Chapter 1

4days ago traverse Novels 2
I stood next to the fence on the top floor, and the cold wind blew dry the tears on my face. After despair and pain, I felt relaxed.

Looking at the crowd gathering like an ant colony downstairs, the faces looking up one by one, panic, excited, and sad. I could see all kinds of things in the world. I could hear a vague shouting. I don’t know if I want me to jump or not.

I finally became the focus of people's attention. I opened my arms and enjoyed the slackness and dizziness after being exhausted physically and mentally.

With a bang, the rooftop door was knocked open, and besides the building security guard, Fei'e also stumbled out.

Qin Yan, what are you doing!Fei'e was panting violently. Although she was embarrassed, she was still pure and beautiful. Although the anxiety in her eyes betrayed her, she was still trying to maintain calmness and elegance.

It's Ah. From childhood to adulthood, Fei'e has always been so outstanding. She has always been the object of attention and the goal of pursuit. No one can resist her purity and beauty. Her cold and elegant temperament makes men try their best to conquer. The title of Iceberg Goddess has been with her since junior high school. I don't know how many men are dreaming about her. Even at this moment when life is at stake, the middle-aged security guard next to her cannot avoid quietly setting his eyes on Fei'e's violently undulating breasts.

Haha, you are here.I smiled desolately, and finally faced Fei'e's eyes for the first time in my life. There was no longer the shyness and dodge in the eyes of the past. The hot gaze made Fei'e feel strange and uncomfortable. This was not Qin Yan she was familiar with. From childhood to adulthood, Qin Yan would only continue to follow and apologize, and would always shrink in her beautiful shadow, but dare not touch the beauty itself.

Stop making trouble. Today's matter is something I don't think about. I shouldn't scold you so directly. Come here, let's go back, and slowly get rid of those problems together. I will definitely work hard with you.Fei'e tried to persuade her in a gentle and calm tone.

No, you are right, Fei'e. I stared at my girlfriend's face that fell in love with all living beings. I was wrong, but I couldn't change it. Fei'e, I realized how shocking your beauty is when I was 9 years old. I vowed to protect this beauty, but I was too tired to keep it. Your beauty is like a mountain, which makes me so humble and weak. Sometimes I even hate you, hate this beauty that is hard to see in the world. I yearn for it and fear it. I want to destroy it more and more. I want to pull you down from the sky and make you a mortal like me. I looked up at the dark clouds, and a strange smile oozed out of the corner of my mouth. Today you finally saw the real me, an ugly, evil, and vulgar me, but you don’t know that this ugly, evil, and vulgar me has been with you for twenty years. It grows with your beauty. The more you are, the better you are, the more I am, the more I can’t control the devil in my heart.

Fei'e looked at my painful and twisted face and felt extremely panicked. She felt as if she was going to lose something indispensable in her life, so she slowly moved forward. It's okay, it's okay, Qin Yan, I understand your pain, I will help you, I am yours, my beauty is also yours, you can do whatever you want.I can't lose you, Qin Yan, you said you are my shadow, you will be with me forever, I am also Ah, how can I lose my shadow, I love you, Qin Yan, no matter how ugly you are, I swear, I will never dislike you again, let's be fine together, okay?

I looked at my girlfriend's little movements and remembered the cold words of Fei'e when the secret was discovered: Qin Yan, I know that boys have the habit of browsing adult websites, and I also know that as my girlfriend, I have not fully taken care of your needs, but what are you watching?"Insulting My Girlfriend"!"Expose your girlfriend"!What the hell are you thinking?You and I grew up together. I have never been sorry for you, but you don’t cherish me at all!You are so disgusting!Go back to the dormitory and reflect carefully. If I find out that you see these things, let’s break up!I began to retreat and pushed to the fence. Fei'e, you don't understand. I'm already helpless. For so many years, fear and desire have penetrated into my bones. Only by hurting you in my fantasy can I get venting and peace.I have long been unable to deserve your beauty. Leaving you is my liberation in life, but I cannot bear the pain of losing you. So, let me die and start your beautiful life.I looked at Fei'e for the last time nostalgic and fell backwards.

don't want!Fei'e rushed to the fence and saw my rapidly falling figure. The crowd quickly dispersed. I fell on the ground like a piece of burnt charcoal, splitting and spreading red rapidly, as if the unburned torch was the last sprinkle of life.

The beautiful scenes of this life flashed in front of Fei'e's eyes

Concubine, my dad said I am an 8-year-old man and should protect you.

Concubine Fei, Mo Mo and Sanpang in the class all said that you are the princess in the forest and want to save you home as a bride. You tell them tomorrow that you have been rescued by me long ago and will be my bride in the future. Can you?

Concubine, I may have to go to junior college, but I still belong to the same city as you, and you can find mine at any time.

Concubine, don’t be angry. I’m not those scumbags. I will wait for you. When you get married to me, we will be together again. But let me declare first that I am a normal man. Don’t get me wrong, haha.

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There is Qin Yan all around, and Qin Yan is around you at every happy moment. Everything has his taste. You are my shadow..., Fei'e murmured.

It turns out that love lasts too long and will become traceless, and it will only hurt when it is lost.

It seemed as if the pain of the soul being cut off a piece made Fei'e breathless.

I am so stupid. How could I dislike my own shadow? He is dark and ugly. So what? What's the point of my beauty and everything about me without him?

Yan, if there is a next life, even in hell, I will follow you.

Fei'e jumped, and the corners of her white skirt flew, like a gray moth, pounced on the dazzling red...

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Bang!The sound of heavy objects falling to the ground sounded, and I opened my eyes suddenly, sweat wet my back.

What's going on?

This gray room, a narrow single bed, a shabby fan, and a cat who escaped after getting into trouble.

Where is this?

Didn’t I jumped?

Is it just a nightmare?

I lifted the quilt, huh?

Why do your legs and hands become thinner?

Did I become a ghost and take over someone else’s body?

I quickly got out of bed. There was a dressing mirror on the closet in the room. I stared blankly at myself in the mirror. It turned out that it was you, Qin Xiaoyan.

I can't figure out how old I am in the mirror now, but I can be sure that it must be my childhood self. That timid and cowardly look has always been the focus of Concubine's contempt.

When I opened the door, memories came to my face. The decoration style of the early 21st century was indeed too criticized. A fat man was sitting on the sofa in the living room and was picking his feet. Tang, cousin?, I am not sure if this is the fat man in my memory. After all, I haven’t seen each other again in the past twenty years, and my childhood appearance has blurred my memory.

Uh, woke up Ah?The fat man looked up at him, are you two sleeping gods coming down to earth?From 1 noon to 4 o'clock, I have watched two movies, and I am very bored.The fat man's voice is low. Your childhood sweetheart is here, and I don't dare to turn on the computer to surf the Internet. The serialization of the forum must have been updated. When will she leave? My parents are not here, we just read the novel Ah happily.

The memory gradually became clearer. I understood the time now. In 2003, when he was 9 years old, this cousin, who was 6 years older than himself, and a fat man nicknamed the rogue pig in the countryside, spent the whole holiday at his home. It was this cousin who was naturally vulgar. He used the adult experience learned from the street Internet cafes. This summer, he brought Qin Xiaoyan into the path of no return to the pornographic forum. The ** Time Forum he advocated not only ripened the young people's sexual views in the next two years, but also made the young people feel strong stimulation and shock.

Although the Internet Cleaning Operation many years later destroyed this platform, my deep green mentality, which is difficult to return, began here, and became deeper and deeper.

Cousin, what day is it today?

How do I know what day I don’t have to go to school?The fat man looked at the clock on the wall. August 10th, what happened?

On the 10th, which means that it has been more than a month off. It seems that the fat man has taught everything he should have taught. When looking at the few balls of suspicious toilet paper in the trash can, he must have even learned how to masturbate.

I recalled the first time I masturbated under the guidance of the fat man, and I went through so much trouble that I could ejaculate a little bit of transparent liquid, and my admiration for the fat man's glans and pubic hair that was beginning to develop. I couldn't help but be amused by my childishness at that time.

No matter what date he is doing, anyway, school will start half a month anyway, so we have to hurry up and call your childhood sweetheart. Didn’t she say she still have to go back to do her homework? She sent us away to surf the Internet.The fat man seemed to be unable to hold on for a long time and was ready to move.

Yes, it's 2003. Fei'e and I are both 9-year-old children. We live up and downstairs. We are together every day during the summer vacation. Fei'e is responsible for supervising me to do my homework. In order to go out to play mahjong, my lazy parents simply packed up a bedroom to take a nap for Fei'e alone. At the same time, they urged my cousin and I to take a nap. But I squeezed a single bed with a fat man and I couldn't sleep. This fat man sneaked out to watch a movie while there was no movement in the next bedroom.

I was about to take a closer look at the situation at home when suddenly a shrill shout came from the bedroom, "No!".

I looked at the fat man, and the fat man and I quickly knocked on the bedroom door, "Fei Fei, what's wrong? Are you awake?"No one responded.

Not that it’s a ghost to put on the bed, right?The fat man muttered.

I was anxious and turned the handle directly and pushed open the door.

I saw a little girl with pink makeup lying on the bed, her body trembling constantly, sweat wet her forehead bangs, and her lips trembled.

I quickly shook her arm, "Father Concubine, Father Concubine, wake up."The concubine did not respond at all.

I was so anxious that I turned around and asked my cousin, what should I do?Is she a nightmare?But I saw my cousin's eyes floating, and he didn't answer in a daze.

Why is this abnormal?!

I pushed my cousin, what should I do?Talk quickly!My cousin realized that it was okay, just wipe your face with a wet towel.I quickly went to the bathroom to get a wet towel and gently wiped the concubine's face.

After a while, the concubine gradually calmed down and stopped trembling. I breathed a sigh of relief. Suddenly, my cousin was surprised that she had not moved for the past half day. When she turned around, she saw that the fat man's face was red, her eyes were floating, and her forehead was sweating. There was a tent on her shorts.

What's going on?

I followed the fat man's gaze and was stunned.

It turned out that when the two came in, Feifei had already pushed the quilt away. The summer afternoon was hot, Feifei only wore a small vest and underwear that was short to the nap. The cute pink beautiful girl's briefs tightly wrapped around the thighs of the 9-year-old girl. The little girl's bulging private parts were tightly clamped between the two pink and white long legs, without any gap. With the trembling body and the moving thighs, a small gap was in the middle of the underwear, which slightly showed the shape of Feifei's vagina. With the girl's flat and snow-white belly, smooth and delicate naked shoulders and fairness above her chest, such a gorgeous and tender female body made me and my cousin speechless for a moment.

Originally, my cousin was very annoyed because of the homework supervision and strong lessons of Feifei's, and never thought of pornographic things on the forum with Feifei. But a few days ago, I just read a group of novels about girls rape. In addition, Feifei is much more beautiful than ordinary little girls. The sexy feeling revealed at this time is something that many adults don't have. The fat man was eager to read the updated pornographic novel, and suddenly found that there was a half-nude girl in front of him who was more seductive than described in the novel. Fat brother Chu was immediately absent from his speech, and only looked at the beauty in front of him greedily, and the desire began to burn.

I felt extremely complicated and could have lived a life again. While feeling relieved, I thought that I must live a wonderful life, and I could no longer be as cowardly as I did in the previous life. The demons in the heart must be eradicated and we must never repeat the same mistakes.

Unexpectedly, after a while, I woke up, I saw the beautiful body that I had never seen until my death. If the concubines in the previous life saw the situation at this time, I would have been slapped in anger in the face. How could I feel satisfied with quietly appreciating the beauty at this time?

But the fat man who was sweating all over my body made me feel extremely conflicted. My lover's pure body and even the underage teenage body were being desecrated by the fat man's eyes. I was angry, but I felt a sense of soreness and a rapid heartbeat. The scene I had imagined countless times when I visited the forum in my previous life really appeared. This scene far exceeded the stimulation of the cuckold novels to me.

Just when I was in a state of discomfort, Concubine slowly opened her eyes. She looked around in confusion. Finally, when she saw me, from doubt, to hesitation, Concubine sat up and reached out to stroke my face. Are you... Qin Yan?

This is a sleeping nightmare and not awake yet. Don’t you know anyone anymore?

I hurriedly held Feifei's hand, Feifei, you just went over the nightmare. Fortunately, my cousin and I woke you up. Don't be afraid, just drink some water and take a shower.

Cousin?Only then did Concubine notice the fat man next to me, and her confusing eyes made me feel distressed.

Concubine, please put on your clothes and take a shower first, don’t get a cold when you sweat.

After being reminded, the concubine saw the situation clearly. The two boys were in their room and were only wearing underwear. Ah!You guys go out quickly!A scream scared the fat man and I out of the bedroom.