In the past two days, the local station's news channel first broadcasted the news that Cao Dazhuang fell and died in the well, and then broadcasted the news that Pang Biao's dance hall was sealed by the public security department. However, the news did not clearly introduce the inevitable connection between the two cases. It simply explained in the news that the boss of the dance hall was taken away by the police for investigation due to gang-related issues. The specific name, family members, and social background of the boss were not announced to the outside world at all.
I think it may be because the relevant government departments considered that his father-in-law was a famous entrepreneur in the provincial capital. Once the nude photos and other things were published that were involved in the physical evidence of his crime, they were worried that if this case was exposed too much, it would have a negative impact on society.
It's better if they don't make it public. As long as they can handle it impartially, it will be enough to let Pang Biao, a scumbag, be punished by law. In this way, the harm to Tiantian will not be too great, because not many people in City XX will see the news on our local station and know that the man is Tiantian's father.
I owe too much sweetness, but for my mother, I have no choice
After this matter is completely over, the rest is to find an appropriate opportunity to completely break the relationship between me and Tiantian. I don’t want to continue to hurt her anymore. The longer I delay, the more I am afraid I will not be able to make up this decision.
During the time I was in contact with Tiantian, her considerate and innocence slowly penetrated into my heart step by step. To be honest, I have indeed developed a strong relationship with Tiantian, but this kind of relationship is definitely not love, but fantasizing in my heart that I regard her as my own sister.
After my mother knew that Pang Biao was arrested by the police, her mood was obviously much better than before in the past few days, and she became cheerful than before. The sad expression on her face had disappeared now. She seemed to have changed back to the same way she used to be, and she often had a bright smile on her face.
A few days ago, I said to my mother on the phone: When she comes back, I will give her a gift, and this gift will get rid of Pang Biao's disaster. This time I finally didn't break my word.
But my mother seemed to have misunderstood this sentence, otherwise she would not ask me for this gift after she came back
My mother didn't know why Pang Biao was arrested. Maybe she thought in her heart that Pang Biao was punished with evil, and if she did too many bad things, she deserved the crime.
But how could she know that I was doing all this for her silently behind my back, and even at the expense of her personality. If one day my mother knew the truth, would she be moved and crying in my arms.
Actually, if you think about it carefully, in the past, my mother endured Pang Biao's repeated insults and tortures for her for my sake.
When you are in a strong position, when you are facing difficult and hardships, you would rather bear all this by yourself than tell the person you love, so that the other person can bear this pain with you. It is obvious that my mother and I are people of this kind of personality
After a week, there was still no news on Pang Biao. All kinds of evidence pointed to Pang Biao's murder, and the criminal activities carried out in the bastard dance hall. The man surnamed Sun didn't know where he went. He probably couldn't find someone to take the blame. If he thought about it, he might not be so easy.
There will be about 10 days to be the New Year of the Lunar New Year. This is a good day for all of us Chinese to celebrate. It seems that our family can have a happy Spring Festival now.
On the afternoon of the weekend, my mother insisted that I accompany her to go out to buy clothes. When we finished shopping in the mall, we walked out of the big bags and small bags in our hands. At the entrance of the mall, we met a middle-aged woman. The middle-aged woman looked about 50 years old.
As usual, it is normal to see a person in this kind of place, but my mother seemed to know this woman. She stared at her gradually moving away for about 10 seconds, and then immediately called her name: Sister Cheng
The woman heard her mother's shouting, stopped her own steps and looked at us.
My mother took me and walked towards her immediately and came to her. As if she had seen a relative who had been reunited for a long time, she said to her excitedly and smiled: Sister Cheng, you don’t know me anymore
Seeing her mother greeting her, the woman did not respond immediately, but frowned and looked at her mother up and down. After a careful observation, she suddenly opened her eyes twice as wide as she showed an excited expression on her face and said to her mother: Are you... Ouyang, Ouyang Yu?
Well, it's me. Mom nodded at her excitedly
Oh my god, it's really you. I thought I was wrong and didn't dare to recognize him. I really didn't expect that Ouyang, you are 40 years old this year, how did you take care of it? You look so young.
Sister Cheng, you are so good at talking and laughing
There is no joke, what I said is true. Look at me, I'm not much older than you, but if we stand together, we obviously don't look like people of the same age group
Sister Cheng praised her mother again
I seem to be tired of hearing what Sister Cheng said, because Sister Cheng is no longer the first to say this to her mother. Anyone who knows her mother's age will praise her mother for her beautiful face. If she is used to hearing such words, I guess she will not feel any pride in her heart.
Sister Cheng, I remember that you shouldn’t live in Xiamen? Why did you come here?
The Chinese New Year is coming soon, I'm here to meet a few old classmates. By the way, why are you here too? You still live in this city?
Yes, after graduating from college, I stayed here to work
Xiaoyu, we haven’t seen each other for 20 years, right?
Yes, it's been 20 years
Time flies so fast. Unexpectedly, in the blink of an eye, 20 years passed like this... Sister Cheng shook her head in emotion, then moved her eyes to me, looked at me and asked her mother: Is this your child?
Um
Oh, you are already so tall, you must have gone to college, right? Look at your child, his skin is as white as you, and he looks so handsome. This is all inherited by your
Before I could stand here and chat for a few words, my mother took the initiative to reach out and pull her arm, intending to find a place for the two of them to sit down and chat together.
Sister Cheng not only did not refuse her mother's proposal, but was also happy.
Obviously, she also has a strong affection for her mother. Although so long has passed, the relationship between them has not been forgotten. Unlike those old friends who have not seen each other for many years, who met on the road, everyone said a few polite words, and then said they would contact each other when they had time, and they left each other, but they did not contact each other afterwards.
We walked into a cafe next to the mall together. After sitting down, the two of them began to chat, chatting about the past decades ago and the current situation. I was also happy to hear the interesting things about my mother when she was young, so although I just sat next to me and listened to the chat between these two women, I didn’t feel bored either.
After sitting here and chatting for a while, the words my mother asked later made me more interested. My mother asked her: Sister Cheng, is he doing well abroad now?
Hearing my mother's question, Sister Cheng's face, which was originally smiling, suddenly sank. She did not answer the question she said immediately, but just sighed at her mother, and shook her head again.
Seeing that Sister Cheng's expression seemed so unnatural, my mother felt a little puzzled for a moment and immediately asked her: Sister Cheng, what's wrong with you?
nothing
Sister Cheng obviously doesn't want to mention this question about her mother. I think her mother should have seen it from Sister Cheng's expression, but her mother still asked her the same words again without giving up. After a moment of silence, Sister Chen said to her mother with a heavy expression: Xiaoyu, why did you ask me to tell you? I really can't say something to you. You should stop asking this question.
Why, Sister Cheng, what happened? Seeing Sister Cheng's appearance, my mother's expression immediately became nervous
Xiaoyu... Some things... Since it has passed, let's not mention them anymore. Look at you, you have such a happy family and such an enviable child. Why bother to think about those unhappy things 20 years ago? Why bother
Sister Cheng persuaded her mother helplessly, but from Sister Chen's flickering facial expression and this hesitant tone, I saw that she seemed to want to tell all the old things that her mother wanted to know to her, but it seemed that it was inconvenient to say it to her mother for face or for some other reason.
After hearing Sister Cheng’s words, a trace of sadness appeared on her mother’s face, her eyes were a little dull, and she murmured: Yes, 20 years have passed, since it has been like this, there is really no need to mention these things again... But, after all, when a friend had a relationship, some memories appeared in her mind again, how could she forget it so easily? Sister Cheng, tell me why your expression will be like this when you mention him? Is he living a bad life now? Otherwise, why don’t you say it?
Alas, it’s not that I don’t want to tell you, but... forget it, it’s been so long, it doesn’t matter whether you hide it or not. Xiaoyu, do you really want to know that way?
Seeing that my mother nodded at her, Sister Cheng sighed again, and then continued to say to her mother: I really didn’t expect that 20 years have passed now, and you can still remember him. This is also a blessing for him. I didn’t know you for nothing.
Actually, I wanted to tell you some things back then, because I think that when a person encounters a bumpy situation, as his partner, he should be by his side at this moment, everyone encourages and supports each other, and faces these difficulties together, but when I wanted to find you, he was forced to stop him. He didn't want me to tell you the truth. When I saw my brother begging me so hard, I promised him that I would never tell you his situation. In fact, Cheng Lin, he, he... As Sister Cheng said, her eyes gradually turned red, and the corners of her mouth trembled slightly because of emotional excitement.
What's wrong with him?
Cheng Lin?…………
Who is the Cheng Lin mentioned in the two of them?
Cheng and Chen, not only have the same tone, but also have a Lin in his name and I. Why are these things so coincidental?
Besides, why does Cheng Lin need a character? It’s just an old friend 20 years ago who made his mother so nervous. And I guess he was a boy who heard this person’s name.
At this moment, I suddenly remembered the scenes I encountered repeatedly in my dreams. On a quiet beach, there was a man and a woman snuggling together, and that girl was the mother of her youth, the man who was guarding her. I think it should be her mother's boyfriend at that time...
In a simple room, the boy was with his mother again. His mother had taken off her clothes and wanted to give him to him, but this boy not only did not receive his mother's affection, but instead abandoned her mother, making her sit on the ground crying in despair...
Another time, I appeared in a hospital. A doctor seemed to have recognized the wrong person and called me Clinic Cheng. He said that I had a serious illness and asked someone to drag me to the bed to give me an injection...
If these dreams were something that really happened 20 years ago, then the boy I met again and again in my dreams should be the Cheng Lin they mentioned. But what made me wonder and puzzled was why there was another person's memory in my mind, why, who can tell me why?
Just when I was confused and surprised, Sister Cheng finally spoke to her mother the answer she had always wanted to know: In fact, Cheng Lin had already passed away 20 years ago.
What, what... Sister Cheng, what did you say
When my mother heard this, her body shook violently backwards. Her pale face was like a piece of clean white paper, and there was no blood.
The big eyes that were originally bright had never been like this now, and in an instant it turned into such a desperate and dim look.
It was just because of Sister Cheng's words that my mother seemed to have experienced something extremely terrifying in an instant, which made her head feel dizzy, and her head was trembling on the left and right. She was sitting here as if she was scared.
Sister Cheng was silent for a short time. Her mother seemed to not believe her ears. She didn't believe what she wanted to know but got such an answer that she couldn't accept. She leaned forward and reached out and grabbed one of the hands that Sister Cheng placed on the table. She asked anxiously: Sister Cheng, what's going on? Tell me quickly what's going on.
At this time, Sister Cheng looked at me, as if she felt that sitting next to me had some influence on the conversation between the two of them. She felt that these things were difficult to speak in front of me, a child, so she didn't continue to say them.
Seeing Sister Cheng’s thoughts, I immediately explained to her: Auntie, don’t care about my feelings. Just say anything directly, between me and my mother... Halfway through, I turned my head and looked at the mother beside me who was still in sadness and despair. She showed a peaceful smile on the corner of her mouth and continued to tell her: ... There is no secret between us
Listening to my words, my mother turned her head and looked at me. Although she did not nod to me immediately, she clarified my answer with the affirmative expression on her face.
Seeing that my mother had no objection, Sister Cheng continued: Cheng Lin told you back then that his parents asked him to study abroad and negotiated a marriage that he had to agree to. In fact, all these things were lying to you. When Cheng Lin went to the hospital for physical examination, he found that he had liver cancer, and it was in the late stage. He didn't want to drag you down, so he made up such a breakup to you. At noon on the day of your marriage, he ran out of the hospital and hid in a corner of the hotel where you were married and looked at you secretly
Listening to what Sister Cheng told me, although my mother's expression was not as surprised as when she heard Cheng Lin's death, it was already extremely far away. Tears were already overflowing around her eyes and could flow out from it at any time.
Although the other party concealed the news that he had a terminal illness for his mother, it has been 20 years since then, and when the incident happened, it was still in that innocent era.
After 20 years, many memories will be washed away from my mind again and again with this long time. My mother is now middle-aged and has her own happy family. It is even more impossible to be the young girl who only wants to pursue love and is innocent and romantic back then. When she recalls the past, the emotions she showed should be just a smile, which is like the mature look of women of her age.
But now the fact is just the opposite. My mother has such a fluctuating mood because of the death of her ex-boyfriend. From this, it seems that this man’s position in my mother’s heart is so important. It even makes me feel that even today, my mother still loves this man deeply in her heart, and her feelings for him have not changed at all due to a long time. Otherwise, my mother would not be sad like this.
When did he die? Mom then asked
Just when you are almost 1 year old, it is XX/XX
XX/XX?
I could hardly believe that Sister Cheng actually said that the man died on XX month XX. Listening to the time she said, my mood became nervous, because this day was so familiar to me that I could not have been more familiar with one day.
This day is my birthday, and I was born on this day. Why did the man surnamed Cheng die on the same day as my birthday? Why are there so many coincidences happening in this world? Can anyone explain to me what the connection between these things are?
Is it that all of this destiny of God?
Or is there any arrangements in the dark?
To be honest, although I sometimes fear that I will walk alone on the road without anyone else’s night, I will be afraid of being dark after watching horror movies, especially when I was in the third grade of junior high school, I watched a horror movie starring Wan Qiwen, a charcoal curse. I remember that those days scared me so much that I slept with the bedside lamp on for several consecutive nights, but I was just because of my guilty and simple fear. I have received higher education and never believed that there would be ghosts and gods in this world, but these extremely coincidental things that happened to me forced me to have a question mark on some phenomena that cannot be explained by science.
I still remember when I was in the Psychological Medical Center, Dr. Hao gave me hypnosis treatment in order to help me quickly recover my memory. In my dream, I repeatedly dreamed about the scenes of my mother and her ex-boyfriend being together. Afterwards, I saw Pan Wen showing me the videos of me being hypnotized, my state, my behavior after I closed my eyes, which shocked me. At that time, I also thought, am I like Uncle Zhang, having some schizophrenia?
Dr. Hao once told me that those clips exist in my mind, or to put it bluntly, they are things that happened to me, but I had no impression of these things. At that time, I still felt that Dr. Hao was making an international joke for me. Is there any inevitable connection between Cheng Lin's death and my birth?
I can't explain clearly, I'm confused now
After that, my mother didn't continue to ask Sister Cheng any more. In her heart, she had fully understood the whole story of the whole thing, and understood why the boyfriend who had vowed her to love her deeply, and abandoned her so cruelly.
Because of the bad mood, no one said anything. The atmosphere around him seemed quite heavy. The enthusiastic scene when my mother and Sister Cheng met was no longer there. After about 10 minutes, we left the cafe together. Before we parted, my mother asked Sister Cheng for her contact number
Seeing that my mother was in a bad mood, I took the initiative to drive, but my mother refused. She told me that there was no problem with her driving.
However, just when the car was parked at an intersection on the side of the road and waited for the red light, the light in front had turned green, but my mother was still sitting in the car, not starting the car, which caused the cars lined up behind to be quite dissatisfied and kept honking us. I hurriedly shook my mother with my hands, and then brought her over from the trance.
When I got home, I wanted to sit with my mother and comfort her. I didn't want to see her in a bad mood, but before I could speak, my mother told me that she was feeling a little uncomfortable and wanted to go back to the house to rest. Then she went back to her room alone and locked the door...
I know how sad my mother feels at this moment. I can tell from her expression, and it is for the death of her first love boyfriend 20 years ago.
From a normal perspective, my mother's behavior is very different from a mature middle-aged woman, and she is still a woman with family affairs.
But I know that my mother is such a person who values feelings very much. My mother once told me that before I was there, she had a very painful relationship experience. When my mother said this, she was so excited that she almost burst into tears.
At that time, I didn't know what she was referring to. Now, I guess this is what I'm talking about.
Those unforgettable memories come to her, let alone 20 years, even 30 years, 40 years...
What's more, the first love she had with her day and night loved her so much, so I didn't blame my mother in my heart, and I didn't blame her for being a middle-aged woman with a family, so sad and desperate for the death of her first love 20 years ago.
Maybe at this time, only I can understand her best
Let her calm down in the room. I didn't go into her room to disturb her. I hope she can recover after calming down.
This was until my father came back from the company in the evening and I prepared the family's supper alone. My mother opened the door and walked out of the bedroom. But I could see that she was still in a bad mood.
Seeing her mother like this, my father nervously asked her what had happened?
Mom did not tell the truth to her father, but simply told him that he was a little tired. After dinner, Mom returned to the room again...
Just around 2 o'clock in the middle of the night, I had already slept for a while, but I woke me up because of my intimidation. When I went downstairs to go to the bathroom to remove myself, I found that the bathroom door was locked. Standing at the door, I could clearly hear the sound of water spraying from the shower inside hitting the ground.
Why are there people taking a bath inside so late? Doesn’t their bedroom have a bathroom? Why do you run down here to take a bath? Are your dads or moms taking a bath inside?
With questions, I put my ear on the door and listened carefully. Not only did I hear the sound of water, but also the sad cry of a woman...
Why!
It turned out that my mother hid alone in the bathroom in the middle of the night and cried. It seemed that my mother was still immersed in pain. My mother thought she was sad when she hid here, and her father couldn't see it. She could use tears to vent the pain in her heart. But things are often so coincidental. If it weren't for the sudden awakening of her urine, I wouldn't have come down to see this scene.
I love my mother. If I saw that my mother was sad for her father, I had nothing to say, but she was sad for another man she met 20 years ago. For this reason, a strong sense of jealousy arose in my heart. I was jealous of that man. After 20 years, a mature middle-aged woman who was married and married can still be sad for her. It is conceivable how much my mother loved that man back then.
I even feel that my mother's feelings for this man are no less than Yang Guo and Xiaolongnu in Jin Yong's novel The Legend of Condor Heroes. This feeling for each other has not diminished even after decades of experience.
I sat on the ground and leaned my back against the bathroom door. Listening to the cries from the bathroom, I was not feeling better than my mother at all. Originally, my mother was caught because of Pang Biao, a scumbag, and her mood was obviously much better than before. But a few days later, she encountered this incident again. Why did God like to tease people so much?
My mother's first love is Cheng Lin, and my name also has the word Lin. Maybe it was because my mother missed him back then that name was given to me.
This reminds me of a sentence I once saw in the book: My son was my mother’s lover in her previous life. Because they owe each other’s feelings, they will be reincarnated as mother and son in this life. For the sake of gain, they are to repay the love debts owed by her previous life.
Cheng Lin and I were both on the same day. Is this the so-called reincarnation?
Otherwise, why do those memories between him and his mother remain in my mind?
If I don't explain this, I really can't figure out why this is
If there is really a god, there is a god watching us in the sky at this moment. I hope you can bless your mother and not let her be sad anymore. My mother is really a kind-hearted and kind person. I am really sad to see her sad like this. I hope from the bottom of my heart that this woman I love can spend every day happily forever
I sat here with my mother for a long time until her crying gradually stopped. Not long after, I heard that my mother was about to open the bathroom door. My mother was embarrassed when she saw me. I hurriedly hid in the kitchen next to me, and watched my mother come out of it, slowly walked upstairs and entered her room...
The next morning, it was less than 8 o'clock. My dad patted my door and asked me to come out for breakfast. After I walked out of the room, I didn't see my mom. I thought my mom was still resting in bed because she must have not had a good rest last night.
When I washed my face and sat down for breakfast, I asked Dad, do I need to bring the breakfast to my mother?
But my dad told me: Mom had already left at around 6 o'clock in the morning, saying that yesterday, when she was outside, she heard an old friend say that one of her classmates had passed away and she was going to pay a visit today.
I'll go!
I slept so hard in the morning that I didn't hear my mother go out. My mother asked Sister Cheng for her mobile phone number yesterday. After she came back, she must have asked her from the phone. Where is the boy buried now?
If I knew she had this plan today, I would stop her and go with her no matter what I said, because I was very worried about my mother. Just like yesterday, she was always distracted when driving and couldn't concentrate at all. It was a very dangerous thing to drive on the highway in such a state.
I immediately went back to the house and called my mother on my cell phone. Soon, the phone went through. Linlin, is there anything wrong? My mother asked me on the phone
After hesitating, I told my mother: Mom, I know where you went when you went out so early, and I also know how sad you feel now. However, you must pay attention to safety when driving on the road, because at home, there is a person who loves you deeply, waiting for you to come back silently. For this person who loves you, you must also cherish yourself more. If you have any accidents in your own safety, I will never forgive you.
After saying this, there was no sound on my mother's side. I knew that my mother knew very well what my words meant. I also hoped that my mother could think of me while being sad and she knew that my heart was actually the same as her. I didn't want to see the person I loved being sad and hurt. Before my mother could reply, my mother was distracted from driving, so I hung up the phone.
In the afternoon, my dad told me that the keyboard of the computer in their bedroom room was broken and asked me to buy another one for him. I drove my dad's car to the technology market.
It took me about an hour to go out of the department-level market and was about to get on the bus, and I saw an old man telling fortunes sitting on the wall of the sidewalk on the sidewalk. He saw me looking at him, then took the initiative to smile at me, and shouted to me: Little brother, seeing your yin energy covers your forehead, I'm afraid it will be very unhappy recently
Damn! This broom star, my mood was already extremely bad. After hearing this old guy cursed me in words, I almost cursed him.
However, because of my good character, it was not easy to make some money when I saw his gray hair sitting here and making some money, so I resisted it. I didn't have the same knowledge as someone like him. Just as I was about to reach out to open the car door, I suddenly felt that the words he said and the tone of his speech, once before, seemed to have heard them?
After a brief look back, I remembered that when I took a bus to Xiaoyan’s hometown to find Xiaoyan, I once met an old man who seemed to be a madman when I first saw me.
At that time, I was extremely down and lost my wallet and cell phone, and I didn't drink water or eat for a day. I could say that I was tired, hungry, and thirsty.
Otherwise, I wouldn't have paid attention to people like them at all.
I still remember that the old man had calculated a fortune for me and said that my noble man would appear soon. I was suspicious of what he said, but not long after, Xiaoyan really came to pick me up. Although I still think he just happened to be right, after all, Xiaoyan told me that the old man was a mentally ill and became stupid because his son died.
But the situation now seems to have returned to that moment. My current mood is as bad as I was at that time. I think my fate is particularly unhappy and always stumbling. So I stopped, walked towards him, and asked the old man.
Brother, do I need to calculate a fortune for you?
To do a fortune, how much does it cost to do a fortune?
It depends on the situation. If you calculate well, you can give it some. If you calculate poorly, you won’t get any penny.
Why do you say the same thing as that old man?
Are these words the catchphrases of fortune tellers like them?
Then I squatted down and said to the old man: The unpleasant things that have happened to me recently made me feel very depressed. Just tell me a fortune.
Then the old man picked up a bamboo tube next to him and said to me: You can draw one from inside
I reached out and took out a piece of bamboo sticks from the box full of bamboo sticks. I took a rough look at the vertical words engraved on it, like a poem. I didn't understand what it meant, so I handed the bamboo stick to him and then asked: How to solve this?
The old man took the hexagram from my hand and put it in front of me. His brows frowned slightly. Seeing his expression that was not too obvious made me feel even more unhappy. Did I draw another bad sign?
I'm thinking in my heart
Then, the old man asked me about my birth date, closed his eyes and calculated it repeatedly with his right hand for about half a minute, and then continued to ask me: Young man, what do you want to ask, is it marriage or fortune?
Marriage, wealth? I don’t think I need these, so I told him: Just help me calculate what my future fate will be like? Will my future journey be smooth or will it be bumpy everywhere?
If you want to ask about marriage, then I can tell you that the lottery you drew is a lottery. In the future, you may be able to join forces with your lover and form a beautiful family. But if you ask about your future destiny, it is...
Is it true? After hearing what he said, my mood suddenly became even lower. I don’t know why, I care so much about the words he said from him now
Originally, I wanted to find this fortune teller to seek spiritual comfort. I wanted to hear him say some nice words to make me happy, because I think that fortune tellers like them on the roadside will say things in a good way and say good words to make customers happy. In this way, the customers will be happy and they will pay them the money to them easily. But what I didn't expect was that he actually said something that made me disappointed.
And he even said from his mouth that if he asked about marriage, he would sign it. Will I get a relationship with my lover in the future?…………
My favorite person is my mother. I can have an affair with my mother without anyone knowing it, or take off all my clothes and enjoy the joy of fish and water in bed without anyone knowing it.
If these things are discovered, they will definitely be despised by outsiders, as well as those despised and ridiculed gazes, let alone getting together?
This is simply ridiculous, this kind of thing will never happen
I now feel that this old man who is telling fortunes is starting to talk nonsense, but since he is halfway through, I continue to ask him: Then tell me, what will my future fate be like?
The old man continued: According to the hexagram sign, your future destiny may change drastically. Let’s talk about the first half of the sentence above: The road to the sun is not clear... Literally speaking, your future path will face a situation that makes you feel desperate. However, the last word of the second half of the sentence of the hexagram sign is: Change, this word has many meanings. Perhaps when you are in a dead end, there will be some opportunities to survive, or the road ahead will become worse and worse, and it may be dark.
After listening to the old man's explanation, I carefully understood the meaning of his words in my heart. The old man didn't speak for a long time after seeing me, and then continued to say to me: In fact, young man, I don't think you need to worry too much. A person's destiny is always in your own hands. When you are in despair, how to walk the future? You should still ask yourself in your heart. There is a saying that you must always remember, as long as you have mindfulness and think it is right, don't be afraid of any bad consequences. Bravely moving towards your goal is the most correct choice.
Keep mindfulness and walk bravely, and have such inspirational words. Is the old man deliberately comforting me when he sees me sad?
After thinking for a while, I continued to ask him: Old sir, do you believe that there is a god in this world? Do you believe that a person will have a past life?
I don't know this. Even if I know it, I won't tell you that the so-called secrets cannot be revealed.
I don't know, you are telling fortunes, but you actually said from your mouth that you don't know if there is a god. You who tell fortunes should believe that there are ghosts and gods, right? Otherwise, you wouldn't have come out to do this business. If you don't believe in the words of gods, then how can you come out to tell fortunes for others
Haha, little brother, about this issue, who would tell you that there is a god in this world? Then I think he must be lying to you. Who dares to say that he has seen God, and who can prove that there is a god in this world? Of course, I think no one can prove that there is no god in this world. Humans and Gods are simply different from two different spaces. For the lottery you draw, I just follow what King Wen said in the sixty-four hexagrams of King Wen said, so you don’t have to take it too seriously
Old man, how much does it cost? After calculating the divination, I am going to pay and leave
Don't have money
Don't have money? Why? I asked him curiously
I just told you that if the calculation is not good, I won’t take any penny, it’s getting late, and I should go back too. After the old man finished telling me, he began to pack up his own things.
Where are you living, why don't I drive you to see me off
No, my house is nearby, I just turned around and arrived. The old man said, picking up his own things and turning around and leaving here.
Looking at the old man's back gradually fading away, I felt an indescribable feeling in my heart. I think that although these words of the old man are simple and easy to understand, they contain deep mysteries and philosophy. Maybe he is really an expert or maybe
At around 8 o'clock in the evening, my mother finally came back. When she saw that my mother arrived home safely, the stone in my heart fell down.
But after my mother came back, she still felt very bad, and the sorrow on her face did not fade away. She didn't even eat supper, so she greeted me and my father, then went back to the house to lie down and rest.
The next day, after I woke up in the morning, my father told me that my mother was sick, and my father and I accompanied my mother to the hospital. After the doctor's examination, my mother was not seriously injured, but she had a fever.
We accompanied my mother to take a bottle of drip in the hospital, and then brought some antipyretics. When we got home, my mother lay back on the bed again. At noon, my father made love chicken soup for my mother and personally brought it to my mother by the bed. As a result, my mother just took a bite and vomited all of her because of her chest. Seeing this, my father asked her mother to lie down and rest first, and then she felt hungry after waking up before eating.
At around 5 o'clock in the evening, my father went out to buy vegetables. When I saw my mother woke up, I took the thermometer at home to take my mother's temperature and found that it was only 37 degrees, which meant that the fever had subsided. I asked my mother if she was hungry now, and I went to warm the chicken soup.
But my mother still had this uncomfortable expression, telling me that she couldn't eat anything
How uncomfortable I feel when I see my mother like this
I know that my mother is a heart-wrenching problem. For my mother, for 20 years, I have always thought that the boy I loved deeply failed me and that the other party abandoned me. Maybe my mother once hated him in her heart, why did she be so heartless? I hate him not to believe in the vows she had made to me back then.
But now when she knew that she really wanted to think about it, she realized that all the other party did was for herself. When my mother went to worship him yesterday, she saw that the lover had already penetrated into the loess 20 years ago. I could imagine that at that time, she must have experienced a very painful moment.
How can I untie this dead knot in my mother's heart? I racked my brains and thought for a while, and immediately returned to the room. I found the gift my mother once gave me from the drawer, the red bracelet
This bracelet may be the only gift the boy gave to his mother back then. Mom then handed it to me. I held the bracelet in my hand and looked at it. Although the fabric was a bit old, the woven was very delicate. Just when I put the bracelet on my wrist, I felt a sudden and severe pain in my head, and the scenes I had seen in my dream appeared in my mind again, and it seemed to have become clearer again.
Then, I immediately walked towards my mother's bedroom and came to her side.
Lin Lin When my mother saw me coming in, she called me powerlessly
Mom, look at what this is. I put my left hand wearing a bracelet in front of my mother
My mother knew the origin of this thing very well. Although my mother broke up with the boy back then, she still kept it for a long time until I discovered it, and I asked my mother for it.
My mother loves me, otherwise she wouldn't have given it to me. Just as my mother looked at the thing on my wrist, a tear slid down from her eyes...
Mom, do you still remember that on a beach, there was a young man and woman who snuggled up to each other and looked at the sea in front of her peacefully... The boy took out a red bracelet and gave it to the girl, and personally helped her wear it on her wrist... Although it was just an ordinary bracelet, for the girl, this gift was so precious... Afterwards, the girl took out a piece of white paper from her bag, folded it into a small paper boat, and wrote down their names on the paper boat, stuffed them into an empty plastic bottle, and threw the bottle into the sea... The girl told the boy that as long as the paper boat could float to the distance with the wind and waves, the sea god would bless them to be together for generations... As a result, just as the girl thought, the paper boat slowly drifted away with the wind and waves. At that moment, the girl was so happy in her heart
While I recalled those scenes, I told my mother softly, not knowing whether I was moved by such a picture. At this moment, my tears also poured out. With the substitution of my language, my mother seemed to have recalled that unforgettable past, and threw herself into my arms, crying bitterly...
Mom, you once lost the person you loved the most, but now you still have me and dad around you. Don’t you love us? Do you not matter at all in your heart? Do you know how uncomfortable I feel when I see you like this? In the middle of the night before yesterday, I knew you were alone in the bathroom and cried for a long time. At that time, I was sitting outside the door and I was feeling uncomfortable with you. I don’t want to see you unhappy, I don’t want to…
I held the woman I loved with both hands tightly. I watched her fall into my arms and cry so sadly and desperately. The heart-wrenching crying deeply hurt my heart like a needle. My mother lay in my arms and continued to cry for a long time. Until the tears soaked the white shirt on my chest, the crying gradually stopped. I hurried to the bathroom and brought a wet towel for my mother. My mother was about to take it with her hands.
Mom, I'll do it. I didn't hand the towel to my mother, and I personally wiped my little face, which was so cried.
After I wiped the tears from her face, my mother said to me shyly: Lin Lin, mom is hungry
I felt very happy when I heard my mother say she wanted to eat, because since my mother came back last night, I hadn't eaten three meals anymore. Now my mother said she was hungry, which is how her heart disease is slowly recovering. I immediately said to my mother excitedly: Mom, you wait, I'll go and heat the chicken soup.
Just as I heated the chicken soup to my mother and sat by the bed and fed it bite by bit, my father also came back from outside. Seeing that my mother's condition had improved, I was very happy.
The next morning, when I got up, I went downstairs and saw my mother combing her long hair in the bathroom in front of the mirror.
Mom, I called her
My mother saw me coming to her side, grabbed one of my hands and held it tightly, and said to me with a smile: Lin Lin, I'm sorry, I worried you yesterday
It's okay, mom, you got up so early
Mom is going to work in the company today
Go to the company, your body...it's better to continue to take a day off at home
As soon as I finished speaking, my mother tiptoed, lay on my face and kissed her, and continued to say to me: My mother's body has been completely recovered
After my mother dressed up, I left the house. Not long after, my phone rang. It was a WeChat message sent by my mother: Lin Lin, mom doesn’t know why you know so many things. If you don’t say them, mom won’t ask about it. But one thing is clear in my heart. Mom now needs to tell you clearly that for mom, since the moment you have you, the most important person around you will always be you, and you are everything to mom. In the past two days, because of mom’s affairs, you will also be worried and painful. Mom apologizes to you here, and mom promises you that this kind of thing will never happen again in the future.
Seeing my mother's words, I felt an indescribable excitement, and an indescribable joy and joy in my heart. I know that my mother has really overcome this hurdle.
I think it may be because the relevant government departments considered that his father-in-law was a famous entrepreneur in the provincial capital. Once the nude photos and other things were published that were involved in the physical evidence of his crime, they were worried that if this case was exposed too much, it would have a negative impact on society.
It's better if they don't make it public. As long as they can handle it impartially, it will be enough to let Pang Biao, a scumbag, be punished by law. In this way, the harm to Tiantian will not be too great, because not many people in City XX will see the news on our local station and know that the man is Tiantian's father.
I owe too much sweetness, but for my mother, I have no choice
After this matter is completely over, the rest is to find an appropriate opportunity to completely break the relationship between me and Tiantian. I don’t want to continue to hurt her anymore. The longer I delay, the more I am afraid I will not be able to make up this decision.
During the time I was in contact with Tiantian, her considerate and innocence slowly penetrated into my heart step by step. To be honest, I have indeed developed a strong relationship with Tiantian, but this kind of relationship is definitely not love, but fantasizing in my heart that I regard her as my own sister.
After my mother knew that Pang Biao was arrested by the police, her mood was obviously much better than before in the past few days, and she became cheerful than before. The sad expression on her face had disappeared now. She seemed to have changed back to the same way she used to be, and she often had a bright smile on her face.
A few days ago, I said to my mother on the phone: When she comes back, I will give her a gift, and this gift will get rid of Pang Biao's disaster. This time I finally didn't break my word.
But my mother seemed to have misunderstood this sentence, otherwise she would not ask me for this gift after she came back
My mother didn't know why Pang Biao was arrested. Maybe she thought in her heart that Pang Biao was punished with evil, and if she did too many bad things, she deserved the crime.
But how could she know that I was doing all this for her silently behind my back, and even at the expense of her personality. If one day my mother knew the truth, would she be moved and crying in my arms.
Actually, if you think about it carefully, in the past, my mother endured Pang Biao's repeated insults and tortures for her for my sake.
When you are in a strong position, when you are facing difficult and hardships, you would rather bear all this by yourself than tell the person you love, so that the other person can bear this pain with you. It is obvious that my mother and I are people of this kind of personality
After a week, there was still no news on Pang Biao. All kinds of evidence pointed to Pang Biao's murder, and the criminal activities carried out in the bastard dance hall. The man surnamed Sun didn't know where he went. He probably couldn't find someone to take the blame. If he thought about it, he might not be so easy.
There will be about 10 days to be the New Year of the Lunar New Year. This is a good day for all of us Chinese to celebrate. It seems that our family can have a happy Spring Festival now.
On the afternoon of the weekend, my mother insisted that I accompany her to go out to buy clothes. When we finished shopping in the mall, we walked out of the big bags and small bags in our hands. At the entrance of the mall, we met a middle-aged woman. The middle-aged woman looked about 50 years old.
As usual, it is normal to see a person in this kind of place, but my mother seemed to know this woman. She stared at her gradually moving away for about 10 seconds, and then immediately called her name: Sister Cheng
The woman heard her mother's shouting, stopped her own steps and looked at us.
My mother took me and walked towards her immediately and came to her. As if she had seen a relative who had been reunited for a long time, she said to her excitedly and smiled: Sister Cheng, you don’t know me anymore
Seeing her mother greeting her, the woman did not respond immediately, but frowned and looked at her mother up and down. After a careful observation, she suddenly opened her eyes twice as wide as she showed an excited expression on her face and said to her mother: Are you... Ouyang, Ouyang Yu?
Well, it's me. Mom nodded at her excitedly
Oh my god, it's really you. I thought I was wrong and didn't dare to recognize him. I really didn't expect that Ouyang, you are 40 years old this year, how did you take care of it? You look so young.
Sister Cheng, you are so good at talking and laughing
There is no joke, what I said is true. Look at me, I'm not much older than you, but if we stand together, we obviously don't look like people of the same age group
Sister Cheng praised her mother again
I seem to be tired of hearing what Sister Cheng said, because Sister Cheng is no longer the first to say this to her mother. Anyone who knows her mother's age will praise her mother for her beautiful face. If she is used to hearing such words, I guess she will not feel any pride in her heart.
Sister Cheng, I remember that you shouldn’t live in Xiamen? Why did you come here?
The Chinese New Year is coming soon, I'm here to meet a few old classmates. By the way, why are you here too? You still live in this city?
Yes, after graduating from college, I stayed here to work
Xiaoyu, we haven’t seen each other for 20 years, right?
Yes, it's been 20 years
Time flies so fast. Unexpectedly, in the blink of an eye, 20 years passed like this... Sister Cheng shook her head in emotion, then moved her eyes to me, looked at me and asked her mother: Is this your child?
Um
Oh, you are already so tall, you must have gone to college, right? Look at your child, his skin is as white as you, and he looks so handsome. This is all inherited by your
Before I could stand here and chat for a few words, my mother took the initiative to reach out and pull her arm, intending to find a place for the two of them to sit down and chat together.
Sister Cheng not only did not refuse her mother's proposal, but was also happy.
Obviously, she also has a strong affection for her mother. Although so long has passed, the relationship between them has not been forgotten. Unlike those old friends who have not seen each other for many years, who met on the road, everyone said a few polite words, and then said they would contact each other when they had time, and they left each other, but they did not contact each other afterwards.
We walked into a cafe next to the mall together. After sitting down, the two of them began to chat, chatting about the past decades ago and the current situation. I was also happy to hear the interesting things about my mother when she was young, so although I just sat next to me and listened to the chat between these two women, I didn’t feel bored either.
After sitting here and chatting for a while, the words my mother asked later made me more interested. My mother asked her: Sister Cheng, is he doing well abroad now?
Hearing my mother's question, Sister Cheng's face, which was originally smiling, suddenly sank. She did not answer the question she said immediately, but just sighed at her mother, and shook her head again.
Seeing that Sister Cheng's expression seemed so unnatural, my mother felt a little puzzled for a moment and immediately asked her: Sister Cheng, what's wrong with you?
nothing
Sister Cheng obviously doesn't want to mention this question about her mother. I think her mother should have seen it from Sister Cheng's expression, but her mother still asked her the same words again without giving up. After a moment of silence, Sister Chen said to her mother with a heavy expression: Xiaoyu, why did you ask me to tell you? I really can't say something to you. You should stop asking this question.
Why, Sister Cheng, what happened? Seeing Sister Cheng's appearance, my mother's expression immediately became nervous
Xiaoyu... Some things... Since it has passed, let's not mention them anymore. Look at you, you have such a happy family and such an enviable child. Why bother to think about those unhappy things 20 years ago? Why bother
Sister Cheng persuaded her mother helplessly, but from Sister Chen's flickering facial expression and this hesitant tone, I saw that she seemed to want to tell all the old things that her mother wanted to know to her, but it seemed that it was inconvenient to say it to her mother for face or for some other reason.
After hearing Sister Cheng’s words, a trace of sadness appeared on her mother’s face, her eyes were a little dull, and she murmured: Yes, 20 years have passed, since it has been like this, there is really no need to mention these things again... But, after all, when a friend had a relationship, some memories appeared in her mind again, how could she forget it so easily? Sister Cheng, tell me why your expression will be like this when you mention him? Is he living a bad life now? Otherwise, why don’t you say it?
Alas, it’s not that I don’t want to tell you, but... forget it, it’s been so long, it doesn’t matter whether you hide it or not. Xiaoyu, do you really want to know that way?
Seeing that my mother nodded at her, Sister Cheng sighed again, and then continued to say to her mother: I really didn’t expect that 20 years have passed now, and you can still remember him. This is also a blessing for him. I didn’t know you for nothing.
Actually, I wanted to tell you some things back then, because I think that when a person encounters a bumpy situation, as his partner, he should be by his side at this moment, everyone encourages and supports each other, and faces these difficulties together, but when I wanted to find you, he was forced to stop him. He didn't want me to tell you the truth. When I saw my brother begging me so hard, I promised him that I would never tell you his situation. In fact, Cheng Lin, he, he... As Sister Cheng said, her eyes gradually turned red, and the corners of her mouth trembled slightly because of emotional excitement.
What's wrong with him?
Cheng Lin?…………
Who is the Cheng Lin mentioned in the two of them?
Cheng and Chen, not only have the same tone, but also have a Lin in his name and I. Why are these things so coincidental?
Besides, why does Cheng Lin need a character? It’s just an old friend 20 years ago who made his mother so nervous. And I guess he was a boy who heard this person’s name.
At this moment, I suddenly remembered the scenes I encountered repeatedly in my dreams. On a quiet beach, there was a man and a woman snuggling together, and that girl was the mother of her youth, the man who was guarding her. I think it should be her mother's boyfriend at that time...
In a simple room, the boy was with his mother again. His mother had taken off her clothes and wanted to give him to him, but this boy not only did not receive his mother's affection, but instead abandoned her mother, making her sit on the ground crying in despair...
Another time, I appeared in a hospital. A doctor seemed to have recognized the wrong person and called me Clinic Cheng. He said that I had a serious illness and asked someone to drag me to the bed to give me an injection...
If these dreams were something that really happened 20 years ago, then the boy I met again and again in my dreams should be the Cheng Lin they mentioned. But what made me wonder and puzzled was why there was another person's memory in my mind, why, who can tell me why?
Just when I was confused and surprised, Sister Cheng finally spoke to her mother the answer she had always wanted to know: In fact, Cheng Lin had already passed away 20 years ago.
What, what... Sister Cheng, what did you say
When my mother heard this, her body shook violently backwards. Her pale face was like a piece of clean white paper, and there was no blood.
The big eyes that were originally bright had never been like this now, and in an instant it turned into such a desperate and dim look.
It was just because of Sister Cheng's words that my mother seemed to have experienced something extremely terrifying in an instant, which made her head feel dizzy, and her head was trembling on the left and right. She was sitting here as if she was scared.
Sister Cheng was silent for a short time. Her mother seemed to not believe her ears. She didn't believe what she wanted to know but got such an answer that she couldn't accept. She leaned forward and reached out and grabbed one of the hands that Sister Cheng placed on the table. She asked anxiously: Sister Cheng, what's going on? Tell me quickly what's going on.
At this time, Sister Cheng looked at me, as if she felt that sitting next to me had some influence on the conversation between the two of them. She felt that these things were difficult to speak in front of me, a child, so she didn't continue to say them.
Seeing Sister Cheng’s thoughts, I immediately explained to her: Auntie, don’t care about my feelings. Just say anything directly, between me and my mother... Halfway through, I turned my head and looked at the mother beside me who was still in sadness and despair. She showed a peaceful smile on the corner of her mouth and continued to tell her: ... There is no secret between us
Listening to my words, my mother turned her head and looked at me. Although she did not nod to me immediately, she clarified my answer with the affirmative expression on her face.
Seeing that my mother had no objection, Sister Cheng continued: Cheng Lin told you back then that his parents asked him to study abroad and negotiated a marriage that he had to agree to. In fact, all these things were lying to you. When Cheng Lin went to the hospital for physical examination, he found that he had liver cancer, and it was in the late stage. He didn't want to drag you down, so he made up such a breakup to you. At noon on the day of your marriage, he ran out of the hospital and hid in a corner of the hotel where you were married and looked at you secretly
Listening to what Sister Cheng told me, although my mother's expression was not as surprised as when she heard Cheng Lin's death, it was already extremely far away. Tears were already overflowing around her eyes and could flow out from it at any time.
Although the other party concealed the news that he had a terminal illness for his mother, it has been 20 years since then, and when the incident happened, it was still in that innocent era.
After 20 years, many memories will be washed away from my mind again and again with this long time. My mother is now middle-aged and has her own happy family. It is even more impossible to be the young girl who only wants to pursue love and is innocent and romantic back then. When she recalls the past, the emotions she showed should be just a smile, which is like the mature look of women of her age.
But now the fact is just the opposite. My mother has such a fluctuating mood because of the death of her ex-boyfriend. From this, it seems that this man’s position in my mother’s heart is so important. It even makes me feel that even today, my mother still loves this man deeply in her heart, and her feelings for him have not changed at all due to a long time. Otherwise, my mother would not be sad like this.
When did he die? Mom then asked
Just when you are almost 1 year old, it is XX/XX
XX/XX?
I could hardly believe that Sister Cheng actually said that the man died on XX month XX. Listening to the time she said, my mood became nervous, because this day was so familiar to me that I could not have been more familiar with one day.
This day is my birthday, and I was born on this day. Why did the man surnamed Cheng die on the same day as my birthday? Why are there so many coincidences happening in this world? Can anyone explain to me what the connection between these things are?
Is it that all of this destiny of God?
Or is there any arrangements in the dark?
To be honest, although I sometimes fear that I will walk alone on the road without anyone else’s night, I will be afraid of being dark after watching horror movies, especially when I was in the third grade of junior high school, I watched a horror movie starring Wan Qiwen, a charcoal curse. I remember that those days scared me so much that I slept with the bedside lamp on for several consecutive nights, but I was just because of my guilty and simple fear. I have received higher education and never believed that there would be ghosts and gods in this world, but these extremely coincidental things that happened to me forced me to have a question mark on some phenomena that cannot be explained by science.
I still remember when I was in the Psychological Medical Center, Dr. Hao gave me hypnosis treatment in order to help me quickly recover my memory. In my dream, I repeatedly dreamed about the scenes of my mother and her ex-boyfriend being together. Afterwards, I saw Pan Wen showing me the videos of me being hypnotized, my state, my behavior after I closed my eyes, which shocked me. At that time, I also thought, am I like Uncle Zhang, having some schizophrenia?
Dr. Hao once told me that those clips exist in my mind, or to put it bluntly, they are things that happened to me, but I had no impression of these things. At that time, I still felt that Dr. Hao was making an international joke for me. Is there any inevitable connection between Cheng Lin's death and my birth?
I can't explain clearly, I'm confused now
After that, my mother didn't continue to ask Sister Cheng any more. In her heart, she had fully understood the whole story of the whole thing, and understood why the boyfriend who had vowed her to love her deeply, and abandoned her so cruelly.
Because of the bad mood, no one said anything. The atmosphere around him seemed quite heavy. The enthusiastic scene when my mother and Sister Cheng met was no longer there. After about 10 minutes, we left the cafe together. Before we parted, my mother asked Sister Cheng for her contact number
Seeing that my mother was in a bad mood, I took the initiative to drive, but my mother refused. She told me that there was no problem with her driving.
However, just when the car was parked at an intersection on the side of the road and waited for the red light, the light in front had turned green, but my mother was still sitting in the car, not starting the car, which caused the cars lined up behind to be quite dissatisfied and kept honking us. I hurriedly shook my mother with my hands, and then brought her over from the trance.
When I got home, I wanted to sit with my mother and comfort her. I didn't want to see her in a bad mood, but before I could speak, my mother told me that she was feeling a little uncomfortable and wanted to go back to the house to rest. Then she went back to her room alone and locked the door...
I know how sad my mother feels at this moment. I can tell from her expression, and it is for the death of her first love boyfriend 20 years ago.
From a normal perspective, my mother's behavior is very different from a mature middle-aged woman, and she is still a woman with family affairs.
But I know that my mother is such a person who values feelings very much. My mother once told me that before I was there, she had a very painful relationship experience. When my mother said this, she was so excited that she almost burst into tears.
At that time, I didn't know what she was referring to. Now, I guess this is what I'm talking about.
Those unforgettable memories come to her, let alone 20 years, even 30 years, 40 years...
What's more, the first love she had with her day and night loved her so much, so I didn't blame my mother in my heart, and I didn't blame her for being a middle-aged woman with a family, so sad and desperate for the death of her first love 20 years ago.
Maybe at this time, only I can understand her best
Let her calm down in the room. I didn't go into her room to disturb her. I hope she can recover after calming down.
This was until my father came back from the company in the evening and I prepared the family's supper alone. My mother opened the door and walked out of the bedroom. But I could see that she was still in a bad mood.
Seeing her mother like this, my father nervously asked her what had happened?
Mom did not tell the truth to her father, but simply told him that he was a little tired. After dinner, Mom returned to the room again...
Just around 2 o'clock in the middle of the night, I had already slept for a while, but I woke me up because of my intimidation. When I went downstairs to go to the bathroom to remove myself, I found that the bathroom door was locked. Standing at the door, I could clearly hear the sound of water spraying from the shower inside hitting the ground.
Why are there people taking a bath inside so late? Doesn’t their bedroom have a bathroom? Why do you run down here to take a bath? Are your dads or moms taking a bath inside?
With questions, I put my ear on the door and listened carefully. Not only did I hear the sound of water, but also the sad cry of a woman...
Why!
It turned out that my mother hid alone in the bathroom in the middle of the night and cried. It seemed that my mother was still immersed in pain. My mother thought she was sad when she hid here, and her father couldn't see it. She could use tears to vent the pain in her heart. But things are often so coincidental. If it weren't for the sudden awakening of her urine, I wouldn't have come down to see this scene.
I love my mother. If I saw that my mother was sad for her father, I had nothing to say, but she was sad for another man she met 20 years ago. For this reason, a strong sense of jealousy arose in my heart. I was jealous of that man. After 20 years, a mature middle-aged woman who was married and married can still be sad for her. It is conceivable how much my mother loved that man back then.
I even feel that my mother's feelings for this man are no less than Yang Guo and Xiaolongnu in Jin Yong's novel The Legend of Condor Heroes. This feeling for each other has not diminished even after decades of experience.
I sat on the ground and leaned my back against the bathroom door. Listening to the cries from the bathroom, I was not feeling better than my mother at all. Originally, my mother was caught because of Pang Biao, a scumbag, and her mood was obviously much better than before. But a few days later, she encountered this incident again. Why did God like to tease people so much?
My mother's first love is Cheng Lin, and my name also has the word Lin. Maybe it was because my mother missed him back then that name was given to me.
This reminds me of a sentence I once saw in the book: My son was my mother’s lover in her previous life. Because they owe each other’s feelings, they will be reincarnated as mother and son in this life. For the sake of gain, they are to repay the love debts owed by her previous life.
Cheng Lin and I were both on the same day. Is this the so-called reincarnation?
Otherwise, why do those memories between him and his mother remain in my mind?
If I don't explain this, I really can't figure out why this is
If there is really a god, there is a god watching us in the sky at this moment. I hope you can bless your mother and not let her be sad anymore. My mother is really a kind-hearted and kind person. I am really sad to see her sad like this. I hope from the bottom of my heart that this woman I love can spend every day happily forever
I sat here with my mother for a long time until her crying gradually stopped. Not long after, I heard that my mother was about to open the bathroom door. My mother was embarrassed when she saw me. I hurriedly hid in the kitchen next to me, and watched my mother come out of it, slowly walked upstairs and entered her room...
The next morning, it was less than 8 o'clock. My dad patted my door and asked me to come out for breakfast. After I walked out of the room, I didn't see my mom. I thought my mom was still resting in bed because she must have not had a good rest last night.
When I washed my face and sat down for breakfast, I asked Dad, do I need to bring the breakfast to my mother?
But my dad told me: Mom had already left at around 6 o'clock in the morning, saying that yesterday, when she was outside, she heard an old friend say that one of her classmates had passed away and she was going to pay a visit today.
I'll go!
I slept so hard in the morning that I didn't hear my mother go out. My mother asked Sister Cheng for her mobile phone number yesterday. After she came back, she must have asked her from the phone. Where is the boy buried now?
If I knew she had this plan today, I would stop her and go with her no matter what I said, because I was very worried about my mother. Just like yesterday, she was always distracted when driving and couldn't concentrate at all. It was a very dangerous thing to drive on the highway in such a state.
I immediately went back to the house and called my mother on my cell phone. Soon, the phone went through. Linlin, is there anything wrong? My mother asked me on the phone
After hesitating, I told my mother: Mom, I know where you went when you went out so early, and I also know how sad you feel now. However, you must pay attention to safety when driving on the road, because at home, there is a person who loves you deeply, waiting for you to come back silently. For this person who loves you, you must also cherish yourself more. If you have any accidents in your own safety, I will never forgive you.
After saying this, there was no sound on my mother's side. I knew that my mother knew very well what my words meant. I also hoped that my mother could think of me while being sad and she knew that my heart was actually the same as her. I didn't want to see the person I loved being sad and hurt. Before my mother could reply, my mother was distracted from driving, so I hung up the phone.
In the afternoon, my dad told me that the keyboard of the computer in their bedroom room was broken and asked me to buy another one for him. I drove my dad's car to the technology market.
It took me about an hour to go out of the department-level market and was about to get on the bus, and I saw an old man telling fortunes sitting on the wall of the sidewalk on the sidewalk. He saw me looking at him, then took the initiative to smile at me, and shouted to me: Little brother, seeing your yin energy covers your forehead, I'm afraid it will be very unhappy recently
Damn! This broom star, my mood was already extremely bad. After hearing this old guy cursed me in words, I almost cursed him.
However, because of my good character, it was not easy to make some money when I saw his gray hair sitting here and making some money, so I resisted it. I didn't have the same knowledge as someone like him. Just as I was about to reach out to open the car door, I suddenly felt that the words he said and the tone of his speech, once before, seemed to have heard them?
After a brief look back, I remembered that when I took a bus to Xiaoyan’s hometown to find Xiaoyan, I once met an old man who seemed to be a madman when I first saw me.
At that time, I was extremely down and lost my wallet and cell phone, and I didn't drink water or eat for a day. I could say that I was tired, hungry, and thirsty.
Otherwise, I wouldn't have paid attention to people like them at all.
I still remember that the old man had calculated a fortune for me and said that my noble man would appear soon. I was suspicious of what he said, but not long after, Xiaoyan really came to pick me up. Although I still think he just happened to be right, after all, Xiaoyan told me that the old man was a mentally ill and became stupid because his son died.
But the situation now seems to have returned to that moment. My current mood is as bad as I was at that time. I think my fate is particularly unhappy and always stumbling. So I stopped, walked towards him, and asked the old man.
Brother, do I need to calculate a fortune for you?
To do a fortune, how much does it cost to do a fortune?
It depends on the situation. If you calculate well, you can give it some. If you calculate poorly, you won’t get any penny.
Why do you say the same thing as that old man?
Are these words the catchphrases of fortune tellers like them?
Then I squatted down and said to the old man: The unpleasant things that have happened to me recently made me feel very depressed. Just tell me a fortune.
Then the old man picked up a bamboo tube next to him and said to me: You can draw one from inside
I reached out and took out a piece of bamboo sticks from the box full of bamboo sticks. I took a rough look at the vertical words engraved on it, like a poem. I didn't understand what it meant, so I handed the bamboo stick to him and then asked: How to solve this?
The old man took the hexagram from my hand and put it in front of me. His brows frowned slightly. Seeing his expression that was not too obvious made me feel even more unhappy. Did I draw another bad sign?
I'm thinking in my heart
Then, the old man asked me about my birth date, closed his eyes and calculated it repeatedly with his right hand for about half a minute, and then continued to ask me: Young man, what do you want to ask, is it marriage or fortune?
Marriage, wealth? I don’t think I need these, so I told him: Just help me calculate what my future fate will be like? Will my future journey be smooth or will it be bumpy everywhere?
If you want to ask about marriage, then I can tell you that the lottery you drew is a lottery. In the future, you may be able to join forces with your lover and form a beautiful family. But if you ask about your future destiny, it is...
Is it true? After hearing what he said, my mood suddenly became even lower. I don’t know why, I care so much about the words he said from him now
Originally, I wanted to find this fortune teller to seek spiritual comfort. I wanted to hear him say some nice words to make me happy, because I think that fortune tellers like them on the roadside will say things in a good way and say good words to make customers happy. In this way, the customers will be happy and they will pay them the money to them easily. But what I didn't expect was that he actually said something that made me disappointed.
And he even said from his mouth that if he asked about marriage, he would sign it. Will I get a relationship with my lover in the future?…………
My favorite person is my mother. I can have an affair with my mother without anyone knowing it, or take off all my clothes and enjoy the joy of fish and water in bed without anyone knowing it.
If these things are discovered, they will definitely be despised by outsiders, as well as those despised and ridiculed gazes, let alone getting together?
This is simply ridiculous, this kind of thing will never happen
I now feel that this old man who is telling fortunes is starting to talk nonsense, but since he is halfway through, I continue to ask him: Then tell me, what will my future fate be like?
The old man continued: According to the hexagram sign, your future destiny may change drastically. Let’s talk about the first half of the sentence above: The road to the sun is not clear... Literally speaking, your future path will face a situation that makes you feel desperate. However, the last word of the second half of the sentence of the hexagram sign is: Change, this word has many meanings. Perhaps when you are in a dead end, there will be some opportunities to survive, or the road ahead will become worse and worse, and it may be dark.
After listening to the old man's explanation, I carefully understood the meaning of his words in my heart. The old man didn't speak for a long time after seeing me, and then continued to say to me: In fact, young man, I don't think you need to worry too much. A person's destiny is always in your own hands. When you are in despair, how to walk the future? You should still ask yourself in your heart. There is a saying that you must always remember, as long as you have mindfulness and think it is right, don't be afraid of any bad consequences. Bravely moving towards your goal is the most correct choice.
Keep mindfulness and walk bravely, and have such inspirational words. Is the old man deliberately comforting me when he sees me sad?
After thinking for a while, I continued to ask him: Old sir, do you believe that there is a god in this world? Do you believe that a person will have a past life?
I don't know this. Even if I know it, I won't tell you that the so-called secrets cannot be revealed.
I don't know, you are telling fortunes, but you actually said from your mouth that you don't know if there is a god. You who tell fortunes should believe that there are ghosts and gods, right? Otherwise, you wouldn't have come out to do this business. If you don't believe in the words of gods, then how can you come out to tell fortunes for others
Haha, little brother, about this issue, who would tell you that there is a god in this world? Then I think he must be lying to you. Who dares to say that he has seen God, and who can prove that there is a god in this world? Of course, I think no one can prove that there is no god in this world. Humans and Gods are simply different from two different spaces. For the lottery you draw, I just follow what King Wen said in the sixty-four hexagrams of King Wen said, so you don’t have to take it too seriously
Old man, how much does it cost? After calculating the divination, I am going to pay and leave
Don't have money
Don't have money? Why? I asked him curiously
I just told you that if the calculation is not good, I won’t take any penny, it’s getting late, and I should go back too. After the old man finished telling me, he began to pack up his own things.
Where are you living, why don't I drive you to see me off
No, my house is nearby, I just turned around and arrived. The old man said, picking up his own things and turning around and leaving here.
Looking at the old man's back gradually fading away, I felt an indescribable feeling in my heart. I think that although these words of the old man are simple and easy to understand, they contain deep mysteries and philosophy. Maybe he is really an expert or maybe
At around 8 o'clock in the evening, my mother finally came back. When she saw that my mother arrived home safely, the stone in my heart fell down.
But after my mother came back, she still felt very bad, and the sorrow on her face did not fade away. She didn't even eat supper, so she greeted me and my father, then went back to the house to lie down and rest.
The next day, after I woke up in the morning, my father told me that my mother was sick, and my father and I accompanied my mother to the hospital. After the doctor's examination, my mother was not seriously injured, but she had a fever.
We accompanied my mother to take a bottle of drip in the hospital, and then brought some antipyretics. When we got home, my mother lay back on the bed again. At noon, my father made love chicken soup for my mother and personally brought it to my mother by the bed. As a result, my mother just took a bite and vomited all of her because of her chest. Seeing this, my father asked her mother to lie down and rest first, and then she felt hungry after waking up before eating.
At around 5 o'clock in the evening, my father went out to buy vegetables. When I saw my mother woke up, I took the thermometer at home to take my mother's temperature and found that it was only 37 degrees, which meant that the fever had subsided. I asked my mother if she was hungry now, and I went to warm the chicken soup.
But my mother still had this uncomfortable expression, telling me that she couldn't eat anything
How uncomfortable I feel when I see my mother like this
I know that my mother is a heart-wrenching problem. For my mother, for 20 years, I have always thought that the boy I loved deeply failed me and that the other party abandoned me. Maybe my mother once hated him in her heart, why did she be so heartless? I hate him not to believe in the vows she had made to me back then.
But now when she knew that she really wanted to think about it, she realized that all the other party did was for herself. When my mother went to worship him yesterday, she saw that the lover had already penetrated into the loess 20 years ago. I could imagine that at that time, she must have experienced a very painful moment.
How can I untie this dead knot in my mother's heart? I racked my brains and thought for a while, and immediately returned to the room. I found the gift my mother once gave me from the drawer, the red bracelet
This bracelet may be the only gift the boy gave to his mother back then. Mom then handed it to me. I held the bracelet in my hand and looked at it. Although the fabric was a bit old, the woven was very delicate. Just when I put the bracelet on my wrist, I felt a sudden and severe pain in my head, and the scenes I had seen in my dream appeared in my mind again, and it seemed to have become clearer again.
Then, I immediately walked towards my mother's bedroom and came to her side.
Lin Lin When my mother saw me coming in, she called me powerlessly
Mom, look at what this is. I put my left hand wearing a bracelet in front of my mother
My mother knew the origin of this thing very well. Although my mother broke up with the boy back then, she still kept it for a long time until I discovered it, and I asked my mother for it.
My mother loves me, otherwise she wouldn't have given it to me. Just as my mother looked at the thing on my wrist, a tear slid down from her eyes...
Mom, do you still remember that on a beach, there was a young man and woman who snuggled up to each other and looked at the sea in front of her peacefully... The boy took out a red bracelet and gave it to the girl, and personally helped her wear it on her wrist... Although it was just an ordinary bracelet, for the girl, this gift was so precious... Afterwards, the girl took out a piece of white paper from her bag, folded it into a small paper boat, and wrote down their names on the paper boat, stuffed them into an empty plastic bottle, and threw the bottle into the sea... The girl told the boy that as long as the paper boat could float to the distance with the wind and waves, the sea god would bless them to be together for generations... As a result, just as the girl thought, the paper boat slowly drifted away with the wind and waves. At that moment, the girl was so happy in her heart
While I recalled those scenes, I told my mother softly, not knowing whether I was moved by such a picture. At this moment, my tears also poured out. With the substitution of my language, my mother seemed to have recalled that unforgettable past, and threw herself into my arms, crying bitterly...
Mom, you once lost the person you loved the most, but now you still have me and dad around you. Don’t you love us? Do you not matter at all in your heart? Do you know how uncomfortable I feel when I see you like this? In the middle of the night before yesterday, I knew you were alone in the bathroom and cried for a long time. At that time, I was sitting outside the door and I was feeling uncomfortable with you. I don’t want to see you unhappy, I don’t want to…
I held the woman I loved with both hands tightly. I watched her fall into my arms and cry so sadly and desperately. The heart-wrenching crying deeply hurt my heart like a needle. My mother lay in my arms and continued to cry for a long time. Until the tears soaked the white shirt on my chest, the crying gradually stopped. I hurried to the bathroom and brought a wet towel for my mother. My mother was about to take it with her hands.
Mom, I'll do it. I didn't hand the towel to my mother, and I personally wiped my little face, which was so cried.
After I wiped the tears from her face, my mother said to me shyly: Lin Lin, mom is hungry
I felt very happy when I heard my mother say she wanted to eat, because since my mother came back last night, I hadn't eaten three meals anymore. Now my mother said she was hungry, which is how her heart disease is slowly recovering. I immediately said to my mother excitedly: Mom, you wait, I'll go and heat the chicken soup.
Just as I heated the chicken soup to my mother and sat by the bed and fed it bite by bit, my father also came back from outside. Seeing that my mother's condition had improved, I was very happy.
The next morning, when I got up, I went downstairs and saw my mother combing her long hair in the bathroom in front of the mirror.
Mom, I called her
My mother saw me coming to her side, grabbed one of my hands and held it tightly, and said to me with a smile: Lin Lin, I'm sorry, I worried you yesterday
It's okay, mom, you got up so early
Mom is going to work in the company today
Go to the company, your body...it's better to continue to take a day off at home
As soon as I finished speaking, my mother tiptoed, lay on my face and kissed her, and continued to say to me: My mother's body has been completely recovered
After my mother dressed up, I left the house. Not long after, my phone rang. It was a WeChat message sent by my mother: Lin Lin, mom doesn’t know why you know so many things. If you don’t say them, mom won’t ask about it. But one thing is clear in my heart. Mom now needs to tell you clearly that for mom, since the moment you have you, the most important person around you will always be you, and you are everything to mom. In the past two days, because of mom’s affairs, you will also be worried and painful. Mom apologizes to you here, and mom promises you that this kind of thing will never happen again in the future.
Seeing my mother's words, I felt an indescribable excitement, and an indescribable joy and joy in my heart. I know that my mother has really overcome this hurdle.
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