Sister Weiwei! This week, I have been alternating between intoxication and pain, getting used to every breath and every scent of her. I want to get every moment of contact, but I am increasingly afraid of losing these futures.
Here? Sister Weiwei was observing my entanglement leisurely. She drank water every time she came. Could this be her secret to maintaining her?
Well... I was at a loss as to how to deal with my relationship with Ruan Qing, but I knew I could never let it go.
Have you thought about what to do?
No... I replied subconsciously, what are you thinking about?
You like her, but you don’t think it shouldn’t be, and you can’t let her know, but you just can’t help thinking about how to solve it?
How did you... know?
Last time I heard you say, I guessed it almost the same. It was just the kind of things that I couldn’t say? Didn’t she hate you? What if she likes you too?
I fantasized about confessing to Ruan Qing, but the result was not what Sister Weiwei said, but she avoided me like a snake and scorpion from now on, and regarded me as a beast.
No! You must not let him know! I shook my head violently, Sister Weiwei, is there any other way?
Well... can you tell me why?
She... just treats me as a relative... I hesitate to tell the biggest secret, and looked at her reaction with guilt. Sister Weiwei, am I... I... Is it abnormal...
In this way, Ah... He did not have the surprise or disgust I expected, but instead helped me analyze it seriously, as if it was commonplace, bigger than you?
Well... I've said it all anyway, it doesn't matter if I have more. Sister Weiwei doesn't look like a person who can stir up the wind and rain. She is my elder...
Her expression became a little complicated, and I quickly added that, but she was still single without blood relationship...
This is almost the same... His face looks a little better, otherwise I would be regarded as a pervert who wants to break up his family, right?
Looking at Sister Vivi’s calm expression, I must have been infected by her to accept it calmly. Am I equivalent to the fact that I am perverted?
Since she doesn't want her to know, if you are usually far away from her, talk less, stay together less, find something for yourself, and have no time to think about it when you are busy.
That's so simple?
Otherwise? Sister Weiwei suddenly came over with a hint of eagerness in her eyes. If you want to, my sister will give you an idea and help you catch her, what if?
My head was shaken like a rattle, and I have been dependent on each other for more than ten years. I have resisted this warmth from the bottom of my heart, even if it is my own feelings that are beyond the rules.
Don't you really want to? Don't you like her? She doesn't give up and continue to bewitch you. You don't want her to hug you at any time in the future, lie in your arms every night and say nice love words, then kiss, and then do some happy things...
My mind began to fantasize about the wonderful scene described in my ears, and Ruan Qing...
No! She just treats me as her son. She has nothing and can no longer bear the loss. If she can't accept it, the short moment when she looks back will really become a farewell forever
What a pity... Sister Weiwei sat back in a lack of interest, then find something to do, and I won’t think about it when I get busy.
Say goodbye to Sister Vivi, I was thinking about what could take up my time and distance ourselves from each other.
Mom, I want to sign up for a quick class and preview my second year of high school
She hesitated, son, there is no need to put so much pressure on herself...
No, it's almost moldy at home. Find something to do and it's easier when school starts. I found a reasonable excuse to escape.
OK, she smiled with relief and reached out to pinch my face. It took me a lot of effort to stop it and not avoid it.
The next day I started my busy study life, and prepared a complete set of homework for myself from basic questions to difficult questions. I worked hard to catch up with the senior high school students before the school holiday.
She had already given the meal to do. She got up early to exercise, and arranged a bunch of exercises for herself during class. She didn't have time to class until late at night. Once her mind relaxed for a day, she immediately fell into bed and fell asleep.
Sure enough, I didn't have the heart to think about Ruan Qing anymore. In my mind, except formulas, I just define and solve problems.
Son, can you watch TV with your mother?
OK! I thought it and was scared. I don’t know what I was afraid of, but I looked reluctant to do it.
I got in close contact again, and I was sitting next to me, but I felt that she was everywhere
What are you thinking? The advertisements are so good-looking?
Ah? I came back to my senses and realized that the advertisement had been put on some time
OK, go upstairs to read
I looked at the time, less than half an hour, Mom, I'm sorry, I'll accompany you for a while...
No, you go back to the room... She drove me out with a smile
I always feel uncomfortable living in the same room with Ruan Qing. She is like invading you all the time, going deep into you, making you unable to avoid it until your eyes, mind, and heart are full of her. It is not enough, and she is desperately squeezed in, overflowing, and surrounding her.
I began to consciously avoid her and avoid being in the same room or even on the same floor. She is downstairs and I will go upstairs quickly. When she is upstairs, I will stay downstairs while she is upstairs.
son!
Um?
Help mom hand in the clothes on the bed!
A white floral nightgown was scattered on the light green quilt. I took it to the innermost bathroom door. I thought she would take it through the crack of the door, but I didn't expect she opened the door completely.
Standing timidly in front of me with my bath towel, my round shoulders and tender white arms, my hands were tucked in front of me because I was nervous. Although my chest was only half a finger-long gully, I had seen her whole body, and I knew how deep the bath towel was underneath it.
Holding her nightgown stood at the door, my heart was overwhelmed for a moment, forgot to give it to her
Looking at her face like a lotus after the rain, unlike her beauty that was only obsessed with her, I suddenly wanted to possess her solely that she would be my only one.
I was startled by my thoughts and hurriedly stuffed my nightgown, Mom, clothes! After saying that, I didn't dare to meet her eyes that were about to raise, and hurriedly ran off my arms.
Every weekend, I will come to the bar. I haven't forgotten the wish I made at the beginning and still stick to it.
Why are you busy?
I learned that Sister Weiwei also brought a drink. This is a rare time to get out to breathe. Well, I signed up for a cram school and became addicted to studying.
Wow, a good idea... don't want to?
But I saw me holding my hands and shaking my head slightly
I really don’t think about it anymore? I didn’t look at her secretly anymore? I listened to her voice and thought about what she was doing when I couldn’t see it...
My head was buried lower, I raised my glass and took a sip, begging for mercy with a wry smile, Sister Weiwei, please stop talking, can't I let it go easily after finally coming out? My mind is almost blown up when I read books all day...
Okay, I won’t say anything anymore, I’ll remind you, don’t just spend your time with yourself, notice her reaction?
I was stunned, what could she react?
Little brother and sister are also women, women are sensitive, so it is recommended that you go back and observe. After saying that, I went up to the third floor and left me alone to think quietly
Panic
Suddenly, I felt very panicked, for no reason
It seems that Ruan Qing is watching me somewhere, she is standing there quietly, but I am getting farther and farther away. This is not what I want.
She doesn't go home for lunch when she comes out on weekends. If it were the usual, she would definitely ask questions. Whether it is threatening or acting cute, she would never give up until she achieves her goal. But now every time she comes out, she just tells me to be careful on the road
How hurried I was when I left, how panicked I am now. I want to tell her that we are still the closest people in this world to each other.
It was quiet when we got home. This time was a fixed meal time for our family, but there was no breath of fireworks.
Mom? I called in a low voice, Ruan Qing?
Not at home? Going out? After walking around the stairs, there was no one in her bedroom. Where can she go?
When I returned to the room and opened the door, I was shocked. Ruan Qing was sleeping on my bed at this time.
Ruan Qing, wake up
Hum? Son, are you back? He is used to me every time I go out until dark. I look at the window still light, and I am a little confused. When is it?
It was just noon. I didn’t dare to look at her head carefully for a long time. Only then did I realize that she seemed to have lost weight and her face turned pale and bloodless. Why did she still sleep in my room if she didn’t eat at noon?
If you are not hungry, don't want to eat, you...you go out first...
Why? This is my room, why do you want me to go out?
Mom...Mom is not wearing clothes...
It's hard for her to lie, and I'd say that I'm so panicked. Even though I saw that I was wearing pajamas and pajamas well, a corner was exposed from under the thin quilt.
Forget it... I didn't ask, turned around and waited outside
alright……
When she came in again, she was already standing on the ground, and the color of her clothes had not changed. Except for the quilt being laid, I really couldn't tell what she had done in the past few minutes.
But until the front face was facing, I realized that she was thinner than when she came back from her hometown
After the first seven, she lost weight. It was mainly caused by the black and white reversal. She would have been raised for a week at home before recovering. Now another month has passed, and there are still faint dark circles on her face.
The pajamas on her body were originally fit, but although she was so fairy-like, she felt empty.
Just like a huge villa, she lives alone
I have forgotten to think about why she appeared in my room. I walked over and just wanted to hold her in my arms and love her.
However, I am still afraid of what I am afraid of?
I gently put my arms around her shoulders, Mom, I went down to cook, and I didn't eat either, so I let go of my hand
She had a great time eating this meal, and she looked up and smiled at me from time to time. It was not like the silly smirk she used to be, but like a dog tied up at the table, and looked at it from time to time to see if it had run away. I couldn't stand it, so I had to keep my head down
Hiccup: I put all my thoughts on the opposite side, and I ate too much without realizing it. I sat down on the bed and turned the pillow over.
I have mild obsessive-compulsive disorder and perfectionism. The pillow is always on the front, but when I lie down, my face is wet. I turned over and sat up, slowly touching the wet mark with my fingers.
The shirt I changed last night was still placed on the head of the bed, but I always threw old clothes onto the chairs.
Standing in the corridor, I shouted softly, Mom?
She was already asleep with a pale face, but her brows were slightly frowning.
I squatted beside the bed, soothe her sorrow, pulled her hand and put it on my face and closed my eyes to feel it. I kissed it on the back of my hand, stuffed it into a thin quilt
Sorry, I shouldn't have done this, but I can only do this
The course ended a week before the start of school. Ruan Qing told me that the day after tomorrow, grandpa and uncle had finished seven days, and she wanted to go back and see them.
Mom, I'll go with you
No, school is about to start, you can prepare well, just mom is alone, she is not in high spirits, she probably misses her grandfather and uncle again, right?
The next day, she got up early and got on the car back to her hometown.
The first day when Ruan Qing was away
I looked at the spotless home. Before I left, she cleaned it up, following the handrails of the stairs, with fingertips across the wall, came to her room, came to my room, came to the balcony, came to our home theater, thought about how we liked to lie on the bed and talk. During the holidays, we sat here, faced the screen, and played and passed the time. When I remembered that accident, I remembered the wonderful touch of her body...
I lay on the sofa facing the dark screen until it was dark and couldn't help calling her
Mom, what are you doing?
I just brought the goods here in the afternoon and was packing with your aunt. Her voice was slightly breathless. Thinking about it, it was really inconvenient for two women to be at home.
Mom, I said I should go back with you...
No, mom can handle it
OK, I thought about it and found that there was nothing to say, then you can do it and come back early
good……
I felt a little lost when I hung up the phone. I always had endless things to say to her in the past, but over the past month, I have gradually forgotten how to get along well.
No, I have to change when she comes back tomorrow
The next afternoon, I asked her: Mom, when will you get home?
Maybe not today. I want to spend time with your aunt and your grandfather and uncle.
I can't force it, okay, then when will you come back?
She hesitated, this...can't say...it may be...it's only been in the past few days...
Mom, are you hiding something from me?
No……
Then you will come back tomorrow? If not, it will be one day late. Will it work the day after tomorrow?
OK...Look again...
I hung up the phone, Ruan Qing, you must have something to hide from me
I didn't wait until the day after tomorrow as I said on the phone, and I went back to my hometown the next day. I was thinking about what happened to Ruan Qing along the way.
My hometown is quiet, I lit three incense sticks for my grandfather and uncle first. At this time, my aunt came out of the backyard and held a bowl of medicine in her hand.
Aunt, where is my mom?
She pointed to the bedroom to the west, did a sleeping move, and then put her palms horizontally on her forehead.
Did she have a fever?
Aunt nodded
What's going on? August is already in midsummer, and I feel hot even if I don't cover myself with my quilt when I sleep. Why did I get sick after only two nights of my return?
My aunt knew I couldn't use sign language, so she pointed at me
You said it was because of me?
She nodded to confirm my guess
This made me unable to figure it out. I wasn't even by her these two days, how could I be because of me?
Ruan Qing is sometimes easy to talk to, but sometimes she won’t compromise even if she says it out loud. If it’s because of me, she will definitely not tell me the reason. If she didn’t come back, she wouldn’t know she was sick.
Let's do this... I asked my aunt not to notify Ruan Qing that I'm here, and ask her a few more questions, and listen to what the situation is going on outside...
My aunt agreed, it seems that she doesn't want to create a gap between the only remaining mother and son in the Ruan family.
Please trouble you, sister. After taking the medicine, her voice became more energetic
It’s hard to say when I go back, I have to wait for me to get better?
So what if I go back early? Am I still taking care of myself?
His son has grown up and has his own ideas, so I don’t want to drag him down…
He has begun to avoid me. I don’t blame him. He is still young. Although he has always regarded himself as an adult, he has not really walked through society. Besides, I am an ominous woman...
Who doesn't want to say that? Who doesn't want to have someone around you always with you, and at least you can hand in the bowl of soup when you are sick. However, I, Ruan Qing, will never have this life...
In the past, Ah was very good at taking care of people. Sometimes it was so good that it made people feel heart-warming, and sometimes it made people feel hated... Even when she was talking about gritting her teeth, her tone was smiling. In an instant, those scenes of her annoyance and anger appeared in front of her eyes one by one.
But he always wants to grow up. He will have more friends and a broader future. But he is too dependent on me. Although he has been trying hard to act like an adult, as long as he is involved with me, he will panic and subconsciously hold me...
She was right. When one day, the person you wanted to never leave her suddenly said, "You should learn to leave by yourself, I can't help but feel panic."
It's good now... Her tone became lighter again. She was afraid that whether I was or hated me, it would be better to hide from me. Finally, she stopped sticking to me. I might as well stay in my hometown. My job has been arranged and someone will replace me.
Moreover, I don’t have to be afraid anymore. I’m just such a son, but I don’t want to kill him too...
I am very relieved of him. Without me, he will definitely be able to take good care of himself. He has never disappointed me since he was a child!
As for me, let him forget it slowly. If I disappear, maybe he will be relieved if he knows...
When I heard this, I felt angry. How could she question it?
Could what I said be fake?
She is my world, how can I forget my life?
How could it be possible to give up?
The relationship between us is not as deep as you imagined. He can easily get rid of me when he becomes an adult...
I can no longer stand her heart-killing words, no!
Her eyes were extremely happy when they saw me, but soon dimmed
Aunt, I want to chat with her alone
My aunt took the bowl and took the door out.
How long have you been here?
She was relieved, but soon became nervous again, but I heard it
She smiled reluctantly, "Mom is not blaming you, don't take it to your heart..."
My chest was blocked. When she faced me, how could she be so humble?
Mom, it's me that's not good, I shouldn't...
No, Mom is an ominous woman. She should have left you long ago. Stay away from me. Be kind to you and to mom.
No!
After listening to your mother, study hard after she goes back and take good care of herself in life. Mom believes that you can be good alone. If you need money, you will find your aunt Jing, but you can't spend it indiscriminately, she will also take care of you.
In the future, I don’t have to stay at home with my mother like before. I went out to meet a few more friends and could have a girlfriend, but it would not affect my studies. I can’t do that before graduating from high school... I need to take contraceptive measures during college...
If you miss me, just call your mom or come back occasionally, but there is no need to do so, don't run back and forth...
Don’t mention me to your family when you get married, just think I’m... dead...
No! I hugged her and went back with me, okay?
It really doesn't need to. Instead of going back with you to cause trouble, mom might as well stay here. Don't worry about mom's bad life and forget the story I told you? My hometown is filled with different delicacies...
But I really don't worry about you alone...
Mom has become accustomed to it. She is free to be alone, so she doesn’t have to worry or worry about it. She knows the cold and cold spring, and the cold and warmth...
But I'm not used to it!
I am not used to the big house without you, not used to the double bed without you, not used to the kitchen where you don’t have you... Thinking of the possibility that she and I have been separated from each other, know each other but don’t meet each other, I feel so uncomfortable that I am almost suffocating. Ruan Qing, I can’t live without you...
But being with your mother will be even more uncomfortable, and you forgot that your mother is an ominous woman...
She said this sentence at least three times in a short time, and then I realized that my neglect and avoidance of her over the past month were just catalysts. If it weren't for her heart disease, she would still stay by my side even if she was humble.
Mom, I didn't actually hide from you before. Now I can't get rid of my heart, but I can try to eliminate unnecessary misunderstandings
Don't lie to me, mom can see... Rather than telling me, I'm urging her not to deceive herself anymore
I raised my fingers to the sky. If I had any disgust for Ruan Qing, I would be thundering and would not die!
It was too late for her to stop her. She had finished her vow, so she should believe it now, right?
Thinking of the spiritual throne separated by a wall, my grandfather and uncle were there, I did hide from Ruan Qing, but it was definitely not because of disgust and fear. It is not wrong to swear like this?
Then what do you think is because? Until now, she can't completely let go, which shows how deeply the harm I did the previous month had hurt her
But at least I could hear a hint of her unique silly from her question, because I want to become stronger
Since experiencing the incident in my hometown, my deepest feeling is that only strong enough can you protect you from harm
If you are strong enough, you can rescue your uncle directly. Even if there is an accident, you have the ability to bear it, instead of letting the people around you suffer and sacrifice, and you will not be able to resist when the evil people come.
Dad is strong enough to deal with Guo Jianzhong and his son again and again, but it is not enough. If it can be solved at one time, there will be no need to go out to join the army, and they even dare not come to the door.
I am still in school, so I can only do my best to study. You know, your son is determined to be the strongest man in order to protect you from any harm.
When you encounter danger, you will descend from the sky with seven-colored clouds...
Hearing this extremely familiar love words, she knew that Lei Yu, the son who used to be, who loved and hated, was back again, and subconsciously said, "You are not the Monkey King...
Then I also entered the daily quarrel mode. I would not be Zixia's Monkey King Supreme Treasure. If you want to do it, just do your intention, the person...
Nonsense... She thought I was still talking nonsense as usual, and she had already become immune to this, but she still stuffed her head into my arms
But God knows that I feel how stingy and serious that I said just now
Then why do you ignore me and hide from me when you are studying? Her tone has become normal, and she is no longer as calm as before as if she is explaining her affairs.
However, I really don't know how to answer this question, because what she said was the fact. Although the previous answer was not the question, it was at least what I said in my heart.
I didn't want to lie to her, but I couldn't tell the truth, so I had to look her in the eyes. Mom, believe me!
Humph! She pressed her head against my chest and left me with a beautiful back of her head. A faint voice came. Do you still feel it from the bottom of your heart... so you feel scared...
I was just afraid that I couldn't control myself because I liked her. How could I feel disgusted with her and find it difficult to get close to her?
Ruan Qing! I was so angry that I pulled my little head out of my arms, but she turned her face to the side with anger and insisted that I give an explanation, otherwise I wouldn't pay attention to me
Who said I hate you? I was so anxious that I couldn't help it. I saw her raising her chin and revealing a beautiful white neck, and she chewed and kissed her directly. In the past, I had been using this trick to make her look obedient
Haha... itchy... annoying...
The lips and face are all smooth, soft and fragrant, and the nose is full of fragrance. I can't help but stick out my tongue and lick it.
Well... Her voice changed suddenly, becoming charming and charming, and the hand that was originally rejected was weakly placed on my shoulder
In an instant, the switch with a wonderful touch in my mind and body was also turned on. I stuck out my tongue and felt the silky softness and sweetness like a cake butter, and I couldn't bear to stop.
Well! With a loud and sharp moan that popped out of her throat, her body suddenly tensed up, and her fingers grabbed my shoulders tightly. I woke up from the pain and caught her completely soft body
Holding her boneless body, her almond eyes were blurred, and the slight fragrance of sweat was like water shaking from her red and tender face. How about it, do you believe it now?
Lei Yu, you bastard! His straight eyes turned around and Ruan Qing burst into tears. I am your mother, how could you treat me like this!
I gently patted her back with my hand, I was a bastard, I was not a thing, I blame me, I will definitely not hide from you in the future...
It's okay if I don't say it, but when she mentioned this, she cried even more aggrievedly. Why did she hide from me... Why didn't she want to talk to me... Why did she feel uncomfortable with me... Do you know how sad I have been during this period...
I am used to having you with you every day when I am bored, but you are fine. I don’t give you one at the right time. If you want to talk to you, you look unwilling to pay attention to it. Once you are by your side, you feel uncomfortable...
Do you know that I want to get familiar with your breath, but you don’t want me to get close to you... Even if you take advantage of the opportunity to take a shower, you are so scared that I will make you hate it...
Do you know that I miss you every night so much that I can't sleep, but I just don't dare to go over and look for you... Even though it's just across the corridor, I'm really afraid of seeing you showing an impatient expression...
Do you know that only when you are not at home can I dare to lie on your bed and hold the familiar smell to sleep?
When I came back, I thought, Ruan Qing Ah Ruan Qing, you have failed in your life. They are right. You are just a broom star. It is right for your son to hate you, otherwise you will be killed sooner or later. Why not just do it? Let him be unhappy and not go back and get upset...
I have already planned to stay here alone and ask for your news from afar. As long as you can live a good life, you will definitely be happier than before without my life...
It turned out that she had been wandering in a daze on the endless sea, and she survived the strong wind and waves and escaped the vortex and undercurrents. However, she was finally refused to stop by the harbor when she set off. Even though the waves were calm and the sky was high, what could she have to rest?
I always thought that her past had passed, but I didn't expect that it was just buried deep in my heart by her. My indifference and alienation turned into sharp shovels, digging them in one by one, and then turning them out, it was already covered in blood.
Son... don't ignore your mother no matter what, okay? I won't be able to survive... You are the only one who mom...
Her words are like scars slashing the heart, so painful that I can't breathe. I will follow you... I will follow you from now on... I will never let go after I say that
She was already in a state of distraction and experienced such intense ups and downs. She fell asleep in tears. Looking at her bleak face crying with the rain, she realized that not only she could not get rid of her, but she also couldn't live without me. She did not hesitate in her heart and took on this sweet burden happily
During the whole day, I helped my aunt to sort out the remaining things she couldn't move in the house. Ruan Qing slept until dark before she woke up. When I went in, she was staring at the ceiling with wide eyes. When she heard the movement, she turned her head and looked over. An unbelievable light flashed in her eyes and murmured: Are you still dreaming...
I deliberately teased her, it was Ah, and she was still in the dream...
Unexpectedly, her tears suddenly slid down the corners of her eyes, silently, and her heart was so heartbroken that I was scared.
Mom! I'm sorry! I'm joking with you, not dreaming! I hurriedly sat in front of her, feeling very regretful, and raised my hand and slapped myself
Bang! The crisp slap woke her up. Looking at my cheeks quickly becoming red and swollen, she didn't care about being secretly hurt. She crawled out of the quilt and grabbed my hand, stretched out her fingertips and gently touched it next to my face.
You are stupid! Why are you hitting yourself in a good way?
I'm talking nonsense and sad... Seeing her out of her predicament, the scorching pain on her face was nothing, but instead she grinned, Mom, I was wrong, I won't joke with you again...
Don't……
What? I'm a little confused
Mom likes you... My heart beats suddenly, and my cerebral blood vessels are congested violently. I like you to joke with mom...
OK... Reason has gained the upper hand again. I smiled awkwardly, are you hungry? Get up and have a meal
When I went out, I met my aunt. She stared at me for two seconds, then looked at Ruan Qing strangely, a little surprised and unbelievable. I remembered instantly, she wouldn't think it was Ruan Qing who beat me, right?
No, aunt, this was my own beating, because I made my mom sad and sick, so I gave it to myself out of self-blame
Then she suddenly realized and then showed a look of relief and appreciation.
hey-hey……
My aunt and I were both worried, but Ruan Qing was ashamed. After all, it was because of her, and even because her son was so sensible, she made her more heartless.
Having eaten... I hurriedly walked to the backyard without raising my head
My aunt and I looked at each other and saw the smiles in each other's eyes
At night, I naturally slept in the same room with Ruan Qing, and she was not surprised at all.
Lying on the bed, Mom, why did you fall ill when you come back? My aunt said it was because of me...
It's because of you! She pissed me off annoyed. If it were before, I would have been so panicked and complacent, but now I just want to explore the true thoughts in her heart and figure out what's going on
Mom, it’s not right for me to make you sad, but I think this is a bit unfair...
If it weren't for you, how could I have been unable to eat well, sleep well, and I would have been in a bad mood. When I came back, I would get a cold and get sick after sweating...
Alas...Mom, I'm sorry...
snort!
I thought about it for a while, in other words, are you thinking about it because you miss me?
The genius misses you! Little bastard...bad son... she felt like she was stepped on her tail, and she suddenly burst into tears. I see if you dare to ignore me in the future... Otherwise...
Otherwise, what will happen? Otherwise, I will make myself sick again, which will make me feel sad?
Whoever wants you to feel sorry for you! Otherwise... I will... I will bite you to death... As he said that, he actually opened the kitten's mouth and bit my shoulders and neck
Although I didn't work very hard, the sensitive parts still hurt a little, but it didn't matter. I pressed her hard on her body and laid her head. Thinking of her sadness because of all the sadness I endured, don't worry, I swear I will never ignore you again from now on
Well, the moment she took back her silver teeth, she felt a little snake passing by my neck, smooth, greasy, warm and cold, making me feel refreshed from head to toe in an instant, and I couldn't help but hum.
I thought to myself, it was really retribution! But I hope that the more retribution I would come, the better
I found that Ruan Qing suddenly turned her back to me, Mom, what's wrong with you?
Don't talk! I'm sleepy, go to bed!
Haven't you been sleeping for a day? Why can you still sleep so much... Looking at her beautiful curves curled up together, she is such a lazy cat...
You are the lazy cat... no, lazy dog!
I didn't argue with her either. At this moment, the misunderstanding was resolved and I finally felt at ease.
Mom, what are you moving? After a few minutes, I opened my eyes helplessly. Perhaps because I had just made up, I forgot to pay attention to my position, and I felt very comfortable sleeping with her, but Ruan Qing kept moving and restless
I noticed her breathing, is it hot?
I wanted to pull my hand out and sleep well, but she pulled it back and wrapped it in front of me. It was not hot... Mom promised not to move...
Well... Although it doesn't matter if you take it back, it's best to hold it
It's very comfortable until dawn, yes! I stretched and felt refreshed
When she said goodbye to my aunt, she made a few gestures to Ruan Qing. Ruan Qing blushed in an instant and didn't dare to respond, so she pulled me out.
I'm very curious, Mom, what did my aunt tell you just now?
It's nothing! She exuded her anger on my head and walked faster. Only then did I deeply realize how important it is to master a foreign language
After returning home, she became more attached to me. This was what I dreamed of before. Although it is the same now, I would rather see a smart and confident Ruan Qing than a lack of security in the psychological shadow.
Son, eating fruits, she held a plate of apples, cut them into small pieces after peeling, and put them in my mouth with a small fork.
I picked up one, yes
How about it, is it sweet? She asked me with her eyes squinted, as if waiting for my praise
tasty!
She immediately smiled sweeter than the apple in my mouth
son!
What? I asked in the bathroom
Help mom take off her pajamas
Which set?
Anything is fine in the cabinet...
Her clothes are basically cotton, and she likes white, so I just picked up one. Is the white nightgown okay? The pure white one!
No! It's too hot!
I was speechless, women's casual and can do it. Actually, it depends on whether you will choose. Moreover, she just happened to be so greedy. Finally, she took a pure white suspender vest and pink hot pants. As a result, she opened the door completely again, as if she deliberately let me see her after taking a shower.
Before going to bed, I gently stroked her hair. Mom, I will never hate you. Don’t be afraid that one day I will leave you, let alone deliberately please me. Are we as good as before?
She lay on the bed and looked at me with her eyes wide open, grabbed my arm and nodded, but I knew my words didn't do anything at all.
It seems that it won’t work if you don’t get a little bit of it. I leaned into her ears, and you really don’t need to tempt me, because I’ve seen everything you shouldn’t have to watch…
When her face was congested and wanted to pinch me and bite me, I had already withdrawn, leaving only her with a closed-door back, haha...
I was in trouble again after closing the door. This move will definitely not work. At most, it will be alleviated.
Women's hearts are really hard to guess, and they can't be solved even if they guess.
Sister Weiwei, can you please ask me again?
Why, do you think of me as an emotional master? I feel a little embarrassed. Is it too troublesome? Just when I was about to give up, let alone, I feel good to be trusted by my little brother. What's wrong? I've been discovered?
It's not her, it's my mother. My mother left a psychological shadow because my uncle fell into the water before. How can I overcome it? Actually, I was so clever here that I deliberately separated the two things, making Sister Weiwei think that the person I like and Ruan Qing are not the same person.
Well... I've seen this... Sister, I've seen it. Some people are afraid of fire, some are afraid of ropes, and even more afraid of the opposite sex. There are many more reasons. You have to tell me in detail to analyze it.
I roughly introduced Ruan Qing's past. To put it simply, she blamed herself for not pulling her uncle up in time before, fearing that she would really harm me in the future and that I would alienate her because of this.
Little brother, you really don’t understand women, let alone a mother
How to say it?
What do you think is the most important thing in Ruan Qing’s heart?
I answered without hesitation: Me!
So do you think Ruan Qing is afraid that you will alienate her or that you will be even more afraid that you will have an accident in the future?
If I keep my distance from her, she will be sad, but if I have an accident, she would rather endure it and never see me again in her life. She has made this decision more than once
It seems you already have the answer
According to what you said, in fact, from your attitude, she can see that you are still close to her, and she treats you more from the perspective of making up for it. On the one hand, she transfers your self-blame to you, and on the other hand, she compensates you for possible future dangers.
I was so surprised that I couldn't speak. It was because of Ruan Qing's complexity and heavy minds, and she admired Sister Weiwei so much that I was impressed. I didn't tell her many details, but I analyzed it more clearly than me, the person involved.
Sister Weiwei, what should I do if I can’t help but start admiring you?
My little brother is really good at talking! She is obviously very helpful
Sister Weiwei has always been right to others. If she changes to a strange man, even if she says it 10,000 times more nicely, she will only get a cold eye.
It is easy to say about your uncle's self-blame, because as long as there is hope and more important things, she will not always be addicted to the past
You mean, me?
Yes, the biggest problem is that the source of her fear is that you are in danger. At that time, no matter whether it is because of her or not, she will collapse.
But I can neither travel through time and space nor predict the future. How can I ensure that I will be safe and safe in the future?
There are two ways to eliminate fear. One is to eliminate fear itself from the source. For example, arrest a murderer, and then those who are afraid of the weapon because of his crime can be relieved. This is the same as being afraid of the dog and beating it to death after being bitten by a dog.
But this is not easy for your mom...
Sister Weiwei, please don’t keep it a secret... People have to lower their posture and be kind to them under the eaves. Sister Weiwei likes my appearance as if she is big sister.
Another way is to let her overcome it by herself, such as letting people who are afraid of darkness walk more at night, and those who have been injured by knife use it skillfully, and you can overcome your fear if you get used to it.
Didn’t she regret not saving your uncle? Just let her experience it again, which will help her regain confidence and feel more at ease with you
My uncle is gone, how should I do this?
You're like this...
Mom! When she got home, she had already cooked a table of dishes. The two of them were eating four or five plates. They went shopping in the afternoon. Before the holiday, they said they wanted to go, but they had no time. School was about to start changing into a few new clothes. OK?
OK! Sure enough, Ah, women are like small trains, they can move as long as they go shopping and eat.
It's so hot this day... I was so angry that I was grinning
I was wearing a pair of sunglasses and holding an umbrella over Ruan Qing's head. Since the umbrella surface was small, Ruan Qing kept running around to see everything was novel, so I could only raise my arms and move with her.
She turned around and found that I was exposed to the sun. She took out a tissue to wipe my sweat with guilt and found a place to sit...
I couldn't bear to interrupt her interest and smiled indifferently. No, it's good to have a show. Men are too white and not good looking.
I'm hot! We'll come out when it gets dark and then look for it as we say
By chance, a girl next to me was looking at me by the window in the cold drink shop next to me, and a boy was sitting opposite me. Seeing me turn my head, she smiled at me embarrassedly
I responded with a smile, but I was pinched hard on my waist. What should I see!
Didn't see anything Ah?
Humph! Ruan Qing took my arm, threw a proud and provocative look at the girl, pulled me away
It feels so comfortable to apply silky skating and cold skin, but I still don’t understand why she is angry. Mom, where did you mess with you?
Shameless! I've always throw my eyes everywhere when I have boyfriends!
No, people are looking at us two. I guess I saw that I was so considerate and cared for you. I thought her boyfriend could only drink drinks and play with his phone. He just kicked under the table...
She showed her two little tiger teeth and stared at me angrily, Ah! You still looked so carefully!
No, I'm not looking for a cold drink shop. I've just been observing the environment inside. Besides, I'm just looking for a girlfriend...
She just mentioned the word "girlfriend" and was interrupted by her. Don't look for it!
It’s not that you said I can fall in love in high school, but I can’t… that…
She was shy and quickly refuted, I never said it!
When you were in your hometown... I thought to myself that my memory was not that bad, right?
I said nothing! As I said, I reached out to grab my ears
Feeling her threatening eyes and the danger that is close at hand, the hero does not suffer any loss in front of him. No, you have never said...
At this moment, a weak voice came from behind. I turned around and found out that it was the girl just now
Since Ruan Qing was still staring at me, I didn't say anything, but just smiled and nodded in response
Humph! In an instant, Ruan Qing was like a winning rooster, holding my arm with angrily and walking towards the direction they came.
When I passed by, I heard the girl complaining about her boyfriend. You still saw her when everyone left! I haven’t seen a beautiful woman before, right!
We kept laughing, just watching the girl's gaze at me, forgot that there was a big beauty around us, and when we got close, we could see her lower half of her face and chin with almost no pores. If we hadn't been wearing sunglasses, we would have been very much in the eye.
As a result, Ruan Qing pulled me into the cold drink shop just now, sat down in the girl's seat, lying on the chair and kicking her legs comfortably
I was casually looking at the menu, what should I drink?
Is the watermelon juice good? The second cup is half price, and a dessert is also given... She secretly looked at my reaction while saying
I seemed to have not noticed her movements, nor saw the couple's package in front of me, and said calmly, OK! In fact, I was already secretly happy in my heart.
Huh! So full! Don't say it, it's really enjoyable to have a big meal outside occasionally
Bathed in the golden afterglow, Ruan Qing and I bought two or three sets of clothes, and threw the big bags on the ground casually. I sat for a while before getting up. Mom, go out for a walk to eat...
No... I reluctantly pulled her out of the house, and she was still staring at the sofa through the crack in the door until the moment before closing.
After a long circle around the community, we finally came to the lake and breathed in a pleasant evening breeze mixed with moist water vapor and the fragrance of plants.
The willow trees on the shore have grown completely, and the graceful willow branches are suitable for weaving garlands. If you pull off two new branches, it will not be long enough after you go around it twice.
I targeted an old branch with dense willow leaves, but the trunks were shaking but still not broken
Wrap it in my hand and pulled it down hard with my weight. I finally pulled it off when I was about to touch the ground, but I fell forward without control.
Plop!
Ruan Qing's face still maintained a comfortable and comfortable smile, but her eyes were extremely frightened in an instant
Is the lingering nightmare and the entangled curse destined to happen until there is no one around me?
Here? Sister Weiwei was observing my entanglement leisurely. She drank water every time she came. Could this be her secret to maintaining her?
Well... I was at a loss as to how to deal with my relationship with Ruan Qing, but I knew I could never let it go.
Have you thought about what to do?
No... I replied subconsciously, what are you thinking about?
You like her, but you don’t think it shouldn’t be, and you can’t let her know, but you just can’t help thinking about how to solve it?
How did you... know?
Last time I heard you say, I guessed it almost the same. It was just the kind of things that I couldn’t say? Didn’t she hate you? What if she likes you too?
I fantasized about confessing to Ruan Qing, but the result was not what Sister Weiwei said, but she avoided me like a snake and scorpion from now on, and regarded me as a beast.
No! You must not let him know! I shook my head violently, Sister Weiwei, is there any other way?
Well... can you tell me why?
She... just treats me as a relative... I hesitate to tell the biggest secret, and looked at her reaction with guilt. Sister Weiwei, am I... I... Is it abnormal...
In this way, Ah... He did not have the surprise or disgust I expected, but instead helped me analyze it seriously, as if it was commonplace, bigger than you?
Well... I've said it all anyway, it doesn't matter if I have more. Sister Weiwei doesn't look like a person who can stir up the wind and rain. She is my elder...
Her expression became a little complicated, and I quickly added that, but she was still single without blood relationship...
This is almost the same... His face looks a little better, otherwise I would be regarded as a pervert who wants to break up his family, right?
Looking at Sister Vivi’s calm expression, I must have been infected by her to accept it calmly. Am I equivalent to the fact that I am perverted?
Since she doesn't want her to know, if you are usually far away from her, talk less, stay together less, find something for yourself, and have no time to think about it when you are busy.
That's so simple?
Otherwise? Sister Weiwei suddenly came over with a hint of eagerness in her eyes. If you want to, my sister will give you an idea and help you catch her, what if?
My head was shaken like a rattle, and I have been dependent on each other for more than ten years. I have resisted this warmth from the bottom of my heart, even if it is my own feelings that are beyond the rules.
Don't you really want to? Don't you like her? She doesn't give up and continue to bewitch you. You don't want her to hug you at any time in the future, lie in your arms every night and say nice love words, then kiss, and then do some happy things...
My mind began to fantasize about the wonderful scene described in my ears, and Ruan Qing...
No! She just treats me as her son. She has nothing and can no longer bear the loss. If she can't accept it, the short moment when she looks back will really become a farewell forever
What a pity... Sister Weiwei sat back in a lack of interest, then find something to do, and I won’t think about it when I get busy.
Say goodbye to Sister Vivi, I was thinking about what could take up my time and distance ourselves from each other.
Mom, I want to sign up for a quick class and preview my second year of high school
She hesitated, son, there is no need to put so much pressure on herself...
No, it's almost moldy at home. Find something to do and it's easier when school starts. I found a reasonable excuse to escape.
OK, she smiled with relief and reached out to pinch my face. It took me a lot of effort to stop it and not avoid it.
The next day I started my busy study life, and prepared a complete set of homework for myself from basic questions to difficult questions. I worked hard to catch up with the senior high school students before the school holiday.
She had already given the meal to do. She got up early to exercise, and arranged a bunch of exercises for herself during class. She didn't have time to class until late at night. Once her mind relaxed for a day, she immediately fell into bed and fell asleep.
Sure enough, I didn't have the heart to think about Ruan Qing anymore. In my mind, except formulas, I just define and solve problems.
Son, can you watch TV with your mother?
OK! I thought it and was scared. I don’t know what I was afraid of, but I looked reluctant to do it.
I got in close contact again, and I was sitting next to me, but I felt that she was everywhere
What are you thinking? The advertisements are so good-looking?
Ah? I came back to my senses and realized that the advertisement had been put on some time
OK, go upstairs to read
I looked at the time, less than half an hour, Mom, I'm sorry, I'll accompany you for a while...
No, you go back to the room... She drove me out with a smile
I always feel uncomfortable living in the same room with Ruan Qing. She is like invading you all the time, going deep into you, making you unable to avoid it until your eyes, mind, and heart are full of her. It is not enough, and she is desperately squeezed in, overflowing, and surrounding her.
I began to consciously avoid her and avoid being in the same room or even on the same floor. She is downstairs and I will go upstairs quickly. When she is upstairs, I will stay downstairs while she is upstairs.
son!
Um?
Help mom hand in the clothes on the bed!
A white floral nightgown was scattered on the light green quilt. I took it to the innermost bathroom door. I thought she would take it through the crack of the door, but I didn't expect she opened the door completely.
Standing timidly in front of me with my bath towel, my round shoulders and tender white arms, my hands were tucked in front of me because I was nervous. Although my chest was only half a finger-long gully, I had seen her whole body, and I knew how deep the bath towel was underneath it.
Holding her nightgown stood at the door, my heart was overwhelmed for a moment, forgot to give it to her
Looking at her face like a lotus after the rain, unlike her beauty that was only obsessed with her, I suddenly wanted to possess her solely that she would be my only one.
I was startled by my thoughts and hurriedly stuffed my nightgown, Mom, clothes! After saying that, I didn't dare to meet her eyes that were about to raise, and hurriedly ran off my arms.
Every weekend, I will come to the bar. I haven't forgotten the wish I made at the beginning and still stick to it.
Why are you busy?
I learned that Sister Weiwei also brought a drink. This is a rare time to get out to breathe. Well, I signed up for a cram school and became addicted to studying.
Wow, a good idea... don't want to?
But I saw me holding my hands and shaking my head slightly
I really don’t think about it anymore? I didn’t look at her secretly anymore? I listened to her voice and thought about what she was doing when I couldn’t see it...
My head was buried lower, I raised my glass and took a sip, begging for mercy with a wry smile, Sister Weiwei, please stop talking, can't I let it go easily after finally coming out? My mind is almost blown up when I read books all day...
Okay, I won’t say anything anymore, I’ll remind you, don’t just spend your time with yourself, notice her reaction?
I was stunned, what could she react?
Little brother and sister are also women, women are sensitive, so it is recommended that you go back and observe. After saying that, I went up to the third floor and left me alone to think quietly
Panic
Suddenly, I felt very panicked, for no reason
It seems that Ruan Qing is watching me somewhere, she is standing there quietly, but I am getting farther and farther away. This is not what I want.
She doesn't go home for lunch when she comes out on weekends. If it were the usual, she would definitely ask questions. Whether it is threatening or acting cute, she would never give up until she achieves her goal. But now every time she comes out, she just tells me to be careful on the road
How hurried I was when I left, how panicked I am now. I want to tell her that we are still the closest people in this world to each other.
It was quiet when we got home. This time was a fixed meal time for our family, but there was no breath of fireworks.
Mom? I called in a low voice, Ruan Qing?
Not at home? Going out? After walking around the stairs, there was no one in her bedroom. Where can she go?
When I returned to the room and opened the door, I was shocked. Ruan Qing was sleeping on my bed at this time.
Ruan Qing, wake up
Hum? Son, are you back? He is used to me every time I go out until dark. I look at the window still light, and I am a little confused. When is it?
It was just noon. I didn’t dare to look at her head carefully for a long time. Only then did I realize that she seemed to have lost weight and her face turned pale and bloodless. Why did she still sleep in my room if she didn’t eat at noon?
If you are not hungry, don't want to eat, you...you go out first...
Why? This is my room, why do you want me to go out?
Mom...Mom is not wearing clothes...
It's hard for her to lie, and I'd say that I'm so panicked. Even though I saw that I was wearing pajamas and pajamas well, a corner was exposed from under the thin quilt.
Forget it... I didn't ask, turned around and waited outside
alright……
When she came in again, she was already standing on the ground, and the color of her clothes had not changed. Except for the quilt being laid, I really couldn't tell what she had done in the past few minutes.
But until the front face was facing, I realized that she was thinner than when she came back from her hometown
After the first seven, she lost weight. It was mainly caused by the black and white reversal. She would have been raised for a week at home before recovering. Now another month has passed, and there are still faint dark circles on her face.
The pajamas on her body were originally fit, but although she was so fairy-like, she felt empty.
Just like a huge villa, she lives alone
I have forgotten to think about why she appeared in my room. I walked over and just wanted to hold her in my arms and love her.
However, I am still afraid of what I am afraid of?
I gently put my arms around her shoulders, Mom, I went down to cook, and I didn't eat either, so I let go of my hand
She had a great time eating this meal, and she looked up and smiled at me from time to time. It was not like the silly smirk she used to be, but like a dog tied up at the table, and looked at it from time to time to see if it had run away. I couldn't stand it, so I had to keep my head down
Hiccup: I put all my thoughts on the opposite side, and I ate too much without realizing it. I sat down on the bed and turned the pillow over.
I have mild obsessive-compulsive disorder and perfectionism. The pillow is always on the front, but when I lie down, my face is wet. I turned over and sat up, slowly touching the wet mark with my fingers.
The shirt I changed last night was still placed on the head of the bed, but I always threw old clothes onto the chairs.
Standing in the corridor, I shouted softly, Mom?
She was already asleep with a pale face, but her brows were slightly frowning.
I squatted beside the bed, soothe her sorrow, pulled her hand and put it on my face and closed my eyes to feel it. I kissed it on the back of my hand, stuffed it into a thin quilt
Sorry, I shouldn't have done this, but I can only do this
The course ended a week before the start of school. Ruan Qing told me that the day after tomorrow, grandpa and uncle had finished seven days, and she wanted to go back and see them.
Mom, I'll go with you
No, school is about to start, you can prepare well, just mom is alone, she is not in high spirits, she probably misses her grandfather and uncle again, right?
The next day, she got up early and got on the car back to her hometown.
The first day when Ruan Qing was away
I looked at the spotless home. Before I left, she cleaned it up, following the handrails of the stairs, with fingertips across the wall, came to her room, came to my room, came to the balcony, came to our home theater, thought about how we liked to lie on the bed and talk. During the holidays, we sat here, faced the screen, and played and passed the time. When I remembered that accident, I remembered the wonderful touch of her body...
I lay on the sofa facing the dark screen until it was dark and couldn't help calling her
Mom, what are you doing?
I just brought the goods here in the afternoon and was packing with your aunt. Her voice was slightly breathless. Thinking about it, it was really inconvenient for two women to be at home.
Mom, I said I should go back with you...
No, mom can handle it
OK, I thought about it and found that there was nothing to say, then you can do it and come back early
good……
I felt a little lost when I hung up the phone. I always had endless things to say to her in the past, but over the past month, I have gradually forgotten how to get along well.
No, I have to change when she comes back tomorrow
The next afternoon, I asked her: Mom, when will you get home?
Maybe not today. I want to spend time with your aunt and your grandfather and uncle.
I can't force it, okay, then when will you come back?
She hesitated, this...can't say...it may be...it's only been in the past few days...
Mom, are you hiding something from me?
No……
Then you will come back tomorrow? If not, it will be one day late. Will it work the day after tomorrow?
OK...Look again...
I hung up the phone, Ruan Qing, you must have something to hide from me
I didn't wait until the day after tomorrow as I said on the phone, and I went back to my hometown the next day. I was thinking about what happened to Ruan Qing along the way.
My hometown is quiet, I lit three incense sticks for my grandfather and uncle first. At this time, my aunt came out of the backyard and held a bowl of medicine in her hand.
Aunt, where is my mom?
She pointed to the bedroom to the west, did a sleeping move, and then put her palms horizontally on her forehead.
Did she have a fever?
Aunt nodded
What's going on? August is already in midsummer, and I feel hot even if I don't cover myself with my quilt when I sleep. Why did I get sick after only two nights of my return?
My aunt knew I couldn't use sign language, so she pointed at me
You said it was because of me?
She nodded to confirm my guess
This made me unable to figure it out. I wasn't even by her these two days, how could I be because of me?
Ruan Qing is sometimes easy to talk to, but sometimes she won’t compromise even if she says it out loud. If it’s because of me, she will definitely not tell me the reason. If she didn’t come back, she wouldn’t know she was sick.
Let's do this... I asked my aunt not to notify Ruan Qing that I'm here, and ask her a few more questions, and listen to what the situation is going on outside...
My aunt agreed, it seems that she doesn't want to create a gap between the only remaining mother and son in the Ruan family.
Please trouble you, sister. After taking the medicine, her voice became more energetic
It’s hard to say when I go back, I have to wait for me to get better?
So what if I go back early? Am I still taking care of myself?
His son has grown up and has his own ideas, so I don’t want to drag him down…
He has begun to avoid me. I don’t blame him. He is still young. Although he has always regarded himself as an adult, he has not really walked through society. Besides, I am an ominous woman...
Who doesn't want to say that? Who doesn't want to have someone around you always with you, and at least you can hand in the bowl of soup when you are sick. However, I, Ruan Qing, will never have this life...
In the past, Ah was very good at taking care of people. Sometimes it was so good that it made people feel heart-warming, and sometimes it made people feel hated... Even when she was talking about gritting her teeth, her tone was smiling. In an instant, those scenes of her annoyance and anger appeared in front of her eyes one by one.
But he always wants to grow up. He will have more friends and a broader future. But he is too dependent on me. Although he has been trying hard to act like an adult, as long as he is involved with me, he will panic and subconsciously hold me...
She was right. When one day, the person you wanted to never leave her suddenly said, "You should learn to leave by yourself, I can't help but feel panic."
It's good now... Her tone became lighter again. She was afraid that whether I was or hated me, it would be better to hide from me. Finally, she stopped sticking to me. I might as well stay in my hometown. My job has been arranged and someone will replace me.
Moreover, I don’t have to be afraid anymore. I’m just such a son, but I don’t want to kill him too...
I am very relieved of him. Without me, he will definitely be able to take good care of himself. He has never disappointed me since he was a child!
As for me, let him forget it slowly. If I disappear, maybe he will be relieved if he knows...
When I heard this, I felt angry. How could she question it?
Could what I said be fake?
She is my world, how can I forget my life?
How could it be possible to give up?
The relationship between us is not as deep as you imagined. He can easily get rid of me when he becomes an adult...
I can no longer stand her heart-killing words, no!
Her eyes were extremely happy when they saw me, but soon dimmed
Aunt, I want to chat with her alone
My aunt took the bowl and took the door out.
How long have you been here?
She was relieved, but soon became nervous again, but I heard it
She smiled reluctantly, "Mom is not blaming you, don't take it to your heart..."
My chest was blocked. When she faced me, how could she be so humble?
Mom, it's me that's not good, I shouldn't...
No, Mom is an ominous woman. She should have left you long ago. Stay away from me. Be kind to you and to mom.
No!
After listening to your mother, study hard after she goes back and take good care of herself in life. Mom believes that you can be good alone. If you need money, you will find your aunt Jing, but you can't spend it indiscriminately, she will also take care of you.
In the future, I don’t have to stay at home with my mother like before. I went out to meet a few more friends and could have a girlfriend, but it would not affect my studies. I can’t do that before graduating from high school... I need to take contraceptive measures during college...
If you miss me, just call your mom or come back occasionally, but there is no need to do so, don't run back and forth...
Don’t mention me to your family when you get married, just think I’m... dead...
No! I hugged her and went back with me, okay?
It really doesn't need to. Instead of going back with you to cause trouble, mom might as well stay here. Don't worry about mom's bad life and forget the story I told you? My hometown is filled with different delicacies...
But I really don't worry about you alone...
Mom has become accustomed to it. She is free to be alone, so she doesn’t have to worry or worry about it. She knows the cold and cold spring, and the cold and warmth...
But I'm not used to it!
I am not used to the big house without you, not used to the double bed without you, not used to the kitchen where you don’t have you... Thinking of the possibility that she and I have been separated from each other, know each other but don’t meet each other, I feel so uncomfortable that I am almost suffocating. Ruan Qing, I can’t live without you...
But being with your mother will be even more uncomfortable, and you forgot that your mother is an ominous woman...
She said this sentence at least three times in a short time, and then I realized that my neglect and avoidance of her over the past month were just catalysts. If it weren't for her heart disease, she would still stay by my side even if she was humble.
Mom, I didn't actually hide from you before. Now I can't get rid of my heart, but I can try to eliminate unnecessary misunderstandings
Don't lie to me, mom can see... Rather than telling me, I'm urging her not to deceive herself anymore
I raised my fingers to the sky. If I had any disgust for Ruan Qing, I would be thundering and would not die!
It was too late for her to stop her. She had finished her vow, so she should believe it now, right?
Thinking of the spiritual throne separated by a wall, my grandfather and uncle were there, I did hide from Ruan Qing, but it was definitely not because of disgust and fear. It is not wrong to swear like this?
Then what do you think is because? Until now, she can't completely let go, which shows how deeply the harm I did the previous month had hurt her
But at least I could hear a hint of her unique silly from her question, because I want to become stronger
Since experiencing the incident in my hometown, my deepest feeling is that only strong enough can you protect you from harm
If you are strong enough, you can rescue your uncle directly. Even if there is an accident, you have the ability to bear it, instead of letting the people around you suffer and sacrifice, and you will not be able to resist when the evil people come.
Dad is strong enough to deal with Guo Jianzhong and his son again and again, but it is not enough. If it can be solved at one time, there will be no need to go out to join the army, and they even dare not come to the door.
I am still in school, so I can only do my best to study. You know, your son is determined to be the strongest man in order to protect you from any harm.
When you encounter danger, you will descend from the sky with seven-colored clouds...
Hearing this extremely familiar love words, she knew that Lei Yu, the son who used to be, who loved and hated, was back again, and subconsciously said, "You are not the Monkey King...
Then I also entered the daily quarrel mode. I would not be Zixia's Monkey King Supreme Treasure. If you want to do it, just do your intention, the person...
Nonsense... She thought I was still talking nonsense as usual, and she had already become immune to this, but she still stuffed her head into my arms
But God knows that I feel how stingy and serious that I said just now
Then why do you ignore me and hide from me when you are studying? Her tone has become normal, and she is no longer as calm as before as if she is explaining her affairs.
However, I really don't know how to answer this question, because what she said was the fact. Although the previous answer was not the question, it was at least what I said in my heart.
I didn't want to lie to her, but I couldn't tell the truth, so I had to look her in the eyes. Mom, believe me!
Humph! She pressed her head against my chest and left me with a beautiful back of her head. A faint voice came. Do you still feel it from the bottom of your heart... so you feel scared...
I was just afraid that I couldn't control myself because I liked her. How could I feel disgusted with her and find it difficult to get close to her?
Ruan Qing! I was so angry that I pulled my little head out of my arms, but she turned her face to the side with anger and insisted that I give an explanation, otherwise I wouldn't pay attention to me
Who said I hate you? I was so anxious that I couldn't help it. I saw her raising her chin and revealing a beautiful white neck, and she chewed and kissed her directly. In the past, I had been using this trick to make her look obedient
Haha... itchy... annoying...
The lips and face are all smooth, soft and fragrant, and the nose is full of fragrance. I can't help but stick out my tongue and lick it.
Well... Her voice changed suddenly, becoming charming and charming, and the hand that was originally rejected was weakly placed on my shoulder
In an instant, the switch with a wonderful touch in my mind and body was also turned on. I stuck out my tongue and felt the silky softness and sweetness like a cake butter, and I couldn't bear to stop.
Well! With a loud and sharp moan that popped out of her throat, her body suddenly tensed up, and her fingers grabbed my shoulders tightly. I woke up from the pain and caught her completely soft body
Holding her boneless body, her almond eyes were blurred, and the slight fragrance of sweat was like water shaking from her red and tender face. How about it, do you believe it now?
Lei Yu, you bastard! His straight eyes turned around and Ruan Qing burst into tears. I am your mother, how could you treat me like this!
I gently patted her back with my hand, I was a bastard, I was not a thing, I blame me, I will definitely not hide from you in the future...
It's okay if I don't say it, but when she mentioned this, she cried even more aggrievedly. Why did she hide from me... Why didn't she want to talk to me... Why did she feel uncomfortable with me... Do you know how sad I have been during this period...
I am used to having you with you every day when I am bored, but you are fine. I don’t give you one at the right time. If you want to talk to you, you look unwilling to pay attention to it. Once you are by your side, you feel uncomfortable...
Do you know that I want to get familiar with your breath, but you don’t want me to get close to you... Even if you take advantage of the opportunity to take a shower, you are so scared that I will make you hate it...
Do you know that I miss you every night so much that I can't sleep, but I just don't dare to go over and look for you... Even though it's just across the corridor, I'm really afraid of seeing you showing an impatient expression...
Do you know that only when you are not at home can I dare to lie on your bed and hold the familiar smell to sleep?
When I came back, I thought, Ruan Qing Ah Ruan Qing, you have failed in your life. They are right. You are just a broom star. It is right for your son to hate you, otherwise you will be killed sooner or later. Why not just do it? Let him be unhappy and not go back and get upset...
I have already planned to stay here alone and ask for your news from afar. As long as you can live a good life, you will definitely be happier than before without my life...
It turned out that she had been wandering in a daze on the endless sea, and she survived the strong wind and waves and escaped the vortex and undercurrents. However, she was finally refused to stop by the harbor when she set off. Even though the waves were calm and the sky was high, what could she have to rest?
I always thought that her past had passed, but I didn't expect that it was just buried deep in my heart by her. My indifference and alienation turned into sharp shovels, digging them in one by one, and then turning them out, it was already covered in blood.
Son... don't ignore your mother no matter what, okay? I won't be able to survive... You are the only one who mom...
Her words are like scars slashing the heart, so painful that I can't breathe. I will follow you... I will follow you from now on... I will never let go after I say that
She was already in a state of distraction and experienced such intense ups and downs. She fell asleep in tears. Looking at her bleak face crying with the rain, she realized that not only she could not get rid of her, but she also couldn't live without me. She did not hesitate in her heart and took on this sweet burden happily
During the whole day, I helped my aunt to sort out the remaining things she couldn't move in the house. Ruan Qing slept until dark before she woke up. When I went in, she was staring at the ceiling with wide eyes. When she heard the movement, she turned her head and looked over. An unbelievable light flashed in her eyes and murmured: Are you still dreaming...
I deliberately teased her, it was Ah, and she was still in the dream...
Unexpectedly, her tears suddenly slid down the corners of her eyes, silently, and her heart was so heartbroken that I was scared.
Mom! I'm sorry! I'm joking with you, not dreaming! I hurriedly sat in front of her, feeling very regretful, and raised my hand and slapped myself
Bang! The crisp slap woke her up. Looking at my cheeks quickly becoming red and swollen, she didn't care about being secretly hurt. She crawled out of the quilt and grabbed my hand, stretched out her fingertips and gently touched it next to my face.
You are stupid! Why are you hitting yourself in a good way?
I'm talking nonsense and sad... Seeing her out of her predicament, the scorching pain on her face was nothing, but instead she grinned, Mom, I was wrong, I won't joke with you again...
Don't……
What? I'm a little confused
Mom likes you... My heart beats suddenly, and my cerebral blood vessels are congested violently. I like you to joke with mom...
OK... Reason has gained the upper hand again. I smiled awkwardly, are you hungry? Get up and have a meal
When I went out, I met my aunt. She stared at me for two seconds, then looked at Ruan Qing strangely, a little surprised and unbelievable. I remembered instantly, she wouldn't think it was Ruan Qing who beat me, right?
No, aunt, this was my own beating, because I made my mom sad and sick, so I gave it to myself out of self-blame
Then she suddenly realized and then showed a look of relief and appreciation.
hey-hey……
My aunt and I were both worried, but Ruan Qing was ashamed. After all, it was because of her, and even because her son was so sensible, she made her more heartless.
Having eaten... I hurriedly walked to the backyard without raising my head
My aunt and I looked at each other and saw the smiles in each other's eyes
At night, I naturally slept in the same room with Ruan Qing, and she was not surprised at all.
Lying on the bed, Mom, why did you fall ill when you come back? My aunt said it was because of me...
It's because of you! She pissed me off annoyed. If it were before, I would have been so panicked and complacent, but now I just want to explore the true thoughts in her heart and figure out what's going on
Mom, it’s not right for me to make you sad, but I think this is a bit unfair...
If it weren't for you, how could I have been unable to eat well, sleep well, and I would have been in a bad mood. When I came back, I would get a cold and get sick after sweating...
Alas...Mom, I'm sorry...
snort!
I thought about it for a while, in other words, are you thinking about it because you miss me?
The genius misses you! Little bastard...bad son... she felt like she was stepped on her tail, and she suddenly burst into tears. I see if you dare to ignore me in the future... Otherwise...
Otherwise, what will happen? Otherwise, I will make myself sick again, which will make me feel sad?
Whoever wants you to feel sorry for you! Otherwise... I will... I will bite you to death... As he said that, he actually opened the kitten's mouth and bit my shoulders and neck
Although I didn't work very hard, the sensitive parts still hurt a little, but it didn't matter. I pressed her hard on her body and laid her head. Thinking of her sadness because of all the sadness I endured, don't worry, I swear I will never ignore you again from now on
Well, the moment she took back her silver teeth, she felt a little snake passing by my neck, smooth, greasy, warm and cold, making me feel refreshed from head to toe in an instant, and I couldn't help but hum.
I thought to myself, it was really retribution! But I hope that the more retribution I would come, the better
I found that Ruan Qing suddenly turned her back to me, Mom, what's wrong with you?
Don't talk! I'm sleepy, go to bed!
Haven't you been sleeping for a day? Why can you still sleep so much... Looking at her beautiful curves curled up together, she is such a lazy cat...
You are the lazy cat... no, lazy dog!
I didn't argue with her either. At this moment, the misunderstanding was resolved and I finally felt at ease.
Mom, what are you moving? After a few minutes, I opened my eyes helplessly. Perhaps because I had just made up, I forgot to pay attention to my position, and I felt very comfortable sleeping with her, but Ruan Qing kept moving and restless
I noticed her breathing, is it hot?
I wanted to pull my hand out and sleep well, but she pulled it back and wrapped it in front of me. It was not hot... Mom promised not to move...
Well... Although it doesn't matter if you take it back, it's best to hold it
It's very comfortable until dawn, yes! I stretched and felt refreshed
When she said goodbye to my aunt, she made a few gestures to Ruan Qing. Ruan Qing blushed in an instant and didn't dare to respond, so she pulled me out.
I'm very curious, Mom, what did my aunt tell you just now?
It's nothing! She exuded her anger on my head and walked faster. Only then did I deeply realize how important it is to master a foreign language
After returning home, she became more attached to me. This was what I dreamed of before. Although it is the same now, I would rather see a smart and confident Ruan Qing than a lack of security in the psychological shadow.
Son, eating fruits, she held a plate of apples, cut them into small pieces after peeling, and put them in my mouth with a small fork.
I picked up one, yes
How about it, is it sweet? She asked me with her eyes squinted, as if waiting for my praise
tasty!
She immediately smiled sweeter than the apple in my mouth
son!
What? I asked in the bathroom
Help mom take off her pajamas
Which set?
Anything is fine in the cabinet...
Her clothes are basically cotton, and she likes white, so I just picked up one. Is the white nightgown okay? The pure white one!
No! It's too hot!
I was speechless, women's casual and can do it. Actually, it depends on whether you will choose. Moreover, she just happened to be so greedy. Finally, she took a pure white suspender vest and pink hot pants. As a result, she opened the door completely again, as if she deliberately let me see her after taking a shower.
Before going to bed, I gently stroked her hair. Mom, I will never hate you. Don’t be afraid that one day I will leave you, let alone deliberately please me. Are we as good as before?
She lay on the bed and looked at me with her eyes wide open, grabbed my arm and nodded, but I knew my words didn't do anything at all.
It seems that it won’t work if you don’t get a little bit of it. I leaned into her ears, and you really don’t need to tempt me, because I’ve seen everything you shouldn’t have to watch…
When her face was congested and wanted to pinch me and bite me, I had already withdrawn, leaving only her with a closed-door back, haha...
I was in trouble again after closing the door. This move will definitely not work. At most, it will be alleviated.
Women's hearts are really hard to guess, and they can't be solved even if they guess.
Sister Weiwei, can you please ask me again?
Why, do you think of me as an emotional master? I feel a little embarrassed. Is it too troublesome? Just when I was about to give up, let alone, I feel good to be trusted by my little brother. What's wrong? I've been discovered?
It's not her, it's my mother. My mother left a psychological shadow because my uncle fell into the water before. How can I overcome it? Actually, I was so clever here that I deliberately separated the two things, making Sister Weiwei think that the person I like and Ruan Qing are not the same person.
Well... I've seen this... Sister, I've seen it. Some people are afraid of fire, some are afraid of ropes, and even more afraid of the opposite sex. There are many more reasons. You have to tell me in detail to analyze it.
I roughly introduced Ruan Qing's past. To put it simply, she blamed herself for not pulling her uncle up in time before, fearing that she would really harm me in the future and that I would alienate her because of this.
Little brother, you really don’t understand women, let alone a mother
How to say it?
What do you think is the most important thing in Ruan Qing’s heart?
I answered without hesitation: Me!
So do you think Ruan Qing is afraid that you will alienate her or that you will be even more afraid that you will have an accident in the future?
If I keep my distance from her, she will be sad, but if I have an accident, she would rather endure it and never see me again in her life. She has made this decision more than once
It seems you already have the answer
According to what you said, in fact, from your attitude, she can see that you are still close to her, and she treats you more from the perspective of making up for it. On the one hand, she transfers your self-blame to you, and on the other hand, she compensates you for possible future dangers.
I was so surprised that I couldn't speak. It was because of Ruan Qing's complexity and heavy minds, and she admired Sister Weiwei so much that I was impressed. I didn't tell her many details, but I analyzed it more clearly than me, the person involved.
Sister Weiwei, what should I do if I can’t help but start admiring you?
My little brother is really good at talking! She is obviously very helpful
Sister Weiwei has always been right to others. If she changes to a strange man, even if she says it 10,000 times more nicely, she will only get a cold eye.
It is easy to say about your uncle's self-blame, because as long as there is hope and more important things, she will not always be addicted to the past
You mean, me?
Yes, the biggest problem is that the source of her fear is that you are in danger. At that time, no matter whether it is because of her or not, she will collapse.
But I can neither travel through time and space nor predict the future. How can I ensure that I will be safe and safe in the future?
There are two ways to eliminate fear. One is to eliminate fear itself from the source. For example, arrest a murderer, and then those who are afraid of the weapon because of his crime can be relieved. This is the same as being afraid of the dog and beating it to death after being bitten by a dog.
But this is not easy for your mom...
Sister Weiwei, please don’t keep it a secret... People have to lower their posture and be kind to them under the eaves. Sister Weiwei likes my appearance as if she is big sister.
Another way is to let her overcome it by herself, such as letting people who are afraid of darkness walk more at night, and those who have been injured by knife use it skillfully, and you can overcome your fear if you get used to it.
Didn’t she regret not saving your uncle? Just let her experience it again, which will help her regain confidence and feel more at ease with you
My uncle is gone, how should I do this?
You're like this...
Mom! When she got home, she had already cooked a table of dishes. The two of them were eating four or five plates. They went shopping in the afternoon. Before the holiday, they said they wanted to go, but they had no time. School was about to start changing into a few new clothes. OK?
OK! Sure enough, Ah, women are like small trains, they can move as long as they go shopping and eat.
It's so hot this day... I was so angry that I was grinning
I was wearing a pair of sunglasses and holding an umbrella over Ruan Qing's head. Since the umbrella surface was small, Ruan Qing kept running around to see everything was novel, so I could only raise my arms and move with her.
She turned around and found that I was exposed to the sun. She took out a tissue to wipe my sweat with guilt and found a place to sit...
I couldn't bear to interrupt her interest and smiled indifferently. No, it's good to have a show. Men are too white and not good looking.
I'm hot! We'll come out when it gets dark and then look for it as we say
By chance, a girl next to me was looking at me by the window in the cold drink shop next to me, and a boy was sitting opposite me. Seeing me turn my head, she smiled at me embarrassedly
I responded with a smile, but I was pinched hard on my waist. What should I see!
Didn't see anything Ah?
Humph! Ruan Qing took my arm, threw a proud and provocative look at the girl, pulled me away
It feels so comfortable to apply silky skating and cold skin, but I still don’t understand why she is angry. Mom, where did you mess with you?
Shameless! I've always throw my eyes everywhere when I have boyfriends!
No, people are looking at us two. I guess I saw that I was so considerate and cared for you. I thought her boyfriend could only drink drinks and play with his phone. He just kicked under the table...
She showed her two little tiger teeth and stared at me angrily, Ah! You still looked so carefully!
No, I'm not looking for a cold drink shop. I've just been observing the environment inside. Besides, I'm just looking for a girlfriend...
She just mentioned the word "girlfriend" and was interrupted by her. Don't look for it!
It’s not that you said I can fall in love in high school, but I can’t… that…
She was shy and quickly refuted, I never said it!
When you were in your hometown... I thought to myself that my memory was not that bad, right?
I said nothing! As I said, I reached out to grab my ears
Feeling her threatening eyes and the danger that is close at hand, the hero does not suffer any loss in front of him. No, you have never said...
At this moment, a weak voice came from behind. I turned around and found out that it was the girl just now
Since Ruan Qing was still staring at me, I didn't say anything, but just smiled and nodded in response
Humph! In an instant, Ruan Qing was like a winning rooster, holding my arm with angrily and walking towards the direction they came.
When I passed by, I heard the girl complaining about her boyfriend. You still saw her when everyone left! I haven’t seen a beautiful woman before, right!
We kept laughing, just watching the girl's gaze at me, forgot that there was a big beauty around us, and when we got close, we could see her lower half of her face and chin with almost no pores. If we hadn't been wearing sunglasses, we would have been very much in the eye.
As a result, Ruan Qing pulled me into the cold drink shop just now, sat down in the girl's seat, lying on the chair and kicking her legs comfortably
I was casually looking at the menu, what should I drink?
Is the watermelon juice good? The second cup is half price, and a dessert is also given... She secretly looked at my reaction while saying
I seemed to have not noticed her movements, nor saw the couple's package in front of me, and said calmly, OK! In fact, I was already secretly happy in my heart.
Huh! So full! Don't say it, it's really enjoyable to have a big meal outside occasionally
Bathed in the golden afterglow, Ruan Qing and I bought two or three sets of clothes, and threw the big bags on the ground casually. I sat for a while before getting up. Mom, go out for a walk to eat...
No... I reluctantly pulled her out of the house, and she was still staring at the sofa through the crack in the door until the moment before closing.
After a long circle around the community, we finally came to the lake and breathed in a pleasant evening breeze mixed with moist water vapor and the fragrance of plants.
The willow trees on the shore have grown completely, and the graceful willow branches are suitable for weaving garlands. If you pull off two new branches, it will not be long enough after you go around it twice.
I targeted an old branch with dense willow leaves, but the trunks were shaking but still not broken
Wrap it in my hand and pulled it down hard with my weight. I finally pulled it off when I was about to touch the ground, but I fell forward without control.
Plop!
Ruan Qing's face still maintained a comfortable and comfortable smile, but her eyes were extremely frightened in an instant
Is the lingering nightmare and the entangled curse destined to happen until there is no one around me?
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