Chapter 2

She asked on WeChat: Sorry, are you resting after you disturbed you so late?

Actually, it was not too late at this time, and it was only 10:30. She asked this out of politeness. I was a little surprised. What was she sending me WeChat at this time?

Is it a chat or something?

If it's just a chat, it's best. A mature woman is alone at home and chatting with me. It's really a good feeling.

If something happens, then I probably might be a tutoring. I was a little confused and worried that she would say that her son has found a suitable tutoring teacher, so there is no need to bother me, then I will have no chance to perform.

And the key is that I didn't communicate much with her, and she could delete me naturally afterwards.

I thought about it and didn't reply to her first. I'll see if she'll send a message later. If she didn't send anything, I guess there's nothing to do and just chat.

If she wants to send something specific, she will continue to send it. I also have a buffer space, which is equivalent to her being in the light and I being in the dark.

And I have the time to reply to her, so I have seized the initiative.

I was staring at my phone and waiting for her to continue sending messages. Sure enough, she continued to send messages and said: I forgot to say today. My son needs to work harder in English. I will find a tutor and find a good English teacher. Otherwise, I will find the wrong one. Please trouble you.

I was a little disappointed. Obviously, she was not alone and chatting with me, but there was something wrong. However, this was also under my calculations. I had already thought of this question today, but I didn't say it at that time, but deliberately left this tail. Whether I asked it on my own initiative or she asked it on my own initiative, it was considered to have increased the chance of communication.

In fact, even at this moment, I was still fantasizing that she actually wanted to chat with me, but just found a suitable topic; I even hoped that she thought of this problem during the day, and deliberately did not say it and kept this tail to chat with me at night.

Alas, I'm thinking too much, Kennedy is really thinking about it

I got up from the bed and washed my face, sobered myself up and then lay back on the bed. Then after a few minutes, I replied to her WeChat: Sorry, I was taking a shower just now, and just saw your WeChat, I put on my clothes first

I did not directly respond to the question of which subject to make up for the tutoring. I wanted to leave some time for her to send another message. At this time, I want to say less and let her say more and observe and observe

At the same time, I said I was taking a shower. On the one hand, I found an excuse for delaying the time just now, on the other hand, I seemed to love cleanliness, and on the other hand, I said I would wear clothes first, which means I would be out of clothes, which induces her to imagine what I am now

She quickly sent a WeChat message: It's okay, please put on your clothes and stop catching a cold

I went to WeChat for a few minutes: Today I was careless. I just asked you to help you contact your classmates to make up for the lessons, but I forgot to ask you what subjects I had. I just wanted to ask for students who could make up for the English language.

She replied again, thank you, I replied simply, "You're welcome, and then waited for a while, but she didn't send any more messages, so I couldn't continue to find a conversation."

At this time, I opened my circle of friends and edited a text: Xi'an asked junior high school students to supplement English, those with high English level or experience in tutoring will be given priority. For detailed treatment, please discuss the benefits in detail.

This circle of friends is visible to Guo Xueyan. After a few minutes, I found that she liked her

In fact, it is unknown whether this circle of friends is useful. On the one hand, after graduating from high school, many students did not contact each other much. Although many of them added WeChat at that time, they gradually deleted some of them without contacting each other, and this page became smaller.

On the other hand, if someone sees it and says it is competent, it is also an unexpected surprise

Of course, the most important thing is an attitude, let Guo Xueyan see that I was worried about making up for his son’s lessons.

This time, WeChat interrupted, although it interrupted the question of what I was thinking about just now, it also made me change my mind. I had a clear idea for a while, that is, I didn’t ask about the ultimate goal or the long term. Just like my words and deeds today, as long as I can make her feel natural, I don’t have a clear purpose, but also bring the distance between me and her. As for what will happen in the end, I don’t have to think more about it.

After playing afternoon ball, I drank again in the evening, and felt sleepy. I thought about Guo Xueyan's appearance and figure, and fell asleep in a daze.

The next day was Sunday. I slept until I woke up naturally at 9 o'clock in the morning. I turned on my phone and looked at it. There was no news. What I expected was that someone would see my circle of friends and I was good at English and would be happy to give students some lessons. That would be the best, but there was no

I suddenly felt a little anxious and planned to do a multi-pronged approach and contact the high school students in Xi'an to see if there are any good English and willing to give students some lessons.

At the same time, I would like to ask my classmates from Xi'an who are now in college to see if there are any such students in their past high school. In general, it is to increase coverage

On the other hand, I cannot forget my original intention. I do these to bring the distance between me and Guo Xueyan. These are means rather than purpose. If this thing is miscarried, it will be bad. I cannot hang myself on this tree. I think that even if it is not done in the end, Guo Xueyan and I will have the opportunity to communicate naturally and bring the distance. The key is that I have to improve the communication and connection between me and her before confirming there is no chance, so that the weight and effect of that thing will continue.

When I took out my cell phone and was about to call to ask about these things, I found that someone added my friend on WeChat, and there were four notes: English tutoring

I was a little ecstatic at the time and immediately passed the friend verification and asked immediately who the other party was and how I saw the news.

After communicating, I realized who I was at that time? It turned out that she was Song Ruoxi, a girl from high school class in the past. She is now studying at Normal University and is still a major in English. She changed her WeChat account before and did not have my friends. Others told her when I saw it in my circle of friends.

It turns out that she has made up for junior high school students before. With this experience, she has passed the English Grade 8 solidly. She is really a suitable candidate.

And what's even more wonderful is that she doesn't just want to make money for the sake of her money. She mainly wants to take the teacher exam after graduation, which is to accumulate some experience. She also said that if the children of my relatives are making up for the lessons, she will charge less money. After all, they are all old classmates.

At this time, the seemingly distant question I had been thinking about before was put up. Whose child should I say to give me the lesson?

I told Song Ruoxi that I would ask about the specific situation and requirements, so I should calm her down first

Then I quickly sent a WeChat message to Guo Xueyan: I found the person who made up the lessons, from Shaanxi Normal University, majored in English, and had experience in making up the lessons. I also said that if it was my relative's child, I could still charge less money.

Guo Xueyan quickly replied to me on WeChat and asked me if it was convenient to answer the phone. I ran downstairs and found a corner where no one was there and called her via WeChat voice call.

I feel that Guo Xueyan is quite happy: I found it so soon, thank you

You're welcome, I think she's quite suitable, so I'll tell you right away

Then what did you say? Did you tell her that she was a relative's child?

No, I thought she said that if my relative's children were cheaper, you could save money, but I still didn't think about it. If she chatted at your house, you wouldn't have this relative and would let it go.

It's nothing. The classmate you gave to your tutoring said it was your relative's child. I said hello to the children's grandparents, and told them to be careful when speaking, and said it was a relative. In this way, your classmate would not doubt anything. What's going on?

I immediately raised my question: The question is that your parents-in-law or your husband asked you who introduced the tutoring. Isn't this getting further and further? I said this to fully consider her

But she decided to tell the truth: I'll tell the truth, just tell me how to get to know you and then use the tutor you found

I probably understood that she was in a natural and open state and felt that there would be no problem. It seemed that she was selfless and had a wide world. I was a little disappointed because if there were ripples in her heart like me, she would also feel that things would be sensitive and would want to hide the existence of a person like me, but she didn't, which means she felt that there was no problem.

I was a little unyielding. On the one hand, I was testing, on the other hand, I pretended to consider it for her, and on the other hand, I was deliberately guiding it to this: Well, it's okay for you to say this. I just worry that the elderly are conservative in their thinking, and think that you have something to do with someone you know, and that you have an explanation to you to cause trouble.

Unexpectedly, Guo Xueyan laughed: Haha, look at what you said, thank you for thinking about it for me, but it’s okay. As long as people are open-minded and upright, there is nothing to say. Besides, those who are grandparents also hope that their grandchildren will have excellent grades and are not happy yet. The key is that you are a college student, not those messy men in society, otherwise I won’t know you randomly.

What she said was reasonable, but my normal thoughts were affected by the messy thoughts in my heart. I actually looked up to her.

Of course, she also tested her attitude. She was very natural and calm about my acquaintance with her. She had no random thoughts, at least she did not show it.

But this also sent me a signal that she and I can have normal contact, and she will not deliberately prevent anything

My heart was also calmed down: OK, let's talk about it, just say that it's my relatives and children making up for the lessons, so that I can give you some discounts. I'll send her phone number to you later.

Guo Xueyan also echoed: OK, I will say that it is your cousin. I will say hello to my in-laws like this, so there will be no problem.

The problem was solved easier, and I happily opposed her statement: That's not OK, I said it was my cousin, why did I feel that my seniority is lower than you? I said it was my nephew

Guo Xueyan also became relaxed: Oh, this is all made up, you are still calculating. You are less than 10 years older than my son, I am nearly 20 years older than you, can't you be higher than your seniority? Forget it, it's fake anyway, let's just say your nephew is your nephew, then I'm your sister.

I was helpless, so I followed her and waited for me to send Song Ruoxi's phone number to her and asked her to contact her directly

In fact, this kind of sibling relationship can indeed enhance the sense of intimacy and also provide a good identity cover for some communication and connection. However, I am not happy in my heart. I did not take the initiative to call my sister sweetly, but I hope that I and her are an equal state of men and women, so that she will eventually look at me like a man and this mental situation is different.

But the current situation is nothing. After all, the distance has increased again, and we can slowly change it, penetrate it and produce changes.

At noon, Guo Xueyan sent me a WeChat message and asked me if I would be free later. She said that in order to thank me, she took me to buy tea. She bought it and gave it to me as a thank you.

I was kind of polite, I can't say thank you for this

She said she had agreed with Song Ruoxi and started making up for the lessons next week. She would make up for two hours each weekend. She would make up for one month first. She calculated that she would save some money and just sold me tea, thank me

At this time, I felt that she saved money not just to greed for small gains. The money she saved was used to thank me, which means she was very humane and didn't want to owe me favors.

I could feel that she was really sincere and enthusiastic to thank me, so I agreed generously. I told her to go sell tea at 5 pm

Actually, I was fine all afternoon. I decided to sell the tea at 5 o'clock and think that it was almost time to eat, and then I asked her to have a meal together, which would increase more opportunities for communication and contact.

She sent me a positioning, it was in Tea City, just around the riverside the day before.

The sun is still as bright as Saturday in the morning, but it turns cloudy at noon

I thought about it and met again in the afternoon. I wanted to wear it more maturely, so that I could bring my image to a little further away from her.

Since I usually wear sports and leisure, and there are not so many ready-made clothes, I quickly drove to the mall to buy a pair of brown lace-up leather shoes, a pair of navy blue black trousers, and a black and half-length windbreaker. It was already four o'clock when I returned to the dormitory.

I quickly dressed myself up, wore a gray turtleneck sweater, put on the outfit I just bought, put on a watch, and rushed to the destination quickly

When I arrived, I didn't go directly into the store, but sat in the car and sent a message to Guo Xueyan saying that I was there.

I was thinking that if she hadn't arrived at that store yet, I could just look at her figure secretly from afar

Guo Xueyan didn't reply to my message. I guess she was walking towards that store, so I just observed it.

She appeared two or three minutes later. Perhaps because it was cloudy and a little cold, she was wearing a long red down jacket with a fur collar, and the thin flesh-colored sweater on the first day, and a pair of black sweatpants and white sneakers underneath. Obviously, this outfit was dressed casually. Unlike me, I can also guess that she had not deliberately tried to meet me.

I watched her enter the store, and I got out of the car and went in.

After buying tea, the two of them came out. I was thinking about what to say to have a meal together, but she didn't expect that she would speak first: It's past five o'clock, and it's almost time to go. Let's go, I'll treat you to hot pot.

I took a photo of the tea leaves and said: I'm embarrassed to do this, you're treating me to a meal. You're so kind

She was still enthusiastic: If you can, don't be polite, I'm too lazy to make it alone anyway, so let's eat it together

I won't refuse anymore, isn't this exactly what I hoped

She said she would go to Tan Yayu to eat blood not far ahead. I opened the passenger door very gentlemanly, and she said thank you for sitting in

I did it on purpose, letting her sit next to me, instead of sitting behind with a sense of distance

At this time, I found that I had a lot of secrets and I had to clean myself up today, but I haven't washed the car some days. And according to my virtue today, I should have put a bottle of perfume in the car.

But I had an idea: Sorry, I haven't washed the car for a long time. I usually drive alone, so I don't drive much, so I don't care much.

I say this is a subtext for me. I don’t have a girlfriend, and I don’t drive and often come out to roam.

She doesn't care and says it's okay

When I arrived at the hot pot restaurant, I found that there were already many customers. The waiter asked a few people, and I said only two, and then walked straight to a corner where I sat on the side of the bamboo basket with my clothes.

The store is turned on, and the hot pot is hot again. I took off the windbreaker and put it in the bamboo basket. Guo Xueyan also took off her down jacket. I took it and put it in the bamboo basket and covered it with the lid. I sat down and found that she was already scanning the code for her mobile phone.

She asked me whether I wanted a red pot or a shuang pot. Actually, I didn't care, but I still said I wanted a shuang pot. In this way, I can take the initiative to scoop soup for her with enthusiasm.

The two discussed ordering six or seven dishes. Guo Xueyan asked me if I could drink it. I said she would drink it. She said it was a bit ice-cold to drink beer in winter. How about drinking white wine? I said yes

The waiter took an ashtray and put it on the table. I said thank you for not smoking and asked the waiter to take it away.

Guo Xueyan praised her for not smoking, but her husband is addicted to smoking.

I was wondering in my mind whether his husband was addicted to smoking would affect his sexual ability? Then the couple might be disharmonious in that aspect, and they may not be able to satisfy her.

I found that I was really a bit of a devil. A little Mars could ignite a forest in my brain

After the wine and food were served, Guo Xueyan picked up the wine glass: Xiao He, come, sister, I wish you a glass, thank you for your help this time

I ran into her and dries it, then grabbed the bottle and filled it with it.

At this time, Guo Xueyan's phone rang, and she answered the phone: ...Well, yes, everything has been agreed. Starting next week, two hours each weekend...I know I know, I will invite someone to have hot pot to express my gratitude...Okay, you drink less, when will you come back? ...Okay, that's it

Guo Xueyan hung up the phone and said that his husband called to ask the child about tutoring, and said that she would thank me well.

I was still kind of politely saying nothing, but at the same time, I was thinking, maybe she told the truth so generously how she found a tutor, and her husband also asked her to thank me. This situation might be very good, so my communication with her was open and there was nothing suspicious about it. I felt very relieved and a little excited.

We ate, drank and communicated, but we still talked about it from her child's tutoring.

What she means is that the child's grades are not bad, and he doesn't expect to be successful in the future. He can live a good life. Her husband is very concerned, so he tries every means to get the child to Xi'an to go to school

I thought about it and deliberately brought the topic to his husband, so I talked happily: I think this question may also be the embodiment of some of the parents' values ​​in my children. For example, if you are a primary school teacher, you are more stable and relaxed, and you still have your own time to go out for a walk, so you may be calm about this question. Your husband works harder, and it is a business trip and something, so I hope that the child will work harder.

Guo Xueyan said thoughtfully: Actually, I don’t expect a kind of life. Although I’m not so rich, I still have no worries about being rich, and I don’t expect to earn much money.

Although I don’t have a job yet, I can also throw my own point of view indirectly: This is the case in society now. Many people are obviously running for family happiness, but they often sacrifice some family happiness during the running process. It is a vicious circle on the one hand, it is physical. Isn’t someone telling me that I spent my life and used the money I earned to support my life in the second half of my life, and I didn’t care about my family in the first half of my life to earn money. In the second half of my life, I lost my family and earned money. I went to accompany my family again. But many things were lost and I couldn’t recover them.

Actually, the situations I mentioned basically exist in Guo Xueyan’s husband. They relieve work pressure and have a lot of smoking addiction. If they drink more alcohol in social activities, they will not be able to have a good body. The effect of loving her in bed will be greatly reduced. At the same time, because her son is in Xi'an, her husband can see the child on a business trip, but she can’t see her. If she doesn’t have a business trip, she can’t accompany the child. There will always be a lack of love in love.

Guo Xueyan had another drink with me and agreed with me: You are right, at least I think so too. By the way, I feel that you are still relatively mature and there is no generational revelation for communicating with you.

I actually have this confidence, but at this moment she took the initiative to say this, and I feel very happy: Age is just a number, and some people are still naive after living for decades. Age can increase experience, but it may not deepen knowledge. Thinking and summarizing are also important.

Guo Xueyan seemed to say with some appreciation: No wonder you have a mature idea, I guess you also like to think and summarize.

I pretended to be helpless: Everything has two sides, it is not good, and life is full of knowledge. After I have experienced it, I often think about it and think about it. Of course, I can deepen my understanding. Many people may be tired of stating this way, but I think it is good now. At least there is no generation gap between me and I can talk about it together.

On the one hand, the exchange has played a prelude to it, and on the other hand, it is possible that women generally have a gossip. Perhaps two people were able to let go after drinking. When most of the bottle of wine was drunk, Guo Xueyan took the initiative to talk about emotional topics: Oh, by the way, I think you have good conditions in all aspects. Haven’t you fall in love? Many college students are in love.

Actually, I was in a relationship before. I dated a girlfriend in my senior year, but later I went to different colleges. Long-distance relationships were always very hard. In the first semester of my senior year, we couldn't hold on and broke up casually.

I didn't meet the right one after that, so I didn't talk about it again

But I continued to make up and said to Guo Xueyan: Alas, I've talked about it before, but I broke up in my sophomore year

This aroused Guo Xueyan's further curiosity: Then why did you break up?

How to say it, I feel that it is better to look at the concept of things. To put it bluntly, the little girl is more pretentious and quarrels with me about some unreasonable things. But think about it calmly, I can't just blame the other person. After all, my life experience is there and I have never experienced society. Thinking about problems may be simpler. Do it based on my feelings. This is brought by life. It is normal for a three-year-old child to cry and make a fuss in order not to go out to play. Of course, adults don't like this, but it is impossible to just let him change it at one moment. Then, at the age of three, he is well-educated and sound.

Guo Xueyan looked at me with appreciation: You are right, I found that you are indeed very insightful in your thoughts. You are not simply blaming your girlfriend for being ignorant. You also consider your age and life experience. You also think about the other person. But this situation is very common for students who have not entered society. It is also difficult for you to find a girlfriend with a mature mind like you.

I have furthered the topic step by step: I have considered this question. This kind of thing is to go with the flow. I can't just find such a person who is willing to mature after working. However, after all, I am still a student. It is impossible for me to go to society to find a girlfriend. Moreover, I don't know what role I am. I must still think that a student may have a generation gap with others, so it depends on fate.

Guo Yanxue understands what I mean: You are saying, although you are actually mature and have no generation gap, you have to go to find a girlfriend specifically. They have formed a fixed impression from the beginning. On the other hand, they think you are not mature enough and will not have any thoughts on that aspect. If I hadn't been to invite you to dinner, I would have felt that you were still a boy, haha

I feel that after talking about the topic, I am already quite satisfied. She feels that there is no generation gap between us, and she will be happy to have more communication with me. This is a good effect

At this moment, a bottle of wine was almost finished. The two of them were having a very speculative conversation. I also felt a little drunk, but I still suppressed myself and couldn't joke with her. If it aroused her displeasure and disgust, then the distance between us would quickly retreat.

However, I can praise her from some topics appropriately, which can make her happy and change my image so far.

I had another drink with her, and after I added it to her, I said: You are beautiful and I didn’t expect you to have a good alcohol tolerance. You are such a hero in the girls.

After drinking some wine, the white face showed a light pink charm. The praise she heard was particularly charming and charming: Haha, it's okay, I can drink some, mainly because you helped me. I'm happy today. I haven't drunk so much wine for a long time. It's almost half a pound. I usually drink some red wine alone at home sometimes.

I raised my glass again and said: I won’t mention the help, it’s not worth mentioning. I feel lucky. I have been here for the third year in college. You are the first one I met outside of school. I’m a friend.

I specifically say that I am a friend, but I have repeatedly ignored my sister and brother, and I still want to keep hinting in Guo Xueyan's heart, that is, she and I are equal men and women, not sister and brother with a sense of age distance.

She also became a little generous: What does it mean to be a friend? I have already treated you as a friend. This time you helped me. I have anything to do next time. I will tell you.

Should she treat me as her younger brother or as a friend?

I won't go and look at it so carefully for now. The key is that her condition is very consistent with my thoughts. I feel that the distance between me and her has been much closer.

I saw that the wine was almost finished, so I probably wouldn't add food, and I didn't plan to continue to drink. I didn't want to make me feel like I was addicted to alcohol or deliberately asked Guo Xueyan to drink more, so I used the excuse to go to the bathroom, went to the bathroom and went out to the bar and went to the bar to pay the order and returned to my seat.

Soon the last glass of wine came, and I raised my glass seriously and said: The last glass of wine is here, I wish you three meanings, one is to be honored to know you, the second is to wish your child excellent academic performance, and the third is to wish you more and more beautiful

She happily finished the last drink with me, then took out her cell phone and said she would pay the bill. I didn't say anything. The waiter told her that the gentleman had already paid the bill.

She gave me a blank look: Why did you pay the bill? I'm so embarrassed

I smiled and said that next time I asked her to pay the bill, she agreed.

In this way, I have another chance to have dinner with her. As long as I have next time, I will have next time, more times

As she got up, I took out her down jacket from the bamboo basket and spread it out to her, meaning that I helped her put it on. She said thank you and then put her arm in smoothly. I put the shoulders of the down jacket from behind and flipped over her to tidy up her hair collar.

After drinking and communicating this night, I got a distance between her and her. With such an action and such first physical contact, she could accept it openly, and it also made me more considerate.

She put on her clothes and said: You call a driver, but you can't drive after drinking.

Because there are many restaurants in this area, a driver from the designated car received an order not far from the door.

When the driver put the electric car into my trunk, Guo Xueyan told me: If you come, tell me, I'll go back first.

As I said that, I was about to leave. I knew her house was not far away and I walked back in a few minutes, but I still asked her to take her a while. It was cold outside, so she agreed.

I quickly opened the rear car door, she sat in and sat in the other side. It seemed that she agreed that I would also sit in the back seat.

In the afternoon, she sat in the co-pilot and was in the same row with me, but after all, there was a barrier in the middle. Now we sat in the back together, and it felt like the distance was closer.

Although I was a little reluctant, I soon arrived at the community where she lived. I told me again that I would tell her and got off the bus.

Considering that she entered the community, walked to the building where she lived, and had time to wait for the elevator to go upstairs, five minutes later I sent her a WeChat message: It's cold outside, have you arrived home?

She quickly replied to me: I'm here, I just sat down, where have you been?

I said I don’t know where it is. After all, I’m not from here, so I really can’t figure it out. I asked her to drink some water and take a break. She replied to me with a WeChat message: Well, I’m drinking water. You are not only mature and steady, but also know how to care about people.

This WeChat also comes with a cute expression

A sentence popped up in my mind: Your husband is not here, you should be concerned about it

Of course I can send this to her for the time being, as if I want to replace her husband.

But I thought for a while and said: It is a matter of men who care about women

This sentence can be said to be a kind of social cognition, or it can be said to be a attention between a man and a woman. This is understood by her. Even if this sentence makes her feel reckless, it was also caused by me after drinking. If she thinks it is not suitable, I will turn around and say that I didn’t pay attention to it after drinking. I think she will understand it. Drinking is a good cover.

But she seemed to reply wisely: Sister, thank you for your concern

I didn't know for a moment whether she really treated me as a younger brother or did she feel that there was something in my mind and could emphasize this relationship

I arrived at school while thinking

On the way out of the car and walking towards the dormitory, the cold air on the winter night made me feel a little more awake

I consider whether Guo Xueyan is sincerely considering me a younger brother or that she is deliberately emphasizing this kind of relationship to avoid my random thoughts, there is no need to force me to touch my opinion at the moment. Since I have been in a lot of distance with her, there will be a chance to put my relationship with her in the position I need later. As long as I don’t call my sister on the initiative, at least it will not strengthen her sibling understanding

I returned to the dormitory and poured a glass of water. After thinking about it, I started to make up again: I'm back, and as soon as I entered the dormitory, these people arranged me.

Oh? How did they arrange you?

The guy I wears is five or six, and when I come back, I am full of red faces. I ask if I have a girlfriend again, and ask me to invite them to drink

Hahaha, you guys are just as gossipy as women, so what do you say?

Let me tell the truth, saying that I was helping someone find a tutoring teacher. The couple took the child to treat me to dinner. I went out to have dinner with the family. Isn’t it normal? I’m full of red face because I’m not drinking much?

Well, what you said is roughly the same, but to be honest, your outfit looks mature and solemn

I suddenly remembered that eating was a temporary decision, and it was not an important situation for Guo Xueyan and I to invite me to a more solemn occasion. What's more, even if the family invites me to dinner, as a college student, it's normal for me to wear sports and leisure. It doesn't have to wear formal clothes.

Will she react to this image I deliberately created because of her?

If she reacted, what would she think and say?

At least she can feel that I am more purposeful, just when I go to buy some tea, she wears it casually. Why do I dress it up?

It would be fine if she said it, I could still deal with it. If she didn't say it, she just took care of me in her heart, that would be bad.

I decided to turn passive into active speaking: Actually, I wear this way because of you

She just replied indifferently: Why?

I don't know why this is questioning or curious, but I decided to tell the truth: I just feel that the difference is not that big in order to stand in front of you.

After sending this message, I realized that there is still a problem with saying this, but it is too late to withdraw it

I said that in order to make it seem that the difference is not that big, why can't there be any difference?

She is almost forty years old, and I am in my early twenties. It is normal for me to have differences and distances. Why should I deliberately narrow this difference?

And according to the agreement between the two of you, it is just about buying tea, so why should you dress up like this?

If she speculates like this, what would she think about me and see me?

I didn't know whether it was because I drank alcohol a little disturbing my thinking or whether this problem made me incoherent. At the same time, I was very worried whether her speculation about my behavior would bring her protection and distantness to me

I wanted to try my best to reverse the current situation, so I began to send messages: Maybe it was a professional disease. At that time, I started to do a tutoring business. As long as I talked to people outside, I specifically met someone. In order to look more professional, I began to get used to wearing it. Although I bought tea today, I also went out to meet people outside the school, and I couldn’t get used to it for a while.

I made these few words and was still wondering whether this could save the situation. I felt awkward again. When I was about to send it, she sent a message: I think I understand your mood, there is no need to

I suddenly froze, what does this mean?

What does it mean to understand my mood?

Did she know the little girl in my heart?

My brain quickly considered it, and I thought my statement should be a big problem. Even if it seemed to be more obvious, it was at least a high-sounding reason, so I quickly sent it over.

As a result, she quickly replied to me: I misunderstood

And a smiley expression

No matter what she understood just now, this should be understood as I said

But I asked her quickly: Then how do you understand?

This is actually a fault for not turning around. I remember my son, who often pretends to be an adult, seems to be a child. He has grown up, so when you say that in order to make me stand together, the gap between me is not that big, I think you have a similar idea. I want to prove that you are an adult. In fact, if you don’t talk about so-called professional habits, I will also react. You are obviously far more mature than your peers, so you don’t need to deliberately create such an image.

I breathed a sigh of relief. It turned out that she was just a little dazed for a moment, but I continued to tease and test: Haha, it's right for you to say this, but you didn't consider the maturity of my words and deeds, and it was also deliberately created?

I deleted the words after typing. Although I was joking, what if she really thought so?

Then, wasn't I deliberately creating a character in order to get close to her?

I thought about it and decided to make a move: Why don’t you think I am a child? In terms of communication with you, I feel that my sister is a sense of distance, but I still seem to be smaller than you. I don’t actually have the obvious feeling of size, but I feel very equal like my peers.