really accept her like this.
I am sure I love her Ah. Now I understand, I understand why Ning Ling always has a depressed expression. Is there really such an unhappy woman?
Ning Ling is clearly a newly graduated girl Ah
I understand why Ning Ling always has a cold expression. She is not pretending to be cool or cool. She is obviously hurt by love.
Love really hurts people, but it hurts a person to this point
I said: Ning Ling, is your boyfriend from Hubei?
Ning Ling said: Yes, you are from Hubei, aren’t you?
I said: Yes, but how could Hubei people have a scum like him?
I was really angry. Ning Ling said: Actually, in my eyes, he has always been good. I didn't expect that we would break up so quickly. He would be with others so quickly. I used to say that I wouldn't marry her, but it was just a joke. I didn't expect that he would find another girl so soon.
I held Ning Ling in my arms. Although my heart hurts, it was clearly because I loved Ning Ling too deeply for a while and still couldn't accept such a reality.
Wu Yan, what else can I do besides having sex at this time? At the beginning, I thought I had found true love. This is a great irony for me.
I put Ning Ling down on the bed again, entered her body hard, fucked her
Thinking of the fact that I thought she was a virgin just now, the feeling of pity disappeared all of a sudden, I thought of this person's body being slept like me by another man, maybe Ning Ling was still enjoying the experience brought by orgasm?
When I think of the situation where my loved one has sex with others, I feel a tingling pain in my heart
I think maybe it's because I love her so much
Why can a person be open to someone he doesn't love, but can't be so free and easy to be someone he really loves? I thought I was an open-minded person, but I didn't expect that things would still be unlucky when things were about to come.
Ning Ling spread her body on the bed. Her body is beautiful, and she does have an intoxicating fascination.
I kissed her breasts and stroked her lower part. She was already wet and began to moan happily. I had a vicious thought: Are you screaming like this under that man?
Thinking of this, I feel even more disgusted and disgusted. I admit that I am not a noble man, I can't be noble.
Ning Ling asked me if I could accompany her to the hospital for surgery to get rid of the child. My heart hurts so much, and it was not something I did. Why should I accompany you to have sex?
But I didn't say it, I said OK, if you need to call me, I will accompany you
After a night, Ning Ling obviously regarded me as a trustworthy person, but in fact I was not trustworthy.
The next day, my mood was so bad. When I thought of Ning Ling, the only person I fell in love with was already pregnant with someone else's child. It's so fucking hell
I even doubt whether God is making a joke with me. I finally fell in love with someone, and I also tried my best to get it, but I didn't expect it to be a kind of person.
I called Sister Li, and this was the first time I called Sister Li on my own initiative. I said: Sister Li, I am Fan Lei
Sister Li was obviously a little surprised. She used to call me on the initiative, and she said on the other end of the phone: Xiao Fan Ah, what's the matter?
I said: Sister Li, I miss you
I felt so sad when I said that, how could I miss her? But at this moment, I miss Sister Li so much. Thinking of her body, what I want is the happiness her body brings me.
Sister Li said: Where are you? I'll come to see you
I am staying in my dormitory. It was Sunday and I didn't have to go to work. The room was empty, I was the only one, lonely and deserted
Half an hour later, Sister Li came. I opened the door and held Sister Li in my arms. At that moment, I almost cried, but it seemed like nothing happened.
I closed the door, and only Sister Li and I were left in the room. Although it was daytime, the lights were still on because the light in the room was dim.
We didn't say anything, so I pushed Sister Li to the edge of the bed and said: What are you doing? I didn't have time to take a sip of water?
This is the first time Sister Li has arrived at my place where I live. I don’t care about that much. I peeled off Sister Li’s clothes in a few seconds. Sister Li was lying naked on the bed. I took off myself and had no foreplay. I suddenly entered her body
Sister Li may feel that I am a little different from usual. Sister Li asked me: What's wrong, Xiao Fan, what's the stimulation?
I said: No, Sister Li, don't ask anything
The kind of compromise deep in my heart is really impossible to tell anyone. I can only be relieved by fighting with Sister Li’s physical strength. Sister Li is indeed not talking and concentrating on having sex with me. She hugged me tightly in her arms. I rubbed her breasts and her butt. This plump and plump woman, I need you, I can only experience that kind of happiness from you.
I thought of the details that I was with Ning Ling the night before. The details were so real. Now I am even better than Ning Ling, but why do I look at Ning Ling with a vicious idea?
If Ning Ling is really wrong, she just misunderstood her, she was blind and gave herself to a man who was irresponsible to her. But as for me, I clearly knew but still had to make mistakes. What qualifications do I have to look down on Ning Ling?
Sister Li no longer asks me. At this point, I still like a mature woman like Sister Li very much. I told her not to ask her, but I wouldn't ask her anymore. She didn't show strong curiosity like a little girl, because she knew that if I wanted to say, I would definitely tell her if I didn't want to say that even if she asked, maybe I would lie.
Is it because Sister Li knows men too much or something
I wonder if Sister Li asked about Mr. Zeng when she was with Mr. Zeng?
There are three other women in our company who are Mr. Zeng’s secret lovers?
Does Sister Li know these things?
I think she may not know
But Sister Li has never asked me, even though she is so close to me.
If Sister Li really asked me about these things, would I say it?
Maybe, maybe it will only make me embarrassed because she knows I won't say it
It seems that only after marriage and men can a woman truly grow and mature. How can a little girl understand these?
After the intense exercise, I held Sister Li in my arms. I forced myself to smile and pretended to be happy, as if I enjoyed these moments with her.
I kept talking, and she responded to me, talking a lot like a little girl
Actually, I kept thinking about Ning Ling, what was Ning Ling doing at this time?
Can she think about my current situation?
Can she think of a man she met again, a man she thought was a good man, actually such a guy?
Deep in my heart, I hate Ning Ling, yes, it is indeed hatred. If there is no love, there might not be hatred, but it is because I love her so much that I realize that I hate her so much now
You little bitch, you started handing over yourself to others in college. How old were you at that time?
Can't you just be so helpless?
I went to enjoy sex so early but I am abandoned now. When you decided to hand over yourself, you opened your eyes and looked at Ah clearly?
It really makes me speechless
Even if you really have these things, don't tell me Ah. You know that I love you, but you reveal the truth, let me see the cruel side of reality, let me see the ugly things under your pure appearance, if so, I would rather not know these
I just want you to be as pure and sexy as I saw at first sight. I just want you to be a simple little girl. I just want you to be the pure goddess in my mind. I want you to belong to me, I just want you to belong to me.
But you told me everything, don't you think this is too cruel to me?
Maybe this is a woman, this is the vivid lesson Ning Ling taught me. She told me the truth about women in this way. When you fall in love, you may be destined to be this pain.
In the afternoon, Sister Li said she was leaving, but I didn’t say anything. Just leave. I said: Sister Li, why don’t I invite you out for a meal?
Sister Li was in a good mood, and she said: OK, then don’t sleep there, and go out for a walk when you have time, as if you don’t have many friends in Guangzhou?
I said: Where are the friends from, they all work, they work hard for life, and they have the leisure to interact with each other.
Thinking of these things, my heart hurts, maybe my life is destined to be like this. I work hard every day for a little pitiful salary, but I can only live in the bottom of society forever. Life reminds me again and again in her unique way, ideals, dreams, things that are empty and impossible to achieve.
Those scholars are so angry that they can only be discarded as bullshit things
I invited Sister Li to a fast food restaurant and had a fast food of five yuan per serving. Sister Li didn't dislike it at all.
Sister Li's car was parked outside, but she sat here for five yuan fast food. Because I invited her, I could save it like this.
I said: Thank you Sister Li, Sister Li
Sister Li said: Thank you, you invite me to dinner, I should be Ah
I didn't say anything, because all Sister Li's words seemed redundant at this moment. Sister Li knew everything, and there was no need to say anything
Now when I think about the situation we were having dinner in a fast food restaurant, I honestly am so impressed by the situation at that time. I admit that I have some inferiority complex. It is indeed a very hurtful thing for a man to have no money. Even if he invites someone to have a meal, he can only eat fast food of five yuan. Isn’t this shameful thing?
Men all need face
Ning Ling still works in the company every day, and she can't tell anything unusual about our relationship on her daily life. We are like two very ordinary colleagues, saying ordinary words. Sometimes I even joke with others, but I don't even talk to Ning Ling.
Of course this is in the office, but on the other side of life, we slept in the same bed at night. Since that time, I have often gone to her place, and sometimes she will come to my dormitory.
It's also very strange. Sister Li rarely sends text messages or calls, so Ning Ling has never known that Sister Li and I have such things, and of course the boss doesn't know that in this matter, Sister Li and I are as experienced and mature as two adults.
I hugged Ning Ling and fell asleep at night. The stinging feeling became weaker day by day. I thought I could forget it. Maybe if I love someone, don’t care about her past. After all, I didn’t know Ning Ling at that time. If I forgive me, I should forgive Ning Ling Ah.
I thought about what Ning Ling would think if she knew what Sister Li and I would think. Maybe I should have broken up with Sister Li. I don’t want to live like this anymore.
But in fact, what I thought about is just a matter of real implementation, but there are so many excuses. Do I have no obsession with Sister Li’s body?
On Sunday, Ning Ling asked me to accompany her to have surgery, which means that the abortion had been agreed on a long time ago, and I couldn't refuse. I blamed me for this. I was a very soft person. If someone else really asked me for anything, I was very reluctant, but I couldn't refuse.
And for so long I found that Ning Ling is really pitiful. She is so real to love, and she is so simple. She really doesn't know how to face this thing alone.
So I'll go with her
We went to Guangzhou Army General Hospital. This day could have been very dull, but I didn't expect that something would happen if it was better.
I still remember Ning Caishen said: Life is the novel Ah
When writing novels, there is no need to make up any more. Life repeatedly tells us that life is a novel in its unexpected way.
Ning Ling came out of the inside that day, her face was pale and she looked sick.
Actually, I don't need to say that I know about such a surgery.
Generally speaking, taking medicine and acupuncture is not clean, only chassis. What is chassis?
The doctor puts cold forceps into the vagina and scrapes the embryos left and right in the uterus.
This is enough to make people feel goose bumps, let alone experience it in person
Just then I saw Ning Ling's face change. I followed her eyes and saw a thin man, not tall, with such a cumbersome face.
The man approached, and I saw clearly what cold medicine he was holding
I asked Ning Ling what's wrong
Ning Ling said: Liu Mingjun
I suddenly understood everything. This is Liu Mingjun, Ning Ling's boyfriend, the man who made Ning Ling suffer such pain now, but now left Ning Ling aside and ignored him.
I just don't understand how a cumbersome man like Liu Mingjun can make Ning Ling love him so much and live for him.
The man said: Ning Ling, fast enough, I found another new person so soon
As soon as I saw his face, I wanted to beat him. Unexpectedly, since this thief dared to come up, he still sarcastically said, isn't this asking for death? I went up and asked him: Who are you talking about?
The man smiled and said: Brother, Ning Ling is my second-hand product. Thank you for recycling it for me.
I felt that the compromises I suffered completely exploded. I have never seen such a shameless man. If someone told me, I might not believe it. Now I have experienced it myself and realized that there are such shameless people in the world.
I flew up and kicked him in the chest, and he fell to the ground.
He got up, I rushed up and slammed again, my fist fell on his face, and blood came out from her nose.
Ning Ling came up and grabbed me, Ning Ling shouted: Stop hitting me again
I turned around and looked at Ning Ling's eyes, and I said coldly: What? Are you heartbroken?
The man rushed up and punched me in the face while I was unprepared, and then ran away. Isn’t this asking for death?
You can still run past me. I am not a 100-meter 11-second three seconds. I rushed up quickly and kicked him on the back. He fell to the ground again. I didn't hesitate to step on him with my feet.
There were many onlookers coming around immediately. I said loudly: This person is a bag snatcher. I just snatched my bag
Some people rushed up and beat him up
The situation in Guangzhou is somewhat different from other places. There are bags everywhere. As you walk on the street, you don’t pay attention to your phone or bag has been snatched.
One of the three people who have lived in Guangzhou must be robbed
So people have an indescribable anger towards those who grab bags. When they hear that they catch a person who grabs bags, they will expose their resentment on him.
I pulled Ning Ling away and pulled Ning Ling away from the crowd Ning Ling said: People are still beating him
I said: He deserves to be beaten to death
Ning Ling also turned around and looked at Liu Mingjun who was beaten. I waved my hand and a taxi was parked in front of me. I pulled Ning Ling into the car and left quickly
Ning Ling has already asked for leave, her body needs to recover, and miscarriage is not a trivial matter for women. After returning that day, Ning Ling asked several times if this would destroy Liu Mingjun. It seems that she is quite concerned about Liu Mingjun. I was a little strange. I used to think that Liu Mingjun was at least a handsome man or richer, but Ning Ling denied my guess about him being rich. He is just an ordinary small employee, only more than one thousand yuan a month, and his education is not high.
It seems that Ning Ling doesn't need to explain to me whether he is handsome or not. I have seen his real person, it's really a bit bad.
But I can see Ning Ling's concern for him. Sometimes you have to admit that those who look bad can indeed get the initial love of girls.
Look at Ning Ling, a girl who was still studying in college gave him the first night
(Ning Ling was still in school at that time, so of course she has already come out to work now), the woman's thoughts are really hard to guess.
Liu Mingjun called Ning Ling again and asked Ning Ling to tell me to be careful not to let him touch him, otherwise I will die. To be honest, I have never been afraid of anything even though I grew up so old. Of course, I was not afraid this time. I just thought Liu Mingjun was a little funny. What's the point of saying these ruthless words? I can't beat them.
I laughed when I heard Ning Ling telling these words. I looked at Ning Ling and said: Ning Ling, are you afraid that I will beat him again? If you really hurt, you won’t feel heartbroken?
Ning Ling pretended to be angry and ignored me. I could see her pretended anger. In fact, when she heard Liu Mingjun speak on the phone with confidence, she was indeed relieved. She knew that Liu Mingjun was fine, and her worries for several days suddenly relaxed. She thought I didn't see it. How could I not see it for me?
But for a long time, I have found that I can treat this matter normally, and it's even more common
I used to be a man who was in trouble. It seems that I have experienced it.
During that time, I went to Ning Ling to accompany her when I had time. Because of her health, in fact, even if I slept in her, I couldn't do anything. For her situation, the doctor said this. I had to rest for at least one month and not have sex.
Sometimes when sleeping in Ning Ling, her body is quite tempting to me. We both sleep together naked. I said that it was almost naked because Ning Ling was still wearing a small pair of briefs. I stroked her breasts. She saw that my body was also in a state of masturbation. She stroked my penis with her hands. I was already feeling very uncomfortable. It seemed that my body was about to explode like a volcano. This was really devastating.
Ning Ling also saw the suppressed pain of me. While I kissed her, her passion also came up, but her body did not allow her to take more extreme actions, and I dare not take too much risk.
I think I am still a responsible man. I can't let her be hurt any more. Ning Ling has suffered too much.
I am just a hungry person, but now I have a sumptuous dinner, but I tell you if it's okay, but I can't eat it, is it too devastating for people?
During that period, I would often call Sister Li and then erupt with a volcanic passion on her body
Sister Li is also as old as a wolf and tiger. I asked Sister Li, is Mr. Zeng okay now?
Of course I mean in this regard, Sister Li said that there hasn't been once a month
I don't think so. Mr. Zeng looks tall and tall, must be very strong in this regard. Later, I saw in a medical book that a man's tall figure has little to do with this matter. Besides, Mr. Zeng has been married to Sister Li for many years, and he is somewhat aesthetically exhausted.
That is, I have too much energy to vent
Life just passes in a simple way, just like the flowing water of a small river, flowing quietly, as if it is seen for thousands of years.
Every day, I go to Ning Ling's place in the evening, and go to Sister Li from time to time. No one knows what happened. Ning Ling doesn't know, and Mr. Zeng doesn't know either.
Mr. Zeng smiled at me every time, very sincerely
Sometimes when I look at him, I feel ashamed and guilty. I know that what I do in this matter is indeed a bit unauthorized, but every time Sister Li calls me, I can't help but miss her body. More importantly, I miss the joyful experience that her body brings me.
But in fact, life can never be a stagnant pool. There have been many changes under the calm life on the surface.
First, our three-issues of newspapers have now been changed to only once a week, and sales cannot be increased. Several department heads in charge of sales and distribution have been hyped up by the boss.
Next, meetings were held again and again, and new opinions were constantly put forward. The boss wanted to make a newspaper a weekly magazine. Later, he said he wanted to make a magazine, specializing in DM magazines in the high-end market.
A few weeks later, the boss proposed to start a book market and publish books specifically. The boss was recently negotiating a clothing factory and wanted to build a clothing brand.
His various ideas are very good, but there has been no movement at the most critical stage of implementation.
People in the company are already in a state of mind, and people are constantly asking for leave. In fact, everyone knows that these people who ask for leave are going to interview and find jobs.
During that period, I was also thinking about this problem. It seems that the company is about to collapse, so I should look for a job quickly.
I sent a few cover letters online, and several notified me to go for an interview. Two times I also took leave to interview, but the companies I asked me to go to were all small companies with different appearances, and I couldn't see where the future was.
I think even if I want to jump, I have to make some progress. Let's jump to a company with a high income.
The one-month vacation ended, and Ning Ling also returned to the company to go to work. When we were together, we would also talk about the current situation of the company.
It has been a long time since I contacted Sister Li again. I don’t know what I’m busy with recently.
I think she is probably busy thinking about the company's future with Mr. Zeng. No matter what, she is a couple. It is impossible to see Mr. Zeng fall down like this.
The lovers Zeng, who used to regard themselves as the boss's wife, also left the company one by one. Mr. Zeng may not have thought that Mr. Zeng would be able to share the hardships with him, and at least he would leave the company the last one. However, when lovers who had once lie on Mr. Zeng's bed humming and humming applied to him one by one, we could see that Mr. Zeng's indescribable loss
It's Ah, people always go to the last step and know what the truth is
Have you ever thought that he had been in vain for thirty or forty years, and he had not even understood the most basic world and human relationships. What kind of company boss is impossible?
When I was eating in Ning Ling's house and saying these words to Ning Ling, Ning Ling just listened and didn't say anything. Recently, no one felt good. It was difficult to find a job in this city, but now I have to join the job hunting army. Fortunately, Ning Ling and I are young people who have just graduated, so we have prepared for this.
My idea is that instead of staying half-dead, it is better to find a better company. I didn't have the courage to quit before, but now I'm forcing me to get to this point
When I was fine, I stayed in Ning Ling's house, turned on the computer and went online one by one on the website, mainly on the job search website. We registered almost every job search recruitment website.
But the longer our initial confidence was eroded little by little, and in the end we were left with a pitiful little bit, we comforted each other
The employment market is not as beautiful as we imagined. We had expected this a long time ago, but we didn't expect it to be worse than we thought. It seems that the two companies that asked me to go to work at the beginning were pretty good, but since I had missed it, let's forget it
Sometimes Ning Ling and I were lying on the bed, Ning Ling's body had already recovered, and I basically recognized being with her. The initial resistance and resentment was closed. What else can I say? It was forced by life.
We rarely have sex together, looking at each other's faces, looking up at the ceiling, thinking about the ideals of those teenagers, how long ago they were,
It was time for the 15th to pay the salary last month. In the past, whenever this time the boss would come to the company on time.
But three days have passed, and Sister Li has not appeared in the company. When everyone is together, they will talk about salary issues. Those resigned people are also brought to the Prophet on the 15th to get their salary, but when they come, the Prophet will have to wait a few more days.
This panic state has been maintained
No one is still at work, but in fact there is really no job to do. Every day when you come to the company, you also chat online, wander around various forums, and send cover letters to those job search websites.
That morning, people went to work as usual. When we sat in the office on the 12th floor, turned on the computer boredly, and didn't know what to do.
Time passed by minute by minute. At this time, Xiaofu came over and she came out of her office. She was Mr. Zeng’s assistant, because she was not beautiful and had not been touched by Mr. Zeng.
She said: Mr. Zeng just called, the company was on holiday for one month, and now it will be released. Everyone can leave the office. I want to lock the door.
There are a lot of discussion in the office, and the long-standing rumors have finally been confirmed. The company is on a long holiday, haha, did it be dumped?
Then Xiaofu asked us to tell her account that the salary would be fully accounted for.
Although it was a bit sudden, everyone still left without any help. I thought about calling Sister Li, but the phone was turned off, and the boss's cell phone was turned off. The colleagues were asking each other about the news, and all kinds of statements were heard. Some said that the boss was publishing other pornographic books elsewhere, but was found out and wanted to arrest him. He was hiding everywhere.
It is also said that the tabloid we published contains Mark Six content, and the country cracked down on this, and the boss has been arrested.
Suddenly it seemed like the world had evaporated, Sister Li disappeared. I recalled the time when I was with Sister Li, we spent countless nights outside, but never at Sister Li's house. To be precise, I don't know where Sister Li lives.
My story with Sister Li is like a spring dream, floating in the wind all of a sudden, as if it had never happened. Sometimes I would think about it, I even doubt whether it had happened.
The days of looking for a job are disheartening. I go out for an interview every day, fail again and again, and the job with high salaries seems to be out of my way, and the one with low salaries is really unwilling to accept it.
Ning Ling has no good temper, she seems to have recovered from her last love affair. Sometimes I would joke about her and Liu Mingjun, and she wouldn't be angry.
But there is still an unspeakable knot in my heart,
I think maybe I love Ning Ling too much, so I feel uncomfortable thinking about Ning Ling's thing that once aborted a child for someone else.
Ning Ling said I don’t love anyone, the person I love the most is myself
Sometimes I think about it, maybe Ning Ling is right, the person I love the most is myself
Gradually we started to quarrel and ignored each other's other's side. We all thought the other would compromise.
Gradually I felt tired, as if I was not in love, but in pain. Sometimes I would ask myself if I really no longer love Ning Ling, or I have never loved her.
But I found that when I left her, I missed her so deeply. Not only did I miss her body, but she was completely her. I didn't understand whether this was love, but at that time I really didn't understand whether it was love. I was only surrounded by hatred and jealousy. I thought that if I left Ning Ling, I would have a better life and would not be so tired and tired.
I don't understand what Ning Ling is thinking. Maybe she is as tired as me. Many times we are together but don't say a word. During that period, we often were together because we didn't have a job and had more free time. We had sex together and quarreled together. Often, we quarreled first and then had sex. Sometimes we quarreled and cried, or she had already cried, and we hugged each other and had sex again.
When I am alone, I will think of the things we are together. I find that alone can grow up so quickly. It seems that it has only been half a year since I came to Guangzhou. But I found that many years have passed. I seem to be old and have experienced too many things.
What is Sister Li doing now and where is she?
Will she think of me, the time she was with me
I haven't remembered her again for a long time
Once Ning Ling and I started to make a fuss over a small matter, but in fact, things are too small to be smaller.
I haven't gone to Ning Ling's place for several days, busy looking for jobs, running around. When I remembered it, it was Sunday, and we were not together for about five or six days. I could have gone to her place, but I was too lazy to move around for many days. I wanted to call Ning Ling to come here by myself.
She will occasionally come here during this period. I sent her a message to ask her to come.
Ning Ling actually understands that it’s just sex, there’s nothing else. Sometimes she will say: It seems that we are together, there’s nothing else.
I smiled: You still say such sarcastic words after enjoying it haha
Then Ning Ling pretended to be angry and wanted to come and grab me. Ning Ling always liked to pull my arms into pieces, purple and purple.
Sometimes I was angry and took out my arm and showed it to her: Look at the good things you did, what did your man look like
Ning Ling didn't expect that the black green on my arms would be really piece by piece, and she would touch me with heartache. Actually, I wasn't really angry. I just wore short-sleeved clothes more often in Guangzhou. People saw the black green on my arms, but they were always not good-looking.
I asked Ning Ling to come over. Ning Ling replied to the text message and said she didn't want to come over. She was so tired.
Ning Ling may also be like me who traveled around to find a job every day. I can also experience her fatigue, but that evening my body was full of desire, and I really wanted to hug Ning Ling and sleep on the same bed.
I said in my mobile phone text message: Ning Ling, come here, I really miss you
Ning Ling said: You miss my body, you never thought about me at all, but you just treat me as a tool for you to vent your desires.
I was very angry and couldn't communicate with this woman. I missed your body and I was also like you. What does it mean to miss your body but I never thought of you. It's unreasonable.
It would be great if Sister Li was there, I wouldn't have to look for Ning Ling. Just call me and Sister Li would definitely drive over and go out for dinner and check in a room.
Sister Li is a thirty-year-old woman's body, but the mother of a three-year-old son is sexy and charming
It's just a pity that Ah, now he can't contact Sister Li. Now he calls Ning Ling over and she actually put on airs with me, as if she is Joan of Arc.
Just pretend with me, and I still shout whenever I do it
I said: Even if I beg you, come here, come here and talk again
But Ning Ling is really stubborn this time. In fact, Ning Ling is so stubborn. I always thought that she had such a stubborn temper and was a bit strange. I never thought of changing her, but I didn't expect that this time I really rarely make me angry.
Ning Ling still didn't come that night. When I sent her another text message the next day, she said something was going to be with her friends, and I didn't say much.
Well, since it's so ruthless, I don't want to say anything, nor do I think about what kind of friends Ning Ling is going out with, and what's wrong
Maybe Ning Ling is like this. She forgot to hurt her wounds after healing
I didn't send a message to Ning Ling for a week. In fact, Ning Ling sent a message on the third day. That day was just evening. I watched a movie in the cinema. When I came out, it was already brightly lit outside. It was already night. My phone rang. I took a look and it was Ning Ling's message. She said: Haven't you been asleep yet?
I was in the car back at that time, and there were very few people in the car. I sat in my seat and felt a little lonely. I remembered that Ning Ling didn't know what she was doing at this moment. I thought maybe it was really time to end. I looked at the message on my phone. I thought if Ning Ling sent another message over, I would reply to her and we would make up.
I looked at the phone, and I thought the phone would ring again, but the phone never rang again. My hope was dashed. Maybe all this was God's will. Is it destined to end like this?
I feel lost
Pick up your phone and play with it repeatedly, but in fact, I have always loved you Ah Ning Ling
I saw the phone number stored on my phone and Sister Li's number. I pulled it out and didn't know if Sister Li would contact me again, but there was only one voice on the phone: The number you pulled out has expired
I got out of the car and walked alone on the way back. There were very few pedestrians on the road. When I passed by a hair salon, I saw those dressed women, all of whom were fat and looked very sturdy. If they touched, they would definitely feel good.
I know I won’t go in. At most, I think about it in my heart, think about the situations when I was with Sister Li, and think about the situations when I was with Ning Ling. Everything seemed like yesterday. Maybe it all ended like this. Sister Li, Ning Ling and the others were not mine. Is it over like this?
A week passed really long. I thought I could let go, at least let go of Ning Ling. I thought I would no longer love her Ah, forget it, it would be no big deal.
But I still couldn't help but miss Ah. I think of her every night and the days I spent with Ning Ling.
During countless sleepless nights, I told myself that I must go to Ning Ling. I can't wait like this anymore. I can't live without Ning Ling.
If you wait like this, you may really lose Ning Ling's
Every night I want to go find her tomorrow, but during the day I have a pitiful self-esteem that makes me unable to take that step. I think I don't want to look for her anymore, we're done
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