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My note:...Save me...

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What kind of painting will be like in the future? To be honest, I have no idea at all

But if you can be with her forever, it doesn't matter what kind of future it is.

As long as I can stay by her and maintain this relationship, even if time stops, I will...

...Don't come over, don't come over AhAhAh!

No...

Go away! Don't let me see that thing! Go away! AhAhAh!

Complaints...

Don't get close to me anymore! No! I said no!

Xia Zi...you see clearly

No! No! No, no, no, no, no! Get her away! Don't let her touch me!

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However, when such a day comes to a certain day, it is silently like the still snow scene outside the window... Xia Zi's mental breakdown

Woo... Woo... Woo... Woo...!

What I hold in my hand is the little hand of my daughter who has just turned two years old

Let her go away! How could I...How could I...Woo! Woo Ah, AhAh!

What I saw in front of me was that she was unwilling to admit her biological daughter

Whenever you meet, no matter the big or small, you always cry.

...What about me?

Every day I watch Xia Zi wake up from her dreams, but I can't accept the sunshine in this world...

Staying with Xia Zi, who denies reality more and more intensely day by day, God took away my last little cowardice right

I really want to see her smile at me again, and let her hug Xiao Anna

I really want to hear her call my name lightly again, please let her go back to us

But in the end...

As long as Xiao Anna appears, Xia Zi will be so scared that she cried and made a fuss

Even if I'm the only one, she still doesn't want to say too much to me

Even if I said that, I just talked about her in the nightmare

...Talking about the person who looks exactly like Lord Anna, she loves Lord Anna

Your face... is really the same as Lord Anna. Lord Anna is Xia Zi's master

Xia Zi loves the master in her dream very much

They are in a place called obsidian, quite well-known master slaves

Even if they live all kinds of unimaginable training life every day, they will not be at all difficult.

After countless tests, the master and slave finally reached the final test and got the opportunity to choose.

However, both of them love each other deeply and are unwilling to change the current situation. Even after nearly three seasons of training, they still decided to maintain it.

We... are very happy. After the final experiment, we have been together all the time...

Whether it is something I once hated or the training methods I have never encountered before, Xia Zi tried hard to overcome it for her master.

When it comes to reality... not... it is a physical transformation that is difficult to achieve in a nightmare, she told me more and more

How big is the breast transformed into, how wide can the nipples be expanded, or sometimes a special sexual organ called the penis appears between the thighs... When it comes to the body, she shows a very focused expression

But the people in the nightmare do not have such organs and techniques, and they cannot be made at any time, which makes her feel that the dream is really boring

She talked about her relationship with her master with a happy look. The details were very shallow, mainly what she felt

...Later, we passed the final experiment again and again, and almost all the training projects were completed. That was really... a sense of happiness that could not be described in words.

After walking through countless seasons with the master, any difficulties faced by Obsidian were solved easily, but now it has become so ordinary that it is a bit boring.

Unable to bear every day that seemed to be still, Xia Zi finally decided to implement it with her master.

They will always protect the black world where the master and slave meet and even love each other.

The owner Anna became the monitor of the area, put on a white robe, and was called a woman in white clothes.

In order to accompany his master forever, Xia Zi gave up his identity and picked up a new name - Obsidian

Xia Zi Ah... is a very special existence. Every day, every feeling, every physical and mental change in everyone appears in Xia Zi's heart... It's something that I have never experienced before, and it's a real sense of fulfillment.

Speaking of this, Xia Zi's sickly face revealed the happiness and satisfaction she felt from the bottom of her heart

She did not continue to say it, but quietly looked at the person who looked exactly like her master, and a trace of haze flashed across her pale face.

After that time... she no longer recalls the past of the master and slave

No matter how hard I tried to hide this, Xia Zi's situation still spread to the Emperor's Mother.

According to the order of the Emperor's mother, a group of thirty-six people from the imperial capital came from the imperial capital to the residence where Xia Zi and I were.

According to the imperial physician, there are too many people in the world who rely too much on nightmares. Most of the reasons are because the simplicity of nightmares is very different from reality.

The more you achieve in the nightmare, the more likely you are to escape from reality.

If you add more time in the nightmare, the symptoms will only be more serious

Using withdrawal of nightmare and drug treatment is the most effective method at present. Although the process is very hard, clinical experiments in various countries have obvious improvement effects.

However, Xia Zi's situation...is not that simple

Xia Zi, she is a very special existence

Compared with female slaves, trainers, receptionists and monitors, they can be said to be completely different levels of existence.

Although it is just a memory test, she is like a memory container in the entire Obsidian area. She can tell all the things that happen to us in the nightmare.

What she has is not an hour, two hours or four hours. Everything about Obsidian is in her memory. Xia Zi can be said to have infinite time.

Dr. Gina Ida, chief physician of the Imperial Medicine Group, said that it was like condensing the memory of the entire century that the earth had into a person's head.

What I have is so small that it is impossible to see directly

What I hope for is becoming a vague black spot in the huge time flow

A life where you can no longer cherish everything and look forward to tomorrow... No one can stand it

For this situation that has never been recorded and cannot be found in similar cases, all I can do is to try my best to get Xia Zi back to the reality again

If you don't give a very strong stimulation, you can only take it step by step

I was unwilling to take risks and took a more gentle approach

……

In order to make the real world in her eyes look closer, I dressed myself up like in my dreams

Every day when Xia Zi wakes up, she will be with her side...

Or accompany her through a monitor

Many times, she doesn't want to see me or anyone, and only allows the cleaning maid to step into the room

In severe cases, forced force-feeding and other measures must be taken

If she is in good spirits, we can probably get along for about one or two hours and listen to her talk about what she heard in her broken dreams.

Xia Zi's voice often fails to focus. One thing is broken into several parts and never talks in sequence.

Listening to her talk for an hour, she can receive information about more than a hundred things. On average, one thing is said less than a minute, and sometimes she even just told her in one sentence.

From the conversation record with her, we can find that everything she said will be divided into three to seven days before it is finished.

The length of time should have nothing to do with the importance of the event, the time required for pronunciation, etc., all of which are randomly selected events from her nightmare memory.

The only rule that lasts for more than thirty days is that she will never mention anything about the master and slave again

Perhaps... it is because nothing else is worth mentioning

Gradually, Xia Zi no longer rejected this place as she used to, and began to try to ask me to talk to her.

Xia Zi likes to listen to me tell stories. "The Last Princess" is her favorite. She can listen to it for a whole week without getting tired of it.

She is very particular about pronunciation and sentence breaking. If you play your tongue less, and if you put too long, you will correct it.

Once she proudly sarcastically said, why is she a Japanese speaking Russian more reasonable than a Russian?

That's the sixtieth day

Whether it is the day when Xia Zi talks or the day when I tell stories, there is a common point that remains unchanged--no one can be stuck between us

Xia Zi no longer strongly denies reality, but if there is anything about her, I have to try to avoid it. Until she took the initiative to mention that I took off the wedding ring and no longer took Xiao Anna to see Xia Zi.

In addition to me, Natsuko also expressed her kindness to the maid who was responsible for cleaning her room. Once, I heard her talk about what happened to the maid in obsidian and learned why she smiled at her.

However, the maid unfortunately died of illness soon after

In order not to affect Xia Zi's mood, she had to use the excuse of transferring her job, but she was unwilling to accept other maids, so I finally took care of her room cleaning.

...No matter what the reason, it cannot further deepen the sense of gap between Xia Zi and reality.

However, Xia Zi finally found a way to find out that the maid was no longer there

Why is she so persistent? I have no idea in reality and nightmare

Xia Zi himself stopped mentioning this after learning the truth.

With the silent assistance of Dr. Gina Ida, we spent two severe winters safely.

Until one day, Xia Zi suddenly asked me:

Anna, do you know where my ring is placed?

The look she looked at me and the tone of her speech to me seemed to jump back to before the whole thing happened... Just like when she was staying at her desk and turned to ask me about it, she looked like she was staying at her desk and turning to ask me about it.

I am really happy that nothing is happier than Xia Zi's return to normal

She wanted to see the ring, so I found a wedding ring for her and wanted to reminisce about the study, so I took her to the study and relax to meet Xiao Anna... Let's go to my daughter's dormitory together

Xia Zi put on the wedding ring I gave her again and picked up our daughter

I thought I could never see that scene again when I looked at her using her skillful skills to comfort her daughter who was a little afraid of having sex.

The mother and daughter of us spent the whole night together the day after Xia Zi recovered

She talked about many past events, from studying in Russia to being admitted to the clerk by accident, being sent to the residence of the third princess and sparked sparks with the princess. She accidentally married into the royal family and accidentally had children...

Xia Zi recalled the whole process that prompted us to meet and love, which was surprisingly detailed and a little uneasy.

Always feel that she was talking about these past events all the time, as if she was seeking comfort, but she was not seeking me.

So... is it a confession?

No, those aren't important anymore

Now, as long as I can accompany them like this, live a stable life

Welcome back, Xia Zi

Thinking of this, I... looked at the sweet smile under the night light, slowly closed my eyes

Xia Zi didn't answer, but just hugged me into her warm chest, touching my hair while humming the melody in "The Last Princess"

That's how the next day...

Xia Zi committed suicide

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I was woken up by the screams of little Anna that day

At 4:37 in the morning, there are three scenes that come into view, namely the wedding ring held in the palm of your right hand, the scared and crying daughter, and... the love hanging in the center of the room

I cried and called the doctor, hugging my daughter to block her face, but could not bear this situation alone

I collapsed in front of my frightened daughter

Soon...Doctor Gina Ida told me that they had done their best to hear the doctor say this in person. I could no longer bear the ever-boiling emotional changes. I immediately snatched the entourage's gun

However, no matter how many times I detained the sheet machine, the gunpowder was fired and it was shot at the wall before it reached. The guards suppressed me to the ground and took away the pistol.

The doctor squatted down in front of me, put his hand on my head, and said some useless comfort.

I don't want to hear anything

Don't want to understand anymore

My head is so messy

Very tired

Can't I just let me see Xia Zi like this?

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Half a month later, I woke up at the Imperial Capital Hospital

Dr. Gina Ida told me that as long as I stop trying to commit suicide, she can make an exception to help me untie my whole body's belt.

If I don't obey, I will be forced into a coma by the Knights who are accompanying me.

I promised her I would try to die, but she could make sure there was nothing here for me to give it a try

The doctor frowned first, then smiled lightly, and ordered the Knights to be alert to loosen my ties.

The doctor pulled a chair from a corner far away from the hospital bed, sat down to the edge of the bed, took off his glasses and pressed his eyes, and then she said something we could guess as if she was speaking according to the script:

His Highness Anna, how do you feel?

As soon as you stand up, I will immediately snatch the chair and throw it to my temples. This is how it feels

Or suffocate yourself with a breathable pillow?

I never thought about this, thank you for your advice

My honor, Your Highness, then, I will explain the matters that His Majesty has given to you, and then decide whether you want to be forced into a coma?

Um

Skip all the emotional parts of the Emperor's Mother. The doctor wants to repost only one point: the royal family concealed this unreputable incident

Xia Zi's body has been secretly buried near the mansion. Little Anna has been mentally damaged more than expected. I must return to normal as soon as possible to deal with my wife's funeral and her daughter's treatment.

The doctor did not say these things with a condemnation look. On the contrary, she herself prefers the plan to keep me resting.

But my rest period is over long ago

On the days when the sun shines, I just lost my beloved wife and the sun is not as good as it is, but this matter is still in the turbulent period

Every day when you open your eyes, you can't help but recall the moment when Natsuko appeared in the monitoring room

Even if it is only ten minutes, or even a few minutes, it is enough to make me feel heartbroken to death

If it weren't for the interference of the Imperial Doctors and the Knights, I'm afraid they would still have the original intention now.

However, after these days of precipitation, my thoughts have changed due to the appearance of Xia Zi.

She did not disappear because of the real body.

Nightmare still possesses my Xia Zi

...In order to eliminate this hateful phenomenon, I must survive

Keep living in the Obsidian area that killed my wife...

Keep living in the nightmare

Since you are so persistent, you will be discharged from the hospital after the routine examination later. However, on the order of His Majesty the Emperor, the Imperial Doctors and the Knights of the Royal Girls will still monitor you. Please forgive me for this.

It is obviously a place where I am in pain, but I still endure the unhealthable pain and continue to be in the place

That, uh, I am the commander of the Knights appointed by His Majesty the Emperor, Ai, Aiqifangna... In other words, if there is anything or anything, just use my troops!

It is obvious that more pain is waiting for ahead, but it still urges me to continue moving forward

Oh──Isn’t the opponent this time the 15th generation artificial intelligence? It seems that the Siberian brown-haired girl shook her Ah and forget it, so? Is there any problem that we need to mobilize our four sisters?

AhAh… It’s really a pathological life

Lord, Master...! I am now a member of the Knights and will never hurt my master again...! Woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo woo w

There is a pathological world

From the moment I returned to the mansion, I bet all my time on studying nightmares, day and night to understand the mystery that no one knows in the world

Fortunately, Dr. Gina Ida kept reminding me with fierce slaps, so I did not forget my daughter who had been silent since that day.

The trauma that little Anna suffered takes too much time to heal, but I can't meet her needs

In order to make her recover faster... I did something that I could not forgive myself.

I actually let my daughter, who is only four years old, start to get into nightmare

Even if a child's nightmare has a relaxed buffer period for the spirit, it is a highly addictive thing after all.

After the doctor learned about this, he beat me hard, and I turned around without being outdone.

As a result, I was beaten to the point of bruising and swollen, so I still had to accept the treatment of a doctor who was beaten to the point of being blue and purple.

Afterwards, the doctor said that when Xiao Anna's trauma recovered, she would immediately undergo treatment to forcefully quit nightmare.

Just do whatever you like

Dr. Gina Ida broke up with me here. Just wait for the end of Xiao Anna's treatment, she will return to the Kremlin. Most of the imperial doctors do not agree with my behavior, but in fact, it doesn't matter no matter what they think.

I know very well myself

I'm...no help

Even so...everyone is good...

Please...

Save me...

...Save me Ah!

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Natsuko Ah... I love you most, love you most, love you most!

You Ah...

Where is the master? Does the master also love the most, love the most, and love the most?

I love you, Xia Zi

Um!

"The Elegy for You is over"