Chapter 4

Amitabha Buddha, monks do not lie. There is indeed no disciple in this temple named Qiu Juan, so I also ask the two donors to leave.

Seeing the fat monk who was not in front of him and only knew Amitabha Buddha, Li Jian almost picked up his sleeves and wanted to take action.

I pulled Li Jian away from Zhulin Temple and arrived at the parking lot at the foot of the mountain.

Akiko!You believe me!I'm absolutely right!That must be your wife!Li Jian said angrily after getting on the car.

I believe you, the monks in this temple are all shiny and full of fat. Look at the cars parked around here, and there are several luxury cars of millions of dollars. There must be something tricky about this temple!I frowned as I watched the pilgrims coming and going around me.

Then what are you going to do?Li Jian threw me a cigarette and lit it and took a sip.

Night visit!Are you experts?Light hands and feet, good skills.

Grass, you don’t even look at what I do!Don't worry, this matter is kept in my possession!

Li Jian and I have been with each other for decades and are my absolute true brothers. We all treat each other's affairs as our own, so I feel relieved to do his affairs.

By the way, Li Jian sent me to Yuanhe Road, the senior management I used to live in, I want to go and have a look.

Since I returned to Lincheng, I have never been to my former home with Xiao Qiu. Now I know that Xiao Qiu has been going to be a nun for no reason, which makes me want to see if there are any clues at my previous home.

Li Jian took me to the place and left. I slowly got on the elevator, came to the door of my house, took out the key with my slightly trembling hands, inserted it, rotated it, and the door opened.

The house is still the same, not changing at all, but there is a thick layer of dust on the furniture and floor.

After strolling around from inside to outside, I saw a letter and a bank card on the dining table.

I opened the envelope and saw three pieces of paper, two of which were the divorce agreement I handed over to Xiao Qiu that day. On these two divorce agreements, I saw Xiao Qiu’s signature.

I opened the third piece of paper, which was a letter Xiao Qiu left to me.

husband:

There has been no news about you for more than a year. I don’t know where you are, nor how you are. I really want to find you and see you, but I dare not. I know you don’t want me anymore. But fortunately I have Qiangqiang. Thank you for staying with me for so long, but I am an unknown woman. Qiangqiang has been sick all the time. Every time I see him crying with a needle, I cry so distressed that I decided to leave Qiangqiang and let him grow up healthy.

Master Xingzhen said that I am the mysterious body of heaven and Yin, and I am destined to live alone and die alone. I think what he said is quite right. If you marry another woman, you might have already enjoyed the joy of family carefree, but I have caused you to leave your hometown again, causing you to continue to get sick.

I am a child born after my mother was raped by accident. My father has never liked me since he was a child and even hated me because I was his shame.

When I was 16 years old, I was raped by my father. I cried and went to find my mother, but my mother told me not to speak out because the family was supported by my father. If my father disappeared, our family would be over.

I endured it all the time, not daring to speak out or cry, until one time my father raped me, my brother caught me, so my brother joined my father and bullied me together.

I didn't know why my younger brother, whom I cared about since childhood, was like this, until my mother told me that my younger brother was adopted by our uncle's family and that my younger brother and I were not related by blood.

My parents asked me to marry my younger brother after graduating from high school, but I forced them to go out to college only and agreed to go back to get married after graduation.

I don’t want to go back, I think that home is a demon’s cave, I want to have my own life and my own lover.

But I am too inferior. I didn't agree to any of the boys who pursued me when I was in school because I felt that they couldn't protect me.

Until I met you, you fake Hong Konger.

At first I felt that you were older than me, more mature than me, and were still from the city, and had the ability to protect me, so I fell in love with you, but later I really fell in love with you, because no one has ever been able to pity me since I was a child, love me, and help me with medicine. You are the first one, and I feel so happy after being with you, you know, husband?

Later, my parents learned about our affairs and deliberately made things difficult for your family to ask for so many betrothal gifts, but you still took them out. I was so moved. I made up my mind to be a good wife and a good wife in the future, and repay you and your parents to let me get out of that magic cave.

After marriage, you often worry about money, but I think you are so stupid. Is there anything more important and better than this when two people who love each other live together?

Gradually, I made more money than you, but you became even more unhappy. You are so petty, what is the difference between my money and yours?

I am your wife Ah, everyone belongs to you, what does that little money count?

Later you found a good job, and I was so happy because you finally no longer worry about money, but gradually you didn’t have time to accompany me. You didn’t even remember our wedding anniversary. You just knew to type, work, and make money all day long. I really wanted to tell you that I don’t want that much money. I just wanted you to help me wash dishes after dinner, go for a walk, watch TV with me, and go to bed together, but I dare not say that I know you want to prove yourself, so I have been supporting you.

You are getting busier and less talked between us. I am so scared, do you know?

I think you are getting further and further away from me, and you are less and less needing me.

Do you remember that night I begged you to help me wash the dishes?

I really want to prove that you still care about me, and it is the same as before, but you didn't agree, and I feel even more scared. I think you will leave me anytime.

I think I am becoming more and more useless. I can’t make money, can’t help you with work, are not beautiful, and can’t even have children. What’s the use of a wife like me?

Later, my father and brother came, and they said that if they didn't agree, they would tell you what I had done before. I finally compromised. I can't live without you. Even though I knew that this would be noticed sooner or later, I didn't expect it to come so quickly.

I thought about dying after you left, but I couldn't bear to leave Qiangqiang. Qiangqiang looked like you. When I saw him, I felt you by my side. I like this child so much. I think he is my biological flesh and blood. I don't want to leave him, just like I don't want to leave you.

But in the end I gave up again. I couldn’t let Qiangqiang get sick every day. Do you know how powerful Qiangqiang cried when he was given the injection? It made me feel so distressed.

I'm leaving, my husband, maybe Master Xingzhen is right. An unknown woman like me is the best choice to enter a monk. I will eat vegetarian food every day and pray to the Bodhisattva to bless you and Qiangqiang. I believe that the Bodhisattva will feel my pious heart.

I signed the divorce agreement. I believe you will find another woman who is much better than me. I wish you good luck and take good care of Qiangqiang.

Qiu Juan, who always loves you, closed the letter paper, and I sat cross-legged on the dusty floor, lit a cigarette, and smoked silently.

I want to cry, but I want to cry but I don’t want to laugh, but I can’t laugh. Until now, I realized that Xiao Qiu had not had a few good days after being with me. When I was not rich, I was in a bad mood and had a bad temper. After I got rich, I was busy with work every day and had no time to accompany her. After counting on my fingers, when Xiao Qiu could be happy, it was only less than two years after falling in love and getting married for about a year, but Xiao Qiu and I have been married for 10 years.

I am a very failed husband Ah... I made my women live a nervous life every day, and ignored me when my women needed me the most, and even went to fool around with other women and gave birth to a child. I remember asking Xiao Qiu at that time, saying, "Are you angry if I have children with other women?"

She cried and answered without being angry, haha, I'm such a fucking bastard.

Maybe, I should be the one who should become a monk...