I can't do it, I always find it difficult to let go of the grudge in my heart. I was very scared. Once, I had a relationship with my son because of an accident, but it made my heart full of torment. Every time I face my husband, I am very scared. I am very scared one day when my husband discovers that one day, especially after I have feelings for my son. I am even more scared.
So I can only suppress it. It’s not that I don’t want to, but that I don’t dare. I really don’t know what consequences will be caused by taking this step and whether it will ruin my son’s life. He can be impulsive, but I can’t... Mom’s reply ends here.
At this moment, my heart was filled with mixed feelings, and there was a hint of surprise besides the shock.
What I am happy about is that my mother's feelings for me have reached a deep level. I finally know why my mother has always been close to me. It turns out that my mother is under such great pressure. She loves me and suppresses her love for me. She has to reject me.
I didn't notice it at all. I felt that I was really useless and couldn't share the burden with my mother.
Even now that I understand my mother’s inner thoughts, I still can’t do anything about it. This is a layer of shackles given to me by my mother. If I want to break through, I can only rely on my mother.
It also made me very upset, why, why am I so powerless
I'm silent
It seems that the whole person has lost his focus. I was thinking about looking at what good things are on the mother-son forum, but I have lost my mood.
Even safe shutdown is saved. I just clicked the on-off button of the host computer, forced the computer to shut down, and left the study room.
Also, I didn't notice that the mother's reply letter is under the letter. You think that incest is a disaster, but if you don't take a step, how do you know that your son is unwilling to fall into hell with you? Troubles, shackles, and estrangements. I was bound by these before. It was only when I was really with my son that I realized that all this was just that I failed to break through the worldly concept. Is heaven or hell? Is it important to love it enough. Why set a boundary for myself, let myself suffer and the people who love me suffer?
Maybe you are right...I sat on the sofa in the living room with a dull expression
Until the sound of opening the door sounded, my mother opened the door and came in. Suddenly I bounced up from the sofa and hugged my mother who had not reacted.
My sudden movements made my mother stunned, and her eyes were confused.
Maybe I felt something was wrong with me! My mother did not break free from me, but let me continue to hold me
Fortunately, the door of the entrance hall has been closed, otherwise the neighbors would have seen it, and the mother and son would have been hugged together for so long, so it would be strange if there was a ghost!
For some reason, my mother raised her hand and wrapped around my back, regardless of the huge and softness on her chest.
Even though my mother's charming fragrance scattered in my arms, there was no distraction in my mind at this moment. I just wanted to hug my mother.
Mom, I love you, so I decided to let go. From now on, there will be no longer Xiaofeng who loves his mother. Only the simple mother's son Xiaofeng has caused trouble and burden to you for a long time. Sorry, I will be my good son again in the future... After a long time, I leaned deeply on my mother's shoulders and said a low sentence
Smelling the refreshing fragrance of my mother's hair, I closed my eyes with great nostalgia. This is the last... I let go of my mother with great reluctance. Looking at my mother's puzzled and astonished expression, I smiled, but my smile was so sad. Goodbye, my mother I love. After saying that, I didn't give my mother any time to react, so I rushed back to my room and locked it in.
My mother who was unable to adapt was left, but she couldn't react from my words for a long time. She looked at the direction of my room with a puzzled look, wondering what happened to me? Why did my behavior suddenly become so abnormal today? My mother walked to the door of my room and wanted to knock in and ask me clearly, but she stopped suddenly as soon as she raised her hand, and a few thoughts flashed across her pupils.
Suddenly my mother turned around and saw that the door of the study was actually open, which made my mother wonder again. She remembered that there was a lock before leaving the door! There was also a locked Ah when she left the study last night? At this time, the key locked on the study door attracted my mother's attention, which made her very strange. Isn't this the one she put in the room? Contact me with my bizarre behavior just now, it was easy to think that it was related to me.
As for how I know where the key is placed, I can't figure it out. My mother turned around and walked into the study without considering it much.
My mother came to the computer desk and looked at the traces of the files placed on the table. She knew that I must have turned on the computer without guessing.
Mom sat down and gently clicked the boot button of the host under the table. The screen flashed and the screen quickly entered a blue countdown. A lot of English. Anyone who has played with the computer knows that this is a kind of self-protection to start the system next time after forced shutdown.
My mother opened the browser without thinking too much. This is her private computer. She knows the most about what it is. It can cause such a big change in me. There are only a few things that she can guess.
A window pops up as soon as the browser is opened, asking whether to open the web page that was not closed last time
Of course, I would never think that the current browser can backup and save web pages that are closed normally, and ask when the next time it is opened.
After all, I still have too little experience in computer operation. Although I have touched computers several times with Fatty Xu, I can only get rid of computer novice. I still have too little knowledge of deeper operations or software application.
When my mother saw the web page automatically jump to her reply interface, everything was clear
Especially the page only stays at the end of the reply post, and the mother's eyes are inexplicably smiling.
What a fool... I only read half of the posts...
(You can jump back to the closed web page normally and jump to the mouse drag position. I don’t know if yours are OK. My 2345 ace browser is OK) I locked myself in the room. In order not to make myself feel for my mother anymore, I devoted myself to the world of learning, trying hard not to think about it or recall it, and stuffed math, physics and chemistry formulas into my mind. Only in this way can I suppress my love for my mother
Until... until... until I'm exhausted and have no strength to have any other thoughts
I dragged my extremely heavy body and fell on the bed, turned off the light with difficulty, intending to go to bed just like this
There was no change of clothes, no bath, and no wash, because I didn't have the courage to walk out of this room. I was afraid of meeting my mother, and I was afraid that I would not be able to hold any hope when I saw her. Since I decided to give up, I couldn't let myself ignite any unrealistic hope.
I fell asleep in a daze with my head, and I don't know how long it took
In the hazy, I felt someone coming in. Something suddenly stuck to my back. A faint fragrance came and made me sink.
I really want to turn around and see who it is? Is it a dream or a reality? But I was tired, and I didn't even have the strength to open my eyes. Then I lost my consciousness and fell asleep... The dividing line of all evil... The eyes were slightly swollen and painful for no reason, awakening me from the deep sleep, subconsciously opening my eyes, and a dazzling light came towards me. I realized it was already dawn.
I sat up, hugged my dizzy head, rubbed the sun's pussy behind the corners of my eyes, and cheered up my mind by the way
Suddenly I frowned because I found out how much I slept in. I remember that after finishing my exercises last night, I fell asleep on the bed. Even if I turned over, I couldn't turn it into this way. It seemed like I was pushed in.
Yes, I also found that I only covered half of the quilt, but there was no one in the other half, and there was still a faint fragrance that I was familiar with in the spare half of the space.
I got up and looked at the door lock, and found that it was actually open, which immediately scared me.
I remember that I locked the door of the room last night, why was it open? Could it be that I hit a ghost? Could it be that I was sleeping with a ghost last night? I was so scared that my face turned blue, and I wondered if this was the legendary ghost pressing the bed. Thinking of me, I popped up from the bed subconsciously, pulled out a stick from somewhere, and danced randomly.
I thought about it and it was daytime now, and even if there were ghosts, I wouldn't come out. I felt a little relieved.
But I didn't let go of my guard at all, and I looked nervous. I opened the door of the room very carefully and walked out.
After I found nothing unusual, I felt completely at ease
It seemed that my mother had already gone to work at this time, which undoubtedly made me feel relieved. At least I didn’t have to face my mother’s embarrassment. I decided to give up loving my mother. I didn’t know what kind of face I should use to meet my mother!
The school is still the same old place, but a round and fat ball is approaching sneakily.
Brother Feng, how are you doing? Have you found it?
Hey! Brother Feng, why is your face so blue? Why are you green? Fatty Xu said in surprise
Get out, your mother is green! I viciously bounced Fatty Xu's fat meat, shaking it, making people feel evil thoughts
I said we were just meeting each other, why did we do it like an undercover agent? Do you think you are playing Infernal Affairs? If Fatty Xu carefully observed my expression at this time, he would definitely find that my eyes could not contain my heart.
You know, Fatty Xu is really green, and the person who puts the green mother hat on Fatty Xu is the one who stands beside him, who is the good brother who is standing next to him.
Saying that he turned his mother green in front of him is a fact. How can I not be guilty? Isn’t it, Brother Feng, don’t you think this is very interesting? Fatty Xu kept trembling because of the flesh on his body. ÁÁÁ cried out.
I've long wanted to try it
Try your sister! Those who don’t know thought we were doing something bad! Forget it, I don’t know much about the model of the signal detector, but I copied it down, it should be that. As I said that, I handed a note to Fatty Xu
Fatty Xu's eyes turned around and he was immediately happy
Thank you so much Brother Feng, it's worthless that my admiration for you is like a surging river, and it's uncontrollable! Lin (lve) You're dead, Brother Feng, if you weren't a man, I would have kissed you
Dear, get out, I found that no matter how good your cultivation is in front of a fat man, it will be in vain
But you should be more at ease, don't be caught, otherwise you will be embarrassed. Although the cheating report in the middle school entrance examination is not as good as the college entrance examination, the consequences of being caught are quite serious. And the most important thing is, if you are caught, you will die. Don't pull me up and say that it was the idea I gave you. Hehe, Brother Feng, how could you say that? We are brothers, of course we have the blessings and it is difficult to share... Fatty Xu put one hand on my shoulder and said with a smirk.
It's because you have been implicated several times. I have no hope of blessing. I just want you not to drag me into the water. Brother Feng, how can you say that brother! Otherwise, I'll take you to a good place tonight. No, I still have to study! Let's talk about it later! I refuse to say it
No matter how good things are now, it is boring to me.
By the way, you guys, every time Aunt Wen cuts your pocket money, it’s like a dead father. Why do you want so much money? Can you spend so much money on buying food?
Don't think I don't know that your genuine AV discs seem very expensive, but they are very cheap to buy in the island country. At most, they are added with tariffs. However, I don't believe that customs will let this obscene thing flow into the country. I guess they were brought in secret! Besides, how many copies you can buy in a month? Even if you want to buy someone in the island country, you can't get many new episodes for you to buy Ah for you! Don't tell me that you took the money to save. In my understanding, you are a fat man, you are the moonlight of the moon, and you will kill you. I don't believe it. When I heard about pocket money, Fat Man Xu's expression suddenly showed a strange hint of embarrassment, as if there was something hidden.
After a moment of stuttering, Fatty Xu suddenly gritted his teeth, it's not that I don't want to tell you! Brother Feng, it's really... that... I... Forget it, you don't want to say it, I don't force it. Before Fatty Xu could say it, I interrupted him.
If there is something I need to help, although I may not be able to help with money, but I can still give advice.
As I said that, I put on Fatty Xu's shoulder. There is no need to say too much about brothers' friendship. If you have any difficulties, I will help me.
Fatty Xu nodded knowingly. It is rare that Fatty Xu is also serious.
In the next few days before the monthly exam, I locked myself in my room every day and tried not to meet my mother as much as possible.
Then I used my studies to get exhausted and fell asleep on the bed
Strangely, every morning when I wake up, I feel like I'm being pressed against a ghost. Both my sleeping position and position seem to have been adjusted. Especially since I deliberately didn't cover the quilt several times, the next day I got up, the quilt actually covered me well.
Isn't it strange? Since this is the case, why didn't I deliberately pretend to sleep all night and see who was the one who caused it? But I didn't do that, and I don't know why I didn't want to find out the truth. It should be said that I had guessed the truth in my heart, but I didn't want to poke it out.
There are only two people in this family, and I can’t think of a second person who will do this except mother. As for why the door lock is opened, it proves that it is my mother, because all door locks in the house have a backup key, and the key is right in my mother’s hands.
If I can't guess, my IQ will be eaten by a dog
But I know in my heart that although I keep saying that I give up my mother's relationship, I know that I can't let go at all. I love my mother, it's no longer because of carnal desire.
My mother's every frown and smile is imprinted in my heart. I can't remember when I started to have feelings for my mother beyond the mother's love. I just know that my life cannot be separated from my mother. In this life, I can't find a woman I love more than my mother.
Even Aunt Wen is no exception. Many male protagonists in urban fantasy novels seem to have the same love for each heroine.
But it is impossible. Humans are animals with emotions, and human emotions cannot be evenly matched. There will always be more or less overflow.
I love Aunt Wen very much. I also have a kind of maternal love dependence on Aunt Wen, but it is hard for my mother to be as good as my mother. Mother and son are not just literally said, it is a bond that is formed deep in blood.
Although Aunt Wen gave me warm maternal love, I still longed for my mother in my heart.
It is this desire that was deeply rooted in my heart as early as I was very young. The love for my mother was not achieved in one go. In fact, when I was very young, the love for my mother had already taken root and sprouted in my heart, slowly thriving, and finally developing into love.
Such deep love cannot be given up overnight. Give up is just my self-deception.
All I can do is try not to think about it and continue to deceive myself
Since that day, I have avoided my mother, and my mother has not come to me for the initiative.
It's strange that we seemed to live together, but we didn't get together miraculously, like a layer of paper is separated by a layer of paper. Everyone knows the existence of this layer of paper, but no one can poke it out.
But I found that I couldn't understand my mother anymore. According to the truth, I suddenly said those words. My mother should ask me clearly, but it seemed that it didn't matter.
I believe that with my mother's intelligence, I should be able to see that I am avoiding her, but my mother didn't care about it and cooperated with me very tacitly.
This made me feel a little angry. Although I said that I gave up on my love for my mother, Mom, at least, I asked the reason. It’s one thing that I said it or not, but my mother’s inaction made me feel that I don’t matter at all in my heart.
I feel like the heroine in an idol drama is playing tricks on her. She said she wanted to break up, but in fact, she thought in her heart that the hero could win her back
Typically, I have to do something to make a living
Time is so wonderful, it won't stop for anyone
The monthly exam has finally arrived. Everyone knows that the last monthly exam is the most important thing, whether it is the college entrance examination or the middle school entrance examination.
It directly concerns the level of the high school entrance examination. Basically, this monthly exam determines the high school entrance examination results. Even if there is a difference in scores, there will be no big difference.
Three-day exams, two subjects per day
In the answer sheet of the last subject history, the final punctuation mark was drawn to the final end of my monthly exam sprint
This can be said to be the longest time in my life. It is because I really made up my mind to study seriously. Although I have changed a lot before, I have not studied so frantically like this time.
However, the rewards were also generous. Although the results have not yet been released, I am very confident that I will surpass the past. Even if I can't reach the score line of No. 1 Middle School in the city, I don't think it will be too far. Even if the difference is, it will be a few points at most. As long as I work harder in the last month, it will be absolutely fine to catch up with these points.
For this reason, my mood swept away the haze of the previous few days and even my spirits are much better.
I walked out of the classroom with my schoolbag on one shoulder and held the bag strap with one hand. Sure enough, I felt completely different from the feeling of getting good results through my own efforts and stealing the papers. The fruitful fruits obtained through my hard work are undoubtedly the sweetest
But this kind of good mood was quickly dispersed by a vulgar face. I think everyone can guess who it is! That's right, the fat man named Xu, whose face was full of flesh and fat, a vulgar smell hit me.
Damn it, it's so disgusting. I've been busy with the exam these days and haven't had time to pay attention to him. I didn't expect that I came to him just after the exam.
I can see his graceful look from afar. Needless to say, I can guess that this fat man should have done well in the exam. Oh no, I should say that he did a good job in the exam.
Seeing that the round fat ball was about to hit me, I quickly reached out to stop me and stopped...
Needless to say, I know, you succeeded, right? Wow, Brother Feng, you are so amazing! You have guessed this too? My admiration for you is like... Stop!
Fatty Xu was interrupted by me before he finished speaking. I really couldn't stand the disgusting feeling of this fat man.
I gave Fatty Xu a blank look. Just your graceful look, I almost wrote the word "deafe" on my forehead, and I couldn't tell if I was blind.
Brother Feng, you don’t know, Taobao’s magical artifact is indeed powerful, but all the instruments I brought in today were not detected, it was simply too strong. Fatty Xu couldn’t help but feel depressed and excited.
OK, isn't it just that you cheat? As for that? And the answer you got from cheating may not be true! Hehe, Brother Feng, you don't know. This time I went to Taobao and found out that the cheating tool online is so sluggish. The merchant selling signal-blocking instruments recommended me to buy a multi-functional scanning and analysis backend processor, which supports remote Internet monitoring and built-in i7 processor. Any question can be answered quickly as long as it is scanned. Although it is a bit expensive, it has to be said to be very worthwhile. Now I don't have to worry about my high school entrance examination anymore. Let alone the No. 1 Middle School, I think I can pass even if it is a Tsinghua Affiliated Middle School. How much does it cost? I heard Fatty Xu say a lot of high-end special words, and I subconsciously reacted
How much is 16,000?
Ten thousand six! I suddenly turned my eyes and almost fell over
Ten thousand sixteen, I damn, even after the global financial tsunami in 2008, today's inflation, 16 million yuan is still a considerable amount
For me, a poor child, I have never seen 16,000 in my life, what does it look like?
Damn it, I spent 16,000 RMB to cheat in the exam. Do you still have to live? Well! The world of rich people is indeed something that mortals cannot understand.
I spent a lot of money, but fortunately I still had a little pocket money last month, otherwise it wouldn't be enough. After my bank card was bound, Taobao gave me a credit limit of Huabei, which was more than 50,000! As he said that, Fatty Xu was complacent on his face, and seemed to have done something amazing.
Fatty, you are awesome, I will accept you if I don’t adapt to the local conditions. Really, Brother Feng, I have the hope of going to No. 1 Middle School to go to the same school as you. Fatty Xu paused
By the way, Brother Feng, how are you doing in the exam? I won’t pass the exam by then, but you are just a loser!
You keep one hundred and twenty hearts. With my intelligence and talent, I don’t take the small No. 1 Middle School seriously! Maybe it’s because of the ideal performance of my exams, I started to swell and kept boasting.
I don’t think about who was studying in junior high school and even had to rely on my mother to go through the back door to study. A certain pig’s feet had forgotten this.
Hehe, it seems that we brothers are destined to continue to dominate the city No. 1 Middle School. Fatty Xu said happily: Yes, I told Aunt Lan to prepare a big meal in the morning. It is rare to be happy today, so it is better to come to my house for dinner! It is a reward for our hard work these days.
Well... next time! I want to go home for dinner today. I haven't seen each other for so many days. Of course, I also want to go to Aunt Wen to explain my longing.
But I don’t know why, what I want most at the moment is to go home and tell my mother about my performance in this monthly exam
After finally sending Fatty Xu, I rushed home without stopping because I couldn't wait to share my joy with my mother.
Although I have forgotten the decision I made to give up, I just wondered if my mother would be happy if she knew the news? I couldn't stop being excited when I thought of this.
As soon as I opened the door, I shouted to my mother happily. What's strange is that the living room is silent and there is no response.
It shouldn't be fine! As the principal's mother, who has nothing to do in the past few days, can get off work early, so why can't she not be at home? Well? My mother's shoes are all there, so why can't no one answer?
When I lowered my head to slip my slippers, I found that my mother's shoes were neatly placed on the shoe rack on the side, and I suddenly became confused.
I walked into the house and shouted as I walked towards the room: Mom, mom, are you at home?
Still no one responded, my mother wouldn't really go out! But how did she go out with her mother's shoes at home? Could it be that she ran out barefoot? I thought my mother shouldn't be at home, so she walked through her mother's room symbolically and glanced at her, then she immediately pulled back
Huh?
I was stunned when I brushed my mother's room door
As if I saw something incredible, I looked back and saw my mother appearing in the room, and I was stunned.
Mom? Isn’t this at home? Why did I shout so loudly just now and didn’t respond? Could it be that I didn’t hear it? It’s impossible! My house is not as good as I can’t hear it in the living room! It’s possible for Fatty Xu’s house, let’s forget it! Even if I close the door, I can still hear it
Besides, the living room is only a few walls away from the room, and there are channels for voice transmission. It is difficult for me to shout so loudly that I can't hear it! Unless my mother falls asleep
I looked at my mother's side figure and was about to shout, but I found that my mother seemed to be staring at me with something and didn't notice my existence at all. I didn't even know that I walked in.
At this time, I noticed that my mother's eyes looked at the documents in her hand were extremely cold, and her body trembled slightly.
Mom, I went over and shouted
As if I was awakened by my shout, my mother immediately put away her cold face, quickly put the documents in her hand and stuffed them into the file bag, and then put them in the cabinet.
Turn around and smile at me lightly, you are back! How are you doing in the exam? Are you doing well?
Hehe, mom, guess? Although I was a little confused about what my mother had just happened, I couldn't help but feel joy when I heard my mother mention the monthly exam.
Do you still need to guess? The answers are written on your face. After knowing that I did well in the exam, my mother also smiled sincerely, and the gloom of the moment was wiped out
I suddenly said happily, what do you want to eat tonight, Mom makes it for you. I want to eat steamed lamb, steamed bear paw, steamed deer tail; Braised flower chicken, roasted chick, roasted geese; Braised pig, braised duck, braised chicken, bacon, pine flower belly, dried meat, sausage, assorted supan, smoked chicken, bacon white belly, steamed eight-treasure pig, jiangri rice stuffed duck, jar pheasant, jar quail; assorted bacon, stewed pigeon eggs, silver shreds, and many more, stir-fried shrimps from hibiscus (this paragraph is taken from the clinic's laughter episode 19, enter it randomly, don't be surprised, just make a joke) Well, mom will go shopping now, and mom is going to go out as she said
Yes, Mom, what were you just watching? You were so sensible? I didn't even hear me calling you. I suddenly asked, but my mother's smile froze, and a cold flashed through her eyes, but she quickly returned to normal.
It's nothing, it's just some school documents. I went to buy groceries. I brought the wallet on the cabinet next to me and walked out of the room with me. After I came out, my mother locked the room.
It seems that my mother is desperate and never gives me a chance to explore, but the more this happens, the more curious I am.
What exactly makes my mother show such cold eyes? Although my mother was cold before and always had a stern face, she did not look like she was just now, as cold as she was from the heart.
And I found that my mother's smile was a bit weird, as if she was forcing her to smile
This time I performed so well in the monthly exam, and my mom has no reason to be unhappy! You know, my mom used to look forward to the stars and the moon and even to be so strict with me that I couldn't expect my grades to improve. Now my grades have not only improved, but also have the hope of getting admitted to No. 1 Middle School. My mom should be happy.
What exactly is that my mother can’t even be happy when I got the good grades in the exam? Unfortunately, my mother locked the door of the room, so I had to bury this curiosity in my heart and have the opportunity to inquire again...
So I can only suppress it. It’s not that I don’t want to, but that I don’t dare. I really don’t know what consequences will be caused by taking this step and whether it will ruin my son’s life. He can be impulsive, but I can’t... Mom’s reply ends here.
At this moment, my heart was filled with mixed feelings, and there was a hint of surprise besides the shock.
What I am happy about is that my mother's feelings for me have reached a deep level. I finally know why my mother has always been close to me. It turns out that my mother is under such great pressure. She loves me and suppresses her love for me. She has to reject me.
I didn't notice it at all. I felt that I was really useless and couldn't share the burden with my mother.
Even now that I understand my mother’s inner thoughts, I still can’t do anything about it. This is a layer of shackles given to me by my mother. If I want to break through, I can only rely on my mother.
It also made me very upset, why, why am I so powerless
I'm silent
It seems that the whole person has lost his focus. I was thinking about looking at what good things are on the mother-son forum, but I have lost my mood.
Even safe shutdown is saved. I just clicked the on-off button of the host computer, forced the computer to shut down, and left the study room.
Also, I didn't notice that the mother's reply letter is under the letter. You think that incest is a disaster, but if you don't take a step, how do you know that your son is unwilling to fall into hell with you? Troubles, shackles, and estrangements. I was bound by these before. It was only when I was really with my son that I realized that all this was just that I failed to break through the worldly concept. Is heaven or hell? Is it important to love it enough. Why set a boundary for myself, let myself suffer and the people who love me suffer?
Maybe you are right...I sat on the sofa in the living room with a dull expression
Until the sound of opening the door sounded, my mother opened the door and came in. Suddenly I bounced up from the sofa and hugged my mother who had not reacted.
My sudden movements made my mother stunned, and her eyes were confused.
Maybe I felt something was wrong with me! My mother did not break free from me, but let me continue to hold me
Fortunately, the door of the entrance hall has been closed, otherwise the neighbors would have seen it, and the mother and son would have been hugged together for so long, so it would be strange if there was a ghost!
For some reason, my mother raised her hand and wrapped around my back, regardless of the huge and softness on her chest.
Even though my mother's charming fragrance scattered in my arms, there was no distraction in my mind at this moment. I just wanted to hug my mother.
Mom, I love you, so I decided to let go. From now on, there will be no longer Xiaofeng who loves his mother. Only the simple mother's son Xiaofeng has caused trouble and burden to you for a long time. Sorry, I will be my good son again in the future... After a long time, I leaned deeply on my mother's shoulders and said a low sentence
Smelling the refreshing fragrance of my mother's hair, I closed my eyes with great nostalgia. This is the last... I let go of my mother with great reluctance. Looking at my mother's puzzled and astonished expression, I smiled, but my smile was so sad. Goodbye, my mother I love. After saying that, I didn't give my mother any time to react, so I rushed back to my room and locked it in.
My mother who was unable to adapt was left, but she couldn't react from my words for a long time. She looked at the direction of my room with a puzzled look, wondering what happened to me? Why did my behavior suddenly become so abnormal today? My mother walked to the door of my room and wanted to knock in and ask me clearly, but she stopped suddenly as soon as she raised her hand, and a few thoughts flashed across her pupils.
Suddenly my mother turned around and saw that the door of the study was actually open, which made my mother wonder again. She remembered that there was a lock before leaving the door! There was also a locked Ah when she left the study last night? At this time, the key locked on the study door attracted my mother's attention, which made her very strange. Isn't this the one she put in the room? Contact me with my bizarre behavior just now, it was easy to think that it was related to me.
As for how I know where the key is placed, I can't figure it out. My mother turned around and walked into the study without considering it much.
My mother came to the computer desk and looked at the traces of the files placed on the table. She knew that I must have turned on the computer without guessing.
Mom sat down and gently clicked the boot button of the host under the table. The screen flashed and the screen quickly entered a blue countdown. A lot of English. Anyone who has played with the computer knows that this is a kind of self-protection to start the system next time after forced shutdown.
My mother opened the browser without thinking too much. This is her private computer. She knows the most about what it is. It can cause such a big change in me. There are only a few things that she can guess.
A window pops up as soon as the browser is opened, asking whether to open the web page that was not closed last time
Of course, I would never think that the current browser can backup and save web pages that are closed normally, and ask when the next time it is opened.
After all, I still have too little experience in computer operation. Although I have touched computers several times with Fatty Xu, I can only get rid of computer novice. I still have too little knowledge of deeper operations or software application.
When my mother saw the web page automatically jump to her reply interface, everything was clear
Especially the page only stays at the end of the reply post, and the mother's eyes are inexplicably smiling.
What a fool... I only read half of the posts...
(You can jump back to the closed web page normally and jump to the mouse drag position. I don’t know if yours are OK. My 2345 ace browser is OK) I locked myself in the room. In order not to make myself feel for my mother anymore, I devoted myself to the world of learning, trying hard not to think about it or recall it, and stuffed math, physics and chemistry formulas into my mind. Only in this way can I suppress my love for my mother
Until... until... until I'm exhausted and have no strength to have any other thoughts
I dragged my extremely heavy body and fell on the bed, turned off the light with difficulty, intending to go to bed just like this
There was no change of clothes, no bath, and no wash, because I didn't have the courage to walk out of this room. I was afraid of meeting my mother, and I was afraid that I would not be able to hold any hope when I saw her. Since I decided to give up, I couldn't let myself ignite any unrealistic hope.
I fell asleep in a daze with my head, and I don't know how long it took
In the hazy, I felt someone coming in. Something suddenly stuck to my back. A faint fragrance came and made me sink.
I really want to turn around and see who it is? Is it a dream or a reality? But I was tired, and I didn't even have the strength to open my eyes. Then I lost my consciousness and fell asleep... The dividing line of all evil... The eyes were slightly swollen and painful for no reason, awakening me from the deep sleep, subconsciously opening my eyes, and a dazzling light came towards me. I realized it was already dawn.
I sat up, hugged my dizzy head, rubbed the sun's pussy behind the corners of my eyes, and cheered up my mind by the way
Suddenly I frowned because I found out how much I slept in. I remember that after finishing my exercises last night, I fell asleep on the bed. Even if I turned over, I couldn't turn it into this way. It seemed like I was pushed in.
Yes, I also found that I only covered half of the quilt, but there was no one in the other half, and there was still a faint fragrance that I was familiar with in the spare half of the space.
I got up and looked at the door lock, and found that it was actually open, which immediately scared me.
I remember that I locked the door of the room last night, why was it open? Could it be that I hit a ghost? Could it be that I was sleeping with a ghost last night? I was so scared that my face turned blue, and I wondered if this was the legendary ghost pressing the bed. Thinking of me, I popped up from the bed subconsciously, pulled out a stick from somewhere, and danced randomly.
I thought about it and it was daytime now, and even if there were ghosts, I wouldn't come out. I felt a little relieved.
But I didn't let go of my guard at all, and I looked nervous. I opened the door of the room very carefully and walked out.
After I found nothing unusual, I felt completely at ease
It seemed that my mother had already gone to work at this time, which undoubtedly made me feel relieved. At least I didn’t have to face my mother’s embarrassment. I decided to give up loving my mother. I didn’t know what kind of face I should use to meet my mother!
The school is still the same old place, but a round and fat ball is approaching sneakily.
Brother Feng, how are you doing? Have you found it?
Hey! Brother Feng, why is your face so blue? Why are you green? Fatty Xu said in surprise
Get out, your mother is green! I viciously bounced Fatty Xu's fat meat, shaking it, making people feel evil thoughts
I said we were just meeting each other, why did we do it like an undercover agent? Do you think you are playing Infernal Affairs? If Fatty Xu carefully observed my expression at this time, he would definitely find that my eyes could not contain my heart.
You know, Fatty Xu is really green, and the person who puts the green mother hat on Fatty Xu is the one who stands beside him, who is the good brother who is standing next to him.
Saying that he turned his mother green in front of him is a fact. How can I not be guilty? Isn’t it, Brother Feng, don’t you think this is very interesting? Fatty Xu kept trembling because of the flesh on his body. ÁÁÁ cried out.
I've long wanted to try it
Try your sister! Those who don’t know thought we were doing something bad! Forget it, I don’t know much about the model of the signal detector, but I copied it down, it should be that. As I said that, I handed a note to Fatty Xu
Fatty Xu's eyes turned around and he was immediately happy
Thank you so much Brother Feng, it's worthless that my admiration for you is like a surging river, and it's uncontrollable! Lin (lve) You're dead, Brother Feng, if you weren't a man, I would have kissed you
Dear, get out, I found that no matter how good your cultivation is in front of a fat man, it will be in vain
But you should be more at ease, don't be caught, otherwise you will be embarrassed. Although the cheating report in the middle school entrance examination is not as good as the college entrance examination, the consequences of being caught are quite serious. And the most important thing is, if you are caught, you will die. Don't pull me up and say that it was the idea I gave you. Hehe, Brother Feng, how could you say that? We are brothers, of course we have the blessings and it is difficult to share... Fatty Xu put one hand on my shoulder and said with a smirk.
It's because you have been implicated several times. I have no hope of blessing. I just want you not to drag me into the water. Brother Feng, how can you say that brother! Otherwise, I'll take you to a good place tonight. No, I still have to study! Let's talk about it later! I refuse to say it
No matter how good things are now, it is boring to me.
By the way, you guys, every time Aunt Wen cuts your pocket money, it’s like a dead father. Why do you want so much money? Can you spend so much money on buying food?
Don't think I don't know that your genuine AV discs seem very expensive, but they are very cheap to buy in the island country. At most, they are added with tariffs. However, I don't believe that customs will let this obscene thing flow into the country. I guess they were brought in secret! Besides, how many copies you can buy in a month? Even if you want to buy someone in the island country, you can't get many new episodes for you to buy Ah for you! Don't tell me that you took the money to save. In my understanding, you are a fat man, you are the moonlight of the moon, and you will kill you. I don't believe it. When I heard about pocket money, Fat Man Xu's expression suddenly showed a strange hint of embarrassment, as if there was something hidden.
After a moment of stuttering, Fatty Xu suddenly gritted his teeth, it's not that I don't want to tell you! Brother Feng, it's really... that... I... Forget it, you don't want to say it, I don't force it. Before Fatty Xu could say it, I interrupted him.
If there is something I need to help, although I may not be able to help with money, but I can still give advice.
As I said that, I put on Fatty Xu's shoulder. There is no need to say too much about brothers' friendship. If you have any difficulties, I will help me.
Fatty Xu nodded knowingly. It is rare that Fatty Xu is also serious.
In the next few days before the monthly exam, I locked myself in my room every day and tried not to meet my mother as much as possible.
Then I used my studies to get exhausted and fell asleep on the bed
Strangely, every morning when I wake up, I feel like I'm being pressed against a ghost. Both my sleeping position and position seem to have been adjusted. Especially since I deliberately didn't cover the quilt several times, the next day I got up, the quilt actually covered me well.
Isn't it strange? Since this is the case, why didn't I deliberately pretend to sleep all night and see who was the one who caused it? But I didn't do that, and I don't know why I didn't want to find out the truth. It should be said that I had guessed the truth in my heart, but I didn't want to poke it out.
There are only two people in this family, and I can’t think of a second person who will do this except mother. As for why the door lock is opened, it proves that it is my mother, because all door locks in the house have a backup key, and the key is right in my mother’s hands.
If I can't guess, my IQ will be eaten by a dog
But I know in my heart that although I keep saying that I give up my mother's relationship, I know that I can't let go at all. I love my mother, it's no longer because of carnal desire.
My mother's every frown and smile is imprinted in my heart. I can't remember when I started to have feelings for my mother beyond the mother's love. I just know that my life cannot be separated from my mother. In this life, I can't find a woman I love more than my mother.
Even Aunt Wen is no exception. Many male protagonists in urban fantasy novels seem to have the same love for each heroine.
But it is impossible. Humans are animals with emotions, and human emotions cannot be evenly matched. There will always be more or less overflow.
I love Aunt Wen very much. I also have a kind of maternal love dependence on Aunt Wen, but it is hard for my mother to be as good as my mother. Mother and son are not just literally said, it is a bond that is formed deep in blood.
Although Aunt Wen gave me warm maternal love, I still longed for my mother in my heart.
It is this desire that was deeply rooted in my heart as early as I was very young. The love for my mother was not achieved in one go. In fact, when I was very young, the love for my mother had already taken root and sprouted in my heart, slowly thriving, and finally developing into love.
Such deep love cannot be given up overnight. Give up is just my self-deception.
All I can do is try not to think about it and continue to deceive myself
Since that day, I have avoided my mother, and my mother has not come to me for the initiative.
It's strange that we seemed to live together, but we didn't get together miraculously, like a layer of paper is separated by a layer of paper. Everyone knows the existence of this layer of paper, but no one can poke it out.
But I found that I couldn't understand my mother anymore. According to the truth, I suddenly said those words. My mother should ask me clearly, but it seemed that it didn't matter.
I believe that with my mother's intelligence, I should be able to see that I am avoiding her, but my mother didn't care about it and cooperated with me very tacitly.
This made me feel a little angry. Although I said that I gave up on my love for my mother, Mom, at least, I asked the reason. It’s one thing that I said it or not, but my mother’s inaction made me feel that I don’t matter at all in my heart.
I feel like the heroine in an idol drama is playing tricks on her. She said she wanted to break up, but in fact, she thought in her heart that the hero could win her back
Typically, I have to do something to make a living
Time is so wonderful, it won't stop for anyone
The monthly exam has finally arrived. Everyone knows that the last monthly exam is the most important thing, whether it is the college entrance examination or the middle school entrance examination.
It directly concerns the level of the high school entrance examination. Basically, this monthly exam determines the high school entrance examination results. Even if there is a difference in scores, there will be no big difference.
Three-day exams, two subjects per day
In the answer sheet of the last subject history, the final punctuation mark was drawn to the final end of my monthly exam sprint
This can be said to be the longest time in my life. It is because I really made up my mind to study seriously. Although I have changed a lot before, I have not studied so frantically like this time.
However, the rewards were also generous. Although the results have not yet been released, I am very confident that I will surpass the past. Even if I can't reach the score line of No. 1 Middle School in the city, I don't think it will be too far. Even if the difference is, it will be a few points at most. As long as I work harder in the last month, it will be absolutely fine to catch up with these points.
For this reason, my mood swept away the haze of the previous few days and even my spirits are much better.
I walked out of the classroom with my schoolbag on one shoulder and held the bag strap with one hand. Sure enough, I felt completely different from the feeling of getting good results through my own efforts and stealing the papers. The fruitful fruits obtained through my hard work are undoubtedly the sweetest
But this kind of good mood was quickly dispersed by a vulgar face. I think everyone can guess who it is! That's right, the fat man named Xu, whose face was full of flesh and fat, a vulgar smell hit me.
Damn it, it's so disgusting. I've been busy with the exam these days and haven't had time to pay attention to him. I didn't expect that I came to him just after the exam.
I can see his graceful look from afar. Needless to say, I can guess that this fat man should have done well in the exam. Oh no, I should say that he did a good job in the exam.
Seeing that the round fat ball was about to hit me, I quickly reached out to stop me and stopped...
Needless to say, I know, you succeeded, right? Wow, Brother Feng, you are so amazing! You have guessed this too? My admiration for you is like... Stop!
Fatty Xu was interrupted by me before he finished speaking. I really couldn't stand the disgusting feeling of this fat man.
I gave Fatty Xu a blank look. Just your graceful look, I almost wrote the word "deafe" on my forehead, and I couldn't tell if I was blind.
Brother Feng, you don’t know, Taobao’s magical artifact is indeed powerful, but all the instruments I brought in today were not detected, it was simply too strong. Fatty Xu couldn’t help but feel depressed and excited.
OK, isn't it just that you cheat? As for that? And the answer you got from cheating may not be true! Hehe, Brother Feng, you don't know. This time I went to Taobao and found out that the cheating tool online is so sluggish. The merchant selling signal-blocking instruments recommended me to buy a multi-functional scanning and analysis backend processor, which supports remote Internet monitoring and built-in i7 processor. Any question can be answered quickly as long as it is scanned. Although it is a bit expensive, it has to be said to be very worthwhile. Now I don't have to worry about my high school entrance examination anymore. Let alone the No. 1 Middle School, I think I can pass even if it is a Tsinghua Affiliated Middle School. How much does it cost? I heard Fatty Xu say a lot of high-end special words, and I subconsciously reacted
How much is 16,000?
Ten thousand six! I suddenly turned my eyes and almost fell over
Ten thousand sixteen, I damn, even after the global financial tsunami in 2008, today's inflation, 16 million yuan is still a considerable amount
For me, a poor child, I have never seen 16,000 in my life, what does it look like?
Damn it, I spent 16,000 RMB to cheat in the exam. Do you still have to live? Well! The world of rich people is indeed something that mortals cannot understand.
I spent a lot of money, but fortunately I still had a little pocket money last month, otherwise it wouldn't be enough. After my bank card was bound, Taobao gave me a credit limit of Huabei, which was more than 50,000! As he said that, Fatty Xu was complacent on his face, and seemed to have done something amazing.
Fatty, you are awesome, I will accept you if I don’t adapt to the local conditions. Really, Brother Feng, I have the hope of going to No. 1 Middle School to go to the same school as you. Fatty Xu paused
By the way, Brother Feng, how are you doing in the exam? I won’t pass the exam by then, but you are just a loser!
You keep one hundred and twenty hearts. With my intelligence and talent, I don’t take the small No. 1 Middle School seriously! Maybe it’s because of the ideal performance of my exams, I started to swell and kept boasting.
I don’t think about who was studying in junior high school and even had to rely on my mother to go through the back door to study. A certain pig’s feet had forgotten this.
Hehe, it seems that we brothers are destined to continue to dominate the city No. 1 Middle School. Fatty Xu said happily: Yes, I told Aunt Lan to prepare a big meal in the morning. It is rare to be happy today, so it is better to come to my house for dinner! It is a reward for our hard work these days.
Well... next time! I want to go home for dinner today. I haven't seen each other for so many days. Of course, I also want to go to Aunt Wen to explain my longing.
But I don’t know why, what I want most at the moment is to go home and tell my mother about my performance in this monthly exam
After finally sending Fatty Xu, I rushed home without stopping because I couldn't wait to share my joy with my mother.
Although I have forgotten the decision I made to give up, I just wondered if my mother would be happy if she knew the news? I couldn't stop being excited when I thought of this.
As soon as I opened the door, I shouted to my mother happily. What's strange is that the living room is silent and there is no response.
It shouldn't be fine! As the principal's mother, who has nothing to do in the past few days, can get off work early, so why can't she not be at home? Well? My mother's shoes are all there, so why can't no one answer?
When I lowered my head to slip my slippers, I found that my mother's shoes were neatly placed on the shoe rack on the side, and I suddenly became confused.
I walked into the house and shouted as I walked towards the room: Mom, mom, are you at home?
Still no one responded, my mother wouldn't really go out! But how did she go out with her mother's shoes at home? Could it be that she ran out barefoot? I thought my mother shouldn't be at home, so she walked through her mother's room symbolically and glanced at her, then she immediately pulled back
Huh?
I was stunned when I brushed my mother's room door
As if I saw something incredible, I looked back and saw my mother appearing in the room, and I was stunned.
Mom? Isn’t this at home? Why did I shout so loudly just now and didn’t respond? Could it be that I didn’t hear it? It’s impossible! My house is not as good as I can’t hear it in the living room! It’s possible for Fatty Xu’s house, let’s forget it! Even if I close the door, I can still hear it
Besides, the living room is only a few walls away from the room, and there are channels for voice transmission. It is difficult for me to shout so loudly that I can't hear it! Unless my mother falls asleep
I looked at my mother's side figure and was about to shout, but I found that my mother seemed to be staring at me with something and didn't notice my existence at all. I didn't even know that I walked in.
At this time, I noticed that my mother's eyes looked at the documents in her hand were extremely cold, and her body trembled slightly.
Mom, I went over and shouted
As if I was awakened by my shout, my mother immediately put away her cold face, quickly put the documents in her hand and stuffed them into the file bag, and then put them in the cabinet.
Turn around and smile at me lightly, you are back! How are you doing in the exam? Are you doing well?
Hehe, mom, guess? Although I was a little confused about what my mother had just happened, I couldn't help but feel joy when I heard my mother mention the monthly exam.
Do you still need to guess? The answers are written on your face. After knowing that I did well in the exam, my mother also smiled sincerely, and the gloom of the moment was wiped out
I suddenly said happily, what do you want to eat tonight, Mom makes it for you. I want to eat steamed lamb, steamed bear paw, steamed deer tail; Braised flower chicken, roasted chick, roasted geese; Braised pig, braised duck, braised chicken, bacon, pine flower belly, dried meat, sausage, assorted supan, smoked chicken, bacon white belly, steamed eight-treasure pig, jiangri rice stuffed duck, jar pheasant, jar quail; assorted bacon, stewed pigeon eggs, silver shreds, and many more, stir-fried shrimps from hibiscus (this paragraph is taken from the clinic's laughter episode 19, enter it randomly, don't be surprised, just make a joke) Well, mom will go shopping now, and mom is going to go out as she said
Yes, Mom, what were you just watching? You were so sensible? I didn't even hear me calling you. I suddenly asked, but my mother's smile froze, and a cold flashed through her eyes, but she quickly returned to normal.
It's nothing, it's just some school documents. I went to buy groceries. I brought the wallet on the cabinet next to me and walked out of the room with me. After I came out, my mother locked the room.
It seems that my mother is desperate and never gives me a chance to explore, but the more this happens, the more curious I am.
What exactly makes my mother show such cold eyes? Although my mother was cold before and always had a stern face, she did not look like she was just now, as cold as she was from the heart.
And I found that my mother's smile was a bit weird, as if she was forcing her to smile
This time I performed so well in the monthly exam, and my mom has no reason to be unhappy! You know, my mom used to look forward to the stars and the moon and even to be so strict with me that I couldn't expect my grades to improve. Now my grades have not only improved, but also have the hope of getting admitted to No. 1 Middle School. My mom should be happy.
What exactly is that my mother can’t even be happy when I got the good grades in the exam? Unfortunately, my mother locked the door of the room, so I had to bury this curiosity in my heart and have the opportunity to inquire again...
![[Urban Novels] The Green of Love - NTR, foreign country, crazy girl](/templates/nvshen/themes/img/thumb_1.png)