Chapter 4

This time I didn't close my eyes, so I could see Tongtong's cheeks, but Tongtong couldn't see my face. When I heard my father abused my mother, Tongtong's breathing became a little rapid. She, who was usually full of justice, would definitely be angry with her father for her mother. When I heard that my father often went to prostitution, Tongtong's cheeks would also become blushing. After all, when I was listening to my father-in-law's scandal, Tongtong would inevitably feel a little embarrassed when she was listening to her father-in-law's scandal.

Do you think I have committed any evil in my previous life when I have cheated on such a father? I have never told you that when he cheated on him or prostitution, I have told you now, including the same thing, the rent at home and the money he earned from working. In fact, gambling only lost a small part, and most of them were spent on prostitution. Moreover, he is a person who wants to save face and suffers. He always likes to pretend to be rich, and I don’t know how much benefits those prostitutes have benefited him... Alas... After all the things were said, I sighed again. It would be fine if I myself did this, but I also had such a father. In the future, he is old and sick, and it will add a lot of burden to me. At that time, these burdens will be on Tongtong and me, and Tongtong will suffer together. Thinking of this, I feel even more sorry for Tongtong.

Don't think so much about it. Think about what I said before, blood relatives, broken bones and tendons, no matter what he is, he is your father after all. He doesn't care about you, others may only complain about him, but if you don't raise him, others will say you are unfilial. This is a traitor, he will not give us property, and we should not blame him. Originally, we rely on ourselves. As for him when he is old in the future, we must give him a good care of his old age. After all, he is an old man. Whether it is legal or obligation, we must support him. Anyway, we don't have children, so let's leave the cost of raising children to his father and give him a long life... Tongtong didn't remain silent for a long time this time. After I finished speaking, she used her fingers to draw circles on my chest, and then said

Tongtong, you are really kind and always think so openly. If I could be like you, I wouldn’t be so tired... When I heard Tongtong’s words, I cherish Tongtong even more. What else can I ask for if I get a wife like this

Don't get angry with your dad anymore. Sometimes when you think about the problem from another perspective, you will be much more open-minded. Don't always think about other people's bad things. Remember the good things of others. After all, your father has taken care of you and raised you. Now that you have grown up and have a family, you should support him. At least I will bear it with you, so don't worry about it anymore. As for your dad... When your mom dies, he will inevitably be lonely alone. It is normal for you to have needs, but... your dad just doesn't agree to find a partner again... Tongtong persuades me, but in the end she can't help but sigh.

At that time, my father always solicited prostitution, so I wanted to introduce my father to my father without making it clear to him. As a result, Tongtong introduced several of his father's wife. The father didn't like him, but his father didn't like him, so this matter was delayed. In the end, my father stopped looking for his wife. No matter how he said it, it was impossible. Anyway, he had money to go to prostitution, and it was the same. He was selfish and lazy. Except for my mother, no other woman could live with him.

Forget it, I don’t think about it anymore... I stroked Tongtong’s hair. Today I said a lot, but I also gained a lot. I met Tongtong again, making her position in my heart more stable. It’s been three years of marriage. This is the first time we have talked about so many private things.

Husband... After a long time, Tongtong called me softly again

What's wrong? I feel that Tongtong seems to have something to say, and it's hard to speak

Don't masturbate anymore, okay? After a moment of silence, Tongtong said softly

Even if I don't masturbate, it's too late... I'm already sick, and it's useless to repair the dead

What if a miracle happens?

OK... I don't know if I can withstand the temptation of masturbation, so I tried to give Tongtong a mom and Liangke an answer

In the days that followed, everything returned to peace. Tongtong and I were busy working every day. I also followed Tongtong and temporarily quit masturbation.

But how can you change your habits over the years be changed by saying that they can be changed?

If I don’t masturbate, I won’t be able to vent my desires. I always think about these things in my mind, making my work absent-minded

Although I have impotence and premature ejaculation, it does not affect my ejaculation. I feel the feeling of ejaculation.

When masturbating, I always imagine the scenes in pornographic novels. The feeling makes me unable to extricate myself. This is why I can't quit masturbation over the years

And I have one of the biggest secrets I didn't tell Tongtong, that is my favorite type of pornographic novels. My favorite novel is the Cuckold Wife series

I have read a lot of novels, such as incest, cuckolded wife, SM, etc. Except for SM, I am not interested in it now, I am basically interested in other novels, including bestiality, etc., but I have to say that my favorite is novels such as slutty wife. And as time goes by, I have read more and more novels of this type. I seem to be getting deeper and deeper, and I often fall into the plots in which masturbates and cannot extricate myself.

Of course, after I got married, I have fantasized countless times that Tongtong had sex with other men. It was often very exciting, but it was also very irritating. However, this double stimulation and irritating stimulation made me unable to extricate myself.

I have a perverted mentality after watching Huangwen for many years. I also want to go over for psychological consultation, but I have never had the courage. It is also because of my own face problem. Although the psychologist does not know me.

But after I imagined that Tongtong had sex with others and masturbated and ejaculated, I would fall into deep guilt, and even wanted to slap myself a few times. It felt like it was a blasphemy to Tongtong, but after the lust came up, I fell into it again.

That day, I didn't tell the secret because it was an insult to Tongtong. I couldn't imagine what kind of reaction Tongtong would be like after she knew it

A week later, I finally couldn't stand it anymore because I was used to masturbating and ejaculation all year round, and I felt my lower abdomen was just as open and my crotch was itchy.

I tried Tongtong again that night. The foreplay was very smooth, but the penis did not react much. I tried to imagine the article about the lewd wife in my mind. Finally, I had to think of Tongtong having sex with other men. The penis finally felt like it was erect. However, when it was inserted, my penis was still half-soft or not. Although Tongtong's vagina was moistened by me, her vagina seemed to be deliberately against me. It was too late to be inserted. As soon as it was inserted, it was squeezed out by the compact labia. After repeated attempts to rub it, I finally ejaculated the semen at the opening of her vagina.

Some people may say, then why would you rather masturbate than be intimate with Tongtong?

At least it is much better than masturbation, but what I want to say is that every time I fail with Tongtong, it will add a blow to me, making me feel more guilty towards Tongtong, and at the same time making myself more inferior, so I would rather masturbate secretly

After the attempt with Tongtong failed again, I started masturbating secretly in the days that followed, but most of them were in the public beta of the unit, and I ejaculated the semen in the toilet.

Almost nothing when you're at home

Until half a month later, I was too busy with work and had no time to stay in the company anymore, so I didn't have the opportunity to masturbate. After Tongtong fell asleep at night, I tossed and turned on the bed and couldn't sleep. I kept imagining the plot of Huangwen that I had seen in my mind, and felt that my crotch was getting itchy. Finally, I logged on to the Huangwen website I often went to and started browsing the virtual world.

Those yellow books, I like the most to be close to the realism, and I don’t like the pistol text of AhAh Oh, but I don’t like it.

I couldn't bear it, so I secretly came to the bathroom while Tongtong was sleeping. Then I took my cell phone and masturbated while watching Huang Wen. When I finished venting, I returned to the bed so that I could fall asleep peacefully

Little did she know that Tongtong had discovered all these things. Sometimes she was pretending to be asleep and knew that I was masturbating in the bathroom, but she didn't catch the rape in order to take care of my face.

At the beginning, Tongtong thought it was difficult for me to quit for a while, so she didn't say anything, but I couldn't control it and slowly returned to the original frequency. Tongtong finally couldn't help it because she couldn't stand me harming myself like this.

Until that night, Tongtong didn't fall asleep. After waiting for me to go to bed, her eyes kept looking at me, but she stopped talking. I knew that Tongtong was going to start teaching me again...

Tongtong, what's wrong? Why do you look at me like this? Because I feel guilty, I can't help but feel scared, but I'm still calm inquirer Tongtong

Husband, have you been masturbating again recently? Tongtong looked at me and asked, with no anger in her expression, but only complaining

Yes... There is no lie between Tongtong and I. Being honest is our promise to each other. So seeing Tongtong looks and our relationship, lying is a blasphemy to our relationship, so I nodded obediently and admitted it, and then lowered my head and didn't dare to look at Tongtong

Or is it because of those pornographic articles?

Tongtong asked again, but her tone was still so gentle. We have been married for so long, and she has hardly ever blushed with me. She is always gentle as water.

I nodded again, I dared not answer in words because I didn't know what my tone would be like?

I don't know what will happen to Tongtong. I may scold me, teach me, or have a big fight with me. I am nervous and worried, and I hate myself for why I can't quit

Tomorrow, I will sort out the yellow text you have seen and send it to me... After a long time, Tongtong suddenly said something that surprised me again

I looked up at Tongtong in disbelief and found that Tongtong's expression was not unnatural, but was very firm and there was no negative emotion in her eyes.

The best way to understand your heart is to experience everything you have experienced. What kind of Huang Wen you have seen will hurt you like this. After I read it, I will understand in my heart and feel part of your heart. Then I will know how to solve this problem.

Tongtong said firmly, but there was still a flash of helplessness in her eyes

Tongtong is a very tight person. Even if she is harassed and seduced outside, she doesn't care about it.

I remember when I was full of lust, I once took a QQ account and added Tongtong, and then chatted with Tongtong in the virtual world. However, Tongtong was very cold. When I talked about sensitive topics, Tongtong directly blocked me.

After that, I used other small trumpets to test them in various ways, but without exception, they were blocked by Tongtong, so I never worried that Tongtong would betray me outside.

It is also because of this reason that I dare not let Tongtong know that I have a serious sexual habit.

But... I'm afraid you will be hurt... Let Tongtong see those cuckold articles of lewd wives, wouldn't that let Tongtong know that I have a lewd wives?

This is even more terrifying than masturbation. If Tongtong knew about this, I would have given up on me. How could Tongtong, who has always been traditional and peaceful, accept that she has such a perverted husband?

I felt the crisis again and dared not agree rashly

I am willing to bear the hurt of my husband with you. If I don’t understand your heart, your psychology and experiences, how can I help you? I don’t want my husband to stay so despair because of your body. If you continue like this, it’s really over...

So no matter what, I will help you get out of the predicament. We will talk about everything and have no concealment. I hope to know everything about you, my husband. Everything is already open to you. I hope you are the same... Although Tongtong uses a firm tone, her words still have gentleness and discussion.

Tongtong, please let me think about it... We have experienced too many things during this period, and I am really at a loss... Because the incident happened suddenly, I couldn't make a decision at all, so I could only play Taiji

OK, my wife won't force you to sleep... But before I give me a reply, you can't masturbate anymore. Don't think that you went to the bathroom while I was asleep. I don't know what you did. If I find out again, I will...Crack... Tongtong said at the end, her fingers gestured with a scissors, which made my lower body feel tight

Hehehe... Husband, you are so cute, you are really scared by me... Seeing my expression at that moment, Tongtong covered her mouth and giggled again. Tongtong is always so optimistic. Even if she encounters many troubles, she will face everyone with a smile. On her face, she will always be sunny and positive. If she doesn't want me, she will basically show it on her face whenever she encounters anything.

We were lying on the bed, Tongtong pillowed on my shoulders, holding my arms with both hands, as if we were afraid that I would run out again while she was asleep

After waiting for a long time, Tongtong made a uniform breathing sound beside me. She finally fell asleep, but I no longer had the desire to masturbate.

The request Tongtong made to me today was a bit too surprising, and it really made me difficult

I know Tongtong's heart, she is helping me test the poison with her body and understand my suffering, so that she can enlighten me, encourage me, and change me

only……

If she were really sent to Tongtong, what would she have reacted?

Completely disappointed with me, see through my character, and leave me?

After experiencing the failure of the test tube and Tongtong's unyielding relationship, I cherish her more and fear her loss. I am really scared.

I kept thinking about this for the next two days, and finally I made a decision

I decided to sort out those collections of pornographic wives Huang Wen and sent them to Tongtong, for nothing but for Tongtong's happiness.

Tongtong left me. Although I would be in pain, it would not delay Tongtong's second half of her life happiness. She was still young and shouldn't have suffered and suffered with me.

If Tongtong still doesn't leave me...

Of course, I think this possibility is very low. Everything depends on God's will. It depends on whether God wants us to separate or reunite.

I took advantage of the work interval to sort out all the yellow articles I collected and stored in my USB flash drive. They are all my favorite yellow articles. I have seen some of them several times, imagining the plot, masturbating, and then zipping them into a folder, then opening the email, entering Tongtong's email address, adding the compressed file to the attachment. When I clicked the send button, I stopped and I hesitated again, as if clicking the button was to sign our divorce certificate.

But in the end I gritted my teeth, clicked the send button, and the compressed file was sent.

Tongtong must be working at this time. Email is a very important thing at work. It took less than half a minute to send it. I checked the status of the email and showed that the other party had accepted it. Now it was too late to withdraw it.

The psychology of a lewd wife is my biggest secret. Even if I didn’t mention it to anyone on the virtual network, I now reveal it to my beloved wife.

Have Tongtong started watching now?

Maybe Tongtong is busy and doesn’t have time to watch it yet…

I sat at the desk, my hands were sweating, and my mind was constantly thinking. When I picked up the lighter and lighted my cigarette, I found that my hands were trembling. I lit it several times before I lit the cigarette.

Tongtong, I will stay at my colleague's house for a few days first. We won't meet for the time being in the past few days. I will wait until you finish reading all these articles and think clearly before looking for me. I am willing to accept any consequences... I edited a WeChat message and sent it to Tongtong.

What and what Ah, is it so serious? I don’t even dare to go back home... After a while, Tongtong came back on WeChat, but I don’t know how to talk to Tongtong

After a while, Tongtong called

Husband, you are too brave. I said that day, that's to scare you. I feel sorry for you, so how could you hurt you?

Tongtong said helplessly with a smile on the other side, her tone was very relaxed, it seemed that she didn't have time to read those articles yet

Tongtong, listen to me, just listen to me this time, try to get early, read those articles, if you have something to ask me after reading, I will definitely answer you without reservation, but these days, I will live outside, I will take good care of myself and promise me this time... I did not tease Tongtong, try to make my tone very serious, and my tone was full of seriousness

OK, husband, you must take good care of yourself. If I see you and find that you are losing weight, you will be dead... Tongtong seemed to realize my seriousness, so she agreed, but she still became naughty later.

Tongtong always looks happy when she talks to me. Even if she encounters a great setback, I actually know that Tongtong is trying to infect me and let joy embrace my surroundings. Although I am older than her, she is always taking care of me. The more I do this, the less I want to drag her down...

From this time on, I felt that time passed so slowly, and my life was like a year...