Preface

The background first explains the personal situation. The post-80s generation, from Xiaoshan Village, has been separated from each other by many parents. On the one hand, the local economy is really not good, and there is no way out. My father has switched to the field of transportation engineering to make a living early; on the other hand, my mother is really good at raising her care needs in the tide of working in the middle of the population. Although it is not a big deal (often just a glance), she is diligent and careful. She gradually gained fame in helping the elderly in the neighborhood clean, purchase, and purchase affairs. The nearby villages also slowly seek her help. The benefits of care fees, gifts, and red envelopes also come with it. This makes our family the group that gets better quickly in the village. It has been expanded into a small villa in the village very early, but it also indirectly leads to us not moving out of the village and missing the opportunity to get rich in urban real estate.

Due to the lack of educational resources, I personally have been boarding at the school and my aunt's house since junior high school. I was lucky enough to study in a good school all the way, and my development was pretty good; because I watched the ascension brought by the city kids in the family during my growth, like playing a game console and others were desperate for me... I have always felt inferior and unfair in my heart, and then this mentality was magnified in the larger world of undergraduate studies. In addition to being silent about my family background, I often use the reasons of busy studies, social practice, internships, etc. during holidays, or just stay for a few days. Even if my family members take me as an example. In this immature mentality, I am so together with my family.

When I failed to apply for graduate school and was hammered by reality like a dog with no way out, I returned to the small mountain village that only appeared on occasional phone calls.