Chapter 13

Seeing Sister Li away, Xiuhua's steps were slow on the way home, and she kept thinking about Sister Li's appearance when she was young.

At that time, she was really beautiful and had a jade-like skin.Especially when I was having an affair, my beautiful figure and perky breasts left an indelible impression on me.

However, time is ruthless, and now Sister Li is full of wrinkles and a hunchbacked figure, so she is definitely not considered beautiful.

It can be predicted that those beautiful breasts that were so delicate that they became dry and drooping, and they will continue to wither slowly in the future.

Destiny is impermanent and sad.This is the sadness of a woman.

...But if this is not the case, what can it do?

A dull warm wind blew by, Xiuhua stared at the dazzling sunshine on the ground, and endless emptiness emerged in her heart.

Thinking of others hurting oneself, she seemed to feel like she was in a swaying sailboat, not knowing where she would sail in the future.

She came back to her senses and had already returned home and stood in front of Xiaoma's room.

Maybe she wanted to explain the current situation to her son, or maybe deep down, she simply wanted to talk to someone and vent her emotions.

Today, there is no one else who can still talk about these things with confidence except for their son.

Xiuhua feels sad about this.

Once upon a time, she regarded Zhang Wanxi as her biological sister.She thought about it for a long time but couldn't figure out what she was sorry for her for so many years. Why did she treat herself like this?

...The heart-to-heart words I said to her have become jokes now.

son.Xiuhua unscrewed the door.

The pony is still sleeping.

He was like a hibernating squirrel, curled up tightly, lying on the dark blue sheets.

Xiuhua stood at the door and looked into the room silently.

The four walls are covered with light blue wallpaper, and a wooden desk stands in the middle of the right side by the window, with a three-stage eye protection desk lamp full of silver.

Stationery and books are neatly placed next to the desk lamp.

There was a computer desk next to the inside of the room, and on the left was his son's curled up bed.

These arrangements were selected by her personally a few months ago, and according to the plan, they would not be changed until her son graduated from high school.

Her eyes returned to her son, and her well-behaved sleeping face made her feel warm.

Xiuhua's eyes were tender and tender. She covered the door, walked gently to the bed, stood on the dark gray foot pad, and squatted down slowly.

Her knees kneeled on the floor mat, leaned her arms against the soft edge of the bed, and made two whistles.

The central air conditioning keeps the temperature in the room at 24 degrees, making the body feel very comfortable.

The warm smell on the pony's body, mixed with the fragrance of the sheet, poured into her nose. She raised her jade neck, sniffed deeply, and raised the corners of her mouth, and a comfortable smile floated out.

Slowly, she became sleepy, and she stood up with her sleepy eyelids and slapped her head on the edge of the bed. She seemed to hear the melodious cicadas one after another, and the jingle sounds of the wind chimes hanging on the beams of the old house. She seemed to be in the green countryside of her hometown, lying on the cold bamboo mat, enjoying the wind from the mountain shady on the back of the old house. What she smelled was the mellow fragrance of aged wood, as well as the smell of the hot flowers and herbs outside the old house and the smell of some dry cow dung.

……very tired.

I don't want to do anything, I'm very tired, very tired.

……

When Xiaoma woke up, it was almost five o'clock in the afternoon.

He was fully nourished by his sleep, and the fatigue of last night completely disappeared. He felt energetic and refreshed.

After stretching, he opened his eyes and the first thing he saw was his mother's kind sleeping face.

My mother was lying on the edge of the bed, her head resting on her arms, her plain white cheeks and rosy thin lips could see clearly than last night.The sound of breathing can be heard in my ears, and my mother looks so beautiful when she is asleep.

He didn't think about why his mother slept here. He opened his mouth and let out a light Ah. His first reaction was the scene when his mother was on the bed when she was sick.

He reached out and gently shook his mother's elbow pressed under her cheek, and whispered: Mom, mom?Get up and go to bed?It feels uncomfortable to lie down like this.

Xiuhua didn't sleep too deeply.

Hearing her son's concern, her eyes moved slightly, she opened her slightly swollen eyes, slowly raised her head, revealing a gentle smile.

Xiaoma looked at the red bloodshots in her mother's eyes, smiled back, held her body up, and knelt on the bed, saying obediently: Mom doesn't have to guard me.Go back and go to bed quickly, sleep well, and sleep a little longer.

Xiuhua just looked at her son silently and looked at him for a long time, without saying a word or getting up.

... Xiaoma was puzzled and was about to ask something else, but when she saw the smile on her mother's face disappear, the tip of her white nose was red like peach petals, her eyelids trembled slightly, and then she burst into tears.

mom?What's wrong with you?Xiao Ma Xinxuan tightened and suddenly became nervous.

……fine.

Xiuhua shook her head gently, raised her hand to wipe the tears on her cheeks. She had thousands of words to express her to her son, but she could not suppress the sadness in her heart. She took a breath and looked down at the bed again, and more tears suddenly flowed from the corners of her eyes.

Drink... She closed her lips tightly, grabbed the sheet with her hands, trying to control her emotions.

I didn't feel too sad when I met Sister Li at noon, but in my shallow sleep just now, it was like a pair of emotional magnifying glass. Now when I think of the little things I've gone through with Wanxi, and when I think of those wonderful times I've experienced together, she feels like a thorn in her throat, and her mood hurts like a knife, and it's really hard to control her emotions.

……

One is her husband who has been with her for more than ten years, and the other is a friend who grew up together. She should have been the closest and trusted two people she has trusted the most, but now she betrayed her together.

Xiuhua was filled with endless resentment for her husband, but the harm that Wanxi brought to her could not be explained in a few words.

When I was drunk in a bar last night, Xiuhua was still thinking that people's hearts are unpredictable and things are unpredictable. Finally, I have a good sister like Wanxi who is intimate and intimate.

She secretly swore that she must protect the pure friendship between the two...

However, those are all wishful thinking of oneself, and there is no pure friendship at all. They are all acts and dirty plots behind their backs.

Xiuhua really couldn't understand. Wanxi clearly knew her emotional cleanliness than anyone else, so why did she interfere in her marriage and do such a despicable thing?

So where did I do something wrong and why did I feel sorry for her?

When she was young, she was often insulted and bullied by some bad children, and she was protecting her again and again. She was alienated by the children around her, and she also played with her and took out her treasured doll to relieve her. She also had her sarcastic stepmother who treated her very badly since she was a child. Sometimes she would deliberately hungry her for breakfast, and she also took out her pocket money to buy her hot buns and fried dough sticks.

……

There is a shallow scar on Xiuhua's knee, and the reason behind it is also because of Zhang Wanxi.

That was when Wanxi was in the middle school entrance examination. On the way to the examination room, she dropped her stationery and admission ticket. Xiuhua ran for several miles in the pouring rain. Even if she broke her knee halfway, she dragged one of her bloody legs to retrieve her ID.

The more I think about these things, the more Xiuhua feels that she is a failure in life.She still thought that it must be because she did something wrong, so she was hated by her husband and betrayed by her best friend.

Depressed and heart-wrenching, tears continue to stop.Xiuhua's mood fell into the bottom of the abyss of endless darkness.

mom……

Xiaoma was connected with her mother. Seeing her sadness and crying, she also felt sad. She pursed her mouth, leaned over and grabbed her mother's arm tightly.

He thought a lot about the bad things and rashly guessed that his mother's worries at noon became reality.For a moment, he felt deeply powerless and could only shed tears as he could do.

Mom...please, please stop crying...

Hearing his son's crying, Xiuhua raised her swollen eyes worriedly, and the corners of her tight mouth relaxed a little in an instant.

She supported herself and wanted to sit on the edge of the bed, but she just slept on her knees for several hours. Her legs were ineffective due to ischemia and a sensation of swelling and numbness surged. She fell sideways and fell on the floor mat.

mom!mom!!Xiao Ma immediately jumped off the bed, knelt beside her mother, her lips trembling, her whole body trembled, and she hurriedly supported her mother's head.

Xiuhua lay quietly for a few seconds, letting blood flow to her numb legs, took two deep breaths, sank her belly and sat sideways again.

She held up her son's cheeks with both hands, frowned and showed a loving smile on her forehead, and comforted her softly: Mom is okay, don't be afraid, don't be afraid.

Mom... Woo, woo... Xiaoma looked at her mother with tears in her eyes, believing and suspicious, "Don't leave... Woo... Let me explain, don't, don't...

Xiuhua was stunned for a moment, smiled and sighed, and carried her son into her arms, patted her gently. Mom didn't go anywhere, be good, stop crying, be good, be good.

After Xiaoma's fuss, she threw away the depression just now, and the rippling waves in her eyes were still flashing. The difference is that she is now moved by her son's innocence and love.

Continuing to comfort her son gently, she slowly calmed down and discovered that the source of her heartache just now was an irrepressible sense of loneliness.

Whether it is for your husband or best friend, you cannot reunite your relationship and you cannot return to the past.

At some point, she even felt that it was meaningless to live.

At this moment, she comforted her son, and found an outlet for the negative emotions accumulated in her heart, and also allowed her to see the beautiful side of life again: life is not meaningless, she also has a son, a caring and good son, and a silly boy who needs her care.

During her soothing breathing, more thoughts popped up in her mind.

Can't you try to find a companion while you are young?

Maybe I should go see a doctor again and find a way to cure the cleanliness.

I can accept the smell of my son, and this old problem will definitely be cured.

In short, don’t be afraid of losing face, there is a way out for everything.

If it really doesn't work, talk to your parents. At worst, you can get divorced and find a good man who can be good to you and love his son as much as his own child.

The world is big, and there are many good men.The future is definitely good, and you should not force yourself into a dead end.

Thinking of this, Xiuhua helped her son up her sobbing little face and asked with a smile: Now, Lin Lin, mom doesn’t want to live with your dad. Mom wants to find you a new dad in the future. Are you... willing?

don't want!don't want!But Xiaoma started to cry again with a loud voice, and said no without thinking. Her handsome little face cried so hard that she burst into tears.

Listening to the heartbroken crying, Xiuhua's relaxed face suddenly became anxious.After hesitating for a while, she frowned and quickly changed her words: OK, mom won’t look for it, don’t look for it anymore!

...Really, really?Xiaoma raised her tears and asked with tears in her eyes, but she couldn't tell why she felt so scared.

Um.Mom teases you.Xiuhua twisted his little crying red nose with a sad look on his face. How old is he? He always cried... He is all junior high school students, so he is not allowed to cry in the future.

Xiao Ma choked and buried her little face into her beloved mother's soft chest, and hugged her tightly with both hands.

He couldn't imagine calling a stranger a father, or maybe... he was afraid of going to his mother.

well.With a light sigh, Xiuhua gently stroked the back of his furry head, completely giving up the idea of ​​reorganizing his family.

However, when she thought that she could only grow old slowly, guarding her husband who didn't love her, and growing old day by day, she felt the bottomless sadness.

She suddenly felt that there was no difference between herself and Sister Li. She could only watch the clear springs of life fall over with dead branches and leaves, and finally turned into a pool of turbid mud, ending in desolate loneliness.

...What do you want to do again?I'm not alone with men.And I have a son with me... Son, son?

She looked at the crying villain in her arms. At that moment, her son and the man were inexplicably equalized.

Waiting.

A throbbing heartbeat is clearly a woman's yearning for a beautiful future.

The memories of last night also poured into my mind, and the feeling of indulgence was so wonderful.

My son's fragrant saliva is comparable to a sweet poison.

She couldn't help but bury the tip of her nose on the pony's head and sniffed it deeply.As the relaxed and happy smell entered her body, she wanted to forget all her worries and experience that pure happiness again.

...The problem is that he is his son, the flesh and blood that fell from his body.

Xiuhua fell into deep thought, and Xiaoma had cried for a while.

The villain slowly raised his head, but he sobbed and asked his mother why she was sad just now. Mom, is it... Dad?

Um?Um.

Xiuhua pulled back her thoughts, chuckled and thought for a while, and said gently: It has something to do with your father, but it is not all because of him... Let's do this, mom tells you a little story, and you will understand after listening to it.

Xiaoma raised her arm and wiped her tears, and her little red face was slightly red.

For some reason, Xiuhua suddenly regarded her son, who had grown up in her arms but had not grown up completely, as a baby, probably because Xiaoma's behavior just now looked like a child acting cute.

It’s not a big deal that Xiaoma has never acted coquettish with her mother since she was a child, and no matter how old he grew up, he will always be a child in front of her mother.

Under her gentle and loving eyes, Xiuhua slowly opened her gentle and beautiful voice like a fairy tale before going to bed.

Many years ago, when my mother was a little girl, a couple moved next door.That aunt just gave birth to a baby.She is very beautiful and treats her mother very well, and often plays with her mother.One day, Ah, when her mother saw her feeding her baby, she was envious and wanted to have her own baby.

Imagine Sister Li’s beautiful smile when she was young, Xiuhua looked at her son’s well-behaved and handsome face, thinking that she was a good baby like you, and smiled slightly and continued: During that time, Ah, my mother’s favorite game was to wear a doll with a dress up as ‘mom’. Later, your grandfather bought a new doll for her mother, and her mother wanted to find the aunt to show off, so she ran to the activity room in the factory because she usually passed the time there.But it was strange that day. My mother couldn't find her even after looking for Ah, but her nose was very flexible, so she continued to search according to the smell, and finally got into the abandoned factory.

Xiuhua is good at telling stories and is good at guiding her audience.

She told Sister Li's experience in a casual manner. On the basis of being close to the facts, she beautified and artistically processed Sister Li's miserable experiences, and did not mention the details of her son such as being beaten to run naked and rolling in her shit and urine.

Xiao Ma's innocent heart was still quite impacted. From the middle of the way, his little face kept twitching. As a kind and good child, he couldn't hear the stories of suffering the most.

...What happened to that aunt?He couldn't help asking.

Later, Ah, a group of doctors in white coats rescued the aunt and she was saved.

Ah, that's great.Xiaoma was deeply relieved, but when she thought of something, her face became solemn again, and then she looked up and asked again: Dad... want to hit someone too?

This...is not.Xiuhua smiled bitterly. If she really wanted to take action, Ma Tiancheng might not be able to beat her.

Hide the bitterness in her chest, she continued: Baby, what mother wants to say is Ah. Although the aunt was saved, she and the youngest daughter she gave birth to was very sad.The stepmother didn't like her, and the children bullied her. The mother was not old at that time. Apart from thinking that she was very talented, she couldn't do anything for her. She just played with her and occasionally invited her to have something delicious.Later she became her mother's good friend, and when her mother got married, she was the bridesmaid.

Xiuhua gently told her happy past with Zhang Wanxi, and did not portray her as a sinister and cunning vicious woman.

Xiaoma listened carefully, finally understood and asked again: Then...that aunt is Aunt Li?Aunt Xixi’s mother?

It's Ah, you Aunt Li, and you are Aunt Xixi's real mother.

Xiuhua smiled calmly and told the truth that she heard by the river at noon. At noon today, her mother was called out by her...

After hearing this, Xiaoma looked at her mother with a heartache, and finally understood why she was crying just now.

Don't be sad Ah's mom... It's Aunt Xixi and Dad that are not good, and Mom is not wrong...

I was right, but my mother did nothing wrong.

Xiuhua smiled and sighed, "Well, it's not worth being sad for them."Mom was originally impatient and couldn't stand it. She couldn't say anything in front of you Aunt Li, and she still wanted to take revenge on them.

No matter what my mother wants to do, I firmly support my mother!

Xiao Ma looked at her mother with a firm look on her face. As soon as she finished speaking, she showed a little hesitation in her eyes. She pursed her lips gently, squeezed her face, and asked in a low voice: Then... Mom, are you really planning to... divorce your father?

Xiuhua looked down at her son gently, don’t worry, mom promised you that she would not find a new dad for you~ Mom doesn’t want to divorce now, so let him do whatever he wants, as long as it doesn’t affect our current life.Mom is very satisfied with you with you.

Um!I will always be with my mother!Xiaoma answered firmly, with a relaxed expression and nodded with emphasis.

Looking at her son's smiling face, Xiuhua's heart was shaken.

The urge to kiss the little mouth spreads in the sea of ​​heart in panic.She suddenly wanted to release her heart like she did last night, regardless of her care.

When she woke up early today, the shackles of ethics and morality had locked her heart again. However, now, through the solid iron fence in her heart, the villain living could not help but feel restless and tried to stretch out his arms, wanting to hold the tempting taboo fruit in front of her.

In reality, Xiuhua also slowly raised her right hand and gently pressed her son's small face. Her soft eyes leaped gently and asked in a low voice: Do you... like mom?

like!Of course I like it!Xiaoma clenched her two small fists, sat upright, and without hesitation, she confessed her feelings without any falsehood: My favorite person is my mother!

... Two blushings hung on the dignified and beautiful cheeks, and the corners of his mouth were gently lifted, showing the shyness as if he was an ignorant girl.

My son loves me, and I love my son too.Maybe, things are not as bad as I imagined...

Mom likes you, baby.Mom is alive for you.

She opened her mouth gently, soothing and pleasant sound, with deep love, and mom gives you life, so she has the obligation to love you without reservation.

The eyes were facing each other, and the atmosphere gradually became ambiguous.

Xiao Ma's eyes flashed, staring at the bright and charming face in front of him, and felt a little cramped in his heart.

The faint fragrance on his mother's face made him extremely thrilled.

Gu.

He secretly choked up and his little face unconsciously approached his mother.

But Xiuhua's eyes suddenly trembled, and she felt fear for no reason, not understanding why she said those words without any end.

In a panic, she glanced at the alarm clock on the table and quickly changed the topic. Alas, it's already this time!If the baby is obedient in the future and does not cause trouble for his mother, the mother will be happy!What do you want to eat at night?Mom will do it for you!

Well...well, I will definitely listen to my mother in the future.Xiaoma then glanced at the clock, quickly calmed down, scratched her belly, and said with a smile: I will eat whatever mom wants.

Hey Xiū.

Xiuhua stood up with her knees, put her hands on her hips, covering up the panic in her heart, looking down at her son, trying her best to make herself look ordinary, and the mother made crystal elbows tonight and then made some fish soup.I went to the supermarket at the door to help my mother run and bought a crucian carp.Remember to watch the master gets it alive and ask him to have the excisation.

OK Mom, I'll go right away.Xiaoma stood up with a blushing face and walked out of the room quickly.