Chapter 6 (Part 1)

That night, the ward was surprisingly quiet.

Zhao Jialin and I looked at each other in a daze, neither of us nor know how to speak.

I seemed to be the same as her. I felt a little funny and wanted to laugh when I saw the other person's face being left with a hot slap mark on his face, but when I looked at each other's empty eyes, I wanted to cry.

Tell me, what's going on with your young men now, I don't know how to cherish your body!well……

Doctor...you...what did you say just now?

I said you are pregnant. Since the girl has children, let’s stop looking for death in the future, Ang?You two live a good life in the future, and your future path will still be...

no!doctor!no!I don't want this kid anymore!I don't want it anymore!doctor!You took me to the obstetrics and gynecology department!You took me to the obstetrics and gynecology department!I'm going to beat this kid!I don't want it anymore!

Everyone present was stunned.

Of course, I also include.I'm really a little overwhelmed.

To be honest, even though I was ashamed of Zhao Jialin, I told her that I would take care of her and compensate her. When I took her to the hospital after she attempted suicide, I also confronted the misunderstanding of other people and admitted that I was her boyfriend. However, this sudden pregnancy news really made me feel a little uncomfortable. After all, the father of the child is another three months old. In short, the child must not have stayed in Zhiyule that night two days ago, otherwise it would be too myth; then this child can only be Zhou Di's but now, no matter what the state between Zhou Di and Xia Xueping is, he is ready to divorce Zhao Jialin. Then with Zhou Di's tone, maybe if he knew that Zhao Jialin was pregnant, he might ignore it;

So at that moment, I couldn't help but think a lot in my mind: No matter how much I say, no matter how guilty, selfless, or loyal I will not be a cheap father;

But then, she wanted to abort the child, which made my mind even more blank. Because I saw Zhou Di more than once, that guy holding her physical examination report and B-ultrasound film. Although Zhou Di didn't seem to be very happy about having a baby with her, he did seem to be very concerned. As a result, outsiders may think that Zhao Jialin has been with me recently, but suddenly he didn't know what the reason was. He suddenly wanted to commit suicide and suddenly wanted to have more abortions for the child. What should he think if Zhou Di knew about this?

Wouldn't he be trying to kill me?

What's more... Speaking of abortion, I have always had a heart-wrenching problem since last year. I didn't take this matter seriously, but I just deliberately hid it in my heart; not to mention, because my growth experience has made me very sensitive to abortion, abandoned infants, infanticide and other things in social news since I was a child. I have always believed that no matter the emotions between the children's parents, the family relationships of their parents, the financial conditions of their parents, the little life that is still sleeping in the uterus and not open their eyes to look at the world is actually very innocent.

But what should Zhao Jialin do?

She would definitely feel that after being played with and ravaged like a nightmare in Zhiyule, she was already dirty and she was not worthy of being a mother. And I guess at her age, she was only about 24 years old, and she must not be ready to be a mother; but from another perspective, the existence of a child should always heal her experience that night, just as the female doctor said, she would not let her continue to seek death.

So, for a moment, I didn’t know whether to persuade her to keep the child or help her talk to the doctor and ask the doctor to help her contact the abortion.

The female doctor and her husband looked at each other, and looked at me with a complicated gaze that was half complaining and half sympathetic. Then the female doctor hugged Zhao Jialin lying on the stretcher truck with both hands and nodded to her: OK... OK... OK... OK, girl, OK, I know, I know... Please calm down first!Calm down and listen to the elder sister Ah: Even if you don’t want this child, with your current physical condition, you can’t have an abortion immediately, do you know?You have to cultivate for at least one day, and even if you have surgery on you, you have to have a general examination first. Otherwise, if you are like this now, after the surgery, if something goes wrong, you and your boyfriend can't bear it, and our hospital can't bear it, right?Don’t worry, we will take you to the obstetrics and gynecology department for a checkup, okay?Don't worry, don't worry?

While Doctor Zhou was persuading Zhao Jialin, Doctor Bao, who was standing beside him, also asked in a low voice to me: I said, little brother, what are you stimulating about your partner?

After looking at him, I shook my head helplessly: Nothing...I didn't stimulate her.

Then... how could she... Then, she usually has this personality?

Ah...not so, she just feels a little anxious?

Then, is her child yours?

I gritted my teeth and nodded. What if something happened today?

Mingchang International has a big family and a big business. Although the police don’t come to see a doctor at the Minsheng General Hospital, maybe there is a sharp-eyed and good thing that can recognize Zhao Jialin. So I can only bite the bullet and respond to this matter. I can’t leave her a bad reputation for having a child after committing sexual intercourse during marriage. As for whether I am the child’s biological father, I will explain it later.

When Dr. Bao saw me, he nodded, then looked at Zhao Jialin, who was still in a state of unstable mood, sighed, and then patted my shoulder lightly.

Immediately, for a day, I followed Dr. Zhou and Dr. Bao, as well as the young nurse and nurse they arranged, and took Zhao Jialin to travel in various places in obstetrics and gynecology and internal medicine for a whole day, and had a whole day of examinations. After 4:30 pm, we were on the bed in a large ward. With the initiative of Nurse Feng and the old nurse, I had time to take a breath.

That... Xiao He is right?At about 5:13, I wanted to buy some food, but as soon as I got together, I was called out of the ward by Dr. Bao.

I followed him to his office, and then, his words made me feel a little overwhelmed.

I will introduce myself formally: Although I am currently in the emergency department, I was originally the deputy director of the internal medicine department of this hospital, and I also understand the obstetrics and gynecology. My mother is an obstetrics and gynecology expert, so naturally, I have been impressed and told you this since I was a child, not to show that I am a very clear person, but to tell you that what I will say next is absolutely objective and real. If you don’t believe it, you can take these films and test sheets and other hospitals in the future, find other doctors and experts to ask.All right?

I nodded: It's okay, you are professional.Whatever you say is what you say, Brother Bao, just say whatever you have.

Dr. Bao scratched his head with the button of a ballpoint pen, then he put Zhao Jialin's ultrasound tablet onto the light box and used the tip of the pen to circle me in a place: Look at Ah, this place is your partner's uterus, this pattern as big as a lentil, is your two children, and then this place... Then, he told me a lot of values ​​and a lot of alternative terms that are incomprehensible to women in a medical context. Finally, he concluded: In other words, you may be able to understand: Your partner, Miss Zhao, can have to undergo an abortion surgery.

『Go again』…『Go again』?Doctor Bao, what does it mean?

I mean, she had a miscarriage once before.Do you know this?

I couldn't help but smack my lips, but I suddenly remembered that when it snowed heavily that night, she told me this: Oh...yes, she...she mentioned to me...I know.

Ouch hey!You silly boy Ah!That last time, is it yours?

That... I hesitated for a moment and nodded to him, Ah, otherwise...who else could it be?Although my girlfriend is three years older than me, we were not old at that time... so...

Ouch!You want me to tell you two of you... It's true!Why don’t you pay attention to your body at all?Dr. Bao's tone seemed a little anxious.

I had to say: Ah...Well, didn't I say that we were still young at that time... At that time, my family didn't quite agree with us dating, let alone agree with us having children... So...that...her parents forced her to beat her...

No...I...really!You are so angry!What's going on?Her parents don’t understand anything?What, don’t you even know if you find a better place to perform surgery on her?

Um?What's wrong?

No, I just told you a lot... Alas!That's right, you don't understand damn anyway, you're so fucking anxious!I have never seen you like this since I became a doctor!Look at Ah, from the image, your subject is actually born with a uterine wall a little thicker, less than 2 mm more than the average level. Generally, women's uterine walls are about 5 to 10 mm. Of course, if they only exceed 2 mm, it will not affect fertility...

I understand what he said, because I once accompanied Xiao C to see a doctor. Xiao C's vagina, uterus and ovaries are not only ectopic, but her uterine wall must also be about 16 mm thick. Xiao C is a general feature that is possessed by infertile women, so Xiao C himself said he accepted his fate.

I understand this...

You understand?You know, no, Ah!If you know, don’t you take good care of your woman?Oh!I am!The emperor is not in a hurry to the eunuch!...I will continue to tell you: She had an abortion last time. According to my estimate, the end of the matter should be abortion in a small clinic. I tell you that Ah is much more complicated than you ordinary people!That is not simply cutting the embryo or baby into pieces and taking it out of the uterus and vagina!If necessary, you have to take out some female organ attachments in the vagina and uterus and use a good instrument to suck out the baby's embryo!In addition, a series of auxiliary surgeries have to be used to remove blood and remove stasis, and even if necessary, the endometrium has to be scratched!Do you know?But from the film, you have been in this case for 7 years after the surgery last time, right?

Yes, it’s been more than seven years, and it’s almost eight years...

I tell you that she didn't handle it last time!It should be that after simply cutting the embryo, sucking it out with a pump, then it doesn’t care!The equipment used must not be very good!While the pumping caused damage to the cervix, the blood stasis inside and the uncleared uterine attachment were stored inside, and it must have been slowly excreted from the body later!I will give you an example of this thing, just like a martial arts practitioner who uses stones, sand or coarse salt to practice iron sand palms, it has been kept and grinding, and the endometrium is thicker. Now the thickness of her uterine wall is about 14 mm!Why doesn’t your partner look like he’s pregnant now and doesn’t show any sign of pregnancy at all at three months?It is because although the embryo is in the uterus, the development is slightly slower. Judging from other physiological indicators, your subject's physical fitness is pretty good, so it will not have a big impact on the fetus. It is just that the child's pre-delivery cycle is expected to be a little later than that of ordinary people.But you two are content!Generally speaking, with such a thick uterine wall, the embryo is irritating to attach to the uterus!So, it is not easy for you to get pregnant this time!Let’s say that if she thinks, now the child is aborted, then there will only be two situations in the end: one is to have direct surgery and then keep her current endometrium thickness, which will definitely cause some harm to her, but it will not be very serious; the other is to have curettage and clear uterine dying, but curettage is not accurate. After scraping, will her uterine wall become too thin again? It is hard to say, and curettage is a little older and experienced the national birth control policy. If they have ever had to curettage, how uncomfortable would it be to have this surgery?It is a kind of harm to the body and mind, and even greater than the psychological shadow of being raped!Even if it is serious, you can ask, after this operation, do some women with poor physical condition have to take a three or five months to get into the ground normally?So, if you listen to my advice and, brother, you can comfort your partner, and you two can live a good life in the future, if this child is born, she will give birth, otherwise, she will want to have a baby again... unless you are planning to spend some money in the future and go abroad to find women from Ukraine, Africa or South America for surrogacy, that's another matter.

This is why Zhao Jialin and I slapped each other.

I advised her not to abort the child, otherwise she might not be able to have another child in the future;

But she insisted on doing it, of course she didn't say a word, just slapped me in the face.

Her test sheets and her uterine ultrasound films were sprinkled all over the floor, as if the Chuhe and Han dynasties were cut open to us and became two barriers with different moods, which made us look at each other for a long time.

Looking at Zhao Jialin's pale face and his lips that were almost bloodless at the moment, I actually felt very pity for her and felt very guilty towards her.

If you can be vigorous and happy in your heart, after hesitating for a while, I will speak first. I can find you a scalpel to stab me, or I can get you a pistol to knock me down; but at present, this is the case with your body... I put my words here: With me here, I will definitely not let you seek death!But... the child in your belly... I think you should take a good look at what to do, of course, I advise you to calm down and then consider it carefully before making a decision. After all, I think... no matter what you say... it is a big event in your life, right!What do you think?

At this time, Zhao Jialin was like a girl carved out of ice cubes, but she was completely literally consistent with her nickname of Bing Genius. However, people say that she is Bing Genius because she always has a cold face on weekdays, but she was as dull as an ice sculpture.

I don’t know how many times she and I looked at each other in a daze, and Zhao Jialin’s mouth finally twitched.

Where is my phone?

This is the first time she has put on my face in the first time she has squeezed out of my mouth these days.

Which one do you mean?

Anything works... Zhao Jialin said softly weakly.

I sighed lightly: If I remember correctly, your original phone should be in your office drawer and locked up by you. If you want to see what you originally had on your phone, you have to wait until you get out of the hospital.I will give you the one that will facilitate our contact with you later, and now it is in my car.I see your mental state two days ago... I dare not let you contact others, nor do I dare to let others contact you.After thinking about it, I took out my cell phone. If you want to call now, I will call you for help.

Zhao Jialin stared at my phone for a long time, and finally tilted his head and lowered it like a broken puppet. Then he closed his eyes again and shook his head slowly.

But I saw her so life was worse than death, thinking about her experience over the past few days, and thinking about her current situation, so I thought about it, and then I called out a phone number from the phone book of my mobile phone and dialed it.

Hearing the faint beeping phone call, Zhao Jialin, who had a blood-faced face, immediately raised his head and looked at me with wide eyes:

Who are you calling?

Who else can be there?While I was talking, I waited nervously for the other end of the phone to be connected.

When Zhao Jialin heard this, he felt like he had been electrocuted, his whole body was trembling, and he shouted at me:

No...no!no!Don't...

Why can't it work?After all, he is the father of your child, and you two have not finished the divorce process yet. Now he is still your legal husband...

Zhao Jialin suddenly looked at me with a begging gaze, and his voice was also filled with a crying voice that was extremely low by his throat: I beg you... Qiu Yan!Goodbye!Moreover, she struggled and rushed onto me while saying that, almost knocking down the infusion rack with the syringe on the back of her hand. Just as I went to support the infusion rack, she took advantage of my unpreparedness and grabbed the phone into her hand, then pressed off the call button, and then continued to plead to me with trembling whole body: I ​​beg you!This matter... don't tell him... Qiu Yan!I beg you!I don't want him to know!You promise me!You promise me!If you promise me, I will agree to you whatever you ask me to do!OK!I promise you everything!I'll make you a cow and a horse!Don't tell him!OK!I beg you...

But... if you don't let him know... there must be someone to face it with you, right?He should know this, including...that you have been doing this for a while, and he has the right to know...

No...no!Can't let him know!If he knew, he would have ruined me with these things in the past few days!

Destroy her?

I was a little confused for a moment and didn't understand what she was talking about.

Zhao Jialin didn't give me a chance to think at all. She hugged me crying and cried, begging for Pity to look at me questioningly, trembling all over, but she shook my body with great force:

Then I'll ask you Ah!Autumn Rock!I asked you if he came, even if he really came, then how could you tell him?What did you tell him?Would you tell him that we went to the "Zhiyule" villa privately?Then you and me... did you have sex with me in front of everyone?Then, in full view of everyone, I was gang-raped by a group of people...?When talking about the word gang rape, Zhao Jialin squeezed these two words out of his teeth. While saying that, he shook his head vigorously, and then looked at me with some grief and begging and half-crazy, but said to me in a low voice: Then, will you tell him, are you watching me being ravaged like that?

I lowered my head and curled my lips...

Although her words seemed to have no tone, and her eyes were filled with moist and hydrated light for help, to me, it was indeed a question of my conscience.

But I have actually made up my mind and prepared mentally:

Of course I would tell him.After all, it is my fault to make you do this now... When he comes, I will of course tell him.If he wants to pursue, punish me, or even kill me, I have no complaints. After all... that incident that day brought you a lot of harm... If he still has you in his heart, or if he still remembers your previous relationship and marriage, I think it is inevitable that he will be angry on me.But this is not the point, the point is your two children...

But unexpectedly, before Zhao Jialin, who was spread on me, had just finished listening to me, suddenly looked at me with a complicated look that was ridiculous, pity, and maybe even a little happy, and then curled his lips and a sad face to me and laughed madly: Huh!Hahahahahahahahahahaha!Hahahahaha... I remember the guy named Ai Liwei from your group of serious crimes. He said you were a fool... Haha, I didn't expect you to be a fool He Qiuyan!Then, she said in a crying voice: Do you think you told him that he will be nice to me after he kills you?impossible!What a terrible person he is, do you know?Immediately afterwards, she immediately lowered her eyes in a daze and said in a daze: Don't say it's you... I didn't know before... I've been with him for so long... I haven't noticed... He is terrible... He is actually terrible...

I thought about it carefully now and it seemed that I was telling Zhou Di about the tragedy that happened to her recently. It was indeed a kind of harm to Zhao Jialin. I think I told Zhou Di about this, that is, I was responsible for Zhao Jialin. In fact, it might be my own wishful thinking. Her current reaction is very telling: When she heard me telling Zhou Di about everything, her condition seemed to be a little lost and crazy. At this moment, I was afraid that she would have something to do, so I had to hug her tightly, and quickly patted her on the back and said:

OK OK OK OK... I'm not thinking carefully. I'm sorry Jialin, I won't tell him this.But, he must know that you are pregnant with his child, right?

no!You can't tell him this!I would rather not have this child!

But, then, you two used to do test tubes to have children?How much effort did you both do?I think this child must not have stayed on the night of "Zhiyule" that day, so you won't say you're giving this child...

Haha, He Qiuyan, do you really think my mind is broken now?Of course I know that this child is not a bastard who I was gang-raped by you that night!Zhao Jialin suddenly opened his eyes wide and bit his back teeth and looked at my face, but then, she lowered her head again and said aggrievedly, her neck seemed to be twitching. Her avatar seemed to be a rubber toy being pulled, shaking and turning her head, but...but...but...but because of this...I can't ask!I can't...I can't...

Just as she was muttering her mind, the screen of my mobile phone that she threw on the hospital bed suddenly lit up: it was Zhou Di who sent a WeChat message.

Qiuyan, have you called me?

I thought about it, raised my hand and snatched the phone back, and sent him a voice message:

Yes, I've called you.You can come to Minsheng Hospital.Jialin has been injured in the past two days... and her and I have a bit serious matter, and I want to tell you...

While I was recording voice messages in the microphone of my phone, Zhao Jialin kept tearing me and even pulled my whole body down. In order not to let her snatch the phone, I could only rest my body on the hospital bed and clamped my arms to prevent her from snatching the phone;

But she was very strong at this moment, as if she was possessed.

I said something that might be a bit cold and ruthless sarcastic in Zhiyule that night. If she had had such great strength at that time, I guess those men who gang-raped her at the same time might not only not succeed, but they might have been beaten by her.

In the end, she saw that she couldn't get over me, so she pinched and scratched my shoulders and back, and even bit my butt through my pants... I felt so painful that I reached out to push her cheek. Seeing this, she immediately grabbed the phone in her hand. At this moment, I really decided in my heart: This woman might be really crazy!

However, the information has passed a retractable cooling time in the middle of our fight.It was too late for her to withdraw the information.

Just as she was crazily lit the withdrawal function, Zhou Di also sent a voice message. His drunken voice was shrouded in the playfulness of a group of girls, the rhythmic rhythm of electronic background music, and the crisp collision sound of the glass wine glass:

Oh...what is there?What can she have?What can you two have?She has always loved to make a fuss!She always does this!This has been like this since she was a teenager!What can be done?My side...I'm carrying out a mission!I don't have time to pay attention to her!If she is injured... Huh, please help take care of it depending on the situation!I really can't get through here!As for medical expenses, hospitalization expenses, you should pay first... After that... don't look for me anyway. Just ask her family directly. Just ask her that she needs it, right?Her father has something to do with her second and third uncles at the Minsheng General Hospital... but I really can't control it... And, I remember you know, right?I have nothing to do with her now. I have actually had enough of her business, so I don’t come to me in the future.Qiuyan, if you are willing to take care of her, you can take care of her!That's it, I'm busy with Ah first, don't send me a message first, I can't reply to you again...

After listening to this voice, Zhao Jialin, who was trembling all over her body, and from her eyes to words to her actions, had an extremely hysterical feeling, turned into an ice sculpture again, or rather, her condition at this time was very similar to the metaphor that a middle school student had already used in her composition: it was like a deflated ball.

It seems that we are both a bit wishful thinking when it comes to contacting Zhou Di.

I was ready to tell Zhou Di everything without hesitation, and ignored Zhao Jialin's tortured inner feelings, and fantasized that I might be beaten and kicked by Zhou Di in exchange for his good deeds to Zhao Jialin. It was indeed a bit of a show of power;

Zhao Jialin may be called to him at this moment and is crazy about Zhou Di. However, he didn't expect that Zhou Di would not have any to ruin her and he was terrible. In fact, he was spending money on the banner of carrying out a mission at this moment, and he didn't care at all about what happened to Zhao Jialin, his own prospective ex-wife.

So, Zhao Jialin sat on the hospital bed in a daze, and spread the hand that was holding the phone to his side, staring at the ground stupidly, still talking stupidly "Einabini"... "Einabini"... This is how I can't understand Mandarin.

I could feel the feeling of grief in her, because it emanated from her heart like a vine and quickly wrapped around me.

I stood up along these countless vines that I could not see with my naked eyes, walked to her side, and hugged her head directly in my arms, letting her side face close to my abdominal muscles, and then slowly and carefully threw away the phone in her hand, and gently pulled out the infusion needle on the back of her hand.

As soon as she touched my body, she couldn't help crying: Why Ah Woo Woo Woo Woo Woo Woo Woo Why Ah!『ainambini』?『ainambini 』…Woooo…Why…『ainambini 』!Listening to her taking turns asking why in Chinese and Mandarin, I seemed to be heartbroken, but I was glad that for several days, she finally cried out.

Qiuyan, if you see someone making a big fuss, making you live and die, and making you cry, make you make a fuss and hang yourself, then he will be fine; but the most terrifying thing is when a person is silenced.If a person is stuffy, endures and does not lose his temper or gets upset, he may commit suicide, may kill people, or may engage in suicide bombings. At that time, he wishes to lead the whole world to destroy... So let's say, if we meet someone and suffer a lot of pain, we have to try to let him vent and cry.Just cry.

According to these words, it seems that Zhao Jialin should be able to recover slowly.

But I'm so happy that I'm not dead. This was what Zhou Di said to me when he was at the police academy.

It was amazing that day. In this four-bed ward, Zhao Jialin was the only one who was hospitalized, and the other three bunks were empty, so I was not worried that she would disturb others' rest after crying. Occasionally, there were a few nurses, a few nurses, and patients in other wards who were haggard but still couldn't help but curious would pass by the door. They looked at the ward curiously through the long glass at the door, but they just looked at it numbly and left the door.

I don’t know why, but I stood like this, Zhao Jialin sat like this, and I hugged her in tears, maybe my posture seemed a little out of place, but this scene, coupled with the posture of her relying on me and I hugging her, seemed very familiar to me.

It seemed like a long time ago, I hugged her sobbing like this.

How long will it take?It feels like it was in the previous life.

Zhao Jialin cried for a long time, and gradually, she closed her eyes gently in my arms, as if she was asleep, but occasionally she would break her eyes again, blink, and look at the door of the ward in front of her with her eyes blankly. Her eyes seemed to be still stubborn and pathologically looking forward to something, and as if she was full of despair for everything in front of her.

She stayed quietly in my arms for a while before she returned to her usual normal and calm tone and said to me: I'm a little hungry...

Finally, I wanted to eat, and it seemed that there was still a way to cheer her up.

I glanced at the lunch box on the storage cabinet of the hospital bed beside her, and then immediately turned on the bedside lamp of the hospital bed. When I looked at the food in the transparent plastic lunch box, I couldn't help but look at her eyes awkwardly: The food has long been cold... Their hospital canteen still uses lard to cook, but the soup is now muddy.

It's okay, you bring it, I'll eat it.Zhao Jialin still stared at the door and said.

That won't work.After entering the stomach, cold oil wrapped in cold rice is bad for the stomach.I thought about it and said to her, "You're like this, I'll call the nurse here later and ask the nurse to accompany you later. I'll go to the door of the canteen on the first floor to see if there is any late-night snacks. If not, there is also a microwave at the door of the canteen, so you have to keep these boxes of lunches hot before you can eat...

Zhao Jialin blinked again, and after a moment of silence, he said to me: Then take me to have something good.

Then what do you want to eat? I'll buy it for you, or order takeout...

But she said irresponsible: I want to be discharged from the hospital.

this……

I actually want to persuade her to stay in the hospital for two days.

At least if she can't think about anything stupid, there are some medicines that can calm and calm the mind in the hospital that can be used for her. Whether it is given by those people or Xia Xueyuan, their things are not used up yet, but I really dare not use them on Zhao Jialin anymore.

After confirming her intention of being discharged from the hospital after repeatedly confirming her intention to be discharged, I called the nurse first. With the help of the nurse, I packed up the cases, ultrasound films and other messy things on the ground, and asked the nurse station reception desk to complete the discharge procedures for me. I used the credit card given to me by Cai Lisheng to pay all the fees for Zhao Jialin first. Then I went downstairs and left the inpatient building and walked to a small storefront connected to the outside of the building. There was a 24-hour cooperative service agency run by the hospital. When I sent Zhao Jialin in the morning, I remembered that there should be clothes sold there, and she wanted to be discharged from the hospital. I had to buy her a few clothes first. After all, except for the hospital gown, she didn't even have a pair of underwear or a bra.

However, the quality of the underwear sold by the cooperative is really not satisfactory. After thinking about it, I had to choose her a white short-sleeved shirt, a smallest-sized white sanitary safety pants for pregnant women with elastic bands, a cotton plus-velvet sports sweatshirt and cotton sports pants, a pair of military cotton socks, a pair of extremely inferior but warm and reassuring cotton shoes, plus a zipper and a bit deformed waterproof assault cotton jacket.

Make do with it.

After I brought a lot of clothes back to the ward, I put them all on her bed.

After that, I was about to pull the curtain and take a step back.

But at this time, Zhao Jialin, who was sitting on the bed and the nurse I called over all looked at me with surprise.

Hey hey hey?What are you doing?The nurse spoke to me first and curled her lips in disgust.

Uh...I...wait for her to change her clothes?

Zhao Jialin looked at the plastic bags and clothes expressionlessly, and then said to me weakly: My...my wrist still hurts a little...I may not be able to wear it myself.

Then... I could only ask the nurse politely, "Why don't this nurse sister, please help me?"

Why should I help?Do I be your maid Ah?You change your own clothes, have you done everything you two should have done?Are you embarrassed to change your partner’s clothes?Scumbag!

These words made me feel a little ashamed.

I just remembered that the identity of everyone in the hospital is Zhao Jialin's boyfriend.

And what people said is right. I have done everything I should and shouldn't do, and I have done it to Zhao Jialin. How could I help her change her clothes?

After the nurse gave me a blank look, she flipped through the plastic bags generously and asked in a somewhat hostile manner. Why don’t there be underwear or underwear? But when she saw the pure cotton short-sleeved vest and the elastic pregnant women’s pants, she understood. Without waiting for me to give any answer, she helped Zhao Jialin unbutton the hospital gown and stripped her whole body.

At this moment, the bruises left on Zhao Jialin's naked body, about three or four days ago, were left everywhere on the nude body of Zhao Jialin, about three or four days ago when he was rudely ravaged by those men in Zhiyule. The nurse looked at Zhao Jialin's bruises while looking at me with a very contemptuous look.

Although these scars were not directly left by me on Zhao Jialin's shattered skin, she did experience a painful nightmare because of my indifference that moment, as if I was depressed. But even so, my ridiculous self-esteem was still a little unacceptable, and I was scrutinized so harshly by an irrelevant passerby.

OK...thank you.I'll do it.Please go and do your business, Miss Nurse.

I directly snatched the thin cotton short-sleeved shirt from the nurse's hand, stood in front of Zhao Jialin's body, and held her tender and smooth shoulders like crucian carp belly.

snort!The nurse scoffed at me, then stepped out of the ward and closed the door viciously.

Seeing this scene in front of her, Zhao Jialin closed her eyes first, but suddenly smiled happily and finally laughed.

Her smile is really good.In the soft warm yellow light, she was naked and smiling, like a clean and fragrant jasmine flower in the sun.

I was originally angry, but when I looked at her, I had a bit of a delicate face, the pair of clavicles with smooth texture in three dimensions, the deep nests full of temptation and charm, the pair of small and delicate oranges, the erect and plump breasts, and the nipples that gradually became hard as milk-brown tea-colored candy due to the cold air in the ward... and these slender and tender legs that were within reach, the butt that was as tight as an apple, the black, thick and soft as velvet-like pubic hair... The lewd atmosphere spread out in the ward at this moment.

However, after the lewd mood spread out on her body, the sinister nightmare and my cold blood with enthusiasm were re-stimulating my ridiculous and humble conscience.

Well...why are you laughing at?I could only smile at her reluctantly, and then asked with no words.

hehe.Zhao Jialin suddenly looked at me in a daze, and slowly squeezed out a smile on her face: I think you are interesting.

interesting?

Well, it's quite interesting.She continued to smile, but there were two lines of clear tears on her face. I was quite interesting too...

This very simple sentence is like the ice hanging hanging on the rain outside the window, which hurts my heart coldly and sharply. In my throat, it seems that all the tears left on Zhao Jialin's cheeks were caught and swallowed them all, extremely bitter.

I silently put on Zhao Jialin from the inside out, and she finally got out of bed for the first time after so many days.

After she stepped on her feet on the ground, she was probably weak even after having blood transfusions, had not been on the ground for several days, and her legs were still a little weak, so her whole body shook for a while. Seeing this, I immediately raised my hand to hold her. The feeling of being down-to-earth seemed to make her a little dazed.

Before leaving the ward, she went to the bathroom for a convenience. I helped her walk into the bathroom, put her on the toilet seat where the toilet was placed, and helped her take off her outer pants and underwear to tell the truth. When I put her pants on and off with my hands for the first time, or rather, it should be the first time with memory. I still had some evil thoughts in my heart and between my crotch. After all, I am a normal man with a strong spirit. I abandoned everything that happened in the past few days and the messy things. Facing such a beauty who allowed me to touch her body, it was impossible to say that there was no idea, but I did not stay by her side and stare at her naked buttocks with her naked buttocks. But last time I asked her to go to the bathroom alone, she cut her wrists, which made me have wrists cuts.The person had to be afraid and vigilant, so I had to stay at the door and prepared to take the door to her so that there was only one gap left that would allow me to use my ears to hear what was happening in the bathroom.

Seeing that I was so careful, she laughed out loud, as if mocking and laughed, and then said to me calmly: Forget it, the door is open.

Door open?On the contrary, I scratched my head for a while.

I have seen it, touched it, and you have entered my body more than once.Is it necessary to close the door?I'm done, I have to help you.

She was obviously teasing me with what the nurse who pretended to be chivalrous just now. After saying these words, she continued to look at me with a sarcastic look and smile. I had no choice but to turn my whole body, lower my head vertically to the door with my arms, and wait for her to finish.

But even if I didn't look, the clear sound of urine coming from the toilet made me feel even more complicated itchy, which made me have to turn my face to the other side and face the bathroom door with the back of my head.

I suddenly felt that at this moment, she and I were owed debts for several lifetimes. The one connecting with each other seemed to be a foolish debt that could not be calculated for thousands of years. The more I contacted each other, the less I understood the debt. But I vaguely felt that she and I couldn't get rid of each other. For example, if she took advantage of her urination at this moment, she would definitely be able to find me out soon, or suddenly meet me soon, and continue to hang out with me, and I couldn't bear to make up for the harm and debt I brought to her. Even if I escaped to the ends of the world, it was still like this.

When I turned around, I didn't expect that Zhao Jialin had already stood up with one hand, spread her legs, slightly thrust her belly and waist, pulled a few tissues, and carefully wiped her labia and perineum with one hand. This time, I turned around, in addition to directly looking at her pubic hair, pubic mound and labia, I also vaguely saw the soft pink and tenderness inside her vagina.

I instinctively took a step back half a step, but when I thought about it carefully, it was really inconvenient for her to do this, so I had to open the door, snatch the tissue from her hand that had a few drops of urine and throw it away, and then pulled a wet tissue from the sink, pressing the itch in my heart, and I couldn't help but feel a little guilty. I put her on the toilet ring again, sat her, let her lift her thighs slightly, and gently wiped it on her lower body's honey lips and flesh slits.

Oh... Zhao Jialin couldn't help but blush. She pursed her lips and looked at me eagerly, and even muttered with a hint of resentment, "Long..."

I didn't say anything, but after putting down her legs, I took a few more dry tissues, stretched out my arms and put the tissues in the dryer and blew them with a warm wind, and then carefully wiped the outside of her vagina and the edges of her vagina.

He Qiuyan, what are you doing? What are you doing? Are you taking advantage of me?After helping her clean, she asked me as if she was full of resentment when I helped her lift her pants.

I don't think it's inconvenient for you.Besides... In the words of the nurse just now, I have taken advantage of you more than just taking advantage of you.Of course, if you feel that it is inappropriate and unhappy, I will just be fine.I said guiltily.

Humph... Zhao Jialin seemed to sneer at me, but then she smiled again and said bitterly, "This world is really ridiculous. A person who has made me so bad that he is not a human or a ghost." But he is the first person I have been the best for me since I was a child... A person who thinks he will hold me in his hand, and even I think he should be a person who cares a lot about me, but he doesn't take me seriously at all!"As she said that, she sniffed again and raised her hand to me. You can help me and help me up.

She stood up and then saw herself in the mirror in front of the sink. Even though she looked rosy because I just touched her private parts, most of them were still as pale as paper. Her lips were bloodless and her cheeks were so thin that she had not eaten or drunk water for several days that she had lost her skin and her jawbone. In addition, her hair, which was originally black, shiny and smooth, was messy, and she was in a mess.

Looking at her face, she seemed to finally feel the pain and shame I felt for her these days.

Stop watching.Since you are hungry, I will take you to eat.

I hugged Zhao Jialin's shoulder without hesitation and gently pushed her body towards the door of the ward.

I think it would be fine if I just let me face her embarrassing and pity-minded at this moment. I don’t want her to see her miserable appearance.

But she seemed to smile lightly and just said: Ha, look at you, what kind of clothes I bought for me? It's so ugly!

When she and I got in the car and drove out of the Minzhong Hospital campus, it was already 2:30.

City F is indeed one of the few cities in the northeast that never sleeps, but it is not a song every night, especially at the beginning of the twelfth lunar month of the year. Unless it is a place like Bajiao Street and Baita Street where young gangsters are surrounded by gangs and social gangsters come all year round, and eat, drink, have fun, prostitution, gambling, massage, and bathing, most restaurants usually close at twelve o'clock in the evening in winter.

I really couldn't find a place, so we had to go to Langsuo Road to try our luck, because there are many foreigners living there, and most of the foreigners have the habit of going to bars and having midnight snacks. There should be many restaurants there that are not closed, and there are few gangsters there. I stepped on some points when I was dealing with the case of Wan Meishan and Shangguan Yanei a few days ago. I knew that the police station was also far from the food street and the bar street. If we went there to eat, we would not be discovered or recognized.

However, I ignored one point: this point is crowded with people on the other side of Langsu Road.

After careful investigation, I found out that tonight was actually a global live broadcast of the opening ceremony of the Super Bowl in the United States.

After asking carefully, I realized that even though today is the 25th, it is already the 26th of January for the United States. The original Super Bowl date of February 1st, the United States will make a year-end government report for the previous year. The opposition parties in the Senate and House of Representatives have also caused the overall downturn in the industry caused by the serious scarcity of raw materials such as precision instruments and chips in the United States over the past three years, and have had a negative spillover effect on its domestic financial and other fields. They are sharpening their knives and preparing to impeach the president of the opponent. Therefore, the group moved the Super Bowl to today.

The overall environment problem has never hurt me, let alone the United States on the other side of the ocean. But the result was that on that night, Zhao Jialin and I originally wanted to eat in a restaurant, but there was no place to sit.

I have always been not very interested in baseball. Zhao Jialin stood beside me listlessly. She said that she often watch baseball, but when I saw that she was sleepy at the moment, I felt noisy when I was in this restaurant, so I directly asked the waiter to help pack it.

After waiting for almost twenty minutes, everything I ordered was delivered to my hands. When I drove home, it was already three o'clock in the middle of the night. Although it was not too early in the winter, I was hungry and no longer prepared to go to bed.

Zhao Jialin slept all the way, and waited for the car to stop and then open the door. Zhao Jialin, who followed me out of the car, picked up a pair of cotton slippers that originally belonged to Meiyin from the shoe rack at the door. However, indeed, their heights were not much different, so the shoe size was naturally suitable.

After putting on the cotton drag, she went straight upstairs.Looking at Zhao Jialin who went upstairs directly, I felt sad.

What are you doing?

I'll go and make some convenience.Zhao Jialin looked back at me and said, I've done too many drips today... Also, the underwear you bought for me has a bit of thread inside... a bit convex, and it makes me feel uncomfortable.I want to take it off, or switch it to my own.

Oh, I breathed a sigh of relief and looked at her with a little bit of worry. Do you use me?

You put down what you eat first.I'll try it myself, it should be fine.She lowered her head and thought for a while. Of course, I don’t mind if you put the food downstairs and help me.My wrists still hurt a little.

That's OK.You go first.Hey, don't seek death anymore!I finally gave you a blood transfusion, and there was only a little blood in your body that couldn't stand your troubles.

Zhao Jialin turned around and smiled at me bitterly.

I was still a little worried. Anyway, the lot of snacks I ordered were originally semi-finished products, so I folded the shrimp dumplings, crab roe breads, steamed chicken feet and other things from the convenience lunch box one by one, as well as the seafood porridge I ordered for her and my own sea cucumber wonton noodles into the small plates and bowls at home, and turned them one by one in the microwave for three minutes, then I went downstairs first and searched in the underground warehouse, and finally found a bag of cotton ladies underwear. I held the bag of ladies underwear and was not only a little dazed, because this was actually Chen Meilang's pseudonym Chen Sao. Not only did he buy it for Mei Yin to please Mei Yin shortly after he came to my house. Now Mei Yin has moved out, and Chen Sao, who has a tangle with me and my old man He, has long been gone.

This made me think of the scene when I hugged Zhao Jialin and ran out of the bathroom a day ago. If I noticed it for a while later, maybe she would be no longer there. Maybe at this moment, I could only hold the clothes she left in that small bedroom and feel sad.

When I thought of this, my heart couldn't help but tremble again, so I hurriedly ran upstairs with the bag of cotton underwear, but found that Zhao Jialin was wearing a short-sleeved shirt, holding a spoon at the dining table, drinking porridge bite after bite, and then snatching the noodles with steamed cabbage from garlic and shrimp dumplings. Hearing me coming up from downstairs, she turned her head, bulged her cheeks like two small cages, glanced at me with wide eyes, closed her mouth and chewing. After thinking about it, she turned her head and looked at the bowl of meat, wonton, and continued the tiger-eating wolf-eating meal with the porridge in her bowl.

When I saw that she was really hungry, I felt a little more at ease when she saw her index fingers twitching: Eat slowly!You can easily cause stomachache for yourself like this, and instantly increasing sugar is not good for your cardiovascular and cerebrovascular system. You have just lost blood and have been transfusions...

As I spoke, I walked to her side. When I got closer, I looked closer, and then I looked at it carefully, my face couldn't help but get hot again. I didn't notice it when I got closer. When I saw that she was naked at this moment. Because the short-sleeved shirt on her upper body was particularly thin, although her bust was not so proud and full, the outline of the pair of small breasts, like bamboo shoots, was clearly visible under the soft cotton fabric, and it was swaying again.

No...why are you...

You can put on some...

Zhao Jialin swallowed everything in his mouth hard, and looked down at the table of snacks and dishes as if he was angry with me or someone: I don’t want to wear them.Just stay naked.

I was stunned for a moment before I responded, and I had brand new underwear in my hand, so I stuffed the bag of underwear into her hand.Then I quickly ran to the floor-to-ceiling window of the living room and quickly pulled the curtains.

She didn't raise her head, and said in a dead tone:

Can someone come to see me at this time?Anyway, I have been gang-raped, so I am still afraid of being watched?

It is said that at around three o'clock in the middle of the night, no one in this villa area would go home or go out in the middle of the night, but just like Zhao Jialin's appearance at this time, I really don't want others to see the spring light of her lower body.

It's not you... After I pulled the curtains, I turned around helplessly and sighed at her, "Don't be cold."

Your home is quite warm... um... it's heating, geothermal heat, central air conditioning, and heating... Gudu... I'm so hot that I sweat so much that I can't keep it cold.She said while chewing and swallowing.

All right.

I originally wanted to sit next to her, so I had to pull open the chair opposite her. After all, there was a table board blocking me, which could prevent me from facing her bare and slender thighs and her sparse but furry mons pubicus. However, before I was about to sit down, I hesitated for a moment and put the shrimp, crab noodles, and meat in my noodle bowl into her bowl: Eat more.

She was not polite. I picked up one, stuffed it into her mouth, and slapped it into a bowl. She swallowed it into a piece, but she didn't have time to chew it slowly. After a while, she stuffed herself into a squirrel ready to spend the winter, puffing her cheeks and pressing her mouth, as if she vented all her resentment and anger on this table.

Eat slowly!If you are choking yourself like this, it will easily cause stomach and heart problems!Don't take you to the hospital later... Take Ah slowly, I'll pour you some water.

After she heard me, she chewed it carefully for a while. After I poured water, she seemed to have a little space in her mouth and could speak. Then she heard her say vaguely: Oh, your house is wavy... Do you have any wine?

Are you going to...drink Ah?Or do you want to wipe it?

Of course it's drink.

That won't work.I shook my head, you are still pregnant!And you just finished the blood transfusion and the injury on your wrist is not healed, so just drink it?Can your body bear it?Don’t cause any complications like “scurvy”!I was anxious for a moment and couldn't remember what adverse physical reactions would be caused by drinking alcohol after being seriously injured, so I simply said scurvy to scare Zhao Jialin.

Unexpectedly, she raised her head and looked at me blankly: I am not afraid of death, what else can I be afraid of "scurvy"?Don’t forget, I am a Manchu, and we Manchus can drink just as much as Mongolians and Koreans.Hurry up, do you have any wine?

Alas... She has been talking about the ethnic group of blood, what else can I say?OK!Manchus... Then, I, a Han man born to me, sacrificed my life to accompany the gentleman...

As I said that, I went to the balcony.

My old man He, who was drunkard who was poured out by social engagements from all walks of life, used to drink two bottles of wine when he was at home, so he stored all kinds of wine at home, including beer, white, yellow, and foreign. Later, the place where Xia Xuepingyuan lived was blown up by a grenade. When she moved here with me, she also got a lot of spirits. When she had the sweetest relationship with me, she started to quit the alcohol and didn't drink much. Now she moved away and didn't know where she moved away, and the bottle of wine she brought was not taken away. Later, from Christmas at the end of last year to New Year's Day at the beginning of this year, my friends bought a lot of them when they came to their house.

So now, my house is said to have more guns than people, more food than guns, more wine than grain. When I went to search for the wine, I also found that there were a lot of vegetables that had already smelled and rotten into a ball of black paste next to the wine box. I spent a long time to remember that this was bought by Sister Han Cheng and Yue Lingyin for me and Xia Xueping last year when she came to my house with her. It broke almost without much eating.

Anyway, they were all vegetables and they were all organic, so I opened the balcony window hard, pinched my nose along the window and threw the rotten vegetables, soup and juice into the snow pile more than one person in the backyard.

After dealing with the packaging bag, I quickly washed my hands, turned out the ice bucket, wrapped a clean bath towel on the bottom of the bucket, scooped a bucket of snow, picked a bottle of Granfidi from the pile of wine boxes, plus two bottles of Longshan Spring beer, and inserted it into the snow and brought it into the house.

Look, drink it.I took two more glasses and a bottle of boiler, and returned to the dining table. Can whiskey be drunk?

Everything is fine, I just want to drink.Zhao Jialin stood up slightly, looked into the ice bucket, and gave me a blank look in disgust: Why do you still drink beer?Humph, it's still light beer...

Before I could speak, she picked up a bottle of beer and used the end of the spoon handle, pried open the cap of the beer bottle, and then directly carried the bottle of whiskey, snatched it with her fingernails, pulled the metal film and pulled the whiskey plug, then the whiskey was base, the beer was filled, and a cup was served high, and it was all over.

Oh my god...my princess!Can you slow down?

I haven't finished pouring a glass of beer here, but she has already started the second glass.

I immediately reached out to pull her, but I didn't know where the little girl got the strength. She had half a cup of whiskey and half a cup of beer. With a gulp, I couldn't even hold it, and the third cup was in my stomach.

After eating three cups, Zhao Jialin's cheeks immediately turned red. Then she covered her mouth and burped. Before I could react, she giggled with some self-deprecating smile after looking at me for a while.

Haha...hehe...hahahaha!

Seeing her laughing, I couldn't help but be amused by her appearance for a while.

As she smiled ridiculously, two lines of clear tears involuntarily oozing out of the corners of her eyes, and her smiling face instantly turned cloudy and cloudy.

She continued to stare at the table of dishes in a daze, then looked at her bare thighs and perineum, then raised her head and looked at me, pointing to my nose and asked: Why don’t you drink it?

Oh... So I quickly raised my glass and followed a beer.

no!Your cup doesn't count!

Naku...

You have to drink what I just drank.

All right……

So I quickly gave myself a cup.Unexpectedly, the second cup immediately followed me and put it in front of me. Zhao Jialin poured her cup and pushed it to me.

I had to take her cup and drink it all.

And she took away my original empty cup and filled it with another cup. After I finished drinking it, she held the glass in front of me and watched me helplessly.

I knew it, so I poured myself a full cup, bumped her into the cup, and then raised her and drank it.

You have something wrong, He Qiuyan. After drinking this glass, Zhao Jialin seemed to be unable to drink it. After vomiting, he muttered to me, "Drinking such a cold wine on such a cold day!"

I don't think about letting you drink slowly...

Then what about you now?You didn't stop me.Zhao Jialin looked at me with ridicule and resentment. I now understand a little like that night: You had fun with those old women on the water bed that night, and then you think I should have had a lot of fun by those old men, right?

Zhao Jialin's unexpected accusation made me feel ashamed of apology in an instant.

I'm really sorry for you, Jialin...

roll!You come less!What's the use of saying apologize at this time... Although Zhao Jialin said that, his expression still showed a gritted teeth, which made me feel even more guilty; but just when I didn't know how to ask her for forgiveness, she smiled coldly: If you really feel sorry for me, then pointed to the bottle of whiskey that had been drunk in the ice bucket, and you fucked me.

I took a deep breath and directly raised the whiskey bottle: OK!As I said that, I poured a burst of coldness into my stomach at the mouth of the bottle. The bitter and spicy mouth made my body feel two completely different feelings. The coldness on my head was so painful that it became more and more sober, and even cold, reflected from the Tianling cap to the back of my neck and shoulders, and then to my heart, which made me feel a little frozen. After the alcohol in my stomach entered my stomach, it instantly became extremely hot, and this spicy slowly dizzy in the stomach and intestines and kidneys. Finally, it fell into my head with blood circulation, making me drunk again. The pain and dizzy drunk made me feel a little confused all of a sudden. As soon as I opened my eyes, I turned dizzy...

Just when I couldn't even hold the bottle, Zhao Jialin was a little anxious and pressed the bottle directly to let me spread my hand, snatched the remaining half of the bottle of wine and placed it on the table: Alas!You're really doing it?Leave some for me... Why haven't I seen someone as stupid as you besides you?

But then, she also held the wine bottle and blew three or four big mouths into the mouth.

Then, a very funny scene appeared in the dining room of this townhouse: Zhao Jialin and I were covering our heads at the same time, leaning on the table with our hands, enduring the heart and brain pain caused by the coldness of the wine and the dizziness caused by alcohol.

In a trance, I heard Zhao Jialin say with a sob: He Qiuyan, I have decided.

What did you decide?The cold wine stinged my stomach and intestines. When the pain in my head slowed down, I quickly picked up the noodle bowl and took a big sip of warm seafood noodle soup before I could recover.

I decided that I won’t abort this child.I was born by myself.And I heard Zhao Jialin say.

Did you have your own birth?

Yes, I was born by myself.

Then can your family agree?

After giving birth, I raised myself.I don't trust anyone.I don't care whether this is a boy or a girl, in short, he is my own child.

After this sentence, Zhao Jialin's words were completely opened by herself:

I have died once... After I was rescued by a doctor at the Minsheng General Hospital, I was thinking, and I thought about it just now that I also figured it out: Anyway, my body and even my whole body are dirty now... I have never had a mother since I was a child.I haven't told you, He Qiuyan?My mother actually committed suicide and was forced by my dad!My mother was actually a talented woman when she was young. She was the school beauties of our F City Conservatory of Music back then. She was coaxed and deceived by my father. When my father was young, she swore to treat her a hundred good things to her and not provoke other women. As a result, when my mother was pregnant with my elder sister, he beat my mother. Yes, it’s not the elder sister I can see at home now!My dad told the public that he had three daughters and one son, but in fact, how many women he had slept with and how many children he had, I guess he could not count himself... I've seen him beat my mother.When he was young, he encountered any grievances and setbacks in business or on the road, so he would vent his anger on my mother!He also hit me!So I never dared to cry in front of him... I didn't dare to tell him about my grievances.My mother later suffered from severe anxiety. One time, she saw him messing around outside, so she jumped off the building... But you see, he was not serious outside, and he was very strict with me, his other daughters and sons. So it was not that he had no son and could inherit Mingchang International's family business in the future. My brothers and younger brothers I had seen and had never seen before, all had broken father-son and father-daughter relationships with him.If he knew me now, he would have divorced by those men in the "Zhiyule" club, and had a child with Zhou Di, maybe he could kill me... So, if I waited for my future, if I had a big stomach, instead of insulting myself in front of my family, I might as well break off my relationship with them as soon as possible!I feel comfortable sleeping on the street myself!

But why do all the women who have encountered this kind of thing now have to abort the child or find a man to rely on after having a child?Why can't I raise myself?When I was a child, I didn’t like to leave home. I felt that although my dad hit me, as long as I was honest, behaved and obedient to him, he would give me the best food and clothing and the best other things, which would be great. But now, I am a policeman, and I dare not say how good I am to investigate cases and catch bad guys. At least I have a salary to support myself, I also have medical insurance, and I can complete the pregnancy test and childbirth in the future... Why don’t I give birth to my child by myself?

Why did I make myself so miserable? I committed suicide that night, yes, I didn’t understand; I figured it out now!Isn’t it just that he was fucked, cummed, or gang raped by a group of men he didn’t know!It’s not that someone has dug up the heart, liver, spleen, lungs, kidneys, ovaries and uterus!Am I searching for death?What's more, I was wearing a mask that night!How many people can recognize me?What if you don’t wear a mask?There are many girls all over the world who have been molested, sexually harassed, or even raped or gang-raped. Could it be that they will all die?There are also those who have been searched for pornographic photos online, and those who were previously captured as a comfort woman because of war. Will they all die?I'm afraid all the scumbags and bastards who are committing violence like us are still alive. Why should I die?...Of course, what if one day, someone knows what happened that night?Being called a "slut", "slut", "slut" and "breaking shoes"?Those beasts who raped me and ravaged me on me will be praised by someone to praise me for being so good?Is it amazing if I bully a girl with a bunch of other men?When I was gang-raped, I became a "bitter", "slut", "slut", "slut", "slut", why?Besides, even so, what's the case?At worst, I won’t be liked or pursued by men in the future... I am no longer the “Ice Princess” that is being held and pursued by others!I am not eating or breathing, and I am not alive yet?damn it!The ladies in nightclubs, adult actresses in Japanese and European and American A films are the goddesses of those stinky men. I am a despicable person who is bullied one after another?Because of this, I won’t live well?Because of this, I can't give birth to the baby in my belly...

Before I was in elementary school... I always yearned for a prince charming who could love me for the rest of my life; that time, I thought this prince charming could be Zhou Di... I just realized that I was nothing in his heart!You heard it too, He Qiuyan, he is spending time outside!Let me tell you, I'm not afraid of you making jokes about it from the time we fell in love, to living together before, and then getting married later, this kind of thing happens no less than twenty times a year!each year!There were even several times when more than one girl hummed by him at the same time on the phone, haha, just like the sound from my mouth when I was doing that thing with you on the water bed that night!More than one girl!I should have woken up long ago!To a certain extent, I should actually thank you for everything that happened in "Zhiyule" that night!If it weren't for this, I might not be able to completely awaken myself!I, Zhao Jialin, are actually nothing!For Zhou Di, I am nothing more!Even if I dare to say this, you tell me that I was gang-raped because of my anger at Zhou Di, so I felt a little bit disgusted with the house. But if it were Zhou Di, I will tell you that even if I was gang-raped in front of him, he might not even look at him, and he would not frown at all!

Let me tell the truth that night, when all the disgusting things happened... When those stinky men inserted their ugly cocks into my body and pressed them on the soles of my feet, palms, breasts, and ass, on the one hand, I really wanted to die, and on the other hand, I actually felt that I should take it for granted. I felt like I was destined to be like this. I was like this in my life. I was actually a cheap life that I could not save myself!I took myself too high in the past!In fact, when this kind of thing happened to me, I was powerless to turn things around... I couldn't even save myself... I was nothing fucking!I should be nothing... I am nothing from beginning to end!What are the "Bing Genius" and the "Three Miss of Mingchang International", they are all nonsense... I'm just... nothing!

After saying that, Zhao Jialin picked up the bottle and poured two mouthfuls of whiskey into the bottle.

Because the filling was too fast and too hard, the light brown liquid oozed out along both sides of her red lips that had recovered from cherry redness.

With the wine, there were tears rolling from the gaps in her tightly closed eyelids.

I didn't know what I should say to her, but I felt bad when I heard her deliberately using every word and sentence that she turned into with pain;

After that day, I suddenly had a whim. Thinking of the scene at this moment, I posted a state that I could only see in my WeChat Moments. This is a song "Remembering Jiangnan" that I have been lingering after suddenly popping up in my mind:

Wipe the tears of complaints, and the tears are still flowing. The beauty is like an immortal in the sky. How can she defile this mortal? Who can't be able to be pity?

I apologize for wine, and it is difficult to make up my guilt. I misunderstand my foolish thoughts in one night, but I am trapped with it. It is too late for me to regret it.

At this moment, I was like a devil being fucked, standing up without my control, holding Zhao Jialin, who was crying and constantly pouring wine into my stomach, tightly hugging him in his arms.

Seeing me like this, she put down the bottle and told the truth. Even at this moment, she suddenly smashed the bottle into my head, and I had to bear it; but I didn't expect that she put down the bottle and seemed to smile happily, but I clearly felt that Zhao Jialin's tears were still flowing.

Hahaha...why are you doing, you bastard?Why are you holding me?

Jialin, I'm really sorry...

You come less!What's going on?Are you still thinking about how I can cry in your arms?Let me tell you Ah, there is no way!

Zhao Jialin was talking as if she was joking to me, but her nose was clearly sucking, and tears were still falling in her eyes.

But you are just crying.

I didn't!She continued to shed tears, but gently pushed me away, and deliberately showed a grim smile, He Qiuyan!What are you doing?You ignored me when I was bullied by those stinky men, but now you want to take advantage of my most vulnerable time to apologize to me, and even hug me while I was drunk and naked. You bastard pervert!

After hearing what she said, I immediately lowered my head in shame.

Unexpectedly, she seemed unhappy with me and shouted imperatively: Hello!He Qiuyan, why are you bowing your head?Look at me well!

Um?I glanced at her warm and fragrant jade again, then lowered my head with some self-blame and apologeticity, pretending to be fiddling with the clothes in my hand.

What are you pretending to be!When she saw me like this, she suddenly felt stern again. You have slept with me. To put it bluntly, your dick has been fucked by my pussy!You also saw me being raped from my mouth, pussy and asshole by a group of stinky men's stinky cocks!Do you dare not even look at me?

I couldn't help but feel a little stupid.

I never thought that Zhao Jialin, the Bing Genius, would say words like dick, pussy, and asshole from her mouth for a long time, even if I had a very good impression of her. We would bicker as soon as we met, but in my heart, she was like a fairy, of course she was just a fairy with a bad temper; in the mouth of a fairy, she would say such obscene words so directly from her mouth... This would probably be an earthquake for anyone's heart.

When faced with her righteous questioning, I was a little at a loss, so I had to raise my head, correct my gaze, and look at her at this moment.

When she saw me raising her head, her stern expression disappeared immediately. She seemed to be drunk and squinted at me and smiled:

That's right.You owe me what you want, you let others bully me, you ruin me, and now you have to listen to me.Come on, look at me well, and be honest, do I look like this, are you beautiful?

When...of course, of course beautiful.

hey-hey!That's good!

The next second, she did another move that scared me. She stood up, tiptoed gently, put her chin on my shoulder, and put her mouth to my ears. She asked to me in a low voice like a raccoon cat crying at night:

Bad guy!Tell my sister, do you really want to take advantage of me?

Not only that, after she finished speaking, she stuck out her tongue and licked it around my ears, and directly took half of my ears with her wet lips. In fact, when she licked my ears, her tongue was very stiff, but at this moment, I was only a simple debt to her in my heart. I didn't expect her to use such a trick on me. In addition, the room was a little cold, but because of this, I instantly got goose bumps all over my body, and the itch in my heart also evoked my penis at once.

I...I don't mean that!I quickly took a step back, but unexpectedly, I fell to the ground inadvertently. Ah!