Chapter 876 Destiny 1

I am now in the first and second combination, and I still have my wife in my heart. I only hope to live a happy life with her children in the future. Now, Yuan Xiu’s belly has changed all this

Whether in the past or now, I simply appreciate Yuan Xiu, not love. We all understand that our time was an accident from beginning to end, or a conspiracy, but both of us may be victims, but today, she seems willing to make mistakes again and again, I dare not think about how she will face him in the future, let alone how I will face in the future.

Fortunately, Yuan Xiu was useless in the whole conversation. Maybe she knew that this word is too heavy for me now.

I can't explain whether this is God's will to do something to others or to suffer for one's own sake, but I understand that I have changed from a victim to a sinner

Everything recently has been unbearable for me. Although I want to be strong, want to forget everything, and live well, I know that I have reached my limit. I don’t know when I will collapse, nor when I will do what I will do.

Too many emotions are pressing on my heart, making me unable to breathe, living in pain and regret every moment

Habitually grabbed the wine bottle on the table, raised my head and tried to take a few sips, so that the heat and drunkenness made me forget all this, but just when I was about to drink, the dazzling sunshine outside the window made me stop.

For some reason, Yuan Xiugang opened the curtains and appeared in front of me. I remembered what she said. I wonder if the facts she heard just now were too shocking, or did it touched some opportunity. I looked like a lantern, flashing by Yuan Xiu, Ye Ziyan, Li Qiuyue, Zhang Ting... When I came to Mu Xinru, Liang Yuzhen, every woman I have been with in the past years, has passed by me in front of me.

Their figures and their smiles floated past my eyes one by one, and my mood kept changing with these pictures. I laugh, sadness, and moved. These pictures made me sweet and painful, but made me reluctant to let go.

All this ended up on the familiar pretty face. The gentle words and gentle smiles were all too familiar. I even had an illusion. She was sitting beside me at this moment, looking at me with a look of care in her eyes, and she couldn't bear it, and she was telling something.

I didn't realize that I threw down the bottle and gently stroked the pretty face I thought about day and night, but all of this was just my hallucination. My hands didn't touch the familiar warmth, and they were just cold. She disappeared in front of me. I was a little panicked and stood up to pursue her. She was like an angel that could heal my pain, and appeared in my mind again, telling me gently, asking me to take good care of myself.

I don't know if this is an illusion or an illusion caused by too longing, or an illusion caused by it. I am like I am in the gap between illusion and reality, unable to escape, and nowhere to escape.

Suddenly, a familiar voice appeared in my mind again, telling me that liberation was ahead, guiding me, step by step towards the windowsill

Standing in front of the window, the sun is shining and the traffic is busy, the outside world is still wonderful, everyone is living their own life, no one noticed a poor person like me

The warm sunshine shines on my face, a little familiar, and a little strange. I don’t know whether it is human instinct to pursue light or whether I have lived in the dark for too long. I long for light, and I can’t help but reach out and want to capture it. I master it, but this can only block the sunlight and let it disappear before my eyes.

I put down my hand and raised it again. I don’t know how many times I went back and forth. Gradually, I finally learned a little from the constant desire to get it, but finally lost it.

In reality, maybe we can never overcome some things. I gave up my thoughts, turned around and walked to the door step by step, opened the door, and walked out.

Standing on the street, the warm sunshine spreads all over my body. Although the crowds are crowded around me, I feel like I am in a alone world. In this world, I am only quietly observing the people passing by, looking at the sorrow, numbness, and rushing on their faces, but I suddenly want to stop, look around me, and see the things I have once ignored.

I walked slowly on the street. Although some things were still entangled in my heart, the rope seemed to be unbuttoning little by little

Before I knew it, I walked to the riverside, looked at the swaying water grass on the shore, and the surging river that never looked back. Although I knew it would flow into the sea in the end, no one knew what would happen on the road. Its fate might be the same as humans, and it would die in the end and never be able to look back. But who would know what would happen on the road.

There were many fishing elderly people sitting on the shore. Suddenly, I wanted to go over and take a look and ask them, isn’t it boring to sit quietly every day and wait for the fish to take the bait?

Brother Xu, Brother Xu... Before I could go down, a sound suddenly sounded behind me

Looking back in confusion, a strong man came to me with five or six men shouting slogans. Before he could get close, the strong man told the people behind him and continued running with the team. He walked towards me alone

I wondered Kim Hwan? Why are you here?