My name is Li Wuyou. Today is my 24th birthday. In the dim room, there is only a little light emitted by a candle inserted on the table. I sat alone at the table. Although my face was expressionless, those eyes betrayed my inner thoughts, loneliness, hatred, desire, and various negative energy in my heart over the years, which made me usually withdrawn, introverted, and unwilling to communicate with others.Until now, there is no friend who can tell the truth. My colleagues think that I am the air and occasionally say something perfunctorily, let alone a friend of the opposite sex. I have never even touched a girl's hands. I often lie in bed and browse pornographic websites when I get off work. Life has become a habit for several years.