Chapter 385 Don't meet in this life

If the difference between a beauty and a lover is a bed, then I think I have broken this partition, but the result is not as mentioned above

Xia Sha sent me three text messages in three hours after I went back:

I think I was wrong

I think we were wrong

I'm leaving, I won't meet in this life, and I won't have the next life

I don't understand if everything that happened three hours ago was a dream, and I didn't want to wake up after all. Xia Sha started to fall asleep after murmuring, her arms were always wet. Even in the dream, Xia Sha's tears could not stop overflowing from her pupils, as if she had dreamed of something extremely sad, and it seemed that she was imprisoned by somewhere in the dream. Her body was twitching intermittently for a long time, and I was really trembling by her reaction.

I kissed her eyes like the light moon, and her trembling eyelashes. I also stuck out my tongue to suck her tears. It was not salty, not sweet, not bitter. If I had to have a taste, then I think it might be called Hongyan

You go, this is the first thing Xia Sha said to me after opening her eyes. You don’t belong to me, nor do I belong to you.

I looked at the face in front of me with red clouds after the pear blossoms fell in the rain. Xia Sha might be right, but no matter what I say, it is wrong.

During her time being entangled in dreams, I tried to take out my most rational state to analyze everything that happened. First of all, all the scenes before were woven by ambiguity and longing. Xia Sha did not tempt me, and I did not miss Feng Huáng with her for any purpose. Everything was very sudden, and suddenly it made us both unable to have time to think.

Secondly, from the perspective of ethical principles, I have Qin Chu. I am completely irresponsible, quite shameless, and even morally corrupt. But since I have done it, I have to bear this title.

Finally, everything Xia Sha showed showed two most sincere words in her heart: Regret

Yes, Xia Sha regrets her. She was knocked down by the sudden feeling in this subtle thoughts and atmosphere created by the two of us for a long time. If it were another woman, to be precise, if I was someone in front of me who I like very much but didn't feel much about me, I might have accurately printed an iron sand palm on my face, just because she is Xia Sha, a Xia Sha who advocates feelings and perfection. She is easily lost in her dream. When we miss Feng Huáng together, she walked into her dream. She thought it was Feng Huáng, that was her illusion, and I suddenly attacked in at that deepest moment. For Xia Sha, this strange girl, she would be defeated.

In fact, all the factors are summarized in one sentence: Xia Sha thought it was a dream at that moment

But I knew that was true, but I still walked in. This may be the long-standing problem of men over thousands of years: I felt that I could guide my lust. At that moment, there was no Qin Chu in my head, no one. In that space, I only had Xia Sha and myself.

I don't regret it, it's not because I'm heartless, it's just because one thing is not because others think they should do it, but whether they have done it myself. If I do it, I don't have time to consider how others think. The center of all this is on myself. Since it has become a thing, what's the point of changing it with my heart and regret to change it to the future

Will you appear in front of me again like before? I caressed that face

Maybe, after you leave, I will answer you. After Xia Sha wiped away the tears with her fingers, she stood up and walked into the bathroom silently. Then the sound of water sounded urgently

I smoked a cigarette, it was Xiasha's 520, very soft, the faint smoke was lingering in the room, I couldn't see everything in the room clearly, the originally ambiguous and gentle lights and elegant walls seemed to be smiling at me at this moment, I could no longer hold back and walked out of Xiasha's room

I had guessed what Xia Sha was going to say to me, so after reading the three text messages, my emotions did not fluctuate particularly. Although she did not mention Qin Chu, all her performances and words were showing a state of regret and apology: remorse and apology

A few minutes later, I let out a violent roar, punched and smashed it hard on the bed three times. My mother shouted at me outside for a few words like crazy in the morning, and gasped for a few breaths in a hurry. I jumped up from the bed and ran to the window, letting the cold air outside rush into my head along my nose. That was the only way I could calm myself down.

I picked up the phone, dialed the number with my trembling hands, everything was

It seems like a director has long been

The designed ending, Xia Sha left and turned off. I think she no longer has her breath in that house at this moment, and I know this result but I am unwilling to believe it.

The thought of not hitting the south wall and not looking back suddenly made me feel bloody. I took out the fastest speed in my life and ran downstairs, fired up the gear and stepped on the accelerator, and staged a scene of a Need for Speed ​​on the road in this small county town. Fortunately, it was early and there were few people on the street.

After knocking on the door for twenty minutes without a reply, I collapsed and sat at her door. An old lady who came downstairs to practice in the morning went downstairs and saw me and ran up quickly. She probably regarded me as a person with an abnormal mental state. She looked at it seven or eight times before she shouted in a trembling voice: Young man, you are a human or a ghost

I smiled self-deprecatingly, stood up and walked downstairs. The first ray of warm winter sun penetrated into my pupils through the atmosphere. I looked up at the golden color from the east with great frequency. You mom, I couldn't see anything in the morning.

The first time I found that the sun was so dazzling and the abortion was so annoying. Even puppies who came out early to walk with their owners would grin and shout at me when they saw me. I opened the car door and got in. After a few fires, I finally succeeded. The moment I drove out of the community, I felt Xia Sha looking at me from behind. From the rearview mirror, there was only a vegetable vendor and a big yellow dog urinating on the telephone pole.

Why don't you kill me? I opened the window and scolded the big yellow dog. It stopped peeing and bared its teeth and yelled at me. My god, the beast dares to compete with me.

My thoughts should be confused. I could feel my extreme abnormality. I saw that every pedestrian was walking like Xia Sha. The ringtone of the bicycle in my ears was like the movement of Xia Sha’s silver bell on his wrist. On the way home, I kept braked suddenly, and every time I seemed to see her

After I got home, I realized that the phone was ringing in the car just now. I took out my cell phone with my eyelids and saw a text message from Yingying: Why don’t I answer the call to you?

I seemed to see Xia Sha when I was on a walk with my mother.