Chapter 84 Madness and Enlightenment

Sister?

Wei Xiaoyi was shocked. Unexpectedly, Ji Moshu suddenly burst into tears. What has he experienced?

She took out a handkerchief and wiped the tears from Ji Moshu's face clumsyly, but the tears seemed to break the dam. The more they wiped, the more they were mixed with the dirty mud. The more they wiped their face, the dirtier they became, and she became more and more busy.

Ji Moshu kept saying nothing. She cried silently, too desperate, and always felt that she was born to endure hardships.

When God is about to give a great responsibility to this person, he must first suffer his mind and mind, exhaust his muscles and bones, starve his body, and be empty. Compared with her past experience, it seems that he is almost inseparable.

Her life is like a handful of coptis chinensis. After it is extremely bitter, people can always taste a hint of sweetness in a trance. However, after waking up, the confusing "sweetness" can only turn into a dreamy shadow in memory. It is far away in the sky, visible but not touched. Reality will once again cruelly wake up the whimsical people.

Coptis chinensis, that is bitter, so how can it be sweet?

Okay, it's okay, don't worry, I have already drafted a notice and will be assigned to every village in Qingzhou today. I believe there will be clues about the head of the Ji family in the near future.Now go back to the county government office first, eat something and take a rest, and don’t ruin your body.Gu Wanyue thought Ji Moshu was worried, so she comforted her.

Um.

Ji Mo snorted softly as an agreement. Her back was slightly hunched, her figure was thin, her hair was disheveled, and her mud was scattered on her body. Her originally neat clothes were messy and dilapidated, and all the money and valuable accessories were missing. It was obvious that she let the beggar go when she was sleeping in the alley last night.

At this time, she was walking steadily, as if she had grown a lot of years old.

Wei Xiaoyi felt very uncomfortable, but she didn't ask too much, but just kept supporting Ji Moshu's trembling body.

An hour later, Ji Moshu was served to drink some hot soup and then fell asleep.

Gu Wanyue asked Wei Xiaoyi to take care of him while he went to deal with the affairs of the yamen.Wei Xiaoyi saw Ji Moshu's desperate appearance in her eyes. She grabbed Gu Wanyue's sleeves and her eyes were red.

Sister Gu...

It's okay, she's just hit, just let her sleep.Gu Wanyue's eyes were also blue. Ji Moshu looked like she was the same as she used to be. Wei Xiaoyi was also like her once during this period. These descendants of kings, princes, generals and ministers became hostages who were called heaven and earth, but people like her who had no background could be more free.

It is precisely because of this that she needs to give full play to her abilities and strive for maximum initiative.

Uh-huh.

You are here to wait. I will prepare some food. She guessed that she should eat something when she woke up.

good.

After Gu Wanyue left, Wei Xiaoyi gently looked at Ji Moshu's sleeping face. Even when he fell asleep, his eyebrows were frowning, and the inner demon was still there.

They are all people who don’t like to compete, but they are pushed away by the current situation during this period. After a while, they are already exhausted, and they are also trapped in a field where tigers fall into the sun and are bullied by dogs.

Good fortune is messing with people.

One day later.

Ji Moshu actually slept for a day and a night. When he woke up, he didn't feel relaxed and was still exhausted.

She felt that she was getting tired and sometimes she even wanted to sleep, so she didn't have to worry about these bad things.

But now, what you need to face is still to face.

Come on, drink some, it will be good for you.Gu Wanyue came over with a bowl of Anshen Soup. Ji Moshu did not take it, but looked at the bowl of soup quietly without saying a word.

Thinking she was still stubborn, Gu Wan advised, "Drink some, you can get better after drinking, and you can get the energy to solve the problem."

Solve the problem?Ji Moshu still didn't take the medicine, but raised his eyes and looked at Gu Wan with a strange look. He asked back, his voice was already faintly cold and ironic.

Yes, you haven't eaten for almost two days. The doctor said you are busy with your car and need to raise your energy before you can get the strength to find the head of the Ji family, right?Gu Wanyue persuaded her earnestly, and she put the bowl to Ji Moshu's mouth and tried to let someone drink the medicine.

However……

Ji Moshu, who was originally silent and calm, suddenly became excited. Her eyes were angry and she raised her hand to slap off the porcelain bowl.

Bang!

After a crisp sound, the porcelain bowl fell to the ground and split into pieces, and all the medicine inside was sprinkled out.

Sister!Wei Xiaoyi was startled and she quickly pulled Ji Moshu away, afraid that the broken porcelain pieces would pierce Ji Moshu's hand.

Ji Moshu pushed Wei Xiaoyi away with one hand, his eyes were red, and the whites of his eyes were covered with dense bloodshots. The terrifying blood color made her eyes look bloodthirsty, which looked particularly terrifying. Even Wei Xiaoyi did not dare to approach her. This was the first time he had seen her like this.

She sneered, how to solve it?

Moshu...

If you solve this, you will have a second one. If you solve this, you will have a third one. These problems are staring at me like flies, and you are so annoyed. Do you know where the problem lies?The problem has never been due to my lack of effort to find a solution, but to my damn identity and damn interference!Ji Moshu suddenly stood up and yelled at Gu Wanyue at the top of his lungs.

Even a donkey knows to pull the mill properly, but I have to work hard to prove something. I always feel that as long as I try to break free from the reins, I can become a master. Until now, the reins tighten my neck. It is me, I am so stupid. I am even stupider than the donkey that pulls the mill.It is me who is ignorant of the world, it is me who attempts to become a big tree that my tribe members rely on, it is me who overestimates myself and even shamelessly falls in love with someone I shouldn’t like.If I had known this, I would have stayed in the acre of three-point land in Yuzhou. I would never have ended up in the field that I can only hold mermaid meat like this for the rest of my life!

She was so excited that her handsome little face turned red, her eyes were filled with tears, and her roar at the top of her lungs made her look like an evil ghost crawling out of the ground, making her cry in the underworld crying with tears in her heart.

The throat was hoarse because of the long dryness. Every time she roared, it would be like a knife cutting in the throat, cutting her throat more and more. But she seemed to be unable to feel the pain, and became more and more hysterical until the sound gradually disappeared, and she could no longer roar, and instead let out intermittent lament.

Ah, sister... Wei Xiaoyi was frightened. She was pushed and fell directly to the ground. Her delicate palm was cut by broken porcelain pieces. But Ji Moshu, who had always been gentle, was now covered up by violence. He didn't even look at her, and was still crazy like a thug.

Mo Shu, calm down.Gu Wanyou quickly pulled Wei Xiaoyi up and protected him behind him, but Ji Moshu still did not calm down.

Ji Moshu started to smash and smash it wildly. She went crazy. She kicked the broken porcelain pieces on the ground and flew around, then picked up the stool and smashed it hard on the bed.

The wooden tables, chairs, beds and beds could not withstand such huge impacts. They broke in an instant, and the wood chips flew, and the room was full of crackling sounds.

Ji Moshu!Gu Wanyue suddenly bumped into the wall like crazy when she saw Ji Moshu, and her body was covered with bruises, as if she was crazy.

When Ji Moshu was about to hit the wall again, as if she was trying to commit suicide, she rushed up and the two of them actually fought together.

Come!Someone is here!

Wei Xiaoyi screamed loudly, and Ji Moshu actually fought with Gu Wanyue.

Naturally, Gu Wanyue would not really hit Ji Moshu, so she could only passively avoid Ji Moshu's attack, and soon her face turned glamorous.

The servants of the county government rushed in in a swarm and finally rescued Gu Wanyue, but Ji Moshu was already in tears. She knelt on the ground, tears mixed with blood dripping, shocking.

When Gu Wanyue was cautiously trying to step forward, Ji Moshu suddenly became angry again. She pushed everyone away and rushed out.

Lord Gu?

Forget it, it’s okay to let her calm down alone, you can clean it up here.

Gu Wanyue sighed, then turned around and helped Wei Xiaoyi up.

Seeing that this room could not be sat down, Gu Wanyue had to take Wei Xiaoyi to another room.

During this period, Wei Xiaoyi basically lived in the county government office. She took care of this little girl with rich clothes and food every day, but she had a great experience. She was already twenty-three years old and had not married yet. In fact, she liked this little girl very much. However, the girl was born with a noble family and was a mere county magistrate of Qingzhou. She could not stand up, so she could only learn from Ji Moshu and become another 'sister'.

Why did Sister become like this?It won't be a problem, right?Wei Xiaoyi was almost paralyzed. Ji Moshu's appearance just now was really scary.

It won’t be a problem, calm down and figure it out and it will pass.Gu Wanyou comforted her.

Um.Wei Xiaoyi murmured, still feeling unsure.

She also experienced a lot during this period and had long lost her former arrogant attitude.

In Qingzhou, she realized what it means to call the sky and the earth should not be called the earth. She was really scared when she was in danger in the granary before, and she almost ran away to escape. At that time, she had only one idea in her mind, to find Gu Wanyue to save people.

The feeling of despair and running around reminded her that the emperor was far away. Here, even the emperor could not speak, let alone her. She could not help Ji Moshu, nor could she help.

However……

Gu Wanyue and Wei Xiaoyi thought Ji Moshu would come back after going out to calm down, but Ji Moshu never came back. Like Master Ji, Ji Moshu disappeared again.

Ji Moshu sat by the deserted lake, her tears had already dried up, and the tears and mud were solidified on her face and her skin. Whenever she blinked, she would pull her skin open.

She felt very disappointed that what happened last night was undoubtedly the last straw that crushed faith.

She used to always want to prove herself, be ambitious and want to make a career for her family and hometown. She was really confused and had no self-knowledge.

Now think about it, why do you prove yourself by pleasing others?

Or is she proving what?

Prove that she is excellent?

Prove that she can be used by others?

Why is it so lowly?

She wanted to go home and didn't want to get involved in the intrigues here anymore.

She always wants to climb up to become the pride of her parents and the pride of the person she cares about, but she ignores the most important point: there are mountains outside the mountain and there are people outside.

No matter how she struggles, she can only become a fish on the chopping board, and others make a knife.

Anyone can come up to trample on her, whether it is an official, Su Niang, the emperor, or even the mysterious woman who only met one last night.

These people with different forces came to her because of her relationship with Su Niang, treating her as a bargaining chip for negotiations with Su Niang. She was like a piece of meat, and was eaten by others, but her relatives became bargaining chips that threatened her.

This is... If she is just a civilian, even if she is just a stupid donkey who pulls the mill, she will eventually die from the mill after pulling the mill for a lifetime. Will the donkey cry?

Maybe not, donkey doesn't understand it at all.

If she chooses again, she doesn't want to understand too many principles or read too many books. She just needs to follow the rules and numbly circles like a donkey pulling a mill.

But she was not. She was still self-righteous, she wanted to promote the Ji family and compete for that ridiculous anger in front of Su Niang.

In the end, he became more and more like a puppet with a thread.

In the past, I imagined that a carp leaped over the dragon gate and died without failing to succeed. For this, I still ridiculously thought that whether it was a time to be crushed by power or one day to be reborn and be able to support one side, becoming a legend sung by the world.

However, what is most lacking in this world are such heroic legends. But now when you think about it from another perspective, it seems that for the dead, you can only helplessly classify your life experience into the word "Legend". After all, most of the time, it is just touching yourself, and people in the world don't care so much.

Just like the people in the southern cities, the people of Yuzhou have circulated the trade between the south and the north for generations, which has driven the livelihoods of many people. But in the end, they just need to use a few tricks to assist with rumors. The diligent past is like a passing cloud and smoke, and no one cares about it. The Henan merchants have turned and become a charity who has achieved success and helps the world.

I have spent half my life pleasing others, pleasing my parents, pleasing my wives and children, pleasing the powerful, and even overestimating my own delusions to please the ignorant people in the world.

She was indeed out of reach.

I'm tired of it, and I'm also fading.

From now on, she just wants to please herself.