Chapter 21 Breakup (1)

I woke up alone on a cold and cold morning, but there was no Tan Rui by my side.

I don't know when she left me, but I had a vague premonition in my heart, which made me feel upset.

After a nightmare last night, I told Tan Rui the story of Qiqi and me and shed tears. I was worried that Tan Rui would have some strange views on me.

I remember when I was in the "Tianya Mingyue" group report "Sanchu" that my first night was still preserved and I was going to leave it to my fiancée.

But I believe that after I had sex with Tan Rui, she should know that I was not a virgin, just as I knew she was not a virgin.

In fact, how many people will tell their true privacy online, and how many people will care about what others say is true or false.

I don’t need to worry about this problem at all. I only worry about the fact that Qiqi is my ex-girlfriend. After all, I have vaguely concealed my personal emotional experience with the group leader (that is, Tan Rui’s vest).

But I think with Tan Rui's intelligence, she will understand that at my age, I am not stupid or stupid, and I am worthy of the audience. How could I be as pure as paper in my personal relationship?But would Tan Rui really think so?What is her true attitude towards me, and what role does Director Zhang play here?

The nightmare about Qiqi was even more upsetting me.

American horror master Stephen.King once said: Nightmare is not controlled by logic, and if nightmare can be explained, it will lose its original interest, because nightmare and the art of fear are opposite to each other.

In horror novels, victims always ask why, but they don’t get any answers.

In fact, there should not be an answer. After all, what can be imprinted in our minds and lingering is an unsolvable mystery.

At this time, whether Qiqi's reality and her fall in my dream became an unsolvable mystery for me, because until now I still don't know where she is and what she is like.

I am very worried that nightmare will come true Qiqi has really left this cold and heartless world, and that will make me regret it for life.

Although we have broken up, I still want to do my best to help those who have cared for and loved me. I would like to see them safe and sound.

Although I have Tan Rui now, I don’t expect to reunite with Qiqi one day, but I still don’t want to see her suffer misfortune at a young age.

People often say that dreams are anti-dreams, but I hope Qiqi can fulfill this sentence.

I could only pray secretly, praying that God would be the miserable woman, even if she could live humbly, she would never let her faint light of life be blown out easily, as I would not be able to turn the world even if I had the heart.

Thinking of this, I burst into tears again.

I lay down for a while, and until I was anxious, I got up and went to the bathroom.

When I came out of the bathroom, I found that Tan Rui was standing by the balcony glass of the living room with her arms held by her, as if she was looking down at something, or maybe she was thinking about something.

I came to her gently, trying to reach out to wrap my arms around her waist, but after Tan Rui noticed it, she flashed and let me lose.

I thought she was playing naughty with me, but when she turned to face me, I realized that her expression was very solemn.

‘You are awake, Brother He, have you been sleeping well?’Tan Rui’s tone was as deep as her expression.

‘Oh, then when I was with you, I slept well.And you?’ I asked her with concern, and also noticed sensitively the difference she called me.

‘I didn’t sleep well.After you slept, I lost insomnia.I couldn't sleep, so I went back to my room, but I still couldn't sleep well.’'Why…’'I thought about us seriously in bed and I found that I…I was too stupid.I know almost nothing about you, I don’t know your past, I don’t know your privacy, and I don’t know who you are pretending to be in your heart, what you think of me, just flying over so stupidly, just because of your words... I think I am smart, mature, and skillful, and now I understand that I am the same impulse, the same consequences, and the same confusion as those silly girls of eighteen or nineteen years old...' Tan Rui looked at me with a dim expression.

‘Rui'er, even so, you should know me even if we have been together these days.After all, I am in my thirties. I can't be like a piece of paper...''Is a piece of white paper?’Tan Rui suddenly interrupted me, ‘You are not like a piece of white paper, on the contrary, you are still colorful and fancy.You have a business partner like Tu Xiaofeng, and you have a lover Qiqi who sits on the stage in a nightclub. Maybe there are many silly girls like me who are confused by your calm, handsome and mature appearance, and have lost themselves, just like a moth throwing into fire, but you don’t know that you are about to turn into ashes...''Rui'er, don’t think of me like this, I am not as complicated as you think.I only had a girlfriend like Qiqi, but now we have long lost contact.I just...''You just think about her in your heart, dream about her, worry about her, cry for her, worry about her, worry about her suffering an accident, worry about not leaving a chance to repair her in the first ruthlessness. This opportunity can make you feel better and will not bear psychological burdens for it, right?What a great love saint!’Tan Rui said with a sad expression.

I didn't say anything, just looked at her with a puzzled look on my face, and even looked at her innocently.

‘Don’t pretend to be so innocent, pretend to be as innocent as a misunderstood older child.I regret it so much. I only thought that you had the innocence of a big boy under your mature appearance, which made me moved and intoxicated.I realized after last night that I saw it wrong, that was just your appearance.This appearance conceals your cruelty and ruthlessness. Your unique taste likes to find nightclub girls to be your girlfriend.No wonder you would collude with a playboy like Tu Xiaofeng and Yang Yuanqing, who was full of dirty words and eyes glanced at the beautiful girl.I have been unable to understand why you partnered with them in business. Now I understand that you are the same type of people, but they are really bad and completely bad, but you are good at disguising and even good at acting.I remember you once said that you sang songs and acted in dramas at school. As expected, you are a good actor. Should I applaud you?’Tan Rui indeed applauded angrily, but tears rolled in her eyes.

'Rui'er, I don't blame you for anything else, that's because you don't understand me, but you can't say that Qiqi, it's unfair to me...' I was eager to tell myself up without saying anything, but was interrupted by Tan Rui again.

‘Don’t call me Rui'er, I feel so sad when I hear it. Why did I believe you easily?No wonder you are in good condition but still alone.Being single is good. You can go to see flowers and willows without any scruples. You don’t have to bear any responsibility. You just need to feel good about yourself. No matter how much others will be sad and despair for you.I am a silly girl who was captured by your words, it would be better to be like that beautiful Qiqi who is in a difficult situation, and this is the best for you.At most, when you dream back at midnight, you will find your conscience in your terrified sleep, and then forget everything in your nightmare during the sunny day. This is your atonement.That's right, Brother He?’Tan Rui asked me cruelly and ruthlessly.