Chapter 12

Two consecutive sexes, semen, honey, urine, and everything else, the bed was covered in a mess

After her mother covered her eyes with her arms, she lay on the bed and gasped for a while, she sat up slowly and asked in a plain tone: Is it enough?

Facing my mother's questioning, for some reason, I felt a little depressed

After a long time, I still couldn't open my mother's heart

Seeing my mother lowering her head to take off her pantyhose, her messy and scattered hair covering half of her face, I couldn't help but feel a little regretful in my heart.

What the hell am I doing?

I hurt my mother again and again in the name of love. Am I really loving my mother as I say?

Or just want to vent your sexual desire

My mother ignored me, got out of bed, walked out of the room a little lamely, and the sound of showering water came soon

I sat on the bed, looking at the embarrassing scenes all over the room. The rich smell was floating in the room. My mind was blank, full of nothingness after sex, without a trace of satisfaction.

After a long time, I slowly walked out of the bedroom and waited in front of the bathroom for a while. After my mother finished cleaning, she walked out. Seeing me standing aside, she was startled and asked coldly: What do you want to do again?

I quickly said: I just want to tell you that your house is messy, go to my house to sleep tonight

Mom glanced at me and walked towards her bedroom, but when she pushed open the door and saw the scene in the room again, she hesitated for a moment, turned around and walked towards my room

I quickly followed in and my mother seemed to guess my intention, and warned with a blank expression: Be honest

I really know me, my mother

I was so happy that I wanted to go to bed, but my mother ordered me to go and take a shower first

I quickly went to the bathroom to wash away my sweat and the various liquids left by my mother on me

When I returned to the room again, the light had gone out. My mother was lying on the bed with her back facing me, with only a thin sheet covered with her body. With the bright moonlight outside the window, the soft curves were outlined to the extreme perfection.

I lay carefully beside my mother, listened with my ears on my ears, and remained silent for a long time without any movement. I asked in a low voice: Mom, are you asleep?

No response

I asked again: You are not asleep yet?

Sleeping, Mom replied coldly

I leaned over to my mother and asked in a low voice: Mom, can I hug you?

Mom did not agree or object, but I knew that Mom had acquiesced to my request. I came over and put my arm on my mother carefully and gently hugged her in my arms.

My mother's body was a little cold, and the scent of shampoo remained on her black and soft hair.

I gently stroked my mother's smooth back and whispered to myself: I'm really afraid that you will ignore me one day

Mom didn't seem to hear it, and there was no reaction. I didn't say anything more. I put my face on her back and gradually fell asleep.

In the dream, my mother was wearing a white long dress and sat on the balcony. Her eyebrows were slightly frowning, and her face was melancholy. The moonlight shone on her body, shining with a holy light.

I stood aside and called out to mom, but she sat there motionless as if she didn't hear it.

I was a little anxious and called hard, but my mother just refused to pay attention to me. Moreover, her figure became increasingly faded, and finally disappeared in front of me.

When I woke up, it was already dawn

Mom has gotten up, I don't know where I went

I put on my clothes and came to the living room. I saw a note on the coffee table, which said, 'Go back to school now'

This is my mother's handwriting.

I originally wanted to stay at home for a few more days, but I felt that my mother was not in a good mood. And I was having a bit too much fun last night. I'm afraid that for a while, my mother wouldn't want to see me too much.

After washing up, I packed up and went back to the station and went back to school

For the next period of time, my mother did not contact me, but I was thinking about my mother all the time

In my spare time, I didn't put much energy into studying. I was thinking about making money, fantasizing that maybe I was independent, or maybe I could be recognized by my mother.

Usually, I check out the stamp trading market to see if I can find some vulnerabilities. However, the market has not been very good in the past two years, and everyone’s enthusiasm is not too high, so it’s not very meaningful.

One day, I accidentally heard my roommate talk about helping others to make money when he was in high school, and I became interested.

After several inquiries, I learned that it was the game he sold the account before, and the gold coins trading was quite active.

After carefully understanding the situation, I vaguely felt that this might be an opportunity

But I don’t have such a lot of financial resources after all, especially in Beijing. If you want to rent a game studio, the cost is too high.

After thinking about it, I thought of several popular mobile games recently, and maybe I could make a profit by relying on high-tech auxiliary tools.

Just as I was busy, I suddenly received a message from Beibei that it was said that this Saturday, my mother was going to get a marriage certificate with the deputy director.

I was shocked, why are you going to get married suddenly?

After I asked anxiously, Beibei said that she accidentally heard the phone call between mother and Aunt Rong, saying that she would not wait anymore, it doesn’t matter if she has feelings, let’s get married first.

I was shocked and sweated. It seemed that I did something too much last time. I forced my mother to get rid of the firewood.

I didn't have to think too much, and after buying the ticket, I hurried back in a hurry

When I arrived home in the middle of the night, my mother seemed a little surprised and frowned and asked: Why are you back?

I didn't answer, but couldn't wait to ask: Are you going to get married?

Mom was stunned at first, then she regained her calmness and asked: Who did you hear?

Don't worry about how I know? Are you going to marry that man?

Mom still didn't answer, turned her head and looked north and north. She probably had guessed the answer in her heart.

Beibei shivered and pretended to be a model and muttered: By the way, it's time to review.

Then I got up and walked into the house, but my mother said coldly: You go out first

Beibei was stunned and left the house timidly

I asked: Mom, why is that?

Mom sat down on the sofa and asked expressionlessly: What do you think?

Of course I know the reason, but I can't allow such a thing to happen, nor can I accept such a result

I protested loudly: No! I won’t let you get married!

Mom snorted and asked: You can care enough

I was so anxious in the living room that I said: If you want to get married, I will drop out of school

Whether to withdraw from school or not is your business, whether to get married or not is mine, Mom said coldly

I was also in a hurry to seek medical treatment. I knew that my studies could no longer threaten my mother, so I still came here.

My mother and I looked at each other for a long time, and were so hard that we could only be soft. We squatted in front of her and begged: Mom, I was wrong, I shouldn't make you anxious, I was wrong, don't be angry, I changed! I will definitely change, don't get married, okay?

You are not wrong, you are right, you have the right to pursue your own happiness, but your mother also has the right to pursue your own

I still don't give up: Tell me, what do you want to do before you can give up getting married

Mom shook her head with a firm expression: It's impossible, I've made up my mind

I begged hard, so anxious that I was almost crying, but my mother was unmoved and said with a bitter face: Mom, are you really so heartless? Do you really don’t give me any chance?

Mom said sternly: I just gave you too many opportunities. I was silent for a moment and said to me earnestly: Xiaodong, you should wake up and you should think about your future seriously.

I shouted excitedly: My future is all built around my mother. Without you, I would have no future.

Can you wake up? Mom shouted loudly

I still begged: Mom, you love me, right? You must love me, right? You just can't say it out of your identity, right? You just can't say it out loud, right?

No, Mom said coldly and turned her face aside

You are lying, do you dare to look into my eyes and say it?

After hesitating for a moment, my mother turned around and looked into my eyes, and said slowly: Xiaodong, we are mother and son, please wake up.

I don't! I stubbornly shouted: Even if this is a dream, I will willingly dream for the rest of my life

Can you have some prospects? You are so young and have a great future, why do you have to waste time on me, an old woman?

Oh, are you too modest? Are you as beautiful as an old woman as you? Do you still let other women live?

Feel poor talk to me here

Mom scolded her and advised: Xiaodong, Mom is already forty years old. In a few years, Mom will grow old. By that time, if you look at Mom again, you won’t feel like this now.

I sat upright and said with a serious look on my face: Are you afraid that I will dislike you in the future? No! How could I dislike my mother? I love you so much that I love you. I don’t just love your body. I love you as a person, from the inside out, from the body to the soul! I... I really... I am more excited as I say it. In the end, I am already a little incoherent and don’t know how to express my feelings.

No matter what you say, I have decided that I want to get married

I shouted with a little collapse: You don’t love him at all, why do you have to force yourself to marry him?

This has nothing to do with love or not, I am for you! Don’t you understand?

I understand, of course I understand, but I just can't accept it

No matter what I said, my mother ignored me anymore. I fell into depression. I went back to the house and lay on the bed, my mind was messy.

I regretted my overly radical behavior and completely angered my mother. I wanted to save it, but I couldn't think of any solution.

After sleeping all night, I got up and prepared breakfast before dawn, hoping to stop my mother's behavior with heartwarming actions, even though I knew it was futile, I didn't want to give up even a glimmer of hope.

After my mother got up, she ate breakfast silently, and then went to work. Beibei saw me sitting at the dining table in frustration and asked in a low voice: Are you quarreling with my mother?

I ignored her

While eating, Beibei said to himself: Mom is really strange. She has never met that person a few times, so why do you have to marry him? Why do you still say that you can't wait anymore? Can you get married as soon as possible? Is it because my mother is coerced by someone?

I can't explain the matter clearly to Beibei, I can only choose to remain silent

You seem to be very anxious? Beibei looked at me with some confusion

I said angrily: I'm looking for you for no reason, are you in a hurry?

Me? It doesn't matter. Ah, it's my mother getting married, it's not me getting married. Beibei was eating breakfast lightly and said with a smile.

You are really heartless and have not known that person for long, and you didn't even have to investigate. What if this person appears to be a gentleman and a pervert behind his back? If I don't pull him, my mother will fall into the fire pit, what should I do?

Beibei couldn't help but tremble and frowned: Nothing is as exaggerated as you said

Mom is second, what I worry about the most is you

Worrying about me? Beibei was stunned and squinted at me: What do I have to worry about?

What if that man is a pedophile who likes old cows to eat young grass?

Beibei stared at me with wide eyes, but didn't answer

I deliberately lowered my voice and said sinisterly: After my mother went to work, you and that man were left at home. He quietly pushed open your door...

OK! Beibei interrupted me: Stop talking! The more you say it, the more you become terrifying

I shrugged: I don’t care anyway, I’m far away from home and I can’t meet you a few times a year, so you have to be careful

I'm not afraid of it if you're talking nonsense!

It's not afraid, but it can be seen from the expression on my face that I'm still a little worried

Beibei bit his chopsticks, was silent for a moment, and muttered: I will go to school next year.

Then you always have to go home, right? As long as you go home, that man will have a chance to attack you

Beibei is popular: Are you finished?

I'm all for your own good

Beibei sneered: I understand, you did it on purpose and wanted me to stand on the same front with you and oppose my mother's marriage, right?

I do have this plan, my mother won't listen to what I say now. If her baby daughter cries, make a fuss and hangs her, maybe it will make her mother a little worried.

The interests of the two of us are the same. We should stand on the united front. Even if the man has no interest in you, he has a child and inexplicably one more brother and sister. Wouldn't you feel uncomfortable? And in the future, it is possible to argue about competing for inheritance.

Beibei looked at me with a squinting look: You think so far. My mother is not married yet, are you thinking about inheritance? I will complain to my mother.

Don't make trouble! Let's talk about serious things, do you want to help?

Beibei hesitated a little, thought for a long time, and said whimperingly: I think it's better to forget who my mother is willing to marry. That's her freedom. Let's intervene and stop it. It's not good. If my mother opposes you marrying Lu Yiyi in the future, how can you not be anxious?

I will ask you if you want to help me?

I've helped. Isn't this message sent to you?

I saw that she didn't plan to bother with her, so I had no choice but to think about it alone

According to Beibei, my mother will get the marriage certificate with that man tomorrow. What else can I do during this day?

You can't fight back to death, right?

Beibei went back to school in the afternoon. I prepared the meal and waited for my mother to come back, but I couldn't wait for my mother. I felt a little anxious. I sent messages several times to test them, but I didn't respond. I couldn't help but start thinking about it.

Could it be that she went to get a marriage certificate with someone today?

Wait until ten o'clock in the evening, I finally heard the sound of the door unlocking. I ran over excitedly and finally saw my mother's beautiful figure.

Tonight is the last chance. I tried my best to please my mother, hoping to move her mother and take back her idea of ​​getting married.

But the effect doesn't seem to be great. My mother accepted all the orders for my diligent service, but she always maintained a firm attitude and showed no sign of softening.

As time passes by minute by minute, I become more and more anxious, and I am even a little desperate. My mother can do it just by saying it. Her personality has always been like this.

Before going to bed, I finally couldn't help it. I came to the bedroom door and asked: Mom, did you plan to get married quietly without hiding it from me? When I came back, the rice had been cooked into cooked rice. Then you have nothing to do about it?

Yes, Mom admits it generously

Mom, is it really necessary for you to do so amazingly?

I'm for your own good. Mom replied coldly

I know! I know you are doing it for my own good, but... I am very bad now, I... I don't even know how I will live from now on

You are just a moment of confusion, time will dilute everything

Seeing that my mother was like a slight and silenced monk, I hurriedly said: Don’t tell me the great truth. I understand all these. What I said is that now, without my mother, my life will be meaningless.

You have this little future? How did I educate you since I was a child? Apart from these irritating things, do you have no ideals?

I have, of course I have ideals, and I have many things to do, but the premise of all this requires you to be by my side without you, my life will become very boring

Mom turned her head aside and ignored me

I took a step forward and made my last attempt: Mom, I admit my mistake, I will never force you to do anything again, okay?

After a moment of silence, my mother sighed: It's too late, I have already discussed it with your uncle Chen. After we get married, we will move to him and live in Beibei. Follow me. You are already old and can be independent.

I felt a burst of pain in my heart. In an instant, tears burst out from my eyes. I reached out to hold my mother's slender white hand and begged: Mom, don't want me, okay?

Mom's eyes were a little red, she sniffed for a moment, then said firmly: Xiaodong, mom doesn't want you. From now on, you will be your good son of mom. But we can't continue like this and continue to indulge you, it will harm you.

I know what you think, but I am already an adult, and I can make decisions for my future life. Mom, I will not do anything too much to you in the future. I...I...I really...I just ask you to give me some more time for three years, no need, two years, or a year, will I prove that I can show you it? Is it OK?

Mom lowered her head and said nothing, I kept begging

Finally, my mother shook her head and said: Xiaodong, I have made up my mind and you must be clear. I am for your goodness. Mom really doesn't want to lose you.

Actually, I knew from the beginning that it was impossible for my mother and I to do so, but I just couldn't let it go. I searched a lot of information about mother-son relationships online to cheer myself up. Why can't other mothers and sons do it, but we can't?

Isn't it because my mother still loves you and can't watch you ruin your life? Have you ever thought about what would happen if Yiyi discovered something about us one day? Why didn't you face Yiyi and her mother? Also, what if Beibei discovered something about us?

I can't answer my mother's question

I have considered these situations, but in the end I always think that as long as you are careful and don't let them discover them.

Apart from that, I don't have a good way to deal with it, because I know that this is simply unsolvable.

Whether it's me or my mother

I felt a deep sense of powerlessness and silence for a moment, and asked in a low voice: Can you satisfy my last request?

What?

Can you love me wholeheartedly as your wife?

My mother didn't agree or refuse, just looked at me silently

I said: Mom, I know I can no longer keep you. I just hope that we can leave some beautiful memories, and maybe this will give me some spiritual sustenance. Just like you said, time will heal everything. I don’t want to think of you in the second half of my life. When I think of you, it’s all those painful things.

Mom still didn't nod, but I could feel that she was a little loose

I continued: Mom, you will become someone else's wife tomorrow. I really can't accept this fact, but I can't organize you. I really... it's just... I just hope you can help me survive tonight

After a long silence, my mother whispered: After tonight, we will forget all the things we used to, okay?

I shook my head: I can't forget it, but I will not ask you to do anything too much. You are still my good mother, and I am still your Baoer son

Seeing that I looked like I was indulged in love, my mother couldn't help but sigh and spread her arms.

I threw myself into my mother's arms and hugged her with all my strength. The warm and familiar feeling, the smell that belonged to my mother alone, I could no longer bear it, and tears flowed down like a dam.