Chapter 14

When I sent Xiaoyu home in the evening, I saw a woman who looked very much like Yang Ling, but I was not sure, nor was I sure. I agreed to Xiaoyu that I would go to her house to see her parents tomorrow. I was still a little nervous because I cared, so I was afraid.

Early in the morning, Yang Ling called me to go to the station. I got up reluctantly. When I was washing my face, I was thinking, why do the same people and the same things behave differently now?

I gave myself an answer. I used to do things with emotion, but now I do things for responsibility. Of course I feel different

When I arrived at the station, I saw Yang Ling waiting for me anxiously, so I ran over

You've been back for a long time, will I pick you up? I don't want to say it, but when I saw her, I couldn't help but say it.

I will come back when I have time. You have to be fine when I am not here. If you find a girlfriend, tell me, I won't mind.

I know what she said is not the truth, and I lied: No, I will wait for you, don't be too tired to go to work, I will feel distressed

Sometimes I really hate my own mouth, and I always meet by chance

I said goodbye reluctantly. I didn't think I was worried about the same thing as she left last time. Maybe my feelings are slowly changing now. Maybe it's because men are fickle, and it's because men's nature is a problem.

Yang Ling's car left. I turned around and walked a few steps and felt something was wrong. I looked up and saw a crying and sad face in front of me.

It's Xiaoyu

Oh my God, how could I meet her? I really didn't expect that the things I was afraid of in my dreams finally appeared in front of me. I suddenly remembered that Xiaoyu said she wanted to send her classmate

Xiao Yuman slowly walked up to me and asked me: Who is she, is your girlfriend or your lover, why did you deceive me?

I don't know how to explain, but everything in front of me is unexplainable.

Pa Xiaoyu - A girl who is usually very gentle finally takes action

I feel my face is hot, and I feel even more sour in my heart

Seeing Xiaoyu crying and running away, I didn't dare to pull her, nor could I find a reason to pull her. I was the only one who slowly tasted the bitter fruits I planted.

When I arrived at the unit, I told Sister Liu about this. Sister Liu sneered and said: I told you a long time ago, you don’t listen to me. Now, you can solve your own affairs by yourself. I can’t help you, so don’t think I will help you.

Looking at everything in front of me, I don’t understand why things change so quickly. Yesterday I felt happy, but today I tasted the taste of being abandoned by everyone.

I haven't called Xiaoyu, and I don't expect her to call me. I know that I hurt a girl's heart. She treats me with all her heart, but who knows what she saw was something she never dreamed of.

It started raining at night. I took an umbrella and walked on the street. Before I knew it, I walked to the bar where Xiaoyu and I first met. My feet walked in without my orders. As soon as I entered, I saw Xiaoyu and her two friends sitting in the seat where I first met her and I were drinking.

I didn't dare to say hello, I found a corner where no one sat down and asked for half a dozen beer

I looked at her while drinking. She was even better than me. I was afraid that she would get drunk. I had no shame to persuade her, so I had to drink alone.

People's happiness is pursued by themselves, and it is also destroyed by people themselves. I have destroyed my own happiness and Yang Ling's happiness. I don't know how much love I have for Yang Ling now, and can love be used up.

If a person loves it carefully in his life, he will lose a lot of passion for the second time. Maybe love is really powerful, but once it is used up, there will be no more

Xiaoyu was almost drunk, and her friend didn't let her drink. I saw her walking out of the bar alone, standing in the rain, heading towards the sky, she hated me now, I walked over and said to her friend: I've had a fight with her, I'll take care of her, you can go first

Her friend was the two who met for the first time and said sensiblely: I'll leave it to you, let's go first

After they left, I saw Xiaoyu still in the rain. I heard her crying. I couldn't tell whether it was tears or rain on my face.

When I walked to her to shelter her from the rain, she found it was me

Get out, you liar, I don't want to see you

I want to hug her, but she struggled hard that I couldn't hug her

Xiaoyu, please listen to me? I know it’s wrong. You will get sick like this.

I don't care. My body is mine. Since you have a girlfriend, why do you ask me to go to your house? Why do you do those intimate actions to me? What kind of man do you think of cheating a girl?

Xiaoyu's words made me unable to answer

You said, aren't you very good at speaking? Why don't you explain what you did for yourself? You can find a good reason to deceive me

Xiaoyu's crying made me feel ashamed, and also made me realize that a woman should not deceive her in order to give her feelings, even if you don't love her.

Finally got a car, I took her into the car and asked the driver to drive it to my house

I won't go to your house, it's dirty, I want to go home, I won't go to your house again, I don't want to see you again, I don't want to see you again

The car arrived downstairs of Xiaoyu's house, and she ran upstairs without looking back. I got out of the car, and I wanted to take her upstairs, but I never followed her

The rain hit my head, making me realize that a person can only have a woman of your own in his life

I lost the love I could have. I always thought that Xiaoyu was probably the person I had been looking for to be with me for the rest of my life. I lost my deception

I called Xiaoyu and she answered

What else do you want to say? You can find a reason to lie to me, but you can't lie to your own conscience

Sorry, I know what you see is what you don’t want to see the most and least want to see, but I really like you. Why didn’t I act too aggressively to you is thinking that I like you and don’t want to hurt you? If you are willing to listen to me, then I will tell you what’s going on like a friend. In fact, I always want to tell you that you just didn’t find the right opportunity and you saw it.

Xiaoyu hung up the phone without saying anything. I knew I had no chance. I lost a good woman, someone who might have been with me for the rest of my life.

When I got home, I told Sister Liu about the matter. Her answer made me even more disappointed: Just live with Yang Ling. You may not need to get married because you are willing to be an underground lover for the rest of your life. Although I have had a relationship with you, I don’t deny that I like you too, but I know very clearly that you and I are just loneliness partners. I will not affect your happiness, but you and Yang Ling have done too much. The lover is not a lover. A husband and wife are not a husband and wife. Think about it carefully and then look for me after you think it through.

I really don't know what I'm thinking, Yang Ling and Xiao Yu are all in my mind

I can't tell who is important to me, people really can't fall in love with two people at the same time, because human feelings cannot be fake, and they can't hold two people in their hearts.