Chapter 385

After I asked this question, Xiaoying was stunned for a moment, but she didn't show any surprise. Maybe she knew that she would face this question sooner or later, and she thought that I would ask this question, but her mind was shattered by the luck-lossing mentality.

After Xiaoying calmed down, she let go of my arms with both hands, leaned back, leaned on the back of the sofa, as if she was avoiding my gaze. Now, unless I turned to look at her, my eyes could no longer see her face.

Maybe she was avoiding my gaze, which would make her speak more at ease and natural. I didn't turn my head, looked straight ahead, giving her enough time, and the room fell into a short silence. Tonight, we didn't have the concept of time, and we only ended up talking about all the inner words.

To my father, to be honest, my feelings for him are very complicated. I thought for a long time but couldn't determine what I felt for him. Before I had a relationship, I only had family affection for him, the kind of family affection and respect of elders, and I had no other thoughts. Later, you deliberately arranged it. After I let me get in touch with those articles and reports, my feelings for him began to change, but it was limited to curiosity. As the relationship with my father gradually deepened, my curiosity for him became heavier and more, and my desire for him became greater and greater, but nothing Love and other things are still family affection, but respect has become less. Desire and curiosity have made me respect for him and family affection change the taste. After I first got into a relationship with my father, I hated him very much for rape. At that time, I lost my mind because of my loss of virility and blamed my father for all the abuse. Later, I calmed down and found that I had a mistake, and my fault was even greater than my father. After thinking through it, I calmed down and accepted the reality, and my heart calmed down and I couldn't hate my father.

After thinking for a long time, Xiaoying spoke slowly. Her tone was very light and she spoke slowly. Although I didn't see her expression, I could feel that Xiaoying must have said while thinking.

The accident occurred in the island, that is, the one when the island suffered a storm. When my father was dying, he was holding the pipe I gave him. At that moment, my inner emotions seemed to burst out...... I admit that at that time, a hint of throbbing appeared in my heart, and a gap appeared in the fortress in my heart. At that time, I was really sad, and it was a little beyond the scope of worrying about my elders. Maybe at that time I began to feel a little touched with my father, but it had not reached the level of love. Maybe it was just a simple love, a kind of love,You also know what I like in love later. As the number of sex increases, my father and I have been moving deeper and deeper, and have been moving towards the height of love. But what I can be sure of is... Although my relationship with my father has been rising, I cannot make progress after reaching a critical point. No matter what our relationship is? The warming up, that critical point is the critical point of both liking and love. My relationship with my father has never been able to break through. In the final analysis, it is because of you. Because of your existence, my relationship with my father can never rise to the point of true love.

Xiaoying's words can be said to be a burst point. Although I guessed some details, I still felt a suffocation in my heart when I heard Xiaoying say it with my own ears. I tried to control my heart and prevent my body from showing any expression. I couldn't accept the truth that Xiaoying said.

There is a saying that women will never forget the man who possessed her. This sentence is true. Since I had sex with my father, there seems to be an invisible connection between me and my father. This connection closely connects me and my father. After the two have been separated for a long time, I will think of him in my heart, just like you men. Even though I have a wife, I really love each other, but sometimes I still can't resist the temptation of the mistress. Although I love my wife deeply in my heart, I still can't help but hug my mistress again and again. Do you admit this?

Xiaoying suddenly asked me a question, and this sentence made me think. In the years since I got married, I encountered countless temptations because of my work, especially after Leng Bingshuang was supported by Leng Bingshuang. Among them, there were many excellent women, whose appearance and figure were not even inferior to Xiaoying. My heart was shaken. I even persuaded myself to indulge once occasionally, but in the end I still persisted.

To be honest, I don’t have confidence in myself, and I can’t bear it for a lifetime. Maybe when I’ll be confused after drinking, I will hide it from everyone’s indulgence. So I agree with Xiaoying’s words. Normal people will have this idea, but whether to do it or not.

I didn't say anything to Xiaoying, just nodded lightly

I also have this idea after I have been with my father for a long time. I enjoy the feeling of being spoiled by two men, especially my father can make up for your shortcomings...... You can make up for me emotionally, my father can make up for me in sex. Sometimes I think it would be great if I could unite you and my father, but I know this is impossible. I have been wandering in this sneaky emotion. Maybe the same is true for my father, but I know that things may be revealed one day. I have always been lucky. Every time I have a secret relationship with my father, I feel deeply self-blame and regret, and I have warned myself countless times in my heart. This is The last time, but when my sexual desire comes, I am sinking into his sex again and again. I have thought of using death to relieve myself more than once, but I am sinking into it and unable to extricate myself. I have been trying hard to treat my father as a human masturbation device. He is just a tool for me to relieve my sexual desire, but I still have a floating feeling in my heart. I still have feelings for him, but I swear, my feelings for him are far from comparable to you. If I were asked to choose one between you and my father, I would definitely choose you instead of my father. Do I love my father? Love is just not as deep as I love you. Can you understand what I say?

After Xiaoying finished speaking, she asked me a question at the end, but I didn't answer and didn't respond, because I didn't know how to answer. Xiaoying's final conclusion was a bit beyond my expectations. Although I had speculation before, I always had a lucky mentality. Now Xiaoying finally admitted that she loved her father, at least she had loved her father, but she was not as deep as she loved her. Can a person's love be divided into two parts?

I used to think that sex and emotion could be separated. Now after verifying it with Xiaoying and his father, I realized that I was wrong. Everything was wrong. Feelings may produce sex, and sex may produce emotions. Sex and emotion are two different concepts, but in fact they are closely connected to each other. The faint fluke in my heart was smashed by Xiaoying at this moment.

Will I hate Xiaoying because of this answer?

But this problem is not yet. I am just disappointed, disappointed with myself, disappointed with my past self-confidence, and a blow to my self-confidence.

Sex and love have always been a point of confidence between me matching my father and Xiaoying

I can understand, so let’s talk about you and your father in the future. What do you plan to do with your father in the future?

I know the answer I should know. I asked about my future plans. I don’t know how Xiaoying will answer. When I asked this question, I thought about it in my mind. If Xiaoying hesitates for more than two seconds, I will not believe her next answer.

Don't worry, my father and I will never have any physical contact in the future, and we will definitely not...

What surprised me was that Xiaoying gave me the answer immediately, and she said it firmly and firmly, making people unable to doubt any doubts. What gave her so confidence?

I felt a trace of abnormality but couldn't understand...