Chapter 10 Agreement (7)

Is it necessary? He asked softly

Ah?

I mean, you decided to leave here, leave everything you are familiar with, and never look back?

I'm afraid that's the case. Qingxiao stared at the gray sky and the sea, quietly turned around, looked at Yu, and smiled again, saying: Isn't this good? Forget the past and start again

But the past still exists, but you will no longer have the chance to make up for your regrets

Guilt and self-blame will chew on your heart all the time, and you will no longer have real happiness

And you know this

What you don't know is that I know this, too

However, although he became more and more confident and became more and more clear about the causes and consequences, he still couldn't say it in front of Qingxiao in fact, facing those eyes, he could not say a word.

I have considered this repeatedly and don't worry, you will like a new life. Qingxiao smiled at him and showed off her white teeth. The life on the farm is simple and casual. The air and environment are more comfortable than staying in the city. The folk customs are simple. Maybe slowly you can accept the people living there. Even if I am not by your side, you can live well.

You always like to say such things a long time ago, you said, I am always unable to stand up. What should I do if you die one day? Yu breathed a long breath and heard his voice sounded calm and calm with satisfaction. Are you worried about something? Or something happened?

Qingxiao didn't say anything, turned around and looked at the empty sea in the distance. Gray clouds piled up in the sky and several freight ships coming and going on the sea. They were so small that they were floating in the waves like toys.

He refused to let it go and continued to ask: Or do you have any premonition? If you want, you can tell me that he smiled and said: Although I don’t have the ability to share with you, it may be much easier to say it out.

Qingxiao turned around and smiled, her generous and warm palm covered the back of his hand, and said: It's not something that will happen, but life, you will never know one day when an accident will suddenly come, especially someone like me.

The last sentence made him palpitations and quickly started to think about it. He didn't think that he and Kiyoshi lived in a vacuum and entered the underworld for life. He knew that Sanada's group had begun to go downhill since Kiyoshi's father died. Kiyoshi was soft-hearted and let go of the undercover police detectives. Sanada's group suffered severe damage. However, Domoto, who did not obey Masahiko in this battle, died. Uchida retreated, which strengthened the internal cohesion of Sanada's group. Kiyoshi developed the DM in time, which also allowed Masahiko to control several key figures and stabilize the formation.

It's just that the DM is too cruel. Kiyoto did not give the formula. The amount of the finished product delivered was only half a year. The time limit is over now, and Masahiko is not without the intention to take advantage of the two. The two are safe and sound, and they all rely on Uchida Peyo, who regards Kiyoto as his son and nephew.

Uchida is someone Kiyoto is very reluctant to deal with, because Simon was forced to take drugs back then, and Uchida was the one who started the attack.

Qingxiao once mentioned to him, and some of them were deliberately avoided by Qingxiao, such as whether the detective who escaped from death was still pursuing the bonds of family affection, the torture of conscience, the majesty of the law and the rejection of mainstream society, must have exhausted Qingxiao, so he thought of simply escaping the world and not facing it.

This is a negative escape, but the most fundamental reason is that I love him and worry about him, so I hope he can be independent as soon as possible, because the future is so slim and so uncertain

So Qingxiao is always impatient and always looks forward to waking up unrealistically when he wakes up and gets back to normal, hugging and kissing him tightly, and he wants to recover all the missed time and overdraw it tomorrow.

He thought of Qingxiao looking at his eyes. No matter how many people felt that his eyes were deep and cold, sharp and domineering. What he saw was clearly just the persistence and sadness of a child.

The truth is becoming clearer and clearer in front of you. Everything is as transparent as crystal, and the twilight is gradually getting thicker. The undulating mountains and the empty sea are rendered into the mysterious and alienated silhouette of the background. It becomes clearer in the mountains and rivers of the dusk: When those grudges are always over, you know that I don’t want to rely on Uchida all the time and that person…

Qingxiao was silent for a moment, and looked at Yu and both of them didn't say anything. They knew exactly who the person was referring to.

You don't have to worry, I will finish him for you. Qingxiao finally spoke, briefly said

His heart was slightly shocked, and he had all the flavors in an instant. His face changed color and his hands were tightened, but Qingxiao was tightly grasped.

Qingxiao looked at him, her eyes were exactly the kind he was familiar with with a bit of sadness and obsession, and she whispered: You said that if you really love someone, you must respect his decision and don’t arrange your life by yourself. Even if it’s for his own good, even if it’s for his love, I didn’t discuss this decision with you in advance, but I know you must be willing, so I want to give you a surprise. We have experienced so many breakups and reunions. This time, I must have guessed you wrongly, right?

Holding his hand was so tight, showing the owner's anxiety and anxiety. He looked at Qingxiao's eyes, and his thoughts were full of thoughts. After a while, he had only one word: Yes

So Qingxiao smiled and stretched her tangled eyebrows: You made me feel a little confident in myself, Xiaoyu

He reached out and held Yu's arm and said: Today is our last day in Boston. Tomorrow we will go to a new place and start a new life. I want you to promise me a few things.

you say

Qingxiao stroked the ring on Yu's finger and said: Promise me, you will take good care of yourself, try to make yourself live happily and happy. Even if there is no one around me, I promise me, you will face life positively and optimistically, do not escape, do not abuse yourself, and solve every sudden problem with courage and wisdom. Never give up. Promise me, you will protect yourself well and don't let yourself be in danger again, because there is someone in this world who loves you, cares about you, and is better than himself.

If you can do this, then I promise because what you said is exactly what I want to say to you

I promise

Thank you, Qingxiao, I know that you always have to fulfill your words. This is also my promise to you. Although I don’t know if I can do it, I will do my best to do it.

They looked at each other, hugged each other, and the wind blew from the sea, flying up their hair, frozen into eternal images in the dark shadows of the night

They hugged each other for a long time, then let go of their hands, and smiled at each other: Go back, it's almost dark

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Traffic is always very busy at dusk, with cars coming and going, and endless flowing

They drove into the traffic, quietly pouring into the high-rise buildings in the sea, cutting the sky into fragmented pieces. People were like walking through the canyon, the hustle and bustle of the city and the exhaust gas of the car swelled up wave by wave, blending with the brightly lit night, forming a part of the colorful night of the night

He looked out the window, and the vehicles rushed past them, like a fast moving matchbox. People were targeted and hurried to their respective destinations.

After many years, he was once again in the downtown city and felt the rhythm of life in mainstream society. The traffic and crowds were like beating blood, supporting this rational city built of steel and cement.

Of course, there are more things here: power, money, dark desires, wild passions, rules in the open and secrets, and favors that are turning around...

Sitting in this small carriage, he recalled one by one, and he was very familiar with all this, how to survive in desperate situations, how to seize the opportunity to attack, how to protect himself under armor and masks, how to maintain himself in the ups and downs In the past year, he has also repeatedly simulated some transactions and struggles on the computer screen, imagining how to face the past that was forcibly broken once he returned to society, and revived and played back because of the change of mentality of the parties involved, and changed into new attraction.

Now he watched this world and love life curiously through the glass, with some indifference and unspeakable old feelings that were unrelated to one's own affairs. Because this city once recorded the best years of him and Qingxiao, even in the white memories, it could shine with brilliance, like the sand gold deposited on the riverbed.

The past is over, and he and he should calm down and set off again

The past will never pass, and will leave deep or shallow traces in their lives and will not disappear.

The car stopped silently, Qingxiao turned his head and looked at him, thinking deeply: Do you want to go down and have a walk?

He was slightly shocked and then smiled: OK

The moment the car door opened, fireworks from the world came to his face, and he reached out to touch this time, and he was no longer at all from the world.

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The wind blew across the long street and also blew through his turtleneck sweater, inexplicably, naked.

He subconsciously turned around and looked at him. Everyone was in a hurry and never paid attention to this ordinary oriental man.

Cars come and go, crowds are surging, pedestrians pass by him, so they will not slow down because of this. They have their own lives and are not related to him.

The heart slowly calmed down, and the contemptuous eyes that had troubled him countless times did not appear after a day of fatigue. The people coming and going were tired on their faces. No matter how strong the person was, they would inevitably reveal flaws until dusk, and they were eager to go home to repair their disguise.

Go home and go home

I don't know if it's because the sky is dark or if it's true, I just feel that everyone on the street is blurred, describing this world. Who doesn't have a relationship of love, hate, troubles and entanglements, and it's too late to settle yourself? Who would pay more attention to a stranger? It's also a waste of energy to meddle in other people's business.

He stood on the street, looking up at the small sky above his head, was he walking out? There was no expected fear and confusion, only endless hesitation and loneliness

Those cars passed by him, those people walked by him, were no more real than Phantom

Even though thousands of people have walked by, the people he doesn't care about are like walking in a vacuum

He turned around and Qingxiao looked at him from a distance and smiled at him.

Maybe everything is changing, maybe today is not yesterday, but there are still some things that can defeat time and fate

He smiled and walked towards Qingxiao, threw himself into the warm embrace, and found a sense of peace of mind as always: Qingxiao

Um?

You are so good, I'm afraid I will never be able to be independent if I stay by your side

Ah?

He smiled secretly, buried his head in Qingxiao's arms, and whispered: So don't indulge me too much, protect me too much, don't help me with everything, such as that person... let me handle it myself.

He felt that Qingxiao's arm was obviously stiff, and he smiled unconsciously. He hugged Qingxiao tighter with his backhand and said: You once promised me a paradise, but in fact, as long as you have your place, I will be very happy, no matter whether it is heaven or hell

Don't think you can leave me, Qingxiao

I would like to taste all the sorrows with you, and I would like to bear all the sins with you

Life is so short, it needs a full bloom