When I woke up from the recovery room again, I knew that my life was no longer reversed and was changed in an irreversible way.
The unreal tightness and pain between my thighs really reminded me that I no longer have men's complete sexual organs:
The last step of this entire treatment course is also the end of the plan of Brother Zhe and Xiaoying, in order to prevent the male hormones in my body from interfering with the effects of female hormone drugs.
The most important thing is to use the social concept to castrate, which symbolizes the disappearance of Lin Yingjie's male identity.
My testicles were completely removed during the operation and the foreskin that had become too long was also removed.It only leaves behind a penis that is as big as a thumb under the long-term effect of female hormones.
From then on, my body will forever lose the important organ that secretes androgens. Looking back at the feminization process of saying it is not long or short, although it is voluntary, I can't help feeling a little sad.
From women's clothing at the beginning to taking female hormone medication, the surgery was finally changed.
Finally, I can no longer look back.
I stood up with my physical discomfort and looked around.
Just like the style of other clinics in Zhege, this ward is clean and bright.
Although decoration materials that are easy to clean and sterilize are used to avoid necessary infections, they are still luxuriously shocking.
Next to the ward is a separate suite connected to it.In the locker room attached to the bedroom, the huge floor-to-ceiling mirror completely presents my figure after the operation:
I untied my sick clothes, and my lower body was densely wrapped in bandages in the huge glass. The small bandage volume under my crotch seemed to indicate the fact that something no longer exists in my body.
The line of vision gradually fell on the chest, and there were two ups and downs, with a slight swelling.
I subconsciously touched it, and the touch was some kind of elastic medical clothing. At the same time, there were small wounds covered with gauze on each side of the armpit.
I remembered what Brother Zhe said to me in the ward before general anesthesia:
To avoid the feminization of androgens that interfere with your body, your testicles will be removed surgically.In the future, just take low doses of estrogen orally to maintain your body and even become more feminine.Another effect of female hormones is that it will further increase the collagen and fat content in your body's skin.
Since boys' bodies do not have the structure that girls' breasts should have, and even long-term estrogen use is limited, I planned to enhance your breasts by using autologous fat, but your figure is too slim to do it directly.After you took estrogen for so long, your breasts gradually had the prototype of female breast tissue, and the increase in fat mass in other parts of the body, especially the thighs, is able to have the source of fat cells needed for the surgery.
Now that I am awakened again in the same ward, everything I originally talked about has become a reality.
In addition to the removal of the organs that secrete male hormones, I have further developed one of the most obvious sexual characteristics in the female body:
breast. But in my heart, I unexpectedly did not have the emotional ups and downs that the subject should have, as if all of this was taken for granted.
From childhood to adulthood, I believe that I am a pure heterosexual. No matter how ridiculous I can't imagine that I have sex with a man.
However, since the relationship between Xiaoying and I changed, whether it was forced or deceived, first it was Brother Zhe, then Director Zheng, and finally Johnson, I had sex with three men.
In some ways, this sense of contradiction is the crux of my deepest confusion.
Brother Zhe and Xiaoying, who accompanied me to explore sexual problems before the operation, really convinced me, and even eliminated the great anxiety before the operation.
Zhege believes that compared to the past, only male/female binary division, if gender is based on a three-dimensional spectrum formed by three dimensions, perhaps most of the people are physiological males and expectant gender, and expectant gender is also male, while sexual orientation is female, that is, pure heterosexual, but in more cases, the value and difference between these three dimensions are only in the degree.
What is more worth pondering is that among these three dimensions, the expected gender and sexual orientation directly related to personal opinions are more like a dynamic cognition that changes with life experience.
Simply put, how much a person wants to look like a man or woman, and how much the person he likes looks like a man or woman, will actually change with the situation in his life.
Brother Zhe is worthy of being a psychologist with extremely insightful hearts. His accurate psychological judgment believes that I do not want to be a 100% and physiological woman.
At best, it can only be said to be an extremely feminine third sex. This feminization between physiological male and physiological female is the state that conforms to my psychological orientation.
Therefore, the reason why the operation he planned was to simply remove the testicles as male gonads and retain my small penis that was almost the same as the female clitoris. It is not only because the artificial vaginal ostomy technology requires stripping too much nerves and muscle tissue, which makes it easy to face the risk of stickiness, infection, and greatly reduce the pleasure of sex after the operation, but also the result of careful consideration of my psychological state.
Life is a long learning process, and you can slowly experience it... The female body is very magical, and physiological and psychological changes always interact continuously.When you abandon the male pleasure of using the penis as the subject of feeling, you will gradually discover that under self-identity and physiological changes, you will be able to feel the beauty of being a woman in a more open way.
After Brother Zhe gave me a peaceful smile, he left Xiaoying beside me with me to wait for the preoperative examination report, and then left for preoperative preparations first.
Without hesitation for too long, I chose to sign my already strange name on the so-called gender reset surgery consent form.
In the pre-ansthesia preparation room, we talked about more and more about my relationship with her, how we get along in the future, and more about our future discussions.
Those intimate heart-to-heart talks are like signing a consent form. It was not until I woke up after the operation this morning that I completely realized that not only physical changes are irreversible, but since I chose Lin Yijie as before the bed last night, she will eventually become my new and only name.
From a positive perspective, compared to Xiaoying's determination to tolerate conflicts, she also doesn't want me to be left in a barren land where there is nothing in love.
What's more, I already understand that I fell in love with Lin Yijie, my beautiful and charming posture, my appearance that is highly noticed by men, and my harmless and caring image in the circle of women's friends.
After all, I was just based on my deep-rooted impression of the engraved version and the fear of uncertainty brought by others, family, and society, and I have always comforted myself with an ostrich mentality and just playing a women's clothing game.
From a negative perspective, I have lost too much in my marriage and work, and even my family may be broken by rumors.
In fact, I haven't thought of returning to my men's clothing anymore.
After the operation, it was a long and hard rehabilitation process.
In order to avoid calcification of fat implanted in the chest, Brother Zhe arranged detailed postoperative care and rehabilitation treatment, and combined with the already-exercise and dietary control, my life was even more busy.
For this reason, Xiaoying arranged a special holiday for me in the company, and carefully and obscurely released to her colleagues the news that I had a gender reset surgery in the hospital within the group. On the one hand, it solved the attendance problem in the next few months, and on the other hand, it further established my role as the spokesperson for the company's medical beauty image.
During the rest period, in addition to changing the wound, three groups of different rehabilitation teachers took me for postoperative massage and rehabilitation every morning, noon and evening.
After missing the effects of male hormones, I no longer need to rely on high-dose progesterone that has a greater burden on my body, and instead replace it with quantitative oral medications.
On the other hand, the prolactin injections injected on the nipple need to continue for a period of time.
Although the process of rehabilitation and fitness is long and arduous, perhaps because it is really less obstructed by male hormones, my body changes at a speed that is almost visible to the naked eye.
Not only does the skin become shattered, the upper arms, thighs and waist gradually become slender, but the buttocks become plump and plump quickly.
Two weeks later, when the dressing under my crotch was finally taken down, I was able to witness the way my lower body looked after the stitches were removed: the sac that lacked the testicles had further atrophy, leaving almost no traces after the wound was recovered; and the penis had excess foreskin removed, showing a pink and delicate appearance.
Obviously, my lower body no longer has the symbol of a man, so naturally I don’t need a chastity belt that I had accompanied me for a while.
At this moment, there was no trace of male sign on me. When I put on the long-lost lace panties, the gentle skin touch made me tremble, and the small bulge between my legs in the mirror, wrapped in the silk panties was miraculously without any sense of incongruity.
The real sense of weight and the bulging beautiful arc on my chest are so beautiful that I can't bear to look away.
When I put on the beautiful underwear marked with a C-cup label prepared by Xiaoying for me, and tried to walk a few steps barefoot, the pretty and proud breasts on my chest were trembling with the pace. The waves of dreams came true made me excited all day long.
The originally thin and small lumps gradually became thick and three-dimensional under the continuous application of prolactin injections, and were dotted on the round and plump breasts, revealing a faint brown luster, and the center was even slightly sunken.
By any standard, it is a perfectly beautiful breast that is enough to make men fascinated.
Xiaoying decided to make an appointment for a custom-made navel ring for me, with a shiny platinum diamond pendant embedded in the smooth satin waist and abdomen, which vaguely implies a slight sense of debauchery in her pure and lovely image.
The frequent psychologist clinics are followed by the removal of the stitches.
It was not until this time that I realized that the so-called marriage consultations that I had done with Xiaoying in Zhe’s clinic have actually been an excuse for Zhe to use to open a gender identity monitoring diagnosis.
When I started my women's clothing life spontaneously, I cleverly comply with the legal provisions to implement the real life experience I needed before implementing a gender reset surgery, that is, a life that shows another gender in advance before the change of sex.
I unknowingly obtained extremely high scores in the monitoring scale and stepped into the preset net of heaven and earth step by step.
Today's psychologist consultation is a supplementary supervision of the second psychiatrist to comply with the legal provisions.
Of course, I had breast enhancement surgery and my testicles removed before the surveillance was completed.
This is not a problem for Brother Zhe, because the doctors involved in the evaluation and diagnosis are not classmates or juniors in Brother Zhe’s circle of friends, so they will naturally cooperate carefully under Brother Zhe’s operation.
Originally, under the long-term cultivation, every move was no different from that of ordinary women. However, with the rapid changes in the body after the operation, the psychological female identity was even more confidently rejuvenated from the inside out.
In Taiwan's law, today's male gender reset surgery only requires removal of the gonads, that is, the testicles. As for whether to remove them together with the penis, or even make an artificial vagina through surgery, it depends on the wishes of the surgeon.
As far as I know, some transgender people want to lose their physical sexual pleasure, they hope that their appearance will be more like a woman.Therefore, you will choose to remove the penis and plastic surgery to look like a female sexual organ.
And as Brother Zhe judged, I really don’t want to be in that state.
The most important reason is that I hope that there is still a sign of being a man in my body.
Instead of transforming into a complete woman, I prefer myself to be a feminine third sex: the excitement brought by the circumcision-cutting and soft pink penis humiliated me all the time, and I am a female shemale who voluntarily fell from her husband.
With Xiaoying's spouse as her spouse, she consulted several times in the clinic and filled outpatient departments, and obtained many standard forms. After I finally got the diagnosis provided by the doctor and obtained a pink identity card of a woman at the Household Affairs Office.
On the same day, Xiaoying also completed the divorce procedures with me.
Before we can feel happy or lost, the first thing we face is the commotion from my original family.
Although my family background is not as prominent as Xiaoying, my family is also a prominent family in the local area.
Although the relationship with the original family has long become weak after marriage due to various factors.
However, when the news of my divorce and sex change was sent back to my hometown at the same time, my father was furious and spoke to Zhou Zhi's family members, and it had nothing to do with me anymore. My mother was shocked but could not ask me what it was, and she had no choice but to accept it helplessly.
Xiaoying, who has been with me in the face of family doubts and pressure during this period, also suffered a lot.
My mother went from being reluctant to leave and caring about her daughter-in-law to knowing that she also supported my decision, and thus turned from sympathy to anger and incomprehensible verbal words, which caused Xiaoying's psychological and emotional pressure.
Therefore, there is no choice but to keep a distance from your original family and not interact with you for the time being.In order to comfort Xiaoying, I took the initiative to propose to be her wedding bridesmaid.
I think that's proof of my love for her in another form.
Although the person who took his wife away from me and also took me to explore a brand new world, he is now finally becoming a legal couple with Xiaoying. In a sense, it should be considered a true achievement, right?
Ironically, I am the bridesmaid who is about to lead the bride and groom into the venue and give blessings on the wedding day.
Our love has just changed its form, and in fact we have never left it.
It was she who developed the feminine side of my body, it was she who guided me to experience the joy of being a female, it was she who told me that I still have a chance to have a second life, and that as a woman, I can live a more exciting life.
The key point is not whether it is beautiful or not. Technology and fashion are constantly improving. There are countless beautiful women. Gradually, you will find that what can touch people in the end depends on your heart. After the family revolution finally took a break, the rest of life is still busy and compact. In addition to the existing gym training courses, breast massage, postoperative consultation and other matters have been added, Xiaoying's wedding preparations have also begun to take place in full swing.
At this time, I, who had changed my identity to Xiaoying's bridesmaid and best friend, naturally participated in the style of her customized wedding dress, wedding invitations, even wedding cakes, and even wedding meals.
In addition to these necessary red tape, under the instruction of Zhe Ge, several special but non-public activities were deliberately arranged.
Compared to my Quan Chong Xiaoying's bridesmaid, Zhe Ge invited ZhongXiang as his best man and general convener without any surprise.
To this end, we began to meet regularly to discuss the details of the banquet with our wedding consultants.
Compared to him who was unmarried, I had experienced the tiring things of the wedding once. I could only explain to him one by one the customs such as welcoming brides, farewells, pressing beds, tiles, throwing fans, etc., which may be omitted and cannot be neglected. I also need to explain to him tirelessly, such as why the merry cart cannot go back, how to arrange the wedding bride room in a hotel, etc., which seem simple but involves the face of both families.
Although my fulfilling life from morning to night really made me have no time to take into account my true feelings, the caring Xiaoying cared about all the parts that would cause me to be embarrassed when arranging the wedding with me, especially when facing her parents, my former parents-in-law, she even concealed the sexual transgender for me.
Although my former parents-in-law had complaints about their daughter's first act and then report, their attitude immediately softened after learning about Zhege's prominent position in financial power.
In addition, I was not called a filial piety and good at dancing in Yue’s family before, so I naturally would not get a trace of sympathy.
Perhaps it was because I was worried about the emotional impact Xiaoying brought to me by getting married, or because I was considerate of Xiaoying's hard work in planning the wedding, Brother Zhe took me to attend the event a lot more.
In addition to general social occasions, there are also luxury parties.
Among them, I also have a deeper understanding of my ex-wife's recent situation: the biggest impact is that Xiaoying's sexual experience has exceeded 100 in just two years.
This quickly disintegrated my last reserve. My sexual experience with only three people before the operation increased rapidly, and sex parties such as multiple Ps, and even the three kings and one descendants were all natural.
Now, my rectum is like a famous tool for serving men. While swallowing a man's penis, the force of the intestinal wall squeezing is the most perfect machine for semen squeezed, and the just-contraction of the anus stimulates the man's sensitive nerves and sprinkles thick white juices in my body.
During the sex process, I no longer use rubbing my little cock to get pleasure, but instead use my fingertips and belly to knead and press it in front of a man as embarrassedly as a woman rubbing her clitoris.
In fact, the sexual pleasure brought to me by the insertion of the rectum and the stimulation of my chest is better than the pleasure brought by simply stimulating my penis.
With the integration of the body and the mind, I am becoming more and more devoted to Lin Yijie's new identity.
Even the demand for sex is increasing.
At the party, when the man was hugging his waist and pinching his buttocks, he automatically spontaneously turned on the lewd switch, igniting the desire, and always letting the little cock hidden in his lace panties bulge, making me both excited and ashamed.
In addition, Brother Zhe specifically asked me to keep the previous shared residence with Xiaoying.
Johnson's previous behavior of disorder in front of the guard was certainly an accident, but now it has become another method of shame training:
The once-in-law home between Xiaoying and me has now become the cannon room for me and the male guest.
Whenever I was asked, wearing exposed short skirts, net stockings or open-toed high heels, etc., and when I walked across the hall with my man's hand, my neighbors looked contemptuous and disdainful, and even pulled my husband's sleeves and walked forward quickly, deliberately scolding shamelessness, chicken-making, and other behaviors. The humiliating words made me feel overwhelmed with shame. Then, on the big bed between me and Xiaoying, I took the initiative to ride on the man, acting like a real slut.
On the other hand, perhaps to fill a certain loss deep in my heart, or a mood change that I couldn't understand after the change of sex, unknowingly, the relationship between me and ZhongXiáng became a little ambiguous.
The incident started with the routine of preparing for the wedding of Brother Zhe and Xiaoying. We met and discussed at the cafe regularly.
Gradually, our topic is no longer limited to the wedding itself. First, we changed the topic and talked about interesting things such as his understanding with Brother Zhe, as well as his private interactions.
Because Brother Zhe rarely pays attention to Zhongxiu's affairs, he himself has never appeared in the wife swapping and sex parties led by Brother Zhe.
But it is unquestionable that he is Brother Zhe's best friend. Therefore, based on these uncertainties, it is difficult for me to determine how much I know about my identity and even Xiaoying's relationship. I can only infer that he must be aware of my gender.
After all, my gender issue is already a public fact in the company and even outside the world. I met him shortly after I joined the company.
However, for other parts, especially about Brother Zhe, he was somewhat cautious and afraid of saying something that shouldn't be said and he was rude.
But ZhongXiáng seemed to see my wariness and laughed at my flashing words.
Surprisingly, he was very grateful for my cultivation in IT and even my concept of business operations.
Since I was forced to stay in my previous company and suspended my salary, these things that were originally my professionalism have been put aside. When I entered the workplace again as an OL under Xiaoying's arrangement, I was just treated as a vase.
Therefore, when I found that I was serious and enthusiastic about big data and industry.
When I was 0 and so on, I felt happy from the bottom of my heart.
After all, even if it is unlikely to be used again, those professional fields that were once as natural as breathing will still feel happy when they are attracted by others' eyes.
Therefore, I naturally added a lot of favorable feelings to his interaction method.
One weekend night, when he asked me if I wanted to have dinner together and go to the movies together, I agreed in a delusion.
The promise brought me a moment of impulse, but it brought me a long-lost worry and tension: the meaning of a veritable date actually contained is not only because I was invited to act as a female character, but also because we obviously don’t understand each other enough.
After careful consideration, I chose a dark blue long strap dress and paired with a small sexy black high-heeled sandal. The style was simple and sweet, which was what I felt comfortable at ease: neither had the desire to attract people nor the intention of seductive love.
The well-dressed ZhongXiáng also acted gentle and kind. After picking me up on his spacious Mercedes-Swiss SV, she appropriately praised my outfit, and her tone was full of sincere appreciation from the bottom of her heart.
Naturally, the dinner he chose was luxurious and noble. For this reason, the store specially received it closed doors, and there were exclusive waiters and musicians to accompany him, and the chef also arranged the ingredients in detail and asked about his well-being.
And the so-called movies that followed were only two of us, and they were just exaggeratedly booking a room.
The whole night was a perfect date by the most nitpicious standards. Under the honor and courtesy, we not only had a very harmonious chat, but I was also cared for and floating in his gentlemanly demeanor.
Especially when the movie ended, he drove me back to his residence in Yangmingshan and said goodbye to me at the door, saying in a somewhat embarrassed tone that he was not a person who usually showed off his personality, but he still hoped to create some surprises for me.
For the first time, I realized what a woman is like to be full of joy.
The unreal tightness and pain between my thighs really reminded me that I no longer have men's complete sexual organs:
The last step of this entire treatment course is also the end of the plan of Brother Zhe and Xiaoying, in order to prevent the male hormones in my body from interfering with the effects of female hormone drugs.
The most important thing is to use the social concept to castrate, which symbolizes the disappearance of Lin Yingjie's male identity.
My testicles were completely removed during the operation and the foreskin that had become too long was also removed.It only leaves behind a penis that is as big as a thumb under the long-term effect of female hormones.
From then on, my body will forever lose the important organ that secretes androgens. Looking back at the feminization process of saying it is not long or short, although it is voluntary, I can't help feeling a little sad.
From women's clothing at the beginning to taking female hormone medication, the surgery was finally changed.
Finally, I can no longer look back.
I stood up with my physical discomfort and looked around.
Just like the style of other clinics in Zhege, this ward is clean and bright.
Although decoration materials that are easy to clean and sterilize are used to avoid necessary infections, they are still luxuriously shocking.
Next to the ward is a separate suite connected to it.In the locker room attached to the bedroom, the huge floor-to-ceiling mirror completely presents my figure after the operation:
I untied my sick clothes, and my lower body was densely wrapped in bandages in the huge glass. The small bandage volume under my crotch seemed to indicate the fact that something no longer exists in my body.
The line of vision gradually fell on the chest, and there were two ups and downs, with a slight swelling.
I subconsciously touched it, and the touch was some kind of elastic medical clothing. At the same time, there were small wounds covered with gauze on each side of the armpit.
I remembered what Brother Zhe said to me in the ward before general anesthesia:
To avoid the feminization of androgens that interfere with your body, your testicles will be removed surgically.In the future, just take low doses of estrogen orally to maintain your body and even become more feminine.Another effect of female hormones is that it will further increase the collagen and fat content in your body's skin.
Since boys' bodies do not have the structure that girls' breasts should have, and even long-term estrogen use is limited, I planned to enhance your breasts by using autologous fat, but your figure is too slim to do it directly.After you took estrogen for so long, your breasts gradually had the prototype of female breast tissue, and the increase in fat mass in other parts of the body, especially the thighs, is able to have the source of fat cells needed for the surgery.
Now that I am awakened again in the same ward, everything I originally talked about has become a reality.
In addition to the removal of the organs that secrete male hormones, I have further developed one of the most obvious sexual characteristics in the female body:
breast. But in my heart, I unexpectedly did not have the emotional ups and downs that the subject should have, as if all of this was taken for granted.
From childhood to adulthood, I believe that I am a pure heterosexual. No matter how ridiculous I can't imagine that I have sex with a man.
However, since the relationship between Xiaoying and I changed, whether it was forced or deceived, first it was Brother Zhe, then Director Zheng, and finally Johnson, I had sex with three men.
In some ways, this sense of contradiction is the crux of my deepest confusion.
Brother Zhe and Xiaoying, who accompanied me to explore sexual problems before the operation, really convinced me, and even eliminated the great anxiety before the operation.
Zhege believes that compared to the past, only male/female binary division, if gender is based on a three-dimensional spectrum formed by three dimensions, perhaps most of the people are physiological males and expectant gender, and expectant gender is also male, while sexual orientation is female, that is, pure heterosexual, but in more cases, the value and difference between these three dimensions are only in the degree.
What is more worth pondering is that among these three dimensions, the expected gender and sexual orientation directly related to personal opinions are more like a dynamic cognition that changes with life experience.
Simply put, how much a person wants to look like a man or woman, and how much the person he likes looks like a man or woman, will actually change with the situation in his life.
Brother Zhe is worthy of being a psychologist with extremely insightful hearts. His accurate psychological judgment believes that I do not want to be a 100% and physiological woman.
At best, it can only be said to be an extremely feminine third sex. This feminization between physiological male and physiological female is the state that conforms to my psychological orientation.
Therefore, the reason why the operation he planned was to simply remove the testicles as male gonads and retain my small penis that was almost the same as the female clitoris. It is not only because the artificial vaginal ostomy technology requires stripping too much nerves and muscle tissue, which makes it easy to face the risk of stickiness, infection, and greatly reduce the pleasure of sex after the operation, but also the result of careful consideration of my psychological state.
Life is a long learning process, and you can slowly experience it... The female body is very magical, and physiological and psychological changes always interact continuously.When you abandon the male pleasure of using the penis as the subject of feeling, you will gradually discover that under self-identity and physiological changes, you will be able to feel the beauty of being a woman in a more open way.
After Brother Zhe gave me a peaceful smile, he left Xiaoying beside me with me to wait for the preoperative examination report, and then left for preoperative preparations first.
Without hesitation for too long, I chose to sign my already strange name on the so-called gender reset surgery consent form.
In the pre-ansthesia preparation room, we talked about more and more about my relationship with her, how we get along in the future, and more about our future discussions.
Those intimate heart-to-heart talks are like signing a consent form. It was not until I woke up after the operation this morning that I completely realized that not only physical changes are irreversible, but since I chose Lin Yijie as before the bed last night, she will eventually become my new and only name.
From a positive perspective, compared to Xiaoying's determination to tolerate conflicts, she also doesn't want me to be left in a barren land where there is nothing in love.
What's more, I already understand that I fell in love with Lin Yijie, my beautiful and charming posture, my appearance that is highly noticed by men, and my harmless and caring image in the circle of women's friends.
After all, I was just based on my deep-rooted impression of the engraved version and the fear of uncertainty brought by others, family, and society, and I have always comforted myself with an ostrich mentality and just playing a women's clothing game.
From a negative perspective, I have lost too much in my marriage and work, and even my family may be broken by rumors.
In fact, I haven't thought of returning to my men's clothing anymore.
After the operation, it was a long and hard rehabilitation process.
In order to avoid calcification of fat implanted in the chest, Brother Zhe arranged detailed postoperative care and rehabilitation treatment, and combined with the already-exercise and dietary control, my life was even more busy.
For this reason, Xiaoying arranged a special holiday for me in the company, and carefully and obscurely released to her colleagues the news that I had a gender reset surgery in the hospital within the group. On the one hand, it solved the attendance problem in the next few months, and on the other hand, it further established my role as the spokesperson for the company's medical beauty image.
During the rest period, in addition to changing the wound, three groups of different rehabilitation teachers took me for postoperative massage and rehabilitation every morning, noon and evening.
After missing the effects of male hormones, I no longer need to rely on high-dose progesterone that has a greater burden on my body, and instead replace it with quantitative oral medications.
On the other hand, the prolactin injections injected on the nipple need to continue for a period of time.
Although the process of rehabilitation and fitness is long and arduous, perhaps because it is really less obstructed by male hormones, my body changes at a speed that is almost visible to the naked eye.
Not only does the skin become shattered, the upper arms, thighs and waist gradually become slender, but the buttocks become plump and plump quickly.
Two weeks later, when the dressing under my crotch was finally taken down, I was able to witness the way my lower body looked after the stitches were removed: the sac that lacked the testicles had further atrophy, leaving almost no traces after the wound was recovered; and the penis had excess foreskin removed, showing a pink and delicate appearance.
Obviously, my lower body no longer has the symbol of a man, so naturally I don’t need a chastity belt that I had accompanied me for a while.
At this moment, there was no trace of male sign on me. When I put on the long-lost lace panties, the gentle skin touch made me tremble, and the small bulge between my legs in the mirror, wrapped in the silk panties was miraculously without any sense of incongruity.
The real sense of weight and the bulging beautiful arc on my chest are so beautiful that I can't bear to look away.
When I put on the beautiful underwear marked with a C-cup label prepared by Xiaoying for me, and tried to walk a few steps barefoot, the pretty and proud breasts on my chest were trembling with the pace. The waves of dreams came true made me excited all day long.
The originally thin and small lumps gradually became thick and three-dimensional under the continuous application of prolactin injections, and were dotted on the round and plump breasts, revealing a faint brown luster, and the center was even slightly sunken.
By any standard, it is a perfectly beautiful breast that is enough to make men fascinated.
Xiaoying decided to make an appointment for a custom-made navel ring for me, with a shiny platinum diamond pendant embedded in the smooth satin waist and abdomen, which vaguely implies a slight sense of debauchery in her pure and lovely image.
The frequent psychologist clinics are followed by the removal of the stitches.
It was not until this time that I realized that the so-called marriage consultations that I had done with Xiaoying in Zhe’s clinic have actually been an excuse for Zhe to use to open a gender identity monitoring diagnosis.
When I started my women's clothing life spontaneously, I cleverly comply with the legal provisions to implement the real life experience I needed before implementing a gender reset surgery, that is, a life that shows another gender in advance before the change of sex.
I unknowingly obtained extremely high scores in the monitoring scale and stepped into the preset net of heaven and earth step by step.
Today's psychologist consultation is a supplementary supervision of the second psychiatrist to comply with the legal provisions.
Of course, I had breast enhancement surgery and my testicles removed before the surveillance was completed.
This is not a problem for Brother Zhe, because the doctors involved in the evaluation and diagnosis are not classmates or juniors in Brother Zhe’s circle of friends, so they will naturally cooperate carefully under Brother Zhe’s operation.
Originally, under the long-term cultivation, every move was no different from that of ordinary women. However, with the rapid changes in the body after the operation, the psychological female identity was even more confidently rejuvenated from the inside out.
In Taiwan's law, today's male gender reset surgery only requires removal of the gonads, that is, the testicles. As for whether to remove them together with the penis, or even make an artificial vagina through surgery, it depends on the wishes of the surgeon.
As far as I know, some transgender people want to lose their physical sexual pleasure, they hope that their appearance will be more like a woman.Therefore, you will choose to remove the penis and plastic surgery to look like a female sexual organ.
And as Brother Zhe judged, I really don’t want to be in that state.
The most important reason is that I hope that there is still a sign of being a man in my body.
Instead of transforming into a complete woman, I prefer myself to be a feminine third sex: the excitement brought by the circumcision-cutting and soft pink penis humiliated me all the time, and I am a female shemale who voluntarily fell from her husband.
With Xiaoying's spouse as her spouse, she consulted several times in the clinic and filled outpatient departments, and obtained many standard forms. After I finally got the diagnosis provided by the doctor and obtained a pink identity card of a woman at the Household Affairs Office.
On the same day, Xiaoying also completed the divorce procedures with me.
Before we can feel happy or lost, the first thing we face is the commotion from my original family.
Although my family background is not as prominent as Xiaoying, my family is also a prominent family in the local area.
Although the relationship with the original family has long become weak after marriage due to various factors.
However, when the news of my divorce and sex change was sent back to my hometown at the same time, my father was furious and spoke to Zhou Zhi's family members, and it had nothing to do with me anymore. My mother was shocked but could not ask me what it was, and she had no choice but to accept it helplessly.
Xiaoying, who has been with me in the face of family doubts and pressure during this period, also suffered a lot.
My mother went from being reluctant to leave and caring about her daughter-in-law to knowing that she also supported my decision, and thus turned from sympathy to anger and incomprehensible verbal words, which caused Xiaoying's psychological and emotional pressure.
Therefore, there is no choice but to keep a distance from your original family and not interact with you for the time being.In order to comfort Xiaoying, I took the initiative to propose to be her wedding bridesmaid.
I think that's proof of my love for her in another form.
Although the person who took his wife away from me and also took me to explore a brand new world, he is now finally becoming a legal couple with Xiaoying. In a sense, it should be considered a true achievement, right?
Ironically, I am the bridesmaid who is about to lead the bride and groom into the venue and give blessings on the wedding day.
Our love has just changed its form, and in fact we have never left it.
It was she who developed the feminine side of my body, it was she who guided me to experience the joy of being a female, it was she who told me that I still have a chance to have a second life, and that as a woman, I can live a more exciting life.
The key point is not whether it is beautiful or not. Technology and fashion are constantly improving. There are countless beautiful women. Gradually, you will find that what can touch people in the end depends on your heart. After the family revolution finally took a break, the rest of life is still busy and compact. In addition to the existing gym training courses, breast massage, postoperative consultation and other matters have been added, Xiaoying's wedding preparations have also begun to take place in full swing.
At this time, I, who had changed my identity to Xiaoying's bridesmaid and best friend, naturally participated in the style of her customized wedding dress, wedding invitations, even wedding cakes, and even wedding meals.
In addition to these necessary red tape, under the instruction of Zhe Ge, several special but non-public activities were deliberately arranged.
Compared to my Quan Chong Xiaoying's bridesmaid, Zhe Ge invited ZhongXiang as his best man and general convener without any surprise.
To this end, we began to meet regularly to discuss the details of the banquet with our wedding consultants.
Compared to him who was unmarried, I had experienced the tiring things of the wedding once. I could only explain to him one by one the customs such as welcoming brides, farewells, pressing beds, tiles, throwing fans, etc., which may be omitted and cannot be neglected. I also need to explain to him tirelessly, such as why the merry cart cannot go back, how to arrange the wedding bride room in a hotel, etc., which seem simple but involves the face of both families.
Although my fulfilling life from morning to night really made me have no time to take into account my true feelings, the caring Xiaoying cared about all the parts that would cause me to be embarrassed when arranging the wedding with me, especially when facing her parents, my former parents-in-law, she even concealed the sexual transgender for me.
Although my former parents-in-law had complaints about their daughter's first act and then report, their attitude immediately softened after learning about Zhege's prominent position in financial power.
In addition, I was not called a filial piety and good at dancing in Yue’s family before, so I naturally would not get a trace of sympathy.
Perhaps it was because I was worried about the emotional impact Xiaoying brought to me by getting married, or because I was considerate of Xiaoying's hard work in planning the wedding, Brother Zhe took me to attend the event a lot more.
In addition to general social occasions, there are also luxury parties.
Among them, I also have a deeper understanding of my ex-wife's recent situation: the biggest impact is that Xiaoying's sexual experience has exceeded 100 in just two years.
This quickly disintegrated my last reserve. My sexual experience with only three people before the operation increased rapidly, and sex parties such as multiple Ps, and even the three kings and one descendants were all natural.
Now, my rectum is like a famous tool for serving men. While swallowing a man's penis, the force of the intestinal wall squeezing is the most perfect machine for semen squeezed, and the just-contraction of the anus stimulates the man's sensitive nerves and sprinkles thick white juices in my body.
During the sex process, I no longer use rubbing my little cock to get pleasure, but instead use my fingertips and belly to knead and press it in front of a man as embarrassedly as a woman rubbing her clitoris.
In fact, the sexual pleasure brought to me by the insertion of the rectum and the stimulation of my chest is better than the pleasure brought by simply stimulating my penis.
With the integration of the body and the mind, I am becoming more and more devoted to Lin Yijie's new identity.
Even the demand for sex is increasing.
At the party, when the man was hugging his waist and pinching his buttocks, he automatically spontaneously turned on the lewd switch, igniting the desire, and always letting the little cock hidden in his lace panties bulge, making me both excited and ashamed.
In addition, Brother Zhe specifically asked me to keep the previous shared residence with Xiaoying.
Johnson's previous behavior of disorder in front of the guard was certainly an accident, but now it has become another method of shame training:
The once-in-law home between Xiaoying and me has now become the cannon room for me and the male guest.
Whenever I was asked, wearing exposed short skirts, net stockings or open-toed high heels, etc., and when I walked across the hall with my man's hand, my neighbors looked contemptuous and disdainful, and even pulled my husband's sleeves and walked forward quickly, deliberately scolding shamelessness, chicken-making, and other behaviors. The humiliating words made me feel overwhelmed with shame. Then, on the big bed between me and Xiaoying, I took the initiative to ride on the man, acting like a real slut.
On the other hand, perhaps to fill a certain loss deep in my heart, or a mood change that I couldn't understand after the change of sex, unknowingly, the relationship between me and ZhongXiáng became a little ambiguous.
The incident started with the routine of preparing for the wedding of Brother Zhe and Xiaoying. We met and discussed at the cafe regularly.
Gradually, our topic is no longer limited to the wedding itself. First, we changed the topic and talked about interesting things such as his understanding with Brother Zhe, as well as his private interactions.
Because Brother Zhe rarely pays attention to Zhongxiu's affairs, he himself has never appeared in the wife swapping and sex parties led by Brother Zhe.
But it is unquestionable that he is Brother Zhe's best friend. Therefore, based on these uncertainties, it is difficult for me to determine how much I know about my identity and even Xiaoying's relationship. I can only infer that he must be aware of my gender.
After all, my gender issue is already a public fact in the company and even outside the world. I met him shortly after I joined the company.
However, for other parts, especially about Brother Zhe, he was somewhat cautious and afraid of saying something that shouldn't be said and he was rude.
But ZhongXiáng seemed to see my wariness and laughed at my flashing words.
Surprisingly, he was very grateful for my cultivation in IT and even my concept of business operations.
Since I was forced to stay in my previous company and suspended my salary, these things that were originally my professionalism have been put aside. When I entered the workplace again as an OL under Xiaoying's arrangement, I was just treated as a vase.
Therefore, when I found that I was serious and enthusiastic about big data and industry.
When I was 0 and so on, I felt happy from the bottom of my heart.
After all, even if it is unlikely to be used again, those professional fields that were once as natural as breathing will still feel happy when they are attracted by others' eyes.
Therefore, I naturally added a lot of favorable feelings to his interaction method.
One weekend night, when he asked me if I wanted to have dinner together and go to the movies together, I agreed in a delusion.
The promise brought me a moment of impulse, but it brought me a long-lost worry and tension: the meaning of a veritable date actually contained is not only because I was invited to act as a female character, but also because we obviously don’t understand each other enough.
After careful consideration, I chose a dark blue long strap dress and paired with a small sexy black high-heeled sandal. The style was simple and sweet, which was what I felt comfortable at ease: neither had the desire to attract people nor the intention of seductive love.
The well-dressed ZhongXiáng also acted gentle and kind. After picking me up on his spacious Mercedes-Swiss SV, she appropriately praised my outfit, and her tone was full of sincere appreciation from the bottom of her heart.
Naturally, the dinner he chose was luxurious and noble. For this reason, the store specially received it closed doors, and there were exclusive waiters and musicians to accompany him, and the chef also arranged the ingredients in detail and asked about his well-being.
And the so-called movies that followed were only two of us, and they were just exaggeratedly booking a room.
The whole night was a perfect date by the most nitpicious standards. Under the honor and courtesy, we not only had a very harmonious chat, but I was also cared for and floating in his gentlemanly demeanor.
Especially when the movie ended, he drove me back to his residence in Yangmingshan and said goodbye to me at the door, saying in a somewhat embarrassed tone that he was not a person who usually showed off his personality, but he still hoped to create some surprises for me.
For the first time, I realized what a woman is like to be full of joy.
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