Wedge: I just... just not worth it for you

17days ago Urban Novels 7
Eleven years ago

The sky is blue, the flowers are beautiful, and the people are beautiful

The vast world is right under your feet, and a beautiful future is right before your eyes

Feng Dingyan thinks he has the potential to be a poet, not just a poet. He can support the earth with a pole.

Feng Dingyan grinned, walked down the greystone steps in front of the teaching building with ease, walked out of the school gate, and sat in a luxury car parked on the side of the road.

He picked up the college admission letter, blinked mischievously at his father sitting in the driver's seat, and smiled.

Feng Songnian was amused by his son's actions and expressions, and said with a smile: Hi, Dingyan, I hope you hid your emotions in front of your teachers and classmates just now. Eighteen years old is a sign of adulthood. You must learn to restrain yourself and keep your mind calm. There will be many battles in the future that you need to conquer and fight.

Feng Dingyan threw the notice to the back seat of the car and said proudly: I just won a victory, Dad, wait, this is the beginning, and I will hear more good news from your son in the future.

Feng Songnian nodded, his words were full of love, it was Ah, this time you won, you won very beautifully

This is my father's highest praise. Feng Dingyan laughed loudly. It was the sunny and happy laughter of an energetic boy when he was relaxing.

Feng Songnian couldn't help but chuckled and said in a doting way: You are a great guy

Looking at the deep pride on my father's face, Feng Dingyan felt that the hard work over the years was worth it.

My father is his role model and the driving force for progress

Feng Songnian has a superior family, and he is smart and hardworking.

After graduating from university, whether in politics, business or academics, he can live a relaxed and comfortable life, but he chose glacier geology, a difficult and arduous industry as his lifelong goal. Now he is the leading expert in China, presided over a national key laboratory.

And what's rare is that my father is approachable and has no airs toward anyone. He is always gentle and gentle.

Feng Dingyan is grateful and glad from the bottom of his heart when he has such a person as a father

Feng Dingyan held his father's hand and said sincerely: Dad, you taught him well

Feng Songnian patted his shoulder, started the car, slowly stepped into the traffic, and drove towards the city.

Where are we going? Feng Dingyan knew they would celebrate together, but he didn't know the specific arrangements

Your mother has booked a banquet

Feng Dingyan frowned, no, this is a trick.

Your mother cares about you very much, she is happy now

No, the only thing my mother cares about is her appearance, status and power. Feng Dingyan thought so but couldn't say it out loud, because his father once severely criticized him for any disrespect for Sun Hong.

This is also something that Feng Dingyan cannot understand. He doesn't know why his father chose Sun Hong as his wife

That's right, Sun Hong is very beautiful, her exquisite makeup always complements each other, and she looks like she just came out of the most advanced beauty salon.

Coupled with her years of experience in the mall, her tall and enchanting appearance adds a bit more maturity and sophistication.

Feng Songnian, from all aspects, is a decent soldier and a humble and wise scholar.

For Sun Hong, it is better to say that he is her business card and a perfect credibility speech than to say that he is her husband.

Feng Songnian's reputation became more and more famous, Sun Hong's business became more and more successful, and the lives of the two of them became more and more distant.

They always respect each other in public and are very loving, but when they go home and close the door, they look like strangers, can't talk, can't argue, can't do anything.

Feng Dingyan didn't know that Sun Hong had his own way of entertainment. No matter how secret and cautious it was, it would be impossible to be able to keep it from leaking.

Whenever he thinks of this, he grits his teeth and holds up his father's dissatisfaction.

Feng Songnian is definitely not a man who is greedy for beauty, let alone a luxurious material life

Feng Dingyan has always believed that the reason why his father was in a stalemate with his mother was because he was considering his growth.

Dad, you just said that I am already an adult and will be in college soon. Feng Dingyan took a breath and said that he had been tolerating for a long time: You don’t have to tolerate my mom anymore, divorce, dad, I understand

Feng Songnian was stunned for a moment, glanced at him with a complicated expression, and then pulled his eyes back to the road. Who said I was tolerating your mother?

Feng Dingyan looked like 'Don't hide it from me, I know everything'. I haven't seen it for so many years. You are unhappy with my mother, let alone happiness depends on your conditions. It's not that she must have. There is no need to spend the rest of your life in Ah

Feng Songnian's expression is serious, don't interfere with my mother's affairs

Feng Dingyan didn't give up and wanted to continue persuading, but you have to think about yourself

Ding Yan, Feng Songnian immediately interrupted him, things didn't seem like that, I know your mother and I didn't set a good example, this is where our parents neglected

Feng Dingyan shook his head and denied, I'm not blaming you, I've never thought of dad so, I just... I'm just not worth it for you

Feng Songnian was not angry when he heard this, but laughed

He thought for a while and said: In terms of feelings, your parents don’t think that having love or not is meaningful to talk about anything. Choosing to be silent is not because we are not good at speaking, nor is we hide any secrets from each other. It’s just... the relationship is our own, just keep it in your heart, it has nothing to do with others; and marriage is between two people. As long as we find a comfortable way to get along with each other, it is enough, and it has nothing to do with whether it is worth it or not. It has nothing to do with whether it is worth it or not.

Feng Dingyan disagreed after hearing this. His father looked relaxed. To put it bluntly, he loved the wrong person and asked for trouble.

Although he was confused about his father's obsession, he could only hide his regret.

My father is Feng Dingyan's only admirer and only beloved in his life

Feng Songnian undoubtedly loves his mother deeply, so he can accept everything, and for the sake of his father, he will tolerate his mother.

Feng Songnian saw it, how could he not understand what Feng Dingyan was thinking

He sighed secretly, Ding Yan looked like his mother, fair and handsome, with a righteous facial features.

He rarely tries to prove that he has grown up like other boys who have entered puberty. Most of the time he can distinguish between good and bad, good and evil, and accept teachings humbly.

But Feng Songnian also knew that Feng Dingyan would stick to what he believed in. Maybe he couldn't be strong, but being stubborn also made people helpless.

He really doesn't want the child to treat Sun Hong and women because he has any negative emotions

Ding Yan, Feng Songnian parked the car at the entrance of the restaurant, but did not get out of the car immediately, but grabbed him and said earnestly: In the future, you will know that among all the people you know and know you, there is always a person who is destined to let you see it, let you remember that whether it is to please you or make you sad, she will replace countless things you think are important little by little, willing to work hard for her, and hope that you can meet such a girl, and hope that such a girl can meet you when you are together, cherish you when you are not together, cherish you in your heart.

This is the last time Feng Dingyan talked to his father

Two days later, Feng Songnian went to Himalaya to carry out the inspection mission

It was a regular trip, but just when he was expecting his father to return, he received news that the inspection team encountered a sudden blizzard and Feng Songnian died of the line of duty.

Feng Dingyan just felt that the sky seemed to collapse, and hid in the room and cried until his eyelids were swollen and unable to open them.

What's worse is that with his father's death, his fragile relationship with his mother was on the verge of breaking down

Thinking of Sun Hong and Feng Dingyan, I feel upset and my stomach is disturbed

Although her mother is still mourning, Feng Dingyan is very suspicious that she had shed a tear for her husband.

In fact, the first thing she did was to purchase. The black clothes were tightly wrapped around her body, making her skin look as white as fat, and she could hardly cover her chest. She also had bright red lips, white roses on her hair bun, and sad expressions in her eyes, which made her look like a new little widow.

Feng Dingyan looked at his fucking look and couldn't help but sarcastically said: You are so beautiful, you can be a model for the funeral company.

Sun Hong was not angry after hearing this, but her sad expression quickly turned to happiness and complacent.

Specially prepared for the memorial service. While looking in the mirror, Sun Hong practiced her facial expressions with satisfaction, sadness, missing, and strength...

It was a luxurious and grand memorial service, and the reason was very simple. Sun Hong seized the opportunity and used his father's death to expand his influence and social circle for himself.

Although Feng Dingyan rejected from the bottom of his heart, he could not express his disagreement on his fucking approach.

This does not mean that he will obey and obey, especially when the dispute between the two involves his new girlfriend, Zhou Xiao

Zhou Xiao is his college classmate. Feng Dingyan fell in love with her at first sight, and then he pursued her passionately.

It took only one week for two people to go out and go in and out

This memorial service, he insisted on asking Zhou Xiao to stand by his side

Not surprising at all, Sun Hong was very dissatisfied

Don't you think this is inappropriate? You have only known each other for a month. In the past few days, the same topic has appeared more than once. Feng Dingyan is really annoyed.

Mom, we have discussed this matter. Feng Dingyan was patient. He knew that Sun Hong didn't like Zhou Xiao, but he didn't want Zhou Xiao to be ugly in public.

I know you don't like me and I oppose Zhou Xiao, but I'm thinking about you. Sun Hong's voice is filled with care, and a hint of doubt and blame.

I know, mom, please go and greet the guests, don't let them think you've neglected them. Turning her attention to the public has always been the easiest way to get out of here.

This time it doesn't work

Sun Hong leaned forward and patted Feng Dingyan's hand. I know you are doing what you think is right. Dingyan is very similar to me. Not only is she looking, but she also has the way of doing things and her stubbornness. However, I think you are not old enough to be determined and not listen to advice. So I want to remind you not to play with this woman. She is different from each other and can't give you what you want.

Feng Dingyan really wanted to close his eyes and roar. Doing so would not only vent the sadness that had accumulated for a whole day, but also be far away from this woman who was called her mother.

However, he knew very well that this kind of venting would only convince Sun Hong that Zhou Xiao was indeed not suitable for him

But if his mother thought he would be grateful for her care, it would be wrong. Feng Dingyan said: What did you give to my dad again! So, I am not interested in your reminder at all.

After the memorial service, Feng Dingyan went back to school directly. He almost never went home, avoiding all opportunities to meet and talk to his mother.

Only if you really can't hide, will you stand beside Sun Hong and perform the role of a mother, a filial son.

When there are many people, they will chat and laugh with each other, but after a little bit of it, I began to recall every bit of it with my father, and I felt my heart hurt like a tear.

He really wants to see him again and talk to him again

Feng Dingyan secretly made up his mind that although he didn't have time to be filial to his father, he was his father's son and a continuation of his life.

He will work hard to see the scenery in this world that he has not seen yet, and do many things that he has not done yet.

Feng Dingyan is harder and more serious than ever

He quickly re-entered his intense study in life and brought everything back to normal track

It was taking the senior high school mathematics class that day, and the principal suddenly leaned in and called him out. It turned out that Feng Songnian's two comrades came to visit him from afar

Since my father had an accident, his friends have come all over the country to comfort memorialize

Seeing the old friend's child, both of them couldn't help but turn red and took Feng Dingyan to a restaurant for dinner.

After a few people sat for a while, others arrived one after another after hearing the news. Soon, the seats in the private room were filled with my father's colleagues and comrades-in-arms. Several of them came to greet them with their families and children.

Without exception, everyone cared about Feng Dingyan very much. While praising him for his intelligence, learning and excellence, they all told them if they encounter difficulties or need help.

These people, including Feng Dingyan's familiar face, some of them who have known but have not seen each other for many years, and some of them have heard that they were the first time they met.

Feng Dingyan is moved and grateful from the bottom of his heart

However, he was not used to crying like a child in front of everyone, so he almost didn't dare to have long eye contact with anyone

After the meal, Feng Dingyan politely invited everyone to visit his home. Several times Sun Hong greeted guests from afar, and he was already familiar with the road.

At the same time, he called his mother again, but no one answered

Feng Dingyan kept contacting Zhu Hong since he saw his father's comrades, but he couldn't find anyone on his mobile phone or company, and he couldn't get a response to the message.

Feng Dingyan is not surprised that Sun Hong's sudden disappearance. His mother has always been a busy person. When his family needs her, she will never see her shadow.

The group came home. Feng Dingyan opened the door and was surprised to see two pairs of shoes at the door. One pair belonged to his mother, who else?

Are there any guests at home?

He was puzzled in his heart, and then a thought flashed through him. He seemed to fall into the frozen river. His whole body dropped sharply and his mind was even blank.

Feng Dingyan walked to his mother's bedroom in a few steps. The two of them were already dressed in decent clothes, but Zhu Hong's messy hair and the smell of sex in the air were filled with sex. Even a fool knew what happened in this room just now.

Feng Dingyan was extremely angry and stepped forward, slapped Sun Hong in the face, and then was about to slap him with his backhand, his hand was pinched by the man next to him.

Feng Dingyan seemed crazy, turned around and called him up. The two of them started fighting, and the scene immediately became a mess.

Sun Hong screamed and stopped, but the voice was extremely far away to Feng Dingyan.

His emotions were completely out of control, and he had only one thought in his heart, to kill the man in front of him, to kill his mother, to kill the adulterer and the adulterer's mistress to death.

I don't know how long it took, but Feng Dingyan was finally pulled away by the guests who came in with him.

He shouted and cursed, and when he saw his mother leaving, he was even more anxious to chase him out after her red eyes when he saw her mother's attitude.

The man was already driving on the side of the road and was about to leave with Sun Hong

Feng Dingyan ignored the customers and a bunch of curious passers-by and shouted fiercely to Zhu Hong that he would never come back.

But her mother seemed to be unaffected at all, and she could still walk to the car gracefully and calmly. While opening the car door, she turned around and looked at Feng Dingyan.

Forgot to tell you something. Sun Hong looked up at him with her eyes, showing her signature smile

Feng Dingyan's red face immediately turned pale. He was too familiar with Sun Hong and knew how dangerous such a smile was.

More than once, he looked at his mother with a bright smile while cutting his opponent into two pieces in half.

At that moment, Feng Dingyan felt an unprecedented strange feeling, as if he was dead, and someone stepped on his grave and sang and danced, celebrating with great tribute

Sun Hong said clearly: Remember, this man is Zheng Xiaoshan, he is your biological father