Chapter 36

Many times people really can't do anything wrong, because the consequences will be so serious that they cannot be restored.

Xiao An was sent to the emergency room. It was different from last time. Yu Qiu was afraid. When people were forced into desperate situations, she thought I wanted Xiao An to leave her. The viciousness of a woman was reflected to the extreme. She was very heavy, with heavy bleeding and shock, and her genitals were damaged, and there were various wounds on her face and body. The doctor's expression was so heavy that I almost collapsed.

Sitting outside the rescue room for a night

At six o'clock in the morning, Tao Zi and Lin Meng appeared in the hospital with red eyes

A slap sounded so loud that I could hear the sound in the whole corridor. I was stunned by Lin Meng's slap. Yu Qiu didn't run away. When JC arrived, she had not yet poisoned her. She stabbed JC with a knife. Assaulted JC with all charges of drug use and intentional injury, I'm afraid that the rest of my life will be completely...

I blame myself, feel guilty, and Xiao An who is still rescuing me. Everything that happened is declaring my incompetence

Only a slap, Tao Zi stood behind and stared at me tightly

If Xiao An had another accident, I could not imagine how painful she would be. Obviously I messed up this matter and could not be smashed anymore. I suddenly felt very tired. The pressure over the past few days seemed to have exploded, and I was almost crushed. But Xiao An was still rescued. The last bit of conscience made me forcefully motivate me to stay outside in a daze. I didn't dare to look at Tao Zi's face again, nor did I dare to look at Lin Meng with her.

For the first time, I found that I was so naive, so ridiculous, and so playful in how I handle things.

Xiao An's face that tried hard to squeeze out a smile appeared before me again and again, and I paid an almost devastating price for my ignorance.

At seven o'clock, I rushed my face in the bathroom. After realizing that I found the bloody mouth on my arm and countless scratched wounds, which were left behind when I was entangled with Yu Qiu. After going out, I found Lin Meng standing outside, with her expression still deserted as usual. I collapsed weakly on the corner of the wall, feeling that Lin Meng and Tao Zi's presence had become a torture for me.

Knock, knock

Lin Meng walked slowly towards me while stepping on the hatred sky. I looked up and didn't dare to look at her.

You're such a fool

She said a truth calmly

I covered my face, not even the courage to speak. Then I heard the sound of a lighter and was silent for a long time. Lin Meng suddenly pulled her hair up. She looked up with a humming look. She saw the cigarette she handed over. She trembled and reached out to take it. She choked on the first mouthful and started coughing, coughing so hard that she was heartbreaking.

Actually, I have been thinking about what Qiu has done for a long time. As for Tao Anan, I don’t care about his life or death. The mother and son are Tao Zi’s nightmare.

Lin Meng followed him to light a cigarette and leaned against the wall next to me: But, I said, no one can hurt Taozi, which is why I haven't touched them all, but you did what I wanted to do, but if Taozi doesn't forgive you, I won't

I pulled my hair, feeling weak: I really didn't expect Xiao An would tell Yu Qiu everything in full, nor did I expect Yu Qiu to...

Is your mind shattered? Yu Qiu is already alive and she is still alive. She even hopes that people from all over the world will be buried with her! But you forced her to this point! Do you think Yu Qiu would really destroy Tao Anan if it weren't for your provocation, no matter how vicious or drug-taking Yu Qiu is, do you think Tao Zi really doesn't care about Yu Qiu and her brother? Xu Nanqiao, for the first time I felt that I misread you, you are a fool, extremely stupid!

Lin Meng's words were so cold that they were naked and direct, without any tactfulness

It's Ah, why didn't I think of such a simple question

It's me that I really want to have Taozi, so I don't care about the consequences and think I have to solve the problems around her. I really think things are too simple. I buried my face in my knees, and I'm powerless, and it's spinning.

At 8 o'clock, the door of the rescue room opened. The doctor's expression was heavy and his life was saved. However, the reproductive system was damaged quite seriously. A testicle was pierced by a silver needle, which may affect future fertility.

Tao Zi's figure obviously staggered, but she still gritted her teeth and said nothing.

Deadly silent

Maybe even Xiao An would hate me. If I hadn't encouraged him, he wouldn't have suffered this, and Yu Qiu wouldn't have been caught. Everything was caused by me.

How should I face you, Tao Xinrong, Tao Anan

Until a nurse passed by, she suddenly saw the wound on my body and asked me in surprise if I was stupid and took me to deal with the wound. Not long after, Lin Meng also followed me in and told me that she had taken Tao Zi back. Although she was not happy, she still had to ask a lawyer to help Yu Qiu. Perhaps the reasons such as drug use and hallucination can alleviate some crimes. I couldn't help her. I asked her if there was anything I could help.

Lin Meng stared at me and said slowly: All you can do is get away

My eyes dimmed

I have never been so disappointed and inferior, and I feel that I am worthless in failure

In the next few days, I secretly visited Xiao An once, and didn't even dare to enter the ward door. Then I mustered up the courage to send a message to Lin Meng. If there was anything I needed to take responsibility, I wouldn't escape. Lin Meng said that everything was all about Taozi. In fact, she found me for Taozi at the beginning.

I had insomnia after all, and finally couldn't stand the serious illness. I took annual leave and returned to my hometown after getting angry.

I need a rest

After returning, I became a different person. I even had a little doubt that I still have the courage to go back to that city. I was in a daze. Xiao Zhao called me several times, and seemed to know what happened to me. After comforting for a while, he sighed. He said that now that Lin Meng was affected by me, Lin Meng didn't contact him much. The fixed orders of each quarter flew away. I smiled bitterly and shook my head. Damn Tao Zi really wanted to vent her anger on me. It would be fine if she stabbed me with a knife. I don't know how I came here these days.

I didn't wake up until the crabs started to go on the market. It was late autumn and my annual leave had already been used up. The leader also called me to ask me many times if I would go back. I stammered and didn't know what I wanted to do. The leader finally said that I would temporarily suspend my job, and that's what I'm going to go.

This is the worst year I've ever had

Lin Meng, I, and Tao Zi, seemed to have really disappeared from each other's world.

New Year's Day is coming in a blink of an eye. The leader called me again and gave me an ultimatum. If I don't go back, I will quit directly.

Actually, I just kept escaping. After thinking about it, I finally bought the ticket back. I still have to live my life. Think about how good I used to be. I have to live a heartless life.

Lin Meng's office lent to the company was also removed. I didn't ask. After returning to the company, what came to me was a lot of work. The things accumulated over three or four months made me dizzy. I stayed up all night for half a month before slowly getting used to it. It was almost the end of the New Year, and it was still more than a month before I could celebrate the New Year. I became taciturn. Every day, I went to work and got off work. Xiao Zhao asked me several times. I just drank. This thief was so desperate that he wanted to call me to go to corruption, but I had no idea. Xiao Zhao comforted me, actually, I had the idea of ​​being good, I shook my head and sighed, but then heTell me again, saying that Taozi asked about my traces. When I mentioned Taozi, my heart still couldn't help but trembled. I wanted to ask, but I felt that it was unnecessary. Taozi must hate me. I asked Xiao Zhao to inquire about Yu Qiu and Xiao An. He told me directly that Yu Qiu was sentenced to three years. It seems that Lin Meng still has a deep background. If it is done properly, she will even have a chance to be out of bail. As for Xiao An, it is not very clear, but she has been discharged from the hospital. She should still be with Lin Meng. I looked at Xiao Zhao gratefully. He must know that I care about this and asked me for a long time.

The next day is to return to life and work. Fortunately, Lin Meng stopped the loss in time and did not cause much consequences. I thought Tao Zi was left alone. Maybe if this is true, it would be good for us, but I didn't expect to meet Lin Meng again when the New Year is getting closer.

It was a weekend. Xiao Zhao and I went to the outside of the Nanhuan to drink and found a good restaurant. The two of us sat down against the window and drank in the sea. I found that I didn't like drinking very early, but now I like the feeling of drunkenness more and more. The pressure is much less. When I was halfway through drinking, the two met Xiao Zhao's boss when they went to the bathroom together and said Lin Meng was there, and asked Xiao Zhao to go in and have a drink. Xiao Zhao glanced at me and said that I would be there later.

After the two came back, I discussed whether to change the other one. When I mentioned Lin Meng's name, I shivered. Xiao Zhao said you were so cowardly. I smiled bitterly and said I made your brother-in-law and mother-in-law mess. Do you see me anxious?

Xiao Zhao shook his head and said that Lin Meng actually admired me quite a bit. When I was away, I asked about my situation. I was in a bad mood again. If I wasn't so impulsive, there might be a better solution. Originally, Lin Meng was so perfect, and Tao Zi, all of them made me lose it.

But he still gritted his teeth and was about to run away. Unexpectedly, Lin Meng came out of the box with wine. When I saw her again, I couldn't help but feel excited. Xiao Zhao stood up in a panic. My head was almost buried under the table. He kept winking at me and letting me talk. I am so cowardly. Lin Meng gently touched me with a wine glass. I stood up in a squeaky way and even trembled as soon as he opened his mouth: Lin...Boss Lin, long time no see

Lin Meng made an exception and smiled: You have lost a lot of weight

I grinned, but fortunately there was nothing left. Lin Meng and us drank two glasses and chatted for a few words and left. People feared the most. I looked at Lin Meng's back and felt inexplicably bad. Xiao Zhao and I had a tacit understanding for so many years. They didn't say anything and clinked glasses with me. The two of them took turns to vomit. The stomach was so uncomfortable, but they were still awake. Xiao Zhao cursed and said that it had been a long time since he vomited so much. I used alcohol to relieve my sorrow. He lived so moist and was ruined by me. I didn't even want to play tricks with him. When I held the glass, my heart suddenly jumped. A strong sixth sense. When I looked out the window, I found an internet celebrity bear sitting on the street outside the window, as if looking inside.

I suddenly woke up from my drinking, and I felt that the bear seemed familiar, and suddenly remembered the experience of going to Linmeng Club with Xiao Zhao last year. Tao Xinrong, the name sounded in my mind again

I rubbed my eyes that were a little dazed and continued to clink cups with Xiao Zhao.

Maybe it was because of Lin Meng. He drank very fiercely. Later, he felt that he had forgotten everything and was so drunk that he was drifting when he walked. Xiao Zhao almost held a knife to force me around his neck, saying that he would not drink like this. This is the way to drink from this beautiful world.

I can't hold on anymore, I can't stand up and walk out tremblingly

As a result, the bear came up as soon as he left the door and stopped in front of me

In just one second, I seemed to be facing the person inside through a thick plush condom. Maybe I was drunk too much, almost subconsciously. I staggered for a moment, and stumbled gently: Tao Xinrong?

Then I felt like I was pushed and I fell down with a thump. It felt like I was dark before my eyes, and I didn't know anything. I was broken...

When I suddenly woke up, I was lying in the outpatient clinic of the hospital. Xiao Zhao looked at me with a resentment and vicious look on his face. He was sore all over, his brain was swollen. I was conditioned and got up. I found that there was still fluid in my hand. I went to my pocket to touch the cigarette and smoke. I found that there was no cigarette. Then I smiled apologetically at Xiao Zhao. It was the first time since I started working and learned to socialize and drink. Xiao Zhao mocked me: Isn’t it crazy? Didn’t you laugh at me? Do you know that you are embarrassed!

I felt like I was in a bad mood, and I almost realized it immediately: Am I drunk and crazy?

Xiao Zhao covered his face, pulled the phone a few times and handed it over: Don’t be impulsive, don’t think about it and commit suicide. I won’t have a buddy anymore. I am... I got his brain exploded when I picked up the phone.

This guy actually recorded my ugly appearance after drinking. I sat on the ground at the door of the restaurant and cried loudly. Damn there were still many people pointing at me. The bear was right opposite me, and then when I squatted down and wanted to help me, I hugged me. I cried and shouted, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

After the club incident, I once again interpreted the word "shame" to the extreme

I handed the phone back: Then what?

Xiao Zhao's expression suddenly became strange: Then my boss and the others came out too. Lin Meng saw you sitting on the ground crying and trying to help you. As a result, you ran away like crazy when you saw Lin Meng. I chased you three streets! You succeeded from the entrance of the hotel and threw it outside the entire West Ring Road! Oh, did you sleep with Lin Meng? You were scared to death when you saw her.

My face turned green and I felt like I was stuttering when I spoke: Then what?

... Xiao Zhao's eyes became humble and suddenly stopped talking

I slept on the temporary bed in the outpatient room, right next to the corridor. When the ghosts and gods looked up, they saw a person standing in the corridor next to me.

Taozi

……

Sometimes people's sixth sense is really strong, and Taozi is the bear

Ten minutes later, Xiao Zhao went back, Tao Zi sat next to me, and I felt like I was feeling uncomfortable, and I didn’t even have the courage to speak. I recalled the scene that day. Yu Qiu held a bloody silver needle in his hand and clamped his own son under his crotch to abuse. The unbearable thing to look back proves how naive and ridiculous I am. I have dreamed of such a scene more than once these days, and even dreamed of Tao Zi looking at me coldly, holding a bright knife in his hand.

But now she is sitting next to me

Xu Nanqiao

Tao Zi called softly, a sad tone that was indescribable. In short, my heart sank violently and I subconsciously sat down to the side. This slight action made Tao Zi suddenly raise his head and look at me. I only dared to take a look at her secretly, and still looked at the complicated expression I couldn't understand in my eyes: My mother was arrested, and Tao Anan has become like that. Now, do you want to abandon me?

My heart was twisted, and I shook my head with helpless and sad words: No! Tao Zi! I... I'm sorry!

I don't know how to explain it, and Tao Zi's appearance once again aggravated my frustration. Sometimes I am a very proud person with a kind of confidence in my bones. Sometimes I am humble and inferior than dust. For example, now, I am vulgar and selfish like a child who is still stinky. The harm caused to Tao Zi by my willfulness and ignorance is the hardest thing for me to forgive myself.

After all, I'm just a greedy, lustful and vulgar guy

Tao Zi's eyes dimmed and he lowered his head: Actually, you are for me, I know, I know, Xu Nanqiao, you don't want this, right? In fact, maybe my mother was caught in is the best for me and Xiao An. What you did is right and turned into this, and you blame yourself, right?

In fact, according to the ideal result I had imagined, Xiao An wanted to escape from Yu Qiu. After all, Yu Qiu only had half his life left. Xiao An had just become an adult, and he could not be ruined by Yu Qiu. Yu Qiu, I hope that it is impossible to completely detoxify with the help of Lin Meng. At least recognize the reality and stop dragging others down. If possible, stay by Lin Meng's side until the end of his life is the best. Lin Meng can completely control her. Next, I can consider the matter with Tao Zi without any worries. But now, because I was too radical, I almost killed Xiao An and made Yu Qiu a murderer. It was Xiao An's life that would be better for escape. This is a blessing in disgrace. Otherwise, I really couldn't imagine the consequences, but even so, I still made Tao Zi sad. She must be more painful than me during this period. My younger brother was hospitalized and my mother was arrested.

And now she didn't blame me, and what she said was so weak that it made me feel so distressed.

But Tao Zi, I no longer have the courage to continue with you. That incident made me realize the difference between me and Lin Meng, and I also realize that I don’t have enough ability to let you follow me now.

I just sat there. Maybe it was because of alcohol poisoning. My face must be very bad. Tao Zi leaned over, and she was wearing the coat of the bear. It was really funny. Maybe it was the outfit of this teddy bear that made Tao Zi and I have a very deformed relationship. A year later, she appeared in front of me in the bear, but I have become a frightened bird, afraid of making another mistake and bringing Tao Zi even a little harm.

My hands were held, my back became stiff

Xu Nanqiao, you promised that you would be with me. Now do you want to regret it?

Tao Zi's eyes turned red, I stuttered, but I still couldn't make the cruel statement. I was actually a coward, I didn't have the courage or ability to give you happiness. In this case, but in the end I still gritted my teeth. If I don't have the ability to continue, I should be a villain to make things clear: Tao Zi, maybe you just found the same care as my father from me, maybe you are not really in love with me. In fact, you know, I treated you so much at the beginning just because of Lin Meng's request. I didn't expect that we would develop to a point.

What surprised me was that Tao Zi had no surprise in his eyes, but instead put his face closer: Then now I just want to ask you, do you have me in your heart? Do you love me? Xu Nanqiao?

I should love it, I think so in my heart

But I am not an 18-year-old young man. I just don’t care if I love you. The naked reality has taught me a lot of lessons. To put it bluntly, I don’t have the courage to go to the end, let alone say that I have gone through fire for love.

Do you love me? Xu Nanqiao! Tao Zi's voice suddenly increased, his eyes staring at me tightly, full of urgency and expectation

I was shaken again. At that moment, I almost agreed countless times.

Finally, I sighed: In two days, I will go and explain clearly to Lin Meng... Tao Zi! She has already hugged me and hugged me very hard.

Alas, or I am just an indecisive and vulgar coward. No matter how I thought about what was right and what was wrong before, Tao Zi took the initiative and I was shaken again. Yes, I seemed a little unwilling to accept it, after all...

Which toad doesn't care about the swan?