Chapter 7 Heart-to-heart talk

When Su Chen swiped his card to open the room door, Shi Mengying asked himself again: Why don’t you leave?

Before dinner, I met Chen Xi and watched him nodding politely to the three people on his side, and walked side by side with the woman who was dressed in a fashionable manner and looked two or three years younger than him. Shi Mengying felt mixed feelings, and the pleasure brought by the shooting of a relatively satisfactory set of artistic photos in her heart was wiped out.

She should have left the hotel as soon as possible.

If she had encountered such a situation alone at that time, she would never stay in this hotel as planned tonight; she would not even have dinner, but would leave directly.

But at that moment, with Xu Peng and Su Chen around, the situation changed subtly.

Although the two men had long guessed the relationship between Chen Xi and Shi Mengying, they each pretended to be completely unaware of it.

Xu Peng was naturally confused, and Su Chen, although she might be the first person to guess Chen Xi's identity that night, she was also a smart woman and would not do such clever things that would not get any benefits.

Shi Mengying didn't want to talk about the matter between herself and Shen Xi at all, but if she didn't explain these words clearly, she would not have a reason to leave the two of them and leave.

So, under the interest of the two, she used the shortest language to explain the relationship between Chen Xi and herself.

Her story is exchanged for Xu Peng's sigh and Su Chen's indignation.

Su Chen said: How can this happen!We are almost getting married, so we break up as soon as we say we break up!Seeing that she was tugging with someone else’s wife that night, she changed another one today, and it wasn’t a good thing!If I were you, I wouldn't leave!Why is he coming, I want to leave?

Xu Peng said calmly: There is no need.Let him know that even if he is separated, you are facing him with dignity and can live your life calmly and happily.

Shi Mengying felt that what they said made sense, so she didn't insist on leaving.

But while she was having dinner, she went to the bathroom, but when she came back, she found that Chen Xi and the woman had also arrived at the restaurant and sat at three tables away from them. The two were smiling and intimate.

Her heart has been hurting.

She didn't want to be regarded as weak and unhappy by Xu Peng and Su Chen, so she insisted on not asking to leave again.

But there was always a thought in her mind: I was leaving, I didn’t want to see him with another woman!

After finally finishing the meal, Xu Peng said that he knew a friend also lived here tonight, so he went over to chat and asked them to go back to their room first.

So Shi Mengying followed Su Chen upstairs with a little unconsciousness.

The moment the door was opened, the problem that had appeared countless times jumped out again.

But, there is still no solution.

Although she lacks the courage to face it, she has a self-esteem that she does not want to be looked down upon.

So she could only endure it in the torture, neither being able to really feel open-minded nor evade and relieve it.

Shi Mengying never realized that entanglement was the worst thing in her personality.

However, as the room door closed, it seemed like another world was separated, Shi Mengying's mood calmed down a little.

When Xu Peng is not here, it seems much more casual when the two women stay together.

Su Chen didn't think about saving money for Xu Peng, so he asked them to send a bottle of red wine, and then the two of them stayed on the same sofa, took a sip and chatted for a while.

Over the past period of time, Shi Mengying and Su Chen's friendship has developed quite well, with more trust; coupled with Xu Peng's absence, Shi Mengying has become less restrained; she feels bitter and has less self-discipline, so she drinks much more vigorously than usual.

In just half an hour, the red wine had been reduced by more than half, and sixty or seventy percent of it entered Shi Mengying's stomach.

Shi Mengying's alcohol tolerance is good or not, and she won't get drunk after drinking these wines, but she has become a lot more drunk and has become more talked, so many things she said were not what she would have said to Su Chen.

For example, the joy of her meeting Shen Xi for the first time, and the scene when she was with Shen Xi, and the scene when Chen Xi broke up with her.

Su Chen actually didn't care about these things, but it was not boring to listen to them as gossip.

Moreover, she not only needs to listen, she has the heavy responsibility on her shoulders.

How long have you broken up?Su Chen asked, shaking his wine glass.

Shi Mengying answered without hesitation: 103 days!

Su Chen was slightly stunned.

She didn't expect to get such an accurate answer.

At this moment, the softest part in her heart trembled uncontrollably.

A figure that seemed to be far away from the sky, a girl who believed in beauty and trust, a girl who had just left school, worked hard, and was ready to start a brand new future with her lover.

To myself, I should be the most familiar person.Now it's so strange.

However, it was just a moment.

Remember to be very clear!It seems you really love him.Su Chen drank the wine in the glass in one sip, as if he was swallowing the memory of the sudden moment just now. Moreover, these days, it seems that you are really in pain.

Shi Mengying was silent, staring blankly at some point in front of her, without saying a word.

Su Chen asked again: Can I ask, how do you face your own pain?

How to face it?

Shi Mengying faced this problem in a daze.

Insomnia?

cry?

Irritable?

Confused?

Oh, and, for the first time in my life, I went to bed with a man who didn't want to love, swallowed a man's genitals in the dirty bathroom, and took off naked in front of a group of people.

Is this all about facing pain?

Su Chen did not wait for her answer, but added some wine to herself.

With a little bit of sadness that is hard to detect, he said: I don’t know how you faced it.But in my experience, pain can be relieved by pain.

What?Shi Mengying didn't understand, but she thought she had heard it wrong.

Pain can be relieved by pain.Su Chen repeated it, especially mental pain, which we can relieve through physical pain.

Physical pain?Shi Mengying murmured, are you talking about it like cutting your wrists?

She really thought about committing suicide, although it was just a momentary thought.

The doctor who treated her depression also vaguely mentioned this kind of wrong idea to her. He did not make any right or wrong comments. He just discussed her attitude towards this kind of behavior with a very relaxed attitude, and then gave some positive guidance.

She has no idea now.

But Su Chen suddenly brought up this idea, which suddenly reminded her of this idea.

Su Chen smiled and shook his head without saying a word.

What is that?Shi Mengying became a little curious.

Have you read Buddhist scriptures?Ah?Unexpectedly, Su Chen suddenly changed the topic, and Shi Mengying couldn't react in time.

I haven't read it before, and I don't believe in Buddhism.But I heard from a friend of mine that many religions advocate asceticism to sublimate the spirit.There are many practitioners in India who use various methods to make physical pain, purify their souls and cleanse their spiritual confusion and pain.If you go online to see those pictures of asceticism, it is really disgusting.Su Chen still shook his wine glass. We are not that advanced, but I know that letting our body suffer a little can really relieve the painful mood.

Shi Mengying heard it even more confused: Then what are you talking about causing physical pain?

Cutting your wrist is so painful, and such a good world, you can’t see it if you cut your wrist.That is not called using pain to relieve pain, it is called having nothing after the pain.I'm talking about relieved pain, not suicide.Su Chen drank the wine in the glass again. You said, for us women, besides being stupid suicide, what is physical pain?

Shi Mengying frowned: You mean?

Did you suffer that night?Are you feeling uncomfortable all over and you feel a little uncomfortable, but after it was really over, you feel like you breathed a lot, and you seem to have forgotten some of the previous things.Although, within a few days, the previous pain may have come back.Su Chen leaned against the back of the sofa and asked with his head tilted.

That night?Shi Mengying's mind was a little slow at this time. After a while, she realized what Su Chen was talking about, and it seemed to be a little bit.

You were in a bad mood that day, and I basically answered two questions, and you encountered many tricks.What did you do when you went to the toilet later?Have you used your mouth?

Shi Mengying didn't expect Su Chen to ask so directly, and she couldn't answer for a while.

Useless?Su Chen didn't really want to find out what happened that night. No wonder you lost.Mr. Zhou has played with women for too much, so how could you make it happen with your hands?But that's fine. You were miserable that day, but the more that happens, the more likely you are to have the feeling I said.

Shi Mengying was silent.

No?Su Chen was curious.

I have no idea.Shi Mengying had not completely escaped from her confusion, and was not sure if she really understood what Su Chen said.

What you mean by physical pain?

Don't you feel pain?Do you feel very good?Su Chen drank two glasses in a row, and his face turned red quickly, and his emotions seemed to be a little unrestrained.

Shi Mengying didn't speak.

I don't know other women.I think you won't be happy.As long as you are unhappy, isn’t that painful?

I don't feel the same as you said...

Yeah?Then why did you participate that day?

I want to participate in activities between colleagues.Who knew it would be like that.Director Cheng didn’t say that it was like that… I didn’t attend because I knew it would be like this at night!Shi Mengying must explain this clearly.

Su Chen curled his lips.

This doesn't matter anymore.Importantly, you should ask yourself, don’t you feel that the mental pain has been relieved?

No... Shi Mengying must stick to this caliber. Besides, is the method you mentioned really effective?Even if it really works, do we have to relieve it like this?We can't be as good as we can't do, right?Women have the dignity of women, and their bodies are the most precious. How can people touch them at will... Suddenly, Shi Mengying choked.Just in front of Su Chen's eyes, she had been touched by more than one man.This suddenly became less confident.

Su Chen did not use this to fight back against her, but just shook her head meaningfully.

The second point you said, I agree with part of it.Women do have the dignity of women.But, what is dignity?Holding on is not dignity, and conservatism is not expensive.Dignity and essence are reflected in whether one has the right to choose and decide.As long as it is decided by yourself and you choose to do it, it is called dignity and preciousness.Like a prostitute, if you can sleep with any man who pays, it is not called Jingqi.However, as long as it is your choice and your own decision, no one forces it, no one buys it with money, no matter how many men you sleep with, it cannot be considered without dignity, right?The idea of ​​treating the body as something that must be buried firmly in some place can only be handed over to a man, or no one will give it, and it will be unclear if given. What kind of old concept is this?

Shi Mengying was determined to object, but felt that she could not find the right wording for a while. She suddenly realized that Su Chen was also a very thoughtful girl.

No matter what she said is right or not, her ability to have such complex thoughts still makes Shi Mengying look at her with admiration.

Regarding whether it works...Haha, I have a story, do you want to hear it?

Shi Mengying nodded involuntarily.

You entered the company earlier than me.You also know that I have been here for less than half a year.In the two years before this, I worked as an office clerk in a branch of a provincial state-owned enterprise, and at the front desk, I did work such as sending and receiving documents, receiving and sending packages, etc.The income is not high, but it is leisurely and stable.

After Su Chen started telling the story, he did not look at Shi Mengying again, but stared at the wine glass in his hand, as if he was trapped in his own memories.

At that time, I had a boyfriend who had been together since the first year of college, and we had been together and talked for six years.After graduation, we all found jobs, and had a stable relationship and a job, so we planned to get married.My boyfriend's family is a bit superstitious, and he must choose a good life even if he gets a marriage certificate.My future mother-in-law has chosen a day and will have to wait for more than a month.Then let's wait.Unexpectedly, just one week before I made an appointment to get my marriage certificate, my boyfriend suddenly disappeared...

Ah?Shi Mengying suddenly felt familiar.

I went to their house to find her mother, but she didn't give me the answer.In this way, the time to get the marriage certificate was decided, but my boyfriend did not show up.It took him ten days before he showed up, and then he broke up with me.He emphasized that everything is his problem, and he is very sorry for me, but the breakup is 100% certain and absolutely no negotiation.Then he left.

Shi Mengying did not realize that her upper body had leaned towards Su Chen's position to the greatest extent. For her, who had just experienced a breakup, this story can be said to be the same disease and empathy.

He can't connect to his mobile phone, he doesn't log in to QQ, and he no longer contacts those friends who are the same as us.I can never find him again.I've been to his house twice, but he doesn't live in his parents' house.The last time he went there, his mother told me not to look for him anymore, he has gone abroad.I have never been to their house again, and I have no shame to harass his parents repeatedly.It seems that it has been a long time since Su Chen talked about these things, but he did not express his true feelings as Shi Mengying was talking about her. A boyfriend who had been in love for five years and a husband who was about to get a marriage certificate disappeared like this.I have never seen him again until now.

Shi Mengying listened attentively.

After that, I was in a bad mood and couldn't sleep every night.

Shi Mengying opened her eyes wide and moved her body involuntarily. Isn’t that me?

Has she ever had that kind of time?

Su Chen drank the wine in the glass for the third time: So at that time, I drank every day.I drink a lot of alcohol, but I can't sleep without drinking.

Shi Mengying seemed to have a little understanding of how she had mastered her alcohol tolerance.

So at that time, I often went to bars with my friends.One day, I went there with a few friends again and played darts. I was very good at playing this. I played many games, but no one beat me.My friends were praising me there, saying that I was amazing or something.Anyway, everyone has drunk alcohol, and some people may not be brainless and say something, and they are a bit exaggerated.There were all kinds of people in the bar, and some of them were dissatisfied and came over and said they wanted to compete with me, but I won three more people in a row.I have drunk a lot of alcohol. Although I am not drunk, I am already very excited, so I yelled a few words with my friends.As a result, another boy was dissatisfied and came over to challenge me again.This is really a bit amazing. After competing with me for two games, I won one set and lost one set.When he wanted to play two games, the boy seemed to have a sudden endure. He couldn't compare anyway, so he walked away and chatted with his friends.

Why?Shi Mengying heard it very seriously and suddenly asked.

Haha, no reason, I just don’t want to play with me anymore.How many whys?Su Chen smiled slightly mockingly, but I didn't know what happened that day, so I was very angry and just wanted to get a result.Later, someone told me that this is how it is after drinking. Some people still look sober, but in fact they have poor ability to control themselves.I had only one idea at that time, and I must compete with him again.After about an hour, the boy and a group of friends passed by me, as if he was going back.I just held him and must compete with him for the final game.He still refused to compare. His friends around him started to make a fuss and either asked them to leave quickly or add some bets. I asked him what he wanted to bet?He said he wanted to compare and bet a big one. If he lost, he could let him do whatever he wanted; if I lost, he would do it once.

Ah?Shi Mengying was a little surprised at first, but when she thought of the reason for this heart-to-heart talk, she felt that she shouldn't be surprised. What's the result?Su Chen suddenly laughed: Of course I lost. If I win, why would I tell you such a boring story?

and you?

I went with him to check in.We didn't even take a shower, and when we entered the room, we took off all our clothes and started doing it, almost without foreplay.This guy has a big dick because he could fuck me if he wins the bet, so he didn't restrain himself, just fuck me with all his strength.He probably drank a lot of alcohol, which was very long-lasting. I felt that he had fucked my water. I changed three or four positions, and finally lay down like a dog. He grabbed my hair and pulled it hard, fucking it constantly.The hair on top hurts, and the bottom basically has been dry for several times, which is also very painful.But he still didn't cum.I begged him not to do it anymore, I can help him suck it out with his mouth.He just kept stopping, I had no pleasure for a long time, only one feeling, pain.I feel that it hurts even more than when I first started.After he finally ejaculated, he asked me whether I would stay for the night or leave.I chose to leave.Actually, my first feeling was that I was afraid. I was afraid that he would come to fuck me again if he recovered, and then I might die... When I walked out of the room, it felt very painful when I grinded down, but for some reason, I felt a sense of ease that I had not had for a long time.

Ah?Shi Mengying felt a little incredible when she listened to her describing her experience in such profound words. This was something she had never seen before. She was a little panicked and curious.

I fell asleep that night and slept well.

Shi Mengying frowned and said: But that's just venting, right?This doesn't mean anything.

Su Chen poured himself some wine, and this time he added some to Shi Mengying's cup, raised the cup and invited it a little, and then took a sip: Maybe.But what is the reason and nature? Is that important?The most important thing is how the effect is.After that day, I slept well for several days.But it soon returned to its original state.More than half a month later, my friend and I went to the bar again and met the boy again. I took the initiative to come forward and ask him if he was interested in coming again.As a man, how could he refuse such a situation?So we went again.What do you think is the result?

How about it?

He didn't drink much that day, nor did he mean to play me if he won the bet. He did a lot of foreplay, which should have been more pleasant than last time.But to be honest, I don’t feel much pleasure, it seems that it is not what I thought I had before.Everything will be the same after going back, without any effect.You see, it’s not that you just need to have sex and vent.

Shi Mengying was thinking about it, and the wine glass was placed beside her lips. The wine was stained with her lips, and it seemed that she didn't drink it.

This time we left each other's phone number, and the next day I called him and made another appointment. This time I told him that I wanted him to play roughly.He asked me how rough I could be?I said that as long as you don’t leave any scars, you can try it. I can’t stand it anymore and I will say it.So that night he tied me up, stuffed my mouth with his socks, poked me underneath with the handle of the toothbrush, slapped me in the face, and crushed my feet on my face.This time I succeeded again.Relaxed for many more days.

What is the reason for this?Shi Mengying found it incredible.

I have no idea. Su Chen's answer was decisive, which surprised Shi Mengying, but what did that matter? I don't need to know why, I just need to know that this is effective. In the next few months, I didn’t keep looking for him. I went to that bar almost a few days later to find a man I like. Later, I simply went to the bar and toilet to solve the problem and had sex in that smelly place. I even went in three times one night with different men. Later, a man told me that the bar gave me a nickname, "Public Toilet Flower". At first I thought they said I was a flower in the public toilet, but the man fucked me and said that it meant that I was just a public toilet, and even a man could get on me. Listening to this, I had an orgasm.

Shi Mengying frowned, she couldn't imagine that kind of life.

She looked at Su Chen who was so calm in front of her with a feeling of looking at the monster.

Su Chen's current attitude is more incredible than what she said.

If it were her, she would not have described such a life in such a tone or such words, and even she would not dare to face her own life.

I heard that psychologist say a word for selective forgetting. Well, Shi Mengying thinks that if he doesn't die, it must be because he has chosen to forget such a life.

But Su Chen not only remembers it so clearly, but also speaks it so calmly, as if he is talking about other people's affairs.

Shi Mengying didn't know whether she should despise the woman in front of her or admire her.

Then what?

Then?Su Chen straightened up, stretched, and then, I'm ready.All the pain I had before was gone.

Shi Mengying was speechless.

Su Chen stopped the story, but in fact, she didn't finish it.

Later she became the mistress of a deputy secretary in the company. This deputy secretary had a little bit of a mild SM hobby, which just gave her a fixed channel to find pain.

So she went to the bar less and less.

About half a year later, because the deputy secretary's wife noticed, their relationship ended.

Su Chen left the state-owned enterprise and found a new job in Zhou Xiaorong's company.

Su Chen will not tell Shi Mengying the next half of the story.

The relationship between them is far from this point, so how could they tell her all such private matters?

In fact, even the first half of the story was because she was commissioned by Xu Peng.

During dinner, Shi Mengying went to the bathroom halfway through. Xu Peng took the opportunity to give her a task, which was to instill similar views just now into Shi Mengying.

As for what method to use, Xu Peng doesn't care.

Su Chen guessed why Xu Peng went so hard.

She didn't care at all about what Shi Mengying might encounter in the future.

To be honest, she actually looks down on a woman like Shi Mengying.

She has no ability but has a big air. She always feels that she is the purest and nobler than anyone else, and she disdains to communicate with others.

He has been played with by someone, but he looks sincere and helpless.

There is a word on the Internet called "White Lotus Bitch", which seems to refer to a person who is pure and kind on the surface but insidious and cunning on the inside.

Su Chen calls a woman like Shi Mengying a lotus bitch, but she always thinks she is still a lotus even though she has done something like a bitch.

It’s fun to be played with by Xu Peng, and the more miserable she plays, the better.

So, she simply told Shi Mengying some of her experiences, and it was appropriate to use her own examples as the view Xu Peng wanted her to express.

Whether it works will be discussed later. At least she has completed the task that Xu Peng taught her successfully.

After listening to this story, Shi Mengying remained silent.

At this moment, a knock on the door happened to sound.

Shi Mengying got up and opened the door. Xu Peng stood outside the door, holding a bottle of unopened red wine in his hand.

He smiled as soon as he entered the door.

Oh, you guys have drunk it yourself?How about we do a little more?

The moment Shi Mengying opened the door for Xu Peng, Chen Xi also knocked on the door on another floor.

The one who opened the door for Chen Xi was the girl who checked in the hotel with him today.

Her name is Ding Muzhen, and she is Chen Xi's junior sister, strictly speaking, it should be said that Chen Huan's junior sister was in college when she was in college, and she was two classes lower.

Through Chen Wan's relationship, I met Chen Xi, which was a hit and I have maintained a close contact since then.

Although Chen Xi went to study in the UK after graduation, and when Chen Xi returned to China, she had already gone to South Korea and stayed in Seoul to work after obtaining her master's degree, the two rarely had the opportunity to meet.

But this does not affect the friendship between the two.

Whether it is business work or vacation, as long as the two have the opportunity to live in the same city, they will always do everything possible to make an appointment to meet.

Usually, I often send greetings to each other on the Internet.

Ding Muzhen is now a freelance photographer and independent writer, and is quite famous.

Her economic and cultural comments are often adopted by foreign news agencies, and a set of photos taken have even appeared on National Geographic.

Last week, Ding Muzhen left a message to Chen Xi through MSN, asking him if he has time recently. She wanted to give herself a vacation and happened to return to China to visit her senior brother.

He said that he wanted to come back and meet Shen Xi alone and stay together for a few days.

Just as Chen Xi had nothing to do these days, he simply planned a vacation for her and booked two rooms at the Shangri-La Hotel near the scenic area in the suburbs of the city, preparing to spend her time with her during her holidays these days.

But I didn't expect to meet Shi Mengying in the lobby.

Chen Xi, the man who was with her, recognized that he had not only seen him at the bar that night, but also saw them talking at the door of their company when he picked up Shi Mengying off work.

I heard from Shi Mengying that this is the lecturer of their company.

As for what his name is, Chen Xi has long lost his memory.

Chen Xi didn't care much about why they appeared here together.

His current thoughts are focused on thinking about Ding Mu's true emotions.

After receiving her at the airport, although this cheerful girl was chatting and laughing as usual, he always felt that she had a very serious thought.

Maybe she came back for this.

Otherwise, why do you deliberately choose a time that is not reliable around the New Year or the Festival and fly back to see you?

Ding Muzhen’s hometown is in Fujian. There is really a holiday and it’s rare to return to China. Shouldn’t we take time to go home?

But looking at her itinerary, she flew directly to the city where she was, and then flew back to Seoul three days later.

Her goal is very clear, which is Chen Xi. She must have something to say to herself.

A topic worth her flying back from Seoul and talking to herself face to face.

Chen Xi was both interested and vaguely felt that it might be a difficult problem.

After dinner, Chen Xi and Ding Muzhen walked out of the hotel together, took a walk in the lawn and flowerbed, and ordered a beer at the bar. They chatted for a while and then suggested that she go back to her room to rest, recover her fatigue from afar, and start going out together tomorrow.

After he returned to the room by himself, he went straight into the bathroom and took a shower happily.

During this period, he vaguely heard the phone in the hotel room ringing for a while, and it seemed that someone knocked on the door a few times.

But then there was no movement again.

It shouldn't be a big deal, otherwise it wouldn't have disappeared so quickly.

Chen Xi also thought with a bad taste: Could it be that Shangri-La has changed the rules now that in addition to the beauties sitting in the lobby, there are also people who knock on the door and call to serve?

When he walked out of the bathroom and changed into his pajamas, he remembered that he forgot to hang the anti-theft chain after entering the door.

When I walked to the door, I found a piece of white paper stuffed into the gap under the door.

When I opened it, I saw a line of small characters written by Ding Muzhen: Senior brother, I was washed away by exhaustion, why not talk at night with a candle?

He couldn't help but laugh, and quickly re-dressed, walked out of the room, and gently knocked on the door next door.

The door was half open, revealing a bright smile, and then the girl opened the door open and made a gesture of inviting her to enter.

Chen Xi was slightly surprised because Ding Muzhen was wearing a hotel bathrobe, without buttoning, but just tied up her belt, slightly exposed her pink breasts, and her jade legs were smooth, all in her eyes.

Ding Mu's true appearance is actually very ordinary in the eyes of many Chinese people.

She is the oriental beauty in the eyes of a typical Westerner. Of course, she is not as classic as Lu Yàn, but the general outline is that.

I have to find an analogy. There are three or four points of the meaning of Liu Yuling, who has filmed "Charlie's Angels".

Of course, in Shen Xi's eyes, she is more beautiful than Liu Yuling.

It's just a matter of opinion.

But Ding Muzhen naturally exudes a mature feminine feeling.

This is a kind of mellow and completely female sexual attraction, which can make people no longer care about her appearance.

Are you afraid that I will have some misunderstandings when I greet my senior brother like this?

How can a person with bright wind and clear moon have a dirty heart?Ding Muzhen raised her head provocatively.

Chen Xi shook his head and smiled bitterly to show helplessness: Let a woman be so unscrupulous to me, do you think this is my honor? Or a shame? As he spoke, he came to the middle of the room.

When booking a room, I never thought about living in the same room. Of course, Chen Xi would not pretend to be a big-tailed wolf, so he went to book a suite for Ding Muzhen alone.

It's just an ordinary queen room.

However, Shangri-La's room layout is of course much better than the so-called queen-bed rooms in ordinary economic hotels.

It looks about fifty square meters, and in the middle of the room is a European-style bed wider than an ordinary double bed. There are all desks, computers, sofas, coffee tables, refrigerators, crystal ceiling lamps, floor lamps, and wall lamps in the room.

There was a lace bra and a pair of thongs hanging on the chaise at the end of the bed, both of which were seductive black, which made people suddenly think of it, and I couldn't help but imagine what they looked like when they were worn on the owner.

Chen Xi pointed at them jokingly: Just put it in such a dignified place. In your heart, am I completely changed?

Ding Muzhen's face was not red, her heart was not beating, she took the bra and thong together, stuffed it into the quilt, and said calmly: It's senior brother, you're not the time.I just finished taking a shower and before I could clean up, you came to knock on the door.Of course I'm in a hurry to open the door for you first!

After making a few jokes, Chen Xishu leaned comfortably on the sofa: My dear little sister, there are neither beautiful plums nor mountain rain, so where can we talk about the candle at night?

Ding Muzhen sat opposite Shen Xi, restraining the lightness he had when he was joking just now, and becoming a little more serious.

Well... Chen Xi waited patiently for Ding Muzhen to speak.

It must be not that easy to speak.

After staying for a minute or two, Ding Muzhen looked up at Chen Xi's calm face and suddenly smiled self-deprecatingly: Forget it, don't think about what to say. I'll just say it. This is the best for me.

Um! Chen Xi agreed.

This problem has troubled me for a long time.I don't know who I can look for.Because not every friend can listen to me calmly and talk to me about the matter, it is very likely that they will be involved in some things.Maybe, you are the only senior brother, you can listen to what I said and then analyze what I said as a case.So... she spread her hands, meaning she can only trouble you.

Chen Xi turned his head with a very honorable expression, indicating that he had complete understanding.

What I want to ask for a senior brother is that if I fall in love with someone, but completely give up some of the things I insist on before, rely entirely on this person, and fully accept what he said, and even if I don’t like or agree with, I will not object to anything.You said, is this kind of love healthy?

Chen Xi scratched his nose, and the direction of the topic was not beyond his expectations, and it was indeed a problem of love.

But the content was somewhat unexpected to him.

Healthy love?

Unhealthy love?

This topic is really a bit big. If you really talk about it, you may not only have to talk at night, but also have a chance of all night.

Did I ask about space?Brother, don’t know what to say?

Chen Xi nodded slowly.

All right!Ding Muzhen was originally leaning against the back of the sofa. She twisted her body to make herself lying more comfortable. Then you can listen to my story slowly...

Chen Xi smiled, got up, went to the refrigerator to get two bottles of water, handed Ding Muzhen a bottle, and sat upright.

He didn't say anything, but his posture explained to Ding Muzhen that he was ready to listen carefully.

I have a boyfriend in Korea.Ding Muzhen began to tell the story of being fifty-year-old, an American, teaching in Korea.Teach Human Resume Management.He and my graduate supervisor are chess friends, and I met him from the supervisor.

Chen Xi listened very seriously.

After meeting me, he invited me to dinner a few days later.Then I drank coffee and played tennis again.After the fourth date, I went to his house and went to bed with him.When I first started with him, I was still studying, so I still rented a house with my classmates.After getting my degree, I moved to live with him.

Chen Xi frowned slightly when she talked about her fourth date.

Perhaps for many girls today, it is too late to go to bed for the fourth time, but for Ding Muzhen, who he knows, it is very fast.

But, after all, this is not too special. Maybe the true destiny is here, it's just so soon...

Ding Muzhen suddenly smiled: Do you think it’s nothing special?

Chen Xi nodded slowly, indicating that he was waiting for the next plot.

His sexual desire is very strong, and I will do it every day as long as we allow it in time and body.There are almost no guests at his house who will come, and friends gatherings are outside, so I basically don’t wear clothes as long as I am at home.

Chen Xi raised his eyebrows and made a questionable expression.

Ding Muzhen caught it immediately.

I was not used to what he asked, but I didn't object.Later I got used to it. Once I almost went to open the door to the delivery person naked.

This is what you just said about relying on someone. Even if you are asked to do things you are not used to and don’t like, you won’t object?

yes.But this is nothing, it happened after I lived with him.The first time I realized that I had a greater reliance on him than normal was the first time I had arguing with him.I hadn't graduated yet at that time. I was going to spend the night with him that weekend, but after a quarrel, I went back to the house I rented.My roommate went out for a trip with her friend and was not here.He chased me and I wanted to argue with him for a few more times, but he stopped arguing with me. He didn't talk, just looked at me, and suddenly said something and took off all his clothes.

Chen Xi raised his eyebrows again.

I thought I had heard it wrong.He said it again and asked me to take off all my clothes.I found it strange afterwards, but at that time I seemed to be possessed by evil spirits and took off all my clothes in the living room.He did it with me on the floor in the living room.When he came over to untie his pants, I naturally lay on the ground and spread my legs apart.It's like I'm looking forward to it myself.And there was almost no foreplay required, I was completely wet.

Chen Xi nodded thoughtfully.

This has always been like this since then.Sometimes at home, I'm doing my own thing, and he writes in front of the computer, and he will suddenly say, come here.Then he asked me to get under the desk to give him a blowjob. He continued to write his own, and I would do the same.Sometimes when I was cooking, he would suddenly come over from behind and enter me.Anyway, I usually don’t wear anything except aprons, which is very convenient.I almost had no desire to object to the demands he made.

You aren't hypnotized, are you? He also said that he had been possessed by evil spirits. Chen Xi squeezed his eyes. This was a joke, just to show that he was thinking about what she said.

It is not the best way to never speak up while others are telling it.

But so far, Chen Xi doesn't want to express any complete ideas.

So just a joke first.

Have you read too many novels? Of course, Ding Muzhen could also hear that Chen Xi was a joke. She snorted, I was very sober, I just didn't want to say 'no' to him.

It seems that so far, except for your sex, everything is still normal.

Well, yes, so far.Then, something abnormal came.Ding Muzhen rubbed his hands. Since last year, he made a new request to me, which is to take the process of making love into a video and then put it on social networking sites.

Chen Xi couldn't help but straighten his upper body.

Did you agree?

Ding Muzhen smiled: It’s not that I agreed, it’s that I didn’t refuse.

Didn't refuse once?

Not once.

Did he really put it online?You didn't object?

Yes.I think this is inappropriate, but I have no objection, and I will go and see it with him, listen to him and reply to the fans who left messages.

fan?

Well, I'm quite popular!Ding Muzhen stuck out his tongue. Some people will say that I have a good figure, we do it very sexy, etc., so I will say thank you.Some people would also say they wanted to do it with me once or something, but I ignored it and he wrote back and forth.

How many have you put on it?

I haven't counted it, there are more than thirty movies?And not all the photos we took were put on.By the way, senior brother, do you want to see it?

Chen Xizheng picked up the water and took a sip, and almost sprayed it out when he heard the last sentence.

What did you say?

You can watch Ah online.I think since you are helping me analyze this matter, you should take a look.You know now, why do I have to look for you when I say this?

Chen Xi said: Thank you, Junior Sister, for looking down on me so much. That's it, but Chen Xi knew Ding Mu really meant.

Indeed, not everyone can talk about sex.

Some people have mental cleanliness and will regard sex as a taboo in conversation; some people do not have taboos, but they will regard sex as a relatively low-level thing, for fear of being regarded by others as animals that think in the lower body; then there are animals that really think completely with the lower body, their first reaction is just like Mr. Lu Xun said. When he saw the short sleeves, he immediately thought of white arms, his immediate nakedness, his immediate genitals, his immediate thought of sexual intercourse, his immediate crossbreeding, and his immediate illegitimate child.Sometimes girls just mention sex, and they immediately wonder if they are hinting at me?

Do you want to sleep with me?

Is she a girl who goes to bed easily?

She must have had sex with many men... Many people's imagination can only be boundless at this point.

Chen Xi is not a saint, but at least, he can indeed look at sex with an extremely plain attitude.

Girls talk about sex with such men and feel safe.

But Ding Muzhen's idea of ​​going online to let himself watch videos is still a little naive.

Younger sister Ah, you are really comfortable in a capitalist country. Don’t you know that many social networking websites abroad cannot be accessed in China?You can't put it on Kaixin.com, right?

Ding Muzhen suddenly realized: Yes!Still need to climb the wall?But it doesn't matter!Still able to watch!

As she said that, she jumped up, and the bathrobe was swaying, her flesh shining.

She walked towards the desk on the other side of the room. Chen Xi grabbed her as she passed by: What are you doing?

My laptop has saved some videos Ah.

Chen Xi was almost mad: Please note, can I be a man? Miss Ding, are you just not treating me like a man? You don’t think it’s not appropriate to stay alone in the same room at night, you dress like this, and then ask me to watch your sex video?

Ding Muzhen stuck out her tongue: I don’t think so.You are my senior brother Ah.After you have read it, you can really understand what I encountered and help me make the most accurate judgment...

Chen Xi was speechless and speechless for a moment.

Then he let go of his hand as if he accepted his fate and worshiped him twice.

Ding Muzhen laughed twice, ran to take the laptop over, put it on the coffee table, then clicked on the hard drive and layered folders one by one, and finally stopped in a folder named Vivian, which contained more than 40 video files.

They all belong to you?

Um!Ding Muzhen chose a random video file to open it.

The one who appears in the video is a bedroom and a big bed, and Ding Mu is really sitting on the bed.

In the camera, she was wearing a rose-red pajamas, with the front part being pulled below her chest and stretched to the bottom of her breasts.

Two plump breast balls were exposed.

The camera swayed slightly, as if it was being held in the hand, aiming at Ding Muzhen.

There was a low voice outside the camera saying something, which was slightly vague.

However, Chen Xi could hear that he asked Ding Muzhen to start.

Ding Muzhen in the camera put one hand on one breast, gently twisted her nipples, and said with a smile: Hell, Everyne.My name...

After the video started playing, Ding Muzhen sat slanted on the armrest of the sofa where Chen Xi was sitting. Suddenly leaned over and adjusted the progress of the video: There was nothing good about this scene, just let me introduce myself to the camera.

The video progress bar is pulled and jumps directly to the back.

At this time, the lens no longer shaking, as if it had been fixed in one place.

A man who looked very strong stood on the bed, and the camera could only capture him below his waist.

Ding Mu was really having a blowjob for him. Judging from her sucking and spitting, she obviously had swallowed as much of her penis into her mouth as possible, but the half of the penis left outside her mouth was still very long. She held the root tightly with one hand, and there was still some space for masturbation.

The man's pubic hair was shaved very cleanly, the pure white man's body color was very obvious, and the base of the penis looked slightly black.

His hand was pressing on the back of Ding Muzhen's head, pulling her hair hard, making her already slightly messy hair even more messy.

The long black hair was pulled into pieces, forming a strong contrast with the man's slightly pale body color.

He suddenly said something softly to Ding Muzhen. Ding Muzhen turned his gaze to the camera, and continued to suck hard, while smiling at the camera.

This time, Chen Xi could not help Ding Muzhen to decide whether to watch according to the progress or pull forward, but instead did it himself, allowing the video to move forward for about five minutes.

The picture suddenly changed. Ding Mu really faced the camera, buried his head in the bed sheet, and his plump buttocks were towering. The man was kneeling behind her, shaking forward constantly, hitting her lower body fiercely. The extremely fast slap sound was crisp and pleasant, and it was clearly heard.

Ding Muzhen hummed like a whimper, holding the bed sheet with both hands tightly. Except for the twisting of his buttocks from time to time, his upper body almost collapsed on the bed, as if he was dead, no movement.

Seeing such a scene and hearing such moans again, Chen Xi finally swallowed involuntarily.

Ding Muzhen stopped talking and grabbed Chen Xi's right sleeve with one hand.

Chen Xi smiled self-deprecatingly and reached out to turn off the video.

I think I'd better not watch it.Otherwise this scene might become a real scene...

Ding Muzhen was so bored that he stared at Chen Xi's eyes with a smile and asked: Are you sure you really do it? Are you men so impulsive when watching such videos?

Chen Xi stood up, walked to a short distance away from Ding Muzhen, and could no longer smell the faint smell of flesh from her body, and smiled: To be fair, I wasn't so impulsive, these were really just normal scenes. But, I couldn't resist the heroine sitting next to me...

Ding Muzhen took the opportunity to slide his body to Chen Xi sitting on the sofa just now, making himself feel comfortable.

Do you think I am normal?She pointed to the laptop screen, and although the video had been turned off, the desktop at this moment was her sunny smiling face.

Chen Xi sat in the seat where Ding Muzhen had been sitting.

What do you think about shooting such videos and uploading them?

I don’t have the initiative, I won’t think about such a thing at all, and if I really put it on, I don’t feel very comfortable.

In other words, if he asks you to take pictures, you just take pictures, and he wants to upload them, and you have no objection?

Well, yes.

Is the video posted just like what I just posted?

No, these have not been processed, they are directly stored on my hard drive after the shooting.All of us put it online were mosaiced on my face.

That's fine... Chen Xi murmured to himself.

His whole face was wrinkled together, which was indeed a difficult question.

Especially, when he really hopes to give the other party a helpful answer.

I don’t understand psychology much, so it’s hard for me to give you particularly professional advice on your psychology.But as far as I see, a man has a hobby for sex videos, and after doing so, he puts it on a relatively niche social platform for people to watch... Although this behavior is not normal, it is not too unacceptable.There are many in China now, right?As long as he doesn't force you, even if you do this, will the problem be less serious than you thought?

Ding Muzhen pursed her lips, folded her hands together, supported her nose, and pressed her two thumbs against her chin.

It's like meditating.

Chen Xi slowly eased the desires that had just risen, and looked at Ding Mu's eyes softer and softer.

Ding Muzhen put down his hands and held his fingers in front of his chest.

If this is true, maybe it is not that serious... She reached out to her laptop again, opened a video, and turned it off; turned it on another one, and turned it off; after opening the third video, she pulled it back to about halfway through the progress and pressed the pause button.

Let's take a look at this again?

Chen Xi took a deep breath and got up and walked towards her.

Perhaps it was a question of angle. When he was standing, he felt that this was just another video of Ding Muzhen having sex with her boyfriend, and even his posture was similar to the previous one, but this time Ding Muzhen raised his head.

But when Chen Xiban squatted to the sofa and his eyes were parallel to the monitor, he immediately noticed a strange thing, because the man behind Ding Muzhen in the video turned into a black man.

Chen Xi turned his gaze to Ding Muzhen with a slight surprise. She made a look. Is it a bit serious? Then he knocked on the mouse.

The loud and slightly painful moan suddenly rang out.

Ding Muzhen on the screen was pulled by the man behind her, and her neck was forced to be raised high, with a distinct expression of satisfaction but somewhat unbearable on her face, and she shouted nonstop without interruption.

The man behind him kept muttering, repeating the same sentence What a dirty ass!

At this time the camera began to turn, and it was obvious that someone was holding the camera and started to move. A voice outside the camera said something, and the black man replied excitedly: Yeah, This is a ht girl!

The person holding the camera said something again. Chen Xi didn't listen to the dubbing so seriously, only the word asshle rushed into his ears.

After hearing this, the black man laughed, increased the frequency of the impact, and slapped Ding Muzhen's buttocks hard. The camera deliberately approached the buttocks that were beaten red, and then turned to the point where the two people were closely connected.

A dark cock that was astonishingly thick, about two-thirds of it was inserted into Ding Muzhen's anus. Every time he rushed forward, the cock would stop properly at a certain point to ensure that it would not go deeper too much.

No wonder I have never heard the sound of two bodies colliding directly.

I almost died that day.Ding Muzhen suddenly spoke, his was too thick and too long, if he came in, I might really die.

Chen Xi looked away, avoiding the anal opening that was stretched to the maximum limit and the shaking wave of the buttocks that were shaking when the penis quickly entered and exited.

Is the person filming your boyfriend?

right.

Who is this black man?

He is a British man.Working in Korea.I met someone on the social networking site where we played videos.

This is what your boyfriend asked to do?

yes.One day he suddenly asked me if I was interested in having sex with another person in front of him.I thought he was joking, but he was serious.He chose three of the few people who left us a message and asked me to choose.

Have you still not objected at this time?

have.I said I couldn't accept it.He didn't force me.But two days later, he asked me again.This time, I agree.I asked him to choose one for me.He carefully selected the three people for a month, chatted with each other online, met one by one, and finally chose Theo.Then we booked a room in the hotel, Theo and I did it twice, and he took photos.

Chen Xi sighed a few times.

This incident is not sensational, but it still makes him feel a little difficult to adapt to when it comes to a girl who is so familiar with him.

Have these videos been posted online?

Yes.The click-through rate is very high.Ding Mu really couldn't tell whether he was self-deprecating or proud. Later, there was another one, who was from Korean.It was also posted on the Internet.

OK. Is there any more? More exaggerated? Chen Xi decided to listen to everything first, so as not to progress step by step, and there will always be new impact waiting for him.

At this point, Chen Xi felt that he could barely hold on, but if Ding Muzhen's weird boyfriend had further ideas, he might not be able to withstand it.

No more... Ding Muzhen shrugged, at present, that's all...

Chen Xi let out a long sigh.

OK... Then, what do you think?

I don't know...I don't like this, but I can't refuse him...I don't know why, but I just do everything he wants me to do.Senior brother, am I sick?

Not that serious, right? Chen Xi suddenly had the idea of ​​regretting not reading more books on psychology. He really knew very little about this. First of all, I would like to ask if you refuse all the requests he made, so is the same in other aspects?

I have no idea.Ding Muzhen pouted, I think I would not refuse any other aspects.But he didn't make any other strange requests except sexually.In other aspects, we are really normal.

OK, okay...then...can you tell whether your feelings for him are love or a kind of sexual dependence?

able. I love him. I love having sex with him, I love his… stuff, I love his taste, I even love the feeling of his cum flowing on my skin. But that doesn't mean I just like having sex with him. I know very clearly that I love him.

good.As for the stupid question of 'why love him', I won't ask.After you have these troubles, have you tried to do something to fight?

have.Once, I also wanted to see if I was obsessed with him because I was obsessed with him and refused all his sexual requirements.I want to tell whether I am obsessed with sex or him.So, when I was traveling with a friend, I deliberately seduced him and went to bed with him.To be honest, this friend is very good in bed and performs really well. I got a strong orgasm by him.But the next day, I had no feelings for him.So I know, I'm not obsessed with sex, I'm obsessed with my boyfriend.

Chen Xi smiled, this was what he wanted to hear the most. If this was the case, the situation would not have reached the worst level.

Well…If you think this problem is serious, affecting your mood, making your life confused, and endangering your mental health, then I sincerely recommend that you go to a psychologist. I really can't help in this regard. Chen Xi said, and suddenly the three words Shi Mengying appeared in his mind.

If he was a psychologist himself, he might be able to solve Shi Mengying's problem.

Maybe they won't be able to break up.

Of course, this is just a momentary thought, but if you just want to find a friend to give you some advice, I think I can share some things with you.

Ding Muzhen sat down with sincerity and said seriously: I want my friend to give me advice.

Chen Xi adjusted his thoughts for a moment and said slowly: First of all, I believe that one thing should be our consensus: human desires are both difficult to control and diverse. As long as there is no coercion or coercion, there is no right or wrong in anything related to desire. This is the premise for us to discuss the issue. So you don't have to be confused about what's right or wrong about all those things you've done, and thus create any moral burden. The whole thing is only good or bad for you, and it does not exist. OK? Can we establish this premise?

Ding Muzhen nodded a little hesitantly, she was still digesting Chen Xi's words.

Secondly, you are wondering whether you have an unhealthy love.I think the direction is wrong.I don't think it's a question of whether love is healthy or not.What you should think is what you will get from this love and then lose?I think you have got a man who is willing to obey infinitely, and have the love between him.What have you lost?Losing your autonomy, losing some of the values ​​you once insisted on, such as the self-esteem that some women value very much, and the principle of only sleeping with one man in a relationship... This is not a problem. Losing self-esteem or principles is not the worst thing for a woman to lose herself.As long as it is yourself, it is worth it to lose those values ​​and principles and exchange them for love, then it is OK.Nothing should naturally be the best. Love is not above everything else, nor is self-esteem.We are always making choices, making choices for desires, making choices for feelings, making choices for interests, and even making choices for face.Life is about choosing something and then giving up on others.What’s important is that we choose the one we think is the most important from the bottom of our hearts.For it, you can give up something else.

Ding Muzhen nodded again and continued to digest.

Finally, if one day you break up... Everything may exist, Mu Zhen, you are no longer the age of t yung, t simple, smetimes naive.You are not a naive girl, you know you may break up, right?

Ding Muzhen smiled and said: The little girl has had such an experience as me, so it is impossible that she is still so naive, right?

Chen Xi nodded: Yes, yes...good...If one day you break up, you should re-examine what you believe in your favorite lifestyle after you leave him. If by that day, you are used to the way you are with him, it doesn't matter, you can continue. But if you feel that you are not asking him on the side, and you are more willing to live your previous life and stick to your previous values, then return to the Ding Muzhen in the past. Don’t lose yourself after you are separated because you were with him and can’t tell what you want and what he wants. Don’t think that what you have done before is what you agree with. In life, we will do a lot of things that we don’t agree with, what ever, it doesn’t matter, because we will always encounter many reasons for having to do those things. What is most sad is that gradually, we forget the reasons we did against our worries, and only remember that we did these things, so that when those reasons no longer work, we continue to do those things out of inertia. Slowly, these things become our habits, and slowly, they become our inner value. That's sad.

Ding Muzhen put his hands in front of his nose again, covering half of his face, thinking about something.

In fact, it is just four sentences: desire is not guilty, emotion is not wrong, sincere choice, never forget the original intention.Be with your boyfriend, let it go; be prepared to break up; if you break up, find yourself.I can only say so much.

Looking at the corners of Ding Muzhen's smiling mouth gradually, Chen Xi stood up gently: I think, it's time for me to go back, good night.