Chapter 2

Now 32 years old, I have been looking for a cure for my low sperm survival rate. I have tried many methods recommended by doctors, but it still has not improved. I have also visited famous hospitals in major cities. The final result was all in vain. However, my beloved wife Chen Xue did not complain about my condition. Instead, she has always encouraged me, comforted me, told me not to give up, there will always be solutions.

This is also my only source of spiritual support, so I am also optimistic about facing this matter. If I hadn't had my wife's comfort and encouragement, I might have collapsed long ago.

As I grow older, my beloved wife Chen Xue and I have less and less sex. Now it’s good to have sex twice a month. I feel that it’s not as good as before. My body is like being hollowed out, and my desire for sex is getting lower and lower. I remember when I first got married with my wife, I could have more than twice a week. On average, it can maintain more than half an hour each time. The sex life between husband and wife is very harmonious, but now the number of times I have sex with my wife has been greatly reduced a lot every month, and it is difficult to maintain more than 1 minute of sex with my wife Chen Xue every time. Is this because I am old?

Can't do it?

Or is it that the negative psychological pressure brought to me by the low sperm survival rate has led to my sexual dysfunction and my sexual desire has been extremely reduced?

Perhaps this is true, but it does not completely rule out that the long-term sexual life between couples is too dull and boring, and gradually there is no freshness as before, and there is also a lot of sources of stimulation.

Chen Xue has never mentioned these wives, nor has she blamed me, and she has always been so gentle and considerate to me, which makes me feel a little guilty and feels too sorry for her wife Chen Xue. Now she is 29 years old, in her golden age for women. She is both young and beautiful, with a slight maturity. She must be very strong and vigorous in terms of sexual desire, but she has never been released or relieved, and she has no idea about her inner emotions and difficulties.

But I never dared to ask her these questions, so I ignored her feelings. As a man, I cannot make my beloved woman happy. It is really a failure. I have never even said words to comfort my wife. I know that it is because I am not able to satisfy her, so why should I comfort my wife's feelings?

That would only make her more painful, and some words could only be hidden in her heart, allowing herself to silently bear the guilt of being ashamed of her wife.

Actually, I really envy those men with strong energy and vitality, and their strong bodies are very envious. I guess it is not just me. If it were a wife, she would definitely be very eager to have such a strong body to satisfy her desires. All this is just my guess. Then again, how many women don’t desire such men?

Even if my wife Chen Xue is not that kind of woman, how can I know what she really thinks in her heart?

So all of this thinking logic is just deceiving myself. When I think of this, my heart suddenly felt very painful, just like a cold steel needle piercing my heart. I even felt a little inexplicably scared, which made me dare not continue to guess.

Since I entered society at the age of 2, I have devoted all my thoughts to my career, go out early and come back late, and am physically and mentally exhausted. I have never thought that I should exercise my body appropriately in normal times, which will help the healthy development of physical and mentally.

I completely ignored this, which led to my current size of only 1.75 meters and a weight of 6 kilograms. I was completely thin and had no muscle at all. The only thing that could satisfy and proud was my handsome face, otherwise I would not have chased my wife Chen Xue so smoothly.

Give up my strong body and exchange for career and family, and I have a beautiful wife. Although I am thin and weak, I am very satisfied with the current situation. After all, I am 32 years old now and am used to this rhythm of life. It is not realistic to let me take time to exercise every day. Moreover, I don’t like exercise at first, and my only hobby is to stay at home and play games to relieve my fatigue.

Time has passed and there is no longer any more. All I can do in front of me is to use other ways to make up for my guilt towards my wife, and at the same time, it can also make myself feel better and feel at ease!

Time passed, and another 3 years passed in a blink of an eye. It has been six years since we got married. Although I have accepted the fact that sexual decline is reduced, the tenderness between my wife and I are also weakening. We are busy with our own careers, and we seem to have forgotten the mission of having children and have few ambiguous contacts.

The reason for all this is caused by me. I am really hateful and angry, but what is even more hateful is that the neighbors in the community often discuss our family affairs, just like it is common, which makes me embarrassed every time I see the neighbors in the community very embarrassed and even unable to raise my head. I bear the strange eyes of everyone, which makes me feel ashamed. In the end, I have no choice but to move, change the environment, change the mood, and stay away from this place of right and wrong.

When my wife Chen Xue and I mentioned moving, she completely agreed with my proposal without saying a word and said she wanted to change to a bigger house.

I can see that she must be the same as me, and she doesn't want to bear the strange eyes and ridicule of the neighbors in the community. But she didn't say it clearly, but I understand that my wife doesn't want me to have more negative pressure. For me, my wife also suffered a lot of pressure, which immediately made me feel a little sorry for her. I hope that a change of environment can cheer up my wife and I.

One weekend when my wife Chen Xue was resting, I drove her to a high-end community introduced by a friend to see the house. After we arrived here, we found out that this place was a villa residential area. Most of the people living here were senior officials in government agencies or big bosses doing business. The entire community was divided into four major areas: ABCD. Each area has 8 villas, and they are all three-story ones. Each household has a large courtyard and a swimming pool, and an underground garage. Each household has the same apartment type. It seems that this place is really good. With our current savings, buying the next household is not a problem.

After discussion and selection by my wife and I, we finally decided to buy a house with the most side in Area C, because most of them were bought by others, and even Area A and Area B were fully occupied. Area D was too far behind, and only Area C was in line with our wishes. I personally am not used to having residents on both sides, so I chose the house with the most side, because I think it is quieter and more suitable for both of us to live.

After that, I paid the full amount to buy it. My wife was very happy. It can be seen that she was very satisfied with it. So what I had to do next is to decorate our new home. This important task naturally fell on me. After all, I am from the computer industry and I have to take on many engineering work. Moreover, my wife also has to teach and can only come to help on weekends. So my wife gave me the right to decorate, and I personally designed it to create a perfect brand new home.