Chapter 117 Who told me to like him?

Rather than going out for ventilation, letting the air penetrate the room

To Wanzi's surprise, my father took her to the seafood stall managed by her mother, which was only one street away from home.

The store was locked for most of the day due to a tropical storm tonight, so the rolling shutter door opened, and all the silted air came to my face instantly

There is an indescribable Xiao Suo

I'm hungry, cook some late night snack

Didn't ask her if she was eating, her father went into the kitchen and followed his steps and followed his eyes. Wanzi couldn't help but breathe.

I saw a large stainless steel sink full of butter crabs on the dining table just now

It should be all, my mother is going to leave it to her

Do you know how to make crabs? Dad picked up a chopstick?

have no idea

Then what kind of dishes would you cook?

No, no interest

……

Fascinated by her calmness, my father couldn't help but squint: Your mother has been running the food stall for so many years, but her daughter is not interested in cooking.

The depressed mood rose slightly by one percent, soaked in this light laughter

Wanzi's face was still dull, but her voice became softer

...It's not because of my mother

She learned to cook with her mother. During the holiday when she graduated from high school, she was under her strong request from her mother.

She thought that before going to college, her mother wanted to teach her how to take care of herself, but because of her hands, she slowly cut vegetables. Her mother was impatient and blurted out directly

You are so quick! You are so old, if you don’t know how to do any housework in the future, your mother-in-law will scold me for not teaching me well!

I care about her! If you are so worried, I won’t marry anymore!

At that time, Wanzi was also young and energetic. She was shocked and choked back on the spot. She threw the chopping board and had a big fight with her mother.

From then on, she never improved her cooking skills, and even went against her mother's expectations. She was destined to be a virtuous and virtuous person in this life.

Now that I think about it, it was the first time that the gap between them appeared.

Alas...you and your mother...

Of course, my father knew about these things, but he was obviously confused. He finally shook his head and picked out a crab from the sink.

It doesn't matter if you are not interested in cooking, but it doesn't hurt to learn about some common sense.

If you kill a crab, you should turn it over first. Is this the mouth?

As he said that, he picked up the chopsticks, dad was very fast

Punch it in with force, then prick it out of its butt, and twist it a little more in the middle to make sure it passes through the heart... Come on, you can try it?

But when he opened his eyes wide, he frowned hard, Wan Zi had no intention of answering.

It seems like I clicked the link sent by a friend when I was a child. I thought it was a healing animation, but I was caught off guard and saw a pop-up window of a horror movie

The crab has a belly facing the sky, and its carapace is covered with a miserable white color.

Death is in progress, half of its chopsticks penetrated from its mouth to its chest, and its eight thin feet struggled in a twist. The two bound crab claws were trembling, and the eyes of a pair of beans were even more pissed, like some crazy dance.

Anyone who sees it is screaming silently and shrillly

For some reason, Wanzi instantly thought of Liang Jingming's father

When he died, a dog arm bracket was embedded in his head.

No, don't give it to me

Dad was still handing over the crab, like a string of wriggling alien candied haws, getting more uncomfortable as he looked at them. Wanzi quickly backed back and waved his hand, frowning tighter

I won't kill it, it's too cruel and terrible

Smiled, but my father didn't force the chopsticks to poke them deeper, and simply solved the crabs.

Clean, chop, put the pot, and after everything was done, he looked up at her

The sound is slow, too

Wanzi, but your mother has killed the crabs for life

You were raised like this, relying on her every day... so cruel and terrible

The throat seemed to be filled with a sponge, slowly sucking the water dry, and the feeling of dust-like depression followed.

Wanzi stopped talking, looking at the innocent and soft crab legs stretched out from the water, and were still twitching gently

Don't you feel pain without a head

I know, you always think that your mother is fierce and anxious. She forces you to eat this and that, and has strict requirements on you, but what do you think...

After a pause, my father met her sight again

Because your mother is the eldest daughter of the family

In our era, parents were busy working, so where could they have time to educate every child, they were very strict with their first child, so that she would be more humble and take good care of her younger brothers and sisters. This is how your grandparents are

So your mother will treat you like this without consciously

She started to sacrifice herself after becoming a mother, but she always gave good things to others. She just gave them to her younger brothers and sisters before, but now she is for you.

It’s not that I can’t understand the truth, but Wanzi also feels wronged, why do you always understand her father? You have to speak for your mother at this time

She was a little dissatisfied with her mouth flat and said: You didn't grow up with her again, how did you know

Silly kid Dad laughs out loud

But there was a sigh in this smile

Because in my house, I am the youngest brother

You are an only child and your living conditions are good now, so you can't imagine how difficult it was before. My elder sister lived a very hard life. Whether she was willing or unwilling, she had to spoil her younger brothers and sisters, especially her younger brothers.

At that time, the food was tight. Whenever there was a piece of meat at home, it was basically shared by my father and my brother. After all, my father had to work, my brother had to study, and it was great for others to have meat soup and bibimbap. My brother left some meat for my sister, and my parents praised me as my brother who knew how to love others.

Thinking about it now, I really feel sorry for my elder sister, but she is also a child. How can she feel comfortable but her parents are not easy. There are so many children to raise, so how can I care about who I feel uncomfortable every day. It would be great to let you have enough food and go to high school. What else can I do?

As he said, adding water to the pot, Dad cooked two bags of instant noodles, which is a unique brand in the small town. The seasoning powder bag has not changed for many years.

Once it was torn apart, the smell of the old instantly filled my eyes

This is how our generation has come here, there is no way

The pot was burning, and Wanzi was silent again and his father was talking very scattered, but she knew his deep meaning.

Just like a mother who has been running cheap seafood stalls for life, she can’t understand the humane slaughter of crabs; a mother who is raised roughly during hunger cannot understand her overly delicate emotional appeals.

This is an unsolvable problem

But why do you always work hard?

But Wanzi was still unwilling to give up. She was for her mother, aunt, countless unknown elder sisters, and there were obviously other brothers and sisters who could help.

However, Dad obviously misunderstood her meaning, and was just plain and unthinking, as if he was stating a world-recognized fact

If the first child is a man, it may not have been so many.

For a moment, only the noodle soup was rumbling violently

Just like the increasingly high-spirited snare drum, urging the soldiers to come on the field to kill the enemy, but for another second, it was cut into mute

Turn off the heat and scoop it up. My father served her a bowl and was indeed hungry. Wanzi mechanically put the noodles into her mouth.

The crab paste is dissolved in the seasoning soup, artificial and natural glutamic acid entangled each other, forming a wonderful fragrance that cleanses the lips and tongue, but she can't taste any salty

In front of your vision is the large food stall cashier, with a cabinet of shared power bank

Like some girls

She has been bathed in the sunshine of the small town since she was a child, and she has also seen the shadows here

In the eyes of some people, giving birth to a sister is a power bank and giving birth to a younger brother is a mobile phone. The only function of a power bank is to last for the mobile phone, and it has no independent meaning.

According to Hong Kong people, power banks are also called urine bags

Portable, not important, used to do dirty work, silently undertake all kinds of unbearable turbidity of the subject

Wanzi knew she was lucky and was excluded from the urine bag

I found a small lottery ticket in life, both hands and feet, healthy, my parents are ordinary but I regard her as the pearl in my hand and my family is not really worried about money. I grew up in the main theme of not being as good as the top, and the only episode she experienced was that her father cheated

At that time, everyone around, especially women, was persuading her mother who was indulging in pain and unwilling to forgive easily.

As my father said, it would be nice to have children with a full meal and go to high school. What else can I do? At that time, they said earnestly to my mother: It would be nice to have a man who was confused once, what else can I do.

Even if you have been confused a few times, it would be great to know how to repent. What else can you do

Even if you repent and still have someone else in your heart, it would be great to go home. What else can you do

Even if you don't go home, it would be nice not to have children with the woman outside. What else can you do

Even if you have a child with the woman outside, it would be nice if you weren't a boy. What else can you do

Yes, what else can I do

It's just a life of reincarnation

The noodles are very hot, a lot of

Almost a series of slender fingers, covering her mouth that was reluctant to speak, but in the end, Wanzi still did not swallow the words into her stomach.

Actually, what she has always wanted to ask is not just this moment

Dad, when I was born, you found out that I was not a boy, were you disappointed?

Waiting for the answer, a heart ran to the throat, but Dad just chuckled and slowly peeled the last crab leg

Then he handed her eyes together with the snow-white crab meat

Then when you grew up, you found that I was not a rich man, were you disappointed?

……

After a moment of choking, Wanzi almost felt panic about being caught in bed: You can't change the concept, rich people are not equal to boys, and you subconsciously think that boys are better

So do you think rich people are better than poor people?

Of course!

Then why do you want to be with that young boyfriend and not earn what your mother said to be 20 million?

This time I really have nothing to do to make up for it, Wanzi completely froze

Dad became more and more happy, and he smiled so hard that he leaned back on the chair and was undulating. Finally, he was so tired that he took out a pack of cigarette from his pocket and held one in his mouth.

OK, I won’t make things difficult for you. The cigarette box is about to take back his pocket, but he turned it into the air. Can you please come?

I

Stop pretending, I know you'll smoke

He gave her the cigarette straight away, dad lit his own deep breath, and the words spread after the white mist

When you went home during college vacation, I saw a lighter in your bag.

If you want to, just suck

As for this, there is nothing to recommend

The smoke is ignited, allowing the smell of tobacco to pour into the lungs, floating in the body, Wanzi waits for her to recover a little bit

She didn't look at her father, and her father didn't look at her sitting opposite each other, just letting the smoke speak silently

Like deserters from different camps, but hiding into the trenches at the same time, the surrounding wind and rain were like bullets, and they didn't even have the strength to confront each other, but they were tired and enjoyed the silence of a cigarette

Would you like to tell me what kind of person he is?

Extinguish the cigarette butt, Dad finally spoke

Of course, I know who he is, and he lowered his eyes and knocked the last piece of ash into the noodle bowl, with a thin layer of oil floating on it.

It's like sprinkling pepper into the wound that is flowing with pus

Eighteen years old, he was a freshman at Hong Kong University and had no house or car. He also had a twin brother, his father died early. His mother was hospitalized for a long time and his family was quite poor. She was even receiving relief funds.

Anyway, just like what my mother said, she is a boyfriend who can't even know it's unreliable with her toes.

Then you still date him?

Who told me to like him?

Laughing loudly, adding another cigarette, Wanzi couldn't control himself at all

It was like she couldn't control her heart and she drifted out like a murmur

No matter how rich and handsome the other men are from a good family...

To me, it's not him

Don't look at me like this, don't pity me

After a moment of trance, he was awakened by his father's eyes and smiled. Wan Zi took a breath of smoke

I'm not the kind of idiot who falls in love with scum, I'm not that far

I recently discovered that he had something to hide from me. I had a showdown with him this morning and I didn't wrong him. But the mistake he made was not big or small, and it was on the verge of forgiveness or not. This made me most uncomfortable

In fact, he has his own difficulties, and it is rare to be good.

The phone kept popping up, and the missed phone calls and unread messages never stopped from morning to night.

As long as you look at it, the screen is as crystal clear as a tear

But maybe, it's not as good as I thought

Then what do you plan to do next

Swallow and spit one mouthful after another, as if the answer was hidden in the clouds

After catching my father's pitch, playing with it for a long time, Wanzi finally threw it back and raised a little smile

Don’t you persuade me to break up? Are you worried that I will lose 20 million?

To be honest, do you think it's a lot of 20 million

If you make up your mind, live in Hong Kong in the future

Thoughtfully, Dad also knocked out another cigarette, but he no longer rushed to burn it.

Looking straight into her eyes, this is his most serious moment tonight

I think 20 million is enough to spend here, but it is the same in Hong Kong or in any big city. It is only enough for you to buy a slightly better house. You still have to work and deal with family matters. You still know the same group of people. Life will not have a qualitative leap. If you don’t have any ability and want to turn over with 20 million, this will only make you the poorest richest person in Hong Kong or the richest poor person in Hong Kong.

Besides, there are still variables in the matter of demolition. If you really recognize money, I don’t think this is a shortcut, let alone the amount is not big enough to make you get married in a hurry.

A person's life is long, and you will encounter more money in the future. But remember that your own life is always much more important than these numbers.

You are priceless

A warm current winds into the heart, but it tastes sweet. Wanzi is tense and tries to cover up the only real comfort I feel since today.

But everything couldn't escape the eyes of my father. She couldn't help laughing, and her tone slowed down a little.

As for why you don't advise you to break up...

Do you know, as a parent, who doesn’t want everything going well for their children? Never experience such setbacks. But as an individual, I envy you. It’s really the feeling of people ignoring the age gap in reality. It’s too precious. Not everyone can have it, and having it may not necessarily lead to being young.

The smile became stronger, and the expression of my father became brighter

You will know when you wait until my age. Who will spend it to the end? It is actually almost the same. Many things are not important. Time passes too quickly, and in the end, only memories are left.

Maybe you go to the end with him, that's all, but if I advise you to break up and destroy your relationship, you may not be able to let go of this person. You may spend a long time fantasizing about the life you really want to live, beautify this relationship, beautify this person anyway, wait for someone to grow old, what you don't need is time.

I don't want to see you go through these things than trial and error in relationships

These are the real torture for you

The smoke is still in her hand, and my father seems to have forgotten to light the sparks that should have been beating, as if it is transferred to her chest

Wanzi stared at him in a daze, burned by some kind of warmth so hard that it was difficult to breathe

She was hit by him, it was not paternalistic preaching or spiritual chicken soup at all

This is the extreme honesty that humans can leave to another kind of person, unreserved.

It's hard for her not to think of his third party, the first love that he never forgets

For some reason, she was a little sad

Dad, I always think you are different from others, especially other men, especially in this small place

After careful consideration of the words, Wanzi looked at him and she had a vague feeling that her father was a broken ancient book, and she wrote it in language that she didn't understand.

She had never read it clearly, but she couldn't help but turn it around again and again

You love reading, don’t drink, and have a good personality. When I was a child, I spent a lot of time with me... Many fathers were like dead, and they couldn’t do this. I think you are capable. You helped a lot in your mother’s food stall. You never talked about your contributions.

There is something I have a very clear impression of. More than ten years ago, I attended a relative's wedding. I sat at the children's table. You were sitting at the adult table. Everyone was drinking, drinking red, but when I saw you, I was almost absent-minded. I don't know what I was thinking. This is my impression of you for many years. You have hidden it very well, but you have been absent-minded.

Why do you stay here? Why do you hide yourself? Why do you marry your mother? You are not a kind of person... You are a capable person, but why didn't you do anything?

Are you...being self-tortured?

She couldn't help but open her eyes wide. She didn't want to miss any of her father's expressions. However, this time, he buried his head and lighted a cigarette.

Looking up again, it was a calm face

I haven't done anything, don't look down on your dad so much

He smiled and looked at her calmly

You are my best work, don't you feel it yet

Wanzi, don't doubt

She was about to open her mouth, but his speed was faster, softer and firmer, which made her questioning still

You must be the person I care about the most in my life, there is no second possibility

Silence is like a dragonfly squirting through the water, but just a few blinks

During the eyelashes, many past events flashed back in my mind, like a page of paper that was moving forward quickly.

However, Daddy's book closed again

Maybe he doesn't want her to open it, or rather, doesn't want anyone to open it

Maybe no matter how close you are, everyone has their own way to go

If my mother could tell me like this, she would think I was her best work

In the end, Wanzi broke up

She must have felt that way, although she never said

Without thinking, my father has a helpless feeling that he is almost doting.

Don't question your mother's concern for you. She may make you feel uncomfortable when I told you this way since I was a child. She just felt relieved.

Honestly, your mom will only love you more than me

Mixed emotions were condensed at one point, and Wanzi was immediately heartbroken

The love on both sides is so full, how can we measure who is more and who is less than that of a widow? But I hope she likes her mother.

I know, I've always known

But no one knows, she is helpless

And the person in front of him seemed to be saying, she could tell him anything

Sometimes, I'm quite scared

So Wanzi took a deep breath and then slowly spit it out

It seemed as if I finally knelt into the small confessional room, and there was a choir singing faintly in my ears, lingering in the misty light, like a food stall in the heavy rain of the holy light is also a church, only open to her

It's time for her to relax and give her the most vulnerable secret, to the gods and the closest people, as naked as a lamb

At some point, I suddenly realized that I looked like my mother, and I was out of control when I spoke and scolded... But I didn't want to be a mother like her. In fact, I didn't want to be a mother at all.

Nothing can happen! You must not be born!

The choir that praises the warmth of the world was suddenly pinched to his throat

The church disappeared at the same time, it turned out to be a large yard

She looked at her father blankly

No, you can't stop being a mother, this is the bottom line

Obviously realizing his loss of composure, Dad said it again and it was tactful in repetition and eased in repetition.

True feelings, meaningful

Your mother and I are so old and are old. What should we do if we leave you alone? How can we rest assured? Who will take care of you in the future? I am a man, I know, I will tell you the truth, men are unreliable...

The sound was lingering, it was an elongated steel tape measure, and the ruler shell was held in her hand. The recycling button was not pressed by her, but it did not prevent the sharp steel bar from rushing in.

She was cut into pieces, but she also grasped the key

Bottom line

Wanzi finally came back

In the eyes of my father, she can smoke, fall in love with unreliable boys, and try and make mistakes in love.

But she can't help but have children

This is the bottom line he drew for her

My younger brother eats meat, but my older sister has meat soup and bibimbap. My younger brother leaves some meat for my older sister. My parents praise me and I know how to love people.

She still didn't understand it before, until now

What he gives you is what you don't give you, it's not yours

You asked me just now, when you were born, I found out that you were not a boy, were you disappointed?

Really extinguish the cigarettes, end the break, climb out of the same trench, they belong to different camps

Staring firmly in her eyes, Dad seemed to be aiming at something, without knowing it, without leaving any trace

To be honest, I'm unhappy

Of course it's not because I prefer boys over girls. You know I'm not like this.

It's because I'm worried that life will be less easy for you. You have to work harder, work harder, endure harder, and be more comprehensive than boys. Sometimes you can achieve the same results as them.

I know this is very unfair. It requires you very high quality but there is no way. Your father, I am just an ordinary person. The rules of this world are not determined by me.

It's yours that you decided it's that you decided it

It's obviously your fucking decision

Anger ran wildly inside his body, but Wanzi couldn't speak at all

In front of him is the weakest and the enemy who loves her the most. If she forces him, he will eventually have to offer victory with both hands.

But others will only be worse and more fierce

And countless

At this moment, she finally recognized all the reality of continuous escape.

The boyfriend is hiding something, the mother is suffocating and anxious, the father is suffocating and anxious, and the bottom line is provided

They all love her very much, they all ask for something

It turns out that there is no god in the world

She must save herself

Oh dad, why are you so nervous? I'm joking

People don't want to fight back

The moment she made a sound, she finally felt that she was back, and she couldn't help but want to clench her fists. Her body was full of strength and her desire for destruction.

The heartbeat is getting louder and louder, and the noise is almost leaping out of the chest cavity. The crystal nails are embedded in the thighs under the table. The pain makes her awake and makes her change into the usual masks for social occasions.

She had known how to deal with her parents, but she would have used the jungle law she believed in

There is no need to argue with them, as long as you get better than them, you can crush them, intimidate them, use money, power and achieve success, and live a life that they dare not even imagine.

But before that, she had to endure

Of course I have to give birth, at least two or three, right?

With a bright smile, Wanzi welcomed his father's scrutiny. Who can't aim and who can't pretend to be flawless

Then when there are too many children, I will buy a big house, so my dad will help me

Of course, I am just a daughter like you, I can give you whatever you want

I will not let him go if anyone bullies you, but you must also be kind to yourself and think about your own way out

They looked at each other, they had the same eyes, they were like pulling an invisible rope

Both ends were stretched straight, and they were strife in the dark

It hurts and feels good

Wanzi grits teeth

She knew that her father had not bought her account because all her meticulousness and depth were inherited by him. She was a transparent person in front of him. She couldn't stand it anymore, but she had to withstand it.

However, all the vigorous fighting spirit was suddenly swallowed by shock and swallowed by shock

It seems that something broke into Yu Guang

There was indeed someone walking straight up on the street next to the food stall. In the heavy rain, my whole body was soaked.

Tall, young, lonely, he didn't even bring an umbrella, just wore a pullover hoodie and carried a backpack

The usually straight back is a little sluggish at this moment, only those eyes are bright, those amber eyes that look at her

He is still the puppy who fell into the water

Forget everything in an instant, Wanzi murmured and raised her hand

Trembling, the voice and fingertips were facing Liang Jingming

Dad! It’s him who bullies me!