Chapter 29 Letter to the third sister

It took me half an hour to finish the letter. The content of the letter was about Nan Nan's schooling. I felt that something was hard to say in person, so I had to use this form

But I was afraid that the content of the letter would be inappropriate, so I carefully reviewed the content of the letter:

Hello, Nannan!

Please forgive me for not being able to send you to the station in person, please forgive me!

For a few days, you are like a beautiful angel, following me, making me feel happy and proud. I seem to see your beautiful future from your words and actions. I am sure that a pure girl like you, who is born with beauty, will definitely have a bright future as long as she works hard.

I have been thinking carefully about your schooling these days. Judging from your age, you are not yet eighteen years old. According to my opinion, it is normal for a girl to be admitted to university and at the age of twenty. As long as you want to study, you will have an ideal score

I was in college for a long time. The competition was much more intense at that time. The current rate of admission was more than 60%, while it was only about 20%. In addition, I was a rural child. You know that the educational conditions in rural areas cannot be compared with those in the city, so my grades have always been in the middle class.

That year, there were more than a dozen people in our class, and I was not among them.

I regretted it very much at the time and felt very embarrassed. My parents raised me for more than ten years, but they did not see hope. I haven't eaten for several days and have been thinking about what to do?

My family conditions are not as good as that, but I still want to study. I secretly swear that I will get into an ideal university, but I don’t know if my parents agree to repeat the exam.

So, although I swear in my heart, I dare not tell my parents because I know they are working hard and the family is short of people working.

In the countryside, a young man had to help his family work when he was sixteen or seventeen years old, or went out to work and earn money. I was already nineteen years old at that time, so I was not qualified to tell my family about repeating the exam. Besides, I might not be able to pass the exam.

However, beyond my expectations, my parents took the initiative to talk to me about this. They encouraged me to repeat the exam. I was so happy that I didn't meet my eyes all night. I was imagining that I became an excellent student, got into a good university, and left my poor hometown.

It’s not that I dislike the countryside. To be honest, as an aspiring young man, especially after entering high school, if he doesn’t want to live his life in the city, it’s not my heart. The countryside will never be as good as the city. Even if life is better in the future, it cannot be compared with the city in terms of living habits, cultural atmosphere, transportation and spare time.

Your second sister is a very excellent girl. She is very smart and has a family concept. She hopes that she can manage this family so that your mother can live a good old age. It is not easy for her most of her life.

And your elder sister, in order for you to go to school well, she started working early. She thought that if she passed the university, would she live like this now?

So, it is not too much for your elder sister to give up her studies for you.

Although your second sister is very capable, her strength is limited. If your future can be better, wouldn’t it be more beneficial to your mother and your elder sister?

You should understand what I mean. Your second sister reminded me, but it is always difficult for me to speak in front of you, so I wrote this letter to you, hoping that you can gain something

The key is, what do you think?

If you don't want to repeat the school, there are many private universities that can attend. I can help you contact an ideal school

I am one of your brothers. If you have anything, don’t be polite to me. I will do my best to do my best.

Finally, I wish you all the best! I call me when I get home and call me by phone at home

Brother: Zijun

But after reading the letter, although there was no obvious inappropriateness, he put the letter in an envelope and stuffed it into the ground of Lao Zhang's door.

But after doing all this, I still couldn't sleep after lying on the bed, and my mind was very confused. Of course, it was mainly due to Liu Li's affairs, and I couldn't help but think of Ling.

When I got Ling, I felt relaxed. I felt that since she had a husband, even though she had no feelings, she would not have any emotional entanglement with me.

It was not until she got pregnant with my child that I felt the seriousness of the problem, so I didn't contact her for a long time

But the relationship between men and women is sometimes elusive. After a long time of contact, I will have some feelings. Later, I found that she was very infatuated with me, so I felt that I could no longer be indifferent to her infatuation. I had to take some responsibility for her. At that time, I didn't expect that there would be a second lover.

Now my relationship with Ling has been in a stable stage. I can slowly get along with her, develop and consolidate this relationship, so I feel a sense of security in my heart. I know that she will not pose any threat to me.

But since I met Li Chun, I soon fell in love with her and felt like a woman I had never had before. It was just because of my relationship with her sister that I dare not think too much.

But I still want to get along well with her. I think she treats me very well, but it seems that she is a brother and has no love element. However, I still have to work hard to make it. Even if I can't become a lover, I have to become a good friend. I can talk about some elegant theories. I have found that this is her strength, especially emotional matters. It seems that she has a lot of knowledge in this area. I think that having such a confidant can also increase some emotional knowledge.

I thought that in a place like Shanghai, at most one person could be a confidante, and I felt very contented when I was alone in my lonely work. Since I didn't want to look for it outside, Liu Li was the first to be affected.

In my heart, although Liu Li is very beautiful, she is not as beautiful as Li Chun. Although she is very knowledgeable in literature, she is not as beautiful as Li Chun.

In my frequent contact with her recently, I found that there was something too realistic in her mind. She liked Li Qingzhao very much and might want to learn from her in marriage.

I learned about her reality from her love experience with her boyfriend. When I asked her why she was willing to talk to me, she would know in the future, but she was very upright and generous. Her snobbery is mainly reflected in big things, which ordinary people can't tell.

I can still tolerate sex. I should be content with my wife and Ling.

I want to be a bad man who is lustful but not lustful. I don’t want to do a good man, and I can’t do it either. This is what women require us: men are not bad but women don’t love them.

I once went to take a shower with Director Li and saw Director Li enter the private room in the bath center. At that time, a very beautiful lady asked me to call him, and I said yes, but I waited for a while.

But I didn't do this in the end, but ran to another recliner to rest. When he came out, I returned to my original seat.

When he asked me if I did it?

I said I did it because I didn't want him to think that I could tell the matter out. In fact, these things are not surprising for us men who are out of town, but I don't like these girls very much.

My wife once asked me if I would have other women?

I glanced at her and said with certainty that I wouldn't

I also have my own theory: looking for a lover, I don’t have money, looking for a lady, I’m afraid of getting sick

My wife happily accepted my opinion, but she had not been selected to this office at that time, and she had not had too much contact with Ling.

We have some foundations between us and Ling. As long as we don’t say it, my wife will not know. I was afraid that she would have bad ideas about me, such as divorce and marrying me, but when I saw that she was afraid of me, I dispelled this concern. A woman who is afraid of lovers cannot do anything to hurt the other person. As long as you force them into a hurry, women are generally tolerant than men. Women like her are very face-saving. They only need to have sex and give her a little emotion to satisfy them. But don’t deceive their feelings, so lovers like Ling are very safe.

But Liu Li is different, and it can be said that there are big differences. She is a girl with a deep cultural heritage. I found that she is not only very research-based in ancient poetry, but also very good at treating men. I am sure she has been troubled by emotions, so her mind is much more complicated than that of Bi Ling.

I kept asking myself in my heart: Can such a woman be loved casually?

What kind of thought does she have about me?

Even though I racked my brains, it was difficult to get the answer quickly. With such complexity, I fell asleep at some point in my heart.