Brother Six, I'm really causing trouble for you. I sat on the sofa in the living room of Lao Liu's house, watching the tropical fishes swimming around in the cylindrical glass fish tank next to the TV.
Hey, it’s okay, your sister-in-law has also returned to her parents’ home these days. I’m bored at home alone, but why did you suddenly drive back again?
Lao Liu bent over in the guest room and shook a quilt and replied with a smile
Well...my mom...she didn't go home for something, so I was too lazy to go to find her. Besides, I have to work overtime tomorrow, so I just thought about going to you for a night. I don't want to think about the scene I saw in the car before, or I don't know what to do
I'll pack up the bed for you. Oh, if we don't work overtime tomorrow, we can have a drink, but now I'm afraid it won't work. I'll go to bed first, so you can go to bed early.
I forced a smile and nodded at Lao Liu.
Lao Liu yawned while stretching his waist and slowly walked back to his room.
I was the only one sitting in the living room, staring blankly at the tank of tropical fish
I heard before that fish only have seven seconds of memory. I don’t know if it is true, but at this moment I really hope that my memory will only have seven seconds.
I took out my cell phone from my trouser pocket, and the green breathing light flashed constantly
I don't know if it was my mother or someone else who sent me a message, but now I don't want to read anyone's message
I left the sofa, turned off the lights in the living room, and walked into the room prepared by Lao Liu in the dark.
Close the door, I threw my phone aside, and I lay down on the mattress
Although I tried not to think about my mother and Gao Zhongxiang's date, when I closed my eyes
What appears before me is always my mother's snickering and Gao Zhongxiu's pride
This made me feel inexplicably depressed and panicked
During the years my father left, I have never hidden anything from my mother. Even during my most rebellious period, I have never deceived my mother.
Because in my impression, my father only gave me life, while my mother gave me soul
Cong Ran was growing up, her constant interference made me feel a little dissatisfied sometimes.
But I also understand that she is eager to become a talent and is afraid that I will take a detour, so she keeps correcting my life
Although many times, her choices are not what I agree with
But in order not to disappoint her, I am willing to sacrifice my will and then satisfy my mother
Because I love my mother, although now I know that my love for my mother has far exceeded the boundaries of family affection
I once thought that my mother was the closest person to me in this world
However, everything I saw today made me suddenly awaken
I suddenly realized that the meaning of the name Liu Hui, in addition to being my mother, is also a mature woman who has been single for many years.
I am no longer a child, I can do my best to do it without restraint in my mother's arms
I am already an adult, and I should also learn to understand my mother from the perspective of an adult.
Although I still can't accept the relationship between my mother and Gao Zhongxiáng, it seems that it doesn't matter whether I can accept it or not.
My mother is at the age of a woman who is the most graceful, and she has lived alone with me as a slap bottle for so many years
It is impossible to say that she doesn't desire a new relationship at all.
Although Gao Zhongxiong's private life is corrupt, his character is misbehaving
But whether it is personal career or body appearance
He can be considered the best among middle-aged men
It seems reasonable that my mother is attracted to him
And I know the reason why I feel indignant and sad about all this, I also know very well
That is my increasingly deformed feelings for my mother and my growing possessiveness.
I don't want to and can't continue like this anymore. My feelings for my mother that transcends family affection should not exist and cannot be tolerated by ethics and morals.
I had hurt my mother once in the fitting room of that women's clothing store that night.
Although my mother has deliberately kept her distance from me now, I can't guarantee that I will do that again
I thought it through clearly. Instead of staying with my mother and maintaining this delicate and complex relationship, it is better for me to leave here and live somewhere else, keep a distance to maintain a normal mother-son relationship
After repeated weighing, I decided to show off with my mother and tell her everything about Gao Zhongxiu. Then I quietly left Yicheng
As for whether she will choose to continue to be with Gao Zhongxiong, that is her business. I can't change it and have no right to interfere.
I was thinking about how to show off with my mother, but I lost consciousness without realizing it...
Zheng Jia, get up, it's time to go to work
A rapid knock on the door, accompanied by Lao Liu's words, woke me up from my sleep. I rubbed my somewhat swollen forehead.
Habitually grabbed my phone and took a look at the time, but found that my mother did not send me a message last night, not even a short WeChat message.
The flashing breathing light is just the full message sent from some irrelevant groups on my WeChat
I can't tell whether it's sad or lost, a sense of unreasonable irritability began to bother me again
I didn't want to endure this bad mood anymore, so I just stuffed my phone into my pants pocket
I opened the door, went to the bathroom to clean up myself, took a few bites of breakfast on the table, and went out with Lao Liu with me
As soon as I arrived at the consultation room, I threw my phone into the drawer and began to concentrate on handling the orders on the desktop.
Although I have tried my best to concentrate, there are still problems
Due to my mistake, a new customer's car changed the wrong parts during repair.
Although Lao Liu quickly discovered my mistake and replaced the correct accessories in time
But the new customer still refused to let me complain to Lu Gaonan.
Lu Gaonan still seems to have not returned to the factory. After receiving a complaint from a customer
He called me and I was ready to accept his scolding
But to my surprise, Lu Gaonan did not scold me, but just said a few words absent-mindedly, asking me to apologize to the client, and then hung up the phone in a hurry
After resolving the customer's complaint, I went to the bathroom to wash my face with cold water.
The cold water flow made me feel much more awake and relaxed
I was about to turn around and return to the consultation room, but Lao Liu called me halfway through, saying that someone was looking for me at the door. I came to the entrance of the factory and found that the visitor was not someone else, but my mother
The familiar gray BYD F3 was parked under a willow tree in the factory parking lot. Since it was a weekend parking lot, there were almost no cars, so it looked particularly conspicuous.
My mother stood next to the car door, put on a pair of sky blue cotton yarn long sleeves and black slim jeans, put her left hand in her pants pocket, and her right hand was holding a silver stainless steel insulation lunch box
I walked to my mother and rehearsed the words in my mind many times last night, but I don't know how to speak at this time.
Bad brat, if your mother doesn't cook, don't you know how to go out to eat Ah? You know how to play with your bad temper. My mother laughed and scolded her, and then poked my shoulder a few times with her index finger.
In the past, I might have had a joke with my mother, but now I have no such thoughts
Mom, what's the matter with me? I gently pushed my mother's hand away from my shoulders and said to my mother with a blank expression
Why? I can't come to see you yet? Do you have to call you in advance next time? My mother took a step forward and reached out to try to pull my ears
I impatiently opened my mother's hand, and then said lightly: If it's okay, I'll go back and I'm still at work. Then I turned around and left
My mother was stunned for a moment when I had no warning attack, but then grabbed my wrist: Hey, you guy, your temper is getting worse and worse. My mother, I came all the way to deliver food to you. Where did you send me evil fire?
I angrily shook my mother's hand, gritted my teeth, and tried to suppress the anger in my heart: Don't bother you anymore. Haven't you always thought I was ignorant and could not grow up? I have decided now that I will never move back and people will always learn to live independently, right?
Hearing my words, my mother was a little confused, her beautiful eyebrows were tangled together, and she pursed her lips, as if she was suppressing her temper: Zheng Jia, what's going on? I am your mother, not your punching bag, don't be sarcastic to me here
At this moment, I could no longer control the anger in my heart, and I turned around to face my mother
Grasp her hand and drag her to the passenger's door
I opened the car door, sat in the passenger seat, opened the storage compartment in front of me, and slapped the silver-white Zipp lighter on the instrument panel
Seeing the lighter on the dashboard, my mother's face suddenly became a little bleak, but she still tried to calmly point at the lighter and asked: Where did you get this? What's so strange about a colleague in the lighter bureau?
I turned my head and looked at my mother, but the disappointment and sadness in my heart began to spread.
Now, my mother is still trying to lie to me
I played with the exquisitely made craft in my hand, and then put it back on the dashboard.
I turned my head and looked at the mother with my eyes
This familiar face, this gentle face
At this moment, the more I looked at it, the more I felt strange.
Mom, since you don't want to say it, I don't think we need to say anything else. I'll leave. I'll get up and get out of the car, turn around and get ready to leave.
Wait, Jiajia, my mother didn't mean to hide it from you, you heard that I... My mother put the insulated lunch box on the roof of the car, and her tone seemed quite frightened
Didn't you hide it from me on purpose? Mom, can you stop treating me as a three-year-old child? Who would give a lighter to a woman who never smokes? And you are wearing heavy makeup and spending the night with other men. Is it your overtime work? The work at the police station is really not simple. I turned around and glared at my mother, gritted my teeth, and tried to prevent myself from yelling out these words
Sorry, Jia Jia's mother didn't lie to your mother on purpose but was just afraid of you...
Mom, you don't need to apologize to me. I understand that I am now an adult. I don't think there is any need to hide some things. Over the years, it's really not easy for you to be a father and a mother. Now I'm growing up, you want to pursue your happiness, and I have nothing to say about which man you go to bed with. Actually, I can't control me at all... But, alas, forget it. As I was talking, I suddenly found that my voice was a little choked
What did you just say? Zheng Jia, what did you just say to me?!
My mother suddenly rushed to me and grabbed my collar hard
My mother's strength made me feel a little at a loss, but then I felt a burning pain coming from my left face, and a fishy smell began to spread out from my mouth.
Zheng Jia, I am so disappointed with you. It turns out that in your eyes, you just treat your mother like that. Haha, I have been so futile for so many years. I knew you were like this. I should have thrown you to you, that gambler Zheng Zhiguo! My mother was already angry at this time, staring at me with her eyes tightly, and her fingers holding my collar turned white
I wiped the blood from the corner of my mouth, but I didn't know what to say for a moment
My mother raised her right hand high again, and I subconsciously covered my face with both hands.
But my mother paused, grabbed my collar with both hands, and pushed me away with all my might. I lost my balance and staggered back a few steps, but eventually fell to the ground hard
The mother was standing there, looking at me condescendingly. The anger on her face had disappeared, and indifference appeared in the past that I had never seen before: Zheng Jia, tell me clearly that I am your mother, your elder, which man I went out with, what did I do, whether to go to bed or something, is my private matter. Even if you are my son, it has nothing to do with you! Live independently? Yes, since you want this, we will live in the future as an adult, both of them have nothing to do with each other, and they will not violate each other!
My mother's voice was a little rapid, and her body was trembling slightly when she spoke. She knocked over the insulation lunch box on the roof of the car to the ground
Then I opened the driver's seat door without saying a word. I hurriedly got up and ran to the door, trying to open the door.
But I found that my mother had locked the car door and raised the windshield
I slapped the car window glass and tried to talk to my mother
But my mother ignored me outside the car, and suddenly slapped me, leaving without looking back
I stood there. Although the wound at the corner of my mouth no longer bleeds, it still hurts faintly
I bent down and picked up the insulated lunch box on the ground. Although my mother threw it hard on the ground, the lid was loosened a little, and the food inside was not spilled out.
I twisted open the lid of the lunch box and a familiar smell of the dish came to my face. Braised lion's head and sweet and sour tenderloin are all my favorite dishes.
I sat on a marble bench under the willow tree, re-covered the lunch box and placed it beside me
How did my mother and I become like this?
I sat on the marble bench
I just wanted to make things clear, but I never expected it to be the current situation
Which man I went out with, what did I do, whether I went to bed or not, has nothing to do with you!
My mother's words were like a sharp pushpin stuffed into my heart, stinging me all the time
Various scenes between my mother and Gao Zhongxiu began to appear in my mind.
Even though I have repeatedly told myself that these are just my fantasies and not real
But I still feel a feeling of depression and pain that I have nowhere to vent, and that desperate sense of powerlessness
Since my mother left resolutely that day, it has been almost a week since I and my mother have not had any contact.
During this period, I tried to call my mother. At first, no one answered, but later it turned out to be directly hung up
The WeChat message sent to my mother was even more sank to the sea
Damn, walking dead, this is my evaluation of myself during this period
During this week, I don't know how many times I've been complained about
But from the phone call Lu Gaonan called me yesterday, this should be the ultimatum he gave me.
I don’t really remember what he said to me on the phone, I only remember that I kept apologizing and the last sentence he almost roared: If you don’t want to do it, get out!
His words touched me, my mother and I have developed to this point
I think I should indeed leave Yicheng and leave my mother for a while. Maybe this will be good for us and each other.
But where are you going?
Although it has not been finalized yet, I already have an answer in my mind
These days, I don't have the key to my dormitory
So I have always lived in Lao Liu's house. Although Lao Liu didn't say anything, Liu's sister-in-law, who came back from her parents' house a few days ago, had clearly shown impatience with me on her face.
But it doesn't matter. Tonight should be my last night in my hometown, or my last night in this factory.
That night, I closed the door of the room early
But I don't have the heart to sleep, or I've been insomnia for several days
He doesn’t have a place to live, so why does he stay at our house and not leave?
You say less Ah, you will always be a guest when you pass by. Besides, Zheng Jia has a good relationship with me, don’t say such things in front of others!
He has been living here for almost a week... Okay, okay, stop talking, you must be happy if you have to get angry with me, right?
Although the sixth couple in the living room outside the door had already restrained their volume, I still heard the conversation between them.
The next morning, while Lao Liu was off work today, the couple had not gotten up yet, I packed up my things early and left Lao Liu's house.
Before leaving, I left two thousand yuan in the desk drawer in the guest room. This is my compensation for Lao Liu.
When I arrived at the factory, it was just seven o'clock in the morning. I glanced at the manager's office on the second floor.
Sister Yang is not here these days, basically Lu Gaonan is in the office
According to his habit, he should not appear in the office at around 8 o'clock.
However, at this moment I found that the lights in the manager's office were on and the door was half open.
Just as I like, I took the resignation statement written at Lao Liu's house last night, went straight to the second floor, and gently pushed open the office door.
However, to my surprise, the person in the office was not Lu Gaonan, but Sister Yang
Just like when we first met, Sister Yang was still wearing that decent uniform, with the pair of silver-rimmed glasses, looking at the documents on the desktop with her head down.
The difference is that Sister Yang's hair has been cut shorter and her face is a little weak. I stood at the door and knocked on the door gently. Sister Yang looked up at me and said with a smile: How early is this day?
I reluctantly smiled and said: Where, Sister Yang, you were early, when did you get discharged from the hospital?
I came back last night, and the doctor said there should be no problem. Sister Yang pushed the glasses on her nose and temporarily put down the pen on her hand.
Well, that's fine, I whispered
You came early in the morning, just to ask me this, right? Sister Yang looked at the white envelope on my hand and asked in a low voice.
I didn't answer, but just walked to Sister Yang's desk and gently handed my resignation to Sister Yang.
Sister Yang looked down at the resignation statement on the desktop, then raised her head and asked me: So suddenly, where are you going?
For some reason, I didn't dare to look directly at Sister Yang's glasses, but just stared elsewhere and replied casually: Well, I have other plans.
Regarding my perfunctory behavior, Sister Yang smiled and didn't say anything. She opened the envelope and glanced at it: Does Sister Liu Hui know?
It seems that this has nothing to do with her, right? I want to leave quietly, how could my mother know
Sister Yang did not answer my question, but just put the resignation letter in the drawer
Can you tell me why you want to leave? Sister Yang played with the black signature pen in her hand and looked at me with a smile.
Actually, there is no other reason, just want to leave. My answer is very far-fetched, but I can't think of any other answer at once.
Sister Yang didn't say anything, just stared at me intently
I was about to continue to explain, but Sister Yang suddenly spoke: OK, since you want to leave, I have no reason to stop you. You can go to the personnel affairs side to complete the procedures
I was stunned for a moment, but then came to my senses and nodded at Sister Yang, then turned around and prepared to leave. Please help me close the door. When I walked to the door, Sister Yang suddenly spoke.
I walked out of the office, held the door handle and slowly closed the door.
During this period, I unconsciously glanced at Sister Yang
But I found that Sister Yang was also looking at me, and her eyes seemed to be mixed with many intriguing things
I felt a little hesitant, but I still closed the office door
I didn't tell anyone about what I was leaving after finishing my morning work, and I went to the Personnel Office.
Only then did I realize that the spare keys in the dormitory have always been managed by the Human Resources Department.
Perhaps it was because when I joined the company, Sister Yang took me to go through the entry procedures, so I mistakenly thought that the spare key was also in Sister Yang's office.
I finished the relevant resignation procedures and went to the Finance Office again, and finally finished the procedures
The rest is to move out of the staff dormitory
In the afternoon, I sorted out the documents and customer information during this period in the consultation room, and handed over the work at hand to another colleague.
I know that a sudden resignation like me is not in line with the contract agreement.
But Sister Yang still let me go
Maybe she also felt the embarrassment of our relationship with each other, so she had a favor.
But no matter what, it's fine. I'm already very grateful to her for letting me leave directly.
At six o'clock in the evening, I finally sorted out the things on my hands. After handing over, I closed the glass door of the consultation room and looked up at the second floor.
The lights in the manager's office are still on, and I want to say goodbye to Sister Yang, but it's a bit strange to think about not saying it in the morning and now I'm going to say goodbye again.
I put the keys of the consultation room in the drawer at the reception desk at the door and quietly left the factory.
Back in the dormitory, I called my mother twice, but the response I received was still a busy voice.
I opened WeChat and hesitated whether to tell my mother the news that I planned to leave Yicheng.
But after entering a long list of texts, I deleted them all
Since my mother doesn't want to pay attention to me now, I'd better not disturb her.
I put down my phone, dragged out my suitcase under the bed, and started packing my stuff
Fortunately, I didn't move to this dormitory for a long time. Apart from my clothes, most of the rest were trivial daily necessities.
After I packed my luggage, I sat on the small sofa in the living room and drank a glass of water.
I called her: Hello, Sister Yaoyao, it's me Zheng Jia, do you have time now? I want to ask you something, which is the recruitment matters of the newspaper you posted in your circle of friends and you want to ask you to help me do something...
I called Xu Xingyao because the place I wanted to go was actually a newspaper posted on Xu Xingyao's circle of friends
The editor-in-chief of that newspaper seemed to be Xu Xingyao's college classmate, named Luo Yongnian, which is a relatively traditional local tabloid. If it were a few years ago, although it would not have developed particularly well, it would definitely not be short of personnel.
But now due to the emergence of smartphones and the rapid development of online self-media, traditional paper media has long been in decline. Their newspapers have also discovered that it is not feasible to publish newspapers alone, so they decided to start self-media. Unfortunately, the other editors in the newspaper, except Lao Luo, are all older comrades, and are not familiar with self-media operations.
So someone with experience in self-media operation needs to join. Although Lao Luo is not too old, he has to be responsible for other things. He is really unable to post recruitment advertisements because he has to post a recruitment advertisement.
According to the contact information given to me by Xu Xingyao, I quickly contacted Luo Yongnian.
When I was in college, I submitted a lot of articles to various newspapers and magazines, and also participated in the operation of the school's self-media. Although it is not a completely commercial operation, I still have some experience.
So I think the job of the newspaper will not be too difficult for me
With a try, I sent my college resume to Lao Luo.
I thought Lao Luo would need time to think about it, but I didn't expect that he just asked me some questions and asked me to go to Xinchuan City for an interview tomorrow
Xinchuan City is actually not far from Yicheng, so it takes about two hours to take the high-speed rail.
After hanging up Lao Luo's phone, I bought a high-speed rail ticket to Xinchuan.
Considering that there may be other trivial things tomorrow, I bought the ticket for the day after tomorrow at noon
After finishing these things unknowingly, it was almost nine o'clock in the evening
I opened the window in the living room, and the cool wind blew on my face, making my heart less irritable
I took out the unfinished Marlboro from under the coffee table, pulled out one and held it in my mouth
But after thinking about it, I put it down again, throwing them all into the trash can
I turned off all the lights in the room and lay down on the bed
I looked at the blank ceiling in front of me, and what happened during this period began to appear in front of me.
When did I start to have that strange relationship with my mother?
I thought for a long time, but I couldn't find the answer at all
I suddenly remembered the dream I had when I caught a cold a while ago
In that dream, the woman who was holding me was clearly dressed by my mother, but her face was always bright and dark, and it was blurry.
It's like Sister Yang, and it's like Mother.
At that time, I didn't understand why I dreamed of such a woman, but now I seem to understand a little
My obsession with Sister Yang, my obsession with mature women
In essence, it's all my attachment to my mother
Over the years, I have become accustomed to my mother's gentleness and consideration, and used to stay by my mother's side
I always thought that the relationship I had for my mother, which surpassed my mother and son, was caused by the potential dark sexual desire in my heart.
But now I understand that my feelings for my mother are not simply caused by some desire, but are the product of various complex emotional interweaving and collisions, including mother-son family affection, my attachment to my mother, and of course my possessiveness to my mother.
I don't know what exactly the reason for this, but it's just
Before I knew it, I did have an indescribable feeling for my mother
But I know that my feelings for my mother are not allowed by morality and ethics, and are a taboo emotion
But I can't control it, I can't accept that my mother becomes another man's partner, and I can't suppress my growing possessiveness for my mother
So I chose to leave my mother. I think this is the best choice for me or my mother...
I don't know when I fell asleep last night
After getting up, I glanced at my phone and it was almost 12 noon. I didn't expect that I would have slept for so long.
I went to the bathroom to wash up quickly.
No need to go to work in the factory anymore, but I didn't know what to do
Light up the phone screen, my mother still did not respond to my phone call yesterday, and she remained silent on WeChat
On the contrary, Lao Liu sent me a voice message: Xiao Jia, what's going on? I heard you resigned?
I don't know how to explain to Lao Liu, so I can only do it perfunctorily: Well, I did the procedures yesterday, and I have other plans, so I don't want to stay here anymore
I thought my sixth was at work and shouldn't have time to check my phone
But unexpectedly, Lao Liu quickly replied to my message: Alas, young people should go out more often. I have to work day shifts these days. I guess I don’t have time to send you this way. You come home tonight, I will get some side dishes and let’s have a drink. It can be regarded as seeing you off.
During my time in the auto repair shop, Lao Liu helped me a lot, both at work and in life, but I did not give him any rewards
I really couldn't find a reason to refuse, so I could only agree at once
Put down my phone, I don't know what to do
Want to go home?
I feel a little swaying
Although I have ID cards and other documents with me
But I always feel that it is inappropriate not to go back.
However, my door key is still kept at home
If I want to go back, I will definitely go to find my mother
Forget it, I still won't go back
Thinking of the way my mother stared at me that day, I decided not to go back and leave just tomorrow
It was still a while before Lao Liu got off work. I looked around the house. Although my life was not sloppy, it was far from neat.
Since I'm leaving tomorrow, I decided to take this time to clean up the house
I swept the garbage in the living room, went to the balcony to close the open window, and unplugged the power cord of the balcony.
I mopped the floor in the house again and wiped the window glass casually
When I finish these miscellaneous housework, it's almost four o'clock in the afternoon
I thought about it and although Lao Liu invited me to dinner, I couldn't go to his house empty-handed
I looked at it and found that I had plenty of time, so I went to a nearby supermarket and bought two bottles of wine.
Actually, I don’t know much about wine, so I just bought two bottles of Luzhou Laojiao according to the recommendation of the supermarket owner.
However, what I didn't expect was that it was these two bottles of Luzhou Laojiao that made the situation between me and my mother quickly deteriorate in a completely uncontrollable direction.
Come on, let's have a drink tonight. Lao Liu raised the glass of wine in his hand and reached out to me.
I sat at the dining table at Lao Liu's house, picked up the wine glass and touched Lao Liu for a while, and then drank the wine in the glass in one go.
A strong aroma of white wine is unique to sweetness and slips across the tip of the tongue
Although the taste of Luzhou Laojiao is already smooth, I am still choked by the aroma of the wine, who is unable to drink it.
Lao Liu couldn't help laughing when he saw my embarrassment. His dark skin made his teeth look extremely bright and white.
Oh, no one is like you who drinks white wine and is bored. This is not beer, and you are not here to buy drunk and drink it slowly and you won’t be choked.
I smiled awkwardly, and quickly ate a few bites of the wine and food on the table, and sucked the wine in my mouth.
When will I leave? Lao Liu took a small sip of the white wine in his glass
Tomorrow, I originally said I left today, but I didn’t pack up my things yesterday, so I left today too hastily
I also imitated Lao Liu and took a sip of the wine in my glass. It turned out that I didn't do the same as before.
What are you planning to do? Go and find another factory? Lao Liu asked casually with his wine glass.
I definitely won't look for the factory anymore. Now I have found a newspaper job through a friend and went to see it tomorrow. I slowly drank the wine in the cup.
After listening to my answer, Lao Liu did not speak but slid his face and pondered for a moment. He drank the wine in the glass and stared at me.
What's wrong with Brother Six? Just say it directly. I don't like being looked at directly, because it always reminds me of the way my mother looked at me when I tried to lie in front of my mother after I did something wrong when I was a child.
Lao Liu finally couldn't hold back and sighed: I said, "You're not sure how big a mess you have been stabbed."
Lao Liu's words made me very confused: Brother Liu, what are you talking about? What are you talking about?
Lao Liu did not answer me immediately, but turned on his phone to show me a video
This is obviously a video of Lu Gaonan's BMW's dashcam. The location is the underground parking lot of the insurance company where Sister Yang and I went that day.
But the car has not started, just dazed in the empty underground parking lot
I didn't know what Lao Liu was about to show me this video. I looked up at Lao Liu with confusion on my face.
Lao Liu didn't say anything, reached out and pressed the volume button on the side of the phone.
Then a deep moan between men and women came from the phone and the sound of intertwined body collisions.
I suddenly collapsed on the solid wood backrest chair, and I felt a faint cold sweat from behind. The 52-degree Luzhou Laojiao that I drank before seemed to have been broken down by me, and it did not make me feel a little burning.
Brother Six, this... how did you know this? My voice trembled a little
Lao Liu looked at it and said helplessly: From then on, Yang Jie suddenly didn't need you to help her drive. When she started asking me to help her drive, I found that something was wrong with you. But you are my brother and she is my boss, so I pretended not to know anything. But a few days ago, I drove Lu Gaonan to a social event. There was something unexpected on the way. I had a bit of a collision with another car. People called the traffic police. The traffic police asked me to call the video in the driving recorder to collect evidence. Later, I discovered this video.
After listening to Lao Liu's words, I didn't know how to answer
Just tremblingly picked up the wine glass and stuffed it. The spicy wine that slid across the tip of my tongue made me calmer.
Lao Liu looked at me and said with a smile: What? The sperm was on the brain at that time, and I was frightened now?
I supported my hands on the dining table and didn't know what to do, but I just made a pointless defense: I didn't control myself at that time, but I thought no one would find it...
Lao Liu looked at her expressionlessly and said: Actually, after I found out that I had deleted the original in the driving recorder, and wanted to pretend that I didn't see it. But later, after Yang Jie came back from the hospital, I saw her like that, and I realized that you were so crazy that you didn't want to leave now. Lao Liu said that, he reached out and stopped the video being played.
Brother Six, it's time, don't keep it in your mouth. I have some ominous premonition.
OK, then I will just say that you are in the boss's car. The boss is very likely to know the woman who is engaged in the boss now. How big do you think is this basket?
Lao Liu's words were like a bolt from the blue, instantly slashing my alcoholic spirit clean
You mean, he knows everything about Lu Gaonan? Lu Gaonan is his father's comrade-in-arms. His mother's old acquaintance is also half of my uncle and elder. I firmly put a cuckold on him. I thought that what happened in the car that day was already a thing of the past. No one would know, but never expected that the sound was completely recorded by the driving recorder that was automatically turned on in the car.
I dare not make a promise, but look at Yang Jie's appearance, she said that she was hospitalized because she accidentally fell down on the second floor of the factory. But the second floor staircase in our factory is wide and low, and there is also a layer of anti-slip blanket to fall. It is not that easy to fall. Do you find that her hair has been cut short, especially the front corner. It was obviously a nurse shaved me. She didn't seem to have fallen and was hospitalized, but she seemed to have been sent to the hospital by someone.
The person who was sent to the hospital, Lao Liu's words suddenly woke me up. When I was in the hospital, I planned to support Sister Yang, and when I asked her to sign and leave, she was flickering eyes.
It turns out that Sister Yang was hospitalized not because of an accident, but was beaten to the hospital by Lu Gaonan.
Thinking of this, the original panic in my heart instantly turned into anger
Fuck, is Lu Gaonan still a man? What does he mean by bullying Sister Yang? I couldn't help but clench his fists and hammer the solid wood dining table hard.
Zheng Jia, do you really think Lu Gaonan is a coward? He thought he didn't want to find someone to mess with you, so he willingly wore this cuckold? He was not afraid of you, a naughty man, but his mother, because your mother is a policeman, and your third uncle is also a little bit big in the police system of Yicheng. How big a fuss did you make? Isn't it clear yet?
Lao Liu was a little excited, and the volume also increased.
Lao Liu's scolding made me feel a little more awake. Indeed, no matter whether it is reasonable, I will be the one who is in the wrong.
Although he can't find someone to mess with you directly, it's even more troublesome if he wants to play with you and stumbling on you, so you should leave as soon as possible. Lao Liu drank all the wine in his glass, grabbed the bottle and poured it into himself.
Lao Liu is indeed right. Although Lu Gaonan dares not attack me directly, it is easy to avoid hidden arrows and can't be prevented. If he uses any secret tricks for me behind his back, I will have no way to do so.
Okay, we won't talk about your business anyway, you're leaving tomorrow. Yang Jie probably will be transferred by Lu Gaonan in the next few days. Lu Gaonan can't do anything about you. This is the best result. Come on, do it, stop thinking about these things.
Will Sister Yang be transferred? How do you know?
In the past two days, Lu Gaonan transferred a man from another branch factory. Yang Jie has been telling him about the factory affairs. It is obvious that this man is here to replace Yang Jie. As for where Lu Gaonan will transfer Yang Jie, I don’t know. So far, I will treat you as a friend, so don’t blame me for being ugly. You’d better not be involved with that woman. If you continue to get entangled with her, no one knows what Lu Gaonan will do.
Although Lao Liu was already drunk, his thinking was still clear
I didn't answer Lao Liu's words
Just nodded silently, I know Lao Liu is right
In this situation, if I continue to have anything to do with Sister Yang, for Sister Yang, it will only bring her more trouble.
When I thought that Sister Yang was hospitalized, it was probably caused by Lu Gaonan, I couldn't help but feel furious.
But what frustrated me was that I could do nothing about all this and there was no way to change anything
I suddenly felt a deep sense of powerlessness. Whether it was the vague relationship between my mother and Gao Zhongxiu before, or the intentional harm Lu Gaonan had given to Sister Yang, I couldn't change it.
I can only watch everything happen
I remembered a sentence Wang Xiaobo once said: All the pain of a person is essentially anger towards his own incompetence. Now I have experienced what incompetence is and what anger is.
Lao Liu didn't say anything anymore, but just picked up the empty wine glass in front of me and poured it slowly. Then he filled his wine glass and raised it to look at me.
I understand what Lao Liu means, and I didn't say much
Pick up the cup and touched him, then silenced
This has been repeated for many rounds. When I tried to pour wine again, I realized that the two bottles of Luzhou Laojiao I brought were empty at some point.
The two dozen cans of beer that Lao Liu took out of the refrigerator before has already become empty cans all over the floor
I raised my head and wanted Lao Liu to continue to pick up the wine, but found that Lao Liu was already lying on the dining table, muttering something constantly in my mouth
I leaned over and then barely heard Lao Liu's murmur: Damn... a stinky bitch, if it weren't for Yingying, I would have fucked you... a divorced... a stinky bitch... a stinky bitch... a stinky bitch... a stinky pussy guy. Lao Liu lay on the table and started sobbing.
Yingying is the daughter of Lao Liu and is still in kindergarten
Although I can see that the relationship between Lao Liu and Liu's wife is not very good
But I didn't expect the truth behind it to be like this
I sighed and put the half-listen beer in my hand on the table
He gently patted Lao Liu on the shoulder. Lao Liu was completely drunk and had no reaction at all.
I grabbed his hand, put it on my shoulder, and helped him to the sofa in the living room
I wanted to help him onto the bed in his room, but after I stood up, I realized that my limbs were as heavy as lead.
After throwing Lao Liu on the sofa, I sat on the small sofa next to me, feeling dizzy and hot.
No, I can't continue to stay at Lao Liu's house
I opened the door of Lao Liu's house by chance, but found out why the stairs in the corridor became crooked. After a few steps, I suddenly felt a sour smell from my throat, and I directly held the wall and vomited.
The wind blowing in from the windows in the corridor made me feel extremely uncomfortable
I grabbed the handrail of the stairs and walked to the first floor with a sway.
I realized that it was already hazy outside. I took out my cell phone and wanted to see the time, but I couldn't see the numbers on the screen clearly.
Every few steps I take, I feel the swelling from time to time coming from the forehead, and my throat feels very dry.
I wanted to speed up, but found that my feet were getting heavier and heavier
I walked around and stopped, I don’t know how long it took me to go back to my dormitory building
I held the wall of the corridor and walked slowly to the door of my dormitory
I just took out the key from my trouser pocket, but the wait in the corridor suddenly went out, and the whole corridor turned black
I took out my phone to illuminate the keyhole on the security door, but found that no matter how I pressed the phone, I didn't respond.
I felt inexplicably irritated, and I stuffed my phone back into my pocket
Holding the door handle of the security door, holding the key, but finding that it could not be poked into the keyhole at all
The irritability in my heart became stronger and I was so angry that I slapped the thick security door hard.
After a few shots, I felt a sense of force removal, holding the door frame and gasping for breath
However, what I didn't expect was
The security door in front of me was suddenly opened from the house...
Hey, it’s okay, your sister-in-law has also returned to her parents’ home these days. I’m bored at home alone, but why did you suddenly drive back again?
Lao Liu bent over in the guest room and shook a quilt and replied with a smile
Well...my mom...she didn't go home for something, so I was too lazy to go to find her. Besides, I have to work overtime tomorrow, so I just thought about going to you for a night. I don't want to think about the scene I saw in the car before, or I don't know what to do
I'll pack up the bed for you. Oh, if we don't work overtime tomorrow, we can have a drink, but now I'm afraid it won't work. I'll go to bed first, so you can go to bed early.
I forced a smile and nodded at Lao Liu.
Lao Liu yawned while stretching his waist and slowly walked back to his room.
I was the only one sitting in the living room, staring blankly at the tank of tropical fish
I heard before that fish only have seven seconds of memory. I don’t know if it is true, but at this moment I really hope that my memory will only have seven seconds.
I took out my cell phone from my trouser pocket, and the green breathing light flashed constantly
I don't know if it was my mother or someone else who sent me a message, but now I don't want to read anyone's message
I left the sofa, turned off the lights in the living room, and walked into the room prepared by Lao Liu in the dark.
Close the door, I threw my phone aside, and I lay down on the mattress
Although I tried not to think about my mother and Gao Zhongxiang's date, when I closed my eyes
What appears before me is always my mother's snickering and Gao Zhongxiu's pride
This made me feel inexplicably depressed and panicked
During the years my father left, I have never hidden anything from my mother. Even during my most rebellious period, I have never deceived my mother.
Because in my impression, my father only gave me life, while my mother gave me soul
Cong Ran was growing up, her constant interference made me feel a little dissatisfied sometimes.
But I also understand that she is eager to become a talent and is afraid that I will take a detour, so she keeps correcting my life
Although many times, her choices are not what I agree with
But in order not to disappoint her, I am willing to sacrifice my will and then satisfy my mother
Because I love my mother, although now I know that my love for my mother has far exceeded the boundaries of family affection
I once thought that my mother was the closest person to me in this world
However, everything I saw today made me suddenly awaken
I suddenly realized that the meaning of the name Liu Hui, in addition to being my mother, is also a mature woman who has been single for many years.
I am no longer a child, I can do my best to do it without restraint in my mother's arms
I am already an adult, and I should also learn to understand my mother from the perspective of an adult.
Although I still can't accept the relationship between my mother and Gao Zhongxiáng, it seems that it doesn't matter whether I can accept it or not.
My mother is at the age of a woman who is the most graceful, and she has lived alone with me as a slap bottle for so many years
It is impossible to say that she doesn't desire a new relationship at all.
Although Gao Zhongxiong's private life is corrupt, his character is misbehaving
But whether it is personal career or body appearance
He can be considered the best among middle-aged men
It seems reasonable that my mother is attracted to him
And I know the reason why I feel indignant and sad about all this, I also know very well
That is my increasingly deformed feelings for my mother and my growing possessiveness.
I don't want to and can't continue like this anymore. My feelings for my mother that transcends family affection should not exist and cannot be tolerated by ethics and morals.
I had hurt my mother once in the fitting room of that women's clothing store that night.
Although my mother has deliberately kept her distance from me now, I can't guarantee that I will do that again
I thought it through clearly. Instead of staying with my mother and maintaining this delicate and complex relationship, it is better for me to leave here and live somewhere else, keep a distance to maintain a normal mother-son relationship
After repeated weighing, I decided to show off with my mother and tell her everything about Gao Zhongxiu. Then I quietly left Yicheng
As for whether she will choose to continue to be with Gao Zhongxiong, that is her business. I can't change it and have no right to interfere.
I was thinking about how to show off with my mother, but I lost consciousness without realizing it...
Zheng Jia, get up, it's time to go to work
A rapid knock on the door, accompanied by Lao Liu's words, woke me up from my sleep. I rubbed my somewhat swollen forehead.
Habitually grabbed my phone and took a look at the time, but found that my mother did not send me a message last night, not even a short WeChat message.
The flashing breathing light is just the full message sent from some irrelevant groups on my WeChat
I can't tell whether it's sad or lost, a sense of unreasonable irritability began to bother me again
I didn't want to endure this bad mood anymore, so I just stuffed my phone into my pants pocket
I opened the door, went to the bathroom to clean up myself, took a few bites of breakfast on the table, and went out with Lao Liu with me
As soon as I arrived at the consultation room, I threw my phone into the drawer and began to concentrate on handling the orders on the desktop.
Although I have tried my best to concentrate, there are still problems
Due to my mistake, a new customer's car changed the wrong parts during repair.
Although Lao Liu quickly discovered my mistake and replaced the correct accessories in time
But the new customer still refused to let me complain to Lu Gaonan.
Lu Gaonan still seems to have not returned to the factory. After receiving a complaint from a customer
He called me and I was ready to accept his scolding
But to my surprise, Lu Gaonan did not scold me, but just said a few words absent-mindedly, asking me to apologize to the client, and then hung up the phone in a hurry
After resolving the customer's complaint, I went to the bathroom to wash my face with cold water.
The cold water flow made me feel much more awake and relaxed
I was about to turn around and return to the consultation room, but Lao Liu called me halfway through, saying that someone was looking for me at the door. I came to the entrance of the factory and found that the visitor was not someone else, but my mother
The familiar gray BYD F3 was parked under a willow tree in the factory parking lot. Since it was a weekend parking lot, there were almost no cars, so it looked particularly conspicuous.
My mother stood next to the car door, put on a pair of sky blue cotton yarn long sleeves and black slim jeans, put her left hand in her pants pocket, and her right hand was holding a silver stainless steel insulation lunch box
I walked to my mother and rehearsed the words in my mind many times last night, but I don't know how to speak at this time.
Bad brat, if your mother doesn't cook, don't you know how to go out to eat Ah? You know how to play with your bad temper. My mother laughed and scolded her, and then poked my shoulder a few times with her index finger.
In the past, I might have had a joke with my mother, but now I have no such thoughts
Mom, what's the matter with me? I gently pushed my mother's hand away from my shoulders and said to my mother with a blank expression
Why? I can't come to see you yet? Do you have to call you in advance next time? My mother took a step forward and reached out to try to pull my ears
I impatiently opened my mother's hand, and then said lightly: If it's okay, I'll go back and I'm still at work. Then I turned around and left
My mother was stunned for a moment when I had no warning attack, but then grabbed my wrist: Hey, you guy, your temper is getting worse and worse. My mother, I came all the way to deliver food to you. Where did you send me evil fire?
I angrily shook my mother's hand, gritted my teeth, and tried to suppress the anger in my heart: Don't bother you anymore. Haven't you always thought I was ignorant and could not grow up? I have decided now that I will never move back and people will always learn to live independently, right?
Hearing my words, my mother was a little confused, her beautiful eyebrows were tangled together, and she pursed her lips, as if she was suppressing her temper: Zheng Jia, what's going on? I am your mother, not your punching bag, don't be sarcastic to me here
At this moment, I could no longer control the anger in my heart, and I turned around to face my mother
Grasp her hand and drag her to the passenger's door
I opened the car door, sat in the passenger seat, opened the storage compartment in front of me, and slapped the silver-white Zipp lighter on the instrument panel
Seeing the lighter on the dashboard, my mother's face suddenly became a little bleak, but she still tried to calmly point at the lighter and asked: Where did you get this? What's so strange about a colleague in the lighter bureau?
I turned my head and looked at my mother, but the disappointment and sadness in my heart began to spread.
Now, my mother is still trying to lie to me
I played with the exquisitely made craft in my hand, and then put it back on the dashboard.
I turned my head and looked at the mother with my eyes
This familiar face, this gentle face
At this moment, the more I looked at it, the more I felt strange.
Mom, since you don't want to say it, I don't think we need to say anything else. I'll leave. I'll get up and get out of the car, turn around and get ready to leave.
Wait, Jiajia, my mother didn't mean to hide it from you, you heard that I... My mother put the insulated lunch box on the roof of the car, and her tone seemed quite frightened
Didn't you hide it from me on purpose? Mom, can you stop treating me as a three-year-old child? Who would give a lighter to a woman who never smokes? And you are wearing heavy makeup and spending the night with other men. Is it your overtime work? The work at the police station is really not simple. I turned around and glared at my mother, gritted my teeth, and tried to prevent myself from yelling out these words
Sorry, Jia Jia's mother didn't lie to your mother on purpose but was just afraid of you...
Mom, you don't need to apologize to me. I understand that I am now an adult. I don't think there is any need to hide some things. Over the years, it's really not easy for you to be a father and a mother. Now I'm growing up, you want to pursue your happiness, and I have nothing to say about which man you go to bed with. Actually, I can't control me at all... But, alas, forget it. As I was talking, I suddenly found that my voice was a little choked
What did you just say? Zheng Jia, what did you just say to me?!
My mother suddenly rushed to me and grabbed my collar hard
My mother's strength made me feel a little at a loss, but then I felt a burning pain coming from my left face, and a fishy smell began to spread out from my mouth.
Zheng Jia, I am so disappointed with you. It turns out that in your eyes, you just treat your mother like that. Haha, I have been so futile for so many years. I knew you were like this. I should have thrown you to you, that gambler Zheng Zhiguo! My mother was already angry at this time, staring at me with her eyes tightly, and her fingers holding my collar turned white
I wiped the blood from the corner of my mouth, but I didn't know what to say for a moment
My mother raised her right hand high again, and I subconsciously covered my face with both hands.
But my mother paused, grabbed my collar with both hands, and pushed me away with all my might. I lost my balance and staggered back a few steps, but eventually fell to the ground hard
The mother was standing there, looking at me condescendingly. The anger on her face had disappeared, and indifference appeared in the past that I had never seen before: Zheng Jia, tell me clearly that I am your mother, your elder, which man I went out with, what did I do, whether to go to bed or something, is my private matter. Even if you are my son, it has nothing to do with you! Live independently? Yes, since you want this, we will live in the future as an adult, both of them have nothing to do with each other, and they will not violate each other!
My mother's voice was a little rapid, and her body was trembling slightly when she spoke. She knocked over the insulation lunch box on the roof of the car to the ground
Then I opened the driver's seat door without saying a word. I hurriedly got up and ran to the door, trying to open the door.
But I found that my mother had locked the car door and raised the windshield
I slapped the car window glass and tried to talk to my mother
But my mother ignored me outside the car, and suddenly slapped me, leaving without looking back
I stood there. Although the wound at the corner of my mouth no longer bleeds, it still hurts faintly
I bent down and picked up the insulated lunch box on the ground. Although my mother threw it hard on the ground, the lid was loosened a little, and the food inside was not spilled out.
I twisted open the lid of the lunch box and a familiar smell of the dish came to my face. Braised lion's head and sweet and sour tenderloin are all my favorite dishes.
I sat on a marble bench under the willow tree, re-covered the lunch box and placed it beside me
How did my mother and I become like this?
I sat on the marble bench
I just wanted to make things clear, but I never expected it to be the current situation
Which man I went out with, what did I do, whether I went to bed or not, has nothing to do with you!
My mother's words were like a sharp pushpin stuffed into my heart, stinging me all the time
Various scenes between my mother and Gao Zhongxiu began to appear in my mind.
Even though I have repeatedly told myself that these are just my fantasies and not real
But I still feel a feeling of depression and pain that I have nowhere to vent, and that desperate sense of powerlessness
Since my mother left resolutely that day, it has been almost a week since I and my mother have not had any contact.
During this period, I tried to call my mother. At first, no one answered, but later it turned out to be directly hung up
The WeChat message sent to my mother was even more sank to the sea
Damn, walking dead, this is my evaluation of myself during this period
During this week, I don't know how many times I've been complained about
But from the phone call Lu Gaonan called me yesterday, this should be the ultimatum he gave me.
I don’t really remember what he said to me on the phone, I only remember that I kept apologizing and the last sentence he almost roared: If you don’t want to do it, get out!
His words touched me, my mother and I have developed to this point
I think I should indeed leave Yicheng and leave my mother for a while. Maybe this will be good for us and each other.
But where are you going?
Although it has not been finalized yet, I already have an answer in my mind
These days, I don't have the key to my dormitory
So I have always lived in Lao Liu's house. Although Lao Liu didn't say anything, Liu's sister-in-law, who came back from her parents' house a few days ago, had clearly shown impatience with me on her face.
But it doesn't matter. Tonight should be my last night in my hometown, or my last night in this factory.
That night, I closed the door of the room early
But I don't have the heart to sleep, or I've been insomnia for several days
He doesn’t have a place to live, so why does he stay at our house and not leave?
You say less Ah, you will always be a guest when you pass by. Besides, Zheng Jia has a good relationship with me, don’t say such things in front of others!
He has been living here for almost a week... Okay, okay, stop talking, you must be happy if you have to get angry with me, right?
Although the sixth couple in the living room outside the door had already restrained their volume, I still heard the conversation between them.
The next morning, while Lao Liu was off work today, the couple had not gotten up yet, I packed up my things early and left Lao Liu's house.
Before leaving, I left two thousand yuan in the desk drawer in the guest room. This is my compensation for Lao Liu.
When I arrived at the factory, it was just seven o'clock in the morning. I glanced at the manager's office on the second floor.
Sister Yang is not here these days, basically Lu Gaonan is in the office
According to his habit, he should not appear in the office at around 8 o'clock.
However, at this moment I found that the lights in the manager's office were on and the door was half open.
Just as I like, I took the resignation statement written at Lao Liu's house last night, went straight to the second floor, and gently pushed open the office door.
However, to my surprise, the person in the office was not Lu Gaonan, but Sister Yang
Just like when we first met, Sister Yang was still wearing that decent uniform, with the pair of silver-rimmed glasses, looking at the documents on the desktop with her head down.
The difference is that Sister Yang's hair has been cut shorter and her face is a little weak. I stood at the door and knocked on the door gently. Sister Yang looked up at me and said with a smile: How early is this day?
I reluctantly smiled and said: Where, Sister Yang, you were early, when did you get discharged from the hospital?
I came back last night, and the doctor said there should be no problem. Sister Yang pushed the glasses on her nose and temporarily put down the pen on her hand.
Well, that's fine, I whispered
You came early in the morning, just to ask me this, right? Sister Yang looked at the white envelope on my hand and asked in a low voice.
I didn't answer, but just walked to Sister Yang's desk and gently handed my resignation to Sister Yang.
Sister Yang looked down at the resignation statement on the desktop, then raised her head and asked me: So suddenly, where are you going?
For some reason, I didn't dare to look directly at Sister Yang's glasses, but just stared elsewhere and replied casually: Well, I have other plans.
Regarding my perfunctory behavior, Sister Yang smiled and didn't say anything. She opened the envelope and glanced at it: Does Sister Liu Hui know?
It seems that this has nothing to do with her, right? I want to leave quietly, how could my mother know
Sister Yang did not answer my question, but just put the resignation letter in the drawer
Can you tell me why you want to leave? Sister Yang played with the black signature pen in her hand and looked at me with a smile.
Actually, there is no other reason, just want to leave. My answer is very far-fetched, but I can't think of any other answer at once.
Sister Yang didn't say anything, just stared at me intently
I was about to continue to explain, but Sister Yang suddenly spoke: OK, since you want to leave, I have no reason to stop you. You can go to the personnel affairs side to complete the procedures
I was stunned for a moment, but then came to my senses and nodded at Sister Yang, then turned around and prepared to leave. Please help me close the door. When I walked to the door, Sister Yang suddenly spoke.
I walked out of the office, held the door handle and slowly closed the door.
During this period, I unconsciously glanced at Sister Yang
But I found that Sister Yang was also looking at me, and her eyes seemed to be mixed with many intriguing things
I felt a little hesitant, but I still closed the office door
I didn't tell anyone about what I was leaving after finishing my morning work, and I went to the Personnel Office.
Only then did I realize that the spare keys in the dormitory have always been managed by the Human Resources Department.
Perhaps it was because when I joined the company, Sister Yang took me to go through the entry procedures, so I mistakenly thought that the spare key was also in Sister Yang's office.
I finished the relevant resignation procedures and went to the Finance Office again, and finally finished the procedures
The rest is to move out of the staff dormitory
In the afternoon, I sorted out the documents and customer information during this period in the consultation room, and handed over the work at hand to another colleague.
I know that a sudden resignation like me is not in line with the contract agreement.
But Sister Yang still let me go
Maybe she also felt the embarrassment of our relationship with each other, so she had a favor.
But no matter what, it's fine. I'm already very grateful to her for letting me leave directly.
At six o'clock in the evening, I finally sorted out the things on my hands. After handing over, I closed the glass door of the consultation room and looked up at the second floor.
The lights in the manager's office are still on, and I want to say goodbye to Sister Yang, but it's a bit strange to think about not saying it in the morning and now I'm going to say goodbye again.
I put the keys of the consultation room in the drawer at the reception desk at the door and quietly left the factory.
Back in the dormitory, I called my mother twice, but the response I received was still a busy voice.
I opened WeChat and hesitated whether to tell my mother the news that I planned to leave Yicheng.
But after entering a long list of texts, I deleted them all
Since my mother doesn't want to pay attention to me now, I'd better not disturb her.
I put down my phone, dragged out my suitcase under the bed, and started packing my stuff
Fortunately, I didn't move to this dormitory for a long time. Apart from my clothes, most of the rest were trivial daily necessities.
After I packed my luggage, I sat on the small sofa in the living room and drank a glass of water.
I called her: Hello, Sister Yaoyao, it's me Zheng Jia, do you have time now? I want to ask you something, which is the recruitment matters of the newspaper you posted in your circle of friends and you want to ask you to help me do something...
I called Xu Xingyao because the place I wanted to go was actually a newspaper posted on Xu Xingyao's circle of friends
The editor-in-chief of that newspaper seemed to be Xu Xingyao's college classmate, named Luo Yongnian, which is a relatively traditional local tabloid. If it were a few years ago, although it would not have developed particularly well, it would definitely not be short of personnel.
But now due to the emergence of smartphones and the rapid development of online self-media, traditional paper media has long been in decline. Their newspapers have also discovered that it is not feasible to publish newspapers alone, so they decided to start self-media. Unfortunately, the other editors in the newspaper, except Lao Luo, are all older comrades, and are not familiar with self-media operations.
So someone with experience in self-media operation needs to join. Although Lao Luo is not too old, he has to be responsible for other things. He is really unable to post recruitment advertisements because he has to post a recruitment advertisement.
According to the contact information given to me by Xu Xingyao, I quickly contacted Luo Yongnian.
When I was in college, I submitted a lot of articles to various newspapers and magazines, and also participated in the operation of the school's self-media. Although it is not a completely commercial operation, I still have some experience.
So I think the job of the newspaper will not be too difficult for me
With a try, I sent my college resume to Lao Luo.
I thought Lao Luo would need time to think about it, but I didn't expect that he just asked me some questions and asked me to go to Xinchuan City for an interview tomorrow
Xinchuan City is actually not far from Yicheng, so it takes about two hours to take the high-speed rail.
After hanging up Lao Luo's phone, I bought a high-speed rail ticket to Xinchuan.
Considering that there may be other trivial things tomorrow, I bought the ticket for the day after tomorrow at noon
After finishing these things unknowingly, it was almost nine o'clock in the evening
I opened the window in the living room, and the cool wind blew on my face, making my heart less irritable
I took out the unfinished Marlboro from under the coffee table, pulled out one and held it in my mouth
But after thinking about it, I put it down again, throwing them all into the trash can
I turned off all the lights in the room and lay down on the bed
I looked at the blank ceiling in front of me, and what happened during this period began to appear in front of me.
When did I start to have that strange relationship with my mother?
I thought for a long time, but I couldn't find the answer at all
I suddenly remembered the dream I had when I caught a cold a while ago
In that dream, the woman who was holding me was clearly dressed by my mother, but her face was always bright and dark, and it was blurry.
It's like Sister Yang, and it's like Mother.
At that time, I didn't understand why I dreamed of such a woman, but now I seem to understand a little
My obsession with Sister Yang, my obsession with mature women
In essence, it's all my attachment to my mother
Over the years, I have become accustomed to my mother's gentleness and consideration, and used to stay by my mother's side
I always thought that the relationship I had for my mother, which surpassed my mother and son, was caused by the potential dark sexual desire in my heart.
But now I understand that my feelings for my mother are not simply caused by some desire, but are the product of various complex emotional interweaving and collisions, including mother-son family affection, my attachment to my mother, and of course my possessiveness to my mother.
I don't know what exactly the reason for this, but it's just
Before I knew it, I did have an indescribable feeling for my mother
But I know that my feelings for my mother are not allowed by morality and ethics, and are a taboo emotion
But I can't control it, I can't accept that my mother becomes another man's partner, and I can't suppress my growing possessiveness for my mother
So I chose to leave my mother. I think this is the best choice for me or my mother...
I don't know when I fell asleep last night
After getting up, I glanced at my phone and it was almost 12 noon. I didn't expect that I would have slept for so long.
I went to the bathroom to wash up quickly.
No need to go to work in the factory anymore, but I didn't know what to do
Light up the phone screen, my mother still did not respond to my phone call yesterday, and she remained silent on WeChat
On the contrary, Lao Liu sent me a voice message: Xiao Jia, what's going on? I heard you resigned?
I don't know how to explain to Lao Liu, so I can only do it perfunctorily: Well, I did the procedures yesterday, and I have other plans, so I don't want to stay here anymore
I thought my sixth was at work and shouldn't have time to check my phone
But unexpectedly, Lao Liu quickly replied to my message: Alas, young people should go out more often. I have to work day shifts these days. I guess I don’t have time to send you this way. You come home tonight, I will get some side dishes and let’s have a drink. It can be regarded as seeing you off.
During my time in the auto repair shop, Lao Liu helped me a lot, both at work and in life, but I did not give him any rewards
I really couldn't find a reason to refuse, so I could only agree at once
Put down my phone, I don't know what to do
Want to go home?
I feel a little swaying
Although I have ID cards and other documents with me
But I always feel that it is inappropriate not to go back.
However, my door key is still kept at home
If I want to go back, I will definitely go to find my mother
Forget it, I still won't go back
Thinking of the way my mother stared at me that day, I decided not to go back and leave just tomorrow
It was still a while before Lao Liu got off work. I looked around the house. Although my life was not sloppy, it was far from neat.
Since I'm leaving tomorrow, I decided to take this time to clean up the house
I swept the garbage in the living room, went to the balcony to close the open window, and unplugged the power cord of the balcony.
I mopped the floor in the house again and wiped the window glass casually
When I finish these miscellaneous housework, it's almost four o'clock in the afternoon
I thought about it and although Lao Liu invited me to dinner, I couldn't go to his house empty-handed
I looked at it and found that I had plenty of time, so I went to a nearby supermarket and bought two bottles of wine.
Actually, I don’t know much about wine, so I just bought two bottles of Luzhou Laojiao according to the recommendation of the supermarket owner.
However, what I didn't expect was that it was these two bottles of Luzhou Laojiao that made the situation between me and my mother quickly deteriorate in a completely uncontrollable direction.
Come on, let's have a drink tonight. Lao Liu raised the glass of wine in his hand and reached out to me.
I sat at the dining table at Lao Liu's house, picked up the wine glass and touched Lao Liu for a while, and then drank the wine in the glass in one go.
A strong aroma of white wine is unique to sweetness and slips across the tip of the tongue
Although the taste of Luzhou Laojiao is already smooth, I am still choked by the aroma of the wine, who is unable to drink it.
Lao Liu couldn't help laughing when he saw my embarrassment. His dark skin made his teeth look extremely bright and white.
Oh, no one is like you who drinks white wine and is bored. This is not beer, and you are not here to buy drunk and drink it slowly and you won’t be choked.
I smiled awkwardly, and quickly ate a few bites of the wine and food on the table, and sucked the wine in my mouth.
When will I leave? Lao Liu took a small sip of the white wine in his glass
Tomorrow, I originally said I left today, but I didn’t pack up my things yesterday, so I left today too hastily
I also imitated Lao Liu and took a sip of the wine in my glass. It turned out that I didn't do the same as before.
What are you planning to do? Go and find another factory? Lao Liu asked casually with his wine glass.
I definitely won't look for the factory anymore. Now I have found a newspaper job through a friend and went to see it tomorrow. I slowly drank the wine in the cup.
After listening to my answer, Lao Liu did not speak but slid his face and pondered for a moment. He drank the wine in the glass and stared at me.
What's wrong with Brother Six? Just say it directly. I don't like being looked at directly, because it always reminds me of the way my mother looked at me when I tried to lie in front of my mother after I did something wrong when I was a child.
Lao Liu finally couldn't hold back and sighed: I said, "You're not sure how big a mess you have been stabbed."
Lao Liu's words made me very confused: Brother Liu, what are you talking about? What are you talking about?
Lao Liu did not answer me immediately, but turned on his phone to show me a video
This is obviously a video of Lu Gaonan's BMW's dashcam. The location is the underground parking lot of the insurance company where Sister Yang and I went that day.
But the car has not started, just dazed in the empty underground parking lot
I didn't know what Lao Liu was about to show me this video. I looked up at Lao Liu with confusion on my face.
Lao Liu didn't say anything, reached out and pressed the volume button on the side of the phone.
Then a deep moan between men and women came from the phone and the sound of intertwined body collisions.
I suddenly collapsed on the solid wood backrest chair, and I felt a faint cold sweat from behind. The 52-degree Luzhou Laojiao that I drank before seemed to have been broken down by me, and it did not make me feel a little burning.
Brother Six, this... how did you know this? My voice trembled a little
Lao Liu looked at it and said helplessly: From then on, Yang Jie suddenly didn't need you to help her drive. When she started asking me to help her drive, I found that something was wrong with you. But you are my brother and she is my boss, so I pretended not to know anything. But a few days ago, I drove Lu Gaonan to a social event. There was something unexpected on the way. I had a bit of a collision with another car. People called the traffic police. The traffic police asked me to call the video in the driving recorder to collect evidence. Later, I discovered this video.
After listening to Lao Liu's words, I didn't know how to answer
Just tremblingly picked up the wine glass and stuffed it. The spicy wine that slid across the tip of my tongue made me calmer.
Lao Liu looked at me and said with a smile: What? The sperm was on the brain at that time, and I was frightened now?
I supported my hands on the dining table and didn't know what to do, but I just made a pointless defense: I didn't control myself at that time, but I thought no one would find it...
Lao Liu looked at her expressionlessly and said: Actually, after I found out that I had deleted the original in the driving recorder, and wanted to pretend that I didn't see it. But later, after Yang Jie came back from the hospital, I saw her like that, and I realized that you were so crazy that you didn't want to leave now. Lao Liu said that, he reached out and stopped the video being played.
Brother Six, it's time, don't keep it in your mouth. I have some ominous premonition.
OK, then I will just say that you are in the boss's car. The boss is very likely to know the woman who is engaged in the boss now. How big do you think is this basket?
Lao Liu's words were like a bolt from the blue, instantly slashing my alcoholic spirit clean
You mean, he knows everything about Lu Gaonan? Lu Gaonan is his father's comrade-in-arms. His mother's old acquaintance is also half of my uncle and elder. I firmly put a cuckold on him. I thought that what happened in the car that day was already a thing of the past. No one would know, but never expected that the sound was completely recorded by the driving recorder that was automatically turned on in the car.
I dare not make a promise, but look at Yang Jie's appearance, she said that she was hospitalized because she accidentally fell down on the second floor of the factory. But the second floor staircase in our factory is wide and low, and there is also a layer of anti-slip blanket to fall. It is not that easy to fall. Do you find that her hair has been cut short, especially the front corner. It was obviously a nurse shaved me. She didn't seem to have fallen and was hospitalized, but she seemed to have been sent to the hospital by someone.
The person who was sent to the hospital, Lao Liu's words suddenly woke me up. When I was in the hospital, I planned to support Sister Yang, and when I asked her to sign and leave, she was flickering eyes.
It turns out that Sister Yang was hospitalized not because of an accident, but was beaten to the hospital by Lu Gaonan.
Thinking of this, the original panic in my heart instantly turned into anger
Fuck, is Lu Gaonan still a man? What does he mean by bullying Sister Yang? I couldn't help but clench his fists and hammer the solid wood dining table hard.
Zheng Jia, do you really think Lu Gaonan is a coward? He thought he didn't want to find someone to mess with you, so he willingly wore this cuckold? He was not afraid of you, a naughty man, but his mother, because your mother is a policeman, and your third uncle is also a little bit big in the police system of Yicheng. How big a fuss did you make? Isn't it clear yet?
Lao Liu was a little excited, and the volume also increased.
Lao Liu's scolding made me feel a little more awake. Indeed, no matter whether it is reasonable, I will be the one who is in the wrong.
Although he can't find someone to mess with you directly, it's even more troublesome if he wants to play with you and stumbling on you, so you should leave as soon as possible. Lao Liu drank all the wine in his glass, grabbed the bottle and poured it into himself.
Lao Liu is indeed right. Although Lu Gaonan dares not attack me directly, it is easy to avoid hidden arrows and can't be prevented. If he uses any secret tricks for me behind his back, I will have no way to do so.
Okay, we won't talk about your business anyway, you're leaving tomorrow. Yang Jie probably will be transferred by Lu Gaonan in the next few days. Lu Gaonan can't do anything about you. This is the best result. Come on, do it, stop thinking about these things.
Will Sister Yang be transferred? How do you know?
In the past two days, Lu Gaonan transferred a man from another branch factory. Yang Jie has been telling him about the factory affairs. It is obvious that this man is here to replace Yang Jie. As for where Lu Gaonan will transfer Yang Jie, I don’t know. So far, I will treat you as a friend, so don’t blame me for being ugly. You’d better not be involved with that woman. If you continue to get entangled with her, no one knows what Lu Gaonan will do.
Although Lao Liu was already drunk, his thinking was still clear
I didn't answer Lao Liu's words
Just nodded silently, I know Lao Liu is right
In this situation, if I continue to have anything to do with Sister Yang, for Sister Yang, it will only bring her more trouble.
When I thought that Sister Yang was hospitalized, it was probably caused by Lu Gaonan, I couldn't help but feel furious.
But what frustrated me was that I could do nothing about all this and there was no way to change anything
I suddenly felt a deep sense of powerlessness. Whether it was the vague relationship between my mother and Gao Zhongxiu before, or the intentional harm Lu Gaonan had given to Sister Yang, I couldn't change it.
I can only watch everything happen
I remembered a sentence Wang Xiaobo once said: All the pain of a person is essentially anger towards his own incompetence. Now I have experienced what incompetence is and what anger is.
Lao Liu didn't say anything anymore, but just picked up the empty wine glass in front of me and poured it slowly. Then he filled his wine glass and raised it to look at me.
I understand what Lao Liu means, and I didn't say much
Pick up the cup and touched him, then silenced
This has been repeated for many rounds. When I tried to pour wine again, I realized that the two bottles of Luzhou Laojiao I brought were empty at some point.
The two dozen cans of beer that Lao Liu took out of the refrigerator before has already become empty cans all over the floor
I raised my head and wanted Lao Liu to continue to pick up the wine, but found that Lao Liu was already lying on the dining table, muttering something constantly in my mouth
I leaned over and then barely heard Lao Liu's murmur: Damn... a stinky bitch, if it weren't for Yingying, I would have fucked you... a divorced... a stinky bitch... a stinky bitch... a stinky bitch... a stinky pussy guy. Lao Liu lay on the table and started sobbing.
Yingying is the daughter of Lao Liu and is still in kindergarten
Although I can see that the relationship between Lao Liu and Liu's wife is not very good
But I didn't expect the truth behind it to be like this
I sighed and put the half-listen beer in my hand on the table
He gently patted Lao Liu on the shoulder. Lao Liu was completely drunk and had no reaction at all.
I grabbed his hand, put it on my shoulder, and helped him to the sofa in the living room
I wanted to help him onto the bed in his room, but after I stood up, I realized that my limbs were as heavy as lead.
After throwing Lao Liu on the sofa, I sat on the small sofa next to me, feeling dizzy and hot.
No, I can't continue to stay at Lao Liu's house
I opened the door of Lao Liu's house by chance, but found out why the stairs in the corridor became crooked. After a few steps, I suddenly felt a sour smell from my throat, and I directly held the wall and vomited.
The wind blowing in from the windows in the corridor made me feel extremely uncomfortable
I grabbed the handrail of the stairs and walked to the first floor with a sway.
I realized that it was already hazy outside. I took out my cell phone and wanted to see the time, but I couldn't see the numbers on the screen clearly.
Every few steps I take, I feel the swelling from time to time coming from the forehead, and my throat feels very dry.
I wanted to speed up, but found that my feet were getting heavier and heavier
I walked around and stopped, I don’t know how long it took me to go back to my dormitory building
I held the wall of the corridor and walked slowly to the door of my dormitory
I just took out the key from my trouser pocket, but the wait in the corridor suddenly went out, and the whole corridor turned black
I took out my phone to illuminate the keyhole on the security door, but found that no matter how I pressed the phone, I didn't respond.
I felt inexplicably irritated, and I stuffed my phone back into my pocket
Holding the door handle of the security door, holding the key, but finding that it could not be poked into the keyhole at all
The irritability in my heart became stronger and I was so angry that I slapped the thick security door hard.
After a few shots, I felt a sense of force removal, holding the door frame and gasping for breath
However, what I didn't expect was
The security door in front of me was suddenly opened from the house...
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