Chapter 20

I seemed to have a nightmare that lasted for a century, sinking in the endless darkness, unable to see the direction clearly, and unable to breathe. I fell into an abyss, falling endlessly, and unable to see the bottom.

When I finally woke up, I saw the pale walls, all kinds of strange bottles, and a slender tube inserted on my arms. I struggled for a moment, weak and weak

I understand it's a hospital

A familiar figure beside the bed, and my movements woke her up like a frightened bird

Are you awake? A difficult smile appeared on Lin Lan's face

I looked at the familiar face, my eyes were swollen, my hair was messy, and my face was haggard. I would have felt extremely distressed if I had been normal, but now, I only have numbness.

Lin Lan ran out quickly, then ran in again, holding a lunch box in her hand, and opened it. The familiar fragrance was swaying, but I had no appetite.

Husband, eat a little, you haven't eaten for two days. Lin Lan whispered, as if she was begging

A figure came over, it was Li Yàn. She walked up to me with a big belly and had a little difficulty, and whispered, Brother, eat something, I shook my head, I want to go home

The doctor said that the toxins in your body have not been drained yet. Will we go home after recovery? Li Yàn said as if he was coaxing a child.

I want to go home My voice is weak and firm

Li Yàn pressed the button beside the bed, and a doctor came over. Li Yàn said something to him. The doctor shook his head, and seemed to disagree, but Li Yàn insisted on telling him.

The doctor came over, flipped my eyelids, then opened my mouth and looked carefully

Turning back, he talked to Li Yàn again, and then a nurse came over and took a piece of paper. Lin Lan wrote something on the paper and returned it to her.

Husband, let's go home, Lin Lan whispered

The sun was dazzling outside, Lin Lan was driving the car, and Li Yàn was by my side. She kept teasing me, but I didn't have a slight desire to speak

Li Yàn's expression dimmed. She exchanged glances with Lin Lan, then shook her head and sighed.

I went downstairs speechlessly, Lin Lan and Li Yàn supported me left and right. I watched Li Yàn with a hard-working look on his stomach, broke free from them, and struggled into the elevator.

When I got home, I fell down weakly on the bed, looking at the ceiling, my mind was blank

Brother, I don’t know what to say about you. Let’s talk about it carefully. You have a good rest. Call me if you have something to do. My stomach feels a little uncomfortable. Let’s go back first.

Li Yàn held his stomach and said with a little difficulty

Thank you, I looked at her and said weakly

It's okay, Li Yàn shook his head and gave me a smile, brother, don't think too much, live a good life

After Li Yàn said goodbye to Lin Lan, he left. Only Lin Lan and I were left in the room, and the air was filled with the silence of death.

After being silent for a long time, Lin Lan finally spoke, Husband, I'm sorry, I looked at her, staring at her as if she was about to pierce her.

Is what Lin Qian said true? I asked

Would you like to listen to my explanation? Lin Lan's eyes were filled with a hint of pleading

Is what Lin Qian said true? I repeated it expressionlessly

Lin Lan finally nodded

The whole world collapsed, my heart shattered into millions of pieces, the ocean of sadness and pain surrounded me, I was so sad that I couldn't breathe, only tears on my cheeks slid down silently

Lin Lan cried bitterly. She trembled with her hands and wanted to wipe away the tears from the corners of my eyes, but I avoided it. She collapsed beside the bed, crying so hard that she couldn't help herself.

I looked at her blankly, my heart was already broken, and my chest was aching. I wanted to reach out to comfort this woman I loved deeply, but was stopped by the deep pain.

I'll tell you all. Lin Lan finally stopped crying. Her expression was numb and desperate.

The year Lin Lan graduated was also the most difficult year for her family.

My sister was going to school, but his father fell ill, and he had severe cirrhosis

The family is barely buried, and the family is about to collapse

Lin Lan had no choice but to embark on the road of no return

The person who introduced her on this path was actually the director of her school

Some people wear sacred cloaks, but there are animals in them.

The director saw her embarrassment and pretended to say he wanted to help her

On the surface, she wanted to introduce the tutor to her, but when she walked into the student's home, she found out that it was the director's home.

She struggled and the director did not force her. She just took out a stack of banknotes, thinking about her father and sister, and finally she surrendered.

From that day on, Lin Lan's world fell and the red money became her most fatal weakness. In order to treat her father and to pay tuition for her sister, she fell into it.

Although the director is old and has a high reputation, he also has the so-called upper-class social circle of Lin Lan's beauty and elegance, sexy charm, and has become a tool for him to show off and bribe.

Lin Lan began to come into contact with the circle that boasted of the upper class. In that famous metropolis, everyone had a prominent identity, either a dignitary or a business elite. Behind her well-dressed halo, she had the same dirty and debauchery of beasts.

They vented their desires in Lin Lan and exchanged a lot of money for Lin Lan's young body and youth

From being numb to being used to, to taking the initiative to look for opportunities, Lin Lan learned how to get the most rewards with the smallest price. Lin Lan spent a year to raise enough money, perform surgery on her father, and save the tuition from her sister to graduation.

If Lin Qian hadn't discovered her sister's secret during that summer vacation, maybe all this would never have been known by others

Lin Qian is a sensible girl. She is grateful for her sister's sacrifice for herself and her family, so she refused to go to school after getting into college, so she gave up on school and went to work.

But at that time, the director's son fell in love with Lin Lan's sister. He threatened Lin Qian to accompany her to bed. Lin Lan refused to do so. She quietly prepared a camera and recorded a video of herself and the director, as well as the video of the director taking her to bribe her.

Her son refused to give up, so he found a handsome guy, confused Lin Qian with his magnificent appearance, and then actually made Lin Qian get involved in drugs, and finally got controlled Lin Qian.

After Lin Lan found out all this, she called the police furiously, although for those in the circle, such a thing was just a bunch of side dishes.

But later, Lin Lan forced herself to death and took out the secretly recorded videos, threatening to make it public on the Internet.

The director was finally a little scared. He didn't expect that Lin Lan would be so strong for his sister. Once those things happened, in addition to the years of achievements he had accumulated, they would also involve the people in the circle behind him. That was what he most reluctant to see if he didn't want to see.

Later, they signed an agreement with Lin Lan, who returned the videos and promised that there were no replicas and were not allowed to stay in that city in the future. They promised that her sister would not be sent to the detention center and gave her a sum of money.

Lin Lan got the money and fled the city with her sister that night. She ran away to Guangzhou, changed her name and got her ID card again, for fear of being involved in the dark world again.

Everything seems to be able to start over, but her sister, who is entangled by the devil of drugs, can never turn over again

She tried to quit several times, but in the end she failed. Lin Lan almost wanted to send her to the drug rehabilitation center several times, but she was eventually defeated by her inner family affection

She doesn't want to care about her, but she can't ignore her. Every time Lin Qian asks her to borrow money, she will struggle for a long time.

Later, Lin Qian began to get along with some of the same people. She had a boyfriend and was also an addict. She shared it together when she had money. When she had no money, she either borrowed it from Lin Lan or started selling her body just to exchange for a little satisfaction.

Lin Lan and her sister's relationship became increasingly tense. She didn't know how to discipline her sister, and she couldn't care. She thought about calling the police many times and couldn't do it in the end, so she could only let it go.

Until later, Li Yàn couldn't bear it and introduced me to Lin Lan because my family was well off and if there was something really going on, she would have a support. Moreover, Li Yàn knew that I was diligent and motivated, and that I was down-to-earth and sincere, so we met at the party.

So, everything is designed by you, I am the prey you want? I said coldly

no

Lin Lan shook her head and said numbly, "Actually, I didn't think so much. She just introduced you to me. What happened later? Actually, I never thought that I might not like you, and I don't have the ability to control someone like me."

What about that game? You asked Li Yàn to hint me? I remembered the color guessing game that day

It turned out that Li Yàn told you? She had never told me that she had always said that I had figured it out with you. At that time, I always felt this way.

Lin Lan said in surprise

Maybe she wants us to be together, too

So, is everything fake? I said coldly

No, Lin Lan said, Actually, at first I just wanted to see what the person she introduced was like. If I don’t like it, then forget it, but I felt good about you at first sight. Later, when I saw you falling down and the pain was like that, and rushing forward with me desperately, I felt that you are very brave and responsible.

I looked at her coldly, Lin Lan didn't care about my gaze, and continued

Maybe you think I am a slutty woman, yes, I have had sex with many men, but in my heart, what a helpless choice, what a lowly path, I am like a tissue, and I am thrown away after I wipe the dirty things. Do you think such a woman will have any feelings?

Lin Lan said here, a look of pain appeared on her face

To be honest, I have never slept with a man I like for so many years, even if I have feelings, so I couldn't help but feel it. That night I couldn't help but find it difficult to control myself. You are willing to serve me... and made me feel the first time I was loved and held by others as a woman. That was the first time I was moved by you, so I am willing to take medicine for you and let you enjoy everything.

I kept thinking, if you know my past, would you still be willing to do this for me? You will definitely think I am a dirty woman, right?

Lin Lan said expressionlessly

No woman is willing to say those things. At that time, you are already my whole life. If I say it, I will definitely lose you, and then I will have nothing.

I shook my head in pain, not knowing how to answer

Later, when we did it the next day, you insisted on wearing a condom and said you didn't want to hurt me. That was the second time I was moved by you. I have seen too many men. They torture me and play with me, just feel good about myself. When did you care about my life or death? So, when you said you wanted me to be your girlfriend, that was the happiest moment in my life. If there was anything happier, it could only be the day when you put on your wedding dress and walk towards the sacred palace by you.

That day, you said you would come to propose to me with flowers and rings. That was the third time I was moved by you. Even if you just coaxed me and lied to me, I felt that you were sincere. In the short two days we met, I was moved by a man three times. If you must question my feelings for you, I have nothing to say.

We haven't used condoms recently, but we haven't gotten pregnant for so long. I have always wondered if I used to take too much contraceptive pills, but now I can't get pregnant, but it doesn't matter. Anyway, I won't have the chance to wait until that day.

Lin Lan choked up and cried in tears

Thank you, this period of time has given me more happiness than I have in my life. When I am with you, I have forgotten those nightmares. If it weren't for my sister, I would never want to think about the past again. So, no matter what happens in the future, I remember that you once loved me, even if I die, I would be in peace.

I once said that Lin Lan is like an onion. I always want to peel her off one piece and see what she looks like inside

Now I finally stripped everything, but Lin Lan no longer exists

I became nothing, and I was so spicy that I couldn't breathe

Sorry, after I leave, you have to take good care of yourself. You always like to eat cold food and stay up late... Alas, don't worry me, if I live my unhappiness because of me, I will hate myself for the rest of my life

Lin Lan stood up and walked towards the door staggeringly

I burst into tears and wanted to keep her, but I couldn't say a word

Lin Lan looked back at me, then walked out and closed the door

My heart seems to be locked up forever, my world is dark, I just lie down like this, like death, without consciousness, without desire