Chapter 1

I always think that the mother and son next door are weird. This is a kind of intuition, a woman's intuition

Next door's surname is Liu, and moved to this community a month ago

There is usually nothing big in the countryside, but as long as the trivial news is usually changed from gossip to tooth chat topics, and finally becomes a household name gossip. And the process is surprisingly fast

Due to moral issues, I am not interested in exploring other people's privacy. I can only warn my son Xiaojie to pay more attention when entering and leaving, and it is best to keep a distance from the child next door.

Although both of our families are single-parent families and the children are of the same age, it should be very easy to talk about, but as soon as I think of the family next door, I feel a little uneasy.

Last month was my last period since I was the mother of this community tutor. Because I often need to participate in the work of a community child in get out of class, this also made me meet this mother and son by chance.

Liu's mother is about 35 years old and looks a few years younger than me. She and Xiaojie are not only studying in the same high school, but also in the same class. Xiaojie once mentioned that his mother calls him Xiaoliang

One day, as I used to be a volunteer for school nurses crossing the road, Liu's mother happened to be waiting for her son at the school gate. In fact, this was a common thing, but when Xiaoliang stepped out of the school gate and rushed towards her with joy, it was incredible.

Xiaoliang buried his head in his mother's chest without restraint, rubbing constantly like acting cute. Finally, he put his mouth on Liu's lips, which looked like a couple.

I don't know how to view this scene at that moment. Even if I act like a petite Xiaojie, it never happened this way. At most, I just kissed my face. After all, my son is in the second grade of junior high school. Children at this time are not very attached to my mother. In front of my peers, I usually feel embarrassed to have intimate actions with my parents.

Although the interaction between mother and son is different from others, at first I thought it was a difference in education methods, but it was not a big deal.

I just moved to this environment and I was not familiar with the place. From the standpoint of my neighbor, I kindly came to the door to invite the mother and son to our house to play, chat or contact each other.

After I pressed the bell, Liu's mother came to answer the door for a long time. She seemed very tired, not only her hair was messy, but her clothes were not worn well. I kindly explained my purpose. She smiled and said that she would come to visit later.

Just as I was about to leave, Xiaoliang suddenly appeared behind his mother and looked up and down at me. His eyes finally fell on my chest. Liu's mother noticed that my face was strange and immediately pushed her son.

Xiaoliang, why are you so rude? This person wants to be called... She suddenly remembered that she didn't know what my surname was

It doesn't matter, my surname is Xu

Not calling Aunt Xu, Xiaoliang then muttered and called me, then pulled her mother's skirt and shouted:

Hurry up, don't say anything more, come in soon!

Liu's mother apologized for luck and closed the door. When I got home, I began to think it was a stupid idea to invite this family.

Thinking of Xiaoliang's eyes staring at my chest with bad intentions, I felt very uncomfortable when I blushed and my ears were hot. That was definitely not the eyes that middle school students should have.

But to the other hand, children who have lost their fatherly love are inevitably disorganized in their words and deeds. Fortunately, my Xiaojie is not so worrying in this regard. As I think about this, I feel relieved.

In the evening, not long after Xiaojie came back from school, and the Liu family and his son came at dinner time.

Around the dining table, I started chatting with my mother Liu unconsciously

It turned out that her real name was Weng Daihua, and her ex-husband was an unemployed drunkard. After the divorce half a year ago, she took Xiaoliang to rent a house outside, and she worked as an accountant in the trading company. Unexpectedly, the drunkard came to visit Xiaoliang and actually came to borrow money from her. After repeated entanglements, she decided to move out of the place so she came to this community.

Miss Weng, have you ever thought about remarrying?

She shook her head: Just call me Daihua

It's also pity. Xiaoliang has been more attached to his father since he was a child. After the couple ended their marriage, the child was always the most innocent. During the divorce, Xiaoliang often quarreled with his father. In order to make up for this shortcoming, Daihua could only care for him more as a mother and father.

Just as I was having a good chat with Daihua, I noticed that Xiaoliang, who was standing beside me, looked at my chest from time to time. I simply pretended to clean up the dishes and hid in the kitchen. Weng Daihua then brought the leftovers in to help.

Later I vaguely heard the conversation between Xiaoliang and Xiaojie in the living room

Hello, your mother looks very much like a star on TV. Do you sleep with her at night?

No

I sleep with my mom, and my mom is very fragrant. She used to sleep like a pig as soon as she went to bed. Recently, she played with me. Will your mom play with you before going to bed?

No, we went to the room to sleep after saying good night

That's because you didn't play with her! Girls are very good at playing... in the future... guarantee you...

Really? I... say I don't like it...

You don't...know...

I couldn't hear the content of their next conversation clearly when the TV sounded too loud. However, listening to Xiaoliang's words, it was obvious that Daihua was really hard. It was not easy to go to work. At night, the mother and son had to play to connect their parent-child relationship. I couldn't help but feel relieved that Xiaojie was much more sensible.

Alas, his father was in poor health. When he found out that the cancer had people who were also away quickly, he was lucky to think about it. With our family's financial situation, our family cannot allow people who are seriously ill to continue to drag on. Xiaojie's father is considered conscience.

I stood in the sink while washing dishes while accidentally finding some bite marks on Daihua's arm, and I couldn't help but ask curiously:

How did you bite like this? Did Xiaoliang bite it?

Daihua hid her ashamed to hide her, but she laughed it and didn't explain much

Then I also found that there were some old injuries on her neck from nails, but the scabs had fallen off, so if you don't pay attention, it wouldn't be so obvious.

Boys are always more motivated, and they don’t know how to control themselves at this age. Some bruises that accidentally bump into each other are inevitable, but those who use bites and scratches are rare.

I secretly laughed at myself, those injuries looked more like those left by couples when they were hanging out.

After dinner, Daihua and Xiaoliang chatted with Xiaoliang in the living room for a few words. Xiaoliang clamored that Daihua wanted to go home. The mother and son hurried back after thanking him.

Xiaojie seemed very happy that he had a companion of similar age. He kept saying all night that Xiaoliang knew a lot of things, his mother played horse riding with him and how to fight, etc.

I am happy for him as he looks so happy

Since that night, the two boys have quickly become good playmates from neighbors. Xiaoliang and Xiaojie often hide in the room and close the door and whisper. They even ignore me when I send a fruit knock on the door. Daihua said that the two little guys were the same when Xiaojie went to his house.

At first I thought the two were just playing crazy, until one day when I was cooking dinner in the kitchen, Xiaojie suddenly hugged me from behind and said, "I'm coquettishly":

Mom, I want to sleep with you at night

Why do you suddenly have to sleep with your mother when you are sleeping well?

Xiaoliang is sleeping with his mother, so I want it too!

I thought to myself that children are easy to imitate at this age. I immediately showed off the new toys I got to my playmates, making every child want the same toys. This is also normal, so I promised to let him sleep with me at night

But I was a little uncomfortable this night. When Xiaojie's father was still alive, he asked him to sleep in a bed by himself when he was just in elementary school. The purpose was to help him develop the habit of independence

Over the years, I can't remember what it feels like to be with my son. It's strange that there are always more beds in the cold bed.

So that night I wouldn't have fallen asleep as easily as usual

Just as I was overturning, I finally felt tired and gradually became sleepy. I felt a little cold in my thighs. The timing was intertwined with summer and autumn. I thought the weather was getting colder and I didn't care much, so I turned around and changed to a side position to turn my back to Xiaojie.

Not long after, I felt a palm pressing on my thigh. I thought it was probably because Xiaojie was sleeping indecently, so he was resting there. This disturbed the sleepiness and lighter.

But when I noticed that Xiaojie's hand was trembling, I couldn't help but feel something was wrong and he called softly behind his back:

Mom...Mom...wait for me...

It turned out that I was having a nightmare, and I felt that I was suspicious and funny.

Xiaojie suddenly hugged me, making me want to turn around but there was nothing I could do. One hand was pressing on my chest with dying force, and his lower body felt a swelling tightly against his crotch.

Although I was shocked, I had no good plans and could only keep silent. The great blessing in my misfortune was that Xiaojie was still young and was not tall enough, otherwise it would not be the middle of the buttocks. I'm afraid...

His little hand happened to be pressing on his nipples. Even though I was wearing thin pajamas, I could still feel sweat in his palms. After a while in this position, my body was already half numb.

Xiaojie, Xiaojie, wake up

My son did not respond, so I had to push him away. With just this movement, I found a little sticky liquid oozing out of my lower body. I haven't hugged the man like this for a long time after his father died. No, it should be said that it was a boy, why would his son react?

I felt extremely ashamed and quickly got up and went to the bathroom to rinse. I cried there that night. I couldn't be sure if it was because of the guilt, but it was the first time I felt inexplicably desolate for my lonely widowhood.

The next day, the two children invited them to go to school together. Daihua came to visit her when she had nothing to do, so we both had afternoon tea and relaxed.

As we chatted, the topic turned to men and then unconsciously talked about each other's broken marriages.

A man is completely different before and after marriage, and he never cherishes what he has tasted. Xiaoliang has treated him as a hero since he was a child, but in fact he is not even as good as a bear.

Have your ex-husband come here to find you?

No, I hope I won't see him again in my life

Speaking of ex-husband, it can be seen that Daihua is still very angry

But I am different. I love Xiaojie's father very much. This man is good at everything but has poor health. He left us mother and son to rely on each other at a young age. Isn't this miserable?

Children shouldn't know what happened between you, right?

Even if I don’t know much, I’m sad about this. After all, it’s a father and son. Xiaoliang is really like his father. He is so willful that he is not afraid of heaven or earth. What can I do? Without father’s love, I can only try my best to compensate him in all aspects.

Daihua seemed to want to speak but stopped, paused for a while and then said:

Sister Xu, how long has your husband been gone?

After five years, the bitterness of raising children alone in a woman's family is not enough to tell outsiders.

Haven't you needed it for so many years?

Uh...what did you say you needed it?

That Ah...

I don't understand what she is referring to. She doesn't blush in my ears, and she doesn't breathe, and gently spits out the three words "sexual needs". At this moment, I felt hot from my face to my chest.

Haven't you ever thought about it? How could it be, we are all normal people, and we are so young

She said as she suddenly reached out to pinch my chest, and I was shocked and stunned.

Look at your body is so elastic and your skin is white. If there is no man, it will make people crazy when you get angry. You can't do everything by yourself, right? Sister Xu, we are all women, it's no big deal for sisters to tell these secrets.

I'm not sure I'm so familiar with her

However, every word she said hit my heart. No matter how hard it was in the past few years, I had no memory when things were over. But when it was late at night, I hoped that my husband would come to accompany me and listen to me telling me about my thoughts. The sudden feeling of loneliness could not deceive me.

Of course this is a fool, and people cannot be resurrected when they die. This is also the greatest sorrow of being a woman without another wife

My ex-husband had a strong demand in that area. During the divorce, I couldn't sleep well every night, so I asked Xiaoliang to sleep with me. Sometimes, I thought my dad was sleeping next to me.

She saw that I was silent and thought that I was also worried, so she sat closer and patted my shoulder:

Sister Xu, although you are still young, we all know in our hearts, who wants to marry a woman and take a scoop home? No matter how different the times are, this concept will not change, so we have to put all our hopes on our son. This is what we can do.

The tea is cold

She took a sip of flower tea and held the cup in her palm as if thinking, no - we should say

This conversation shook both women's worries, and the failed marriage had a blow to the woman's physiology and psychology.

Have you seen your son's little cock? Does it look like his father?

Well... men's things are not the same, there is no difference.

Haha, Sister Xu, you should get married after your first love, right?

Can you guess this?

Of course, Ah, not every guy looks the same thing, but he is more like his grandfather's.

I blushed and my heart beat hard when I heard this sentence. Isn’t Xiaoliang’s grandfather your father?

What's that expression? When I was a child, my dad didn't close the door to the toilet. I saw it secretly. You think...

I breathed a sigh of relief: I'm going to die, I didn't say it earlier, I almost got scared to death by you.

We both laughed so hard that we couldn't straighten our waists, and the atmosphere of afternoon tea became interesting in a blink of an eye.

Daihua then described men's toilet habits as different. Standing in front of the toilet, some looked at the close walls, some looked at the words, and some would take advantage of this time to deal with their hair. I couldn't breathe when I heard it.

Men's things are really different? Isn't it just... a stick...

Although they are all sticks, some are curved when they are hard, some are like cucumbers and some are like humes.

Really?

Sister Xu, you don’t know that for women, the kind that is the best, and it is the most useful when doing that. Xiaoliang is the kind that is. At such a young age, that place is already scary.

I guess both mother and son should have a shower together, and then this picture appears on his head is useless. I guess I blushed again

As soon as the evening arrived, we went back to have dinner. After getting along in the afternoon, my impression of Daihua completely changed, and the distance between the two also narrowed a lot.

Xiaojie was locked in the room with Xiaoliang after school. I remembered the topic of two women in the afternoon. I was really curious about what the two boys were talking about, so I quietly pricked my ears outside Xiaojie's room. The two little boys had very little voice, which made me very careful to hear it.

Really, the result?

Uh...she thought I was dreaming, but I was really scared

It was the same for the first time, and I won't do it now. This time, you will do what I just said, don't forget

Do you really need to do it? I'm afraid...

Please, don’t be so useless and fun! Don’t you feel very excited?

Yes, but you always follow...

It goes without saying that she likes it very much

What are these two little guys saying? I was confused by the fact that I heard it

Didn’t you say that she screamed in pain? How could she like it?

Oh, you are very stupid. Girls will like this. You will know in the future

Could it be that he was bullying a female classmate at school? I have to ask Xiaojie what happened to him when he finds an opportunity?

I'm going back, my mother is waiting for me to have dinner, and I'll show you something tomorrow and you'll know. Remember to tell me!

I quickly tiptoed back to the kitchen

At night, Xiaojie came to sleep with me again. I don’t know if this child has read some horror novels or something. I will find it difficult to fall asleep again tonight. Thinking of the scene when he had a nightmare and hugged me last night, I couldn’t help but feel reluctant, so I had to ask him to take a shower first and then go to bed.

Listening to the gurgling water in the bathroom, I remembered Daihua mentioned Xiaoliang's genital shape in the afternoon, but I didn't know what kind of virtue my baby son is.

I stood at the bathroom door and hesitated for a long time, unable to hide my curiosity, and finally quietly opened the door a crack.

The fog is rising inside, and Xiaojie is applying bathing semen in a smooth manner. This scene surprised me a little. The child is really precocious now, and the second grade of junior high school is like a little adult.

My eyes stayed on his lower body, trying to find the answer as soon as possible, and Xiaojie happened to wash this part, and his hands slowly changed from rubbing to stroke. The words quickly rose up. The picture in front of me was beyond my imagination in a short while. I could hear the thumping sound of my heart thumping.

This is not the first time I saw my penis hard, but my son's first encounter. I wanted to close the door and finish the peeping, but my feet couldn't move. My eyes just couldn't move away from him

After some struggle, I made up my mind hard and suddenly saw Xiaojie writing the word "Mom" on the foggy mirror. I only felt a loud bang in my mind, and I could no longer worry about escaping there in a hurry.

Running back to the room and lying on the bed, my mind still echoed with the symbol of the man under Xiaojie's crotch. This child's childhood peanut-sized genitals actually changed so much. As a mother, I was still unable to connect my long-term impression with the scene just now.

My heartbeat so fast that my emotions could not calm down. My face was hot and my body was trembling. I couldn't even remember what shape he was there. His obscene movements on his hands were still lingering for a long time.

What does he mean by writing those two words on the mirror?

Did Xiaojie treat me as the object of sexual fantasy?

I really can't imagine it

Although it is difficult to soothe the uneasiness in my heart, Xiaojie's light footsteps have moved from far away. In a moment, he has been lying beside him. The faint fragrance of bathing essence floats from the air. I closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep. My head was blank.

Mom, have you slept?

His hand was placed on my waist and shook it gently. I almost stopped breathing but I dared not respond. I hope he didn't notice that I was shaking

After a while, Xiaojie's hand on his waist slowly touched my chest, and his whole palm was pressed on his breast for a while, and his movements seemed quite stiff. Although I felt something was wrong, I wanted to figure out what he wanted to do.

When he was still in shock, he pulled his hand back and then lifted up my nightgown, and his palm began to become dishonest on my hips.

I secretly guessed that his age would inevitably become interested in the body of the opposite sex. Now he was just curious, so I had to calm down but prayed that he would not touch it.

But the damn thing is that the good ones are not accurate and bad ones are effective. I felt his fingers upstream and downstream of my flesh. However, I was unfamiliar with experience and sometimes rubbing the anus as a vagina, but after a few strokes, the sensitive nerves immediately spread the shame throughout my body. My body probably trembled. Xiaojie was frightened and quickly took back his irregular hands.

I took this time to turn my body up, thinking that he would probably not do it again

But after a while, his hand touched his chest again. What was this child doing? I couldn't help but curse in my heart, even if I was curious, I should stop.

This time he boldly stuck his clothes into his clothes, rubbing his nipples with his fingers. The nipples became hard quickly. The constant itch made me scream out loud, and the lust was almost lost.

Fortunately, at this critical moment, he finally stopped, and I was glad to breathe a sigh of relief. Who knew that his hot body was directly pressed over, and his lower body was twisting faster and faster against my exposed thighs. Of course, I knew what he was doing, and I knew in my heart that as long as I bit my teeth, I could get through it. On the other hand, I couldn't bear it...

I really don't know how other mothers deal with this situation. The only thing they can do is continue to pretend to be asleep.

Xiaojie moaned excitedly. What a seductive sound this was in the middle of the night. I kept breathing and didn't dare to breathe. Fortunately, he didn't last long and then disarmed. My thighs were already sticky.

After the breath was smooth, he slowly wiped the semen from my legs, but he did not lie down immediately. He touched my chest a few times before he decided to sleep well.

Soon, Xiaojie snored loudly, and I quietly slipped out of bed and hid in the bathroom and took off my underwear. There was already a sticky stain in that place.

That night, I looked at my mother in the mirror

I thought I'm going to have insomnia

The next day, Xiaojie didn't dare to talk to me until he went out to school. This child should feel guilty, right?

I decided to ask Daihua that her condition is similar to mine, and she should have similar experience. I want to know what good way she has to deal with the biased behavior of developing boys

But when I really faced her, I was ashamed to say it. It would be a waste of time to say such things.

Sister Xu, you have a bad face. Didn’t sleep well last night?

It would be strange if I could sleep well. I didn't close my eyes a little until dawn

Yes... Yes Ah, I couldn't sleep all night

Sleep is very important to us women. If you don’t sleep well, you will get old. Have you never heard of beauty sleep? No matter how tired you work during the day, you must sleep well at night, otherwise...

Daihua, I want to ask you something, I will interrupt her

Uh... OK, what's the matter?

Your Xiaoliang...sleeps with you at night?

It's Ah

Sleep until dawn? Uh...I mean, how is his sleeping position? Alas, what do you mean by this

She stared at me with a suspicious look on her face, and my whole face became hot again

Sister Xu, I don’t understand what you mean, what is your sleeping position? How can a boy of this age have a pen until dawn?

Will he put his hands in the middle of the night...?

She first made a move, and then giggled:

Oh, do you want to ask Xiaoliang if his hands touch my body when he sleeps at night? Haha, look at you being nervous, it's nothing. How can the sleeping people know or not?

Then...what if it was intentional?

You said Xiaojie was going to touch you on purpose?

I wish there was a hole for me to get in on the spot. Does her words have to be so explicit? She probably guessed something in her heart when she saw me sitting on pins and needles. This is definitely the time when I want to die the most in my life.

Actually, I've encountered this situation

Really? Xiaoliang will also deliberately touch it...

To be precise, it's not touching or touching

The next few seconds seemed as long as a century. Daihua obviously had such an embarrassing problem. The difference was how she handled this matter.

This is how boys are when they reach puberty. Actually, I didn’t know how to deal with it at the beginning. This child has no father, and it’s embarrassing how he teaches a mother, so I turn a blind eye and think it’s a transitional period of the boy’s development process.

If...if...uh...I mean...

Boys... Especially boys of this age, they have only a little understanding of this kind of thing, and they vent after touching it. People say that the most difficult thing for women to raise children alone. I think it is probably this matter. You will gradually find that Xiaojie will secretly read some porn movies or books. His mother is the closest opposite sex around him. If you are not curious, there will be problems.

It's not unreasonable for her to say this, but what I'm afraid of is sexual impulse. What should I say... I'm actually myself afraid of?

Aren't you afraid?

At the beginning, Xiaoliang, our family, would only sneak around my butts or sneak into my breasts at night. At the beginning, I was also very troubled, until I discovered that he had hidden porn and adult magazines. I guess he was just curious about the body of the opposite sex... Sister Xu, will you be excited when Xiaojie touches you?

This... is a mess, how can it be...

We are all normal women, how can we not feel? If you don’t stop him, it’s normal for him to touch him as usual!

I suddenly regret asking her this question. This topic has touched my inner taboos for many years. How can a normal woman without sex be called normal?

I also need it. Every time I masturbate, I get even more empty annoyance. This kind of depression will last until the next time I happen again

Forget it, don't say this

I hurriedly finished the conclusion, but this sentence was actually deeply imprinted in my mind. I can't let Xiaojie do anything unreasonable to me. Although I clearly know that this unreasonable usually has two general terms, I don't have the courage to say it out and don't want to touch it.

Sister Xu Ah, Xiaojie is only in the second grade of China now, and the problem will continue for a while. Have you ever thought about what would happen if he was corrected directly? Will it cause obstacles to him in this area in the future?

Her face darkened and said: This is a unique problem of single-parent families. Alas, some facts cannot be told to outsiders that single-parent parents are already abnormal, so how can you hope that everything is normal?

Looking at her, I felt deeply that she was serious and secretly guessed that she and Xiaoliang should have a side that I didn't know.

Thinking of this, my back felt cold. The conversation between Xiaoliang and Xiaojie last night was nothing unusual, but it seemed like there was something wrong with it.

I vaguely remember that Xiaojie said at that time: She thought I was dreaming, but I was really scared to death. Didn’t Xiaojie sleep next to me and talk to me the night before yesterday?

Later, Xiaoliang said to Xiaojie: It was the same for the first time, and now I won’t do it this time, just do what I just said...

I suddenly understood that there must be something wrong with Daihua and Xiaoliang. This is absolutely impossible to be wrong, otherwise what Xiaoliang said, I am the same for the first time... Could it be that the mother and son have already...

already……

No, this is so terrible. Where did I think of it? How could such a thing happen in what era? I must have thought too much.

But if it happens to be, then...

What is Xiaoliang teaching Xiaojie?

For a moment, my heart sank and my thoughts fell into chaos

In the next few minutes, I kept overturning my thoughts. Before I could figure out what was true and what was fake, I rushed to send Daihua home and sat alone in the living room for the whole afternoon.

Before the evening, I came to Xiaojie's room. The familiar smell of sweat echoed here. I found a loft magazine under his pillow. Then I found a few cigarettes, several expired playboys, and several love letters from the girl. These gains made me have to admit that the children always grew up.

What surprised me the most was that he was no longer the peanuts I remembered

Xiaojie came back from school and only had a simple sentence. I'm back!

Just hiding in the room alone, would you be in a hurry to read those adult magazines?

Developing boys are really so energetic, aren’t they tired even in class?

I was thinking a lot in the kitchen, and Xiaoliang walked in without notice at all, until he slapped my buttocks with one hand.

Aunt Xu!

I suddenly turned around and saw that it was this little devil and I felt angry. I had no rules at all, so I was too lazy to pay attention to him.

Aunt Xu, do you have any worries? Why didn’t you hear me calling you?

Are you looking for Xiaojie?

No, my mother asked me to tell you that she cooked dinner and asked you to come and eat with Xiaojie

OK, I don't feel like preparing supper now

Tell your mom, we'll go there right away

He nodded and looked at my buttocks with his eyes. I wanted to slap him and he found that I was angry and didn't dare to provoke him. Then he left the kitchen.

Looking at his back, I couldn't help but worry about how I could swallow this meal