So stupid... Fu Jinzhan murmured.
She left behind all the national mourning, military and political affairs outside, and a large number of memorials that had been urgently dealt with since the late emperor was seriously ill, and she returned to the back hall.
She was nervous and had troubled everything a while ago, so she didn't pay much attention.
Today, Guo Shao suddenly did not come to attend the extremely important support meeting. Fu Jinzhan finally woke up: she went to see the seriously ill Chai Rong with Guo Shao for a few days. The angry words she said when she was angry... Maybe she didn't get angry Chai Rong, but instead she got angry.
How could he compare him with a humble groom who takes advantage of others' danger?
She was a very thoughtful person, but suddenly thought of that, and after thinking about it for a while, she quickly understood the reason.
Dongdongdongdongdong... The sound of wooden fish in the mourning hall of the main hall came, and the monks chanted scriptures.
From time to time, there were bursts of crying. The concubines and ministers who took turns to keep their guards were crying, which sounded very sad.
But the embarrassing thing is that sadness must be very regular. If you can't cry, you must not speak out; you can only cry loudly when it's time to cry, and it's not okay not to cry.
She listened to the annoying voice and became more and more anxious, and guilt slowly brewed in her heart.
How much difference did the late emperor have to do with me and Li Chongxun (ex-husband)? Why can I tolerate him when he treats me like that?But... Fu Jinzhan whispered to herself, but why did I not even say a word of thanks to Brother Shao?
At some point, Fu Jinzhan had an illusion that Guo Shao seemed to be her family and relative.Because only the selfless efforts of relatives can make people feel taken for granted, forgotten to be grateful... used to it.
Maybe it's not an illusion.
Only those who are like fathers and brothers can do it, and maybe fathers and brothers can't do it either.
Fu Jinzhan felt that she was Guo Shao’s closest relationship like Guo Shao’s elder sister, sister, daughter and so on.
This feeling is very strong and real!
If Guo Shao said now that he was Fu Yanqing's lost son, maybe she would still be a little convinced... It's a pity that he looked obviously not.
She raised her head and sighed, and in a trance, she seemed to see someone standing in the hall and said: Those who violate the destiny of heaven, Guo Shao, God is going to punish me, just come to me!
The figure flashed to another corner again and said: At that time, I knew you were sick, afraid that there would be something wrong with you. If you didn't survive, my heart would die for it, and the world would become dull and meaningless...
I want to thank you. If you were not for your existence, I would be so desperate and afraid at this time, and I would be afraid of death.But now I'm not afraid because there is a stronger emotion...
Maybe I will turn into ashes and meet you again in a corner of the universe.Maybe I will become a soul, in the next life, when I meet by chance, will you still look back and smile?
I want to die by chanting your name at the last moment, instead of a surname... There will be a emperor who will protect you and love you...
...Fu Jinzhan suddenly heard the sound of the rioters coaxing and the sword was unsheathed, so I would serve my wife for the last time!The man lying on the ground finally looked at his back as he walked away.
Brother Shao!Fu Jinzhan suddenly stood up, and the chair slammed back. She hit her knees at the bottom of the table next to her. A burst of heart-wrenching pain came, and her tears almost hurt.
The memorial on the table with a national event was knocked over by her and fell on the floor tiles in a mess.
Immediately saw Mu Shang Palace coming in from a distance and asked: Queen Mother...
Fu Jinzhan looked pale and pulled down and said: I want to see General Guo immediately!
She said silently in her heart: I want to explain it to him immediately and apologize to him. It was because I was negligent... There was no point in hurting him!Not to mention indifferent to him.
I didn't dare to see him before, and I was cautious in my words and felt extremely afraid in my heart. Now I have the opportunity, I have done something and said something!
No!
No one in this world can protect me and love me anymore except him!
The emperor would only show off his supreme power at any time and threaten to destroy the entire Fu family; if I were not the mother who raised the little prince, I could die of illness once, and I would die of illness for the second time... And those strong men, once I turned me into the Queen Mother of the previous dynasty, I would never be merciful!
Mu Shanggong bowed and said: Empress Dowager, Eunuch Cao is already looking for him.Should I send a quick horse to find it immediately?After hearing this, Fu Jinzhan let out a breath and waved her hand and said: Go down, General Guo has entered the palace and asked him to come here to see me immediately.
Look.Mu Shanggong hurriedly bent down and carefully retreated from the palace gate.
Fu Jinzhan looked back at the chair, helped it up with her own hands, and sat on it feeling lost for a moment.
Finally, Cao Tai came in and said, "Report to the Empress Dowager, General Guo is summoned to ask for a meeting."
If you ask him to come in, no one will disturb me. I have important matters to discuss with General Guo.Fu Jinzhan said.
After a while, Guo Shao walked in. He first looked back at the closed palace gate, then knelt down from a distance, clasped his fists with military salute and said: "I will meet the Queen Mother."
Fu Jinzhan was stunned and said: Come here.
Follow the order.Guo Shao's voice was polite and he strode over.
Fu Jinzhan's eyes never left him. For some reason, Fu Jinzhan felt very good when she saw him.
His appearance is actually a bit ordinary, but Fu Jinzhan loves to see him like this.
His face, his expression, his voice, every movement, every tone in his words... As long as Fu Jinzhan feels it, he feels the most wonderful thing in the world.
Guo Shao walked to Fu Jinzhan and asked in a deep voice: What happened?
It's nothing, I just suddenly... I really want to see you.Fu Jinzhan said in a trembling voice.
Guo Shao was stunned for a moment. Fu Jinzhan liked to see him reacting a little stupidly.She looked up at Guo Shao who was standing bent and asked: Why have you become alienated?
Guo Shao said: I have never been alienated. As I said before, no matter what kind of person you are, you will always be the most important person in my heart; you have never changed, and you will not be able to change in the future. I can’t change even if I want to.only……
Just how?Fu Jinzhan asked hurriedly.
Guo Shao pondered endlessly.Fu Jinzhan just now felt that she had thousands of words to say to him that she had really met, but she was influenced by all kinds of thoughts.
...Guo Shao hurriedly said: In this situation, if the king and his ministers can trust each other, they can work together to overcome the difficulties; otherwise, we will face great dangers, which is a result that we don’t want to see... Without further ado, the Empress Dowager should know that the country still has many hidden dangers and crises.
Fu Jinzhan thoughtfully: You are right.
The two fell into silence and a cold situation.Fu Jinzhan lowered her head and thought about something, but Guo Shao couldn't guess what she was thinking about.
Guo Shao had already figured it out before, but he felt that some feelings were hard to rub the sand, and it was easier to get conflicted because of some inexplicable things if he wanted to get too close. If he settled in the second place, he could maintain trust and friendship for many years, which was good for everyone.
However, no matter how many reasons and rational considerations are in vain!
Guo Shao saw Fu Jinzhan again when he came in, and then he was so moved by her words that he was so confused; he threw away all the things he had figured out before!
Her demeanor and tone of speaking made Guo Shao's heart pound.
I don’t know if it was because of his admiration that she felt that everything was good, or because Fu Jinzhan was indeed particularly favored by the Creator, she was really too tempting.
Can you still restrain yourself?Guo Shao kept reminding himself to be considerate and rational, and he was trying hard to restrain himself.
At this moment, Fu Jinzhan finally spoke: I just want to tell you one thing, maybe there is no need to explain anything else.
Her voice was soothing and quiet, very nice, especially when she was in a certain mood, which was gentle and cute.Guo Shao hurriedly asked: What's the matter? Please inform the Queen Mother.
Fu Jinzhan's face turned red, she pursed her red lips, and said in a low voice: I am actually still a virgin.
Guo Shao was stunned again. He was stunned for a while before he understood what Fu Jinzhan was saying. His originally depressed mood suddenly aroused again!He blurted out in surprise: Why...why?
Don't you believe it?Fu Jinzhan asked hurriedly.
Guo Shao really wanted to believe it, but it would be fine if Fu Jinzhan had married twice. It has been many years since she married Chai Rong, at least five or six years!
Even if she can stand the loneliness, can Chai Rong endure her beauty?
If Chai Rong is an eunuch, how did he come about with several children?
He touched the back of his head and muttered: This is unscientific!
Fu Jinzhan said in a trembling voice: How do you believe it?She said anxiously: There is a fair woman in the palace, why don’t you ask a fair woman to test me...but it’s so shameful.What to do?
Guo Shao observed her expression calmly, no matter how wise a woman is, she would write her mood on her face at some point.
He had already believed it... he was about to say something you said, I believed everything, or something like that, and then moved her again.
But Guo Shao's mood was extremely high at this time, and he was no longer as cautious as before. He immediately changed his words: I can also test my body without having to be stable.
How do you test it?Fu Jinzhan's face was already flushed, and she suddenly said a little angry, "You don't believe what I said, forget it if you don't believe it!"
Guo Shao looked at her white mourning clothes, tied with a hemp rope around her waist, which made her look even more graceful. Her gorgeous face was blushing, shy and annoyed, making her even more cute and beautiful.
At this moment, she didn't look like a twenty-seven-year-old woman, but she seemed to be ten years younger.
He felt dark and said in a deep voice: I want to believe it too, but if there is a woman who has married twice and has been with her husband for five or six years for the second time, come to tell the Queen Mother that she has not been in the human way, do you believe it?This is completely unreasonable.
Fu Jinzhan frowned and stretched out her upper body. Her bulging breasts tightened her mourning clothes that had just fitted.
She looked at her with a very piercing look that puts a lot of pressure on people and asked: How do you wait for the inspection?
Guo Shao said that he was afraid of everything, but when he had the opportunity, he was very brave and resisted her sharp gaze (it felt very strong, and he felt that whatever he wanted could not escape her eyes, as if his mind was exposed to the sun).
His voice changed a little: I will check it as much as the Wenpo checks it.
She left behind all the national mourning, military and political affairs outside, and a large number of memorials that had been urgently dealt with since the late emperor was seriously ill, and she returned to the back hall.
She was nervous and had troubled everything a while ago, so she didn't pay much attention.
Today, Guo Shao suddenly did not come to attend the extremely important support meeting. Fu Jinzhan finally woke up: she went to see the seriously ill Chai Rong with Guo Shao for a few days. The angry words she said when she was angry... Maybe she didn't get angry Chai Rong, but instead she got angry.
How could he compare him with a humble groom who takes advantage of others' danger?
She was a very thoughtful person, but suddenly thought of that, and after thinking about it for a while, she quickly understood the reason.
Dongdongdongdongdong... The sound of wooden fish in the mourning hall of the main hall came, and the monks chanted scriptures.
From time to time, there were bursts of crying. The concubines and ministers who took turns to keep their guards were crying, which sounded very sad.
But the embarrassing thing is that sadness must be very regular. If you can't cry, you must not speak out; you can only cry loudly when it's time to cry, and it's not okay not to cry.
She listened to the annoying voice and became more and more anxious, and guilt slowly brewed in her heart.
How much difference did the late emperor have to do with me and Li Chongxun (ex-husband)? Why can I tolerate him when he treats me like that?But... Fu Jinzhan whispered to herself, but why did I not even say a word of thanks to Brother Shao?
At some point, Fu Jinzhan had an illusion that Guo Shao seemed to be her family and relative.Because only the selfless efforts of relatives can make people feel taken for granted, forgotten to be grateful... used to it.
Maybe it's not an illusion.
Only those who are like fathers and brothers can do it, and maybe fathers and brothers can't do it either.
Fu Jinzhan felt that she was Guo Shao’s closest relationship like Guo Shao’s elder sister, sister, daughter and so on.
This feeling is very strong and real!
If Guo Shao said now that he was Fu Yanqing's lost son, maybe she would still be a little convinced... It's a pity that he looked obviously not.
She raised her head and sighed, and in a trance, she seemed to see someone standing in the hall and said: Those who violate the destiny of heaven, Guo Shao, God is going to punish me, just come to me!
The figure flashed to another corner again and said: At that time, I knew you were sick, afraid that there would be something wrong with you. If you didn't survive, my heart would die for it, and the world would become dull and meaningless...
I want to thank you. If you were not for your existence, I would be so desperate and afraid at this time, and I would be afraid of death.But now I'm not afraid because there is a stronger emotion...
Maybe I will turn into ashes and meet you again in a corner of the universe.Maybe I will become a soul, in the next life, when I meet by chance, will you still look back and smile?
I want to die by chanting your name at the last moment, instead of a surname... There will be a emperor who will protect you and love you...
...Fu Jinzhan suddenly heard the sound of the rioters coaxing and the sword was unsheathed, so I would serve my wife for the last time!The man lying on the ground finally looked at his back as he walked away.
Brother Shao!Fu Jinzhan suddenly stood up, and the chair slammed back. She hit her knees at the bottom of the table next to her. A burst of heart-wrenching pain came, and her tears almost hurt.
The memorial on the table with a national event was knocked over by her and fell on the floor tiles in a mess.
Immediately saw Mu Shang Palace coming in from a distance and asked: Queen Mother...
Fu Jinzhan looked pale and pulled down and said: I want to see General Guo immediately!
She said silently in her heart: I want to explain it to him immediately and apologize to him. It was because I was negligent... There was no point in hurting him!Not to mention indifferent to him.
I didn't dare to see him before, and I was cautious in my words and felt extremely afraid in my heart. Now I have the opportunity, I have done something and said something!
No!
No one in this world can protect me and love me anymore except him!
The emperor would only show off his supreme power at any time and threaten to destroy the entire Fu family; if I were not the mother who raised the little prince, I could die of illness once, and I would die of illness for the second time... And those strong men, once I turned me into the Queen Mother of the previous dynasty, I would never be merciful!
Mu Shanggong bowed and said: Empress Dowager, Eunuch Cao is already looking for him.Should I send a quick horse to find it immediately?After hearing this, Fu Jinzhan let out a breath and waved her hand and said: Go down, General Guo has entered the palace and asked him to come here to see me immediately.
Look.Mu Shanggong hurriedly bent down and carefully retreated from the palace gate.
Fu Jinzhan looked back at the chair, helped it up with her own hands, and sat on it feeling lost for a moment.
Finally, Cao Tai came in and said, "Report to the Empress Dowager, General Guo is summoned to ask for a meeting."
If you ask him to come in, no one will disturb me. I have important matters to discuss with General Guo.Fu Jinzhan said.
After a while, Guo Shao walked in. He first looked back at the closed palace gate, then knelt down from a distance, clasped his fists with military salute and said: "I will meet the Queen Mother."
Fu Jinzhan was stunned and said: Come here.
Follow the order.Guo Shao's voice was polite and he strode over.
Fu Jinzhan's eyes never left him. For some reason, Fu Jinzhan felt very good when she saw him.
His appearance is actually a bit ordinary, but Fu Jinzhan loves to see him like this.
His face, his expression, his voice, every movement, every tone in his words... As long as Fu Jinzhan feels it, he feels the most wonderful thing in the world.
Guo Shao walked to Fu Jinzhan and asked in a deep voice: What happened?
It's nothing, I just suddenly... I really want to see you.Fu Jinzhan said in a trembling voice.
Guo Shao was stunned for a moment. Fu Jinzhan liked to see him reacting a little stupidly.She looked up at Guo Shao who was standing bent and asked: Why have you become alienated?
Guo Shao said: I have never been alienated. As I said before, no matter what kind of person you are, you will always be the most important person in my heart; you have never changed, and you will not be able to change in the future. I can’t change even if I want to.only……
Just how?Fu Jinzhan asked hurriedly.
Guo Shao pondered endlessly.Fu Jinzhan just now felt that she had thousands of words to say to him that she had really met, but she was influenced by all kinds of thoughts.
...Guo Shao hurriedly said: In this situation, if the king and his ministers can trust each other, they can work together to overcome the difficulties; otherwise, we will face great dangers, which is a result that we don’t want to see... Without further ado, the Empress Dowager should know that the country still has many hidden dangers and crises.
Fu Jinzhan thoughtfully: You are right.
The two fell into silence and a cold situation.Fu Jinzhan lowered her head and thought about something, but Guo Shao couldn't guess what she was thinking about.
Guo Shao had already figured it out before, but he felt that some feelings were hard to rub the sand, and it was easier to get conflicted because of some inexplicable things if he wanted to get too close. If he settled in the second place, he could maintain trust and friendship for many years, which was good for everyone.
However, no matter how many reasons and rational considerations are in vain!
Guo Shao saw Fu Jinzhan again when he came in, and then he was so moved by her words that he was so confused; he threw away all the things he had figured out before!
Her demeanor and tone of speaking made Guo Shao's heart pound.
I don’t know if it was because of his admiration that she felt that everything was good, or because Fu Jinzhan was indeed particularly favored by the Creator, she was really too tempting.
Can you still restrain yourself?Guo Shao kept reminding himself to be considerate and rational, and he was trying hard to restrain himself.
At this moment, Fu Jinzhan finally spoke: I just want to tell you one thing, maybe there is no need to explain anything else.
Her voice was soothing and quiet, very nice, especially when she was in a certain mood, which was gentle and cute.Guo Shao hurriedly asked: What's the matter? Please inform the Queen Mother.
Fu Jinzhan's face turned red, she pursed her red lips, and said in a low voice: I am actually still a virgin.
Guo Shao was stunned again. He was stunned for a while before he understood what Fu Jinzhan was saying. His originally depressed mood suddenly aroused again!He blurted out in surprise: Why...why?
Don't you believe it?Fu Jinzhan asked hurriedly.
Guo Shao really wanted to believe it, but it would be fine if Fu Jinzhan had married twice. It has been many years since she married Chai Rong, at least five or six years!
Even if she can stand the loneliness, can Chai Rong endure her beauty?
If Chai Rong is an eunuch, how did he come about with several children?
He touched the back of his head and muttered: This is unscientific!
Fu Jinzhan said in a trembling voice: How do you believe it?She said anxiously: There is a fair woman in the palace, why don’t you ask a fair woman to test me...but it’s so shameful.What to do?
Guo Shao observed her expression calmly, no matter how wise a woman is, she would write her mood on her face at some point.
He had already believed it... he was about to say something you said, I believed everything, or something like that, and then moved her again.
But Guo Shao's mood was extremely high at this time, and he was no longer as cautious as before. He immediately changed his words: I can also test my body without having to be stable.
How do you test it?Fu Jinzhan's face was already flushed, and she suddenly said a little angry, "You don't believe what I said, forget it if you don't believe it!"
Guo Shao looked at her white mourning clothes, tied with a hemp rope around her waist, which made her look even more graceful. Her gorgeous face was blushing, shy and annoyed, making her even more cute and beautiful.
At this moment, she didn't look like a twenty-seven-year-old woman, but she seemed to be ten years younger.
He felt dark and said in a deep voice: I want to believe it too, but if there is a woman who has married twice and has been with her husband for five or six years for the second time, come to tell the Queen Mother that she has not been in the human way, do you believe it?This is completely unreasonable.
Fu Jinzhan frowned and stretched out her upper body. Her bulging breasts tightened her mourning clothes that had just fitted.
She looked at her with a very piercing look that puts a lot of pressure on people and asked: How do you wait for the inspection?
Guo Shao said that he was afraid of everything, but when he had the opportunity, he was very brave and resisted her sharp gaze (it felt very strong, and he felt that whatever he wanted could not escape her eyes, as if his mind was exposed to the sun).
His voice changed a little: I will check it as much as the Wenpo checks it.