Chapter 20 BASED ON TRUE STORY

Those days, what I thought was full of Wenwen's white underwear and her covert lower body.

This is really hard, but it makes me feel that the more I want to suppress it, the more intense the desire in my heart will be.

All I can do is to fantasize about Wenwen's face, her smile, her body, every curve in my mind, and then use my own hands to express the strong desire in my heart...

Perhaps desire was temporarily promoted, but in fact, I understand better that such a situation is terrifying.

It's like taking drugs. At the beginning, you may be satisfied with just a small portion, but soon you will want more and more until your body asks for a taboo boundary that mortals will never touch.

The sinking of human hearts is really easy. It often begins before you realize it...

Why?Want me to understand what love is?

Why?Want me to know how to love someone?

Love has no reason and no reason.

Love is an instinct, a need, when you are lonely and helpless...

From childhood to adulthood, my sister Wenwen has been with me, close to my heart and listen to my voice.

It was also her that let me know what love is and how to truly love someone...

Why?Is she my sister?

Why?Am I her brother?

Love has never allowed brothers and sisters to happen, and it exists in each other's hearts.

Love is a taboo, a kind of speechlessness, when you are related by blood...

Never want to face up to one's emotions, avoid one's emotions, look at it independently, and finally understand it.

It is her that lets me know the direction of my heart and lets my heart rely on...

Why?What I love is not what I should love?

Why?I have to endure such pain?

Love has pain, and it cannot be calmed down.

Love is an experience, a kind of responsibility, when you choose to accept it...

Since I realized that I fell in love with Wenwen, all her beautiful smiles kept coming to my eyes, causing more pain.

But it was her that made me feel that maybe all this was worth it, and no matter how much pain it was, it would eventually pass...

But how much pain is there that I have to bear?

Is there so much pulsation in every life?

Or is it like the blue sky that cannot be said in full?

Maybe it will end the day, but will the fire in hell be extinguished?

I don't know, I hope it will.

But I know it won't. Just after these many mistakes happened, hell has long been my only place to go, and my soul can only go there.

Finally, when I found that the descent of my soul was too late.

I can no longer extricate myself. My heart can no longer bear the torment. My heart can no longer bear such ignorance. I love her, I want her, I long for her, I long for more, I long for her to know, I long for her to feel, I long for the day when all the tortures are over...

Finally, on a quiet night, I arrived in front of Wenwen's room after about two o'clock in the evening, and Xiaoli slowly turned the door handle and tried hard to open the door without making any sound.

After all, it was just a few years ago, so I remember almost all the details that happened that night, with all the feelings.

At the beginning, I only opened a small gap and peeked into her room with one eye.

There was only a small night light on the table on the bedside in the room. Wenwen, who was sleeping, was lying on the bed without moving, and she definitely didn't know that the door of her room had been opened by me.

Wenwen was not lying flat on her legs slightly and her clothes were retreating to her lower abdomen like she did a few days ago. At this moment, her tail covered her thighs and her body was lying inward.

At that time, I saw her sleeping position and knew that it would be difficult for me to see what I wanted to see in such a position, but I still told myself that maybe I could see it by waiting for me to see it in a different position when I looked closer. After all, her clothes were not very long...

Then I stood at the door and waited for a while. When I was sure that Wenwen was really asleep, I slowly pulled the door open and prepared to step in with my hands and feet...

I began to feel sweet and dry mouth and my heartbeat was very fierce because I knew I was doing something very dangerous... After all, I am no longer a child, and I know more about how serious it would be to be discovered by her if I did this to Wenwen... But I just couldn't stop.

When I quietly stepped into her room, it felt really exciting. It was completely different from sneaking into her bed and sneaking into her bed when I was a child.

After all, I was still young at that time and didn’t have so many concepts of right and wrong. Apart from being afraid that my parents knew they were beaten, I wouldn’t be afraid of something missing.

I almost held my breath and walked slowly to her bed, really afraid that if I breathed louder, she might find out.

Not only that, I was also worried about being prepared to turn back and run at any time.

I just fear that if there is a situation, at least I can escape as soon as possible.

Everything is so quiet, like a quiet hell. Although the fire of purgatory continues to burn, there is no sound at all, and perhaps no sound is needed.

I kept looking at her sleeping face, paying attention to whether Wenwen was about to wake up, and continued to walk in slowly.

Finally, I finally came to the end of her bed.

Although the end of her bed was only more than one meter away from the door, I walked carefully just now, but it seemed as long as hundreds of kilometers. I also felt that it was getting farther and farther away from the glorious and normal world of paradise behind me.

Then I squatted beside the bed next to her feet, trying to see her lower body from her clothes, but I was always blocked by her T-Shirt, so I couldn't even see her underwear.

Although I was a little angry, I quickly turned my eyes to her towering breasts.

It is also a place where I only dare to look secretly for several years.

From the A-film, I have seen a lot of women’s breasts, but I have never touched them. I don’t know how they feel?

I struggled for a while at that time, whether or not I want it.

Finally, I stretched out my fingers and stretched nervously towards her breasts.

Through T-Shirt, I gently poked the side of her breasts with my fingers.

Because it is too weak, there is really no feeling, only the texture of the clothes.

Later, I increased my strength a little more, and it felt really soft at that time. It was more appropriate to say that it was rubber than a ball of meat.

At this moment, Wenwen actually nodded and her body began to move.

It's like someone who is disturbed in sleep and wants to wake up.

It must be that the power of poking her breasts with my hand was too great to wake her up.

At that time, I was so scared that I felt cold all around, because I was more than two meters away from the door. Even if I had to turn around and run out, it would be too late, and she would definitely see it.

I could only lie down immediately, my whole body was pressed against the floor, and then I started praying...

I tried hard to lie down and stay still, and kept blaming myself. After all, even if Wenwen really discovered it now, no one can blame me.

Sometimes, I really hope that Wenwen can discover the turbulent feelings in my heart at that time, so that all this will end and that I will no longer have to bear such torture alone.

At that time, no matter whether it is a good end or a bad end, it will at least make my uneasy heart feel calm and I will have a day of calm.

There are countless opportunities. I want to run to the place closest to the sky and shout to the sky, hoping that all my pain can be taken away by the sky.

But it is impossible...

There are countless opportunities, and I want to reveal the pain in my heart to my friends, hoping that they can save me.

But I dare not...

Who will save me?

Who will save me?

This sentence keeps shouting in my heart, and I hope someone can hear it every day.

But I know that no one can hear it, and no one can save me.

If anyone hears it, they will definitely regard me as a monster, as a beast, as a pathological part of society's inexcusable situations.

So I can do it, and after all, only crying, crying out the silent cry of my soul, always bringing it, living alone in every day, letting it torture itself...

I heard the sound of moving and quilts coming from the bed, and then I returned to the tranquility without any movement. I suddenly realized that Wenwen must have pulled the quilt and continued to sleep, and did not realize that there was still my existence in her room...

At that time, I continued to lie on the floor for several minutes, and didn't dare to stand up immediately. Then I slowly raised my head and looked at Wenwen carefully across the bed line.

At this time, she was no longer sleeping on her side. She had already lying on her body and had a quilt covering her chest, so she didn't even want to see anything.

But that's fine. Anyway, I was scared by her that night, even if her legs were slightly open like that night and her clothes were retreating to her lower abdomen, I would definitely not dare to continue.

So that night I slowly stood up, walked out of her room, and brought the rooms with me...

Leave with a deeper sense of guilt...