Chapter 18

I was alone in the ward, watching Xiao Ke Lifan sleeping outside the corridor, patiently listening to the fat leader's endless introduction to how to stew angelica turtle soup

A piece of white plain in the ward

Xiao Ke's whole body was wrapped in a quilt, showing a delicate curve

Her face was exposed, with round and short hair, like a high school student of sixteen or seventeen years old

Xiao Ke and his wife happened to be in contrast: one has a hair shawl, one has a short hair that is in the ears; one has a beautiful oval face, and the other has a cute baby face...

According to that painter, if his wife is Western beauty, then Xiao Ke should be a typical oriental beauty, right?

But at this time, Xiao Ke's eyes were closed, his face was covered with blood, and there was no charming luster.

Seeing her like this, I felt a sense of sorrow: Do I love this girl?

I have no idea

But I know that I still care about her...

Let her sleep for a while, let's go outside for a walk! At some point, Lifan stood behind me and asked him: Where is my boss?

Lifan said: He is leaving first when he is going to have a meeting. I said there are still some things to discuss with you. Please ask him to leave for a while.

I nodded silently and followed Lifan to a small garden outside the inpatient department.

It is very quiet, with a few osmanthus trees, more than ten pots of rockery bonsai, and an exquisite small fish pond

Seven or eight red koi swimming slowly inside

Lifan took out a box of cigarettes, handed me one, and then lit it for me

I took a sip and asked Lifan: How could it be like this? I mean, Xiao Ke

Lifan also took a long breath of cigarette and said: That's the case: Did she tell you about Xiao Ke's accidental pregnancy after that night?

I sucked the cigarette quietly, not saying anything

Lifan did not ask, and continued: Xiao Ke is a face-loving girl. She had already had a baby twice in our hospital. She thought that if she did it for the third time, her colleagues would laugh at her. So she hid it from me and went to a small hospital for private purposes. She originally thought that this was just a result of an ordinary minor operation, but something happened and she bleeded! The doctors there panicked and the blood stock was not enough. Finally, they sent it to our hospital. Fortunately, it was delivered in time. If it were a little later...

Lifan shook his head, unable to speak for a moment

After a while, I answered: The hospital called me and I rushed back from Xi'an... My colleague in the obstetrics and gynecology department told me that her uterus was irreversible and I am afraid that she will never be able to do so again in the future...

Lifan choked up a little, and he turned his back to me, smoking his cigarette in big mouthfuls.

I stood behind and looked at him silently

This man's life is probably not easy these two days

He was obviously thinner, his eyes were black, his face was unshaven, and he could not tell at all that he used to be the cheerful, chic and cute man he liked by girls

This morning, Xiao Ke woke up. Lifan continued, "She is a doctor and you can tell what happened at a glance. She cried and hugged me, saying that she was very scared and asked me if I want her..."

After hearing these words, my heart was as if it were cut off!

I never expected that I was blinded by sexual desire that night, and my temporary negligence would have caused this consequence!

I didn't think about it and immediately said to Lifan: If you really don't want her, I want it! You go and live with Liu Zhen. I don't care whether Xiao Ke can have children. I have always been very frivolous about this. Moreover, I will not hide this from you. Maybe the responsibility lies with me...

Lifan smiled terrified and said to me: Brother, if I leave her, would I still be a man? At worst, when I want to adopt a good deed of my crime, I will still have to take responsibility for it. Don't worry, even if it's really because of you, I won't blame you at all.

I couldn't help asking: Why?

I've thought about it for a long time and figured it out for the past two days

Lifan stared at the distance and said slowly, we don't! Everything I did may be wrong from the beginning because it violated the two basic laws of life. The first rule is: There must be a cause and a result. I only think of the beginning and never think about its result. But everything has cause and effect. This is because of me, and the consequences will naturally be borne by me.

What about the second one?

Lifan smiled bitterly and said: The second rule is: There are gains and losses. I thought that enjoying sexual desires to the fullest is not a big deal. Indeed, indulging in desires is not a bad thing. But if you get physical enjoyment, you will inevitably lose something else, more or less! But I did not expect that what I lost would be so heavy!

I'm speechless

What I heard this morning and saw all this, for me, was almost a thunderbolt!

I originally thought that I had lost too much, and it was almost the bottom of my life!

After listening to Lifan's words, I realized that I, including Lifan, Xiao Ke, and even my wife, were just in the same whirlpool of life, and this whirlpool was still constantly going downwards and sinking down…

I looked at the man in front of me, and he looked at me speechlessly.

I have always hated him very much, hated him for his hypocrisy and cunning, and hated him for irresponsibly arousing his wife's lurking desire, turning her from a naive wife to a lustful girl like a lustful beast!

I once thought about it over and over again, using a thousand ways to kill this man!

But I never thought that when one day I stood in front of him, this would be the case!

We were relatively speechless, just at this moment, a nurse came over and informed Lifan: Xiao Ke is awake

We immediately walked towards the ward

When he was about to reach the door of the ward, Lifan stopped and said to me hesitantly: This... I'm sorry, I think you're a little bit like you go in now... I'm afraid that Xiao Ke's mood will fluctuate too much, and her body can't stand the tossing, otherwise, when she gets better, you'll come again?

I thought about it and thought what he said made sense, so I said: OK, I won’t go in. Take good care of Xiao Ke. If you have the chance, say sorry to her for me.

Lifan's eyes were a little red and he said: I should say sorry, it was me who hurt Liu Zhen and I have implicated you! After that, he bent down deeply and bowed to me.

Please take good care of Liu Zhen and don’t let the second woman be hurt. Lifan finally begged

I shrugged and said coldly: This is my family matter, you don't have to worry about it

I walked past Xiao Ke's ward, and I was not too slow, like an irrelevant passerby

When I passed by the door, I glanced inside and saw a girl in a white hospital gown leaning half on the bed

I didn't see her clearly, nor did I know if she saw me...

I walked over with my head down, never looking back

At noon, I returned to my unit and handed the resignation letter to the fat leader and told him that Lifan had already slaughtered the turtle and stewed it to the stew!

When I walked out of the unit, I suddenly received a text message

When I opened it, I saw it was sent by Xiao Ke

There are only the simplest two words: Goodbye is that simple, there is not even punctuation marks