Chapter 89 Why do people get married?

I don't want to get married

……

The expression frozen for a long time, and obviously when she chewed her words repeatedly and made another sound, Liang Jingming's thick eyebrows frowned together

You don't want to get early

Yes, I said I wanted to get married before I was thirty

Wanzi began to hate him too much, always remembering her words as sternly as an imperial edict

But there was no way, who told her to really say that she had a fierce quarrel with others because he didn't want to marry her at that time because he had no idea of ​​marrying her.

But there are still five years left...why are you doing so anxious...

The eyebrows and eyes were raised subtly, Liang Jingming stared at her without saying anything, his eyes were even quieter than the aura

Even she smiled lightly, and only she understood the helplessness.

How to go back on your word, what do you want to do

Forget it, I'll suffer whatever I want

Sorry... I'm really sorry...

Wanzi would rather his temper break out and scold her happily, but he was so well-behaved and innocent that he felt even more guilty.

I couldn't help but put away those spoiled fools, and her tone became more and more serious.

I used to care about marriage because I didn’t feel safe enough. I actually care whether you have plans for the future and whether there is me in the plan.

But now I feel that we have passed that unstable stage. You understand me and I understand you. I enjoy the current relationship. I believe you are too.

But should we enter the next stage?

Sighing, Wanzi raised her eyes: To be honest, I have doubts

Of course, getting married is not a big deal now. Just go to the Red Cotton Road to register

Divorce is easier. You can apply for separation for one year. There is no difference in property before and after marriage in Hong Kong. It is basically divided directly in half. It is as fast as possible.

Seeing Liang Jingming condense for a moment, Wan Zi quickly grabbed his hand lightly

His financial resources are far less than hers, I'm afraid he wants to do more

Don't get me wrong, I'm not guarding you, nor do I think about marrying you, so I understand how to divide the divorce property

No matter who the marriage partner is, I will do this

Talking gently, she smiled openly: There is no way, no matter how dizzy I love, I have to know how to protect myself

Holding her back, Liang Jingming also bent her eyes slightly, she knew him too well, as if he was familiar with his left hand touching his right hand

But when my skin touches each other, it will not cause such a slight throbbing.

You see, we are just talking on paper, and it is easy to create estrangement, let alone actually doing it

I always felt... Looking at the hem of his clothes, my voice was as low as a dream. Getting married is too consuming

I'm afraid that our relationship will be consumed before we are ready

The air is rippling away by words, and there is a subtle afterglow

She continued to say a moment of silence as if she had clarified her thoughts

I used to be in junior high school, and the Chinese teacher would assign us to read extracurricular famous books, which is called "The Travels of Gulliver". Do you know?

Well, we have requirements to see

Although she didn't know why she mentioned this, Liang Jingming still nodded

He loved her very much and took off her disguise and chatted aimlessly

Whenever this happens, she always has a kind of fragility that she has been stripped of.

There is a plot in it. I remember that Gulliver has entered the Lilliput Kingdom. He is twelve times the size of others. Everyone can see his details clearly.

So when the woman from the villain saw him, she exclaimed that this man's skin is so rough and his pores are so big, how could he be so ugly

My childhood memory seems to be a dry mushroom. After soaking, it expands and becomes vibrant again.

But when I taste it, I have the sourness and astringency that has been sealed by time.

I read this book with my dad, and my dad has read it with me since he was a child

Wanzi shook her head and smiled. Although he was a taxi driver, he was very literary and handsome... Anyway, he was not very similar to an ordinary middle-aged man.

After watching that plot, my dad sighed to me, 'It's not just skin, this principle can be applied to all parts of life'

‘If you see too close and understand too clearly, nothing will be beautiful’

I want to come now, my dad is right

I think I'm just too close to my parents and can see too much how they get along...

Murmuring, her smile faded: The result of marriage is no beauty to me

It seemed that the ups and downs were blocking my throat. It was always sensible and sensible, but it didn't work at all. Wanzi bit her lip and didn't know how to retell the past trivial matters to Liang Jingming.

But it was just a trivial matter, but the image of my heart pulled out the glass slag deep in the flesh, enduring the pain one after another

Before my father cheated, he had a bad relationship with his mother

As far as she can remember, the two of them quarreled every three days and quarreled every five days. At first, they took into account their daughter's existence. Later, they could directly throw chopsticks on the dining table and lift up the plate, greeting each other's mother

They scolded me so much that they would move to the living room to continue pushing and tearing

Only she was left in the space filled with curses, in the genitals flying all over the sky, trembling and mechanically chewing, until the rice in her mouth turned into mud and mixed into tears.

She was thirteen years old at that time

Everyone says that the more quarrels a couple, the better their relationship is, the premise is that there is still love, the premise is that the husband does not dislike his wife, mother Yasha, and the wife does not believe that the husband is a coward.

The reason for their conflicts was very small, not the most serious, but the most vivid time for Wanzi to remember was on a rainy day

Before the rain that night, my mother was still busy at the food stall, so she called her father and asked him to put in the balcony clothes before going to the evening shift.

At that time, my father was reading a book with Wanzi, and he was a little absent-minded. He finally did what he did, even put his clothes into the wardrobe.

But, he left all his pants outside

Why are you so stupid?

When I got home and saw the tragic situation on the balcony, my mother was in a bad mood at that time

The long-term work in the food stalls without rest made her directly escalate to an explosive state: If you collect clothes on rainy days, you will be mentally retarded. Why do you keep your pants outside? If you ask you to collect clothes, just collect clothes. Do you don’t understand human words or pig brains?

You didn't make it clear, you had just collected clothes before! I didn't know it was going to rain, I was in the room and just found out

My father tried his best to suppress it when he was angry. Isn't it enough to wash it with the washing machine?

You can't hear the sound of rain? Are you not long ears or eyes?

Obviously, he was angry by his disregard, and my mother roared. I don’t know how long the washing machine has been broken? How many times did you ask you to repair it? I did it with my hands?

I am a mother who drives a rental, how do you know how to repair the washing machine? My facial features are quickly entangled, and my father's voice is also raised. If it breaks, buy a new one. Do you need it?

Do you also know that you are driving for rent? Wanzi's classmate Jingjing's father also drives the same way. He is the director of the Education Bureau. He is so comfortable to have a stipulation! The child is going to Shanghai to attend the Mathematical Olympiad summer camp, and your daughter is also selected. Can she go? Do you have money to let her go?

He poked the other person's chest directly, and his mother's saliva splashed one by one. I'll pretend to be a big shot at this time? Why are you pretending to be a big shot?

Enough! What the hell do you want

……

Then there was a dim sky and the trivial matters were mixed together

Anyway, this is the process of my parents quarrel

Finally, I retelled that night to Liang Jingming. Wanzi met him with a stunned and pity expression

After closing her eyes for a moment, her smile was a little bleak: Usually when they started to swear, I would run back to my room, pretend I couldn't hear it, and wait until the outside was quiet before going out.

But that day was different. I thought they had finished arguing, but in fact I just heard it as soon as I went out. My mother told my dad.

‘I beg you, can I beg you, please let me go, you promise me this time…’

‘Can you get run over to death by a car as soon as you go out?’

Do you understand that tone?

The smile was already shaking, and Wanzi's hands were clenched into fists

It's just that people quarrel and quarrels are silent. The very weak and sincere plea is the gentlest thing my mother has ever said to my dad, that is, I hope he will die

When I was a kid, I thought that they would rather not get married... I would rather not exist than listen to them quarrel like this...

By the same token, Liang Jingming

She trembled and stared straight at him so that he could clearly capture the liquid that was about to fall in her eyes.

I would rather break up with you now than I would rather not know you...

I can't accept that one day, I will say to you, 'Please, be run to death by a car when you go out'

Now she still feels trembling. Even the night twelve years ago, dad was fine.

Because when he slammed the door and went out, Wanzi followed him crying, leaving his mother behind and roared again.

Just follow him! Don’t come back when you leave!

She didn't care about so much, she only knew how to thrust and twitch, tears seemed to blur the sight and hearing, the man gasped and walked away, and the sound was close and far

Don't drive, dad, don't drive...

Repeating this sentence repeatedly seemed to be the only words. The moment the engine roared and roared, she sat in it.

Dad, I beg you to do it, don’t drive today...

When a child cries, he can easily sobb and can't stop.

In the nearly suffocating interlude, she finally heard the sound of the engine silence

There was also father sighing heavily, whimpering lowly, his fist pounding on the steering wheel, and the horn sounded sharply like a wailing sound

Every time he hits it, she trembles.

However, soon, neighbors shouted and scolded, and even smashed glass bottles down, and dad had to interrupt the horn.

It turns out that the collapse of a person in middle age cannot exceed one minute

He collapsed in the driver's seat as if his eyelids weighed a thousand pounds. He slowly glanced at her: I won't open, stop crying

At that time, Wanzi felt relieved

Maybe she had enough trouble, maybe she was tired of crying, and she regained consciousness, it was the next morning

A heavy rain washed away the haze of the city, but it couldn't wash away my father's face, dusty and short stubble grew on his chin, which was as tired as the blue-black as it was now.

Wake up? He picked up the coat covering her, he touched her head, and we went home

As soon as the door was opened, the mother sitting in the restaurant caught her eyes and she obviously didn't sleep all night, and her back felt stiff and straight. She didn't even look at the father and daughter when she spoke.

Have a meal

On the table are porridge, oil cakes, buns, pickles, tea eggs, mother's perfect craftsmanship as always

As if carefully poking out the sensory tentacles, Wanzi glanced at her father

eat

The first step is to pull the chair open and sit down. Dad starts to eat big mouthfuls and mom chews. Wanzi does the same.

There are also wreckages inside after the quarrel, as weird as the abandoned set of a horror movie

Everything is like a reunion, but it's not that

As we ate, tears came from Wanzi's eyes

Because I saw my father reaching out to hold the bun, there were several irregular wound tissue fluid floating on the surface of the blood, which was clearer than tears.

That was the trace left by him when he smashed the steering wheel last night

I really didn't want to cry, Wanzi quickly lowered her head and let her tears fall, but she saw the trash can under the table again

It was pale inside, and small pieces of toilet paper looked clean, but it was soaked

After she left her mother to chase her father last night, her mother must have cried alone

She ate voraciously, as if someone behind her was urging her little head to almost bury her rice bowl, and tears fell into her.

The porridge is so hot that no one says

This is for you

After dinner, she was called in the kitchen

I found the envelope from my pocket, and my mother slowly raised her eyes, her actions were as tired as her father: You can pay the summer camp tuition fee, go to Shanghai

Wanzi didn't answer, her mother's index finger was more dazzling than the envelope and was wrapped in a small hammer with heavy gauze, and a little red oozing from the top

Jingjing goes too, how could you not go? Your exam score is higher than others

Her tone eased for a moment, then suddenly pulled her sharply

But don’t give me pride! Don’t let others play with you, as their parents can find a way out for her, but we can’t do it! Learn more and don’t be stupid enough to accompany the prince to study!

Her ears were numb, and Wanzi only stared at that little bit of red, and she went to the food stalls to help from time to time. She knew this kind of wound very well

It should be that when she pried open the oyster shell with a knife, she accidentally cut it to the point where her mother was very skilled in handling seafood. How many oysters did she break before she was so dazzling.

And there are special workers in the food stalls, why do she do such trivial things herself?

Should I sack others by reducing costs, or helping other restaurants provide subsidies for household expenses?

Thirteen-year-old Wanzi dared not ask, even think

Take the envelope gently, lower your head and whisper

OK, thank you mom

The sun rises and falls, and there will always be a bright future after the heavy rain

But she has not discussed that night with her parents

Maybe they don't remember it either

Have been quarreled too many times

Anyway...it's probably that

My parents’ marriage is very suffocating, like a protracted war, but no one is the winner, including me.

Twelve years of maturity are enough to underestimate the current Wanzi. The mess is gradually drifting away, and there is even room for cleverness.

I never understood why they didn't divorce... Maybe it was a quarrel, but the bed was very harmonious.

After saying that, he laughed, but his expression was particularly lonely

Unconsciously, she was held in her arms like she was sheltered, and she looked up at Liang Jingming

Actually, I have never known what other people are like...

Will your parents quarrel like this?

Fortunately... Actually, I don't know...

After a pause, he felt a sense of apology: After all, my dad left too early, and my mom didn't have any chance to argue with him.

The heart seemed to be squeezed hard for a moment, and Wanzi stared straight into his eyes.

The tears that were held back were condensed into shells and finally shattered and fell

Her parents, at least they are still there

She complained for a long time, how old and torn the shoes on her feet were, but when she looked beside her, someone was barefoot.

Those pains that are not up or down as biting may be the sweet torment of extreme desire for him

She is born to be most afraid of being pretentious, but when she looks back, she is probably the most pretentious one.

sorry……

Wanzi felt really uncomfortable. Once the tears were opened, I couldn't stop: No matter what, I kept talking about myself...

I've never asked you what you think...

Do you want to get married?...If you want to...

It's OK, it's OK

Holding the back of her trembling head, pressing her deeper in her arms, she cried violently, but Liang Jingming laughed instead

I did not think about this before, now I want to hear about you

Don't put such great pressure on yourself. You are not your parents, and even if you get married, it will not be the same.

He took a piece of paper and bent down to wipe her tears. He was careful not to faint her mascara

The two were very close, and a small girl was reflected in his pupils, showing her clean face, just like the past twelve years ago

Let's take a step back, not getting married is also a choice

……Really

Stop crying for a while, she looked up at him

Of course, if you don’t have knots, you won’t have knots. As you said, our stage is very good

But Wanzi

When the eyebrows raised, he showed a little exploration and confusion.

I thought you were a very firm person. Others would doubt whether you could never get married for the rest of your life, but you wouldn't

Brother, I'm just an ordinary person...

Exhausted again, Wanzi shook her head: I will also be influenced by the external world, age, family, and body are pushing me away. I can't move on the surface and not move on the inside. I am not the kind of prayer-turning drum in Tibetan.

Seeing that he was amused by her again, Wanzi also curled up the corners of her lips and her smile condensed a little.

I will also worry about gains and losses, and I will also doubt whether I have the ability to take a path that others consider high risks.

I am afraid that I will consume my relationship with you because of marriage, and I am also afraid that I will lose you easily because I don’t get married.

Liang Jingming didn't say anything, but just held her harder

It's like a speechless answer

Actually, sometimes I wonder, why do people get married? Can this system really tie up your partners? So what if you tie them up?

With a long sigh, Wanzi felt that her head was so heavy: I can't think about this kind of thing, but after thinking about it, I feel that many related things are meaningless

You know, I don't want to pay attention to these things at all

if you can……

She lowered her head heavily, and she looked at her thin legs under her short skirt

The white and straight manga is similar to the comic, as if it is the standard match for a beautiful girl

But she knew it was different

If possible, I want to leave all this alone, it's really annoying to have it all, and the adult world is so annoying

I just want to wear pleated skirts for the rest of my life, have sex with you for the rest of my life, and have sex with you for the rest of my life

All the hysterical crazy words were said, but Wan Zi just poured out completely

I want to be carefree, I want to be a child, I don't want to grow up at all

Uh, kids can't do it...

Seeing her face full of melancholy, her red lips were as bulging as if she was angry.

Never seen her like this before, Liang Jingming paused, but still changed his mouth with a smile

Forget it, if you don't grow up, you won't grow up

Not that easy!

After all, Wanzi is Wanzi. After all, she immediately returned to reality and locked her eyebrows and looked stern.

I am twenty-five now and can barely wear a pleated skirt. Can you imagine that I am eighty and still wear this kind of skirt?

Wear it if you want

Although I don't understand the topic, why I jumped to this, it won't prevent Liang Jingming from smiling more comfortably

It will be scary, okay?

He couldn't help laughing, and Wanzi tried his best to speak up: You can't imagine it at all!

I am eighty years old and my flesh will loosen, my legs will swollen, and there will be age spots on it. The varicose veins are very severe, and the hem of the skirt is so short that it cannot cover the cellulite...

It's OK

After she finished talking a lot of things, Liang Jingming really thought she was cute and couldn't help but squeeze her cheek and kiss her hair again

You are eighty and I am seventy and twenty, and I am also an old man.

I should have been old at that time, and I couldn't see any fish skin tissue clearly

...It's not fish skin, it's tangerine peel! Cellulite tissue!

After a pause, Wanzi rolled her eyes and raised her face to scold him, but she smiled too hard and had no lethality.

You are crazy about fishing! Your eyes are broken before your ears are broken!

...One, orange peel

Liang Jingming also laughed and lowered his head to kiss her again

As the noise was quarrel, Wanzi almost felt unrealistic

She doesn't know if she will get married with Liang Jingming

But she knew that with his personality, she would definitely go to secretly search after a while. What is cellulite

He was so stupid, trying to understand any nonsense she said, even if she was talking nonsense, even if she was irrelevant.

He always listened carefully and answered seriously, dispelled her little confusion and anxiety, and patiently forever for no reason, tolerated her patiently forever

Don't cry anymore?

Two little koalas snuggled together, letting the healing atmosphere of candlelight spread quietly

You...

Sighing and laughing, Liang Jingming pointed at the tip of her nose: Actually, why do you suddenly want to talk about getting married? I was shocked

It's not because of you!

I was almost asleep, but Wanzi suddenly woke up, completely inexplicably. How could anyone shout that he was so calm about catching the thief?

You have such a big battle, both roses and rings, if I don’t explain it clearly, you will kneel down...

……

Seeing his expression frozen again, with unconcealed confusion, she suddenly returned to the past and confessed to him that she didn't want to get married.

My heart suddenly sank, and Wanzi suddenly felt something was wrong, but it was too late

I asked the hotel to set the room, I want to give you a surprise, after all, I will go to Singapore tomorrow

Liang Jingming spoke happily, staring at her with a smile, squinting her eyes slightly, and she rarely showed a fox-like cunning expression.

But Wanzi...I didn't want to ask for marriage