I opened Xiaoqiu's diary and found that the title at the beginning was very strange. What is it called: "My Memoirs" and "My Confession Memoirs"
This made me very curious, so I continued to read in confusion. Xiaoqiu started with this: Before I started writing, I thought it was easy to explain, because I always felt that there were not many things I had hidden.
However, when I carefully recalled every past from beginning to end, I found that no matter whether it was intentional or not, I was negligent and careless. Anyway, there were actually quite a lot of concealment and deceptions, big and small.
At this moment, I really understand why those saints and prophets had to formulate "Spouse Privacy Rights". The couples confess their privacy and actually surpass the law. Finally, they understand why those saints and prophets encourage couples to tell each other even if they kill and set fire.
However, it is easy to say but too difficult to do. We often comfort ourselves, such as when we often mention a kind lie; for example, when we often exonerate ourselves, what we say is an individual, and we have some privacy.
The fact is the same. When we can’t work, we have to report to our husband when we talk to each other. When we look at ourselves, we have to report to our husband. When we have had dinner with our colleagues, the male colleague poured water for us and reported to our husband.
So, it is really hard to be honest unless you don't deal with the opposite sex
I'm not making excuses for myself. I can't just say that when I was sleeping with my dad, my dad accidentally pulled my hair. I also want to report to my husband, right?
Yes, there is indeed such an extreme man. In the TV series "Don't Talk to Strangers", Mei Xiangnan was beaten to the corner of her mouth just because she said something to other men. A Middle Eastern woman also had to wear a scarf on her, so she was not allowed to watch it.
If you can't control Ah, you have to go to extremes. If you treat women as private items, you will be scolded and beaten with friends of the opposite sex. But are there fewer men like this?
I am very glad that I live in China and I am glad to marry Zhihao's generous husband. Zhihao has always given me free space. I can chat with colleagues and classmates, and even occasionally chat a little ambiguously, and it's okay. Even if I go out to play, my husband won't ask questions. In short, I really respect me very much.
So, if I accidentally forget to tell my husband about small matters, how could I care about me with my husband's temper?
However, now if I think about it carefully, I have indeed concealed some things from my husband by myself and have indeed lie to me with luck. So the title has changed from the original "My Memoir" to "My Confessions"
So where did concealment start?
I recalled the past carefully and found that it was the first time I started to share the same bed with my dad. I remember that time, I suddenly felt upset and pretended to let my husband work overtime, then left my dad in the room and indulged all night.
Because I really don't want to hide anything this time, I have to write it out truthfully whether it is embarrassing or humble.
So, I am not afraid of my husband's jokes. To be honest, the passion of that night is still vivid in my mind when I think about it now. I still remember the freshness and extreme tension and excitement when I sleep together.
It was also because the pleasure was too strong. For the first time, I took the initiative to throw myself away. Before that, I was shy and waited to let go, but since that dark night, I lost all my positions at once: my father stripped off my clothes and my whole body was kissed by my father. I did it with my father once in the morning, and even gave up my can and kissed my father in a mess.
Yes, from then on, I lie smartly, because I deliberately made a mystery and told my husband that I wrote the process very exaggeratedly, and called it "I wanted my husband to be happy," and said that it was just a simple kiss by my father.
But the fact is that that night was as crazy as what was written in the log. The clothes were stripped naked, the various positions were unlocked, and the tongue kissed them. That night, when I thought of losing all my positions, I felt so thrilling that night, I felt crazy when I thought of losing all my positions.
Moreover, afterwards, in order to maintain my beautiful image in my husband's heart, I lied for the first time. At that time, I comforted myself that this was just an ambiguous lie.
However, now I understand that if a beautiful image needs to be decorated by lies, sometimes it will suffer the consequences, because while you leave the illusion outside, you swallow the ugliness into your heart. The more you swallow, the more you spit it out, it will be more ugly.
Of course, the tragedy did not start from that time, because at that time, my husband and I fell in love too much. As mentioned at the beginning, if I wanted to protect myself just for this, my husband would not blame me for my lie.
On the contrary, my husband and I were so loving at that time
After indulging in that way, the fierce battle with my dad was so dark. The next morning, I was still coquettish and coquettish, and insisted that my husband drive back to pick me up to work.
At that time, it was definitely the pinnacle of my love and my husband, because although things happened at the same time, my indulgence with my father was at most vivid memory, and my love with my husband was unforgettable.
When I thought of my husband, I went to work with a coquettish and willful manner. Now I still feel a little happy when I recall it.
So, what happened at the same time, so long has passed, I calmly recalled now. The indulgence with my dad is at most marijuana, and the love with my husband is like sweet wine when I recall it.
But, unfortunately, I didn’t know each other so deeply at that time. On the contrary, I ignored the love with my husband and fell into the quagmire of lust with my father little by little.
Whether it's spoiled by my husband, if I lie for the first time, I lie for the second time. In short, I quickly deceived my husband again
Then, on the day my dad built a house and supermarket opened, my dad, mom, relatives and friends came to celebrate. Because I drank a lot of wine, I slept next to my mom, but was teased by my father-in-law's text message. I was confused for a moment and actually did it with my father-in-law in front of my daddy.
This made me feel ashamed and felt that alcohol harmed people. Just like when my husband was on a business trip, my father took advantage of the situation. Alcohol would always make women confused, otherwise there would be no popular saying: Women are not drunk, men have no chance.
The difference is that after I was confused when I was drinking for the first time, I was able to tell my husband truthfully, even while having sex with my father-in-law, I even told my husband about such a shameful thing with such a shameful thing, but my husband did not disappoint me, so he tried every means to relieve my guilt and make me happy.
But unfortunately, the second time I was confused after drinking, I didn't tell my husband anymore. On the contrary, I deceived myself and wrote a log of the process, then threw it to the recycling bin, and comforted myself. Whether my husband can see it depends on God's will.
Thinking about it now, it's such a joke. I'm embarrassed to let my husband know, and I actually comfort myself to see God's will. Let's start from this time. Although my husband and I fell in love with each other, they obviously lost the kind of slutty and slutty they used to be. I no longer act coquettishly with my husband, but instead lies more and more lies
Isn't that true? I don't tell my favorite thoughts and my husband the most. My husband doesn't know what I think. Even if I love me again, I will feel a sense of distance, right?
Things really slowly developed in this direction. The taboo desire with my father gradually covered up my love with my husband, and the third lie followed one after another.
This time, it was not because of alcohol, but because of aphrodisiacs. I had a sudden idea and wanted to recall the feeling of taking aphrodisiacs for the first time, but because I took too much, I gave my father a confused mouth.
Afterwards, I actually remembered a little bit, and it seemed that I should have swallowed it, but maybe because I really felt too embarrassing that time, I deceived myself and did not recall this embarrassing thing.
So when the medicine was gone, I immediately pretended to be confused in front of my father, saying that I didn't remember anything, and comforted myself. If my husband didn't ask me, then I won't say it.
And my husband, of course, didn't know it, and was still trying to plan the trip.
This actually hits my mind, because not only do I not reject it, but I am looking forward to the life of a monogamous husband.
So I also worked hard to cooperate with my husband. When my husband was on a business trip, I played the game played by couples with my father-in-law for the first time.
Because, at that time, first, I had a good time with my father-in-law and had no passion, and I also wanted to help my father-in-law straighten. After all, the earlier the lewd threesomes came, the more calmly they could enjoy the care of the two men.
However, it is said that if you don’t know others, you will not do it yourself. Now think about it, maybe because of the words in the bed, you didn’t swallow them last time and your husband knew about it, so my husband’s attitude changed. Instead, he didn’t want to play threesomes. After returning from a business trip, he didn’t mention threesomes at all.
Of course, I still loved my husband at that time, or I always loved my husband. When my husband was unhappy, of course I wouldn't be shameless and think about the lewd threesomes.
So, when I saw that my husband was unhappy, I immediately said I would not accompany my father-in-law anymore
However, it is easy to say, but it is too difficult to do it. After all, I have done all kinds of embarrassing things with my father-in-law. I suddenly went from lingering to the original clothes that I didn’t take off. It was still very embarrassing. During that time, I felt like a comfort woman. Every time I was satisfied with my father-in-law in bargaining, I was really sad during that period. I felt sorry for myself and said that I had done a sin in my previous life.
Later, I thought God felt sorry for me, or my husband felt sorry for me, so I arranged it. Uncle Wen sold half and gave us a house.
My father-in-law felt that he had made a contribution, so he begged me to accompany him well. However, afterwards, my father-in-law did not keep his promise and tied me up and refused to let me go back.
Later, I wanted to tell my husband, but my husband loved me so much and thought about me everywhere. I didn't want to hurt my husband's father-son relationship with my father-in-law.
So I comfort myself, my husband loves me, God loves me too, then I will make the mistake just right, I reached an oral agreement with my father-in-law and enjoy the madness of the last month with peace of mind.
But maybe my husband, God, loves me very much, but I just messed up because I started to feel unsatisfied. I used the excuse of indulging myself in the last month, and indulging myself again and again without bottom line.
To be honest, maybe I was really addicted during that period, or if I had a small separation better than a newlywed, or if I held it for too long, or if I couldn't be honest, the more I wanted to do it. In short, during that period, I was full of desire and comforted myself. If I indulge myself in one go, I wouldn't think about it in the future. I would be at ease with my husband to live a peaceful life with my husband.
But, in fact, it's just excuses. Just as British sociologists say, we have many excuses and lies every day, such as wolf braces. I didn't take the initiative to tell my husband, sexy underwear, underwear, my father-in-law bought me, perfume, music box, and bundled games. I did it with my father-in-law in the garage with my father-in-law in the garage with him. I didn't tell my husband, and I comforted myself, there is no need to report everything to my husband for these things.
In fact, there is no need to report some trivial matters to my husband. My husband is not the kind of person with small intestines. However, lies are like snowballs, sometimes they will slowly expand, just like boiling a frog in warm water, killing you unknowingly
For example, later I got used to lying and thought that I went out to date my father-in-law secretly on Valentine's Day. I also comforted myself that I only once in my life, and secretly gave the first time of the New Year to my father-in-law. And I did something too much on Valentine's Day.
Forget it, I'll write down all the processes bit by bit
After all, now thinking about it, trivial lies are also lies, right? As I write, I feel that these concealment and lies cannot be finished. No wonder the British said that everyone tells 20 lies a day on average, and I didn’t believe it at that time.
But, husband, don’t worry, this time, I will definitely not hide anything. I will present all the truest self to my husband bit by bit since the first concealment, just as my husband said, I couldn’t participate in your first 20 years. I hope we can always follow you in the future.
So, how could I bear to let my husband miss my inner world this year?
Therefore, although my wife did something wrong, she is willing to do her best to make up for it.
Finally, I ran away from home with my dad. I thought of saying it specifically
The reason why I ran away from home is that I really think that you fall in love with Mofen and don't want me anymore
You think Ah, you proposed this taboo game with dad, but after I was played so badly, you fell in love with Mofen without saying a word, and you even threw me away and hit me in front of so many people. How many could I consider as a woman?
I just instinctively protect you and found a hotel to hide because I can't go back to my parents' home because I love to cry. When I go back, my parents will definitely cause trouble for you.
However, I hid in the hotel for three days and cried dryly. Okay, you don’t call me to coax me home, don’t worry about my safety, and don’t even send me text messages.
It's all OK. I took the initiative to send you a text message, hoping you can pick me up and let's have a good talk, but it was my father calling me again and again, but it also disappointed me again and again. Every time I saw that it was my father calling me, I would cry for a long time because I just thought that you could care about me a little bit at that time.
But you never showed up, and still dad appeared in the hotel. Dad did come to comfort me, but he suddenly made all my grievances come out. I thought to myself, my husband doesn't love me anymore, and he still wants to be with Mo Fen anyway.
When I thought of this, I was so angry that I felt like I couldn't get you cheaply when I thought I was so angry that I hated you so much. I thought, even if my whole life was over, I wouldn't let you be with Mo Fen, so I want you to be unable to work in the company and have no shame to stay in this city
Of course, I really didn't know at the time that you were just having a romantic night with Mr. Wang, or on Valentine's Day.
Because that night was when my father and I were doing something embarrassing, you were heartbroken and messed up after drinking.
So, it's still my fault first. Maybe this is God's punishment for me
However, I really learned a lot from this mistake and learned to love you more
I will make you believe that all I say is the truest voice from the heart
Signature: Xiaoqiu, who loves you
This made me very curious, so I continued to read in confusion. Xiaoqiu started with this: Before I started writing, I thought it was easy to explain, because I always felt that there were not many things I had hidden.
However, when I carefully recalled every past from beginning to end, I found that no matter whether it was intentional or not, I was negligent and careless. Anyway, there were actually quite a lot of concealment and deceptions, big and small.
At this moment, I really understand why those saints and prophets had to formulate "Spouse Privacy Rights". The couples confess their privacy and actually surpass the law. Finally, they understand why those saints and prophets encourage couples to tell each other even if they kill and set fire.
However, it is easy to say but too difficult to do. We often comfort ourselves, such as when we often mention a kind lie; for example, when we often exonerate ourselves, what we say is an individual, and we have some privacy.
The fact is the same. When we can’t work, we have to report to our husband when we talk to each other. When we look at ourselves, we have to report to our husband. When we have had dinner with our colleagues, the male colleague poured water for us and reported to our husband.
So, it is really hard to be honest unless you don't deal with the opposite sex
I'm not making excuses for myself. I can't just say that when I was sleeping with my dad, my dad accidentally pulled my hair. I also want to report to my husband, right?
Yes, there is indeed such an extreme man. In the TV series "Don't Talk to Strangers", Mei Xiangnan was beaten to the corner of her mouth just because she said something to other men. A Middle Eastern woman also had to wear a scarf on her, so she was not allowed to watch it.
If you can't control Ah, you have to go to extremes. If you treat women as private items, you will be scolded and beaten with friends of the opposite sex. But are there fewer men like this?
I am very glad that I live in China and I am glad to marry Zhihao's generous husband. Zhihao has always given me free space. I can chat with colleagues and classmates, and even occasionally chat a little ambiguously, and it's okay. Even if I go out to play, my husband won't ask questions. In short, I really respect me very much.
So, if I accidentally forget to tell my husband about small matters, how could I care about me with my husband's temper?
However, now if I think about it carefully, I have indeed concealed some things from my husband by myself and have indeed lie to me with luck. So the title has changed from the original "My Memoir" to "My Confessions"
So where did concealment start?
I recalled the past carefully and found that it was the first time I started to share the same bed with my dad. I remember that time, I suddenly felt upset and pretended to let my husband work overtime, then left my dad in the room and indulged all night.
Because I really don't want to hide anything this time, I have to write it out truthfully whether it is embarrassing or humble.
So, I am not afraid of my husband's jokes. To be honest, the passion of that night is still vivid in my mind when I think about it now. I still remember the freshness and extreme tension and excitement when I sleep together.
It was also because the pleasure was too strong. For the first time, I took the initiative to throw myself away. Before that, I was shy and waited to let go, but since that dark night, I lost all my positions at once: my father stripped off my clothes and my whole body was kissed by my father. I did it with my father once in the morning, and even gave up my can and kissed my father in a mess.
Yes, from then on, I lie smartly, because I deliberately made a mystery and told my husband that I wrote the process very exaggeratedly, and called it "I wanted my husband to be happy," and said that it was just a simple kiss by my father.
But the fact is that that night was as crazy as what was written in the log. The clothes were stripped naked, the various positions were unlocked, and the tongue kissed them. That night, when I thought of losing all my positions, I felt so thrilling that night, I felt crazy when I thought of losing all my positions.
Moreover, afterwards, in order to maintain my beautiful image in my husband's heart, I lied for the first time. At that time, I comforted myself that this was just an ambiguous lie.
However, now I understand that if a beautiful image needs to be decorated by lies, sometimes it will suffer the consequences, because while you leave the illusion outside, you swallow the ugliness into your heart. The more you swallow, the more you spit it out, it will be more ugly.
Of course, the tragedy did not start from that time, because at that time, my husband and I fell in love too much. As mentioned at the beginning, if I wanted to protect myself just for this, my husband would not blame me for my lie.
On the contrary, my husband and I were so loving at that time
After indulging in that way, the fierce battle with my dad was so dark. The next morning, I was still coquettish and coquettish, and insisted that my husband drive back to pick me up to work.
At that time, it was definitely the pinnacle of my love and my husband, because although things happened at the same time, my indulgence with my father was at most vivid memory, and my love with my husband was unforgettable.
When I thought of my husband, I went to work with a coquettish and willful manner. Now I still feel a little happy when I recall it.
So, what happened at the same time, so long has passed, I calmly recalled now. The indulgence with my dad is at most marijuana, and the love with my husband is like sweet wine when I recall it.
But, unfortunately, I didn’t know each other so deeply at that time. On the contrary, I ignored the love with my husband and fell into the quagmire of lust with my father little by little.
Whether it's spoiled by my husband, if I lie for the first time, I lie for the second time. In short, I quickly deceived my husband again
Then, on the day my dad built a house and supermarket opened, my dad, mom, relatives and friends came to celebrate. Because I drank a lot of wine, I slept next to my mom, but was teased by my father-in-law's text message. I was confused for a moment and actually did it with my father-in-law in front of my daddy.
This made me feel ashamed and felt that alcohol harmed people. Just like when my husband was on a business trip, my father took advantage of the situation. Alcohol would always make women confused, otherwise there would be no popular saying: Women are not drunk, men have no chance.
The difference is that after I was confused when I was drinking for the first time, I was able to tell my husband truthfully, even while having sex with my father-in-law, I even told my husband about such a shameful thing with such a shameful thing, but my husband did not disappoint me, so he tried every means to relieve my guilt and make me happy.
But unfortunately, the second time I was confused after drinking, I didn't tell my husband anymore. On the contrary, I deceived myself and wrote a log of the process, then threw it to the recycling bin, and comforted myself. Whether my husband can see it depends on God's will.
Thinking about it now, it's such a joke. I'm embarrassed to let my husband know, and I actually comfort myself to see God's will. Let's start from this time. Although my husband and I fell in love with each other, they obviously lost the kind of slutty and slutty they used to be. I no longer act coquettishly with my husband, but instead lies more and more lies
Isn't that true? I don't tell my favorite thoughts and my husband the most. My husband doesn't know what I think. Even if I love me again, I will feel a sense of distance, right?
Things really slowly developed in this direction. The taboo desire with my father gradually covered up my love with my husband, and the third lie followed one after another.
This time, it was not because of alcohol, but because of aphrodisiacs. I had a sudden idea and wanted to recall the feeling of taking aphrodisiacs for the first time, but because I took too much, I gave my father a confused mouth.
Afterwards, I actually remembered a little bit, and it seemed that I should have swallowed it, but maybe because I really felt too embarrassing that time, I deceived myself and did not recall this embarrassing thing.
So when the medicine was gone, I immediately pretended to be confused in front of my father, saying that I didn't remember anything, and comforted myself. If my husband didn't ask me, then I won't say it.
And my husband, of course, didn't know it, and was still trying to plan the trip.
This actually hits my mind, because not only do I not reject it, but I am looking forward to the life of a monogamous husband.
So I also worked hard to cooperate with my husband. When my husband was on a business trip, I played the game played by couples with my father-in-law for the first time.
Because, at that time, first, I had a good time with my father-in-law and had no passion, and I also wanted to help my father-in-law straighten. After all, the earlier the lewd threesomes came, the more calmly they could enjoy the care of the two men.
However, it is said that if you don’t know others, you will not do it yourself. Now think about it, maybe because of the words in the bed, you didn’t swallow them last time and your husband knew about it, so my husband’s attitude changed. Instead, he didn’t want to play threesomes. After returning from a business trip, he didn’t mention threesomes at all.
Of course, I still loved my husband at that time, or I always loved my husband. When my husband was unhappy, of course I wouldn't be shameless and think about the lewd threesomes.
So, when I saw that my husband was unhappy, I immediately said I would not accompany my father-in-law anymore
However, it is easy to say, but it is too difficult to do it. After all, I have done all kinds of embarrassing things with my father-in-law. I suddenly went from lingering to the original clothes that I didn’t take off. It was still very embarrassing. During that time, I felt like a comfort woman. Every time I was satisfied with my father-in-law in bargaining, I was really sad during that period. I felt sorry for myself and said that I had done a sin in my previous life.
Later, I thought God felt sorry for me, or my husband felt sorry for me, so I arranged it. Uncle Wen sold half and gave us a house.
My father-in-law felt that he had made a contribution, so he begged me to accompany him well. However, afterwards, my father-in-law did not keep his promise and tied me up and refused to let me go back.
Later, I wanted to tell my husband, but my husband loved me so much and thought about me everywhere. I didn't want to hurt my husband's father-son relationship with my father-in-law.
So I comfort myself, my husband loves me, God loves me too, then I will make the mistake just right, I reached an oral agreement with my father-in-law and enjoy the madness of the last month with peace of mind.
But maybe my husband, God, loves me very much, but I just messed up because I started to feel unsatisfied. I used the excuse of indulging myself in the last month, and indulging myself again and again without bottom line.
To be honest, maybe I was really addicted during that period, or if I had a small separation better than a newlywed, or if I held it for too long, or if I couldn't be honest, the more I wanted to do it. In short, during that period, I was full of desire and comforted myself. If I indulge myself in one go, I wouldn't think about it in the future. I would be at ease with my husband to live a peaceful life with my husband.
But, in fact, it's just excuses. Just as British sociologists say, we have many excuses and lies every day, such as wolf braces. I didn't take the initiative to tell my husband, sexy underwear, underwear, my father-in-law bought me, perfume, music box, and bundled games. I did it with my father-in-law in the garage with my father-in-law in the garage with him. I didn't tell my husband, and I comforted myself, there is no need to report everything to my husband for these things.
In fact, there is no need to report some trivial matters to my husband. My husband is not the kind of person with small intestines. However, lies are like snowballs, sometimes they will slowly expand, just like boiling a frog in warm water, killing you unknowingly
For example, later I got used to lying and thought that I went out to date my father-in-law secretly on Valentine's Day. I also comforted myself that I only once in my life, and secretly gave the first time of the New Year to my father-in-law. And I did something too much on Valentine's Day.
Forget it, I'll write down all the processes bit by bit
After all, now thinking about it, trivial lies are also lies, right? As I write, I feel that these concealment and lies cannot be finished. No wonder the British said that everyone tells 20 lies a day on average, and I didn’t believe it at that time.
But, husband, don’t worry, this time, I will definitely not hide anything. I will present all the truest self to my husband bit by bit since the first concealment, just as my husband said, I couldn’t participate in your first 20 years. I hope we can always follow you in the future.
So, how could I bear to let my husband miss my inner world this year?
Therefore, although my wife did something wrong, she is willing to do her best to make up for it.
Finally, I ran away from home with my dad. I thought of saying it specifically
The reason why I ran away from home is that I really think that you fall in love with Mofen and don't want me anymore
You think Ah, you proposed this taboo game with dad, but after I was played so badly, you fell in love with Mofen without saying a word, and you even threw me away and hit me in front of so many people. How many could I consider as a woman?
I just instinctively protect you and found a hotel to hide because I can't go back to my parents' home because I love to cry. When I go back, my parents will definitely cause trouble for you.
However, I hid in the hotel for three days and cried dryly. Okay, you don’t call me to coax me home, don’t worry about my safety, and don’t even send me text messages.
It's all OK. I took the initiative to send you a text message, hoping you can pick me up and let's have a good talk, but it was my father calling me again and again, but it also disappointed me again and again. Every time I saw that it was my father calling me, I would cry for a long time because I just thought that you could care about me a little bit at that time.
But you never showed up, and still dad appeared in the hotel. Dad did come to comfort me, but he suddenly made all my grievances come out. I thought to myself, my husband doesn't love me anymore, and he still wants to be with Mo Fen anyway.
When I thought of this, I was so angry that I felt like I couldn't get you cheaply when I thought I was so angry that I hated you so much. I thought, even if my whole life was over, I wouldn't let you be with Mo Fen, so I want you to be unable to work in the company and have no shame to stay in this city
Of course, I really didn't know at the time that you were just having a romantic night with Mr. Wang, or on Valentine's Day.
Because that night was when my father and I were doing something embarrassing, you were heartbroken and messed up after drinking.
So, it's still my fault first. Maybe this is God's punishment for me
However, I really learned a lot from this mistake and learned to love you more
I will make you believe that all I say is the truest voice from the heart
Signature: Xiaoqiu, who loves you
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