Chapter 96 I Love Mom (02)

My mother pushed her chest weakly. I turned my head and looked at her red white earlobes. I felt hungry and thirsty. I stretched my heart and stretched out my tongue to lick it gently. My mother froze all over. After a moment, she pushed my head and shouted fiercely: Let go!

I didn't listen to her. I was inexplicably scared. I was afraid that she would leave me forever.

Mom, why can’t you face reality?I have already expressed my feelings like this.

My mother pushed me away vigorously, tickled my collar, her cheeks flushed, and glared at me viciously, saying: Be a person who has to be trustworthy.

I naturally know what my mother said about her letter, but that was not my true words. Besides, the promises my son made to her were just to make her happy.

Mom, I don’t want to deceive myself anymore. I admit that I can’t forget everything that happened. I thought a lot during this period. I thought about it when I started to fall in love with you in high school. I knew this was wrong, so I fell in love with Wang Xinran and tried to divert my love for you...

Speaking of this, I felt only extremely excited and bitter, as if all this was a destined tragedy. I couldn't suppress my emotional outburst and said loudly:

But it's useless at all!I don’t like Wang Xinran, let alone like others. You used to say that I didn’t read for you, but that’s the truth. If it weren’t for you to be happy, I would never read. Only when facing you will I think about how to be a good boy and express myself. Everything about me revolves around you. Only when I see relief appearing on your face can I feel what happiness is.

Since... Mom said bitterly: Since you want me to feel relieved, why can't you be obedient?

I shook my head and said excitedly: I will do my best to do any requests or things you make to me, but... But I really don't do this... Mom, my love for you is selfish, but you can't doubt its authenticity!

Mom turned her head and said indifferently: After all, you are deceiving me again and again to achieve your goals.

I admit that I lowered my head and said: But my purpose is pure. I am not just about wanting my mother. I want to be with my mother for the rest of my life.

Mom said: Aren’t we living together like this?I can promise you that you will not marry again. Even if you get married and have children in the future, I can still love you only.

Mom, the love I want is not just maternal love, I also want love!

Mom replied: Wang Xinran and you are in love, but you don’t cherish it.

I retorted: I have no love with her, I can’t find the slightest feeling of love with her!Only when I am with you can I realize what the feeling of being moved is.

Mom seemed a little tired, and said with one hand covering her face: This is not love at all.

This is indeed not about love. I smiled bitterly: This is just my unrequited love, but I also hope that my mother can fall in love with me.

Mom replied firmly: This is impossible.

I replied firmly: There is nothing impossible. Whether it is a dream or an accident, we have already happened to what should not have happened. Why are you unwilling to face reality?

Yes, my mother said depressedly: It is precisely because I did something wrong that this is the uncontrollable situation today.

How to judge whether it is right or wrong?I sighed and said: From a moral and ethical perspective, this is indeed wrong, but all of this is a choice I force you to make. You are the victim, and you don’t have to have any psychological burden. If you have to bear any consequences one day in the future, I will not be timid.

My mother smiled pale and didn't say anything. I understood the meaning of her smile. She would not let me take on any consequences as a son, so no matter how righteous I speak, it cannot change the fact that I am selfish.

Time stagnated for a long time, and the light was flowing in my mother's eyes, as if she was thinking about something.

If... my mother wanted to speak but stopped, she changed the topic: How about the food in college?

The topic changed too quickly, and I didn't react for a while, and subconsciously replied: It's okay.After saying that, I added: It’s not as delicious as you did.

Mom sighed, her red lips opened, and finally said nothing, shook her head, got up and walked towards the bedroom.

Mom... I stood up and shouted. She stopped when she heard this and said lightly: If you can't be happy, then nothing I do means.

I opened my mouth wide and couldn't say a word until my mother left her sight.

When I got up the next day, my mother was no longer at home and didn’t leave me any messages. She probably went to work overtime. I stayed at home until the afternoon after breakfast, but I didn’t see my mother back.

Logically speaking, when I am going home, no matter how busy my mother is, she will come home to cook or send me a message at this point, but today it is very abnormal. I think of what my mother said last night, and I always feel that the sentence is not as simple as the meaning expressed on the surface.

The feeling of missing something important is lingering.

Mom won’t be overwhelmed, right?

As soon as this thought emerged, I threw it out of my mind. A strong and decent person like my mother will not do stupid things, but it is not clear that my mother's recent performance is too abnormal and I can't understand what she thinks.

After a long time, a sound of opening the door woke me up from the nightmare that I had been deeply trapped in countless times.

Mom is back home?

I hurried to the door, and as expected, I was my graceful mother.

Mom~ I shouted happily, and she held the door frame with one hand and looked up at me. As the strong smell of alcohol entering her nose and her blushing cheeks came into my eyes, I realized that my mother was drinking today.

I said with some complaints: Why are you drinking again?I'm not afraid of meeting perverts.

Mom snorted disdainfully, staggered into the house, and said in a speechless manner: You are... the biggest pervert...

I am a gentleman.I smiled and to be honest, my mother looked quite cute when she was drunk. Today, she was wearing my favorite professional suit. Seeing her intoxicated and unstable body, I shamelessly reacted.

My mother seemed to be very drunk, and even changing shoes was so rough. She raised her legs and swung her hard, and a black high heeled shoe covered with jade feet flew away, revealing her white right foot wrapped in flesh-colored stockings.

I haven't seen my mother's stockings beautiful for a long time. Now I see them again. The fire burns instantly. Although I won't do anything extreme, my physiological reaction cannot be controlled. My lower body is congested and my loose sweatpants are lifted up a tent.

When my mother was about to do the same thing and throw away another high heel, she saw my physiological reaction. What I didn’t expect was that she was not angry and shocked, and pointed at me with a smile and said: You are the only one?Still a gentleman?

I spread my hands, looking innocent, Mom, I haven't done anything yet.

What else do you want to do?My mother's pretty face turned angry and stretched out her hand to push me, stay away from me, stay away from me!

Because my mother had not had time to take off her high heels with one foot and had drunk a lot of alcohol, her center of gravity was unstable and inevitably fell into my arms.